CHANGING_LIFE's SparkPeople Blog CHANGING_LIFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Desperately needing encouragement Well, I joined WW Meetings and Tuesday would have been my week 3 weigh in. I lost three pounds the first week. I felt fine. Not hungry or anything. <BR> <BR> I was weighing myself at home and I noticed that the scale didn't seem to be budging anymore, despite strictly following the plan and exercising. I was frustrated. I am frustrated. And then last Thursday night came around. I had a lot of opportunities for free food and booze. I didn't really want to go make nice with people at a... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 23:42:32 EST BACK with new goals When I stopped writing last, I was in the best shape of my life. I PR'd in several races. My weight was where I wanted it to be. My body fat percentage was awesome from eating late. I didn't need to track food as I could just use my body's perception of hunger to know how much I needed. Plus, I was burning a crazy amount of energy. <BR> <BR> All of these wonderful things kind of caught up to me. I moved 500 miles. I made a major career change. I hurt my hip while moving, which kept m... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 11:00:59 EST 5k PR, missed goal by 43 seconds I had a great day at the St. Patrick's Day 5k this past Sunday. I was hoping to run in under 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> I don't like making excuses, but I will say that in 14*F weather I only missed my goal by 43 seconds...finishing in 30:43, which is an all time PR by 1:06. I'm really not disappointed in myself. I did my best, and I put the work just wasn't my time yet to break the 30 minute mark. <BR> <BR> Going to keep at it. :) Wed, 19 Mar 2014 12:03:11 EST Good luck vibes and encouragement appreciated! Well, in January I decided to cut back on racing and put more into training. I've been working extremely hard with both weight lifting and running, and seeing progress in both. My last two trial 5k's in ran in 31:46 and 31:42, respectively. These would both be all time PR's for me, even from before my car accident. <BR> <BR> My time goal tomorrow at the 5k is under 30 minutes. I know I am close. Both of those runs I still had more left in me, as one of them was part of a 5 mile run. <BR... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 09:34:06 EST Happy Weight and My Fear of Gaining Weight <BR> <BR> Recently I read an article from Coach Nicole talking about her “happy weight.” And that article has really stuck with me. <BR> <BR> First, just a little background about myself. I’m currently 24 years old. I’ve always been athletic or an athlete, but never a good athlete. I loved volleyball in junior high…but I was never talented at it. Now my sport is running, and I’ve never been a fast runner. I run to compete against myself and because I enjoy it. Also, recently I’ve in... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 08:35:30 EST Update--still hanging in there Well, it’s been quite a while since I last wrote but things have more or less been the same. I’m making accomplishments in lifting and running both here and there. I finished my PT for my hip, although I’m still having discomfort in it. I still can’t squat, and I finally went to talk to a trainer at my gym who has instructed me to do ball wall squats for a couple of weeks and then come back to see him. <BR> <BR> In regards to running, last week I did 7 miles, and my watch once again gave ... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 09:29:47 EST Getting over humps Wow, can’t believe it’s been a week since I last wrote. Thanks so much for all of your support. Thankfully I’m doing better for the most part. <BR> <BR> In regards to not getting my squat form, I can at least do lunges for now and I am keeping working on squats…and trying not to get frustrated. I’d like to hire a coach, but I don’t have the funds for that so I’m just gonna do what I can. I’m mainly thinking it’s a core/back issue (perhaps related to my “injury” perhaps not). So I’m goin... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 15:26:32 EST Crying on and off today...just feeling inadequate <BR> Sunday night my friend in vet school convinced me to get seen for an injury that’s been bugging me since late May 2013. So Monday morning first thing I called in and got an appointment. I went to the gym and got in most of my cycling workout before I went to my appointment. <BR> <BR> Finally got a name for what I’ve been experiencing…piriformis syndrome, which deals with the piriformis muscle and the sciatic nerve in my leg. After my initial doctor appointment, I had lunch with my f... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 15:00:10 EST Progress! Last weekend I was excited to go for my birthday run...unfortunately, I ended up swimming, skating, jumping over snow piles, and dealing with traffic. I got my six planned miles in and then got on the treadmill for an additional mile. I was frustrated because I felt stronger and wanted to be able to push myself. <BR> <BR> This weekend thankfully there wasn't a snowstorm or 15 inches of snow melting. So I was bursting to go on my run. I wanted to run a PR by my watch for 10 kilometers. T... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 13:48:38 EST Haters gonna hate After only having completed two weeks of my new exercise plan incorporating both running and lifting, I'm already experiencing people trying to bring me down. <BR> <BR> Basically, I've just decided that instead of having the mentality that well, at least I'm not on the couch...I want to actually train and get better at running. <BR> <BR> So far I've received sarcasm calling me "hardcore" as an insult, like I have some talent that others don't have. No. I've only been doing this for two we... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 22:37:23 EST Leaving Weight Watchers, body fat vs. BMI Well, in October I joined Weight Watchers. Since then, I have lost about 22 lbs. I've enjoyed the program and learned a lot from it, but unfortunately it no longer aligns with my goals. <BR> <BR> I haven't made my decision yet or decided when I will be leaving. I'm going to find out how much I've paid for and stay until then at least. <BR> <BR> My reasons being for needed to leave Weight Watchers, although it is a valid program and like I said I learned a lot, are complex. However, they... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 12:27:27 EST Why *can't* I? Hi all! Sorry it’s been so long since I’ve really written much. Honestly, Christmas break was kind of stressful due to some medical situations in my family. I’m glad I got to see my family, though, and I am now back at work. <BR> <BR> In regards to my weight loss progress, I managed somehow to lose two pounds over Christmas. I guess I need to go on the Christmas diet more often!!! Ha! But in reality, it was probably just me being more mindful that I have been in the past…paying attentio... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 16:01:27 EST Before and after photo I know I am much overdue for a long blog, but here's something brief in the meanwhile. <BR> <BR> One of my new fitness goals is to decrease my body fat by increasing muscle. So yesterday I joined a gym so I can start pumping iron. <BR> <BR> I was starting on a new plan so I thought I would take a before picture. My goodness I am glad I did. As I was scrolling through photos on Facebook last night I found I had worn the same shirt to a 10k race in November. I had thought it fit me a lot dif... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 08:48:49 EST Down another pound, trick mirrors <BR> Well, I went to my weigh-in on Wednesday last week and thankfully was down another pound despite celebrating after my coursework part of my degree was completed. <BR> <BR> The rough part has been traveling down to visit family and my tendency to eat when I’m here. My first day we went to the church potluck. I definitely felt like I overate that night. The following night my church choir had their big Christmas celebration, and I overate goodies at that as well. I definitely wasn’t ... Sat, 21 Dec 2013 13:07:03 EST Ended things with the guy I was dating, fun time skiing yesterday <BR> <BR> Not really much to write about today. I got myself out yesterday to ski, and that was a blast. I have definitely improved since my first couple of attempts last year. My balance was much better. I didn’t fall at all. And, I managed to get up an uphill with the technique I saw in a YouTube video! How is that for self teaching? Though I am going to need to start finding more out about it to continue improving…but getting my confidence up is definitely a big thing! <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 16:57:24 EST Working on my goal 2: being more social, and I bought a new dress I’ve talked a lot about my goal number 1 (weight maintenance) but not as much about my goal number 2, which is being more social here. <BR> <BR> At the beginning of the school year, I was going through a break-up. Not only did I feel very lonely from that, but I also joined a lab in which I am currently the only person. Plus, I am a bit shy when it can come to making friends because I am somewhat scarred from past experiences…having something well intentioned come out completely wrong. <BR... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 10:40:51 EST Done with finals, hit my 10% weight loss mark at my Weight Watchers meeting <BR> I don’t know how to explain things right now. I guess I should be super ecstatic, but I have a bunch of mixed emotions. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my last final exam…ever. I am now done with the coursework requirement for my PhD. The rest of my degree will be teaching and research. I am happy about it, but at the same time feel a bit lost. I keep thinking I need to be doing homework or something. And, I’m a bit ashamed because I feel like maybe I could’ve done better. But, it’s don... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 12:09:40 EST Way to feel confident for finals...wearing pants I haven't worn for a couple of years So even though I won’t officially weigh-in until tomorrow, I got on the scale this morning and was *very* happy with what I saw. I’ve been trying to get into a pair of corduroys for a while, and thought I would give them a shot today. They are a wee bit tight…but only I, the person wearing them, would even notice. They look fine on me! So what was going to be a sweat pants morning on my last day (ever) of final exams turned into me wearing pants I haven’t worn since winter 2011. <BR> <BR... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 10:29:47 EST Made a fool out of myself yesterday So I wrote in here a little bit ago about a good third date and a good first kiss�a sweet first kiss. <BR> <BR> And I texted with him some this weekend. But I started to get the idea that his career was more important to him than a relationship or whatever it is that we had could be. <BR> <BR> With that in mind, I tried to be supportive of his phone interview yesterday. I texted him after he told me it was going to get over, offering to stop by and bring coffee so he could tell me about... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 08:39:02 EST Third date...he kissed me! Last Friday I wrote in here about my second date on Wednesday, which went well. And at the end, he said, “What are you doing this weekend?” I thought he was just asking me, so I started telling him every little thing I had planned. Then he said, “Well, there’s a winter festival this weekend, would you like to go with me?” So I said yes. <BR> <BR> Saturday (yesterday), I did a fun run (not timed) 5k race, which was a really great time. Then I got back to my apartment and ready for my dat... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 11:41:48 EST Good second date, gained 0.4 lbs after Thanksgiving…not the best Weight Watcher meeting experience Let’s see. So last time I wrote was before Thanksgiving. I did fairly well. I ran a lot, which helped. The one thing I noticed is that I did much better with the big meal rather than the leftovers. My worst day was NOT Thanksgiving meals, but rather the day in which our meals were leftovers. I ate too much and I could feel I ate too much when I went to bed. But, I feel weight loss is a learning experience, so here’s something I know come Christmas. I think part of it was that my paren... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 10:12:54 EST Promising first date, excited for Thanksgiving, and down 2.2 more lbs <BR> <BR> Well, I guess I will start in chronological order. I am extremely excited for Thanksgiving. I haven’t been down to visit my family for three months, so the anticipation is getting to me and making it hard for me to focus. I got all of my grades in the system earlier this afternoon, but I still need to complete a lab report by tomorrow afternoon. I am mostly packed, but of course need to throw in the last minute items. <BR> <BR> I talked with my parents on Saturday about our a... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 16:38:48 EST Getting closer to my goals; now have lost 12 lbs since starting Weight Watchers Such a busy time of year. Grad school can be quite the mind game. But I’m doing what I can. Thanksgiving is close, but I’m trying to remain focused as excited as I am. <BR> <BR> My two major goals on SparkPeople have been learning to control my weight and becoming more social. I should clarify that I don’t mean weight loss for the first goal. I’ve done weight loss so many times throughout my life. I am referring to learning my body and learning what is best for me. In the past, trying... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 10:03:51 EST Difficulty breathing while exercising I've always had coughing after running in the cold, but it never really bothered me. After I came inside and took a hot shower, I was usually okay. I just jokingly called it my "runner's cough" and never thought much about it. <BR> <BR> After my car accident in January 2012, I couldn't run for six months due to concussion/post-concussion syndrome. In June, I slowly got myself back up to running, dealing with set-backs from the post-concussion syndrome. I ran a 5k at the end of July 2012.... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 18:03:27 EST My first week doing badly on Weight Watchers and my first date since my break-up I should note that I didn't even bother going to my weigh-in...I knew I had gained weight. Maybe I can go in the future and not hit the scale just for the meeting. Anyone who does Weight Watchers know? <BR> <BR> I started my week off great. That was, until Tuesday. On Tuesday one of my co-workers and I decided to go out for lunch. I skimmed through the menu and took one of the better choice options. However, it was served with French onion au gratin, which could have been a meal by its... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 10:15:40 EST Perceptions, and not being taken seriously The last time I wrote in here I talked about people shushing me to be quiet and the fact I found that offensive. User ARMONIA wrote that it could be how people perceive me. I’ve been thinking a lot about that, and I think it’s true. Growing up when I was just in one place, I just thought the way I was treated was because people didn’t like me. But that’s continued from one high school to another (though the second high school was much better) and to college. I’ve always wanted to be a le... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 09:52:09 EST Am I Selfish? Here I am again, on another weight loss adventure. I have only told a couple of friends of mine that are not “virtual” friends that I decided to rejoin Weight Watchers. I think it’s a combination of feeling ashamed, but I also think I feel selfish. <BR> <BR> I joined Weight Watchers because I am hoping to someday be able to maintain a weight loss. I’ve been going up and down about thirty pounds all of my life, and I am tired of it. I want to know my clothes are gonna fit on a given day. ... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 13:19:25 EST Consistency is the key--down 9.4 lbs since Oct. 11 I hit a big milestone at my weigh-in today, which was losing 5% of my body weight. Since starting Weight Watchers on Oct. 11, I have lost a total of 9.4 lbs. <BR> <BR> Why has Weight Watchers being working so well when online trackers haven't? <BR> <BR> I think it's several things. I should note that I am obviously still an active member of Spark while I am writing about Weight Watchers. <BR> <BR> The first thing I think that's really been working for me is having the the flex points. ... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 21:13:13 EST 10k Personal Record, Made Some New Running Buddies I finally got around to uploading photos to Facebook from my now ex and I’s trip over Labor Day weekend. Funny looking at that how unhealthy I looked. Also funny that I am now at my lowest weight in six months…and he and I dated for six months. Funny how I feel so much more organized and overall happier without him. The break-up sucked. It was hard it get someone out of my system that had been such a big part of things for so long. But those pictures really showed me once again I made t... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 19:19:52 EST Second weigh-in, down 2.4 more lbs…but more importantly, I have friends <BR> Wow, what a week. <BR> <BR> Monday night I had to proctor an exam with a couple of peers. One of them I know well from my classes. The other is one of the only other females in my program and we hit it off right away. That’s great to have, especially in such a male dominated field. <BR> <BR> I found out on Tuesday that I got more first cumulative exam point…which is a really big deal for my program. I really struggled with the exams, and everyone has pretty much said that if you... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 16:07:35 EST Ask and you shall receive Last night I went out for dinner with a male friend. He and I went on three dates in March, but nothing was we stopped dating but have recently started hanging out as friends. It's great to have a friend. If we liked each other enough to try dating, it makes sense that we could try the friendship out. So far we've gone out twice as just friends and each time have had a great time. <BR> <BR> Anyway, at dinner I told him that in regards to my ex, the only thing I am still missin... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 19:07:11 EST First week at Weight Watchers, Down 4.4 lbs Though I know the weight loss isn't the issue. I've been up and down the same ~30 lbs so many times in my life. <BR> <BR> For me the issue is managing things like stress and vacations. And learning how to control portions, and not think to myself that I wish I could eat whatever I want and not gain weight like others. <BR> <BR> It gets frustrating when people tell me the reason they eat so much is because they are a runner. I can't do that. I've completed three half marathons now, and i... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 11:28:25 EST If I’m gonna strike-out, I’m gonna go down swinging <BR> <BR> For those of us who are baseball fans or players, we know that one of the worst feelings in the game is to go down on a called third strike. <BR> <BR> Well, in my graduate program, I am at a tough road. I switched areas within my discipline, and it’s been quite a struggle. I don’t regret doing the change, but sometimes I feel like I am just treading water, barely keeping my head up. It’s been a rough semester. I’ve struggled with feeling like I am a failure or a fraud. I’ve ... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 11:12:47 EST Long time since I've written; I'm doing great! Things have been pretty busy lately. I know as long as I am a PhD student, it's going to be time to find time for things like updating my blog. So, even if I can't do it daily I at least hope to do it weekly. <BR> <BR> My adventure race was fun. It was a little anti-climatic...instead of an event like a Tough Mudder or half marathon where there's a definite finish line or point, the adventure race didn't have one. Out of hundreds of groups, only four of them even completed the course in ... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 12:39:49 EST Busy weekend coming up...Adventure Race and a 5k BOTH Well, got in my 4 x 500 sprints today. It was nice. I went up to the high school track and run during sunset peaking through the fall colors. <BR> <BR> I am not sure about accountability tomorrow. I am contemplating taking the day off, since this weekend is going to be more full than I had originally anticipated. My friend that is visiting asked me to tag along with her at an adventure race, and my school is paying for a 5k on Sunday (and I'm not going to turn down a free 5k and two free... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 21:57:51 EST Short blog Ended up spending 14 hours on campus today. Am in bed, ready to wake-up and go back and do it all again tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I did get up early enough to do my strength train work-out. <BR> <BR> Plan on getting my speed work in tomorrow, which is supposed to be 5 by 400 m sprints. Wed, 2 Oct 2013 23:21:40 EST Very emotional run today <BR> Maybe it was too soon to talk to the latest ex, but I really just wanted to give him his stuff back. I asked a girlfriend if she thought it was too soon, and she said the sooner the better so we could move on with our lives. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, when I tried to him I wasn’t sure if I was ready to meet up, he flat out insulted me. In his defense, he thought I was “taking a jab” at him, but I was completely sincere in what I said. And I realized I really couldn’t see him if he was... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 20:07:54 EST Good day Well, today was alright for the most part. I woke-up around 6 a.m. and got in my strength training as planned. I was done with strength training by 7:15 a.m. I made a healthy breakfast and then got in the shower. I felt really calm and relaxed when I went into the office. <BR> <BR> My class went alright. Turns out I only missed a half point on my quiz, so I was happy about that. I went to my office hours which no one showed up for today and enjoyed a nice mile and a half round trip with... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 21:52:14 EST What an amazing day <BR> One of the hardest things since my break-up has been church. Of course, there had only been one Sunday since the break-up, but still. I went there and looked around. Since I’m 23, people in church don’t know where to “group” me. I’m not an undergraduate. I have a salaried job and bills to pay. But I also don’t have a family to take care of. While it’s kind of always been this way, it becomes more apparent right after ending a six month relationship with someone who did, on occasi... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 20:55:34 EST What an amazing day <BR> One of the hardest things since my break-up has been church. Of course, there had only been one Sunday since the break-up, but still. I went there and looked around. Since I’m 23, people in church don’t know where to “group” me. I’m not an undergraduate. I have a salaried job and bills to pay. But I also don’t have a family to take care of. While it’s kind of always been this way, it becomes more apparent right after ending a six month relationship with someone who did, on occasi... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 20:55:34 EST Longest and fastest run since half marathon two weeks ago! Feeling great! <BR> <BR> Today actually went really well. I know I say that like I’m surprised, and I am. I got up at 0600 to get ready to go to a group training run sponsored by the local running store. All of the staff were really friendly, so that was nice. The only thing was I was hoping to meet people along the way, and it seemed like the majority of people had headphones in. Oh well. If they like to listen to music while running, that’s fine. I was just really hoping to converse with people a... Sat, 28 Sep 2013 21:07:10 EST I didn't want to do it, so I didn't Today went fine. I went in to the office early and did my best to finish up some homework due this morning. I was getting frustrated since the professor hadn’t gone over the concepts in class, and the book only had an example but no explanation. It sounds like, though, I was able to figure some of it out. My boss tells me it’s a rite of passage to struggle through the material. <BR> <BR> After my class, my friend and classmate came to pick me up. We were intending to go to a food truck ... Fri, 27 Sep 2013 21:27:14 EST Love my resistance bands, and my new accountability Got the resistance bands today, and did half of a workout after a 2 mile run. I have to say I couldn't believe the smallest band was plenty of resistance. I'm gonna be feeling this tomorrow! If I get done with my homework in time tonight, I'll do the last half of the workout. <BR> <BR> Tuesday and Wednesday I didn't do great eating, but I've done much better today. I haven't really tracked food, but as long as I keep on exercising and trying to watch what I eat I'm happy. <BR> <BR> Oth... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 19:54:43 EST Hanging in there single Feels so incredibly empty right now. It doesn't help that I'm so far away from home, and I don't really have people I would consider close friends here. Maybe that's my fault, but I just haven't really found a person who really clicked with me up here. I mean, I have a couple of girl friends I do stuff with, but I wouldn't expect them to be "there" for me. One is from the area and her fiance is also close by so she's not often here on weekends. The other is sweet and fun to be with, but ... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 07:33:59 EST I finally did it! Well, after much thought, I realized I've been trying to break up with my guy for three weeks now. But every time I tried he convinced me some how not to, that he would change. <BR> <BR> Finally this evening I called me and decided to be assertive. I told him that we couldn't go on like this, and that I needed to break-up with him. Thankfully after thirty minutes of talking through things he agreed with me that it was the best thing to do. We didn't want a relationship that was "on a bre... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 00:21:26 EST Half marathon recovery continued Thankfully Friday went much better than Thursday. I made sure I didn’t accidentally run into my boss because I didn’t want to talk about things with her. Bad, I know, but I just wasn’t up for it. <BR> <BR> My run Thursday night started off okay, and then my legs got really tight after a mile. Here’s to half marathon recovery. Today (Saturday) I tried the two miles again. Still not great, but much better. <BR> <BR> Otherwise, not much to report. I’m still doing my best to eat well. In... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 19:25:44 EST Still Trying to Get My Life Together...Another Mess-up Well, since my crash and burn last week, I was trying to be more on top of things so I wouldn’t miss teaching a class again. Which, I should mention, is something that is completely abnormal for me…I don’t miss things! I still can’t believe that happened last week, but wait until I talk about this week. <BR> <BR> Last night I had an exam so I was on campus until 10 p.m. I came home and continued discussing the same things with the boy that we’ve been discussing since early June. And at t... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 19:17:02 EST Working things out with my guy, third half marathon and again a PR! I really debated switching to the 5k this weekend because of everything going on in my life, but I did do the training for the half marathon so decided to stick it out. So far I’m not too sore, just tired, so I’m doing okay. In the past I’ve been miserable and had trouble doing simple things like getting up and down. <BR> <BR> Well, my boyfriend has been working on changing…getting his act together and being a grown-up. He was emailing me every couple of days telling me about his progress... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 22:28:30 EST Wake-up Call...Hugs maybe needed... I knew this semester was going to be a rough one, but I’ve always handled things before. This semester, as a PhD student, consists of me taking two classes and teaching four classes in addition to my PhD research. So far, despite my allergies going crazy on me, I was making it. Or so I thought… <BR> <BR> I was overwhelmed with the amount of stuff I had to do yesterday. I had my own homework to take care of on top of doing the homework for the class I am teaching, which even though it’s g... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 12:34:25 EST Break-up <BR> <BR> Well, my boyfriend and I are more or less broken up after six months. Right now I feel lonely and empty, but I know it was the best thing to do. <BR> <BR> In a nutshell, while I do love him, he has some growing-up to do. And, he needs to do it on his own. I can’t do it for him. And I think that if we had stayed together like we were it would have just always been the same, even if he was telling me he was working on it. <BR> <BR> I do love him. He’s the only one who ever ma... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 14:25:18 EST