CHENRY1173's SparkPeople Blog CHENRY1173's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Sickly Aw man, I hate being sick. It super sucks, to put it mildly. Friday was the best day of sick though. Friday I didn't feel sick, I just was sick. (I know you're totally confused right now and that's all right.) You know how your whole body kind of aches or your head doesn't feel right on top of the stuffy nose, coughing and all that comes with being sick? Well, Friday I only had a stuffy nose. And this intense desire to sleep. If it weren't for the fact that my whole entire sinus cavity... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 16:53:01 EST Driving the road, Walking the line I have fallen into the trap! Last week started with me feeling gross and sickly. I took a couple of days off from the workout routine. Got back into it, felt great and then promptly started this weird sporadic thing. Consequently, I let a few extra higher caloried friends slip in too. <BR> But that was last week. This week I'm re-focusing, recommitting and getting back on track. On Wednesday. The middle of the week. <BR> No, no, no, really, I'm totally getting back on track. I've exe... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 15:43:42 EST Monday, Monday I was up a teensy bit yesterday. A bit disappointing but it is what it is. I did marginally well at tracking my food/exercise but I feel like I'm getting smug and slipping. Can't you let it go to your head! <BR> The goal this week: Remain fixated upon my goals. Don't let complacency slip in. <BR> And don't be sick. I don't feel so hot right now.... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:30:46 EST Goals So I have this goal to blog 3 times a week. The big thing is to check in with the people (possibly imaginary) that read this blog so they know I'm still alive, kicking and doing the things I promised I would do to be healthier. <BR> I wanted to try to have a theme for every blog that was interesting, thought-provoking and made you open your mind to new ideas. But I talk about the same stuff everyone else does so until I let my imagination loose I suppose that's not going to happen. <BR>... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 15:24:00 EST Consistency My goal this week is to be more consistent. How do I intend to accomplish this you ask? <BR> Well, I'm glad you did because I'm happy to tell you. I am going to continue to journal (it helped me lose 5.8 lbs last week--more than I've lost any week so far!) Last week, I journaled Monday through Thursday. Then, I let it slide over the weekend. While better than normal, it's definitely something I need to improve on. So that's the big goal. What I would consider success is to track my food... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 14:55:44 EST Scattered...Geez Louise My brain is going in 10 million different directions today! I need to take my vitamins. LOL <BR> I've been trying to write this thing for over an hour. It's not going to be very long, but I'm having a hard time concentrating. The ADD is kicking in big time today! <BR> I'm just so excited about--I don't know what about--and it's got me pinging off the walls and just happy to be alive. Maybe it's endorphins. I've read somewhere when you exercise the endorphins released in your brain keep yo... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 16:16:10 EST Here's Me, Blogging Again All right, I've written this thing 3 times now. I'm having a difficult time expressing myself. While not new, definitely never stops being frustrating. I'm not trying to impress anyone, I'd just like to sound like I'm a teensy bit smart. Just a lil' bit. <BR> I decided to start blogging more regularly because I really need the accountability. Telling "someone" (even though the potential is there for it to really be no one) what I think, feel and plan means I have to attempt to do those t... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 14:42:19 EST The First One In a Long Time I'm not sure why I thought I'd blog today. I have been writing in the journal (which I really like) but today I feel like it's time to share. Share for the sake of advice, pats on the back, maybe for someone else to see they are not alone. I suppose I will figure it out, hopefully, by the time I get to the end. <BR> So I started over (AGAIN) a couple of weeks ago. I spent several months letting other people tell me what to do and finally decided it was time to get back on track. I am NO... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 13:29:50 EST HLC Mental Challenge --- Week 2 OK, I'm gonna do this the right way because last week I didn't follow directions and then I didn't get a chance to fix my mistake. Silly Cyndi! <BR> <BR> 1) I am worth it because: I am smart. <BR> 2) I am worth it because: I am hardworking. <BR> 3) I am worth it because: my kids deserve a healthy mom. <BR> 4) I am worth it because: I deserve to be happy. <BR> 5) I am worth it because: I want to feel the way my husband sees me (beautiful, confident, amazing--he's an amazing man!) <BR> <BR... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 10:46:36 EST Two Steps and a pause Two steps and a pause. The pause is where you stand up, brush off the dust, let the blush settle off your cheek and then you start again. There is no step back. The step back is admitting defeat and I refuse. I will never concede that I didn't try, even when I was doing it halfway. There was still effort there. Even when I was fumbling, lost and unsure. I was still doing something. Heck, the trying might have been harder for lack of direction. <BR> This is the story of my life, at ... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 16:34:02 EST Starting over and over and over So I have a confession to make. I have been a bad girl. I take that back. I haven't been bad just obsessive. I don't know what it's been the past few weeks but I feel this deep sense of shame and I can't even put a finger on why or where it comes from. I do know that it has really stopped me from doing the things that I not only need to do but that I like to do. <BR> This stops today. Today I vow to start over. And start small. I have a clear, concise plan for today and I mean to acco... Fri, 22 Jul 2011 09:39:54 EST The Good and The Bad Last week I was a force to be reckoned with, this week--I'm a mess!! But I don't want to be a giant whine-bag. I've spent way, way, WAY too much of my life being a total whiner when I should have been a doer! I know that doing means improvement, even if the only person who sees it is me. Heck, the only person that HAS to see it is me. What other people see doesn't matter. <BR> So this is me, being honest with myself. The things I've really improved on and the things I still need to work ... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 11:13:05 EST I never thought I'd be one of "those" people You know, one of "those" people who are vegetarian. The ones who need to beat you over the head with how awesome they are because they are vegetarian. But I am becoming one. And I see their side now. When you feel so good all the time you want to share your secret with others so they can feel better too. Not that I think meat is terrible and not that I have any moral objections to eating meat (I personally think a good burger every now and then is not just a privilege but a God given rig... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 10:30:31 EST Should I feel so good? Went vegetarian 2 days ago. I don't know, I sort of feel like I shouldn't feel so good. I feel good on every level-physically, mentally, not so much spiritually but that requires a different fix. Even with bad things happening in my life (stuff I caused and not life or death but stressful) I still feel like it's OK. Maybe I just quit caring about that stuff. I don't think so but wow, I feel GREAT! This morning I have a little bit of a headache but I think that's just because I haven't ... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 09:40:23 EST The Food Saboteur in Me Originally, this blog post was going to be about food pushing and the people who do it. But really, this isn't about them. Maybe some of them mean well, they want to share. Maybe they just want to get rid of the food. "Ask Cyndi" "Yeah, she'll eat anything." But really this is about me and my inability to push the food away. <BR> I half-heartedly said no thank you. I didn't want the glazed donut, beautiful in it's puffy pastry way. I told myself to throw the donut away. But I didn't. I... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 11:19:04 EST A new day I joined the site, was all hopped up about it and then sort of took a breather. Usually you do something for awhile before you decide to take a break from it, but I like to do things backwards. No, I really just didn't have my head totally in the game. I let myself do whatever I wanted and now I'm back and I'm ready. <BR> The group I am in has a biggest loser challenge. It's a big team challenge. Today is day one and I'm totally psyched up and motivated. I am going to be excellent and r... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 14:41:06 EST Is it silly to be excited? Seriously? Is is silly to be excited about logging my calories? I haven't eaten the best today but I have been really honest about it and that makes me feel so proud. For some reason, logging the calories does something different in my head. It feels more subjective. So instead of getting into my head and beating myself up for my choices its kind of an action/consequence kind of thinking process. So I say, well you made this choice so now you have this many calories less. <BR> I'm surp... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 17:35:07 EST Day 2 -- I'm liking this I don't know. This doesn't feel as hard as I told myself it was. Maybe I just hyped it up too much. My goal today is to log ALL my calories (including dinner, which I have yet to log but I intend to) and exercise. I figure it's a new month, a new day, a new me. A new attitude! I can do whatever I put my mind to. I am strong! I'm a fighter! <BR> That's me psyching myself up. I am going to do my best to carry the momentum forward but I won't be surprised if I fizzle out in about 3 week... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 09:36:59 EST Day 1 So I've re-written 85% of this blog like 14 times. I want to write interesting words and not seem self-involved but I suppose that's what weight loss is. That's what it has to be to get the most out of the journey. This is the time you decide you are important, you are good, deserving and worthy. It's not selfish to take care of yourself. In fact, in order to be more effective, efficient, heck, just plain there for others you have to be alive. Breathing is probably an important part of ... Tue, 31 May 2011 16:03:51 EST