CHAR8026's SparkPeople Blog CHAR8026's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Happy Mothers Day I was thinking today of Mothers Day. I have only celebrated this day 4 times for myself, and it is still strange to think that I am a mom. I have by choice, taken the responsiblity of a little human being and have vowed to keep that little human safe, fed, happy, clothed and try to nurture that little human into a polite, kind, gentle, self assured young man. That is quite a job when you think about it. He did not come with a rule book, or a guide book, or even a list of directions. For the l... Fri, 6 May 2016 14:11:05 EST Success This is one of my favorite pictures, because it seems I do this. The need for instant gratification and or it becoming too hard. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I attended another Toastmasters meeting and they had a guest speaker that made me think. Dr. Vincent Kikuku, who is a motivational speaker and fundraiser expert for Kenya. He was an amazing speaker and his topic was on defining moments. T... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 11:15:10 EST Gratitude and Wins today.... Today is just a quick post, and I am just listing my gratitude and wins today. Today is Day 7 on the Whole 30 and I am doing pretty good other than still a bit tired. More sleep would help. I am totally starting to believe that I can do this.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Gratitude: Today I am so grate... Fri, 26 Feb 2016 11:13:27 EST Nap Time Day 6 of Whole 30 and true to the timeline, I am just wanting to take a nap. This is so what I feel like right now.... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have to say though, I am feeling 100% better. My jeans are fitting a bit looser, my head is clearing, I got through the Whole. Entire. Day on Tuesday. The fog is lifting, and I always am so much more productive when I feel good. I have gotten some much needed exe... Thu, 25 Feb 2016 11:22:03 EST A dream.... Have any of you seen the movie Tangled by Disney? It is a great movie and how in the face of all obstacles Rapunzel overcomes and gets to her dream. Now I am not suggesting you kidnap a handsome young thief to help you get to your dreams but I am suggesting that maybe going back to basics is a great idea. <BR> <BR> Lately I have been overwhelmed, tired and losing sight of what is important to me. Rapunzel only wanted to see the lights that she has been seeing out her bedroom window for ... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 15:45:58 EST And here it is almost 2 months into it.... And here it is almost 2 months into it, and I don't feel like I have accomplished anything. It has been one thing or another and they are starting to sound more and more like excuses. I was on a website the other day called Mateusz M and they post some fabulous motivational videos and quotes. One of the quotes that I stumbled across was "you don't always get what you wish for, you get what you work for. It is now time to quit wishing, and put in the hard work. <BR> <BR> <img src="http... Fri, 12 Feb 2016 11:56:07 EST The Countdown 3, 2, 1 I am getting myself ready to countdown into the New Year. I am really looking forward to working on myself, my faith and trying some new things. This is going to be the Happiness, Fulfillment Year!! <BR> <BR> I will write more after the Holiday Weekend, and the big Birthday Bash for Blake. <BR> <BR> Have a Happy New Year. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 31 Dec 2015 13:45:44 EST The New Year - Welcoming 2016 So I have been thinking of my new years resolutions, (that never work) and how I always set the same goals... and never quite get there. This year I want to do something different and gasp... not diet, not save money and not clean house. Nope, I am going to try something totally different and start making memories. With memories, I will probably do all of the above and it won't feel like such work. I have quite a list going, and it is all about family time this year and doing things that ... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 14:54:45 EST Week Rewind <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Last week was a crazy week with a visit from mom, saw Santa, family dinner and celebrations with my parents. Of course they spoiled me which was nice. It was a super great visit but all too short. <BR> <BR> This week I am trying to focus on getting the tree up, and some lights put up so Santa can find our house. I am trying to get organized and cleaned up so that we can make room for C... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 11:37:56 EST Coming Out of The Fog Little by little I am coming out of my fog, my depression, and getting back into a normal life. I have been under this fog that seems to suck all of my energy, all of my happiness out of me and I just don't have any room to think about anything else. But today I started feeling better and got some good news. My mom is coming to visit, today. So that made me very happy and got me to thinking about my goals and what I really need to do. <BR> <BR> Since this week is going to be a blur of ... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 18:16:25 EST Letting Go I stumbled across a blog yesterday called She had some great tips on getting organized. And I figured out that I could implement some of those tips in my life too not just in getting organized. The thing that resonated with me so soundly was letting go of the dream: as in why are you holding onto all of your scrapbooking stuff when you use it twice in 10 years. She says to not get stuck in the what if's the somedays and the just in cases. Get rid of it. When I really tho... Fri, 4 Dec 2015 11:12:13 EST Dreams, Hope, Faith WOW, has it been a long time since I have written here. I think I am missing it. It used to be a daily adventure where I would let my thoughts just kind of flow without censorship. Then I started reading other blogs, and I thought they were so much better than mine. Who wants to read my random thoughts?? My writing is awful. All the self doubt, self loathing, negative thoughts pushed there way in and I lost sight of what was important with this blog. I thought I need to make my blog mor... Wed, 2 Dec 2015 17:49:19 EST Random Thoughts I swear the only reason I don't blog more is because of the title. Having to come up with a catchy title to what I am thinking every day can just about send me over the edge. Anyway, on to my random thoughts. <BR> <BR> So today I was thinking about topics to write about and stumbled across a couple of things. One of those things is happiness. I have been researching happiness lately. It is an interesting topic. Then I started wondering about the link between food and happiness. And... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 17:53:27 EST Fun Weekend in Oregon We had a great time at my mom's this last weekend. Blake got to play in the mud, see ALL of his grandparents on my side of the family and run wild on the farm. He didn't want to come home very bad. <BR> <BR> I got my new car, or new to me. It is fun, a 2000 Alero. It just zips all over the place and gets great gas mileage. <BR> <BR> I finished my Whole 30 and then went crazy. I ate everything that I haven't been eating and made myself sick. I spent Friday sick and in bed for most ... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 18:37:48 EST Have not been keeping up Wow, I have not been keeping up with my blog. And I need to, because this keeps me accountable, and I can go back through and see where I hit trouble spots. It also keeps me focused on my goals for the year which as we wind down March are sadly lacking this year. I can't believe almost 3 months of this year are over. The time is going by way to fast. So I will quickly recap the last three months: <BR> <BR> January: January came and went fast and strong. I was motivated, lost a little... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 19:03:50 EST Ready, Set, Go!! So today is technically the first day of the new and improved me. I didn't elaborate as much as I wanted to on my goals for this year in my last post, so I am setting out my S.M.A.R.T goals for this year and I will recap the big birthday bash. <BR> <BR> I signed up for a Dietbet, that always seems to help me as this is my 5th diet bet and I have only lost one. I need the jump start and the accountability. I also signed up for the St. Luke's Maintain challenge and weigh in is next week. ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 14:37:49 EST Happy New Year - Today A Special Day Today is Blake's 3rd birthday and once agan I found myself on New Years Day baking for his daycare class. This year he got cake pops in a mini ice cream cone. So fun! He loves to help and last night when I showed him the cake pops he looks at me and he says "WOW, mommy, those are mine?" He was really excited to share them with school. <BR> <BR> We had a great Christmas, I cooked dinner for my in laws at the last minute due to an illness. It turned out great considering it was on Chris... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 14:02:23 EST Busy December Wow, the month of November flew by and I am not even sure where it went. December is going by way to fast also. So much going on right now. <BR> <BR> I am trying very hard to get back into exercise and eating well this week. I have been doing good, not great. But I did manage 3 days of running this week, tracked my food for 4 days and drank a ton of water. So those are all wins... YAY me. <BR> <BR> I am trying to get things ready for the Season, and this weekend I will get out the ... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 13:08:59 EST Holiday Season is Here!! The Holiday season is upon us, and I am excited for it this year. Blake is really starting to understand things this year and is having a great time talking about the fun stuff he is doing. <BR> <BR> It has been so cold in Idaho these last couple of weeks. Lots of snow, ice and freezing temps has made for some fun snow days for us. I am sick of the cold already but Blake is not. So last weekend we bought boots, gloves, snow pants and a jacket and had the best time playing in the snow. ... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 12:59:11 EST My Mind Goes in Circles I will start the morning off with a funny Blake story. The other night we are talking, and I am trying to explain Thanksgiving, and what Thanksgiving is and how it works. This is not easy with a 2 year old. Why mommy, why do we eat turkey, why, why can't I dress up on Thanksgiving. Questions, questions... and then on to the next question.... <BR> <BR> So here is how our conversation went: <BR> <BR> Blake: I am going to be batman for Halloween. <BR> Me: Halloween is over, the next h... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 10:30:09 EST Halloween, Disappointments I survived the Halloween festivities. Oh my what an interesting, but fun evening I had. My little guy WOULD NOT wear his costume at all. So as a last minute attempt to get him to dress up, I stuck on his boots, his cowboy hat, and grabbed his toy gun. He made a pretty good cowboy, and he loved the trick or treating and people watching. We tried something new this year and we had great fun. So much to look at, he was just all over the place. Then we picked up the neighbor baby to do som... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 18:57:57 EST Carving Pumpkins We had such a fun night. We carved a pumpkin, (still have 3 to go) but for Blake's first pumpkin he had a great time. And it turned out pretty good. He is ready to do the second one, but wouldn't touch the "guts." So funny, he grabbed my camera and started taking pictures of me doing the pumpkin instead of him. So there is one picture of me, taken by my 2.5 year old. <BR> <BR> Motivation is still lacking, but I am just going to have to buckle down and do it. Start small again, not st... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 13:09:21 EST Being a Mom Ah the joys of motherhood. One of the most rewarding, but yet frustrating jobs out there. There are no rules. There are no deadlines. There isn't anything to tell you how to do it. In a real job, there are standard operating procedures, manuals to trouble shoot and and documents and documents of step by step instructions. But being a mom is trial and error and when one thing finally works, then it doesn't any more. There is no SOP manual. Because when you try one thing, it works for a ... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 17:38:20 EST Friday Fun Day It is Friday fun day, and I am almost ready to tackle the world today. We have swim lessons this afternoon, Blake's flu shot and then home to clean/organize and get stuff done. My dream is to have the house completely clean, and just be able to sit on the couch and enjoy a cup of coffee for a few minutes. I have a two year old so this probably won't happen anytime soon, but I keep trying. <BR> <BR> And I think trying is the key word. Not giving up or in to all the chaos in my life. I ... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 10:44:32 EST No Motivation today I have no motivation today. I think it is because it is getting closer to the end of the week, and I just don't want to do anything today. I am feeling kind of whiney and a big case of the I don't wanna's. <BR> <BR> Blake got his school pictures last night and they turned out awesome. I can't wait to get the package to post a couple of them. He is such a grown up in the pictures and he did so good. I am excited for the whole package and most of Christmas is taken care of now. A few f... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 17:48:08 EST Getting Well I ended up being out sick for a week. I had strep throat of all the stupid things to catch. No wonder I felt so crummy. I have been on antibiotics now for the last week and oh feeling so much better. Still a bit tired and my energy isn't 100% yet, but I am getting there. And luckily my family hasn't caught it yet, and I think we are on the downhill side of that one. <BR> <BR> Now that I am feeling better it is time to hit it hard with my organizing and cleaning. I found the cutest th... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 18:40:10 EST Monday and sick again So I woke up this morning feeling like heck, but actually made it in to work. Now I am fading fast and no amount of cold medicine seems to be helping. I think I am going to throw in the towel today, and go get some rest. <BR> <BR> This being sick is not helping anything. And I seem to be catching everything!! Just a couple of weeks ago I was out for 2.5 days with a miserable cold, and now it is coming back. O.k. enough whining. Here is what you all have been waiting for, The Pumpkin ... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 13:53:00 EST Fun Weekend Ahead I have a fun weekend ahead. We are doing the pumpkin patch tomorrow, making treats to BOO The neighborhood, and going costume shopping. I can't wait... I hope Blake has as much fun as I plan on doing. <BR> <BR> Topic today is on Choices. I have been thinking about choices and how some people always seem to make bad choices and in turn bad luck follows them. There are other people who always seem to make the right decision and good luck seems to follow them. Over the course of the last... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 10:53:50 EST Great Morning Tuesday I love it when I have the best morning with Blake. He woke up excited to go to Grandma's this morning, and then told me, "Mommy, gramma has ice pops! Do you want an ice cream cone?" I laughed and said, no I don't want ice cream this early in the morning. (Ice pops are popsicles). Then he immediately fell asleep in the car on the way there and stayed asleep. I hope gramma enjoys the little break. <BR> <BR> I am so feeling like I am back in control of everything. It is amazing how my ... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 11:04:41 EST 5 minutes! I had a great weekend, got in a very nice walk with a fellow spark friend, and Blake was actually pretty good while we walked. Then I had brunch with a dear friend, and then she spent the rest of the afternoon with me. It was so nice to catch up with her, and just enjoy the afternoon. Saturday was such a great day, I need more of those. Sunday was a catch up on chores day and I think I finally got out of my procrastination rut and found a way to tackle tasks. <BR> <BR> I think this is... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 16:56:57 EST It is another Friday I haven't been here all week! I have had so many things going through my mind that I just couldn't get my thoughts in order to nail it down to one topic. So today is just going to be a quick fly by for an update. <BR> <BR> I DID IT! I made my diet bet goal and have lost 22 lbs. I am finally into another decade and going lower all the time. Does that feel good to be lower than the weight I was when I got married, which means I have lost all of the baby weight too. Now it is about me g... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 14:02:17 EST Friday Yay for Friday. This cold still is kicking my butt, and now it has taken hold of Blake. He just wanted to be held yesterday, and sleep a lot. It was good for both of us, to take another day for rest. But oh how I wish this cold would let up. I miss running, I miss being able to exercise my muscles and have that feeling that they are loose and warm and stretched. <BR> <BR> I was up on the dang scale about a half a pound. UGH!! I only have a few more days to make my Diet bet goal and ... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 11:50:04 EST Still Sick, one pound to go, reevaluation of the next 3 months I am still sick, this cold just WILL not let go. It has drained my energy and drive. Is all I want to do when I get home is go to bed. And with a two year old that isn't possible, as he has the energy for three people. I am eating right, drinking a ton of water, and still I am not getting better. Not worse either, but not better. I haven't been running and I think that is affecting my mood too. I haven't ran in over a week but I just don't have the energy to go out and do it. <BR> <... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 12:10:14 EST Headed into the weekend.... Yay it is Friday and I am so glad. I am headed out to do some mini errands, and take a long nap this afternoon. So tired of this cold. I need rest, and thinking hot homemade chicken soup in the crockpot for tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I only have a few more days on this diet bet challenge so I need to hit it really hard next week and make sure I am making good decisions and really eating healthy. I know I can do this, and it was an expensive one this time. I don't want to lose my money so rea... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 13:27:11 EST Sick, Things on my mind I have been sick this last week, so not really doing much Spark of anything. I am tired, and just not feeling very good at the moment. I went to the doctor this morning, and it is just a cold, so I have to just wait it out. I was so hoping to get some really good drugs, and a really good nap. But no, I am trying to struggle through it. <BR> <BR> So the new heater will be installed next week, and I will have saved all of the money for it. I am excited to be able to say that I did it. ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 17:43:41 EST Weekend Rewind I had a very good end of summer long weekend. It started on Friday afternoon with a trip to Jackpot to do some gambling and get a few hours of me time. It was fun, but got back very late. Later than I had actually planned which messed up my plans for Saturday. But what a great time!! <BR> <BR> Saturday was a very lazy day, made the husband and kiddo a French toast breakfast and cleaned up the house a bit. Took a long nap with the kiddo, and then played outside, with the neighbor baby. ... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 16:43:14 EST What a day! Wow, what a day today is turning out to be. It started with being late because of traffic. I wasn't actually late, just cars seemed to be stopped in front of me for about three miles. I finally got to work, and the button on my pants popped off. One of my favorite pairs too. So I had to drive back home and change clothes. Then I went out for a run, and ended up somehow miscalculating the miles for the loop and ran an extra half mile. While that isn't bad, it took much longer than I had... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 16:02:25 EST Tuesday August 26 Wow, August is almost over. Where has the time gone? I felt fall in the air this morning and it made me think of my sweaters and boots. I am looking forward to the change in weather and clothes. <BR> <BR> As a hobby I bake/decorate cakes. Some have asked if I do it professionally and I do not. I do it as a hobby. I love to do it! Here are some pictures of the cakes I have done in the past: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 12:10:58 EST Fairs, Birthday Party, Color Run and more.... I am so behind on my blog. I really need to get back to daily accountability because I do so much better when I hold myself accountable. And right now, eating and exercise hasn't been the priority it was just a few weeks ago. That is because I haven't been taking care of me in the process, just trying to do the process, go through the motions and not be present in the journey. No more, I am taking back my life and my health before it spirals way out of control. <BR> <BR> So my little g... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 17:43:40 EST Low Energy I have such low non existant energy right now. I am not sure what is wrong, I am taking a vitamin daily, taking my thyroid medicine religiously and I still feel totally completely run down and on edge. Exercise seems to completely wipe me out, and it isn't like I am running marathons, or evening training for one. My 3 or 4 miles is wiping me out for most of the day, and I can't seem to get enough energy to complete even the most trivial household chore. This has been going on for weeks no... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 12:00:59 EST Feeling pretty good Today I am feeling much better about things. So I didn't get to go on my trips, and of course it isn't the end of the world. I keep looking at that credit card and saying things like, I could just charge the trip, that would be less money than the furnace. But that would be totally defeating the point. The point is my house and tenants must have heat this winter, and I didn't do what I was supposed to do a long time ago. This means, I must sacrifice now and in the end I will have grown a... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 12:59:04 EST A PR! Today I did a huge PR (personal record). At 89 degrees, I finally ran my first 10 minute mile. My muscles just seemed to want to fly today for the first mile. Then for the second and third miles I did a different workout trying to build up speed. So I used the C25K plan, and I ran as hard and fast as I could for one minute, walked for 90 seconds. Talk about a hard workout. But it felt great and I did get in three miles. Overall my time was slower than usual, but I think the heat and t... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 15:53:03 EST Interesting Article As I was sitting here waiting for 5 o'clock, I was browsing spark people and ran across this article. It was very inspiring and motivating, as I have been feeling like I have given up just about everything for a healthy lifestyle. This article said exactly what I have been feeling lately, and now with a renewed source of energy and positive attitude giving up isn't a bad thing. Here is the link to the article. <BR> <BR><BR>?post=my_list_of_give_up... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 18:55:22 EST Friday - Yay it's Friday OOOPS!! My mind is not where it should be. I totally forgot to add my gratitude and wins yesterday. So I will start with that: <BR> Gratitude: So grateful for cooler temps that allowed me to run one of my best runs. <BR> WINS: Run, no junk food, scale was down. <BR> <BR> O.k. got that over with. <BR> <BR> Today is Friday, and I love my Fridays. Only a half a day at work today, then going home to work on some cleaning/decluttering stuff. And it is basket night... thanks to a spark... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 11:27:39 EST Day 205 Today is day 205 in the year. Which means there are only 160 days left in the year. it is going by so very fast. So what am I doing lately. Not blogging! I just don't have much to say right now. I am still fighting the good fight, and still losing. But I am still incredibly tired, and I can't seem to figure it out. I am not sick, I feel fine, just really tired. I want the fatigue to just go away already. <BR> <BR> Saving money update: I am actually doing it, and not pouting about... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 12:53:49 EST Haven't been here in a while... Wow, I haven't been here in a while. So much in the last week has gone on, and I was hoping to have some fun pictures to post but haven't gotten that far yet. So I will start with last weekend. <BR> <BR> B29 Bomber Plane ride: This was so much fun. I went up in a B29 bomber flight plane, got a little tour of Boise, and then landed again. Talk about missing the cushy jet airliner. It was hot and dusty, and not much in the way of safety features. I could just imagine the hot weather, b... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:16:12 EST Positive Thursday Good Morning, <BR> Today is positive Thursday. And I am trying really hard to stay focused and positive. I am coming down with a cold, and I am so very tired today. I want to go home and bury myself into my bed and take a nice long nap. <BR> <BR> Camp Savings won, so that starts today (payday). I am going to use the envelope system, it seems to be to easy to transfer money from savings to checking when I need a few dollars. So I am going to just remove it from the bank, and stash it ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 14:16:36 EST Another Wednesday As my A/C - Heater saga continues I am finding myself in a dilemma. I paid off my credit card back in February, (finally) after months of trying to get it paid off, so I have the money I need to fix it right now and put it on my credit card. Or I can scrimp, cut back, no splurges for three months and save the $1500 I need. <BR> <BR> I have put this out there for my Spark Friends and so far everyone is in the save camp. I haven't heard one person tell me to use my credit card. This is i... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 17:22:30 EST Always Something in Life The good news first: I won my diet bet this morning. After some technological difficulty it was confirmed that I was a diet bet winner. YAY, which means that stubborn pound finally came off. It always makes me feel so good when I win, even if it is only a few dollars. I joined something, and finished it. Which means I had a very healthy 4th of July. <BR> <BR> My 4th of July holiday was awesome. Baby Blake did so good. He swam all day long, and never got cranky. He even ate some of... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 16:51:47 EST Summer Fun Continued Today as I was driving into work, and Blake and I had our daily struggle of getting dressed, and getting out the door I was thinking I really need to get back to that level of just fun. Everything is fun to him and at some time I have become warped and a product of society. Busy, busy, always got to go, doing something and never taking the time to just be. My friend Kal posted this in our chat group today and I just had to steal it. Thanks Kal!! <BR> <BR> How to Have Fun Like Children:... 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