CHOCOKAT25's SparkPeople Blog CHOCOKAT25's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Still having trouble I've been having a really hard time getting back on track. I have no motivation and just logging in to this site seems to be a chore. I've gained back all the weight plus 5 pounds. Depressing events keep happening every time I start to try again. <BR> <BR> My 40 year-old cousin died last June. My 35 year-old friend died at the end of September. My 41 year-old ex-fiance (who was still a good friend) died in November. None of it was expected. Now it looks like we may have to put my c... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 12:17:24 EST New Job! I just accepted a promotion and will be working at my company's headquarters starting in 2 weeks! <BR> <BR> I think they have hour-long lunch breaks there. I currently only get a half hour. That will be a half hour longer for walking! There is a large park across the street, so it will be a great motivator and opportunity for more exercise. <BR> <BR> But it is downtown and there are way more restaurants in that area, so there will be a lot more temptation to cheat on my diet. My cur... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 15:41:09 EST Nutribullet I bought myself a Nutribullet last night and am pretty excited. I used a 20% off coupon plus a $10 promotional gift card they handed out, so I got a good deal on it. <BR> <BR> I tried it out this morning for breakfast and was surprised at how good it tasted. I made a smoothie with spinach in it and couldn't taste it at all! The recipe I used had less calories than the one I usually make in my blender, but it tasted really similar and it was much faster and less chunky. I'm thinking abou... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 13:59:16 EST need motivation :( I'm having a really hard time getting back on track. I posted that I was finally back after a months-long absence about a month ago, but then only logged in about twice since then. I've gained back almost all of the weight I lost the first time around and I'm feeling weak-willed and disgusted with myself. <BR> <BR> So, in an effort to get back into it, I just joined a 12-week weight loss challenge at work where I am on a team with one of my coworkers. I think the fear of letting someone e... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 11:54:12 EST I'm back During a rough patch in my life that started a couple of months ago and continued until last week, I stopped coming to this site, eating healthily, and exercising. I gained back 7 pounds and feel awful. I'm going to try to get motivated again and get back on track. <BR> <BR> I'm not feeling very positive right now, but I'm hoping that if I keep at it and get past everything that has happened, it will get better. Tue, 6 Aug 2013 11:37:32 EST Sad Day This morning: <BR> <BR> I found out that my friend has been in the hospital for a couple of days, but we think he will be okay. <BR> <BR> One of my coworker's got rushed away from work in an ambulance because of a heart attack. <BR> <BR> And I just found out that my cousin died this morning. She was only 40. I don't know exactly how yet. <BR> <BR> I can't leave work because I have some important meetings to attend that can't be rescheduled, so I'm trying to hold it together so I can g... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 16:35:17 EST McDonald's I let my hubby talk me into getting McDonald's for dinner last night and I ended up gorging myself. I am so ashamed and disappointed in myself. I had no willpower when I was faced with it. I ended up going over my calorie limit by about a thousand and we are going out to dinner with friends tonight, so I've tried to keep my calorie count down before we go, but I underestimated how much I'd need to eat today when packing my lunch and now I am sooooo hungry and I don't have anything to snack... Fri, 31 May 2013 17:33:59 EST Reached 1st Goal! I have finally reached my first weight loss goal and am now under 200 pounds! Yippee! I'm so happy! Now I just have 4 more goals to reach. It sounds so easy when it is broken down into smaller bits. Sat, 25 May 2013 17:59:06 EST Interview I had two job interviews today. I think I did pretty good on one, but only okay on the other. I'd have a really hard time choosing between them if I happened to be offered both. One would be much higher pay than what I make now but sounds boring and the other would be a smaller increase (about 5%) and a longer commute, but sounds like it would be a lot of fun for me. I'm crossing my fingers that I get at least one offer. :) Thu, 23 May 2013 20:18:03 EST Biking My mother-in-law gave me her old bike last week, so yesterday I went riding. It was so much fun! I haven't really been riding since I was a kid. I'm planning to go at least every weekend on the bike trails by my house, maybe more if I can squeeze in some time after work on weekdays. I'm so excited! Mon, 20 May 2013 10:36:55 EST It's going to work! Yesterday was a great day and today looks like it is going to be great too! I have stuck to my diet plans and I really enjoyed my workout yesterday. I'm looking forward to exercising tonight, so I think I may be getting over my slump. Yay! <em>244</em> I was really worried that I had totally lost my drive. <BR> <BR> My friend who joined SP with me has quit and deleted her account. I'm not sure what happened, but I'll miss her. Wed, 15 May 2013 16:30:40 EST Getting back my motivation I am making a conscious effort to get motivated again and I think it is starting to work. I've been reading articles on Sparkpeople and re-reading my motivational weight loss books. I've also been trying to be consistent with my diet and exercise so that it will be easier to become a habit. I am restarting my streaks because that was the main thing that kept me on track before. I know this will work! <em>381</em> Tue, 14 May 2013 11:04:35 EST Bad Date Night Wednesday's date night was awful. I was really looking forward to spending some time with just the two of us, but my hubby's friends from out of town called because they were in the area, so he invited them along and we ended up going to a buffet instead of the nice restaurant we had planned on. We had been planning this night for a couple of weeks because we can only get a babysitter once a month at the most and we haven't had a date night for a while. I love those friends, but he could ... Fri, 10 May 2013 17:12:18 EST waist and hips I just took my monthly waist and hip measurements and I lost an inch off both! Yay! <em>334</em> My weight hasn't changed as much as I'd like, but I've been doing some challenging strength training and have gained more muscle, so I'm pretty okay with that. <BR> <BR> The hubby and I got a babysitter and are going out on a date tonight. After getting those great measurements, I'm really motivated to find something healthy on the menu at dinner. Wed, 8 May 2013 11:26:31 EST Fell off the wagon My toddler and I have been sick, so I have had no energy to do my 10,000 steps for the last couple of days and I missed a couple of workouts too. For some reason (probably just plain old lack of motivation) I didn't track my food as accurately as usual either, so I probably overate a little. Luckily, it was only a couple of days, so I doubt there has been much damage. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling bad about my broken 2 month streak, but I am ready to start over today. I have been reading motivati... Mon, 6 May 2013 14:09:52 EST Bad week I've been up for the last three nights with a sick toddler and I am soooo tired and cranky. I took the last two days off to care for my child, but I haven't been able to squeeze any long naps in, and I had to return to work today to get caught up on stuff. I just want to go home and eat a huge cheeseburger with fries and then sleep for the rest of the day. :( Wed, 1 May 2013 13:18:18 EST Sacramento Diabetes Walk I have formed a team on for the 5k Sacramento, CA diabetes walk happening on September 28th. Right now it is just me and my hubby on my team, but I am hoping to get a couple more friends to come along. I'll start asking people to join as we get closer to the date. It just seems too early right now. I am already looking forward to it though. We've had a lot of fun on previous walks. Wed, 24 Apr 2013 13:38:25 EST My weakness I love almonds, especially the savory flavored kind. My favorite right now is Wasabi Soy by Blue Diamond Almonds. I usually just take out the amount I plan to eat (about 1/2 an ounce) and then put the container away so I don't keep taking more. Last night, I don't know why, but I just started eating out of the container and I couldn't stop. I finished off the jar, which must have been at least three times my normal amount. Thank goodness there wasn't much left, or I might have kept going... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 14:18:37 EST Belt size Yay! I have more slack on my belt! My waist has gotten smaller by at least 2 belt notches this past month and a half. I'm so excited! Mon, 22 Apr 2013 12:39:41 EST Portion control I just realized last night that I haven't been measuring everything anymore. I've been getting lazy and just eyeballing my portions and I think I may be getting more and more off on my accuracy. I'm going to have to make a conscious effort to get back into the habit of measuring everything that I eat. Wed, 17 Apr 2013 16:33:58 EST Little diet changes My weight has been up by about 2-3 pounds for the last week and a half. I took a look at my food log and I've been staying mostly within my calorie range, but I've been letting a little more junk food (mostly candy) creep in. Time to tighten up my diet and kick the sugar! You won't beat me peanut brittle! Tue, 16 Apr 2013 17:03:08 EST Another 10k today! Did a 10k walk this morning with friends. The scenery was beautiful and the exercise really helped with my stress from this week. The weather was perfect and we had a nice lunch after. I'd love to go back and do it again. <BR> <BR> Feeling great! Sat, 6 Apr 2013 18:45:23 EST mean people Having a hard day at work today. Trying not to let my petty, and very unprofessional, coworkers get to me, but it is really hard. So glad tomorrow is Friday. Thu, 4 Apr 2013 16:53:55 EST Miles walked last week According to my pedometer, I walked 42.24 miles last week. Wow! I am so pleased with myself. I gotta figure out how I can top that without taking more time off of work. :) Tue, 2 Apr 2013 12:18:46 EST 10k walks I did another 10k yesterday morning with my husband and 2 year old. The hubby says he isn't up for doing any more 10k's but will go on 6k's with me. I'm a little disappointed. 6k's are fun, but I enjoy the longer walks more. Sat, 30 Mar 2013 11:52:03 EST 10k walk Took the day off work and did a 10k group walk along the river this morning. It was beautiful. Feeling great! Thu, 28 Mar 2013 16:33:33 EST Changes I only lost 2 lbs since 3/9, but I've also lost half an inch on my waist! I'm making progress! Thu, 28 Mar 2013 10:58:06 EST Weekend fun Had a great weekend! Did the 6k walk on Saturday and then a long relaxing walk in the park on Sunday with friends. I feel very energized. Can't wait for next weekend for more walking adventures! Mon, 25 Mar 2013 10:47:01 EST 6k today! I'm excited. This morning, I am going on a 6k walk with friends. I wish I could do the 11k, but strollers aren't allowed on that one because of the terrain. Maybe we can do the 6k twice. I doubt my husband would go for that though. :) Getting ready to go right now. Sat, 23 Mar 2013 10:51:40 EST Walking I walk on all my breaks at work every day, but they are starting to get too easy. I've tried walking faster and pumping my arms a little more, but it still isn't as challenging as I would like it to be. I've read some articles online to try and find some ideas, but can't find anything that would work for me. There aren't any hills or stairs, I don't want to actually jog or run (no time to shower afterwards), and I've got to keep it in a 20 minute time frame. I'm at a loss. I love my walk... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 11:02:46 EST Happy day I still haven't been able to resist weighing myself daily, but seeing my weight drop two days in a row is really exciting. I think cutting my sodium intake really helped. I've managed to get it down to about half of what I was consuming! Thank you to everyone who gave me encouragement and let me know what cutting sodium did for them! :) Thu, 21 Mar 2013 10:52:48 EST Good News I have finally dropped below my starting weight! I lost 0.4 lbs. Besides my too high sodium intake, I think it took a while because I have gained some muscle. My legs are noticeably firmer from all the walking I've been doing lately. :) Tue, 19 Mar 2013 15:31:56 EST The week in review Yay! I dropped back down to my starting weight from last week! I'm hopeful that this coming week will be more successful than this past week. I haven't been able to keep from weighing myself daily, so I will have to tape a sign over my scale or something to stop myself. I also wasn't successful at limiting my salt intake yesterday. I actually went over by a lot! Today probably won't be much better because we are going to my in-laws for some yummy St. Patrick's day corned beef. I'll star... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 12:04:40 EST Weight 3 I took a good look at my food journal and I think part of the problem is my sodium intake. I'm going to try to lower it and see if that helps. Otherwise, my food intake and activity levels all look good. I'm already feeling more energetic after a week and I'm ready and eager to go do something active! Sat, 16 Mar 2013 12:48:17 EST weight 2 I gained a little more again and was kinda down until I read some motivational articles on this site. One thing in particular that helped was another member's comment to an article where she said that she only lost 2 pounds for the whole month, but still went down a dress size. I think I need to stop weighing myself so much. Fri, 15 Mar 2013 12:41:00 EST weight I know it has only been 4 days since I started here, but I was hoping to see a couple of ounces off the scale at least. Instead, I have gained a half pound. <BR> <BR> Oh well. I know I'm being silly, and I'm still motivated, so it's all good. Wed, 13 Mar 2013 16:52:15 EST Daily goals I love having daily goals. That feeling of accomplishment I get at the end of the day when I check off the little "done" boxes is great! It keeps me focused and it makes me look forward to each new day when I can start over again. Tue, 12 Mar 2013 13:18:50 EST not well I've had the flu for the last few days. Feeling too weak to exercise, but I've gotten a little walking in. I'm hoping to get better soon so I take advantage of my eagerness to get started with my plans. Mon, 11 Mar 2013 12:52:14 EST food planning I planned out my meals for the whole day. Usually, I just eat whatever I'm in the mood for. Today, I'm going to look for some interesting recipes and plan the rest of the week too. I hate grocery shopping, but I am looking forward to some good home-cooked meals. :) Mon, 11 Mar 2013 12:49:39 EST