CHRISTINASP's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CHRISTINASP CHRISTINASP's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ another 'vacation' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368319 So yesterday, after a 'vacation' of two weeks, I got back to SP and to writing a blog and writing about my ways of dealing with health, food and weight and noticed that right away, I seem to get 'sucked' into a lot of thinking, 'talking' etc. about these topics. <BR> Somehow that doesn't feel like it's doing me good. Not where I'm at now. I liked not spending so much time at SP / on internet in the past weeks. <BR> <BR> So while I sooooo very much appreciate my friends here and interacting... Sun, 26 May 2013 10:38:52 EST Like a riddle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367672 Healthy habits and dissolving the emotional reasons for binge eating = weight loss. <BR> <BR> Or, so I hope and assume. <BR> <BR> But the reverse is not true: weight loss does not necessarily mean I've adopted healthy habits and dissolved the causes for overeating. <BR> <BR> Which is why in my blogs I mostly talk about my attempts to do those last two things. Not the first. <BR> Does not mean I would not be very pleased if I lost weight. <BR> Sat, 25 May 2013 15:02:31 EST Evaluation of one year SP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367292 On May 18th a year ago I joined Sparkpeople. A lot has happened since then, maybe good to evaluate. Sorry it got so long. <BR> <BR> It definitely made a difference in my existence to be a member of Sparkpeople. If this was good or 'bad', I am not all together sure. Probably mixed like (almost) all things in life. <BR> <BR> Good things are all the friends I made. Another very good thing is that I learned very much. <BR> <BR> Because of SP... <BR> * I read the book Eat to Live which has b... Sat, 25 May 2013 04:42:12 EST What approach to choose http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351943 This entry below is a reply to a question Kristin asked as a comment on my previous entry 'wondering'. <BR> <BR> I lost 55 lbs in 2005 doing 'Fit for Life'. (And gained back about half of them later on). <BR> I did not start doing FFL because I wanted to lose weight, I just wanted to 'try it' for a week to eat more pure foods, as I was fed up with all the junkfood I'd been eating. I felt so good that I continued and lost the 55 lbs to my own surprise, in 6 months. I'm not sure if I recall ... Fri, 10 May 2013 10:08:38 EST Wondering http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351817 I am wondering. <BR> <BR> I've been 'planning' and 'making goals' (and trying to reach them) and 'pushing' myself for quite some time now. (In 8 more days I will have been at SP for a year... And long before that too was I already 'planning', 'pushing' and the rest). <BR> <BR> I am seriously wondering, as I have been from time to time, if I'm not simply doing things in reverse order. Maybe just trust God, develop myself spiritually and 'push' myself in that respect (using discipline to re... Fri, 10 May 2013 08:40:44 EST Aha-moments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350572 Last night I watched a cat jump up and climb into a tree (upon seeing our dog approaching - not that Luke is very keen on chasing cats, at all). <BR> I admired the ease with which it did that. <BR> <BR> I had two aha- moments because of it, building on one I had a few months ago. <BR> <BR> 1. I may NOT be big boned as I always assumed. It may mean I'm more overweight than I realized. It could be that I'm really more slim, in build, than I know because I almost always was overweight. <BR... Thu, 9 May 2013 04:38:53 EST Article that I liked about emotional overeating and healthy eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350558 <link>www.healthyeatingstartshere.com/less<BR>ons/weight-loss </link> <BR> <BR> Maybe not all new information but good to have it summarized once again. <BR> What I like is that the article goes into both the 'food' and the 'emotional' aspects of weight issues. <BR> <BR> The author sums up three strategies to deal with emotional overeating: <BR> 1. Eliminate the triggers <BR> 2. Change your reaction to the triggers. <BR> 3. Replace the food in reaction to your triggers. <BR> Thu, 9 May 2013 03:16:33 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349857 I told you I'd be boring you with updates about my goals for this week! (See my entry of last Sunday). <BR> <BR> - I was in bed on time since Sunday. Last night I even went to bed at 10 pm instead of at 11 pm, feeling very tired. <BR> - After a bad start on Monday when in the morning I still overate on sugar, I have been following my food plan. <BR> - I've done ST two times (goals was three times, so the plan is to do it again on Friday). <BR> - one hour of exercise every day (goals was... Wed, 8 May 2013 12:53:52 EST Pondering the role of sugar - once AGAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347349 I'm really... I don't know the word. Impressed. By realizing that it is probably the SUGAR that made me feel so bad, having such a HUGE impact on my feelings and reactions. <BR> <BR> I noticed it before. I was shocked. I could hardly believe it. I tried to cut it out completely but during binges I'd still eat it. <BR> However I no longer ate lots of it days on end. <BR> <BR> In the past months my attitude has been that I would like to learn to have limited portions of chocolate, ice cre... Mon, 6 May 2013 11:48:08 EST Bad start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346950 Well, the week is not off to a good start. So much for my goals and good intentions. It seemed so doable yesterday when I wrote them down. <BR> <BR> The binge of this weekend seems to continue. I started out the day with very good mood and intentions and then got into a big argument with my husband. <BR> I tripped while making our breakfast and hurt my arm. He made a joke about it. I didn't like the joke, said so, next he was upset over that. Left home feeling angry, leaving me feeling des... Mon, 6 May 2013 04:35:16 EST Goals for week 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346402 * Be in bed at 11 pm or earlier 5 times or more <em>102</em> <BR> * Follow my food plan <BR> * No second helpings at supper at least 6 times; stop at 'enough' <BR> * Do ST three times <BR> * Continue to do at least 45 minutes of exercise per day, 6 times <BR> * Go swimming again at least once this week <em>175</em> <BR> <BR> I may bore you with posts about how it's going, this week... <BR> <BR> Sun, 5 May 2013 16:05:02 EST Weekly report week 18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345873 Last week I set an intention to not have second helpings at supper and to stay binge free until today, Sunday. <BR> <BR> I didn't have seconds all week. I did binge last night, sadly. It means I was binge free for 12 days, which in itself is pretty good really, considering I had an average of 2 binges per week in the past months. <BR> <BR> I've journaled about the reasons. One may be that I adopted another rule (beside 'no second helpings') from the No S Diet: namely no sugar except on da... Sun, 5 May 2013 03:02:59 EST Update on the 'staying binge free plan' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343444 I posted last Monday about my goal / plan to stay binge free at least until next Sunday, May 5th. <BR> <BR> Today is day 11 of being binge free. In the past months I had an average of about 2 binges per week so this is (quite) good, I think. I just don't feel very cheerful. <BR> <BR> Today, as I had expected, was a very hard day. So was yesterday. <BR> I'm having problems with PMS, feeling ill (signs of flu), tired. I cancelled the second of my appointments of today and slept for an hour... Thu, 2 May 2013 16:10:19 EST Walk while you can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343330 Wrote this as a comment on another sparkmember's blog but it got so long I will post it as a blog entry. <BR> <BR> I used to hate exercise because I felt I 'had to' in order to lose weight. Now and then I'd make a half-hearted attempt and bought some DVD or piece of equipment but my efforts never lasted long. I think I somehow felt I 'could not do it' or so. <BR> <BR> Then I started doing yoga, to relax and because I enjoyed it and it made me feel calm and centerered. Not to lose weight (... Thu, 2 May 2013 13:56:02 EST Trying new things and a question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5342802 Tried two new things today. Not per decision but it just happens this way. <BR> <BR> The first thing is to put raw broccoli in a green smoothie. I read an article posted on the Eat to Live forum about it and realized I wasn't even all that aware that broccoli can be eaten raw. The thought of using it in a smoothie had never yet crossed my mind! <BR> Couldn't stop myself from trying it, I happened to have broccoli in the fridge. I combined spinach, broccoli, an apple and blueberries with wa... Thu, 2 May 2013 05:38:31 EST The seven stages of illness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339555 Edited to add: 'Disclaimer': "this is information from a book I am reading. I am not claiming that what the author is saying is 'Truth' - I am simply interested in what I'm reading and sharing it." <BR> <BR> Harvey Diamond writes in his book about how to prevent cancer about the seven stages of illness: <BR> <BR> 1. Enervation (weakness; fatigue, needing more sleep and naps) <BR> 2. Toxemia (feeling ill) <BR> 3. Irritation (itches, rashes, emotional irritability, depression, anxiety, headac... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 13:47:40 EST Planning to stay binge free for the next six days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339047 My goal for this week (until next Sunday) is to have no second helpings at dinner and to be binge free. <BR> <BR> I've not had a binge for 7 days now, which is good. My average is two binges a week, more or less, so I'm very content. <BR> <BR> This next week I'm going to have to deal with PMS (unless a small miracle happens). So this is the first time I'm setting a goal consciously to stay binge free - stick to my food plan - for the next days: monday (today), tuesday, wednesday, thursday... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 07:08:34 EST Finished watching 'Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337466 I now finished watching 'Fat, sick and nearly dead'. <BR> <BR> My thought is that it can be a good idea to try to have only, or lots of, vegetables and fruits for a set amount of time. Watching the movie I remembered how I decided to do 'Fit for Life' for just one week. (Basic guidelines of FFL: do not combine protein and carbs in one meal, have one day of only raw veggies and fruits per week, eat lots of salads, eat only fruits in the morning, do not have coffee, tea, dairy, sugar, process... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 16:20:43 EST Weekly report nr. 17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337402 The good things of this past week: <BR> <BR> * I did not binge since last sunday. <BR> <BR> * I continued to exercise for 60 minutes every day all week. On top of the 60 minutes I did yoga exercises several times and three sessions of 12 to 18 minutes of strength training. <BR> I have now decided that I will 'simply' do sixty minutes of fitness per day. That includes the strength training (but not the yoga) and also the occasions, once or twice a week, when I have to ride the bike for ha... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 14:58:53 EST Watching 'Fat, sick and nearly dead' - and a big question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336410 In between my daily activities I started watching 'Fat, Sick and nearly dead', a movie that can be found on Youtube. It's about Joe Cross who did not eat and only drank juice for 60 days to lose weight and heal from an illness. <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpLQwWKb3l8 </link> <BR> <BR> I have not watched much of it yet but what I've seen so far raises a question in me. I could say 'AGAIN' because it is one that I think about every few weeks or months or so. <BR> <BR> The question ... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 13:17:16 EST A little language help requested again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333163 Can you please clarify for me what to call 'the evening meal'? Some say 'supper', some say 'dinner'? <BR> <BR> Very confusing for me as a non-native speaker of English. <BR> <BR> What is the difference between 'supper' and 'dinner'? And then some speak of 'tea'???? <BR> <BR> Here in the Netherlands most people eat three main meals per day: breakfast, lunch and what we call 'diner'. (A French word really). <BR> That 'diner' is eaten around 6 pm, some people have it at 5 or 7 pm. It's a ... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 16:20:06 EST 'Rules' I now use http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333158 These are rules I now use. I am not sure if I want to keep them all, or even if all of them are helpful, or if having so many of them is helpful. <BR> But these are rules, or maybe, guidelines, that I happen to use most of the time now. <BR> Just thought it might be a good 'exercise' for me to write them down. <BR> <BR> * Preferably start eating (only) when hungry <BR> X* Stop when enough <BR> C* No second helping at the evening meal <BR> * No sugar except for 'conscious treats' <BR> O * W... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 16:11:06 EST Notes from a 'Shrink Yourself' session http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331539 A few quotes from Roger Gould: <BR> <BR> "When you run away from the feelings (into a food trance) you are really running away from the catastrophe you are predicting". <BR> <BR> "Reality is your friend", says Gould. <BR> <BR> "Giving in to your urges seems okay because the predictions make your future seem bleak." <BR> This is something I have very often thought! That's why before and during a binge I don't care about weight loss and health etcetera. All seems 'hopeless' and 'worthless'... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 10:04:50 EST Weekly report week 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329691 So, how did I do in the past week? Instead of calling this a report I should really call it 'Accomplishments of the week' as it's mostly my intention to write about what went WELL. Focusing on what I'm doing wrong is something I do too much of, in general! <BR> <BR> FOOD <BR> * On Tuesday I had a very very difficult time. I had an official interview-type thing and afterwards I had intense thoughts about going home and eat eat eat (chocolate) to forget all this. However I decided to see if... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 13:13:09 EST Numerology - satisfying work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5328846 Whew... I just finished a huge job for a client... A new thing. <BR> <BR> I take a great interest in numerology and have been doing sessions with clients to look at patterns in their life that might be dissolved or learned from by using the information of the numerology. I deeply enjoy that kind of work! <BR> <BR> This client wanted me, at first, to do a description for a friend of hers, based on the numerology. As a birthday gift. The problem was of course that I could not meet the frie... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 15:22:11 EST My dear husband http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5328635 Yesterday I'd made a nice meal, experimented a little. I placed it on the table and said to my husband: 'Look at your plate!' Meaning that it's something different from usual. It was a colorful combination of green, red, and yellow. 'Doesn't that look delicious?'. <BR> <BR> He was raised as a Christian in a very strict way, used to have to pray before dinner. Today, he's not a Christian (neither am I) but we do believe in a higher power and I talk about this a lot with him. <BR> He said: "... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 11:23:18 EST Sigh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327227 In between my attempts to get things done today I read a few articles and blogs at SP. <BR> <BR> And I wonder 'is it ever enough'. <BR> Because I see so much pushing... Exercise must be more, harder, changed around. Excuses must be destroyed. I read a blog by someone who shows their pics of progress and in the meantime speaks in what is to me a bullying tone to the readers about how they should do this and that. <BR> Why not simply post your pics of success and say how YOU did that, spea... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 07:01:38 EST To do this Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327178 I got up,had a shower, walked the dog in the park, made a green smoothie and a healthy breakfast for me and for my husband. No salad yet, as we'd run out of groceries. <BR> Made a list and did the grocery shopping, visiting both the big supermarket and the small health store beside it (how convenient that they are neighbours). It took me over an hour, dragging all the fruits and veggies and potatoes and onions etc. home on the bike, putting them away... <BR> <BR> So now it's 10.45 pm and I ... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 04:47:01 EST To do today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323645 I have a day 'off' to recover from the yoga teacher training I followed this weekend. However also on 'days off' some stuff really needs to get done. If I don't watch out my time will slip away - so I figure I'd better post a to do list - in that case when I come here I will be reminded of the stuff I want to get done! :) <BR> It's 2.15 pm. I will be back later to edit in if I did the chores. <BR> <BR> Already did: <BR> - Read in my 'bible', ACIM <BR> - Exercise: on the bike to the woods w... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 08:22:53 EST Finally found a way to exercise while walking my dog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323594 The usual situation is that while the owner walks one mile, the dog, running around in circles, walks ten miles. <BR> <BR> With us, the reverse is true now. Our dog is deaf and slow because of old age and arthritis. So he walks the one mile and I walk in circles around him! <BR> <BR> This means I have now found a way to STILL get in my exercise while walking him. <BR> I put him in the crate on the back of the bike and ride to the park or forest and then walk. I take him out of the crate,... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 07:32:00 EST A very short weekly report week 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322989 My report is short because I just had two very long days of yoga teacher training and I'm tired and can't think of what to say... (That doesn't happen often! grin). <BR> <BR> Can't say I did very well with eating in the past week - overate on several days. <BR> <BR> Still - I DID NOT binge when I was very very tempted to do so last week during a very stressful situation. <BR> I also started a binge but stopped it half way. <BR> <BR> I was also very glad to see the holistic dietician ag... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 16:45:24 EST KEEP CALM!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5321909 I am very much a believer in 'keeping calm'. I believe we have a choice, up to a point anyway, to focus on calm and inner peace OR on turmoil. <BR> <BR> As I say it I'm also thinking of the character in that wonderful British series that I used to watch as a child, 'That's army'. He would always shout 'Don't panick, don't panick' and get everyone in panick. <BR> <BR> I typed in 'Keep calm' today and I cannot resist sharing some of the stuff I found... <BR> <BR> This has been one of my r... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 14:51:22 EST Challenged to mention what I like about my looks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320963 Christina has too watch her words! Going about challenging other sparkmembers to mention three things they like about their looks. The idea was to support them to notice what's beautiful about them. SO the challenge was accepted and now I'm dared to do the same. Take my own advice, hm! LOL <BR> <BR> I just posted a recent picture of myself (face and upper body) as my profile. That took me some courage and I may not leave it there for long, I like to be a private person BUT I also like to 'sh... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 14:47:55 EST He truly wrote history http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320663 I'd read a few quotes by Winston Churchill before, today I looked him up. I think he knew how to use words! <BR> Can't help but share some of the things he said, here: <BR> <BR> * History will be kind to me for I intend to write it. <BR> <BR> * However beautiful the strategy, you should occasionally look at the results. <BR> <BR> * It's not enough that we do our best; sometimes we have to do what's required. <BR> <BR> * Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them p... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 10:24:13 EST Language help requested: what is the name of THIS vegetable? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319259 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l211243866.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1866641292.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My dictionary just calls this 'cabbage'. In Dutch we call it 'spitskool'. The word 'kool' means 'cabbage' and 'spits' means 'pointed'. <BR> <BR> Editing to add after the first two replies: hmmm, interesting, could it be that this is a vegetable that is not used in the US??? <BR> <BR> It's not Brussel sprouts and not chinese cabbage.... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 06:53:40 EST Cooking to save your life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319220 An article that I found interesting - and shocking, too... We get used to hearing the facts but if we think about what they really mean, it seems like an unacceptable situation, really. <BR> <BR> <link>www.foodmatters.tv/articles-1/the-be<BR>st-medicine-in-the-world-starts-in-you<BR>r-kitchen </link> <BR> <BR> A few quotes: <BR> <BR> "The average American spends more time watching cooking shows than actually cooking." <BR> <BR> "Europeans spend nearly 20 percent of their income on f... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 05:45:49 EST HEY! Conditions ARE NOT excuses! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318015 I got a few replies to my last entry that got me 'miffed' - I just learned this word and I think it expresses how I feel! <BR> <BR> Several responses - I deleted one of them even, indicated that the authors confuse 'conditions' with 'excuses'. They are very different things however. <BR> <BR> It's simply that not setting conditions makes it easier to exercise. Particularly if you want to do it daily. <BR> <BR> I think I am not a person to use excuses. If I don't want to exercise, I don'... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 07:54:30 EST Dropping 'exercise conditions' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317322 As I did an evening round on my bike I was thinking about the conditions I used to set for exercise. <BR> <BR> * The ride had to be in a nice environment, like in the woods or by the riverside (we have both available near our home, but they take about 20 minutes of biking to reach them). <BR> * It had to be good weather; not too cold, no snow or rain, not slippery. Not very hot, either. <BR> * I had to wear special exercise clothes. <BR> * When very tired or having a cold, no riding. <B... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 15:08:34 EST Food tips for those with arthritis - from an anthroposofic point of view http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317161 Wrote in my previous entry about my visit with the anhroposofic dietician. She gave me a list of tips with regard to arthritis. There was a request to share those suggestions; here they are. I'm doing my best to translate! <BR> <BR> * Make sure there is - here I'm running into my first translation problem already - 'flint' in the food. Use grains like quinoa, amaranth, millet, barley and rice. Have a bit of raw vegetables daily with a dressing of cold pressed oil with lemon and mustard and/... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 12:44:33 EST Visit with the holistic dietician http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316724 Saw the holistic dietician again today. It's been a long time because my insurance does not pay for her services any more. It was quite good to see her. <BR> <BR> We looked at several topics; not only food and binge eating but also my tendency to 'run too fast'. To not get enough me-time and to say 'yes' too quickly to demands and requests made of me by others. Time management seems quite important PLUS more of a feeling 'this is important to me, I should give this priority' instead of scat... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 06:57:49 EST A short weekly report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314279 There's not a lot I can say I accomplished with regard to food. A lot of binge eating this week (maybe because of PMS, not sure, maybe also because of stuff going on that's emotionally heavy). <BR> <BR> At least I did write down each time what factors I thought were at play. <BR> <BR> With regard to exercise: I have continued to exercise for 60 minutes per day, walking or riding the bike. <BR> I am wondering if this really creates big changes. It seems I feel different, my sleep is bette... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 05:04:38 EST Trying to count my blessings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314278 Thank you very much to all those who responded to my last blog entry. <BR> <BR> I will try to count my blessings for the time being: <BR> <BR> * I went back to preparing healthy foods this morning. <BR> * I got on the bike and rode for half an hour and I intend to take another 30 minute walk today so I will continue my streak of 60 minutes of exercise per day. <BR> * I have weighed 103,5 kilo's. That was the heaviest I was. I have lost 25 kilo's in 2005. I never returned to that heavies... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 05:00:22 EST The towel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313847 I tend to be honest. Right now I feel like throwing in the towel and just give up on working on my health. <BR> <BR> Because it seems there are other things that I can better focus my attention on... and this struggle, right now, feels like a lost battle. <BR> <BR> Hmmm.... <BR> <BR> * <BR> <BR> I appear to be able to exercise more. I'm totally surprised by that, I must say. Even though I've been bingeing I'm still walking / biking an hour per day. Have been since March 12. <BR> <BR> ... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 17:28:55 EST Pain, brain and arthritis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312282 Today Sparkmember Stonecot wrote an entry about her experiences with a diagnosis of arthritis that was very, very moving for me. I wrote a long comment that I will copy-and-rewrite somewhat, below. <BR> <BR> I got a diagnosis of arthritis in my right hip on March 12th. I got quite upset right in the doctor's office when the GP told me. Particularly because she had no time to offer detailed information about just what arthritis is or what the diagnoisis meant in my case. And she told me I'd ... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 07:53:20 EST 'New start' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5311480 In his book "Creating Health" Deepak Chopra mentions a poster he once saw in California. I like to try to reproduce what he said. <BR> <BR> N utrition <BR> E xercise <BR> W ater <BR> <BR> S unshine <BR> T emperance <BR> A ir <BR> R est <BR> T rust <BR> <BR> In other words, these things allow us to make a N E W S T A R T with our health if we turn them into habits, Chopra states. Thu, 4 Apr 2013 13:14:41 EST A phenomenon? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5311426 .... That I seem to notice is that on days that I 'take off', meaning I do not expect anything of myself because I'm either very tired or (half) ill, I get about the same amount of stuff done that I do on days when I push myself, make to do lists, feel pressured etcetera. <BR> <BR> This is very interesting. I may simply stop making the lists, maybe only make a list of 'suggestions' for things that I might do IF I FEEL LIKE IT, write it in my journal NOT on a sticky note in my face, and just... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 12:23:49 EST Reviewing what I want to 'lose' and 'gain' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310394 Around February 14, I wrote two entries, one called 'what I want to lose' and one called 'I want to gain'. I feel they deserve that I come back to them and see which ones deserve priority now. A shortened version. <BR> <BR> I WANT TO GAIN: <BR> * more stability and calm. <BR> * stop, breathe and relax frequently during the day <BR> * focus more on how much my body wants to eat and not take portions based on 'what I always do'. <BR> * Listen to all my body signals more: for food, for rest... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 16:22:26 EST Personal analysis of binge triggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310364 Okay... take a deep breath. You'd better not think it's easy for me to write this, but I believe it serves a very good purpose! <BR> <BR> Since February 21st I had 12 binges. I know this because I kept track of them, each time after one happened (or even during sometimes) I'd write down what I thought the triggers were and a general idea of how long it lasted and how much I overate. <BR> <BR> Today I analyzed all that information. <BR> I would, of course, prefer to say that I have no bin... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 15:52:19 EST To do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309668 I think I'd better make another to do list today. I'll come back and edit to say which ones were done. <BR> <BR> Already done: Made smoothie, salad for lunch, and a healthy breakfast. <BR> Walked dog and gave him his medication. <BR> <BR> To do: <BR> - 30 minute walk - done, it was 27 min. of walking in the woods and 14 min. on the bike <BR> - Study for yoga training - done <BR> - Go swimming at noon - done <BR> - Lunch - done <BR> - Walk dog and medications for him - done (walked him t... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 03:48:59 EST Outcome of tests, taking care of my dog, and 'to do' today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308511 TEST RESULTS <BR> <BR> * Had results from bloodwork for my kidney function: turned out it improved (very) slightly. I'm glad! <BR> <BR> * Cholesterol and LDL were better than before, too. They were good in 2009, they are apparently even better now. Good! <BR> <BR> * Blood pressure is the same: 136/96 - doctor is fine with it (I am not). Dr. Fuhrman in Eat to Live states that vegans - not that I am one, I'm simply vegetarian, but apparently my cholesterol levels are very good - need to mi... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 08:13:37 EST