CHELLESHOCKED's SparkPeople Blog CHELLESHOCKED's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My relationship with food I have an unhealthy relationship with food. We have a love/hate relationship. I love to eat! I hate how my bad food choices reflect on my body. I am working to change that. This has been an up and down battle since I joined SP way back in 2007. Keep going!! Sun, 14 Jul 2013 16:02:15 EST 2012...*sigh* At least it's over! Ahhh 2012. The year that everything was supposed to be great! This has been one of the worst years ever. For my career. For my family. For my health. For my weight. Everything! <BR> <BR> The year started out good. I was finally moving forward in my career. Finally feeling like I was getting somewhere. Then about May, a wonderful opportunity happened for my family. We sold our house, moved, and staked everything on this. Things were going great....flash forward to December.... <BR... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 15:22:48 EST New Pants.....Wow! OK so I finalllllly broke down and bought new pants for work. I am soooo cheap! I have been wearing the same ones since way back at my highest weight. These are actually a size smaller than I thought I would need! Woo hoo! The biggest thing has been the compliments I have gotten! So many people have asked me are you losing weight? You are looking thin! Wow I can not believe what difference a pair of pants could make LOL! I am the same size I was last week when I worked (I only work 3 days ... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 01:18:48 EST Baby Steps This week's babystep: eat breakfast every day. I have always done better when I eat breakfast..........but lately I have been doing the coffee for breakfast thing again. I had oatmeal today....yum! Mon, 14 Dec 2009 10:52:11 EST Wow seriously I gained 5 lbs this week. 5 lbs. You know how long it takes me to LOSE 5 lbs? It is so amazing that I can put it back on like nobody's business. <BR> <BR> Well, time to work my butt off. I was out of control this week and now I shall pay. <BR> <BR> Mwahahahahaha! <BR> <BR> Chelle Sun, 29 Nov 2009 10:19:33 EST On a side note Also, if you are looking for my monthly progress photos.........SORRY! I did not see a point in doing one this month because there was no gain/loss. I will post one next month as long as my weight isn't the same, whether it be a gain or loss. <BR> <BR> Have a happy Thanksgiving!! <BR> <BR> Chelle Wed, 25 Nov 2009 18:12:39 EST Well OK I have stayed away from the scale all week. This is a feat for me, because I want to hop on it every day. However, I do not think it is going to be pretty when I get on Sunday. I already feel like a cow LOL! I have been stuck at the same weight now for weeks and weeks.........hoping that i don't break the plateau by GAINING! We had a pot luck at work yesterday and I tried to be really good. However, since I don't even usually eat as much as I did yesterday, I felt bloated and huge an... Wed, 25 Nov 2009 18:11:12 EST Fast Break I am starting completely over with fast break today. I even reset my ticker, so it looks like I haven't lost anything LOL! Maybe this will keep me a little more motivated. I am already feeling better and am actually trying to figure out how to get my calories UP to where they need to be today. I will have a snack or something when I get home from work tonight I guess. <BR> <BR> Been a super stressful week at work with one of my coworkers getting arrested and shocking us ALL. I just coul... Sun, 15 Nov 2009 19:32:53 EST November Goals Well hubby and I have decided that the next few months we are going to be a tight budget so that we can put back a little money. So my goals are going to involve what we spoke about last night. <BR> <BR> 1. Plan out two weeks of meals in advance. I love recipezaar for this, because I have a lot of my recipes saved there. I can make a menu, then make a shopping list and go through the cabinets and see what I need and what I already have. <BR> <BR> 2. Less fat. This one does not involve... Tue, 27 Oct 2009 09:39:50 EST October Update Pics OK, it is that time again. Time for my monthly update pics to keep me in line. I cam not seeing changes from the pics even though I have lost weight........ugh. One day I will look back on them and say wow that was me??? Not yet though. <BR> <BR> Thanks for burning your eyes if you are looking at these. <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is... Mon, 26 Oct 2009 10:58:39 EST Just weird All week I hovered around 188. Yesterday when I weighed in for my team I was at 189.6 of course! And today I just weighed in to check, and I was at 188 on the nose. Wow! I couldn't get that number YESTERDAY??? LOL <BR> <BR> Oh well /rant. Thu, 15 Oct 2009 09:30:19 EST On to the 180s Finally busted into the 180s this week. I am sure doing the shred had a lot to do with it and finally my plateau is in the rearview mirror. Just gotta keep going. I can't wait to do some update pics at the end of the month so I can see my progress better. Right now I FEEL fatter than when I started, how does that work?? I will tell you how: my boobs have shrunk and my belly seems to not be shrinking. The one think I liked about me is going away and the things I hate are sticking around (... Sat, 10 Oct 2009 01:05:58 EST Mini Fast Break OK I need to kick it in gear. I am going to start a mini fast break today and start up the 30 day shred again and actually try to make it through the 30 days. I have just got to kick something in gear. <BR> <BR> Who's with me??!? <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Later, <BR> <BR> Chelle Mon, 5 Oct 2009 09:44:32 EST September Progress Photos OK so September has not been my month, but as promised I will be posting progress photos each month to keep myself accountable. I have been excercising a lot better over the last three weeks, and for the majority of days I am within my calorie range, but I can't seem to lose much AT ALL. I have stayed between 196 and 193 this month and keep fluctuating back and forth but no real loss to be shown. UGH! So on to the horrible photos from today. Please don't look at my hair. I am about to w... Tue, 22 Sep 2009 10:23:54 EST 500 Calories BURNED!! Take that bad food day! Today is a new day! YEAH! <em>104</em> Sun, 13 Sep 2009 11:55:44 EST Well that's gonna leave a mark. TODAY was awful. I could not stop eating. I have not had a day this bad since I restarted in June. I was not going to post my food for today because I was so embarrassed, but decided that I needed that little kick into reality. UGH and weigh in day is tomorrow, this should be great! The last two days I have not felt like exercising even though I have been doing really well this week and even kicked it up a notch. I had class all day today and seemed like I was hungry hungry hungry. I h... Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:12:17 EST Goals for September Well I have definitely decided to only do the progress pics once a month. I think it will be easier to see that way. <BR> <BR> I am on vacation in two days and I am not really going anywhere, just plan on doing a lot of stuff around the house. I am going to make sure I get a workout in EVERY day during this week. Also, I have at least one full day of housecleaning so I should be burning some calories there. <BR> <BR> Goals for the month of September: <BR> <BR> 1. Track every bite of f... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 17:41:51 EST Worked out today Hi all. <BR> <BR> Well I broke my dry spell and finally worked out today. Whew! <BR> <BR> I worked out this morning and ever since then I have felt shaky and like my heart is racing. Maybe it is because I have been sick this week and haven't quite got over it yet. Not sure. But luckily I work in an ER so I am going to get a nurse to check my BP and pulse when it slows down. <BR> <BR> Have a sparked day!! <em>252</em> Wed, 26 Aug 2009 17:14:00 EST No more excuses RANT to myself, feel free to read but don't expect it to make sense lol!!! <BR> <BR> OK, so the whole summer my kids and I have stayed up too late and slept too late. School started back up today. Guess what?? I have to get up early and take them every day. Guess what else that means? I have no more excuses about not having enough time to excercise! So plan goes into action tomorrow morning after I get the kids off to school. Got to get my arms and legs toned up....TIRED of the flab. ... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:57:56 EST 196 LB Photos I am adding these pictures here for posterity. I don't want to look like this anymore. I am going to try to blog weekly with updated photos so that I may look back and see it was all worth it. <BR> <BR> So here are some pics that I would have never posted online otherwise. GASP! The horror. And this is after 26 lbs of weight loss. <BR> <BR> Thanks for burning your eyes if you are looking at these LOL! Sorry if I scar you. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 24 Aug 2009 00:43:51 EST Struggling Today had a setback at breakfast I ate a chocolate donut! UGH. The rest of the day will be better, I just know it! Tue, 18 Aug 2009 11:49:23 EST BMI coming down. I am almost to the "overweight" category for my BMI instead of "obese". BMI is currently at 33.8. This will be corrected ASAP!! Things are still going well and I am still sticking to my plan!! I can't believe I have stuck it out this long. And I am getting better about not having to measure every little thing (but still pretty obsessed with it!) I can tell what a normal portion is and boy was I ever eating more than a normal portion! I am glad these changes are happening and I am glad... Sat, 8 Aug 2009 05:20:01 EST One more Down one more lb at my weigh in today. I can't believe I am actually doing this! I have usually given up by now. Maybe the changes will stick this time. I am actually getting better about measuring everything and you just can't believe how much you will eat if you don't measure!! I need to get more measuring spoons however, mine are always dirty now! LOL Sun, 26 Jul 2009 19:48:45 EST I am sad and happy today at the same time.... Well, I am wearing my absolute favorite pants to work tonight. Problem, I can't get them to stay up!! Woo HOOOO. But I hate to give up my favorite pants, I have had them for years and they are so comfy. OH WELL!! They are going to the back of the closet now. I am actually running out of clothes that will fit properly and I really haven't lost THAT much weight. Seems really weird to me, but I am happy! Go me! <em>224</em> Mon, 20 Jul 2009 22:51:52 EST Soooo I have been back at this for a month and this time it is going pretty well! I don't know why, but I haven't had near the cravings that I would previously get. I wish I wasn't such a food lover. But my new love is.....squash!! I love summer squash steamed with a little garlic, salt, and pepper. NUMMY! I am losing and people at work are actually noticing, so that is great! I am digging things out from the back of the closet! I don't know what I will do when I can't find anything that wil... Thu, 16 Jul 2009 17:44:23 EST