CHARITY46's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CHARITY46 CHARITY46's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Not Such a Good Beginning &#128546; http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681010 So much for weekly blogs! Why is my life always so complicated? Every day is another round of too much to do and not enough time or energy to do it. Maybe I just expect too much of myself? I'm just so tired. Wearing too many hats, sort of. But I just don't know how to put any of them back in the closet. Nevertheless, here I am struggling to make it through another day. Maybe just logging my calories again is enough. <BR> <BR> Sat, 26 Apr 2014 14:29:26 EST Ah, the Power of Kisses in the Car! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590663 What a bummer of a week! Snow, snow, snow and more snow, all to the accompaniment of below zero temps! Grandkids were supposed to go back to school from Christmas break last week, but it was impossible. And my little man got cabin fever and nearly drove Grammy crazy trying to control all that energy. Oh how I wish I could bottle that and sell it. I would be a millionaire overnight! <BR> <BR> Bicycle boy was so helpful, playing hide and seek in the house, and taking the little guy outsi... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 21:15:54 EST Here We Go Again! Bring It On! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581880 So here I am starting a new year, and I'm still the same old me. No, I haven't gained all the weight back, but I have put a few back on. And I still have all the same old problems that brought me here in the first place. Well, I do have a new knee, and I did have the opportunity a couple of weeks ago to compare its performance compared to the old one when we attended a Christmas concert for a precious little grand-daughter at the same place where we had gone for one LAST Christmas. And en... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 12:36:57 EST Where do I Draw the Line? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456063 Where does 'helping' become 'enabling'? Where is the line between being there for your adult kids and carrying their baggage for them? What happens when 'for the summer' becomes 'til we get it all together'? <BR> <BR> As you may have guessed by the above, the summer is over and my little houseguest is still here. I am trying to enroll him in HeadStart, but I am afraid Grandpa & I make too much money for their financial guidelines. And as we are not receiving anything for caring for him, ... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 11:15:24 EST Still Alive, But the Going is Getting Tougher! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414490 Just in case anyone has missed this chubby little grammy's ramblings, I didn't fall in a well or get abducted by aliens. That would be interesting, no doubt, but truth is stranger than fiction. My attention has been focused on Grandpa being off for a week, the transmission going out on my car, and the most exciting event of all, two more grandchildren coming to stay for a week! <BR> <BR> So now we have two 3 year olds and a 5 year old in the house. Unfortunately, we lost the 14 year old... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 14:53:35 EST Now Wait a Minute! I Thought You Were Trying to be Friends!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396542 Well, Bouncing Boy has really slipped up this time. He accidentally let Grandma see how he is going about 'making friends' with the kitty, Isabel Fuzzykins. Let me assure you, if he tried to make friends with me that way, I would do what she is doing - run and hide. <BR> <BR> Evidently, to a 3 year old boy's mind, the way to befriend a kitty is to do the following: chase her into a bedroom; catch her lying on the bed and throw the bedcovers over her head; chase her under the bed and throw... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 17:21:10 EST Could I Have Some Cheese With That Whine? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391816 Well, the rubber has met the road, so to speak. Little Man is a dandy young fellow, but he does have quite a bit of whine in his engine. He is used to being the center of attention, and now he has to share the stage. Walking Girl also lives with us, and she is a teenager, which says quite a lot to those of us who live with them. When she is in the mood to indulge him, she is quite entertaining. When she has friends over, or is on the phone, or her tablet, etc., she is not quite as avail... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 10:17:05 EST So Far, So Good. But the New is Wearing Off! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387797 We have fallen into a bit of routine, my new grandson and I. I am the good Grandma, and my husband is the mean Grandpa who steps in occasionally and, with his deep voice and stern manner, puts an abrupt end to the unacceptable outbursts of noise, and the tears that sometimes accompany them. <BR> <BR> My inclination is to scoop the little man up with, "There, there, I know you miss your mom and dad." (Or at least TRY to scoop. The little fellow weighs a good solid 40 pounds. He likes to... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 09:07:38 EST Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375044 Have you ever had to tell a three-year-old it is time to leave somewhere he really, REALLY wants to stay? Have you ever tried to get his little shoes on his little feet and motivate him out the door while he is crying at the top of his lungs, interspersed with shouts of, "NO!" <BR> <BR> Then you will sympathize with my predicament as I tried to get my little grandson out of the 'bouncy place' at the mall. And I hope that you will not be too disappointed with my handling of this common emer... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 21:57:09 EST And Then the Car Wouldn't Start! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371833 You know that old saying about the best-laid plans going awry, etc, etc. Well, the reason those sayings get to be so well known is that things are so apt to happen that way! My daughter had planned a fun outing to the park, complete with picnic lunch. Then after a considerable amount of play time, my little man was going to stay at the park and watch my other grandson (aka Bicycle Boy) play baseball with his team. <BR> <BR> But she had forgotten an appointment she had that afternoon, so I... Wed, 29 May 2013 19:53:34 EST Sometime Bribery Works! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367501 My little man and I have come up with a new strategy to make peace with miss kitty. I bought a bag of cat treats, and no one is allowed to give them to Isabel Fuzzykins but him! This is proving to be an interesting concept, and she is becoming quite intrigued with the fact that this new item has been introduced to her diet. And that he is the only one that seems to have them! <BR> <BR> She still has quite a case of nerves when he starts bouncing through the house, but does not disappear f... Sat, 25 May 2013 11:24:38 EST Topsy Turvy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366243 My household has changed. We are hosting a visiting grandson, 3 years old, for the summer. I had only met this young man once before he came to stay with us. If anyone has wondered where I have been, the answer is I have been making the acquaintance of a cute little fellow who now follows me from one room to another, and if he looks around and doesn't see me, I soon hear "Grama, Grama, where are you?" <BR> <BR> Granddaughter who lives with me is enchanted with the little man, but the cat ... Fri, 24 May 2013 00:26:32 EST Why am I So Nervous? I'm Not the One Having Surgery! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348494 Getting ready to take daughter for carpal tunnel surgery. And I am a nervous wreck! It is her dominant hand, and I know that it is no picnic from personal experience. But mine went extremely well when I had it done years ago and the scar is invisible. People don't believe I had surgery on that hand until I point out the thin little white line that doesn't even show until I press hard on the heel of my hand! <BR> <BR> But no matter how old they get, they are still my babies, and I know sh... Tue, 7 May 2013 10:54:29 EST Is It Time to Get UP? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335747 Oh my goodness! Overslept and had to take girl to school! Decided enough is enough and went to doc about this ear. First it was just hurting a little. Then things started sounding funny. Sometimes people sound like banjos, sometimes like drums! Very odd. Other times I hear a roaring in the background, like the ocean when you hold a big shell up to your ear. And I'm not feeling a bit good. <BR> <BR> So off to doc I went. Ear infection AND sinus infection! So onto the meds I go, al... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 21:54:04 EST Turning Over a New Leaf http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332255 Walked today with granddaughter, daughter and friend. A little over a mile! Little by little I am building strength and stamina. I am a long way from where I want to be, but closer than I was before. Every good choice is another brick in the structure of healthy living that I am building. And every good choice is important. <BR> <BR> I am going to stop blogging about every bad thing I do without mentioning the things I am doing right! It isn't encouraging to only think and talk about... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 21:44:16 EST What Am I - A Broken Record? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330750 I am realizing how many times I have blogged about falling off the wagon over desserts! Red velvet cake! Dark chocolate! Gooey, fluffy sweet stuff! How am I going to get some backbone and start standing up to dessert and just saying "no"?! <BR> <BR> It reminds me of how my children used to say, "Sorry." It was obvious they didn't mean it, and were only saying it under duress! It really sounds like I don't mean it when I say I want to eat healthy food in a healthy way, and become a heal... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 15:53:53 EST Downed Again! And I Don't Even Know It's Name! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329865 Oh why did I think I had to have dessert?! I was doing so well, too. Making such good choices at the buffet, eating lots of veggies and some fish, feeling quite virtuous, actually. Ah, but as so often happens, pride comes before a fall! <BR> <BR> I really thought I could carry it off, eat a small bit of dessert and get away with it. When oh when will I learn that sugar is my downfall, that one little taste of gooey, sweet fluffy stuff just sweeps away all my willpower and caution?! I'm ... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 17:00:51 EST May God Give us Comfort, Wisdom and Courage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324871 My thoughts and prayers are with the families affected by the senseless violence in Boston. And I have just realized what a trigger that kind of event, and the endless news coverage of it, have been for me to start picking up old grazing/snacking habits! I wonder why it is that, when my mind and soul are filled with grief. sorrow and raw fear, my hands start making that mindless trip from any available food source to my mouth? <BR> <BR> The article I just read (and saved!) on emotional eat... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 08:09:09 EST You Have to Believe Me!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322536 It was so frustrating! Granddaughter and I had our best walk yet, more steps than I had ever had on my fitbit, and my computer would not go online!! My son was at work, so I ran into his room to use his laptop, only to find that I didn't know how to get on his!! It required a password which, obviously, I didn't know!!! It was sheer agony, having exciting news to share and no way to share it. <BR> <BR> As is quite apparent, this morning mine is working. Too late to register my efforts, a... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 08:21:22 EST Tug of War http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318812 It was a close thing. I almost gave in! It was so tempting!! But I said sweetly, "No thanks, Honey. I don't need a ride home. I'm walking on purpose. It's good for me!" And my friend reluctantly put up her window and drove away. <BR> <BR> I watched her go with longing eyes. My hips started screaming at me, "What are you doing?! Are you crazy?? Hello!! Anybody home up there??" <BR> <BR> And I just got a good grip on my cane (which I still carry on walks on the theory that when I g... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 19:39:04 EST Five! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317747 Five is the new magic number! I'm only doing it once a day, and I'm dragging when it's over, but I keep plugging along. Sooner or later the tide is bound to turn and I will be walking faster, standing straighter and walking more often! I just know it. <BR> <BR> It's ok, you can laugh. I do. But granddaughter is proud of me, and I am determined to keep trudging until there is a spring in my step. Hubby has an eye out for a three wheel bike for me, because I think it might be easier on m... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 22:39:57 EST How Long Does it Take? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316534 Last night when I tried to sync my fitbit, it needed charged. So I plugged it into my pc. Today I got some good walking in plus other activities, so I was anxious to see how I did. But the battery was still low!! All that activity not counted! AARRGH! <BR> <BR> So here's my techie-for-dummies question: Does the pc have to be on for it to charge my fitbit? Because I turned it off and went to bed. If I have to leave it on, how long does it take for it to charge? I am just so disappoin... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 23:11:03 EST Three is The Magic Number! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312965 Three blocks out, one block over, three blocks back. That is evidently what my hips will tolerate at the moment without too much fuss! So that is what I am doing. I'm going to try to time myself tomorrow morning so I can start putting some exercise time in my tracker. And I just found out today that I can sync my Fitbit with SP! Awesome! Just promise you won"t laugh too hard when you see my puny little exercise times and distances. Some of you gals just make my eyes turn green with env... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 19:38:24 EST Collateral Damage and Alarm Clocks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5311841 Well, who knew my hips were going to be all, "Oh, ow, slow down! Wait up!" I was keeping one eye on the knees, and the other one on my back. Didn't remember that I had hips 'til today! (Good thing I didn't trip over my cane while doing all this eyeing of joints!) What is the meaning of all this complaining? Can't we all just get along?? <BR> <BR> Evidently not. But I will not surrender! I will not be deterred from walking. I may, however, be slightly detained. Today I dropped d... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 19:52:04 EST How Could I Forget!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310659 What is wrong with me? I forgot to put on my fitbit this morning! And we walked to church for a CR study, and walked back! How could I forget to wear my new tool? We made the trip again this evening, but the morning steps were not counted! What a shame. I didn't do the afternoon walk, but I did get in two walks today. Some different joints are making their presence known, and I'm being cautious about pushing them too hard. <BR> <BR> I had forgotten the pleasures of walking, the things ... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 21:11:02 EST Three Squares Today!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309218 Today we walked three square blocks! That's one more square than yesterday. It is so encouraging to see the scale start to move again, and I wore a jacket today, zipped up, that would not zip last fall! So while I am a long way from getting below plus sizes, I am moving in the right direction. Hallelujah! <BR> <BR> We walked by the library, which gave me an idea. I may start dropping in on my way! I am beginning to realize that I AM within walking distance of places I am used to driv... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 18:10:23 EST Now That's More Like It!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308228 <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Finally! Down 4 pounds, after being stuck in the same spot for 3 weeks! I just know it is because of increased activity! Not up to the humongous number of steps others are reporting, but I am increasing each time the number of steps I take. Carrying the cane really helps me because I have back issues. I thought about not walking today, because my walking coach (granddaughter) had gone home with a friend after church yesterday, and I didn't want to walk alone. ... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 23:09:35 EST It Came Yesterday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5305784 My Fitbit came yesterday! I was so excited. Not being totally tech literate, I had a rough time getting the online registration done. I kept going around in circles. But I finally got it done, late in the afternoon. It was exciting to think about how this tiny little thing can keep track of my activities, but there weren't many activities the rest of the day to keep track of! <BR> <BR> Today wasn't much better. I was in the car a lot. Did a little shopping. Did some laundry and coo... Sat, 30 Mar 2013 22:21:12 EST Am I in the Fun House?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303806 Still no movement on the scale! This is super annoying, especially considering its nasty attitude. Crouching there, sneering at me as I slowly approach, removing everything that might weigh an extra ounce. And that evil chuckle as I step sadly off, disappointed again. <BR> <BR> Even worse, since I've been stuck in the same place so long, I'm beginning to notice other things that are also making me grumpy. As long as the scale was slowly receding down past the little numbers, I was excite... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 23:07:27 EST Why Can't I Get it Off?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301233 Gotcha! You thought I was mourning the motionless pointer on my scale, didn't you? No, not this time. I have ANOTHER problem that is making me crazy. <BR> <BR> One day I was really low on groceries, and threw together a pot of soup that was far from ideal, but filled empty bellies! So I used the recipe calculator to figure out how much of this concoction it was safe for me to eat. Later, after a substantial grocery run put me back in business, I redid the recipe. Again, I used the gizmo... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 20:17:08 EST Following the Yellow Brick Road? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5299524 Okay, I have a plan. 1. I ordered a Fitbit. I need something to make me aware of my level of activity, and give me incentive to move more. 2. I am using my food scale instead of guessing or estimating how much I ate. 3. I am going to start walking with granddaughter. She is an avid walker, and will be merciless in her prodding to get me out the door. Of course that is on hold until the 7 inches of blowing, drifting snow is gone! <BR> <BR> That may not sound like much of a plan, but ... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 13:01:27 EST From Ecstasy to Agony....in Five Minutes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292366 Why oh why did I not take a picture of it the moment I took it out of the oven?? It was my very first angel food cake, and it was a CHOCOLATE angel food cake, and I was going to take it to CR fellowship Sunday night. It was tall and puffy and elegant, and my heart swelled with pride as I pulled it out of the oven. I sat it on top of the stove and did a victory fist pump as I exclaimed, "Yes!!" <BR> <BR> The directions said to hang it upside down on a funnel to cool, so I did, and went o... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 12:11:30 EST God's Toolbox http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290894 I had a job to do, so I reached for my favorite tool. <BR> The one that works best for me; the one that I use, as a rule. <BR> My granddaughter watched me closely, and asked me, half in jest, <BR> "Why do you always use that one? Do you like the color best?" <BR> "Of course not, child!" I answered, as I smiled at her impish grin. <BR> "I use it most 'cause it works the best!" And we laughed at her childish whim. <BR> "The color of the handle is not the important thing. <BR> What matters mos... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 10:24:27 EST What is a FitBit and Can it Help a Couch Potato? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287720 Ok, here's the real dirt on me; I am a confirmed couch potato. Partly this is because of my joints. I have something called psoriatic arthritis, as well as regular old degenerative arthritis. And as my weight increased, so has my joint pain. <BR> <BR> Also, I am a card-carrying procrastinator. I'm always going to do something about something - tomorrow. Today I don't really have time to clean out that closet because I found the best book, and am right in the middle of the very best pa... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 12:35:23 EST Maybe I Need to Oil This Thing! Or Take a Hammer to It!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286443 What is going on here? We had a very comfortable relationship going, I thought. I stand on the scale, and it registers a bit lower than the last time. But something has changed, and I don't like it. Instead of rushing eagerly up and hopping on with a smile, I have begun creeping up cautiously, testing it with one toe to be sure it doesn't run away, and the needle does move a wee bit. Then I gingerly step on, as lightly as I can, and.....the stupid needle sticks at exactly the same place! ... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 11:16:28 EST What was I thinking?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281415 What in the world got into me today?? Am I just determined to shoot myself in the foot or what?? I got off to a good start, had a very good nutritious lunch....and then it happened. Sat down to watch a documentary with hubby, who decided to bring along a bag of sweet potato chips! Fine for him, right? <BR> <BR> Ah, but there went my sneaky little hand, right into the bag and up to my mouth with those pesky, crispy, crunchy chips. Not just once, either. After a few dips, sweet hubby got up, w... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 16:49:43 EST I Think I Can, I Know I Can! I'm Doing It!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280297 I was worried today. I made a treat for the girl, and then ate one, and then realized I had no idea how many calories I had just snarfed down! Then the box mix label had the calories listed for being prepared one way, and I had prepared it another. And the numbers didn't add up! And I started getting frustrated........and then I remembered I had help. I don't have to just guess or throw away the whole day and go ahead and eat all I want because "I've already messed up the day!" <BR> <BR> And... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 16:34:43 EST Now That's More Like It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275160 No, I'm not talking about the scale going back down...I don't weigh every week so I won't go into a tizzy over fluctuations up and down. No sir, I'm talking about being able to look my nutrition tracker straight in the eye, so to speak. If it had eyes, which it doesn't. Anyway, you know what I mean...every morsel of every meal and snack recorded, and staying within my range of allowable calories! <BR> <BR> Now that is empowering! There was a time when I honestly did not think I could do that... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 23:20:52 EST I know You Are Going to be Disappointed in Me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267394 I know you were right to advise me to stick with the program and not get knocked off track by the red velvet cake. And I know you were right to caution me about failing to stay within my calories on my birthday. And I tried. But something just came over me somewhere between "Happy Birthday, dear Grammy" and cutting the cake. <BR> <BR> For one thing, you should have seen the card! It was hilarious, featuring a blue-haired grandma with "weird-smelling perfume" and "thick socks rolled down aro... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 14:51:42 EST Help! My birthday is coming up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263661 Daughter took me out to lunch, and we were proud of each other. We went to Bob Evans and had the grilled salmon, with steamed carrots and broccoli. It was delicious, and we did not order desert. (We did eat our yeast rolls, though.) <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I go back to rehab for that last exercise session. Don't go for post-op til early in March. Other than rolling around on the sidewalk the other day, I have been doing fine. And I am, brace yourselves, PLANNING AHEAD for my birthday later this w... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:34:11 EST I Got Up Off the Ground and Assessed the Damage! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260799 Oh the embarrassment, the humiliation of falling in a public place! Oh why was I so vain, leaving my cane in the car? And why am I so clumsy? It was just a sidewalk, no ice, no reason to be stumbling over nothing. <BR> <BR> And another thing; why can't I stop myself from hollering out "Help me!" as I'm going down.? I know good and well that nobody can help me; I'm going down! If hubby tried to catch me, he'd probably go down with me! Why oh why did I not take my cane with me. I know it was o... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 08:51:10 EST The World Will not Stop Turning.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258411 Ok, calm yourself down, Charity. This happens. So you didn't lose anything this time. Breathe in, let it out. Now, let's get practical, shall we? You think this might have anything to do with that "one little cookie" you've started allowing yourself once in a while?? Hmm? Or how about the other evening when you indulged in that "little dab" of ice cream with hubby? Not to mention the piece of birthday cake that somehow get didn't recorded. Do you really think that if you don't record it, it... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 07:59:52 EST Did you see what I just did?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254931 Red letter day Sunday. As I was leaving church Sunday morning, (with neither walker nor cane, thank you) I went down the front steps. So what's the big deal, I hear you asking. Well the big deal was the WAY I went down! Usually , for a long, long time, I have gone down one step at a time. First one foot on the first step down, then the other foot on the same step. Then one foot on the second step, then the other foot on the same step. I'm sure you've seen other grandmas doing the two step! <B... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 13:39:36 EST Before I got to the restaurant.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251888 I realize that I just took a flying leap from going home to going out to eat one month later! In between was therapy twice a week at rehab, plus working on it at home. Before I left the hospital I was exercising my knee. I was in control of the machine that kept my leg moving at night. They told me that the goal of my therapy was to get 120 degrees of flexing out of my knee. When I left for home I was already up to 90. <BR> <BR> My first day of rehab, I toddled in there with my walker, expe... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 17:50:11 EST Hubby took me out to eat! Oh dear... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251743 What a sweet hubby! He came home from work on Valentines Day and took me out to eat. At a buffet. Oh dear. <BR> <BR> On the bright side, the new knee worked great. No walker or cane needed. Even though we had to stand in line to get into the new buffet that just opened recently near us. But was I up the challenge of eating right in a lovely new buffet? <BR> <BR> The food was beautifully prepared and artfully displayed. The aromas were mouthwatering. The staff was extremely efficient and ple... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 14:33:17 EST Why Does Healing Have to Hurt? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219056 Healing is scary, when it hurts. My instinct is to pull back, curl up, and hold very, very still! Therapy makes me reach out, straighten and move! Now I have a choice to make. Am I going to follow my instinct and guard my hurt, or obey the therapy instructions and cause myself pain? We all know the right answer, but..... after all, it will get better eventually no matter which way I choose. Wounds will heal, strength will return. So why hurry things along? It's not like I have a job to go ba... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 19:05:49 EST Would You Like to Tango? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214710 That's all right, cause neither would I. Let me see, where to begin. Oh I know. Let's start with an honest acknowledgment: I did not prepare properly. I meant to. I even started to, more than once. But there were still a few things I just didn't get done. Like taking up those throw rugs. All I can say is, 'Thank goodness for daughters and granddaughters!' What sweet ones I have! I owe you, ladies. <BR> <BR> I don't know what it is about me that makes me think instructions and precautions a... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 19:58:00 EST I Can't Even Get in the Car! How Can I Go Home? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213234 What was I thinking, wanting to go home? In my hospital room, everything was designed and located for my convenience! I know good and well that is not the case in my house. Not this me. Not the me with a burning scar down one knee and random painful places that I can't explain and certainly did not expect. They operated on my knee, for goodness sake. Why is my abdomen so sore and painful?? And why didn't someone suggest I wear something slick for sliding onto the seat of the minivan? My wool... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 15:13:36 EST Wish I Could Remember What I Had for Lunch! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212020 Modern pain meds are a miracle and can be a blessing! But I am finding there are a few drawbacks. For instance, I cannot remember what I had for lunch! I'm trying to faithfully log in my calories every day ,but it is sometimes a challenge to push past the fuzzy brain and today I just cant do it. Also, I have been having really strange, distorted dreams and strange sensations while awake. For instance, I spent several hours today feeling weirdly light, specially my head, which I feared would... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 19:51:34 EST The Pain Has Arrived! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210475 I knew it was coming. I was prepared for it. What I wasn't prepared for was the weakness. It was almost like it wasn't my leg at all, but belonged to somebody else. Move, you stupid leg. Move! But the kind therapist helped me move it (he pretended he was helping me. Actually, he moved it and I TRIED to help!} <BR> <BR> That was this morning. By this afternoon I could tell I was doing a significant part of the moving. And this evening I was actually doing a LOT of the moving. Also, I even wal... 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