CHUBRUB3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CHUBRUB3 CHUBRUB3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Today I celebrate ME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740277 Sometimes Life hits you hard... <BR> ... I am hitting back. <BR> Today I celebrate me. <BR> xx <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l355568211.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 16 Jul 2014 18:07:21 EST Been working out and eating right... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708429 Hello my friends. <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> I hope your still around here Sparking! <em>223</em> <BR> <BR> I do my best to check in when I can, Life has a funny way of interfering. <BR> <BR> I am so busy eating right and exercising that by the time I fill my day with the rest of the things I have to do, its pretty much gone. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> But that is supposed to be a good thing right? <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> So what's the problem? <em>38</em> <BR> <BR> Well th... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 22:23:48 EST It's been awhile.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684025 Hi My Friends! <BR> I think of you often, I truly do. <BR> <BR> I log on and read as much as I can of your trials and tribulations, sending words or healing thoughts to each of you. <BR> <BR> I think I have been lost in a miasma of who knows what. <BR> At times I feel like I am spiralling out of control mentally as there are so many things going on. <BR> Where to start...hmm... <BR> <BR> At the start of the new year (maybe even slightly before) I started slipping physically too. It didn't ... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 12:42:00 EST A New YEAH! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625711 Hi my friends! <BR> I have been very busy with life and decided to write one blog. It is posted on my art site and if your interested, here is the link. <BR> Love you all. <BR> Angela <BR> <BR> <link>www.artentwined.com/1/post/2014/02/a<BR>-new-yeah.html </link> Sun, 16 Feb 2014 17:07:04 EST Little White Lies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5559404 Little White Lies <BR> <BR> We all know of those words that are spoken and thought to be so harmless. We hear them every day, in every context or situation. In fact we use them ourselves when conversing with others, or even using these little words when talking to ourselves. <BR> <BR> Now we may justify using those harmless sounding words in a well meaning sort of way. The best and most used example of course is when we tell someone they "look good or great" and of course we totally mean th... Sat, 7 Dec 2013 22:28:22 EST I KICKED THE CAN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543417 Good morning my friends! <BR> <BR> I haven't had much time of late to do a blog or anything. So this will be a short update on whats been happening around here. <BR> <BR> Well first off I am freezing my buns off! <BR> <BR> We have had snow for a couple of weeks now, but this morning woke up to temperatures of -20*C / -4*F. It has been a little blizzard here yesterday, and now the cold! <BR> BRRRrrrr!!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l241770841.jpg"> <BR> <B... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 11:38:10 EST Stepping it UP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516932 Hello Self, <BR> <BR> It has been awhile since you wrote a blog and in the time from then and now I have noticed you are slipping. <BR> <BR> Yes, I know you have reasons. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/8/l486027213.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yes, I know you think they are valid. <BR> <BR> Yes, they probably are valid reasons. <BR> <BR> But you made a promise to your self to live the healthy, strong life that keeps you committed and striving for those goals. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 11:45:04 EST BOXING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483237 WOW!! <BR> <em>244</em> <em>345</em> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2002151558.jpg"> <BR> Had my first Boxing class tonight and it was wicked! <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> I have done kickboxing before and love it, even when your feeling the burn. <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> This was even more invigorating. One and a half hour class of high intensity circuit training and sparring. <BR> <em>326</em> <em>325</em> <em>318</em> <BR> I am one wet dish rag. <B... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 00:03:37 EST Miracles DO Happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463402 Watching a loved one slip away only to revive (on their own) at the last moment not once, but three times is horrifying. <BR> To see that person rally and then lose vast amounts of blood over a short period of time is devastating. <BR> To have a team of professionals work relentlessly and do all they can with the restriction of no surgery and no resuscitation order is humbling to see. <BR> However nothing is more uplifting and miraculous than after 11 blood transfusion, your 92 year old Gran... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 19:39:45 EST Preparing for the loss of a loved one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459158 Unfortunately I have someone who is close to me in hospital. <BR> I pray for a miracle each and every day. <BR> However, circumstances and age are a factor, as are their wishes. <BR> <BR> No surgery. <BR> No resuscitation. <BR> <BR> All I can do is be thankful for the time I have had and hope that I have more time ahead. <BR> <BR> Hugs, <BR> Angela <BR> <BR> <link>www.wikihow.com/Prepare-for-the-Deat<BR>h-of-a-Loved-One </link> Sun, 18 Aug 2013 19:35:25 EST Enjoying Life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5444684 Thank you my dear spark friends. <BR> I am so thankful my family and loved ones are fine. <BR> I am thankful for all the blessings I encounter each and every day. <BR> I am thankful for you. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a holiday here, but I am getting up and doing a Zumba class. <BR> I need to move. <BR> Been slacking in that department and it needs to change. <BR> <BR> I have also been looking to eat at times I am not hungry and it is not scheduled. <BR> Could be my diabetes, but I need to refra... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 23:29:15 EST So thankful My son is ok. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442796 My son was in a car accident tonight. <BR> He is fine as is the other people and their car. <BR> His car has serious damage and wasn't drivable. <BR> Will wait to see if it is salvageable and at what cost. <BR> So glad he is ok. <BR> Very shook up. He rear ended them. <BR> Scary. <BR> Hugs. Fri, 2 Aug 2013 22:55:57 EST Back from a Spark Break in the States http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438541 HELLO MY SPARK FRIENDS! <BR> Boy have I MISSED you! <BR> <BR> I took a week off from spark to travel down into the beautiful United States. Remember I am a Canadian girl. LOL! <BR> <BR> We took a road trip down into Montana, Wyoming & South Dakota. I had never been before and I have to tell you it was BEAUTIFUL! <BR> <BR> Stunning vistas and so much heritage to see. I love to read and of course the western history has always fascinated me. So to see it in person was AMAZING! <BR> <BR> We... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 11:46:55 EST SOE Continues & some health questions answered... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402706 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l960766263.jpg"> <BR> <BR> STATE OF EMERGENCY Continues... <BR> <BR> The flood waters are receding and some people have been allowed back to their homes. However one week after we still have over 11,000 displaced people in Calgary alone who are not allowed back to their homes. There are areas of the city still without power and major repairs are underway. <BR> The Town of High River is still evacuated almost in it's entirety with people li... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 17:36:58 EST STATE OF EMERGENCY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398365 We are fine. <BR> Worried about family and friends, but so far all are ok, despite damage to homes and property. <BR> <BR> We have been so fortunate as to never have had anything like this happen before. <BR> For those who don't know we have had devastating floods in and around our area. <BR> <BR> My MIL has been trapped in her home on the wrong side of the bridge since Thursday. She is ok, the flood waters have reached her door, but so far not inside her home. <BR> <BR> I will include a v... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 14:49:59 EST 5K today & life changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383611 Been awhile... <BR> Probably too long... <BR> <BR> I did my walk/run for Juvenile (type 1) Diabetes today in support of my son and I. It was great! Loved my time with friends today who came out to support us and our cause. So much fun! <BR> I was personally able to raise $1,311.00 to date. So amazing!!! <BR> My team the Lancets and my son's team the Rusty Pancreas did so well. <BR> <BR> Can't tell you how proud of my son and his friends I am. These young adults (17 & 18 years of age) raised... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 17:35:00 EST Count your blessings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354096 I have so many things to be thankful for and sometimes I forget to say thank you. <BR> <BR> I very much want to thank you my dear & wonderful friends here on Spark for ALL your INSPIRATION, MOTIVATION & SUPPORT. <BR> <BR> I would not be succeeding without you. <BR> <BR> I am also lucky to have supportive and inspirational friends & family at home. <BR> <BR> Counting my blessings. <BR> <BR> Hugs, <BR> Angela <BR> <BR> HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! <BR> <em>304</em> <em>247</em> <em>220</... Sun, 12 May 2013 14:22:45 EST My Virtual & Real Time Journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322827 Then & Now. <BR> <BR> 22/24 size to 10/12 <BR> 265 lbs to 185 lbs <BR> <BR> Life is changing. <BR> I am changing. <BR> Not only physically as shown in my vlog, but in so many other ways too. <BR> <BR> You can do this! <BR> I am. <BR> <BR> Hugs, <BR> Angela <BR> Sun, 14 Apr 2013 13:10:52 EST Kirby Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319060 *Kirby passed today 11/04/13. He is in heaven. thank you for your kindness and love. Hugs, Angela <BR> <BR> <BR> Kirby update. <BR> No improvement at all. <BR> Paralysis of his back legs. <BR> Losing control of bowel function now. <BR> Steroids are not showing any change. <BR> Pressure on his spinal cord is either a compressed disc or could be a tumour pressing on it. <BR> Will see what the Dr says in the morning, then we will have to make a very hard decision if there is no improvement... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 23:21:53 EST Why am I doing this? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310474 Today in Spark Coach I was asked to ponder the question of WHY I want to lose this weight. <BR> <BR> I have been on this weight loss journey for a long time and of course the standard answer to Why is to 'GET HEALTHY'. <BR> <BR> YES, I want to do that too. <BR> <BR> I AM DOING IT. <BR> <BR> Having been fortunate enough to drop weight, inches and a ton of negativity in general, I have to readdress this question. <BR> <BR> My health has improved greatly. <BR> <BR> My insulin levels (being... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 17:53:26 EST A Picture is worth a thousand words... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307755 You can do this. <BR> You KNOW IT. <BR> <BR> I can do this. <BR> I KNOW THIS TOO. <BR> <BR> In fact I AM DOING IT. <BR> <BR> Now get it done. <BR> Hugs, <BR> Angela <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l602701512.jpg"> Mon, 1 Apr 2013 15:41:05 EST Adjusting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272878 Here it is mid March and now the winter blues have hit me. <BR> <BR> We have been having exceptional weather, until yesterday's blizzard. 20-25 cm in a very short time. More snow again last night. <BR> <BR> Yes it is beautiful, it is also depressing. <BR> <BR> I am one who loves spring and summer. I love summer activities more so than winter ones. <BR> <BR> I am having to Make myself go to the gym, it is all to easy to find an excuse. <BR> <BR> Thankfully I have friends who meet me the... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 14:37:53 EST Why do we not SEE ourselves? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248480 I have a confession to make... <BR> <BR> I have become a number not a person. <BR> <BR> I don't know how this happened or why. <BR> <BR> Ok maybe I do... <BR> <BR> I have been so focused on losing weight, on becoming healthy that it is now a big part of my life and this is great. <BR> <BR> I enjoy going to the gym with friends or different exercise classes, again with friends. <BR> <BR> I have made it my social time, because face it I love socializing. That is who I am. <BR> <BR> So th... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 00:29:24 EST Slowly learning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227450 Hi My friends! <BR> <BR> I am slowly learning with the help of all of you and of spark Coach. <BR> <BR> I have to keep accurate in my weight and inches, this helps control the Nutrition guidelines that spark sets in your nutrition tracker. It also helps if you can keep your fitness training as accurate as possible as well. <BR> <BR> I went in and set everything as it measured this morning, and low and behold. <BR> <BR> The tracker increased my calories, etc. <BR> <BR> So again I have ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 16:17:55 EST Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213217 With all the accomplishments in my back pocket, there are still trials. <BR> I have been at a plateau for so long now that I am again finding myself frustrated. <BR> <BR> I exercise. <BR> I even changed up and intensified my workouts. <BR> <BR> I eat right 80% or more of the time. <BR> I am trying to 'eat more' in case I wasn't even eating 'enough'. <BR> <BR> I drink my water. <BR> <BR> So today I joined Spark Coach to see if the experts can help me tweak what I need to tweak. <BR> Of co... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 15:00:30 EST Looking Back and Making STRIDES FOR THE FUTURE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210817 Looking back I hardly recognize that girl anymore. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1721873555.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Who is she? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1665439126.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> What kind of an example was she setting for her child? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l920695993.jpg"> <BR> <BR> How did she see herself at that weight? Or did she really see herself at all? <BR> <BR> <img src="h... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 23:07:37 EST Angela's Personal Plan of Action & a Year in Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181031 December 30, 2012 <BR> <BR> My POA for the new year but first a look of ONE year to compare. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l682439876.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Weight Down 4 lbs <BR> Neck down 1” <BR> Waist down 8” <BR> Hips down 2” <BR> Thigh down 3.5” <BR> Arm down 2.5” <BR> <BR> LOST A TOTAL OF 17 INCHES THIS YEAR (I am actually down a lot more, but using these areas to compare for now), ONLY 4 LBS GONE THIS YEAR. I STILL HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 80 LBS, SO WILL NOT L... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 15:33:43 EST The Plan works as well as you do... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178047 The Plan works as well as you do... <BR> <BR> My previous blog was about initiating a plan to cope with the holidays. I have to say it worked pretty darn good for the most part. <BR> <BR> Of course it is only as good as the person working it and I do have my moments. <BR> <BR> Like chocolates, not on Christmas Eve, not on Christmas day... <BR> ...my downfall was boxing day! <BR> <BR> WHY?? <BR> <BR> It was a day of rest and relaxation; putting away gifts and goodies. <BR> <BR> Unfortun... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 19:20:24 EST YO YO YO!! cough, cough HO HO HO!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5170115 It is that time of year for most of us who celebrate Christmas, and for those who celebrate Chanukah, Solstice or just enjoy being with family/friends for the holidays. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1056158898.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yes that time of socializing with the pitfalls of possible self indulgence. <BR> <BR> Possible? Oh yeah... <BR> <BR> It is so easy to fall into the YO YO! trap while celebrating your HO HO! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkp... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 12:04:02 EST Trying to pick a name... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5148938 Hi My Friends. <BR> Just finished a painting and am very happy with it. <BR> Not quite sure what to call it... <BR> I am thinking 'Torn'... <BR> Any ideas? <BR> Hugs, <BR> Angela <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l790246591.jpg"> <BR> <BR> **since I posted I have decided to go with Merrikate's suggestion of 'TORN BEAUTY'. I was partial to torn anyhow because of the torn wing and it is a beauty. Thank you all my dear spark friends. Tue, 27 Nov 2012 22:41:46 EST WIGGLE WIGGLE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130579 Ok strange title... <BR> <BR> But for those of you who are my Facebook friends you have the inside scoop. <BR> I am wiggling with excitement! <BR> <BR> I have had the honour of being sent an invitation to submit my artwork for perusal to the Calgary Stampede Board for (possible nothing is for sure as of yet) possible acceptance, display and selling abilities. <BR> <BR> Not sure if I am making myself clear, but this is a very tight and exclusive art community and to be issued the invite a... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 13:22:05 EST THE HONEYMOON'S OVER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090067 Well it has been an eventful 2 weeks, yep 2 weeks. <BR> <BR> I mentioned that I ran my first 5k race amid the chaos of my life and was so happy I had done so. Yes my fellow runners, I know have been bitten by the bug and can't wait to run again. <BR> <BR> As I also mentioned in my previous blog we celebrated our 25 Wedding Anniversary and had a wonderful time. <BR> <BR> The actual day of our Anniversary we spent in hospital with our Son; him having been diagnosed with type 1 Juvenile Diabe... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 13:44:27 EST Highs, lows and life Altering events... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080652 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l201356491.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l566685840.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I did it! <BR> I ran my very first 5K run for CIBC RUN FOR THE CURE in Calgary, AB 30.09.2012. <BR> <BR> Not exactly sure of my time, I think it was @ 45 minutes. I walked and ran alternately and am so happy to have finished it in the time I did. <BR> Especially since my training had fallen by the wayside. But more on that in a moment.... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 13:59:33 EST I AM SCARED... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5073735 I AM SCARED... <BR> <BR> BUT I AM GOING TO FACE MY FEARS, <BR> <BR> AND DO IT ANYWAY! <BR> <BR> This Sunday is my first 5K Run in support of CIBC Run for the Cure (Breast Cancer). <BR> <BR> Wish me luck. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l770907962.jpg"> <BR> Hugs, <BR> Angela Mon, 24 Sep 2012 23:12:44 EST WHAT HAVE YOU LOST? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059818 I have lost the WORLDS LARGEST BALL OF TAPE! <BR> <BR> I got this from a friend and want to know 'What have you lost?' <BR> <BR> Looking forward to your answers! <BR> Hugs, <BR> Angela <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l785743438.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Fri, 14 Sep 2012 23:20:03 EST So are they or aren't they? ROFLMAO!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5053188 Ok first off, I have never been able to buy dress boots of any style or hieght because of my fat legs; big feet; and to top it off a high arch. <BR> <BR> Well today I found the perfect boots! <BR> <BR> One they fit! <BR> <BR> Two I think they are gorgeous! Black leather; buttons up the side; High boot just below the knee. <BR> <BR> I asked my son to take a picture for me. They are not the best photos, because I am laughing so hard my gut is showing, but who cares! Also this is probably no... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 19:31:26 EST THE SUMMER HAS FLOWN BY MY FRIENDS... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5022035 The Summer has flown by my friends, as I am sure you have found as well. <BR> <BR> September is arriving at a rapid pace and for those of us fortunate to have had time off, must start to regain our routines. To regain control if you have lost it over the past few weeks. <BR> <BR> We can do this! WE are doing this! <BR> <BR> I relaxed some of my strict guidelines while vacationing…yes I did have some ice cream to cool down. Now while I usually made lower calorie choices, I did indulge. <B... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 16:22:48 EST NEVER QUIT PLEDGE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005403 Never Quit Pledge <BR> Tuesday, August 07, 2012 <BR> <BR> Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey. <BR> <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my best f... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 16:41:22 EST I AM BACK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4953646 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l710381001.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After realizing I was wallowing in a pit of despair and my judgment was impaired; I have decided to rescind my decision of abdication and resume leadership of the team I love. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for your outpouring of love and support. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l569720848.jpg"> <BR> <BR> From the depths of despair, I will triumph and reach for the stars. <BR> <BR> <img ... Tue, 3 Jul 2012 13:52:56 EST Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4950350 Thank you my friends for the kindness and care you show me every day. The response to my blog 'BROKEN' was overwhelming and you all put things into perspective to eloquently. <BR> I needed a butt kick and some of you were kind enough to do that to. I appreciate it. <BR> It is not like me to be down, and I will not be for long. <BR> Already taking steps to rectify things and improve my health, for I think this has been having an adverse effect on my dispostion. <BR> My blood sugars have been c... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 13:16:37 EST Broken... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948384 I feel like I am broken... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l348956054.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I don't know why exactly, just that I am not what I feel I should be. <BR> Stepped down as a leader from a group I love, because I felt I wasn't able to give what the other leaders give. Why be an anchor and drag them down when they are a speedboat surging ahead? <BR> Am in a negative circuit, which is not usually me. I like to be positive and upbeat. It keeps me going. <BR> Th... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 23:43:24 EST No Shame Binges... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4899946 No Shame Binges… <BR> <BR> What I need to tell myself and my Diabetic Friends… <BR> <BR> So you found yourself stuffing yourself and eating everthing in sight. You can’t even remember all what you ate, but know you feel awful. You feel like a failure. You feel unworthy. You feel great shame. <BR> <BR> The first thing to know is you should not feel shame. You should not feel this way. <BR> <BR> Yes it happened. Let us move forward not live with regrets. You recognized that there was a prob... Sun, 27 May 2012 12:36:43 EST Sometimes it doesn't matter....but it does. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4868853 Sometimes it doesn't matter....but it does. <BR> <BR> Huh? <BR> <BR> Let me explain... <BR> <BR> I have a friend who eats right all the time. <BR> <BR> I have a friend who exercises on a regular basis, doing all the things we should be doing. <BR> <BR> I have a friend who loves life and all it brings, who brings joy to all who know her. <BR> <BR> I had a friend who died when she did all the things right she was supposed to do. <BR> <BR> Sometimes it doesn't matter....but it does. <BR> ... Sun, 6 May 2012 12:23:59 EST MARILYN MONROE - MODERN DAY MYTH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840260 No say it isn't so! <BR> <BR> I have looked for years back at the goddess of screen, Marilyn Monroe for many reasons. <BR> <BR> The one main being that if she looked that good, that sexy and was a size 14, well there was hope for me too! <BR> <BR> Little did I know that clothier companies have decided to do a bit of 'VANITY SIZING' for the expanding population. <BR> <BR> I mean I suspected, but it wasn't until I could say I am wearing a size 12 that I really decided to have a look. I have... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 23:57:15 EST Little Red Riding Hood … and breaking with Tradition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4827243 Little Red Riding Hood … and breaking with Tradition <BR> <BR> Off to Grandma’s house I go (or in this case Nan’s). <BR> Over mountains, rivers, lakes and streams, <BR> Through forests, clouds and freezing rain, <BR> Only to be stopped in my tracks by a back log of vehicles… <BR> <BR> Highway closed. <BR> <BR> What?? How could this be? <BR> <BR> The sun is shining, the birds are singing, yes it snowed, yes there was ice but? <BR> Oh, prayers to the individuals hurt in a semi rollover. N... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 14:46:50 EST How Many INCHES??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4811609 Ok, so my scale is not moving...still! <BR> <BR> What a pain in the butt. <BR> <BR> I know, I know your getting tired of my fixation on the numbers. Believe me I am getting tired of MY fixation on the scale as well. <BR> <BR> Then I was asked the other day how many inches I had lost -- HUH?? <BR> <BR> I hadn't been counting or totalling inches! I just never thought of that. <BR> <BR> After that question I have been looking everywhere for some record of my inches from close to my start of... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 00:40:48 EST Did HE know what he was getting into? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773714 Did HE know what he was getting into? <BR> <BR> This is a very special day in my life. <BR> So long ago in years, but not so long ago in my head or heart; my DH proposed to me. <BR> We met in a candy store. <BR> <em>421</em> <BR> <BR> Yes we did! <BR> He likes to say I was the sweetest thing in that sweet shop and he knew when he met me that we were meant to be. <BR> (Kinda melts your heart doesn’t it…) <BR> <em>129</em> <BR> <BR> We were both young, me especially and I had only been ... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 12:29:40 EST HEAD HUNGER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4756600 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l564423844.jpg"> <BR> <BR> DO I REALLY WANT THIS? <BR> <BR> The key to that question is want, not need as in TRUE HUNGER. <BR> <BR> My head likes to play games sometimes and tempt me to 'taste' outside my planned meals, or even 'tempt' me to eat more. <BR> <BR> It has snuck up at times when I am not prepared and I have unfortunately found myself eating when I am not hungry. I will be midway through and all of a sudden I will be asking m... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 13:36:58 EST Part 2 The Ongoing Saga of the Lap band Volcano http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4732953 Part 2 The Ongoing Saga of the Lap band Volcano <BR> <BR> Well here we are going into at least 3 months of do I have a leak? Or don’t I? <BR> For those just tuning in, any questions please view my previous blog UNDER PRESSURE…LAP BAND VOLCANO! It explains all that has happened at my supposedly easy x-ray and whether my lap band is leaking. It left more questions than answers. <BR> <BR> I will keep it short. <BR> <BR> Saw the Surgeon today who was very precise and careful with his measureme... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 20:58:48 EST SHOES....shrinkage? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726995 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l88875325.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Who knew that your feet would shrink? <BR> <BR> I went from a 8 EEE to a 7 D. <BR> <BR> Talk about an NSV! <BR> <BR> SHOE SHRINKAGE YEAH! <BR> <BR> No more boring shoes, now we can bring on the sexy shoes! <BR> <BR> So start looking for your shoe shrinkage! <BR> <BR> I dare you! <BR> <BR> I also dare you to post your shoe shrinkage before and after shoes. <BR> <BR> After all what is life without shoes? <BR> ... 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