CHERYLE51's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CHERYLE51 CHERYLE51's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Too much salt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6389157 Today we had a field trip to the Pittsburgh zoo. It was very hot. Since I have a bad hip and our zoo is all uphill my job was to sit with the lunches. I drank a lot of water, but also ate quite a few pretzels with hummus. Then later I had a package of goldfish crackers. I was craving salt. Strange for me. I think tomorrow is weigh in. Tue, 18 Jul 2017 21:57:23 EST Busy Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388291 I had a pretty busy weekend. Friday was the annual bidding and bumping arena at work. For those of you not familiar with this term, it is when the clerical and teacher's aides or paraprofessionals as some call them to bid or bump on a position. It is a really stupid and archaic thing to have to do, every year. Fortunately, I got my position from last year. I am happy with this. I like routine. I usually thrive on routine. Occasionally I like something different, but at work I mostly like... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 21:47:32 EST Disappointed in Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386795 I only lost 7 ounces. I am disappointed!!! I was hoping to at least a pound. Need to do something different this week. I know everyone feels this way, but why does it have to be so hard???? <BR> <BR> Oh well, at least it wasn't a gain.. Thu, 13 Jul 2017 06:31:08 EST Tomorrow is Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386615 Tomorrow is the big day. Will the scale be kind or hurtful? Hard to say... Every since my slip on Saturday, I've been doing good. <BR> One day at a time... Wed, 12 Jul 2017 18:27:27 EST Saturday was not a good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385397 I made some unhealthy choices on Saturday. My daughter brought home donuts and I had planned on eating one, but ended up eating three. Not good. I thought about giving up, but thought no, don't let one bad day a couple of bad choices derail my efforts. I still have a way to go and plan on going for the long haul. <BR> Tomorrow is a work day and will get back into my normal routine. <BR> Thanks to everyone to their ongoing support. Sun, 9 Jul 2017 22:26:23 EST Weight is UP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383984 I knew by going on vacation that I would gain weight. Some people don't, but I started the week out eating really healthy and then just let loose a little too much. I'm only up by 3 lbs., so I haven't totally undone what I have been doing. I'm home now and ready to start back in on my healthy lifestyle. DH doesn't understand how I can gain weight so quickly. I read about the different body types which really helped me understand how our bodies are and why some people don't gain weight as ... Thu, 6 Jul 2017 09:22:56 EST First Day of Summer School http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383833 Today was the first day of summer school. With the exception of it being very hot, it went well. There are 3 kids in our room and 2 teachers plus myself as an aide. <BR> I keep forgetting to weigh myself. I've been back from vacation almost a week and keep forgetting. I have to get back on the scale and back to reality. <BR> My hip has been feeling pretty good. I was in a lot of pain on vacation, I came home and got a bladder infection. I don't know if maybe that had something to do with ... Wed, 5 Jul 2017 22:11:39 EST Very, very depressed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6381784 Well, the vacation is over, my birthday is over and I am really depressed today. My daughter 23, decided to go back with her loser boyfriend while we were on vacation. This has added to my depression. I know that she is an adult and can date anyone she chooses, but we strongly feel she can do a lot better. <BR> On another note, our vacation was amazing. The condo was beautiful and the area in Ft. Myers we stayed at was like something out of a Hollywood movie set. I have not weighed in and pl... Fri, 30 Jun 2017 20:48:43 EST I AM NEVER GOING ON VACATION AGAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6377919 My family is driving me nuts about this trip. DH decided that he wanted to save every dime between the beginning of June until now. That wouldn't be a problem if we didn't have bills to pay. We paid our friend to rent the condo and he covered that with his paycheck. Only trouble is we had other bills to pay like insurance, credit cards. He gets mad when I look at my bank account and we are at a negative or about to be negative. I can't deal with this!!!!!! He doesn't understand the stress ... Wed, 21 Jun 2017 13:01:47 EST I Feel Disgusted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6377470 I looked at my weight history and I am the same weight as I was on May 29th. I gained and lost the same pound until now June 19th. I do ok during normal weeks/days and I let myself go too much during birthdays and holidays. <BR> We are leaving for Florida tomorrow and I need to get packed. <BR> Tue, 20 Jun 2017 11:46:14 EST Weight is Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6377032 My weight is down 1 pound ad 1 ounce. I am almost down to all even numbers again. <BR> We are going to Florida on Wednesday. Hopefully, I will be able to get more steps in. I may not know exactly how many because I won't be wearing my tracker. <BR> <em>67</em> Mon, 19 Jun 2017 11:12:30 EST I Need This Weight Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6376328 I really, really need this weight to come off. I have to watch what kind of pants I wear because of my hip. That sounds crazy, but if the pants crease at my hip it makes it hurt a lot worse. I have a few pairs that are a bit baggy and they are ok. I bought a pair of knit capris and they are fine. I bought three dresses to wear in Florida. Dresses and skirts are fine, they are loose. <BR> In a way, I would like to have the surgery and get on with my life. I have to research how my school's sh... Sat, 17 Jun 2017 15:07:35 EST Trying to Get My Steps In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6376010 We had a busy morning getting my 22-year-old son another birth certificate. He lost his and we want to get him a passport to go with us to Canada. <BR> I did do a Leslie Sansone walking video last night. I made it halfway through and my hip started hurting, so I stopped doing that. I love Leslie and prior to this hip thing, I was able to do the 3-mile walk with no problems. I got very upset and frustrated, but have to do what I can until I decide I want the surgery. <BR> We were at Wal-Mart t... Fri, 16 Jun 2017 17:41:14 EST Not Getting My Steps In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6375623 Since I am no longer working, I am not getting very many steps in a day. I'm down to about 2,000 compared to about 7,000 to 8,000 per day when I worked. I need to do something about that. I would love to go to an outside track and walk, but we keep getting these evening thunderstorms and I don't want to get struck by lightening and/or rained on. <BR> I'm going to look for a walking video on YouTube or Amazon tonight. Thu, 15 Jun 2017 18:48:11 EST Hip Surgery Anyone? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6375073 I went to my orthopedist on Tuesday only to find out I am a prime candidate for hip replacement. Needless to say, I was shocked. I just thought I had arthritis and that was it. My hip is bone on bone with no cartilage and some spurs. I was given a cane to help with walking. I will use the cane when I am walking a lot to help take the pressure off of my right hip. I definitely will have it done, I just don't know when. If I had planned on it, I could have had it done this summer. I have to f... Wed, 14 Jun 2017 11:51:29 EST Weight is Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6374145 My weight is up a pound. I know why. It was my DD23's birthday. It wasn't the cake that did it, it was the adult beverage that did it. I'm not going to let this get me down. I know I am making progress because a skirt that I had worn for Easter that was too tight now is a little less tight. I did a lot of walking yesterday and my hip was hurting last night. I go to the orthopedist tomorrow and am hoping I can get some answers to my questions. <BR> We are counting down to Florida and some re... Mon, 12 Jun 2017 11:08:06 EST Celebrating DD23's birthday's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6373024 Today is DD23's birthday. We are having cake and going out to dinner. I bought the smallest cake the bakery had, it only serves 6-8, there are 5 of us. Years ago we used to buy a big cake and have it left over. <BR> I will try to limit myself today with food and alcohol even though it is her birthday. I have to learn how to live and lose weight. With my body that can be hard. <BR> I need to do my yoga tonight. I start watching these series on Amazon Prime or Netflix and don't want to move. Fri, 9 Jun 2017 16:17:11 EST Severe arthritis of right hip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6371797 I finally reached my doctor today. I have severe arthritis of my right hip. Of course, that's good news. No surgery, DH is relieved. I follow up with the orthopedist June 13th. I doubt if he will have any "magical" cure. I have to look for the exercises given to my by the physical therapist. I will probably end up going back to physical therapy again. Tue, 6 Jun 2017 19:40:04 EST Pastries Are Calling My Name http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6371358 DD bought some cherry pastries for DH. I wish they would be quiet and quit calling my name. Anyhow, Friday was the last day of work/school for me. I had a meeting this morning about summer school at 8:15 am. The meeting only lasted for an hour. I came home and took a nap, but still feel like I could fall asleep. My weight has held steady, I gained an ounce, but that's ok. <BR> The doctor is going to talk to me about what is going on with my hip tomorrow. I'm actually nervous about what is g... Mon, 5 Jun 2017 20:59:19 EST Starving from Breakfast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370068 I ate a 1/2 cup of oatmeal with a splash of almond milk and a banana for breakfast. I thought that would help me not to be so hungry before lunch. I was wrong. I was absolutely starving by lunch. I ended up eating a small orange and a fiber one brownie before lunch. Before trying to lose this weight, I would eat about a cup of oatmeal for breakfast and I wasn't quite as starving by lunch. That seemed like a lot of food, over 300 for breakfast. I tried an 180 calorie protein bar the day before... Fri, 2 Jun 2017 21:03:33 EST Why Is It Getting Harder? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6369125 I think I have been doing well with my diet and/or lifestyle change. It seems like this week it is getting harder. I have been feeling hungrier than usual. Yesterday I totally messed up breakfast by sleeping in and ended up eating 3 bananas before lunch. I ate two for breakfast and ended up eating one as a snack before lunch because I was starving. I felt really hungry before lunch again today and ate a small bag of carrots and my banana. <BR> There are only two more days of regular school l... Wed, 31 May 2017 17:17:14 EST Weight Down 9 ounces http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6368089 I am at a nice even number on the scale. <BR> I ordered a new bathing suit, but have not tried it on yet. It should fit as the size goes by your bust. I ordered it on Amazon and it's free returns, so who knows. <BR> Today is Memorial Day and my mother's 83rd birthday. I am going to really, really try hard not to drink and eat too much. <BR> I guess if I do, I have 6 days to undo any damage I have done. <BR> Well, Happy Memorial Day and remember what the true meaning of it is... <em>652</em>... Mon, 29 May 2017 12:13:41 EST Regretfully Have to Buy a Bathing Suit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6364366 I tried on my 4 year old bathing suit hoping for a miracle. Well, I guess God is busy helping people who really need a miracle and not me because of gaining too much weight in 4 years. We are going to Florida June 21st. I have been trying to lose weight and may have succeeded with a few pounds, but not enough to fit back into this bathing suit. Well, now I'm just going to have to suck it up and buy a new one. I hate spending the money because they want a lot of money for something that is onl... Sat, 20 May 2017 13:10:38 EST Weight is Up and Bank Account Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362388 My weight was a little bit up, but no one wants it to be up at all. Checked the bank account this morning and it was a -.13. I transferred some money into it, but there are so many things pending that I'm not sure it is enough. We have 13 days of school left and I think everyone including the kids has had it. I was doing what we call sight words with one of our 5th graders. The word was any and he said it was May. I asked him where there was an "m" anywhere and his comment was anyone can make... Mon, 15 May 2017 19:59:48 EST Not A Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360282 Things started to go downhill last night. I smelled gas last night when we were at the drug store. I told DH who found a leak. We then called DD's boyfriend who works on cars. He came and figured out what was wrong and said he could fix it today. Only trouble is, we had 4 people who needed to be at work and were down to two cars. Well, that worked out ok. I do bus duty after school and one kid missed his stop and we had to go back and take him. Then, DD went to the ATM machine to get money ou... Wed, 10 May 2017 18:13:37 EST Weight Going Down Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359438 Trying again. After going up again, going down again. I have to get this weight off because we are going to Florida beach. That means bathing suit, shorts that will fit and not be too tight. Mon, 8 May 2017 19:55:44 EST HIP PAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6352062 I haven't been Sparking for awhile. No reason. <BR> <BR> Recently at the school district I work in has started having free Zumba and free Yoga classes. <BR> I have done zumba a few times and I tried yoga once. I am having a lot more hip pain lately and I was wondering if this added activity could be the reason. I am a paraprofessional at school and do a lot of walking. I average around 7,000 to 8,000 steps a day. This is up and down stairs, standing in the cafeteria 40 minutes at lunch. ... Sat, 22 Apr 2017 16:32:26 EST My One Hundred Sixty Some Pounds Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311981 I have been watching my 600# life. If you have ever watched this show it is about people who weigh over 600 pounds and want gastric bypass surgery. Well, something that I have really learned from the show is that in order to lose weight you need willpower. The first thing the doctor does is put everyone on a 1200 calorie diet with no carbs or sugars. I watch in amazement at what some of these people can eat. Although I do not eat as much as they do, I still have to learn willpower. I real... Mon, 6 Feb 2017 20:58:06 EST I AM NOT 18 ANYMORE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6308639 The reason why I say that is I was with the 5th graders in gym today trying to play a version of volleyball. I love volleyball. Anyhow, the ball came near me, so I ran to get it, slid and fell down, plop down I go. I was humiliated and embarrassed, but my main concern is my 58 1/2 year old body falling on a hard gym floor. I mainly worry about my hip. I don't need anything else to make it hurt. It hardly hurt at all tomorrow and I am going to do some of my stretches so hopefully, tomorrow i... Tue, 31 Jan 2017 19:41:51 EST WEIGHT IS UP AND HIP HURTS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6308043 That about sums up my Monday. I did my exercise bike yesterday although my hip was hurting. I felt like it's ok, just move on. It didn't really hurt too bad after, but sleeping it started to throb. It was hard sleeping. I'm just taking it easy today. I got about 8,000 steps in today. <BR> Weight is up. I knew it would be. It's almost where I started a month ago. I just have to keep on doing what I am, maybe no cake, alcohol. <BR> Well, just trying to keep the spirit up. Mon, 30 Jan 2017 18:45:35 EST I Am Not Going to Give Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307010 I am not giving up this time. It seems that in my quest for thinness usually at this point I gain a little bit and quit. This time I am not. I may have had an off week, but I really have to keep this up. I cannot give up because this weight is not going to go down on it's own. It keeps going up and if I don't do something I am really going to be in trouble. <BR> I did 30 minutes on my exercycle. I still am not getting my 10,000 steps in per day. Two weeks ago I was hitting it every day ... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 00:10:23 EST I Ate Cake Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305274 I have a feeling that this week is not going to be a good weigh in. I ate cake today, I had some wine and a couple pieces of dark chocolate. I have been using my fitbit and walking around 7,000 steps a day. Last week I was averaging more like 10,000 which is closer to what I should be doing. <BR> I did the bike on Saturday and Sunday. Wed, 25 Jan 2017 20:46:42 EST Very Long Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304026 It was a rainy Monday today. It was all I could do to get myself out of bed. The day just seemed to drag. I weighed myself and I am the same. I have to try harder. I need to write down everything I eat. <BR> Mon, 23 Jan 2017 20:49:07 EST Waiting for the Steeler Game Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6303237 My hip throbbed all night. Throbbed at church and after church took a nap and took some Alleve. Feels better now. <BR> Once again, I am waiting for the Steeler game today. <BR> Weigh in is either tomorrow or Tuesday. Nervous already. I know things are headed in the right direction because clothes that were really tight fit better. Sun, 22 Jan 2017 17:38:42 EST 30 Minutes on the Bike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6302655 I did 30 minutes on my stationary bike. I did a pretty slow easy 30 minutes. I have to work my way up to a harder workout, but I did it. <BR> The weather here in Pittsburgh is beautiful, highs in te 60's. It's crazy because it just makes you long for spring and summer and then when it comes time all it does is rain. Sat, 21 Jan 2017 18:07:12 EST Having hip pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301582 My hip was bothering me today, so I thought if I rode my stationary bike it would help. Not yet. I did my bike for 20 minutes and so far today I have in 8,517 steps. I would like to get in 10,000 every day, but with my hip hurting it's hard to walk. <BR> Well, tomorrow is Friday and then the weekend. Thu, 19 Jan 2017 20:45:08 EST Happy MLK Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299537 It was a good day for me. Sad that we have a day off honoring someone who was assisnated. I had to explain to the kids at work what happened to him. I told them that someone shot him and one of the kids knew that it was at a hotel. I didn't know that. <BR> Anyhow, I did my stationery bike again for 30 minutes. My hip actually feels better after doing it. I guess it loosens it up. I'm very happy that I made the decision to buy that bike. <BR> I spent the day organizing things. I organize... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 21:12:05 EST Watching the Steeler Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6298808 Hoping for a win. The other game I was watching Green Bay and Cowboys had me a nervous wreck. Caused me to chew more gum than usual. That is my stress relief and I will probably wake up tomorrow with my jaw being sore. LOL <BR> I did my stationery bike today 30 minutes. Since it is used and didn't come with a users manual, I am going to try to look for a manual online. <BR> I have off school tomorrow for Martin Luther King, Jr. Day <BR> I was extremely lazy yesterday, never got out of my ... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 20:26:18 EST Having trouble syncing my Garmin fitbit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296235 I got a Garmin fitbit for Christmas and you are supposed to be able to sync it to Sparkpeople. It's not working right for me. <BR> I joined the group, so hopefully, someone will be able to direct me on how to do it. <BR> I didn't get as many steps in today because I didn't go grocery shopping. <BR> Wed, 11 Jan 2017 20:19:42 EST I JUMPED ROPE TODAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6295499 I am a teacher's aide, so I go with the kids to all their specials. Today was gym. They were jumping rope, so I decided to see if I could still do it. I did and it was great! I cant tell you how many minutes or counts I did, I just know that I did it. It was fun and I got my heart rate going. <BR> I lost about 2 1/2 pounds since last week. During week days I have been doing around 8,000 to 9,000 steps per day, I think today I may hit the 10,000 mark today. <BR> That's the update for ... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 18:21:21 EST HAPPY NEW YEAR 2017 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6294016 I have been thinking about getting on Spark people for about a week or so. I finally got around to it today. I gained any weight back that I had lost before the holidays. But... I bought myself a used exercycle. I thought about joining a gym, but the only thing I could do right now is either the treadmill or the exercycle. So... I decided that I would rather buy one. So for $60, I got a nice one. I also got a fitbit for Christmas. I am up to 8,000 steps when I am working. I know 10,0... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 16:48:28 EST i Need Some Advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6279442 I need some advice. I am 58 years old, slightly overweight. I am now a teacher's aide. I help the students and pick them up and drop them off at their classrooms. I am up and down stairs, walking in hallways, etc. My problem is that since I took this job in September, I wake up in the morning aching. Just my legs and hip. I somehow strained my hip last year, whole nother story. I don't, can't understand why my legs are aching when I do the same thing Monday through Friday. Shouldn't ... Sun, 11 Dec 2016 12:06:56 EST The Day After the Big Holiday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6272144 Well, today is Black Friday. DD22 and I were supposed to go shopping, but we didn't because we are getting our livingroom furniture delivered. It was finally delivered around 6:00. We could have gone shopping and been back home. Oh well, there is always tomorrow. <BR> I really ate and ate yesterday. I had turkey and all the things that go with it plus pumpkin cheese pie and a fantastic piece of whipped cream chocolate cake. <BR> I am not eating any sweets today and watching my portions o... Fri, 25 Nov 2016 21:22:52 EST Stress and Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6270414 I have't been on the scale for about a month. Once again, I gave up after gaining a few ounces. Here's the thing, I'm stressed when I am trying to lose weight and I'm stressed when I'm not. I don't know which way to turn. <BR> Nothing much else going on. Trying to get ready for Thanksgiving. <BR> Mon, 21 Nov 2016 19:34:14 EST UP A FEW OUNCES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259969 Ok. So I weighed in last week. Not what I had hoped for. I was up 6 ounces. Not a lot, but I did think I was going to lose at least the 2 ounces that I wanted to lose. This set me on a bit of a binge. We had a luncheon that day at work and I did indulge. I was not good over the weekend. I did have to sample a few of the pieces of Halloween candy to make sure it was ok for the trick or treaters. It was good, especially the ghost Reese's peanut butter. The candy corn Hershey bar wasn't b... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 19:48:42 EST DOWN A FEW OUNCES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255608 Ok, I got on the scale on Friday and I'm down a few ounces. If I can lose 2 ounces by next week, I will be in a different number. This is the highest weight I have ever been in my life. I am not putting on any muscle because my clothes fit like I'm a stuffed sausage. I had on a pair of pants this week and felt horrible. I'm really thinking of my eating habits and am thinking how to incorporate more fresh fruits and vegetables into my diet and yes, more exercise. It's just such a slow process ... Sat, 22 Oct 2016 22:26:39 EST DOWN A FEW OUNCES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255607 Ok, I got on the scale on Friday and I'm down a few ounces. If I can lose 2 ounces by next week, I will be in a different number. This is the highest weight I have ever been in my life. I am not putting on any muscle because my clothes fit like I'm a stuffed sausage. I had on a pair of pants this week and felt horrible. I'm really thinking of my eating habits and am thinking how to incorporate more fresh fruits and vegetables into my diet and yes, more exercise. It's just such a slow process ... Sat, 22 Oct 2016 22:26:39 EST AFRAID TO GET ON THE SCALE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254559 My normal weigh in day is Wednesday. I could not do it. I am so afraid that I have gained or stayed the same and will get disgusted. I don't think I have eaten as well as I could have, so I am really afraid. I am gong to start eating better this week and I will get on the scale next week.I know this is crazy, but that's the way I feel. I need some words of wisdom to help me get back on the scale. I feel like I need a quick fix like diet pills, but they make me cranky and miserable. What can I... Thu, 20 Oct 2016 14:46:18 EST SO VERY DISGUSTED TODAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6250599 Today was my weigh in. I stayed the same. I know that this may be an ok thing, but I don't like it. I am at a standstill. So disappointed!!! I just want to give up and eat an entire chocolate cake. I mean if I am not eating all the goodies an trying to eat healthy, why doesn't the scale show it? I probably know the reasons, maybe eating a little too much or not exactly the right foods, but why does it have to be so hard? I remember in my 20's, I would watch what I ate for a couple of days a... Wed, 12 Oct 2016 19:26:49 EST Baby It's Cold In Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6248920 I cant believe I am saying this... but... it's cold here. The temperature in our house is 66 degrees. I am sitting here with a throw and a dog under my arm trying to stay warm. I am really trying not to give in and turn the heat on. Just a few weeks ago we were sweating. That is the crazy weather we have here in Pittsburgh. <BR> Weight wise, it was not a successful week. I was up a little bit on the scale. I am trying not to stress over it and give up. It's funny because if you had asked me a... Sun, 9 Oct 2016 17:22:45 EST