CHARMANIA76's SparkPeople Blog CHARMANIA76's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Losing for Me Journey - 4/21/17 Work was very busy. The day flew by. I got a lot done. I have a colonoscopy scheduled Monday morning and I am very nervous. My gastroenterologist wants me to get this done because of my history with IBS. I'm going shopping tomorrow morning to get items I need to prep for it. I'm not feeling too chatty. My husband is being very supportive and I really appreciate him for that. I've earned $8.00 in my rewards system so far. Let's see what I've earned for today. - work out - $0.25 earned - plan... Fri, 21 Apr 2017 21:35:53 EST Losing for Me Journey - 4/20/17 Today was a vacation day for me. I had some appointments and I got them done with my husband early. We went shopping with my sister-in-law. I bought several tops at JC Penney for a very good price. They had a great sale. I evened picked up two cross body purses on sale as well. The weather lovely. We didn't need jackets. We enjoyed ourselves. For lunch I didn't order smartly at Wendy's. I had a homestyle chicken sandwich and a small fry. I felt sick immediately after eating. I learned a les... Thu, 20 Apr 2017 21:42:54 EST Losing for Me Journey - 4/19/17 I want to thank all of you for the words of encouragement. I was nervous about blogging but now I feel better about. I'm trying to be more transparent about my feelings to cope with my emotional eating. I was tested at work again today. It was an insane day at work after lunch. I have a vacation day tomorrow and it seemed like everything needed to be completed today. I raced around and went to meeting after meeting. I kept thinking about having some Pizza Hut for dinner. I live in northwest I... Wed, 19 Apr 2017 21:11:44 EST Losing for Me Journey - 4/18/17 Today was a wacky day for me. I worked from home. My husband had a plan to fix our TV as a project. Why did I agree to that? He took the TV apart while I was working which kept disrupting me at work. He went to get the parts and found the stores didn't have them so he had to go further out. When he found the place that had them they didn't have everything so the parts won't be in until Thursday. Ugh! This has thrown me off all day. I listened to sports radio because it was too quiet for me t... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 20:53:44 EST Losing for Me Journey - 4/17/17 I had a successful day today. I had physical therapy at 7AM this morning. It was tough but beneficial. I felt the burn with some new exercises. When I got to work I heard the great news that my manager called in sick. Woohoo! That made my day. She wouldn't be there to randomly bug me with insane questions. <BR> <BR> Work went pretty well. I was busy and got a lot done. I did have to train someone who is driving me nuts. She is emotional and says things she really shouldn't say. I dealt with... Mon, 17 Apr 2017 21:34:49 EST Losing for Me Journey - 4/16/17 I weighed in today and I lost 0.8 pounds! Woohoo! It's been a rough week for me. I'm at 293.2 pounds. This is the first time I've posted my weight out there. I started physical therapy this week. I am going at 7AM before work twice a week so I don't have to take unpaid time off. It's time for an incentive system for me since this is a relatively long journey. That will help my motivation. Here are the ways I can earn money: work out, plan my meals for the day, ice my back, eat in my calorie... Sun, 16 Apr 2017 15:26:44 EST Losing for Me Journey - 4/7/17 Yesterday was an okay day at work. There was the usual drama. I need to get physical therapy and my manager wants me to get intermittent FMLA to do it. I'm going to follow up with the physical therapists near my job to see if they can accommodate my schedule and do it before work or during lunch before I take unpaid time. I should not be surprised by my manager's response. She is something else. I need to find another job. I dread going to work every day and I know a large portion of my str... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 08:28:27 EST Losing for Me Journey - 4/5/17 Today is day 5 of my new journey. I've spent so much time in my life taking care of other people I struggle to take care of me. I am horrible at actually taking care of myself. I put everyone else first. I gained 30 pounds last year taking care of my husband who was admitted to the hospital 3 times last year. I'm determined to lose the weight. I have 110 pounds I want to lose. I struggle with a strong support system. My husband does not hold me accountable when I stress or emotional eat. I fe... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 15:57:29 EST 9/11/2014 Today is day 11 of my weight loss jumpstart. I am feeling so excited and encouraged. I am kicking fat's rear end. I love being a fabulously full-figured woman. I call myself an FFFW. I always put emphasis on the word fabulous. I can feel my confidence come back. I'm feeling better about this journey than I have in a long time. <BR> <BR> I am also standing up for myself and fighting for my goals. I said no to McDonald's today because I couldn't get what I wanted from there the way I wanted it... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 18:20:57 EST 9/10/2014 It's been a few days since I posted. I had a very busy last couple of days. On Monday I went shopping with my boyfriend and his sister near my house. I was so exhausted by the end of the day. We decided to come to Chicago yesterday early to attend the opening of the new Nordstrom Rack near my job. I woke up at 3:45 in the morning to get down there early. I wanted to win one of the $100 gift cards or the $1,000 shopping spree. I didn't win anything. Neither did my boyfriend or his sister. We e... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 18:14:20 EST 9/7/2014 Today is day 7 of my 100 day jumpstart. I weighed in this morning and I showed a weight loss of 7.4 pounds. Woohoo! It feels good to show that I've lost weight. I got up this morning and did a mild workout. I am happy to say that my knee is slowly getting better. I am able to get around a little easier. <BR> <BR> I spent some time with my mom today. She has dementia and sometimes it is hard to interact with her. I took her to a market nearby that we have attended all summer and today she fo... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 16:58:36 EST 9/6/2014 I'm on vacation! Woohoo! I've been burned out with work and I need this time off. I did a mild workout this morning and I wrote in my journal. I planned out my meals for today. I've been doing dome reflection on my life. I am considered to be weird by my family. I don't really fit in with them. We are not a close family at all. That tends to make me sad. I don't know what it feels like to consistently have my family be there for me. I always feel like the odd one out. One of my sisters tells ... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 17:18:03 EST 9/5/2014 Today was a good day for me. It was jeans day at work and my manager was off work. I thought the day would be stressful and I was pleasantly surprised it was not. I felt quite relaxed and counted down the minutes until my vacation started. <BR> <BR> I am officially on vacation. Woohoo! I was doing a mental happy dance as my work day ended. I was wishing everyone a happy Friday and people were not so cheerful as I was. I did some mild exercise before work and during lunch. I went during lunc... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 21:19:04 EST 9/4/2014 I have to say that day 4 was definitely challenging for me. I went back to work today and it was so hectic. People just kept coming to my desk asking for help. I'm going to have to go in early tomorrow to get everything done so I can start my vacation. I was feeling stressed out. I ran away about 1:30 to take a lunch and went to the new TJ Maxx by my job. They were giving out some cute bags and I was glad I was able to get one. I walked around the store and purchased a couple of items. I just... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 21:09:10 EST 9/3/2014 I worked from home yet again and I was pretty stressed out. I found that I was yelling at my laptop screen when I would get crazy emails or instant messages. I was feeling tempted to order something bad for lunch but I am happy to say I resisted. I followed my food schedule. I am having a nice salad for dinner tonight. I want to be healthier and make my ultimate goal this time. I feel so much better when I eat healthy. I did another mild workout today so I know I had another good day. That's... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 18:44:31 EST 9/2/2014 Today was a crazy work day for me. I worked from home and that made things more difficult. I'm an emotional eater and I was tempted to inhale a pizza. I'm happy to say I didn't do that. I did a mild workout and ate healthy. I iced me knee and reclined most of the day with me feet up per doctor's orders. I will be glad once the pain stops. I'm taking things one day at a time. Tue, 2 Sep 2014 19:36:12 EST 9/1/2014 Today is day 1 of my jump start. I'm doing a 100 day challenge. I did some soul searching and really changed up my goals. I've planned my meals for the day and I tried chair aerobics for the first time. I enjoyed doing it. I was pleasantly surprised. I and tired of starting and stopping on this weight loss challenge. I decided I need to get myself together and make my goal. I am so excited. I feel like I'm on the right track. I'm doing this one day at a time. Mon, 1 Sep 2014 17:47:45 EST Day 1 of 100 Days to a New Start Yesterday I made a fresh start in my weight loss journey. I've had it with my weight fluctuating. I have been very inconsistent. I had a stressful day at work but I didn't emotionally eat. I stuck to my food plan. I've made a goal to lose 20 pounds during my 100 day journey. I hope to break old bad habits and create new good ones. I know I can and will do this. I want to feel the passion I felt before while losing. Wish me luck on day 2. I'm doing this one day at a time. Wed, 2 Jul 2014 07:54:42 EST January 29, 2014 Hi all. It's Charm the fabulously full figured woman (FFFW for short). I went back to the office yesterday and I truly didn't want to get up. Before the alarm went out I changed to the time so I could stay in bed longer. That meant I missed my morning workout. I could always work out after work, right? Yeah right. <BR> <BR> I went to work and had a pretty good day. The highlight of it was a great review from my manager. I deserved it and it felt great that she felt the same way. The worse p... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 20:57:49 EST 10/18 - 10/20/2013 Hi all. It's Charm the fabulously full figured woman (FFFW for short). The weekend had finally arrived. Woohoo! Happy dance! Happy dance! It was a rough week and I was glad when my day was over. I ended up helping someone right before I left and I missed my train. I decided to take a long walk since I had a while to wait before the train came. <BR> <BR> So you're probably wondering if I found the coat I was shopping to buy? Yes I did! It's not always easy to shop for a coat for an FFFW. I w... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 08:13:53 EST 1/14/2013: A New Day, A New Year, A New Start It has been a bit of a wild week. I have been adjusting to getting myself back on track. I did well during the week with ym food. On the weekend it was much harder to track. I spent time with my boyfriend and his family. There was nothing healthy there. I have to make sure I am more cautious with my eating. I did some working out and I know I need to do more. <BR> <BR> I weighed in the morning. I did not like where I weighed in the last time. The floor was not very level. I found a better s... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 08:31:10 EST 1/8/2013: A New Day, A New Year, A New Start Yesterday went pretty well for me. I worked out early before work. I had an issue with snacking. I snacked too much throughout the day and I went over in calories at dinnertime. I planned better today. I packed all of my snacks, breakfast, and lunch. I just need to figure out my dinner. I'm not sure what I want to eat. I'm leaning towards chicken noodle soup. <BR> <BR> I went to bed early last night. Work was quite busy. We had a key person call in sick and I helped a lot with coverage. I g... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 08:12:44 EST 1/7/2013: A New Day, A New Year It's been a while since I posted a blog entry. A lot has happened in the last month. Work has been crazy for me. December and early January is the busiest time in my job. I usually gain weight during that time. I had some health complications. I was diagnosed with a bad sinus infection that just didn't want to get better. I ended up in urgent care and was given more drugs to take. I'm feeling much better now but exercise was very hard for me. I had difficulty breathing and I had chills a lot.... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 12:05:29 EST 11/27/2012: Day 31 of a Fresh Start Yesterday was actually a good day for me at work. I have to admit I was completely shocked by that fact. I didn't stress out at all. Who knew? Having a good day at work is a rarity for me. I'm glad it happened. It was a Monday and I was not feeling my best. A relatively "easy" day at work was welcomed. <BR> <BR> I wasn't feeling very well yesterday. I think I'm getting a sinus infection. I tend to get them around this time of year. I did walk before and after work. That's all I did. When I ... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 14:29:19 EST 11/26/2012: Day 30 of a Fresh Start The last few days have gone okay for me. I did well regarding fitness. I didn't do well on Thanksgiving with my food. I ate whatever I wanted and didn't track a thing. I also didn't work out at all. I was happy that I did that but I go over it. I threw off my routine and it was a struggle over the last couple of days to get back on track. It's a lesson learned. <BR> <BR> I weighed in yesterday and the scale showed that I gained 9 pounds in a week. I know that can't be right. How could I gai... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 13:20:20 EST 11/21/2012: Day 25 of a Fresh Start Yesterday went pretty well for me. Work was not very stressful. I got a lot of work done. I was busy getting project requests done. It was a good feeling not to feel stressed out at work. I walked 45 minutes before work, 30 minutes during lunch, and 30 minutes after minutes. My knee was bothering me when I got home. I spent most of the evening laying down. <BR> <BR> I did make my fitness goals for the day. I did well with my food until later in the evening. I had three homemade butter cooki... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 14:19:19 EST 11//20/2012: Day 24 of a Fresh Start The weather was very nice and I took advantage of that. I walked before work, during lunch, and after work. I didn't want to go inside. Work wasn't too bad but I know I'm feeling drained. I work for an hour or two on Thanksgiving. I can't wait until I have some time off. I'm off work November 29th, December 5th, and December 7th. Those are my last vacation days for the year. <BR> <BR> The afternoon was more stressful for me. I found out that Friday could be very awful for me because we're o... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 15:06:56 EST 11/19/2012: Day 23 of a Fresh Start I had a good weekend. Work was busy on Friday but I survived it. I got in early and left at 4:30. I got home about 30 minutes earlier. That was a great feeling. I was exhausted and went to bed a little earlier than I usually do on Friday nights. <BR> <BR> I got up on Saturday and did 70 minutes of kick boxing. I then did a 15 minute Leslie Sansone workout. It was a very good workout day for me. I also had a good day for eating. I ate a lot of vegetables. I had a grilled chicken caesar wrap ... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 16:48:32 EST 11/16/2012: Day 20 of a Fresh Start Yesterday was a pretty crazy day at work. One of my co-workers called in and I needed to cover her desk. I was already involved with covering on another team so I was running around trying to get things done. My morning flew by and I ended up taking my lunch at 3:00PM. I went for an hourlong walk and enjoyed the mild weather outside. When I got back to work I was told I had a meeting to attend and that my manager forgot to invite me. I left work at 5:30 and took a late train home. I walked in... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 16:02:38 EST 11/15/2012: Day 19 of a Fresh Start Yesterday wasn't a bad day at work. I had a talk with my manager and I think she knows how I'm feeling at work. I felt some relief as she distributed the work differently. I had a busy day but I didn't feel stressed out. That's a definite good thing. I walked 45 minutes before work and 30 minutes after work. <BR> <BR> While on the walk after work I received a call from one of my co-workers who rides the same train line. My train wasn't running. The train ended up running only to certain sta... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 21:56:17 EST 11/14/2012: Day 18 of a Fresh Start Yesterday was a rough one for me. I came into work and found out that I had to do more coverage. I didn't really have the time for that. I was really swamped. I found I was getting behind in my own work assignments covering for other people. That was really frustrating. I was doing my best not to stress out. I was so glad when the day was over. I went home and had a very relaxing evening. <BR> <BR> I was proud of myself for not doing any overeating. I was tempted a lot to do so. I followed ... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 11:42:38 EST 11/8/2012: Day 12 of a Fresh Start Yesterday wasn't a bad day at work for me. I did have some frustration but I got over it. I know I need to work on my stress level more. Too much stress is so bad for you. I stress too much at work. I also need to learn to leave that stress at work and not take it home with me. <BR> <BR> I did my walk before and after work. I walked for 20 minutes during lunch. I was feeling exhausted all day long. I decided to not work out once I got home. I didn't have the energy to do that. I had already... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 13:38:25 EST 11/6/2012: Day 10 of a Fresh Start I had an awful work day. I felt stressed for most of the day. It felt like a long and draining day. I was so glad when the day was over. I walked before and after work but didn't take a lunch. I did well yesterday with my food. I didn't stress eat at all. I felt so proud of myself. I needed to wind down a bit once I got home. <BR> <BR> I got up this morning and voted with my family. That is a great way to start off the day. I'm hoping things won't be so crazy at work and I can get my work d... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 15:12:58 EST 11/1/2012: Day 5 of a Fresh Start Yesterday was another bad day at work. I am happy to say that I didn't give into all the Halloween candy. I had just one piece of candy. I was tempted and I resisted. I didn't stress or emotional eat even though I was under a lot of pressure. I was able to walk before and after work. I didn't get to go out for a walk during lunch. I barely was able to go and buy my lunch. It's been a very busy time at work for me. <BR> <BR> I got home late last night. I stayed late at work. It was a long dr... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 09:07:42 EST 10/31/2012: Day 4 of a Fresh Start Yesterday was a bad day at work. I am happy to say I didn't emotionally eat. I ate all of my planned meals. I am so proud of myself. I walked before and after work. That was nice too. I feel like I am on the right track. I am feeling positive and encouraged. In spite of work yesterday I had a good day. One day at a time is my motto now. <BR> <BR> Today is Halloween and I am dressed in black and gray. I only have one meeting scheduled. I have a lot of things that need to get done. I'm hoping... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 09:06:41 EST 10/30/2012: Day 3 of a Fresh Start Yesterday was a unique day for me. Hurricane Sandy impacted my job in Chicago. The stock market closing directly impacts what my department does. There were several meetings throughout the day to determine a game plan. The fact that the stock and bond market are closed today will impact how and when we process work at home. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I walked before and after work. I had a great time doing it. I missed doing my walks. It was nice to start doing them again. Work was busy but I was ... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 09:05:57 EST 10/29/2012: Day 2 of a Fresh Start This weekend I made some changes. I weighed in and had gained slightly under 6 pounds in the last 3 weeks. That's not good and I knew I had gained. While I was working from home I ate horribly and threw a pity party. I did it and now it's time to move on. I did some changes and thinking this weekend. I updated my goals and made a fresh start. <BR> <BR> I'm still working on my short-term goals. I've given myself a year to make my long-term goal. There's some wiggle room in there. I want to g... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 09:05:02 EST 11/2/2012: Day 6 of a Fresh Start Yesterday was not such a bad day at work. That was a wonderful feeling. I wasn't stressed out at work. That's definite a good thing. It's been a while since I had a day like that at work. I was able to get a lot done. I caught up on several tasks and resolved several issues as well. I walked 30 minutes before work, an hour during lunch, and 30 minutes after work. I stayed within my calorie range and made my fitness goals. Yesterday was a really good day. <BR> <BR> Today is Friday. Yay!!! I'... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 09:02:42 EST 10/24/2012: A Big Change and Adjustment Yesterday was a big change for me. I got my stitches out. That was a relief for me. Having the stitches has also been an adjustment. I'm learning to walk normally again. For the last two weeks I had crutches and a knee brace. I couldn't bend my knee when I was walking. It felt strange to bend my knee while walking again. It also felt strange to sit with my knee bent. <BR> <BR> I drove again yesterday for the first time since October 10th. It felt great to be behind the wheel again. I am not ... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 21:45:47 EST 10/23/2012: A Successful Day Yesterday was quiet a busy work day for me. I expected it to be that way. I was determined not to stress or emotional eat. I worked hard and handled my stress pretty well. I was so glad that I didn't choose to eat. I planned my meals and that works best for me. I'm quite proud of myself. I had a successful day. <BR> <BR> My sister made eggplant parmesan and I love it so much. She doesn't add too much cheese and there's a lot of eggplant in it. She also adds some spinach. I had some for lunc... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 21:01:44 EST 10/22/2012: A Journey Back I had my accident on October 10th. It seems like a lifetime ago. It's been a journey for me. I went through a pity party and decided to eat all kinds of garbage. The food didn't help me to feel any better. The only thing it accomplished was to make me a little heavier. You may have guessed that mentally it's been quite a ride. I've found this to be a good learning experience for me. I learned I am tougher than I think I am. I can do this. <BR> <BR> I get my stitches out on October 23rd. I'm... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 10:03:46 EST 10/17/2012: A Much Better Day <BR> Yesterday was a much better day for me. I actually followed my calorie range. I changed my fitness goals since I'm not very mobile at this time. It felt good to track and take control of my diet. I've also been drinking a lot more liquids. <BR> <BR> Work went well yesterday. I worked smart not hard. I had a very busy morning. It ended working out nicely. The day simply flew by for me. That worked out great. I have been doing well with working from home. <BR> <BR> Today is likely to ... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 14:50:02 EST 10/16/2012: A Lot Has Happened This Week It's been a little while since I've written anything. A lot has happened over the last week. I am working from home until 10/23. I had an accident on 10/10. I was walking during lunch and I tripped on a crack in the sidewalk. I hit my leg on a fire hydrant and cut my leg. I had a nasty gash. I called my manager and 911. <BR> <BR> I went to the emergency room and had to get some stitches. I ended up with nine of them. Because of the location of the gash I need a knee brace and crutches as we... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 09:16:43 EST 10/10/2012: A Super Crappy Work Day Work was pretty bad yesterday. The day was extremely draining for me. I was able to walk an hour before work, an hour during lunch, and 30 minutes after work. That helped to reduce my stress level. I also met my nutritional goals. I didn't emotional or stress eat and that was a victory. By the time work was over I was feeling quite exhausted. <BR> <BR> I made a list of things I needed to do once I was home. I achieved them all and then relaxed an hour before bedtime. I sleep quite soundly. ... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 13:17:30 EST 10/9/2012: A Relatively Quiet Day Yesterday was Columbus Day. It was a bank holiday for most of the bank. For my department we had to work. The good news about it is I got to leave 2.5 hours early. That was definitely a good thing. I walked before work and I could tell it was quieter downtown. There was about half the people on the street. Quite a few people had yesterday off. I wished I was one of them. <BR> <BR> I didn't have my heart in my job I wasn't very focused on anything. I went through the motions and counted down... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 17:44:41 EST 10/8/2012: A Positive Weekend I had a good weekend. I had some rest and I relaxed a lot. It felt good to plan my meals and work out throughout the day. I had a plan and I stuck to it. Friday went by pretty fast for me. I didn't stress out at all. It made me feel encouraged. I was in a good mood all day long. When 5PM came I was power walking my way to the train station. <BR> <BR> When I got home I fixed a healthy dinner and watched some television. I woke up Saturday pretty early and had a healthy breakfast. I did a cou... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 13:51:54 EST 10/5/2012: The Weekend is at Hand I had a rather long day. I was under a lot of pressure at work and I can happily say that I handled it well. I had to learn a new process, write up procedures, and do training in one day. That's a lot of pressure. I'm glad I was able to take care of it. It wasn't easy but it was done. I ended leaving work later. I took advantage and did a longer walk since I knew I was going to be on a later train. <BR> <BR> I am happy to say I didn't do any stress or emotional eating. I stayed within my ca... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 17:23:08 EST 10/4/2012: A Sick Day Yesterday I had a bad stomach day once I got to work. Everything I ate made me ill. I ended up leaving work around noon. I got home at 2PM. I was cautious with eating when I got home. I found that I didn't have any more issues. That was definitely a good thing. My right knee was swollen last night and I was limping around. I had it elevated and used a heating pad. <BR> <BR> I got things ready for today and stayed off of it as much as I could. Today will be a busy day. I'm hoping that it goe... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 22:23:25 EST 10/3/2012: A Busy, Productive Day Yesterday was a good day at work. I wasn't expecting it to be and I'm glad it was. I did quite a bit of walking. I walked 45 minutes before work, 60 minutes during lunch, and 25 minutes after work. The walking felt great. I did notice a problem though. My knee felt swollen and at times I had a limp. Once I sat down my knee would start to hurt when I got up again. It felt a bit frustrating. <BR> <BR> Work went by fast and I was busy. That's always a good thing. I have several tasks that I ca... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 11:05:08 EST 10/2/2012: Good Start, Not So Good Ending I had a good start to my day. I walked before work, during lunch, and after work. I made my fitness goals for the day. I planned out healthy meals for the day and I brought my own breakfast, lunch, and snacks. That was definitely a good. I didn't stress at work. I saw people stressing around me and I remained relaxed. It was a busy day but I didn't freak out. I did what I needed to do. <BR> <BR> The problem started for me after work. I bought some fried chicken wings and fries for dinner. I... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 17:33:10 EST