CHIGGERCANE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CHIGGERCANE CHIGGERCANE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ NOW - What's holding me back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6452431 Night snacking. Not sure when it slipped into my life. I remember as a child and through high school, we ate dinner at 5. This unfashionably early dinner time was because my dad got home from work right at 5 and he loved to work in his garden. He preferred to eat as soon as he got home, and then head out to the yard. He'd work for hours before coming in, cleaning up, and having 'dessert', or rather a snack of some sort - cereal, ice cream, leftover dinner items. In high school, I never a... Tue, 16 Jan 2018 21:32:52 EST NOW - Goal Setting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6450376 Today at the 1st coaching session of the semester (for Thursday class), we had to set our weight loss goal for the class. There are 4 goal set points during the semester. I picked what I think are reasonable goals. Now to make them happen. The homework from the small class (Weds night) is in my bag - and I need to get to it. That's the thinking part of this semester. The more important goals, having nothing to do with a number of a scale. <BR> <BR> The coach said something today that ma... Thu, 11 Jan 2018 19:10:07 EST NOW - Daily Checklist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6448893 Yesterday ...hmmm...I don't want to moan and complain - so I won't. Let me start over. I forced myself to get out from under wonderfully warm covers to brave the cold (unusually cold for here) to attend church for the first time in 2018. I'm glad I did. I tend to get to church about once a month. Being brutally honest - I attend more often than not to see my mom and sisters. I am a religious person. I do attend church for more than 'social' reasons. I like the head pastor and he has v... Mon, 8 Jan 2018 09:25:40 EST NOW - Expectations of Others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6448221 I mentioned in my journal about being prodded to commit to a sugar free YEAR. And feeling somewhat resentful that someone else's goals and expectations are being thrust upon me. And, while I have not been stewing over this, it has been in the back of my mind for a couple days. The whole 'expectations of others' influence thing...it makes me wonder. Are you influenced to improve because of others' expectations? Or, is there a natural dis-satisfaction that prompts you to seek improvement? ... Sat, 6 Jan 2018 19:41:42 EST NOW - Week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6445655 My 3rd Best Year of My Life is a week in. Has it been a perfect week? No...but it is a good week. I have made progress on cleaning up, organizing, motivating myself, and finding the message inside myself to make NOW matter. A work in progress...and I am grateful to have seen the year 2018 begin. <BR> <BR> 6 weeks since my life changed - and I still have yet to get some important things accomplished. Lists. I need lists. And I need to work on the items on my list. I did go buy some me... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 15:02:34 EST Best Year of My Life - Year 3 Begins - NOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6443493 My birthday yesterday was a grateful one. I look forward to my 3rd year of being mindful of having the Best Year of My Life. I will be continuing with the Thursday morning coaching classes, and in addition, will be meeting Wednesday nights for a more intimate, intensive session. I am hoping this will assist in my controlling & reducing my stress levels. As part of that coaching, we are asked to select a word. Something to motivate, focus intention, etc. I've thought about it for a coupl... Tue, 26 Dec 2017 16:07:01 EST Best Year of My Life - Year 2 at an End http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6442703 Technically, my year 2 ends tomorrow, but I may not have the opportunity to write something tomorrow. The last couple weeks have been days of rising stress, related to my son. My mother in law is being difficult regarding Christmas gathering (a bit of a surprise), my sister is on her normal control ride for Christmas at my mom's. I read other people's blogs about Christmas stress and unhappiness, and I realize how lucky I do have it. But - I too am feeling the sadness and unrealized expec... Sat, 23 Dec 2017 13:35:39 EST Best Year of My Life - Year 2 - Challenges Not Met http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6441547 5 days to my birthday. And then THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE starts - YEAR 3. Every year, I am amazed at how quickly time is passing. I am reminded of my departed friend who said she felt she was on a runaway train, desperately wishing it would slow down or stop so she could catch her breath and figure out what to do. I've been given an amazing gift with my heart attack issues. I (ironically) felt that I haven't had time to stop and truly think about what a gift it is. In the back of my min... Tue, 19 Dec 2017 09:36:29 EST Best Year of My Life - Rising Above http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6384918 Yesterday, I allowed myself to sink back down into emotional eating. Today, I am beating myself up mentally for allowing my mother and sisters to 'play me'. And I am struggling to RISE ABOVE and let it go. Thursday, I was at the lowest weight I have been for probably 3 years. I was feeling proud, accomplished, motivated, etc. What I thought was a nice gathering for lunch, actually turned out to be an information fishing session to 'expose' me and my nefarious ways... <em>24</em> I know... Sat, 8 Jul 2017 16:46:15 EST Best Year of My Life - Value and Care for What You Have http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380715 Feeling very unsettled today - and the day has just begun for me. Couple days ago, heard "Christmas is 6 months away!" and that sends some shivers down my spine. Christmas is my birthday. And when the Best Year of My Life ends - and the next Best Year of My Life begins. The time I reassess everything. I have good and bad memories of Christmas - like everyone. It seems family issues bubble up and overflow - in bad ways, the last few years. And this Christmas will be the 1st year my son... Wed, 28 Jun 2017 08:04:06 EST Best Year of My Life - June 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6372883 So much to do - always. And so much gets left un-done! I read a little book about a month ago - The Greatest Salesman in the World - mainly because I had seen someone on here quote Og Mandino several times. So - I went to the book store and browsed through his books and started with that one. Quick read - good advice. Someone else on here had written "we only have now" which I thought was motivational - and guess what? - from the book. I wrote down some phrases to remember and live by -... Fri, 9 Jun 2017 08:52:01 EST May - Best Month of My Life - Day 19 - Wasting Time or Motivating Myself? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363852 It's been a while since I've checked in. Plugging away. One step (and pound or half-pound) at a time. <BR> <BR> I have a semi-routine in the morning when I 'go to work'. I check for important emails that have come in, check various updates, and then check in here. I check a couple journals and then browse through the blogs. Sometimes it's a quick 5-10 minutes, other times, I get on a roll and end up spending too much time here. Today - I wondered - am I wasting time, trying to keep from... Fri, 19 May 2017 07:50:35 EST May - Best Month of My Life - Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6357611 Just got back from boot camp and coaching class. Both were wonderful as always. I am feeling much more 'able' in boot camp. I have trouble with the burpees...let's be real - I don't do them. I heavily modify. But, aside from the burpees - I felt pretty capable. Yea! Coaching focused on mindful eating. I am to come up with a few strategies to get me to more mindful eating. We are to track BLT's (Bites, Licks and Tastes) this week and come back to class next week with a calorie count ... Thu, 4 May 2017 12:39:41 EST May - The Best Month of my Life - Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6356158 I started off today reading GTNHealthy's great blog about setting goals, making plans, etc. Thank you, GTNHealthy for making me actually set something down in writing. I have many goals and plans in my head (and some in writing), but It's time to update them. I had thoughts to do a (maybe) daily blog this month to keep me focused on my goals and plans... <BR> <BR> I then heard from a friend about a mutual acquaintance's untimely passing this weekend. While I would not say we were 'friend... Mon, 1 May 2017 13:06:41 EST Beck & Me - 42 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6347169 Practice Practice Practice <BR> <BR> I have my 'diet' notebook, my cards (which I wrote in a smaller notebook with a flip top), my mantras (in the same notebook as the cards), my planning/schedule notebook, my menu plans...now to practice making them a part of my everyday life! I am so grateful to Kriszta and the Beck team. Reading posts and blogs helped me. <BR> <BR> I enjoyed reading this book. I have signed up to redo it just so I stay on track. I have gathered there are other color ... Tue, 11 Apr 2017 19:42:31 EST Beck & Me - 41 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346520 Make a New List: Instead of making a new list, I will be reviewing and editing. I find it amazing how easy it is to overlook and forget. I have my notebook and cards to review. But, then I forget. I have a notebook of my schedule and plans, calendar, etc. I must remember to make it a habit to look through and review at least weekly. I so look forward to habits become habits! <BR> <BR> I keep talking about updating my routines - and I am 'almost' done with that - hopefully this week, I ... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 12:32:11 EST Beck & Me - 40 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345933 Enrich my life. I have pulled back from a few things as I have gotten heavier. I am making an effort to get back out and do what I want and need to do. <BR> <BR> I have given up my therapy work with the dog - mainly because of her issues (her stomach surgery and back sensitivity due to age, plus the behavior issues with the couple kids), but if I am honest, I admit I wasn't too happy with my comfort level as I was sitting on the floor). While I do not think we will return to the therap... Sun, 9 Apr 2017 09:49:28 EST Beck & Me - 39 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345605 Keep up with Exercise. I am working hard to get back to where I used to be. I used to have a set schedule and I was fairly consistent. Then a few years ago I was so busy at work that exercise was the first thing to go...bad choice! I am doing much better, but still room for improvement. I try to do (at a minimum) at least 15 mins of SOMETHING everyday. Making a commitment to do exercise - and living through on my commitment to myself! <BR> <BR> I used to love working out HARD and leavi... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 14:18:38 EST Beck & Me - 38 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345303 38 - Deal with Plateaus- Plateaus - hate em. I feel like I have been on a plateau for 17 years. I lose a couple pounds, gain a couple pounds, and repeat. Since beginning Beck, I have dropped a few pounds and I feel like I am stabilizing. I've learned that I don't lose consistently and sometimes it seems the less I eat and more I exercise, the more I gain. I'm learning to not get too discouraged - and keep trying. <BR> <BR> I know restricting certain thing, reducing starchy carbs and eli... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 21:36:11 EST Beck & Me - 37 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344743 Reduce Stress: Big challenge for me. I have been working on learning to live 'less stressed'. I too liked the statement that you cannot control others - something that is huge for me. Getting my routines and planned menus completed and in place is going to reduce 'everyday' stress. <BR> <BR> Coaching yesterday also touched on this subject: streamline, make decisions now, outsource what you can, ask for help, relax... <BR> <BR> I blame my belly on stress... <em>30</em> Thu, 6 Apr 2017 15:56:31 EST Beck & Me - 36 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344244 Day 36: Believe It. <BR> I know I can do this. I know what to do. Reading Beck has opened up some new techniques I can use to get where I want to be. I CAN be at a comfortable weight. <BR> <BR> Coaching session today was very good. It's interesting to me how Beck and the coaching class intertwine to reinforce the techniques presented. <BR> <BR> In coaching class today, we focused on streamlining and making commitments - and then honoring those commitments. I am supplementing my Bec... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 14:39:18 EST Beck & Me - 34 & 35 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343843 34 - Solve Problems. As the chapter suggested, the first thing is to identify the problem. Stop and think. Question. And then remind myself - "What do I really want?". Should be obvious. Stop. Think. <BR> <BR> 35 - Prepare to weigh in. My dinner out last night may affect my weight. And I have not done hard exercise in several days. It is what it is. I will not sabotage myself no matter the weigh in. <BR> <BR> Spring break here means no coaching class or boot camp. I am going to... Tue, 4 Apr 2017 19:51:17 EST Beck & Me - 33 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343578 33: Deal with Emotional Eating. This is a huge issue for me. I find myself scrounging around for 'something' when things get stressful. A few years ago, I was unable to eat more than a few bites a day due to intense anxiety/stress from work. Unfortunately, I learned that when I could eat - i would eat. I am working to get out of that habit. I am making myself stop and think before I reach for anything. I tell myself to get out of the kitchen. Lots of work to do here. Tue, 4 Apr 2017 08:42:43 EST Beck & Me - 32 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342300 Planning for Travel <BR> Travel - I have a stash of relatively healthy snacks and water that I travel with at all times. When I travel long distances, I need to plan ahead and think smart at restaurants. Biggest problem I seem to have is not indulging in drinks when we stop to fuel up. I have a trip coming up at the end of May - still not sure whether driving or flying. I will put a lot of planning into the trip once I know. <BR> <BR> Today has been some outdoor cleanup and getting son ... Sat, 1 Apr 2017 16:04:17 EST Beck & Me - 31 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341743 Decide about drinking: Not a problem for me. I rarely drink alcohol. In summer, I think this can be more of an item to watch and track due to frozen concoctions. <BR> <BR> Feeling a little slimmer today - strange how that happens. Weight is about the same, but I feel better. The weekends always give me some problems, so I am getting my plan together now. Son leaves Sunday for a week trip. Lots to do next week. Fri, 31 Mar 2017 12:31:13 EST Beck & Me - 29 & 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341383 29 - Food Pushers <BR> Food pushers do not bother me that often. I learned early not to let food be pushed on me and I can say no effectively (and nicely). My mother is the worst food pusher. There are times when she plays on the emotions. I will see eye rolls and hear muttered comments regarding my being on a diet, my being 'too good' or 'eating too healthy' for her food. These times bother me and sometimes cause me lose my good intentions - but never at her place - it's always later a... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 17:05:32 EST Beck & Me - 28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340092 Day 28 - weigh-in. Disappointment - but, thankfully, I know how to handle it! <em>41</em> I am utilizing the techniques presented to regroup, replan, adjust - and "Oh well...move on". I am going to revise my eating plan a bit. I am going to re-read some. I am going to sit down to eat (my greatest challenge by far). So glad I found the Beck Team! Krizsta11 is an amazing leader and cheerleader! So thankful for her gentle encouragement. <BR> <BR> So - the basement steps for some reason ye... Tue, 28 Mar 2017 07:48:52 EST Beck & Me - 27 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339788 7 Questions. I'm so glad there are other posts for me to review on the Beck Team page. I think this is another read again and again chapter. The questioning is starting to happen automatically for me - but I fear I am heading into a food paralysis situation sometimes. (I have to question why the ad for DD Caffe mocha & White Choc Mocha has just appeared...I have not been near a DD much less had one of their coffee drinks...). <BR> <BR> I did not make it to the gym today - was stuck at ... Mon, 27 Mar 2017 15:38:45 EST Beck & me - 26 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339232 26 Recognize thinking mistakes. Very good chapter. every single thinking mistake highighted in this chapter applies to me. I need to read this chapter again and again to get to my solution. It all boils down to "what do i really want" and "what am I willing to do to get it". <BR> <BR> I think I am cycling through to my 'what's the use' time. I am working to snap out of it (moonstruck slap...) by reorganizing the pantry, working on my meal plans for the week, writing in my exercise plan, ... Sun, 26 Mar 2017 13:46:39 EST Beck & Me - 24 & 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338724 24: Deal with Discouragement. Handling discouragement...hard for me. I've always been a person who plans for the worst so I can be prepared and not taken by surprise. But, it tends to result in an Eeyore outlook on life. Discouragement seems to reaffirm my expectations. <em>39</em> However, most people I interact with think I have a positive approach and attitude, so I really think I hide that aspect of myself. I get mired down for a time - but then get up and get going. I've foun... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 10:12:53 EST Beck & Me - 23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337837 It's Not Fair: I look at my weight issues as I spent over 1/2 my life on the other side of 'fair' - being underweight and able to eat anything at anytime. My mother told me when I was 16, she couldn't wait til I gained weight and understood how 'most of us live'. I was shocked at the time that it was said with such 'feeling'...it still makes me sad to remember this. My friends were always telling me it wasn't fair. Sorry - don't mean to drag in other 'issues' <em>20</em> but I think I st... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 12:20:57 EST Beck & Me - 21 & 22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337230 Day 21 Weigh In Day: I am a daily weigher. I find it helpful to see how the day before has affected me. However, I clearly remember days where I have seen an increase of 3-5 pounds overnight. I am not imagining it. And I have NEVER seen a loss of 3-5 pounds. <em>20</em> I like the idea presented of graphing from 0 (instead of actually tracking weight). My chart is made. I have an official weekly weigh-in with the coaching class, so I will be tracking that weigh-in as well as my m... Wed, 22 Mar 2017 08:44:39 EST Beck & Me - 20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6336826 Day 20 - Get Back on Track <BR> <BR> HAHAHA - was doing great but for some reason, today was the day to off road. I was running errands and didn't time things correctly. I entered my food into my tracker and...WOW... <em>40</em> <em>39</em> !!! SO - now I know. I am cognizant of the 'expense' of eating this in the future. BUT - as part of getting back on track IMMEDIATELY, I drove to the gym and swam my 1/2 mile. It was tough. I don't know if it was reaction to eating poorly, all... Tue, 21 Mar 2017 15:45:33 EST Beck & Me - 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6336183 Fooling myself. I am most vulnerable when alone. Is it the 'no one sees me eat it - it doesn't count' syndrome? Not sure. A little bite wont hurt, I worked hard today, it will even out over the week - these are my foolish thoughts. Realizing that what and how I used to be able to eat no longer applies to me is very hard - but very necessary. <BR> <BR> I think back over the years and how I ate. I would never consider myself to have an eating disorder. But - when I was much younger I remember... Tue, 21 Mar 2017 07:45:09 EST Beck & Me - 18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335224 definition of full...I don't think I have a huge problem with this in the definition from being too full. Actually I seem to have a problem eating enough at one time so that I am not feeling 'want' too quickly after meal times. I can eat what I think is sufficient at meal times - and then 2 hours later feel hunger or desire to eat (still working on the difference between those 2). When I eat certain things (potato chips or other similar snack things), this fullness feeling doesn't apply an... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 10:56:57 EST Beck & Me - 17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6334858 I don't like this exercise. I've never had a problem leaving food on my plate. In fact, especially at restaurants, I've never, or rarely, finished everything on my plate. I have a problem intentionally adding food to my plate that I know will be an experiment...so as you can tell, I'm not into Day 17's exercise. <BR> <BR> Anyway - yesterday ended up being dog agility. I did not get to the pool this week. I need to do better planning for next week. Weight was down again a bit today. Ma... Sat, 18 Mar 2017 14:52:45 EST Beck & Me - 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333858 Prevent Unplanned Eating: When I first began jogging, my mantra was "Do - or Do NOT...there is no try." I never realized it was a Yoda quote.... <em>20</em> It worked for me. I'm trying (HAHA) to get back to that place where I can just Do or Not Do. Decide ahead of time - and follow through. I wrote out my eating plan for today. So far, I am following it. I will keep up with this and work on finalizing my meal plans. I will keep organization of the pantry a daily item. And I will re... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 11:53:06 EST Beck and Me - 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333479 Monitor eating. Writing a plan down. Living the plan. I have so many version of my meal spreadsheets. I get a little overwhelmed when I try to revise them. I'm not sure why. I have my dinner monthly meal plan together. It should be a very simple thing to put together a breakfast and lunch monthly plan. <BR> <BR> I like the idea of writing the plan out - crossing out as I eat, adding and circling unplanned. I will get out my trusty notebook and proceed. Wed, 15 Mar 2017 16:47:23 EST Beck & Me - 13 & 14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6332953 Controlling cravings is a topic I need to spend some time on. My biggest triggers seem to be fresh baking smells. The last 3 days as I have been shopping have had some 'moments' - moments I was able to control and be successful! I will reread this chapter and work on this. <BR> <BR> Planning - I have the planning down - it's the living I need to work on! There is some tweaking I will do. I always have a box in the car with 'emergency' items (I really hate calling it emergency when it's ... Tue, 14 Mar 2017 15:45:36 EST Beck & Me -12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6332035 The planned skip lunch and 'experience it' to learn from it did not happen today. It will not happen tomorrow or Tuesday either (lunch meetings both days). I will plan for this to be completed Weds and possibly Thursday as well. I have done this before - late breakfast, no lunch, dinner - BUT - I have had light snacks prior to dinner. It will be interesting to see how I tolerate the no snacks. <BR> <BR> No exercise today...hip and feet have really been hurting. I must add some icing b... Sun, 12 Mar 2017 21:09:52 EST Beck & Me - 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6331340 Hunger, Cravings <BR> <BR> It's been awhile since I have actually felt hunger. I'm constantly surrounded by food availability and as a creature of habit, I think I eat more from habit/time than anything. A few years ago, work stress and anxiety made it physically impossible for me to eat more than a couple bites at a time - and unfortunately, I learned that when I could eat - I WOULD eat. I remember when I was pregnant, if I became hungry, it was too late - migraines would take over and I... Sat, 11 Mar 2017 12:51:48 EST Beck and Me - 9 & 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6330372 Establishing an exercise plan. I can do this, no problem. My real problem is enforcing it, living it, accomplishing it... <em>20</em> Right now, my plans include (weekly) - swimming or water aerobics (1-2x), boot camp (1x), TRX and home weights (1-3x), dog walks (2-7x), elliptical (1x). That's what's on the schedule. And until this week, I've been pretty consistent (discounting a couple weeks ago when I was sick). I'm also planning for some monthly add-ons including: hill sprints, moun... Thu, 9 Mar 2017 15:24:20 EST Beck & Me - 7 & 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6329841 Organizing your environment and planning/taking time to diet. All in all, my environment is already structured to support what I am doing. I do the shopping, organizing, cooking. I do buy things for my husband and son that I do not eat or drink. But, usually it is not a problem for me. AS for planning...as I wrote on the team check-in, when I quit the corporate world in 1998 to 'just' work for our own business, I had grand plans to get a daily and weekly schedule together. That plan i... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 14:59:26 EST Beck & Me - 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6328926 A diet coach. In January, I joined a coaching class. This class does not follow Beck, but the intent behind it seems to fit very nicely with what I have read so far. I also (as you read) am trying to blog daily about what I am doing with Beck. <BR> <BR> Today - I took 2 of the dogs out alone a different times. 1 dog is on rest for a pulled leg, so he did not get a turn. I did a couple of my hill 'sprints' (sprint is used VERY LOOSELY) on one of my walks. Boy - have I lost my ability ... Mon, 6 Mar 2017 20:39:29 EST Beck & Me - 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6328287 Taking time. I need to apply this to more than 'just' eating. Savoring the experience. Having conversation. I can see my son rolling his eyes... <em>41</em> This will be another tough one to work on. <BR> <BR> We just got back from the 'farm' to assess the wedding venue. Lots to do between now and November. Lots to work on ME between now and November. I will not stress...I will not stress...I will not stress! <BR> <BR> I have a batch of kale, garbonzo bean soup cooking. That's a... Sun, 5 Mar 2017 16:58:13 EST Beck & Me - 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6327920 Giving myself credit.... <em>20</em> ...I agree with many of the team members' comments. This is a hard one. I was brought up to do my best, be humble, take pride in quietly doing my best. I tend to focus on what I do wrong or where I slip up. So - giving myself credit for not 100% is hard. But, I will work on this. 'cus I am rather tired of not being happy with myself and my efforts. Today we spent hours out in the yard picking up after a bad storm a couple days ago. Back is feelin... Sat, 4 Mar 2017 21:43:53 EST Beck & Me - 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6327282 Eating while sitting - I tend to eat standing up for breakfast and lunch and some snacks. Since I work out of my house, I go to the kitchen and stand at the counter while catching up on news (TV). This is going to be an adjustment for me. Big adjustment. When I told my husband what I was doing (reading Beck), he rolled his eyes and said I read too much - why not just do it? Good question. Wish I could answer... <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Dog agility tonight. Gym did not happen today. M... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 15:02:50 EST Beck & Me - 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6324178 Day 2 - pick a 'diet': I struggle with this task - in that I am trying to get to a lifestyle diet not a diet diet. In the last 14 years, I have tried JC, MWL, Whole30, clean eating, looked into the inflammation free diet, eat for your blood type, Daniel plan...any others? What I've learned is that I need to find what will work for me. And what I think will work best for me is a mashup of everything BUT JC. I want to stay with clean food, avoiding processed and packaged food. So - my firs... Thu, 2 Mar 2017 22:11:18 EST Beck & Me - 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6323597 Wasn't sure what name-theme to go with this month. Guess I'll go with Beck & Me since I am committing to Beck Diet Solution (in addition to my other commitments...). SO today was identifying WHY I want to lose weight. I identified with most (but not all) the reasons on the worksheet. But - my main reasons - I want to be me again. I want to feel comfortable in my skin again. I want to be as healthy as I can be - and I really hope getting some weight off will help my knees and allow me to... Wed, 1 Mar 2017 20:00:12 EST 15 Minutes - Mile Swim http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6322843 I did a mile swim! <em>334</em> The last few laps were a little wobbly, but I did it! 64 minutes. At one point, a conversation I had with a runner popped into my head. As I was beginning jogging, he told me that instead of running to run, I should run to get somewhere. Thus leading to better form, better time, and an all round better workout. About 1/2 way into the swim, I thought of that - and tried to perfect my form, my breathing (lots of room for improvement), and my timing. It... Tue, 28 Feb 2017 12:27:43 EST