CHELLEBELLE104's SparkPeople Blog CHELLEBELLE104's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Happy, Hoppy, Hoopy Weeeeeee! Today, I am actually fighting being down. I have been for days. With all my job looking and trying to make things work here it feels like its not going well. I have had several job interviews but I haven't gotten any of the positions. I am not getting me time because either I'm not sleeping well at night or no one will watch the kids. I guess I am just very frustrated and needed to let off some steam. Maybe I just need to bite the bullet and do it at night. It is so much harder for me ... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 11:15:30 EST Month 2 of Phase 1 Goals M2P1: My goals for this past month were to do 750 fitness minutes, to lose 10 lbs, and walk 35 miles. <BR> <BR> Actual results: I lost 4lbs, did 515 fitness minutes and walked 16.35 miles. <BR> <BR> There isn't much to say about this than I disappointed myself for this month. Seeing it out here like this I have to be accountable to myself and others I share my journey with. I am disappointed that I didn't work as hard as I know I can. I let stuff get in the way, didn't take care of me ... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 20:33:28 EST #100happydays - Days 46, 47 and 48 Oh Happy Days... <BR> <BR> I know I am so not being perfect on getting my happy days in. I could sit here and list my reasons but to be honest it takes a few minutes to do it and I have felt blah. That's not an excuse just the truth. This blah plus that I must have caught a cold from my rainy day 5K is kind of stinky. So because I do tend to get blahs from time to time I have to just own it and move forward. Still not exercising due to injury and cold. I am going to try to tonight when... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 18:53:10 EST 3 Things to remember for future 5ks So I did my first 5K yesterday. It was an awesome feeling to complete a goal and it be on time. But with that experience came a few lessons that I need to put out there. <BR> <BR> 1.) <em>33</em> Don't skip preparing for any of it. Fail to plan, Plan to Fail. I know I could have sunk that goal of under an hour if I would have worked harder. It was completely do able. But I didn't do all my training, stretching and work that I needed to put in to get there. If I want to move forwa... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 11:05:24 EST #100happydays - Day 45 Happy 45! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am so grateful and happy. Today, I competed in my first 5K race. The weather decided to give me some rain to walk too. But I did it and it was great. I feel so accomplished too. I did it in 1 hour, 4 minutes and 38 seconds. Okay so it isn't the under an hour I was hoping for but it is awesome still. When I first challenged myself with this I thought I would be doing good to be ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 12:03:26 EST #100happydays - Day 44 Day 44 - <BR> <BR> Today was a good day over all. I went on my first interview in a while. Honestly, I don't think I got the job. I got really nervous and all my answers sounded uncomfortable. But I'm okay. It was good practice. I am happy I am not let this upset me and feel like i FAILED AGAIN. No, I am seeing this as a stepping stone. It's a step forward in my life. <BR> <BR> I also find that I am slipping back into my excuse mode of life. I don't want to be that person anymore... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 23:01:07 EST #100happydays - Day 41, 42 and 43 Happy Monday! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> As I promised. <BR> <BR> Day 41 - I am happy that I am gaining confidence. I reached out to a guy I dated a few years ago on Saturday. We kind of stopped dating due to some personal issues and it was a bit of a mess. My temper and lack of confidence. His whatever it was. It was not the right time. He has said a few times over the last 5 years that he would like me to give him another shot. So I decided to reach out in friendship again and my ... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 21:04:25 EST Nervous Nellie I know I am a bit behind on my happy days and have been pondering it for a few days. I hereby promise to catch up tomorrow or I will do a 2 minute mod plank. <BR> <BR> Okay that I owned up to that I want to talk about something. Lately, it has been hot and humid here. I mean HOT! like 100 degrees. I don't do well in humid or really hot weather. I want to do a workout indoors so i went and found so exciting workouts I could do. <BR> <BR> Kickboxing <BR> Belly dancing <BR> Pussycat Dol... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 22:28:01 EST #100happydays - Day 39 and 40 Happy! Day 39 and 40 <BR> <BR> Day 39 - I signed up tentatively to do the Everglow 5K in October. I am really excited to be doing it and hope I will be able to run most of it by then. I also will be doing it with another woman I know. Our children kind of grew up together and she is a more experienced runner so I am sure it will be great. Its like a fun raver run party which is completely up my ally. I am hoping to be doning a nice tutu and glow in the dark fun. I love how getting sill... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 15:37:44 EST #100happydays - Day 38 wOOHOOoooo! Happy <em>334</em> day 38 - <BR> <BR> I am so happy that I pushed myself and jogged almost a mile today. I am even prouder that even after I did that I pushed and finished my 3 miles. I didn't want to at first. I don't know if anyone else does this but I could hear myself say "hey you did a good job so quit while you're ahead" and then "your all sweaty and it feels kind of gross so its okay to quit". I almost did when I had a thought come to me. Yes, I did do a good job jo... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 15:15:18 EST #100happydays - Day 32 -37 <em>334</em> <em>213</em> <em>244</em> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy day 32 - 37 <BR> <BR> Okay so I'm am not doing so great on my happy day goal. But this is not a failure or a quit. Nope here are my happy days catch up. <BR> <BR> I am happy today because I am less than a week from my first 5k. I think I've decided to be all silly for it. Details will be given later. I walked last night and the stars were so beautiful. I, of course, wore my handy dandy flashlight ... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 11:54:35 EST #100happydays - Days 24 - 31 Wow so I really need to catch up. <BR> <BR> Day 24 - I'm happy about rainbows. I love it when it rains outside and then the sun peaks out from the clouds. A beautfiful rainbow slides across the sky and a smile forms on my face. To me it represents promises and fullfillment. It means hope and wonder. <BR> <BR> Day 25 - I'm happy about air mattresses. Okay so I have to admit I'm getting older. I used to be able to camp in a sleeping bag on the ground. Today, once I got in it I might... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:04:56 EST #100happydays - Day 23 Day 23 and Goal 1 of phase 1 day - I am happy today to have one month down in my journey. I lost 8lbs. So I didn't met all of my goal for weight loss. <em>192</em> I am trying so hard to not beat myself over the head because it's not the 10lbs I had for my goal. <em>33</em> I am somewhat disappointed but it is still 8lbs down right. <BR> <BR> I also met my 30 miles goal. <em>244</em> I have to come clean. I actually kind of pulled a hail mary on that. I didn't do as well at ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 15:29:38 EST #100happydays - Day 22 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Happy Day 22 - <BR> <BR> Today, I am so happy because one it felt so good to get all those congrats and well wishes. Definitely, almost as good as sweets. Okay better than sweets because I won't gain pounds from it and there is no bottoming out. <em>211</em> Encouraging other feels great too. It makes me lighter inside. I get encouraged too. And if we push each other we get to the top. <em>386</em> H... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 23:02:48 EST #100happydays - Day 21 <em>334</em> Day 21 - <BR> <BR> Today, I got online to Sparkpeople and was logging food plus checking out articles when I got a sparkmail. I saw it was about the Done Girl of the Week. I couldn't help but smile. I was all geared up to cheer the person on because DG celebrate each other. Inside it said I was given the honor of DG of the week. <em>40</em> I was like OMG! OMG! no way. I was just so surprised and excited. I never expected to get something like that. I did a random d... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 17:28:35 EST #100happydays - Day 19 & 20 Yippee! 20 days down can't believe it. <BR> <BR> Day 19 - I'm happy because its July 4th <em>283</em> and I know that I live in a country where I'm not going to be stoned to death or tortured normally for my beliefs. I am glad that I don't have to ask for permission to talk, live, have friends, what to wear or who I am involved with. I don't have to be involved with the military if I don't chose too. I am considered free. Sometimes I know I take that for granted. I whine about this or... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 21:16:54 EST #100happydays - Day 18 Day 18 – Well I am happy today because I pushed through a “I don't wanna” morning. I woke up and I just didn't want to get up. My body was tired and my mind was foggy. I heard the beginnings of excuses forming in my mind. I had to quiet them quickly by swinging out of bed, getting dress and lacing up my sneakers. I got the dog leash and out the door I went pushing until I broke through. How good it felt to get past the blah . <BR> <BR> I don't want to be a quitter. One time doesn't ma... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 15:24:34 EST #100happydays - Day 17 <em>244</em> Day 17 - <BR> <BR> I am <em>334</em> today because I am so encouraged by others who have stood where I am and kicked butt and took names. I am encouraged by those who fought for every step forward and is winning. I am encouraged to know I am on my way to be in their ranks. <em>216</em> To be a fighter who fought the good fight and to kick butt and take names. That would be such an honor because they have been so nice and giving to share their journey's story with me.... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 15:29:52 EST #100happydays - Day 16 <em>334</em> Day 16 - <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I love vintage/classic cars and trucks. I'm a big history buff. It makes me all happy and twitter-patted when I see one rolling down the road. The sleek looks to the shiny chrome draw me in like a magnet. I don't know if its the nostalgic romanticism around them or the energy of them but I can't help myself. I just think they are beautiful. I keep trying to talk someone in... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 13:28:02 EST #100happydays - Day 15 <em>521</em> Day 15 - I love my little niece. She is a handful at times but I love her enthusiasm. So today the little nymph went with me on my walk. We walked around and she held my pooch's leash. She looked up at me with that curious smile and asked me if I wanted to run. She is a ball of energy so this didn't surprise me at all. No the surprise is when I said sure lets jog for a minute or two. I did it. I survived it and didn't die like I thought I would and I even went on to jo... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 20:38:48 EST #100happydays - Day 14 <em>334</em> <em>224</em> Day 14 - <BR> <BR> I am happy <em>334</em> today because I lost 5 lbs so far in less than 30 days of coming back. YAY! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> When I first came to, you know the first time around, I worked out and tried to eat well but didn't lose anything. I got so frustrated <em>198</em> and life was just not going well. My son has a drug problem and mental issues. That and other issues just really swamped me. So I got so frus... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 14:16:15 EST #100happydays - Day 12 & 13 Oh my things are flying by. Yesterday I had another surprise outing come up and wasn't able to get my day 12 so here it is. <BR> <BR> Day 12 - I love to swim. <em>237</em> There's something about floating in the water, looking into the sky that is sublime peace. I get so much energy from the splashing and gliding through the water. Swimming makes me happy. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Day 13 - <em>67</em> I am so happy when I see the sun set and rise in the sky. The amazing kale... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 19:37:07 EST #100HappyDays - Day 11 Day 11 - I am happy about loving me today. I don't always do a good job at it. I make excuses why I am over weight. I let the voices in my head that say I'm never gong to be skinnier or enough take over. I self-sabotage or just quit a lot of times just steps from the finish line. I am tired of the negative cycle I get into. <BR> <BR> Today, though I am not ecstatic at where I am weight wise, I am happy that I keep fighting and pushing my way forward. I went and mowed the lawn and I d... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 17:44:06 EST First 6 of 2014 So here is my summary of the first 6 months of 2014: <BR> <BR> At the first of the year I ended up quitting my job due to an acute ear infection. I was doing customer service for banking and it required me to use a headset. I just couldn't use one because it really made my ears hurt more and I was struggling with hearing loss as well. <BR> <BR> I also have been helping my mom with my niece and nephew who moved in with her. They are 6 and 7 years old and full of energy and mischief. So... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 14:45:04 EST #100HappyDays - Day 10 <em>334</em> Day 10 - I am so happy to be around such big encouragement at SP. People are so willing too uplift yo.u and cheer you on. I love how the groups I'm in keep me challenged and are there when I lose my mojo to go on. <BR> <BR> Some days I think I can't keep going. I lose my focus for a little bit. But when I talk to others here and see their fire I feel my flame waking up again. I don't want to be overweight and unhealthy. I don't like being a downer. I want to be sunsh... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 14:29:24 EST #100HappyDays - Day 9 <em>334</em> Day 9 - <BR> <BR> Okay so day 9 is going to be I'm happy about finding new and fun ways to do my exercise. I've said it before, "I''m not athletic". No it's not a joke, I've never been athletic. I'm more the artsy, gypsy, eclectic type of gal. So when I saw a blog on SP about hOOping I thought well that looks like some fun so I went and bought a hula hoop. Now I have to tell you even as a child I couldn't hoop. But I am going to have a blast trying and doing it with my ... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 17:01:17 EST #100HappyDays - Day 8 Happy Day 8 - <BR> <BR> I am happy I am going camping in two weeks. I love the outdoors. I will get to hike and swim all I want. I love the sounds of birds chirping in the morning and the crickets at night. It just brings back so many great memories of my childhood and going camping with my grandparents and mom. My grandparents have both past away but getting to do things like camping help to keep them alive in my heart. <BR> <BR> Tue, 24 Jun 2014 11:20:42 EST 100HappyDays - Day 6 and 7 Okay! I had a bit of a spur of the moment trip that was sprung on me by my family. Though I didn't get it done yesterday, I want to keep on track and it makes me feel great to be completing these. So without further ado: <BR> <BR> Day 6 - Mowing... Mowing makes me happy because OMG! it apparently burns a who ha of calories. It made me super happy to log my time for mowing the yard yesterday. BAM! 1000 calories down along with a few shin blisters. Then I topped it with a bit of a walk. T... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 18:10:14 EST #100HappyDays - Day 5 Glorious Day 5 - <BR> <BR> . <img src=""> <BR> <BR> i am so happy today to have my nephew, KD, in my life. He may be a handful at times but he has hugs for me everyday and makes me laugh too. He was my 32nd bday present and he has been surprising me ever since then. He is smart as can be and loves fiercely. <BR> <BR> Today he walked with me a mile for my walk. At 7 yrs old that is pretty cool at 7 am in the morning. We looked at ... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 09:24:00 EST #100HappyDays - Day 4 Day 4 - <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I love my dog. She is the best snuggler and she is my best walking companion. She loves me and shows me everyday. She is smart and ornery at times but I am so glad that she found me. She makes me talk to other peeps that come into our path just by being her cute self. She is the best. <BR> <BR> Thu, 19 Jun 2014 15:19:14 EST #100HappyDays - Day 3 Day 3 - I am so glad that I decided to take up my walking again. I forgot how much inner peace it gives me. I love the birds chirping and the cool wind blowing. I am so happy for the serenity it gives me to help me go through the day even with challenges. <BR> <BR> This morning I got up and went for my walk. When I got about halfway around the first lap I thought to myself "maybe I should just do this one lap". As I rounded the corner towards my starting point the cool breeze and bird... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 09:58:51 EST #100HappyDays - Day 2 Day 2 - I am happy I got to have a nice lunch with my baby brother who I haven't seen in 2 or 3 years. It was nice and the day was bright and sunny. I also ate okay outside of breakfast. I am now headed out for my exercise for today and it's a nice evening to walk my precious pooch. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Hugs SP Tue, 17 Jun 2014 22:32:22 EST 100HappyDays - Day 1 I decided my grumpy attitude needed a face lift so I'm doing the #100HappyDays to see if I can change things around. <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> Day 1 - I love sunny blue sky 70 degree weather, early morning dog walks. Its peaceful and I can just let my mind chill out as I walk. Today was great! I said hi to a nice lady walking and talked a few seconds to one of my niece and nephew's friends. It was one of those moments when I realized the world needs more hugs. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 11:02:46 EST Bookscootin', Tummytwistin' Gluten First, I would like to say WOW! it has been a while since I've written anything here. <BR> <BR> So back to the new tune my body is dancing to lately. I went to the doctor to discuss some stuff and he says "I think you should go gluten free". I don't know how my face looked but it must have been revealing my total horror to his suggestion because he told me it wasn't the first time he has seen that look cross a patients face. I had to take a second to think about the noise coming out of ... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 14:01:18 EST Song of the Day... Okay so what's on for today. Well for one my belly is sickers. I was a bad girl and now I am paying for it I think. Secondly... I am playing a little Gaga to get me through. <BR> <BR> Now you know you want to get up and shake what your momma gave you. Shake it its okay no one else is looking and if they are well just looking at them and shake it anyway. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link> Sun, 21 Nov 2010 16:00:43 EST School, Exercise and Juggling the Masses I am overwhelmed. There I said it. I got more than I could possible take on in one fell swoop. <BR> <BR> I am currently: <BR> <BR> <em>218</em> Doing a presentation for US Womens History (very exciting, no really I love it!) <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> Writing six, 1 pg perfectionist driven teacher discussion answers (love the prof but he is busting my chops) <BR> <BR> <em>338</em> Doing horribly at taken the pooch out so she can exercise enough... she is driving me crazy. <B... Thu, 18 Nov 2010 16:22:27 EST ~*~ WTF Challenge 11/15 - 11/19 ~*~ What did you do last week that made you feel strong? <BR> <BR> I told a guy that I thought he looked cute... I don't normally do that if I am attracted because I guess I feel like I don't have a right to be... <BR> <BR> What have you been putting off that you took care of this past weekend? <BR> <BR> Increasing my exercise, walking in inclement weather and throwing out the ding dongs... yes I threw the rest out Yoovie! And I didn't buy anymore and wont (if I think about it I will let ... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 12:36:40 EST Calling All Positive Vibes... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Okay so I am making a confidence wall. Kind of felt challenged today by Yoovie. I really struggle with self confidence. As of today I am actively putting up a fight against the negatives. To do that I need some positive things to puton my exercise/office wall to help me be motivated and pumped. I would really appreciate the input. I will even post a picture of the wall when I get all the stuff up on it. Ple... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 19:25:38 EST Punching Bag I have really been beating myself up a lot lately. I just don't seem to be able to really get myself over that hump. Somethings have happened and they were really hard choices. They have to do with my son. He and I have had to walk away from each other right now. I just am not dealing with it well and it is affecting everything. The choice was necessary but it really hurt to do it. I am trying to stay focused and have to say I am doing okay. I could be doing better. I am trying to ... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 11:54:22 EST Free is a Decision. The line between freedom and enslaved is turned around by a simple decision... <BR> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Thu, 4 Nov 2010 23:05:20 EST Ding Dongs and Dog Poo... Dear Journey, <BR> <BR> I was very naughty this past week. Apparently just one ding dong is not enough. Note to self no more lethal ding dongs or tortilla chips allowed in the house. I cave like a dog with steak. On a more positive note I am still making progress on keeping myself exercising and drinking water. I don't always logged everything here but I am logging in a book because I am so busy. <BR> <BR> Goals for this week are to do 60 minutes of exercise Mon - Saturday, drink at ... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 11:50:56 EST Calling in the sparkers... Just want to say I miss all of you. I'm sorry if I let you down. And most of all that I let myself down. So if you're out there my old sparkin buddies or even some new ones I would really like to be apart of the light shining brightly here again. Wed, 27 Oct 2010 13:19:55 EST One Step forward... Dear Journey, <BR> <BR> Boy has it been a road of procastination, excuses, stress, chaos, and growth. I find myself in more limbo than in focus. But I know the only way to move forward is one step at a time. I can do this. Today, I did over an hour of excercise. Yeah me! And today I am planning ahead to eat sensibly too. Journey I know we are going slow but we are going and I am glad to be here. <BR> <BR> Sincerely, <BR> <BR> Michelle Fri, 15 Oct 2010 12:09:25 EST White Elephant Sale I haven't been as dedicated here as I should be. I haven't been really dedicated to much of anything as of late. I have been overly anxious and scared that I am making a big mistake. In fact I think I am obsessing about it. <BR> <BR> Recently, I opened a proverbial closet. It has this big white elephant in it that I don't know what to do with it. Should I make it submit? Should I push it back in the closet? or Should I let it go free but then how do I do that? Every time I look at t... Thu, 25 Mar 2010 23:29:02 EST My Affair! I don't know if I have been secretly hiding this really but I have been in an affair for years. In fact I was really young when I first met my love. Some times my affair envelopes me and takes me over. Thinking about the years and years of living in this affair brings both joy and pain to my mind. And to be honest I'm not sure I can give up this love affair. <BR> <BR> Some one out there knows what I mean. They too have found this love of mine. They have kept their affair secret and som... Thu, 21 Jan 2010 12:47:14 EST Long and Lean... I love them... they are long and getting more and more sculpted. What am I talking about? My legs of course. I think that is the first thing on my body I have notice changing with my new lifestyle makeover. I am getting my sexy legs back. Can I hear a cat call please? <BR> <BR> I realized this morning after looking at my ankles that they were thinner... no seriously thinner. See normally my ankles swell. I have injured my ankles quite a few times in the past few years. In 2008 before j... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 11:51:44 EST All Legs! Yesterday, I was getting ready for work. It was so nice outside I thought hey I want to wear my knee length .black skirt and calf boots. Great! Started the day thinking about struttin my stuff. I decided hey I need to shave my legs! <BR> <BR> Okay now some peeps may not understand this but I think there are some out there who will get what I am going to say next. You know how some women just feel so much better after putting on makeup. Like it puts a spark in their stuff. Well that is... Tue, 19 Jan 2010 09:43:13 EST Worth! I was thinking this morning about my journey so far. Yesterday I wrote about my dream. I think dreaming pretty much sums up last year. I dreamed and dreamed. I planned, I accomplished some and I dreamed more. But dreaming alone hasn't gotten me what I have been looking for. So what is holding me back I have been asking myself. I think I have come up with it: <BR> <BR> WORTH! <BR> <BR> I have been dreaming my year away but just haven't realize that I am worth the dream and the action.... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 19:44:47 EST Dream... <em>31</em> I HAVE A DREAM… my version! <em>31</em> <BR> <BR> I have a dream… <BR> <BR> It is a dream that all mankind be at peace... <BR> <BR> That we would remember to treat each other as we would want to be treated… <BR> <BR> That we would remember that patience, kindness, meekness, goodness… they all begin with love that is unconditional… <BR> <BR> My dream is deeper and bigger… <BR> <BR> I dream that one day my son will be happier… <BR> <BR> That he will be able to live life f... Sun, 10 Jan 2010 19:24:40 EST Better Me 2010 Bootcamp - Week 1 The low down to where it is going down. <BR> <BR> I am starting the Bootcamp program today. I have actually never participated before in a bootcamp so I am a bit nervous. I am also excited. I have already lost 8 lbs in the last month and a half. I am up to doing cardio at least 4 - 6 days a week for 60 minutes each day and I am keeping my mind on what it means to deserve a better me. Not doing my stuff is cheating me out of the best. I have been telling myself that every time I start t... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 19:12:08 EST