CHERYLHURT's SparkPeople Blog CHERYLHURT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community How do I live a life I sometimes hate? I despise both my sisters for dumping Mum on me these last 14 years. I won't abandon my only Mum but sure didn't envision my retirement years playing games with old people at the Assisted Living. I can't sleep. Our country is killing itself. I'm deeply saddened, fed up, and totally burned out. I CANT put myself first because there are so many needs. And a soak in the tub isn't time alone. I want my own life! Sat, 23 Sep 2017 05:06:01 EST 20 mile bike ride yesterday Our first long ride in a while. The eye doctor wants beloved to stay off all roads because his depth perception is gone. Bummer. He was a cyclist! Fri, 22 Sep 2017 07:46:04 EST Week 9, eye stable He has lost most of his depth perception, we may ever street cycle again, absolutely no night driving. Today we get to take the tandem out on the trail. Just finished out walking so it's going to be a day filled with exercise! Thu, 21 Sep 2017 08:10:59 EST Beloved sees the eye doctor today Praying week 9 is another good post-op report. I joined a retina/macula detachment group on Facebook. Amazing how many people are struggling with this terrible problem! Some's good to have others to talk with. Support is so necessary! Wed, 20 Sep 2017 05:56:52 EST Another hurricane! Why does tragedy seem to keep hitting the poor people? No disaster hits Beverly Hills or San Francisco! These storms take more from those who all ready have so little! Wish we could fly over and help rebuild. Tue, 19 Sep 2017 08:04:48 EST 4 miles done! I am such a poor sleeper despite hours of exercise every day. Up before 5, walking done, over 4 miles. Today I want to buy some baby trees to plant. Mon, 18 Sep 2017 07:23:34 EST Fresh week Leaves are starting to change. We're going a long walk now, such a beautiful morning. Sun, 17 Sep 2017 07:38:21 EST Back to the grind Picking up Mum for the day. Do all old people gripe or is it just her? Fall is here, leaves are changing. Love the cool mornings! Sat, 16 Sep 2017 06:21:54 EST It's been a good rest And time away from Mum has been good for her too, she has been kinder on the phone. Today we drive home. Have to stop and get piles of fresh greens to undo some of this indulging we've enjoyed! Fri, 15 Sep 2017 07:03:11 EST Walked half the day Then enjoyed an art museum, vintage car museum, and a couple of antique shops. Got in 6 miles! Thu, 14 Sep 2017 07:14:04 EST Drove to Myrtle Beach Beloved actually did fine driving with one eye! Gives me hope we may one day cruise again. We have a hotel a block from the ocean and had a glorious walk along the shore. This morning we walked again and are visiting museums today. Mum only knows we went away "for medical reasons " since I can't tell her how dreadfully despondent I was getting...hating my life, which I really don't, feeling very bitter towards her and my sister in San Francisco who never helps. We're here for mental health ... Wed, 13 Sep 2017 06:53:36 EST Heading away for a few days I'm desperate for a break. My Mum has not been nice and I need time away to de-stress. Beloved and I are getting away until Friday... Tue, 12 Sep 2017 06:24:59 EST High winds and heavy rain But we're safe inside. I'll see my Mum this afternoon if the weather holds. Mon, 11 Sep 2017 08:09:57 EST Cold and windy Irma is in Florida and we're not expecting it to impact our area. Hope to get out of town tomorrow for a few days... Sun, 10 Sep 2017 07:28:58 EST Hoping the triple threat goes out to sea The last thing this country needs is yet another disaster. We are inches away from total chaos... Sat, 9 Sep 2017 06:23:04 EST Shelves are empty We find it funny! Shelves are emptying out. We have gas in both cars and will stay snug at home...unless Irma goes out to sea and we could leave... Fri, 8 Sep 2017 07:43:14 EST Looks like we have to cancel our trip to the beach for next week! Bummer! I have to call the hotel by Sunday if this hurricane hits coastal South Carolina. Wouldn't be wise to travel in a storm. Thu, 7 Sep 2017 07:07:38 EST Beauty shop today Going to talk with him a shorter hair cut that doesn't require so much upkeep for some time in the future. I'm not ready to go shorter than the collarbone length it is now...but I find myself looking at shorter haircuts since we'll be turning 65 next year! Wed, 6 Sep 2017 07:23:03 EST One night I'd like to sleep And not awaken at 3:30 or 4. I'm in bed by 9pm, but my life is stressful with caring for Mum, beloveds eye, and hardly a moment to just rest. Looking forward to getting away next week, yet hurricane Irma is headed to our coast, right where we have a hotel for 3 nights! Tue, 5 Sep 2017 05:19:00 EST Spent the day with the ER She never told me in our first chat of the morning that she was peeing blood again. She called at 10, just as we were on our hike, and we had to turn around. Last month was an bladder infection too, so beloved and I chose the ER where we got into a room quickly but the wait was long. They started an IV, gave her antibiotics, but we were still there 5 hours. Long day, and I'm exhausted. Will touch base with the Practical Nurse at her Assisted Living today and it's also my day to volunteer th... Mon, 4 Sep 2017 08:18:41 EST Not my circus, not my monkeys! Ok, this will be my new attitude towards my psycho neighbor.... Sun, 3 Sep 2017 05:46:23 EST Awake too early, but so did beloved So he did the walk with me. We listened to the sounds of 4am crickets and birds,, and discussed the neighbor man across the street who flipped out because we bought "a fu..king libertard " car...Prius. He's emotionally abusive towards his wife and her two teenage daughters but she isn't in a position to leave...he is nut case. He cut us off when the present administration came to power because we didn't feel his euphoria. Nothing we can do... Sat, 2 Sep 2017 05:45:01 EST He read the big E! For us, that's good news. Four weeks after surgery he could actually recognize the big E on the screen. We have months to get through and he will forever live knowing it could detach at any time. First good news in 8 months. Fri, 1 Sep 2017 09:09:58 EST Walking in the rain Not a good sleep. Up at 3... walking in the rain was so peaceful. Thu, 31 Aug 2017 05:11:39 EST Cool and overcast Lovely and cool,this morning. We're expecting a little rain later this week. No change in beloved's eye but three weeks out it hasn't detached again. Praying constantly! Wed, 30 Aug 2017 07:56:17 EST Perfect weather for walking Leaves are falling, wind rustling the the trees. Geese haven't left yet but fall is sure moving in. Tue, 29 Aug 2017 07:23:44 EST Fall seems to be here very early The birds are singing, we have several windows wide open, and beloved turned off the a/c. Fall is in the air! Mon, 28 Aug 2017 07:45:08 EST Got my morning walk done early! Out the door by 5 am, got my 2 hour, 5 mile loop done! Lovely cool morning. Fall is definitely in the air! Today we go to Toyota to learn how to drive the Prius... Sun, 27 Aug 2017 07:32:10 EST New baby out in California! She came 8 weeks early but weighed 4 pounds, 11 oz. My niece had to have another C-section because her membranes ruptured early. She will be in the hospital a week on antibiotics and the baby must remain at least two weeks. The pictures are exquisite and miniature! Sat, 26 Aug 2017 06:12:42 EST No points today Scant points for sign on, bonus points were one each, low point day. Still trying to stay away from fats and carbs. Reflux is much less but still a little at night. Fri, 25 Aug 2017 07:23:44 EST Bought a red Prius 4 with lane alert Should be here in a couple of days. We wanted red since everybody seems to have silver, beige, grey, or white. The lane change alerts IF THE LINES ARE CLEARLY PAINTED and we proved South Carolina's are NOT when beloved test drove a car that had it. Oh well, all we can do is the best we can do. Thu, 24 Aug 2017 08:41:08 EST Have to look. At a car with Lane alarms Beloved is blind in his right eye. Doctor suggested that if he wants to continue driving on the freeway, which I hate driving on, we need to look at cars with lane sensing alarms. Guess we'll look today... Wed, 23 Aug 2017 07:52:35 EST No fat, no reflux Sure enough...made a conscious effort NOT to have any junk food, mini chocolates, etc yesterday and I slept all night with NO reflux. Bummer. There goes the fried chicken wings and samples at the bread store! Tue, 22 Aug 2017 08:45:07 EST Why do I get severe reflux every night? I did research!!! Had my gallbladder removed five years ago. I'd suffered from nighttime reflux's for years and when they took it out it was all shriveled and not working. YESTERDAY, I found out that I can't tolerate unhealthy fats or grains. Went all day with neither and had NO pain at all! Now I have to really eliminate junk food! Mon, 21 Aug 2017 07:49:11 EST New week, fresh start Weigh in today, and beloved and I have both gained. Still no hiking or cycling because of his fragile eye, so today were going to to walking the mountain trails. I need my motivation back. Sun, 20 Aug 2017 07:36:32 EST I'm just overwhelmed We love dance lessons and had a great time yesterday, it's just that they are at 12:45 until 1:30, so it takes the middle of the day. And they are expensive! With all the vet bills, beloveds enormous co-pays with all his eye treatments, it's something I love but feel it's an extravagance... Sat, 19 Aug 2017 06:51:00 EST 20 dance lessons to go Then we want to be done...takes too much time, and I want my life back. Fri, 18 Aug 2017 07:46:36 EST Long day with the elderly Loaded them on the bus, buckled them in , got a few miles out and two ladies decided they didn't want to go. So we turned around and unloaded them. That made us an hour late! We got to beautiful Chatooga Belle Farm and they had lovely tabels set out for us, but getting 14 nonagenarians to decide was tricky, then none of them could remember when the orders came! But they mostly all enjoyed their meals, which were lovely. Beloved and I drove behind the full bus so he could help with strong arm... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 06:25:17 EST Taking the Assisted Living on an all-day outing Mum didn't want to go, but I told her beloved and I would also be going to assist the 16 very old people on a bus trip to Chatooga Belle farms about 1.5 hours away. They needed volunteers...I really wanted a break...but I'm trying to remember life is NOT all about US, but about others too. Wed, 16 Aug 2017 07:08:05 EST Hot and muggy Got rain yesterday, which I adore. Today will be hot and muggy. Tue, 15 Aug 2017 07:23:32 EST Waiting for an estimate from the vet Took our remaining kitty to the vet for a check up...$97 <BR> She needed to be sedated for labs. $303 <BR> Has a urinary infection. $92 <BR> Now we are waiting for an estimate to get her teeth cleaned and some extracted, under anesthesia! Yikes. <BR> Mon, 14 Aug 2017 06:42:50 EST Cat refuses to eat her new food She went all day yesterday without eating. She is supposed to be on soft food now but will only lick the top. <BR> Mum is losing her memory.... Sun, 13 Aug 2017 07:40:22 EST Another week down Awake at 3:30...ugh. Today we have to go to the vet before we get Mum for church. Our Calico has some gingivitis and needs antibiotics for a UTI as well. A week of mess and then she goes in for teeth cleaning and tomhVe some pulled. Sat, 12 Aug 2017 05:25:31 EST Watch the documentary. WHAT THE HEALTH Oh my. What an eye-opening documentary about our health, how we SHOULD Abe eating, and the food industry. We watched it on YouTube for free. Fri, 11 Aug 2017 07:22:34 EST Doctor found "lattice and thinning" So I'm grateful I pushed to have the "good" eye thoroughly examined and prophylactically lasered. Took 1,347 laser bursts to weld the retina in place. Praying, only asking for just one eye. Will take whatever we get. Thanks for all the prayers! Thu, 10 Aug 2017 07:05:19 EST "Good" eye gets lasered today Praying the lasering will hold the retina of his good eye in place. Wed, 9 Aug 2017 05:17:04 EST Another eye exam Having the new lens checked today. Tue, 8 Aug 2017 06:55:06 EST Very full day Taking our remaining cat to the vet, have to go to the bank, the gardener is suppose to come, and a carpenter. And ai have to see Mum... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 05:30:17 EST Going hiking today Weather is great, beloved's eye isn't hurting, so off we go to get in some miles! Sun, 6 Aug 2017 07:43:22 EST Taking Mum to church, with beloved He can drive today so will be back in church. Sabbath is a long day for me, with lots to do for Mum, making lunch, and staying with her all day. It is her favorite day of the week! Sat, 5 Aug 2017 06:11:38 EST