CHRISBEM's SparkPeople Blog CHRISBEM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community If stress burned calories, I'd be a supermodel. So...I have a lot of stress in my life right now. I was laid off about 6 months. I have had a ton of interviews, but haven't gotten any of the jobs. I am freaking out because my unemployment is running out. And it is taking a toll on my weight loss - when I get really stressed, I drink. I am trying to be even busier with putting in applications and getting out for walks so that I don't drink. Thu, 4 May 2017 15:36:52 EST Addiction Addiction...It's a demon that you don't see sneaking up on you and wrapping its spectral tendrils around you. It distorts your perceptions and can ruin so many aspects of your life. <BR> <BR> Today, I'm really struggling with addictions. First, I just had a friendship end because of that person's addictions to alcohol. It really hurts - I've been friends with this person for 25 years. I really tried over the last ten years to be supportive...She grew up with an abusive mother who then ... Mon, 1 May 2017 15:34:35 EST I need a yes Have you ever been told no so many times that it just really starts f ing with your head? That's where I'm at today. I lost my job 3 months ago...after years of being told no - like no, you can't get that raise because of the budget; no, you can't get that promotion because you're too new to your team and there's people who've been on it longer (even though you've been at the company longer and we keep moving you around because we keep deciding to consolidate the team you're on); no, you ca... Sat, 11 Feb 2017 01:37:02 EST Reminding myself of why I started I'm really struggling with trying to lose weight and to stay motivated. I kind of started this to help get my PCOS under control and to be at a healthier weight. I've had one success with the PCOS - my cycle has started back up again. But, now I have developed arthritis in my knees. I really need to get these pounds off so I can be more mobile and to continue helping with the PCOS. <BR> <BR> I'm having a really hard time with getting exercise in right now and being able to eat healthy ... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 12:46:17 EST No one is the same One of my biggest hurdles in losing weight are people who don't recognize that losing weight does not have a one size fits all approach. Everyone's bodies are different and don't always react the same way to things. I have tried so many different things and it has taken me years to learn what foods help me feel satiated, will help with my PCOS, and will help me to either maintain or to lose weight. And it's different than what works for other people. <BR> <BR> I get really frustrated by p... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 13:40:44 EST Dogs Rule! <img src=""> <BR> I totally fell off the band wagon last year, but I'm trying to get back on. I'm thankful my shelties are so energetic and playful, they make exercising easy - I'm amazed how winded I am and how my heart rate is up after playing a chasing game around the house with them. Thu, 7 Jan 2016 00:43:39 EST Don't give up! It's not over. Don't give up! It's not over. The universe is balanced. Every set-back bears with it the seeds of a come-back. <BR> Dr. Steve Maraboli Wed, 4 Mar 2015 13:49:53 EST Meal ideas from Spark Coach Here are some easy 7-minute meal ideas: <BR> Can of tuna, drained + chopped celery + pickle relish + mayo. Serve with whole-wheat crackers, carrot sticks, canned peaches and milk. <BR> <BR> Can of great northern beans, drained and mashed on a plate + half a green pepper or half a tomato, chopped + one-fourth cup salsa. Sprinkle with cheese. Microwave for 2-3 minutes. Serve with baked tortilla chips, grapes and milk. <BR> <BR> Peanut butter sandwich on whole-wheat bread + broccoli with ranch... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 19:35:54 EST beat the 10 mark! I finally got to past the 10 pounds lost mark! Have dropped 11.6 pounds. Now to keep it up. Wed, 18 Feb 2015 21:26:03 EST beat the 10 mark! I finally got to past the 10 pounds lost mark! Have dropped 11.6 pounds. Now to keep it up. Wed, 18 Feb 2015 21:26:01 EST The only thing I hate more than lying... is skim milk. It's water lying about being milk. <BR> <BR> Feeling frustrated today... know I need to switch to some more "healthier options", but can't stand the taste. Also feeling frustrated by clients who blatently lie to me and making it more difficult to do my job. And these people are stressing me out... And I am finding I had been lying to myself, thinking I wasn't an emotional eater, but am looking back over my food diary and am realizing that I eat more when I am stressed. <BR> ... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 19:39:23 EST safety belts So... I just read one of the motivational stories on SparkPeople. It really struck a chord with me. The woman in the story lost 117 pounds after starting her journey because the harness on a roller coaster wouldn't fit her. It got me to thinking - the last time I went to an amusement park, I couldn't ride one of my favorite coasters because the safety harness wouldn't fit. The last three plane rides I went on, the seat belt wouldn't fit. I am terrified that, even though I've lost 10 poun... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 20:15:05 EST It's called a diet... because all the other four letter words are taken. Totally describing how I am feeling today! I have been trying and am not seeing the scale go down. Tue, 3 Feb 2015 15:31:40 EST on being called chubs My first blog in a few months. I find I have to write about an event that took place yesterday. It left me feeling angry and bitter, and I'm mad at myself for not being able to let it go. <BR> <BR> So, basically, I park my car in the garage across from where I work. I'm there early, so there's an abundance of spots available. A guy pulls up just as I am getting out of my car. He has an option to pull into the spot right next to mine (although he'd have to wait a few moments for me to cl... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 14:03:20 EST more reasons I decided to lose weight I was so fat, <BR> <BR> ... it took the train conductor two hours before he could say all aboard. <BR> <BR> ...the Coast Guard kept a log of my bath times. <BR> <BR> ...I sweated barbecue sauce. <BR> <BR> ...when I went to the beach, the tide came in. <BR> <BR> needed a map to pass me on the street. <BR> <BR> ...I had an echo in my belly button. Mon, 11 Mar 2013 20:31:01 EST injuries I am so frustrated today - I have been doing so well with trying to exercise every day, but it's getting hampered a bit now. Yesterday, I went for a nice long hike with a new group. I felt I did well as I had encouragement to go faster than I normally do and it was tougher walking through a lot of snow and mud. Then at the end of the hike, in the parking lot, within site of my car, I fell. I hyper extended my knee and slightly sprained it. I am now supposed to be off of it for a few days.... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 18:54:04 EST reasons I started my diet I got a paper cut and gravy came out... <BR> <BR> When my phone rang people thought I was backing up... <BR> <BR> When I stepped on the scale it said "To Be Continued"... <BR> <BR> My cereal bowl had a lifeguard... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 20:07:54 EST What's my start? My program on SparkCoach today was about making excuses not to exercise. I admit, this is one I have been very guilty of - I don't have time, I didn't get up early enough, I am too tired. <BR> <BR> But, these are just excuses. I am trying to get up earlier to make time. I am forcing myself to do something when I get home from work - even if it is something as silly as doing little OCD tics like stepping up and down off of a single step 15 times before I go upstairs to bed. <BR> <BR> My S... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 10:15:42 EST This is the first day of the rest of your life. This is one of my dad's favorite sayings. I was reminded of it this morning as I have been reading through other's blogs. So many people have been saying that they've experienced some kind of down fall - like starting, stopping, then coming back to SparkPeople to find they are at their heaviest or letting life get in the way of doing what they should for their weight. But, I really think that we all need to remember that we will all run into bumps in the road - no path is perfectly smooth.... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 02:36:35 EST Non-scale improvements I decided to try out SparkCoach. Today's lesson was on using non-scale indicators of how my program is helping me. Today is one in which I needed to be reminded of that...I had done so well the last few days - had seen nice jumps down in the scale... And then today, the scale jumped back up. <BR> <BR> But I have to remind myself I am seeing other improvements - my walks at Indiana Dunes State Park are getting easier, I'm noticing improvements in energy and in my moods. I've had problems w... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 15:20:06 EST friends and laughter Yesterday, I was feeling really lonely after work and didn't want to go home and be alone. I decided to go out to a bar that I hadn't been to in awhile. It ended up being exactly what I needed. I ended up running into two friends I had lost touch with...ended up having a nice, wonderful evening with the two of them. <BR> <BR> When I went home, I got a call from my best friend, who recently moved across the country (she's the one on the left, hugging me). She was saying that she missed so... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 13:25:12 EST If there is no wind, row I read this on my SparkCoach final page today. I love this saying! It applies to so much - if one thing doesn't work, try something else til you find something that does work! Fri, 1 Mar 2013 12:16:55 EST may fall, will not fail I was looking at a site with inspirational songs...loved these lyrics from a Brian McKnight song <BR> <BR> I'll never give up <BR> Never give in <BR> Never let a ray of doubt slip in <BR> And if I fall <BR> I'll never fail <BR> I'll just get up and try again Thu, 28 Feb 2013 16:16:15 EST the waiting game Never give up on something you really want. It's difficult to wait, but more difficult to regret. Getting to the weight and fitness level you want to be at may take a long time, but every day worked at it brings you that much closer to that goal and further from not realizing that dream. Wed, 27 Feb 2013 19:21:25 EST What are you doing to make yourself? I read that on the motivational quotes page. This reaches out to me in so many ways....what AM I doing to make myself? So many dreams have lain unfulfilled because I haven't done anything to make myself. Tue, 26 Feb 2013 18:50:28 EST interesting new study HEALTH BENEFITS OF BEING OVERWEIGHT A new report suggests that being overweight is not as harmful as is commonly believed, and actually confers some surprising benefits. <BR> <BR> Being five to ten pounds overweight could protect people from ailments ranging from tuberculosis to Alzheimer's disease, research indicates. Those carrying 15 to 25 extra pounds are better able to recover from adverse conditions such as emphysema, pneumonia, and various injuries and infections, states the report.... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 20:35:13 EST the smile that keeps giving back :) I'm amazed at what a little smile can do. I made the vow yesterday to made me so much happier, and I did a really good job of not WAY overdoing it when I went out to dinner with family last night. <BR> <BR> And, when I checked my page today, I saw all the smiles I got back. They all reinforced that feeling of happiness and that I did right. And thanks for the comments, smiles, and the poem yesterday! <BR> <BR> Keep passing along the happiness! <em>224</em> Sun, 24 Feb 2013 21:46:54 EST SMILE I made a vow to be happy when I got up today. It helps so much in keeping in track. <BR> <BR> So every one - Smile! <em>334</em> Sat, 23 Feb 2013 17:17:45 EST feeding life with energy Found this at<BR>.html. <BR> <BR> Family, friends, food, and health, <BR> Greatest treasures, truest wealth. <BR> We all enjoy being happy and free, <BR> Living life our way, is the key. <BR> <BR> Incredible beauty, nature surrounds, <BR> Things to see, and wonderful sounds. <BR> Every life, has so much potential, <BR> Feed it with love, that is essential. <BR> <BR> Sometimes there are things, we don't approve, <BR> We're in control, we may... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 16:51:06 EST Places unknown “We are homesick most for the places we have never known.” <BR> &#8213; Carson McCullers <BR> <BR> The weight loss journey is rather like being homesick for a place unknown. It has been so long since I was thin that I can't remember what it's like. I was just a teenager. Now, as an adult, I have just this romanticized notion of what it is like to be thin. And I wonder if I let it keep me back from losing the weight. Wed, 20 Feb 2013 18:59:28 EST Live like a child I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. <BR> I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities <BR> of an 8-year-old again. <BR> I want to go to McDonald’s and think that it’s a four star restaurant. <BR> I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make ripples with rocks. <BR> I want to think M&Ms are better than money because <BR> you can eat them. <BR> I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer day. <BR>... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 19:08:48 EST sweets Don't believe everything fortune cookies tells you. Just because they're sweet doesn't mean they're right. - Mon, 18 Feb 2013 19:20:45 EST productive day I feel so productive today...went to a baby shower an hour from home, shopped for the gift and wrapped it an hour before going, cleaned out the garden. Sun, 17 Feb 2013 21:12:09 EST Places to play <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Although I am 33, I find play is such a good form of exercise...and so much fun. I can't wait for this summer so that I can take my best friend's kid to Indiana Dunes, shown above in a picture I took last summer. Even without her, now, it is such a nice place to go for a long walk Sat, 16 Feb 2013 14:12:18 EST Making lemonade with your vodka I believe that if life gives you lemons, you should make lemonade... And try to find somebody whose life has given them vodka, and have a party. <BR> Ron White <BR> <BR> I love this quote! This is so my life right now...I am so broke, can't do anything...But, I try to find ways, trying to pool resources with others. <BR> <BR> I think this is one of the great things about SparkPeople and the message boards and the responses to my blogs - so many great ideas get passed back and forth Fri, 15 Feb 2013 12:44:15 EST talking refrigerators “I bought a talking refrigerator that said “Oink” every time I opened the door. It made me hungry for pork chops.” – Marie Mott <BR> <BR> Sounds can so set me off - I hear the gal next to me at work munching on food, and even if I'm not hungry, the sound will make me hungry! Thu, 14 Feb 2013 14:59:40 EST trying to find laugh If your snack gets stuck in the vending machine, be thankful. You will burn a few calories shaking the machine. And if the machine falls on you, you will probably be thinner. Wed, 13 Feb 2013 15:45:07 EST Loving myself I always get so moody around Valentine's Day. I'm usually single, and hate that my whole family, and many friends and co-workers always start asking "why aren't you with someone?" Even though I realize that a lot of this has good intentions behind it, I get stressed out by it...I hear it so much that it makes me feel inferior for not having someone...then I get lonely and sad. And those feelings will negatively impact my dieting. I usually feel that being single is good for me...I can do s... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 14:38:31 EST Forgotten beauty Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up, snow is exhilarating; there is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather. <BR> John Ruskin <BR> <BR> I've been feeling a little blue today...maybe because I'm tired and feeling a little off, maybe because it's been so damn gloomy for the last few weeks and hasn't been the easiest getting outside for exercise. But, I have to remember that there is something good in everything. Maybe the gloomy we... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 20:36:12 EST Looking for exercise buddies With all my friends moving away this year, I want to make an effort to make new friends. I am hoping I can find people I can exercise with...I so need motivation via other people to work out and I need new ways to socialize. I am really trying to hit more of the teams here on SparkPeople to find people who live in my area...If anyone reads this blog and lives near Hammond, IN, I would love a response... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 19:50:49 EST does this blog make me look fat? “Most people want to be delivered from temptation but would like it to keep in touch.” ~Robert Orben <BR> <BR> Okay, so this is my downfall...I pray every day that I can get away from weight gain temptation, but then start really missing those temptations after awhile...and eventually let them creep back in. Like I'm too tired to exercise. It's raining, sleeting, and snowing. Thu, 7 Feb 2013 18:48:53 EST still sore I really did a good work over the weekend...two days later and my legs are still sore! Tue, 5 Feb 2013 10:09:07 EST walking in sand I am so sore today. I went for a hike yesterday at Indiana Dunes State Park, walked about 5 miles. I tried to do a bit more than what I normally do on the foredunes, and man can I feel it today. My legs are so sore! <BR> <BR> And, I read an interesting study today on the benefits of walking in was a 1998 Belgium study that found that walking in sand burns 2 to 2 1/2 times the calories one would burn when walking on a hard surface like concrete or asphalt. I guess my theory of g... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 20:42:58 EST Swedish Proverb Fear less, hope more, eat less, chew more, whine less, breathe more, talk less, say more, hate less, love more, and good things will be yours. Fri, 1 Feb 2013 12:13:17 EST meeting new people Okay, so I'm tired of feeling alone and being mopey after my last guy. I want to feel excited about life I found a new thing to try to meet people, Just signed up for it, hoping it will give me some new activities, help me meet new people. Thu, 31 Jan 2013 21:00:48 EST missing things “I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was.” <BR> <BR> As I sit here, thinking of what I am having trouble with in my weight loss journey, I am being reminded of missing the way I view things. I'm having trouble with losing a friend who became a lover, then lost from my life when I learned he was abusing prescription drugs. So I missing the person I thought he was. And it's the same thing with my weight...I am really missing my old habits, ones I thought had been okay and now am learn... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 19:58:53 EST small jobs Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will tend to take care of themselves. <BR> Read more at<BR>/take_care.html#d1OUejRPJPrw0bC3.99 <BR> <BR> Nice way of re-wording what spark people says all the time - to be successful at weight loss, we need small, doable goals. Tue, 29 Jan 2013 20:32:30 EST Playing the cards "When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure." <BR> – Peter Marshall <BR> <BR> The last couple of weeks have been stressful, dealing with a now unfortunately former friend who has lost it. I recognize that a lot of negatives I have seen in my life are because I have not been dealing with the stress. But, when I saw the above quote, it reminded my that, if I can deal with this tough situation in a positiv... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 11:36:59 EST inspiration You can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club. <BR> Jack London <BR> Fri, 25 Jan 2013 14:26:01 EST Time is of the essence Over the last 24 hours, time has become such a big word for me. There are so many things to do, and trying to cram in everything into such a short day is so hard. I am really having to force myself to be creative with exercise - I'm looking into different exercises I can do at my desk without looking like a buffoon at work...Trying to come up with easy, wuick to put together, dietitic food that tastes good is something else entirely. Wed, 23 Jan 2013 10:01:33 EST