CHERYLE51's SparkPeople Blog CHERYLE51's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Sudden Death My family experienced a shocking experience this past week. Our 21-year-old former foster daughter passed away suddenly due to an apparent drug overdose. She had lived with us off and on for 4 years. She had moved out in April of this year. It was a numbing experience and one that will not be forgotten for a long time. <BR> I have lost some weight since my last go around. I lost about 6 pounds, but am now at a standstill. I usually eat very well, but in our family, there is always a pizz... Thu, 16 Nov 2017 21:37:29 EST Wraps, Shakes, Etc. Anyone have any luck with these things? I have never tried a wrap. I have tried a couple of different shakes, but they have all left me hungry. I don't understand the point of shakes. If you are consuming x amount of calories why drink a shake, why not just eat that amount of calories. I have been eating yogurt with a banana and a piece of whole wheat bread for breakfast. I think it's around 300 calories. This usually keeps me pretty full until lunchtime. What is everyone's opinion? Sun, 12 Nov 2017 22:10:22 EST Feeling better I think the key to feeling better is to stick to skirts and dresses until it cools down. The pants just stuck to me yesterday. Tue, 26 Sep 2017 19:34:37 EST Painful Day In a lot of pain. I bid on another at an elementary building as a one on one. I am a classroom aide right now and am everywhere. I’m hoping if I get the job I will be more in one room. If it doesn’t feel any better tomorrow going to call doctor. Frustrating Mon, 25 Sep 2017 22:10:42 EST Day 5 Post Injection Today is five days since the hip injection. So far I haven't had any relief. In fact, it feels worse. I don't know if it is just due to me walking more right now due to going back to work or if this is just the way it is always going to be. I take a pain pill in the morning and need another one by 11:30 lunch. I came home and iced it, but just took another pain pill. I just don't know what to do. The doctor said it can take a week or two, so I am praying it will get better. Thanks for... Tue, 12 Sep 2017 20:56:31 EST Making It Through the Week It was the first four day week of school. I enjoy my new adventures as a paraprofessional. I was really nervous because I was afraid I would not like my teachers and/or classes that I am in. It is all good. I am really exhausted. <BR> I had my first cortisone injection in my hip yesterday morning. It did not hurt very much. I was told today I would be in extreme pain. I was in some pain, but nothing that I couldn't handle. The doctor said it can take a week or two to really get the f... Fri, 8 Sep 2017 19:45:22 EST I am a nervous wreck The big day is tomorrow. I don't know what to expect. I won't see my schedule until tomorrow. I hope I can get some sleep. Last night was rough. my hip was really hurting and I just couldn't seem to fall asleep. By this time tomorrow it will all be over. Extremely hungry today . Maybe stress ? Wed, 30 Aug 2017 19:55:43 EST The Party is almost Over My party as in my summer vacation is almost over. I go back to work on Tuesday. The first two days are Inservice which is good to ease into the school year. The first day of school is Thursday, August 31st. The kids have two days and then a 3 day weekend and then 4 days. I hope I am up for the challenge. Last year was good mentally, but physically a little rough. I went from a secretary to a teacher's aide which required a lot of walking. You would think I would have lost weight, but I... Fri, 25 Aug 2017 14:49:27 EST I Am Stupid I weighed in am back where I started. I don't know why this is so hard for me. Anyway I got good news from the doctor, I can get cortisone injections in my hip. I am planning on surgery but not until school's is out. Sat, 19 Aug 2017 21:52:00 EST i DON'T UNDERSTAND APPETITE I don't understand my appetite. I can eat a certain combination of foods for 2 or 3 or 4 days in a row and feel full and not hungry. Then, one day I am starving. I just don't understand it. I feel like I am eating the right foods by eating xyz and then one day I eat xyz and it doesn't fill me up and I am starving. Maybe there is some kind of science to this, but I don't know what it is. <BR> My depression is a little bit better, still not 100% ok. I love my DD23 and she wants to watch t... Tue, 15 Aug 2017 16:11:12 EST Feeling Very Depressed Today I am just not having a good day. Nothing major, just having a blah day. I need to get out of the house more. In a way, I can't wait to get back to work. I have cleaned our bedroom and organized my clothes in colors. I would love to organize my cupboards, but can't bend down due to hip issues. I want to clean do more but I can't bend. Oh well I'll be back to work soon enough and be complaining about work. Mon, 14 Aug 2017 20:30:57 EST Proud of Myself Today DH and I went out for breakfast this morning. Breakfast is my favorite meal. I love pancakes, eggs, bacon, etc. I especially love pancakes because I don't like to make them at home. I told myself last night that I was going to eat healthily and I stuck to it. It was not easy. The pancakes were calling me like the chocolate candy and/or cake does sometimes. I wish they would be quiet. Anyhow, I ordered an egg white sandwich with swiss cheese lettuce and tomato on whole wheat bread. It... Fri, 11 Aug 2017 16:21:14 EST I AM TURNING INTO MY MOTHER I am 59 years old and I think I am turning into my mother. The main reason is I now have to wear pants with an elastic waist that are very baggy. I went to the Thrift Store and bought some pants with an elastic waist like my mother has always worn. The main reason is my hip. I cannot wear anything that remotely touches my hip. At this point, as long as they are comfortable, I don't care. <BR> Tomorrow I am going to weigh myself and mentally prepare myself for a number I don't like, but v... Tue, 8 Aug 2017 14:14:59 EST I will be buzzed tonight I woke up this morning and felt really achy, sore, etc. I've been drinking Diet Coke all day. I think I have drunk about 6 cans. If I can't sleep tonight I will know why. I normally drink maybe one or two cans. <BR> A dreary and depressing day here in Pittsburgh <BR> We had more plumbing problems. There was a leaky pipe downstairs. Fortunately not a real big deal only cost me about $30, but added onto the $200 yesterday, it was an expensive weekend. Sun, 6 Aug 2017 20:03:19 EST It's Always Something We came home from our vacation, only to discover that our downstairs toilet was leaking. Our sons were home and said they noticed it, but did not feel the need to tell us when we talked to them. Thankfully, it was not a huge leak, but enough to go through the floor to the basement. We called our local handyman and now have a new toilet. If it isn't one of the cars, it's something in the house. <BR> Since coming home, I have been eating better. Regretfully, even with this, I doubt I wil... Sat, 5 Aug 2017 15:40:03 EST Back on the Grid We were off the grid as my cousin says in northwestern Canada for 5 days. We got very limited cell phone reception. Anyway, it was a great 5 days, but we did eat a lot and not always the healthiest choices. I had a huge ice cream cone yesterday. I ordered a small and if that was small I can't imagine anything larger. Anyhow, it's time to get back on the grid and back to my healthy way of eating. <BR> Thu, 3 Aug 2017 23:07:23 EST Something about them Carbs I am 100% a carb lover. I wish I weren't, but I don't feel full unless I have carbs. I have tried just eating protein, but it doesn't seem to fill me up. I do really watch the type of bread/carbs I eat. It is usually whole wheat and under 100 calories for 2 pieces of bread or a bagel, etc. <BR> I need to ask my daughter what and how to make those 310 shakes. I need to get some almond milk to mix with it or yogurt. She has a little blender that she uses I just need to find it. I need t... Sun, 23 Jul 2017 13:56:14 EST Weight up 7 ounces I had a very strong feeling that my weight was going to be up. I had a lot of salt the day before. It was up the 7 ounces that I had lost the week before. I found my daughter's 310 shake mixes and am thinking of trying those for breakfast next week. Trouble is, she bought vanilla and I find vanilla very boring, but I am going to go on line and look for recipes. <BR> One more week of Extended School Year or summer school. We had therapy dogs come to school on Friday. Cookie and Lucy. ... Sat, 22 Jul 2017 17:38:55 EST Too much salt Today we had a field trip to the Pittsburgh zoo. It was very hot. Since I have a bad hip and our zoo is all uphill my job was to sit with the lunches. I drank a lot of water, but also ate quite a few pretzels with hummus. Then later I had a package of goldfish crackers. I was craving salt. Strange for me. I think tomorrow is weigh in. Tue, 18 Jul 2017 21:57:23 EST Busy Weekend I had a pretty busy weekend. Friday was the annual bidding and bumping arena at work. For those of you not familiar with this term, it is when the clerical and teacher's aides or paraprofessionals as some call them to bid or bump on a position. It is a really stupid and archaic thing to have to do, every year. Fortunately, I got my position from last year. I am happy with this. I like routine. I usually thrive on routine. Occasionally I like something different, but at work I mostly like... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 21:47:32 EST Disappointed in Weigh In I only lost 7 ounces. I am disappointed!!! I was hoping to at least a pound. Need to do something different this week. I know everyone feels this way, but why does it have to be so hard???? <BR> <BR> Oh well, at least it wasn't a gain.. Thu, 13 Jul 2017 06:31:08 EST Tomorrow is Weigh In Tomorrow is the big day. Will the scale be kind or hurtful? Hard to say... Every since my slip on Saturday, I've been doing good. <BR> One day at a time... Wed, 12 Jul 2017 18:27:27 EST Saturday was not a good day I made some unhealthy choices on Saturday. My daughter brought home donuts and I had planned on eating one, but ended up eating three. Not good. I thought about giving up, but thought no, don't let one bad day a couple of bad choices derail my efforts. I still have a way to go and plan on going for the long haul. <BR> Tomorrow is a work day and will get back into my normal routine. <BR> Thanks to everyone to their ongoing support. Sun, 9 Jul 2017 22:26:23 EST Weight is UP I knew by going on vacation that I would gain weight. Some people don't, but I started the week out eating really healthy and then just let loose a little too much. I'm only up by 3 lbs., so I haven't totally undone what I have been doing. I'm home now and ready to start back in on my healthy lifestyle. DH doesn't understand how I can gain weight so quickly. I read about the different body types which really helped me understand how our bodies are and why some people don't gain weight as ... Thu, 6 Jul 2017 09:22:56 EST First Day of Summer School Today was the first day of summer school. With the exception of it being very hot, it went well. There are 3 kids in our room and 2 teachers plus myself as an aide. <BR> I keep forgetting to weigh myself. I've been back from vacation almost a week and keep forgetting. I have to get back on the scale and back to reality. <BR> My hip has been feeling pretty good. I was in a lot of pain on vacation, I came home and got a bladder infection. I don't know if maybe that had something to do with ... Wed, 5 Jul 2017 22:11:39 EST Very, very depressed Well, the vacation is over, my birthday is over and I am really depressed today. My daughter 23, decided to go back with her loser boyfriend while we were on vacation. This has added to my depression. I know that she is an adult and can date anyone she chooses, but we strongly feel she can do a lot better. <BR> On another note, our vacation was amazing. The condo was beautiful and the area in Ft. Myers we stayed at was like something out of a Hollywood movie set. I have not weighed in and pl... Fri, 30 Jun 2017 20:48:43 EST I AM NEVER GOING ON VACATION AGAIN My family is driving me nuts about this trip. DH decided that he wanted to save every dime between the beginning of June until now. That wouldn't be a problem if we didn't have bills to pay. We paid our friend to rent the condo and he covered that with his paycheck. Only trouble is we had other bills to pay like insurance, credit cards. He gets mad when I look at my bank account and we are at a negative or about to be negative. I can't deal with this!!!!!! He doesn't understand the stress ... Wed, 21 Jun 2017 13:01:47 EST I Feel Disgusted I looked at my weight history and I am the same weight as I was on May 29th. I gained and lost the same pound until now June 19th. I do ok during normal weeks/days and I let myself go too much during birthdays and holidays. <BR> We are leaving for Florida tomorrow and I need to get packed. <BR> Tue, 20 Jun 2017 11:46:14 EST Weight is Down My weight is down 1 pound ad 1 ounce. I am almost down to all even numbers again. <BR> We are going to Florida on Wednesday. Hopefully, I will be able to get more steps in. I may not know exactly how many because I won't be wearing my tracker. <BR> <em>67</em> Mon, 19 Jun 2017 11:12:30 EST I Need This Weight Off I really, really need this weight to come off. I have to watch what kind of pants I wear because of my hip. That sounds crazy, but if the pants crease at my hip it makes it hurt a lot worse. I have a few pairs that are a bit baggy and they are ok. I bought a pair of knit capris and they are fine. I bought three dresses to wear in Florida. Dresses and skirts are fine, they are loose. <BR> In a way, I would like to have the surgery and get on with my life. I have to research how my school's sh... Sat, 17 Jun 2017 15:07:35 EST Trying to Get My Steps In We had a busy morning getting my 22-year-old son another birth certificate. He lost his and we want to get him a passport to go with us to Canada. <BR> I did do a Leslie Sansone walking video last night. I made it halfway through and my hip started hurting, so I stopped doing that. I love Leslie and prior to this hip thing, I was able to do the 3-mile walk with no problems. I got very upset and frustrated, but have to do what I can until I decide I want the surgery. <BR> We were at Wal-Mart t... Fri, 16 Jun 2017 17:41:14 EST Not Getting My Steps In Since I am no longer working, I am not getting very many steps in a day. I'm down to about 2,000 compared to about 7,000 to 8,000 per day when I worked. I need to do something about that. I would love to go to an outside track and walk, but we keep getting these evening thunderstorms and I don't want to get struck by lightening and/or rained on. <BR> I'm going to look for a walking video on YouTube or Amazon tonight. Thu, 15 Jun 2017 18:48:11 EST Hip Surgery Anyone? I went to my orthopedist on Tuesday only to find out I am a prime candidate for hip replacement. Needless to say, I was shocked. I just thought I had arthritis and that was it. My hip is bone on bone with no cartilage and some spurs. I was given a cane to help with walking. I will use the cane when I am walking a lot to help take the pressure off of my right hip. I definitely will have it done, I just don't know when. If I had planned on it, I could have had it done this summer. I have to f... Wed, 14 Jun 2017 11:51:29 EST Weight is Up My weight is up a pound. I know why. It was my DD23's birthday. It wasn't the cake that did it, it was the adult beverage that did it. I'm not going to let this get me down. I know I am making progress because a skirt that I had worn for Easter that was too tight now is a little less tight. I did a lot of walking yesterday and my hip was hurting last night. I go to the orthopedist tomorrow and am hoping I can get some answers to my questions. <BR> We are counting down to Florida and some re... Mon, 12 Jun 2017 11:08:06 EST Celebrating DD23's birthday's Today is DD23's birthday. We are having cake and going out to dinner. I bought the smallest cake the bakery had, it only serves 6-8, there are 5 of us. Years ago we used to buy a big cake and have it left over. <BR> I will try to limit myself today with food and alcohol even though it is her birthday. I have to learn how to live and lose weight. With my body that can be hard. <BR> I need to do my yoga tonight. I start watching these series on Amazon Prime or Netflix and don't want to move. Fri, 9 Jun 2017 16:17:11 EST Severe arthritis of right hip I finally reached my doctor today. I have severe arthritis of my right hip. Of course, that's good news. No surgery, DH is relieved. I follow up with the orthopedist June 13th. I doubt if he will have any "magical" cure. I have to look for the exercises given to my by the physical therapist. I will probably end up going back to physical therapy again. Tue, 6 Jun 2017 19:40:04 EST Pastries Are Calling My Name DD bought some cherry pastries for DH. I wish they would be quiet and quit calling my name. Anyhow, Friday was the last day of work/school for me. I had a meeting this morning about summer school at 8:15 am. The meeting only lasted for an hour. I came home and took a nap, but still feel like I could fall asleep. My weight has held steady, I gained an ounce, but that's ok. <BR> The doctor is going to talk to me about what is going on with my hip tomorrow. I'm actually nervous about what is g... Mon, 5 Jun 2017 20:59:19 EST Starving from Breakfast I ate a 1/2 cup of oatmeal with a splash of almond milk and a banana for breakfast. I thought that would help me not to be so hungry before lunch. I was wrong. I was absolutely starving by lunch. I ended up eating a small orange and a fiber one brownie before lunch. Before trying to lose this weight, I would eat about a cup of oatmeal for breakfast and I wasn't quite as starving by lunch. That seemed like a lot of food, over 300 for breakfast. I tried an 180 calorie protein bar the day before... Fri, 2 Jun 2017 21:03:33 EST Why Is It Getting Harder? I think I have been doing well with my diet and/or lifestyle change. It seems like this week it is getting harder. I have been feeling hungrier than usual. Yesterday I totally messed up breakfast by sleeping in and ended up eating 3 bananas before lunch. I ate two for breakfast and ended up eating one as a snack before lunch because I was starving. I felt really hungry before lunch again today and ate a small bag of carrots and my banana. <BR> There are only two more days of regular school l... Wed, 31 May 2017 17:17:14 EST Weight Down 9 ounces I am at a nice even number on the scale. <BR> I ordered a new bathing suit, but have not tried it on yet. It should fit as the size goes by your bust. I ordered it on Amazon and it's free returns, so who knows. <BR> Today is Memorial Day and my mother's 83rd birthday. I am going to really, really try hard not to drink and eat too much. <BR> I guess if I do, I have 6 days to undo any damage I have done. <BR> Well, Happy Memorial Day and remember what the true meaning of it is... <em>652</em>... Mon, 29 May 2017 12:13:41 EST Regretfully Have to Buy a Bathing Suit I tried on my 4 year old bathing suit hoping for a miracle. Well, I guess God is busy helping people who really need a miracle and not me because of gaining too much weight in 4 years. We are going to Florida June 21st. I have been trying to lose weight and may have succeeded with a few pounds, but not enough to fit back into this bathing suit. Well, now I'm just going to have to suck it up and buy a new one. I hate spending the money because they want a lot of money for something that is onl... Sat, 20 May 2017 13:10:38 EST Weight is Up and Bank Account Down My weight was a little bit up, but no one wants it to be up at all. Checked the bank account this morning and it was a -.13. I transferred some money into it, but there are so many things pending that I'm not sure it is enough. We have 13 days of school left and I think everyone including the kids has had it. I was doing what we call sight words with one of our 5th graders. The word was any and he said it was May. I asked him where there was an "m" anywhere and his comment was anyone can make... Mon, 15 May 2017 19:59:48 EST Not A Good Day Things started to go downhill last night. I smelled gas last night when we were at the drug store. I told DH who found a leak. We then called DD's boyfriend who works on cars. He came and figured out what was wrong and said he could fix it today. Only trouble is, we had 4 people who needed to be at work and were down to two cars. Well, that worked out ok. I do bus duty after school and one kid missed his stop and we had to go back and take him. Then, DD went to the ATM machine to get money ou... Wed, 10 May 2017 18:13:37 EST Weight Going Down Again Trying again. After going up again, going down again. I have to get this weight off because we are going to Florida beach. That means bathing suit, shorts that will fit and not be too tight. Mon, 8 May 2017 19:55:44 EST HIP PAIN I haven't been Sparking for awhile. No reason. <BR> <BR> Recently at the school district I work in has started having free Zumba and free Yoga classes. <BR> I have done zumba a few times and I tried yoga once. I am having a lot more hip pain lately and I was wondering if this added activity could be the reason. I am a paraprofessional at school and do a lot of walking. I average around 7,000 to 8,000 steps a day. This is up and down stairs, standing in the cafeteria 40 minutes at lunch. ... Sat, 22 Apr 2017 16:32:26 EST My One Hundred Sixty Some Pounds Life I have been watching my 600# life. If you have ever watched this show it is about people who weigh over 600 pounds and want gastric bypass surgery. Well, something that I have really learned from the show is that in order to lose weight you need willpower. The first thing the doctor does is put everyone on a 1200 calorie diet with no carbs or sugars. I watch in amazement at what some of these people can eat. Although I do not eat as much as they do, I still have to learn willpower. I real... Mon, 6 Feb 2017 20:58:06 EST I AM NOT 18 ANYMORE The reason why I say that is I was with the 5th graders in gym today trying to play a version of volleyball. I love volleyball. Anyhow, the ball came near me, so I ran to get it, slid and fell down, plop down I go. I was humiliated and embarrassed, but my main concern is my 58 1/2 year old body falling on a hard gym floor. I mainly worry about my hip. I don't need anything else to make it hurt. It hardly hurt at all tomorrow and I am going to do some of my stretches so hopefully, tomorrow i... Tue, 31 Jan 2017 19:41:51 EST WEIGHT IS UP AND HIP HURTS That about sums up my Monday. I did my exercise bike yesterday although my hip was hurting. I felt like it's ok, just move on. It didn't really hurt too bad after, but sleeping it started to throb. It was hard sleeping. I'm just taking it easy today. I got about 8,000 steps in today. <BR> Weight is up. I knew it would be. It's almost where I started a month ago. I just have to keep on doing what I am, maybe no cake, alcohol. <BR> Well, just trying to keep the spirit up. Mon, 30 Jan 2017 18:45:35 EST I Am Not Going to Give Up I am not giving up this time. It seems that in my quest for thinness usually at this point I gain a little bit and quit. This time I am not. I may have had an off week, but I really have to keep this up. I cannot give up because this weight is not going to go down on it's own. It keeps going up and if I don't do something I am really going to be in trouble. <BR> I did 30 minutes on my exercycle. I still am not getting my 10,000 steps in per day. Two weeks ago I was hitting it every day ... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 00:10:23 EST I Ate Cake Today I have a feeling that this week is not going to be a good weigh in. I ate cake today, I had some wine and a couple pieces of dark chocolate. I have been using my fitbit and walking around 7,000 steps a day. Last week I was averaging more like 10,000 which is closer to what I should be doing. <BR> I did the bike on Saturday and Sunday. Wed, 25 Jan 2017 20:46:42 EST