CHERRYCOW's SparkPeople Blog CHERRYCOW's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Where Did the Hunger Go? (July Goal Update) Today is the second day of my experiment/goal not to eat bread and cut other carbs except for vegetables and fruits in half. Yesterday was tough, but last night around bedtime I realized I wasn't insanely hungry and searching for snacks. I usually have to eat again before bed (I know thats bad) because my stomach won't settle down. Last night I kept waiting and waiting to be hungry, but nothing. <BR> <BR> Today haven't felt as inclined to eat a lot in one sitting. I usually don't want to st... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 17:18:33 EST Falling Off the Wagon Hurts (July Goals and Thoughts Knocking Around my Head) Sorry this is so long; it's been 3 months and I really needed to get thoughts out of my head. <BR> <BR> In April our financial situation worsened to a point that the internet was turned off for a month. Without my support system here and the internet to listen to my radio show as I work out I got completely off track. <BR> <BR> Then no one noticed the 25lbs I lost and it made me feel completely defeated. I was really dieting for health reasons more than appearance and knew it was dumb to ... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 04:19:06 EST I Haven't Abandoned Spark People (or My Goals!) Unfortunately I'm having some internet issues and I'm not able to log in or track every day right now but I'm keeping on track as best I can and miss the community a lot. Hopefully the issue will be solved in a couple days. I just wanted to leave a note for everyone that I'm not, "gone", just taking a forced SP break I guess. I miss you all! Good luck on your goals and I shall return soon! Wed, 17 Apr 2013 14:37:07 EST My Surprising Benefit from Exercise I happened to test my resting heart rate today; first time since the first day of my diet about 2 and a half months ago. I consistently came in between 80-100 before, and I was super surprised to find that my heart rate was 68 today. It seems logical, but being so obsessed with the scale and the measuring tape I never stopped to think of other indications of success. <BR> <BR> Lately I have been feeling bummed because I haven't lost as much weight or inches as I'd like thus far, but this sho... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 18:26:49 EST I Finally Got a SmartPhone!! Yay for Fitness Apps! Yay!! Now I can download lots of nifty exercise apps to use for running. I've been bursting to try a few apps for over a year, but it took a while to save up enough for a phone since I don't use contracts. <BR> <BR> I can't wait to get Zombies! Run! it's a game where you run away from zombies, physically run and it counts your mileage. It'll tell you to go so far for water or supplies, and if you slack off the zombies, which you can ear in the background, get closer and louder. If I'm not m... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 14:07:21 EST *GASP!* Did I Really Drink That!? I've been doing so well that today I decided to try a frozen hot chocolate from DQ. Wanted to try one for months and never got around to it. I never eat out so I thought once in my life couldn't hurt. <BR> <BR> We get to the drive-thru and my mom asks "What Size?" <BR> <BR> "Small", I reply. <BR> <BR> "Medium..", she tells the girl taking the order. <BR> <BR> "My diet doesn't thank you.", I say half jokingly... ok really not. <BR> <BR> "Well, you gotta be able to taste it...", she re... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 00:55:52 EST Training for Running Begins Now, or Two Weeks Ago. There Goes my Cart Past the Horse. I recently started training to run; which at this point is still a fast walk.. indoors. However, I've noticed I'm already getting better and I hope to be alternating running and walking outside by the time it's warm enough. Running is something I've wanted to get into for at least 5 years, but honestly I am lazy. lol It wasn't until my recent diet, scratch that, lifestyle change that I seriously entertained the idea beyond looking up articles about how to begin. <BR> <BR> This is only week t... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 23:32:36 EST Cookie Rush - Healthy Cookies (Pic and Recipe) and My Sugar Addiction Since I've started my diet I've been more lenient on my diet than I have on working out. I don't pig out every day, but I mainly focus on cutting back on butter and most junk food and I eat a portioned amount of my dinner whatever it may be. I don't eat chips or much chocolate and soda anyway since I'm allergic to caffeine (Yes, it sucks) so it hasn't been too hard. <BR> <BR> However, I have been sneaking in a bit of sugar in the form of really terrible cereal or breaking up the occasional... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:56:31 EST Anxiety is Ruining My Life This bothers me a lot and I don't feel like I have anyone I can talk to, so I'm venting a little. <BR> <BR> I've suffered with extreme anxiety for years, gradually worsening as I age. It's the reason for most of my weight gain, due to emotional eating, fatigue, and fear of doing things around others, even fun things. I have the eating mostly under control now and I'm exercise at home, but I've just recently realized that I'm an adult and I can't work, go to school, or drive because I'm afra... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 15:56:01 EST Month One: Done and Done (Long) Recap! First off, since this became a monster post I wanted to say "thank you" to SparkPeople and the entire community here at the top. Everyone's support helped me keep motivated through the month, and made me think twice before quitting. I've also met some really cool people this month, and can't wait to learn more about you all and root for your own success. The site's wealth of knowledge helped me educate myself daily and makes this feel more like the right lifestyle choice rather than torture t... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 18:55:02 EST I Almost Gave Up Today For the past couple weeks I haven't seen much change in my weight or measurements. In fact, I only lost one pound the week before last, and my Wii Fit game (Which is the only scale I have right now.) said I gained a pound last week although I still protest because I have no idea how that happened. I've exercised every day and I ate well all month. Anyway, the lack of motivation from results and couple with stress and less than stimulating exercise made me begin to dread my workouts. I didn't ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 18:05:36 EST My Biggest Weight Loss Fear is Being Realized! Today my arms felt sore from my workouts so I was touching them and I noticed they're finally started to look and feel smaller. I'm rounding out my first month and was worried because they were staying the same while I was losing inches everywhere else. I was happy to notice they they do look smaller, then I moved my arm and noticed I have wings forming. Wings are better than fat I guess, but this is my biggest weight loss fear. <BR> <BR> I have 100+ lbs to lose so yeah, I didn't expect eve... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 11:36:57 EST A Very Bumpy Week 3 Has Ended. Nice Try, Depression. I'm so glad week 3 is over and I'm still alive. Week 3 has been terrible. I hit the occasional rough spot with my depression and my sleep, appetite, and mood suffered as a result. Weighed this morning and found that I gained a pound since Thursday. I've been running it over in my head trying to figure out how. I didn't splurge or anything and I thought I exercised as well as I could. I've still lost a pound since last week. A small victory is better than none. <BR> <BR> The dreaded fluctua... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 10:23:21 EST Broke Through a Major Case of the Lazies Today. Yesterday I couldn't drink more than 8 glasses of water, where I'm used to 12-15, due to our well being frozen. As a result I got a bit of a headache and I wasn't able to sleep last night. That threw the entire day off today, I napped all day and finally made myself get up to exercise. Wanted to skip so badly, but I convinced myself to just do 20 minutes. After I got started I decided to go ahead and do my entire 50 minutes. <BR> <BR> So excited I broke through this! Getting lazy and not wa... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 21:15:43 EST Measurement Time! I cheated a little and did my measurements a couple weeks early. I couldn't wait any longer. lol Overall I was pleased to have lost 2 inches in my midsection. Though, Didn't see any change in my arms and neck. Will have to do some extra arm exercises and figure something out for my neck. The big win though was my thighs; a few days ago I noticed that they looked smaller, and I was right. I lost 6.5 inches in them since January 7th!! I'm blown away. Kickboxing is being very good to me; at leas... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 18:30:57 EST I Want to Be the "Hot Girl You Wish You Dated" I know this is an incredibly shallow desire, but I was a "fat girl" throughout school, maybe not the fattest in the room, but at least 2nd-or 3rd place. Couple that with my anxiety and extreme shyness and I never got attention from boys. It didn't really bother me too much at the time; I've always been the type that has more important things to worry about, but now looking back I feel like I missed out on part of that typical teenager experience. Even when I did kinda have boyfriends, they wo... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 14:21:56 EST Completed My Daily Workout Goal and tried yoga for the First Time Today! My resolution was to follow a workout schedule this year, without adding an unnecessary amount to lose weight faster, which I always end up doing and thus burning myself out within a month. I decided to do the Turbo Jam series and follow the schedule, then do 10 minutes of yoga per day and after that, only if I feel like it, add 30 minutes of something "fun" in the evening such as walking on the treadmill while watching tv, a dance game, or a belly dance video. Today was the first time I did... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 13:32:47 EST I Made It Through Week One! Week one is over and today marks the beginning of week two. I didn't miss a day of scheduled exercise, which ultimately is my goal for now. I'm only schedule for 5 days a week, and today I felt a little weak after missing a couple days. I'm not sure if it was the little break, or if today is an off day. Had a terrible night last night with multiple power outages which left me tired today. I can't sleep when the power is out for some odd reason. Didn't feel like working out today, but I made m... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 14:08:09 EST Yesterday Was a Diet Success. (For a Change.) Yesterday I stayed on the low end of my recommended calorie range and resisted the temptation to eat every bit of junk food I see throughout the day, (Which is a lot.) I even made a healthier dinner for myself instead of eating the hamburger helper everyone else asked for. <BR> <BR> I'm not the type to try and eliminate every bit of unhealthy food from my diet, because I know that for myself that's just asking for failure. Though, I live with a bunch of hardcore junk food junkies and it's h... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 08:16:16 EST New Active Lifestyle - Day 2. Turbo Jammin'! Woke up a bit sore from yesterday's workout, but not uncomfortably so. Finished my second Turbo Jam workout today; the last day of Learn & Burn. Most of the moves came a bit easier and I got tired faster today. I think due to the fact that I was a little sore to begin with, but I kept moving the entire time and tried to concentrate on perfecting my form rather than being tired. Now that I've finished the second workout I'm really starting to "feel the burn", in my arms and abs. I love the sor... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 17:18:50 EST The Christmas Weight is Already Shedding Away. I did my first weigh in last week on Dec. 30th and today I did my first official "diet" weigh in. I've lost 4 lbs since last week just by getting back to my regular eating schedule. It's a good thing Christmas is only once a year. <BR> <em>246</em> <em>244</em> Mon, 7 Jan 2013 13:00:22 EST Finished My First Workout! <em>249</em> I just finished my first Turbo Jam workout. I've always wanted to try kickboxing so I thought it would be an interesting series to try; keeping with my new years resolution to choose fun workouts in order to ward off the dreaded burnout. Today's actual workout was only about 16 minutes since I started with the Learn & Burn video, but I'm pleasantly surprised that I didn't get bored. I've tried workout videos several times over the years and I can never stick with them because I... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 12:53:34 EST 2012 Resolution = Success! I'm usually the negative type; always focusing on my failures rather than my success. I know it's a terrible thing to do, but it's a hard habit to break sometimes. Especially when it comes to self image and weight because a lot of times others aren't so kind either. For the past few days I've been sad about all my failures from last year, among them, ending another year without reaching my weight loss goals. <BR> <BR> Tonight, however, I realized something. I actually achieved my heal... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 03:44:25 EST