CHANGING4ME49's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CHANGING4ME49 CHANGING4ME49's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ April Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135698 Finally a long and truly not fun day is O.V.E.R! <em>41</em> This is the latest. I WILL be starting Dialysis by the end of next week via a Perm Cath. Yep, playtime is DONE. Time for more serious stuff. I have always known my time would come. I tied hard to push it off for as long as I could. Superwoman I am not! Doc wanted to start me today but I opted to give myself until I see my main Neph in 1 week. Lab numbers have dropped further in just the last week. Still no symptoms which makes ac... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 17:05:23 EST Endo Checkup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6119133 Had a glorious checkup from my Endo this morning. Except for the surprise Blood work, it was a great visit. Poor lab lady worked hard on my hand, digging her way to China just to find a vein only to get a smidgen of blood. And I do mean smidgen. Sorry, I'm all out! <em>246</em> Anyway Blood Sugar was 96. <em>244</em> AIC is on it's way down. <em>250</em> Blood Pressure was a bit high at 160/82 but that is to be expected with the Kidney Failure. Doc says I am doing very well and to... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 15:27:26 EST Still Trying To Get Things Right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109154 I dropped 5 lbs since I got released from the hospital on Saturday. <em>244</em> <em>104</em> Even though it's most likely fluid loss. Anytime the scale number goes down, it's a very good thing! My Blood sugar is steadily in the 100's now which is great. Not perfect but much improved from Friday's 500. Still trying to get my new meds. The insurance company is being a royal pain! <BR> <BR> In other news, my daughter, SIL and grandson have moved into a new apt. Their old one had a seriou... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 05:39:05 EST Home Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6106301 So my Fistula surgery was postponed. My blood sugar skyrocketed to 500 in Pre Op and they admitted me. <em>40</em> I am home now!!! Finally free from being stabbed with all sorts of needles. <em>39</em> Now I'm fighting with my insurance company over my new scripts. BCBS doesn't want to fill them So I am going without several pills tonight and tomorrow until such time my new Neph ( I have 2) can straighten everything out. Other than that, I'm good! Blood sugar is 157 down from 500, BP ... Sat, 27 Feb 2016 19:24:16 EST Another Exciting Lab Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6097606 I got to expierence more lab work today. Oh, what fun I had too! <em>40</em> 5 painful sticks, 2 syringes and 2 lab ladies all to myself, and they only got half of what they needed. My veins suck! One of my results is in. My Creatinine has jumped to a critical level of 7.4! It was 5.64 2 weeks ago. So they have lower my Bumix to once a day and my Neph will call me tomorrow. I am a bit nervous about what this will mean and just how bad will my other results be. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 20:02:16 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087963 So the doctor appt today didn't go so well. My lab numbers are as follows. Creatinine is up to 5.64 and GFR is down to 7.7 Neither of these are good. Doc says I am standing on a ledge and my kidney is seriously hanging on by a thread. Instead of playing it month to month as I have been since November I will now be on a week to week guarded watch. My fistula surgery isn’t until Feb 26 and it will take up to 4 months for it to become ready if it is going to. Hopefully my kidney can wait that lo... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 19:47:06 EST Lab Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087266 Had my monthly lab work done today. She got me on the first stick. YAY!! Results will be in tomorrow and I will also have my checkup with my Nephrologist. <BR> <BR> I had a sudden burst of energy a couple of weeks ago and did some wild and crazy dancing. <em>40</em> I should know better! Anyway I twisted my back or over stretched it because I have severe pain on my right side over my hip now. It hurts to bend, move, cough, etc so I'm sure it is muscle related. I've been using ice and hea... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 23:30:34 EST Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078824 to all my Spark friends who responded to my last post. I enjoyed reading the responses and thinking of ways to incorporate all the ideals. I am putting together a ne plan for myself and will eventfully add each of the suggestions given to me. I know they will be a big help. Thank you! <BR> <BR> I finally have a new Fistula Surgery date: February 26 at 8 am. And I am already taking steps to prepare my arm using strength training to help things along. I have read a number of articles on the s... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 13:52:28 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066135 3 tubes of blood less of me and my lab values have stayed steady. Had my checkup with my kidney doc on Friday. GFR is still at 9. My one and only kidney is functioning at 9%. <em>24</em> Not good but at least it hasn't gotten worse. <em>30</em> No major symptoms yet such as loss of appetite (I wish) , nausea, vomiting, extreme tiredness, fluid build up, etc. Doc says it's still a go for Dialysis based on my numbers just as soon as they can get the Fistula installed in my arm and mature... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 20:45:37 EST Surgery Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061000 My Fistula Surgery has been CANCELLED. No reschedule date set and no explanation given. <em>24</em> I won't pretend I am upset by this bit of news. <em>246</em> Will just have to wait and see when the next date will be. Perhaps this will allow me time to get my emotions together and gather up some courage. <BR> <BR> Still have my labs and appt with my Nephrologist on Friday. Other than that everything is the same. Which I guess is good! <BR> <BR> Packed up the Christmas decorations... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 10:52:49 EST New Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6055709 Sorry that I have been MIA. Haven't been feeling well since Christmas. Beyond tired so I've been sleeping a lot. Anyway Christmas went well. Spent it at my daughter's. Tried Deep fried Turkey for the first time. Not for me I'm still a roast turkey kind of girl. DH was the only one to get his head handed to him. <em>246</em> He told her he thought the turkey was too dry and that she didn't slice it right. What can I say, he was absent the day they taught the golden rule... If you can't say ... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 22:41:19 EST Vascular Surgeon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6048521 4 hours spent at the Vascular Surgeon's office today and I'm beat. 2 of those hours were spent in ultrasound hunting for any decent veins they could use. I have horrible veins, tiny and deep. Anyway here is the current plan: Surgery will be Thursday, January 14 where he will try and give me a Fistula. The surgeon now says a graft would not work long term with my veins so he will try to get a fistula (attaching a vein to an artery) up and going. This will require 2 surgeries ( the 2nd surgery ... Wed, 16 Dec 2015 17:40:29 EST NEW Christmas Tree Is UP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6042824 Thank you for all he suggestions. DH shed a tear or two this morning as we said good bye to our real tree and hello to an artificial one. His very first. <em>246</em> I must say the ease at which it went up has sold him on them now. Anyway it is up and decorated!! YAY! he cats are ignoring it which is great. We did lose some ornaments this morning when the real tree fell over. I was able to salvage 5 of them but 4 Disney ones are gone. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaw... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 16:05:42 EST NOT the way to start off the holidays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6042687 Ahhhh Man! <em>39</em> We lost our beautiful Christmas Tree this morning. It fell over and completely broke in half along with a few bulbs and 2 Disney Ornaments. DH worked so hard on it and tried in vain to salvage it this morning but couldn't. I guess it's an artificial one for us this year. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> We could really use some suggestions as to the best looking artificial trees on the market and where is the best place to shop for one? Please anyone? <BR> <BR> Well a... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 09:59:33 EST Appt Rescheduled http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6039915 So I called Asheville's Vein Specialists this morning to confirm my appt for tomorrow only to learned they had me down for an ultrasound only. No surgery consult wih the doctor which I need. So they had to reschedule me for the 16th. More wait and see. <BR> <BR> I get the joy of more lab work next Thursday. OH BOY!! I see my Nephrologist then too. <BR> <BR> Not feeling so hot today. Down with a Stomach Bug. DH had it this past weekend and lucky me has it now. UGH!! <BR> Mon, 30 Nov 2015 09:09:10 EST Quiet Thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6039346 DH and I decided based on our daughter and her new husband's attitude on the recent trip that we wanted to spend Thanksgiving just us 2. We felt as upset as we still were, it would only end in an argument if we went so he called her and told her. She couldn't understand why we were still upset nor about our decision. She did admit to doing 1 thing wrong (the name calling at the dinner one night) but to nothing else. She apologized to me for the name calling but not to her dad. I told her perh... Sun, 29 Nov 2015 07:18:37 EST Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034120 I've enjoyed the last couple of days resting up since returning home, restoring what little energy I have these days. Kidney Failure takes a lot out of you and I've learned over the past 2 years to work with what my body can do. <em>30</em> No doc appts until December. YAY! Still waiting on the MRI to be scheduled for my leg and foot. My biggest complaint on the trip was the amount of pain I was in 24/7. Thank God for the wheelchair I used. Some of the best news came this morning when I w... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 09:05:04 EST Some of My Daughter's Wedding Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033422 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d6cc1f75-93e2-42d1-84b1-5274fd765b31.jpg"> <BR> Bride & Groom with Best Man and Maid of Honor <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c89f35be-ce03-4a63-a548-b037a1d60187.jpg"> <BR> Lindsay & Daniel at Sunset <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/968813ab-e186-4042-a3b0-904ab9c60c62.jpg"> <BR> Staircase Shot <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/983b3b95-9fea-4134-96fa-ea0d20b8f3ff... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 00:30:46 EST Wedding Trip n Cruise Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033243 We made it home finally. I thought last night Florida was going to up and keep us but alas, they let us go. <em>246</em> Our plane broke yesterday so they put us up for the night. <em>30</em> It's so good to be home. though, we had 10 days of non stop F.U.N. Flying for the first time in 24 years was ... exciting. I was very nervous going to, <em>40</em> HAD A HOLD OF THE SEAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY OTHER HAND WAS HOLDING ONTO MY HUSBAND'S but coming back was a whole lot better. The w... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 18:13:13 EST Missing Someone Very Special http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025230 I lost someone near and dear to me some 35 years ago that shook my world to the core. My mother Kathryn Marie passed on this day at age 53 after a long illness and there hasn't been a single day since where I haven't missed her. She was my rock in so many ways. In recent days my life has been turned upside down and inside out and I find myself missing her even more. I miss her calmness wherever things were topsy turvey. I miss her intelligence and quick wit in knowing just the right thing to ... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 08:43:32 EST Confronting My New Life As It Is Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6024903 There have been BIG CHANGES for me to accept recently. The fact my major health issues have turned my life upside down is very stressful. I am doing the beat I can and complying with doctor's orders every day. <BR> <BR> I tried today to hold out an olive branch to my daughter and well, that didn't go so well. Yesterday she and her future husband told my husband that we shouldn't even go on the trip as I have too many health problems. She now feels I shouldn't go on the cruise because someth... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 19:10:41 EST The Good, the Bad and the Very Serious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023777 Okay so the good news is I'm not in the hospital. Yeah! <em>334</em> The bad news is ... I am now in the process for Dialysis. Doctors say my remaining kidney has hung in for as long as it can and is finally given up. My numbers are way too low with kidney function now at 9%. As for the trip, I get to go, along with some restrictions to follow. :\The graft for Dialysis will be surgically implanted in my arm after the 15th when I return. Dialysis will start a few weeks after that. To top t... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 15:33:10 EST Day 10 Nutrisysytem and It May Be The End Of The Line http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023357 YES, my last day was today at least until further notice. I received my latest lab results back and my numbers are crazy bad. So bad my kidney doc has asked to see me tomorrow at 9. I'm thinking by the look of things, I may get slapped into the hospital or at the very least I will not be going down to Miami. <em>39</em> 6 days until my daughter's / cruise and the bottom seems to be falling-out once again <BR> <BR> Nutrisystem is the only thing I have done differently recently and though i... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 20:32:42 EST Day 9 Nutrisysytem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6022836 Day 9 of Nutrisystem was another good day! It will be a real shame if the doctors take me off this plan because it is working so well for me. I guess I need to come up with another plan and have that ready, just in case. In the meantime, I will put in as much effort as I possibly can. <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> My meals today included: *designates a Nutrasystem meal or snack <BR> <BR> Breakfast: *Waffle <BR> Lunch: *Three Cheese Pasta w/Chicken, Cauliflower, Bread <BR> Snack: Yogurt <BR>... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 21:11:30 EST Day 8 Nutrisystem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6022169 Day 8 of Nutrisysytem. It's been a good day! On target and still pumped about staying the course. Woohoo!! Here are some of the changes I have made in the past 8 days. <BR> <BR> I have kept within my portions at every meal. Easy to do with Nutrisystem. <BR> I have eaten 4 servings of veggies each and every day. <BR> I have eaten 2 servings of Whole Grains daily. <BR> I have consumed at least 1 dairy serving every day. <BR> I have consumed 64 oz of water every day. <BR> I have stayed away fr... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 17:46:45 EST Week 2 Nutrisystem Begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021649 Day 7 and the first day of my 2nd week on Nutrisysystem went well! Like I said in yesterdays post I have decided to end my first week with yesterday because I want to get on a Monday to Sunday schedule for my own personal preference. Designating Mondays as my Weigh In Day. I weighed in today and I have dropped 5 lbs!! <em>244</em> A very good beginning I think! Also starting today, I will post at the end of each day from now summarizing how that particular day went. <BR> <BR> My meals t... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 19:14:48 EST Day 6 Nutrisystem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021190 Day 6 of my Nutrasystem program has gone very well! I have decided to end my first week with today because I want to get on a Monday to Sunday schedule from now on for my own personal preference. Designating Mondays as my Weigh In Day. <em>192</em> I will also try to post at the end of each day from now on summarizing how that day went as oppose to doing it the following day. <BR> <BR> My meals today included: *means a Nutrasystem meal or snack <BR> <BR> *Pancakes <BR> *Chicken Bacon ... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 23:08:22 EST Day 5 Nutrisystem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020820 Day 5 of my Nutrasystem program was fantastic! I have had no issues keeping with this program thus far. I am so excited and proud of myself. <BR> <BR> I've been asked by friends 2 questions this week over and over so I thought I would answer them here as well. 1. Are the Nutrisystem portions really small? Yes, the portions are very small considering what I am use to. Then again I use to think a portion of pizza was a whole large pizza or a serving of pasta was the entire bowl. <em>40</em>... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 10:03:25 EST Day 4 Nutrisystem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020269 Day 4 of my Nutrisystem program was ON TARGET! <em>104</em> I am officially at the half-way point of my first week and it feels amazing. I am really enjoying the fact that with Nutrisystem there is no thought as to what I am going to eat or how much. I know everything I choose is perfectly portioned and nutritionally sound. There is no calorie counting, and everything is limited as to preparation. I plan out my week meal wise and go from there each day. So far so good!!!! <BR> <BR> My m... Sat, 24 Oct 2015 08:26:32 EST Day 3 Nutrisystem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6019757 Day 3 of my Nutrisystem program was awesome! Still finding it relatively easy. Although for the first time last night my stomach was growling. <em>246</em> I'm guessing it is finally getting the message that something has changed. <BR> <BR> With Nurisysytem I have not been actually hungry despite the little rumbles last evening nor have I had any cravings which is very new for me. My niece sent me an Olive Garden Gift card for my birthday a few weeks ago and I have decided to hold off in... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 08:24:25 EST Day 2 Nutrisystem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6019214 Day 2 of my Nutrisystem program went fantastic! So far I am finding this easy. I am not sure if it's the plan or perhaps I am just finally ready to get serious. I am sure it is too early to tell for sure which it is nevertheless I am proud of the fact I am staying with it so well. It has been a very long time since I have had even 2 good days, diet wise. <BR> <BR> With Nutrisystem one must incorporate1 serving of fruit, 4 servings of veggies, 1-2 servings of low fat or nonfat Dairy and 2 s... Thu, 22 Oct 2015 08:23:37 EST Day 1 Nutrisystem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6018653 WOOHOOOOOO! I know it's only 1 day down but for me lately that is something to write home about. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I plan to post every day on my progress and hopefully I will keep with that. Although I do get sidetracked with life every now and then. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did amazingly well. My meals included: <BR> <BR> 1 *Honey Wheat Bagel with 1 tsp Peanut Butter <BR> 1 serving of *Tortellini with a slice of 8 grain bread: I must admit when I saw the 6 little tortellinis they ... Wed, 21 Oct 2015 09:15:20 EST Began Nutrisystem Today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6018167 DAY 1: So far so good. I am down 2 meals and it isn't bad. Of course I will need o get use to the much smaller portions but this is key to their program. I am just happy that I am content with it I so far. My attitude is good ns my motivation is there. Only time will tell if it will work for me. Taking it one step (day) at a time! <BR> <BR> Sleep last night evaded me due to horrible leg cramps. So I took a long nap this morning. <em>30</em> My doctor finally called yesterday about my foo... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 11:46:43 EST Frankenstein and A New Decision http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015927 First here is our new addition to our Halloween Yard Display. Meet Frank! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/69fff369-4554-471d-b740-0d3a70722fc9.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5161a7d6-34e1-4c7a-8392-9570a8131c19.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a4da0860-bfc5-4b09-acb4-7eaf54407926.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Which we added to our other inflatables. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/eb... Fri, 16 Oct 2015 09:00:34 EST Medical Test and This n That http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014426 So I braved the horrid nerve/ muscle tests this morning which took much longer than I thought they would. 1 hour equaled 3 hours. I was zapped over 200 times in my feet, legs and back to check on muscle function and had a needle inserted a total of 36 times in the same areas. I now believe I know what a human pin cushion would feels like. I counted each and every stick and zap. I think I disliked being zapped the most. <em>24</em> My Neurologist and her staff were fantastic and made the wh... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 15:17:20 EST When It Rains, It Pours: Foot Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006405 So I saw the doctor yesterday, actually 2 of them. The first one took one look at my left foot and immediately sent me to the other. The second one said my foot is most likely serious nerve damage possibly due to my hip injury last year. They are unsure. Anyway she is sending me for some nerve tests on the 13th to see if and when it can be repaired before it affects my entire leg. The curling of my toes will ultimately progress to the curling of my foot than my leg little by little. For now I... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 21:06:14 EST September Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003212 Well its nearly October, my favorite month of the year. I absolutely LOVE Fall! Got to see the daughter and grandson the other day. Most of the wedding plans are done and now it's waiting time with 6 weeks left to go. <BR> <BR> Health wise it's the same except I am having trouble with my feet. I think I have neuropathy now. Par for the course. They have become numb and painful. Will know for sure on the 8th when I see the doctor. Also my toes of my left foot are curling. <em>246</em> Wel... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 09:34:14 EST Late August Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5981405 Sorry it's been a while. Wish I could say I have lost more weigh but NO. I'm still trying but it seems my efforts are futile. I need to figure out how to step up my game mostly with exercise because what I'm doing simply isn't working. <BR> <BR> My grandson started 3rd grade this week. He is really growing up fast. We enjoyed a nice sleep over with him last week. <BR> <BR> As for my daughter, she is busy working and with wedding plans. Surprisingly she has included me in those plans by ... Thu, 20 Aug 2015 09:45:31 EST Mid Summer Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962414 I's been 2 and a half weeks since I last posted. So I thought I should do an all around update. <BR> <BR> Health Update: Down 5 lbs. Not as easy as I first thought it would be though. I have another 35 to go to get okayed for the Transplant List. Lab numbers are holding steady, low as usual. No real change there! Energy level comes and goes in great leaps & bounds. However I have learned to work within my limitations. Some of my medical testing had to be postponed due to Insurance issues. ... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 20:00:00 EST Finally A Near Perfect Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952977 After 10 days of trying all or nothing, I finally completed a nearly PERFECT DAY! I counted off from absolute perfection because I didn't get in any exercise. I had a major toothache so slept most of today. Darn wisdom tooth decided now would be a good time to start acting up. <em>198</em> Actually I didn't mind it that much as it kept me from eating. <BR> <BR> Things I did well today: <BR> <BR> No fast food <BR> No unhealthy snacks <BR> Portion controlled everything that entered my mou... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 20:06:54 EST The Good, The Bad and The Ugly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5948245 THE GOOD consists of my newly formed motivation and determination to get back down to it. I know - know, it has taken me a really long time to get to this point but I finally feel like THIS IS IT,!! The time has finally come for me to face the facts and do what it is I need to do. Enough of burying my head in the sand, hoping I will all go away on its own. I need to stop pretending I can continue to ignore the situation at hand. I can’t! I have myself backed into a corner with no way out b... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 14:33:59 EST June Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943915 I know that it has been a while. Have had some computer problems to deal with. Here is a brief update. <BR> <BR> UNC has pushed back some of my medical testing. Again! At this point I have no idea when I will be on the transplant List. I'm feeling okay for the most part. Only complaints are <BR> <BR> Tiredness which is near constant. <BR> Swelling in my lower legs and feet <BR> <BR> Guessing it could be far worse so I'm hanging in there. Still trying to do something about the weight issu... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 09:26:56 EST Decision Has Finally Been Made http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930980 That is... just where will the daughter be getting married? After weeks of hearing Charleston SC , Las Vegas, Niagara Falls and her and Dan, future SIL finally selected... Miami aboard a Carnival Cruise ship. Woohoo! The brave couple that they are have also decided to invite guest not only to the wedding but for the week long honeymoon to the Eastern Caribbean as well. The hubs and I booked our trip today and can't wait to celebrate their big day with them. I am already looking forward to cr... Tue, 19 May 2015 19:30:23 EST She Said YES! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918355 As promised, the daughter's Engagement pictures. Dan popped the question at the top of Bridal Veil Falls on Sunday. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l468819150.jpg"> <BR> LOL Dan was just going to have Lindsay turn around and see the box but then her son said "Oh no Dan! You need to get down on one knee. No shortcuts with my mom." And he is only 8. I LOVE my grandson! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1388055587.jpg"> <BR> The Happy Co... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 07:54:44 EST It's Official! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918093 My daughter became engaged today. <em>26</em> Her boyfriend Dan took her up to the top of Bridal Veil Falls and proposed to her with her son present. My grandson made sure Dan got down on one knee too. <em>246</em> Leave it to little man to make sure Dan didn't try any short cuts with his mom. Anyway they will be married October 24th. I am so happy for them. The ring is beautiful!!! A white gold band with 3 diamonds that represent Past, Present and Future. And yes, I will post pictures... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 18:48:31 EST A Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917774 Had another awesome time with the grandson yesterday! Oh, how I LOVE that kid!! <em>334</em> Bought some goodies at his school Book Fair and saw some amazing pieces of art at the Gala than got our crab on at Red Lobster. Must be something in the water because everyone had the same idea. People were Crab Crazy tonight. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Afterwards I got to take a little joyride in the daughter's new car <BR> Subaru XV Crosstrek <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 06:12:15 EST So Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914172 I finally got over the worse stomach bug of all time. YAY!! However I am now facing a new issue with the FAM. <BR> <BR> The part involving my husband isn't new but nevertheless extremely irritating. He seems to enjoy causing trouble between my daughter and I. I get the feeling he is bothered by the fact that she and I have been getting along these days. So he uses my diet as a means to get her upset at me. For example: When she asks him how is mom doing on her program? He will answer with ... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 21:44:58 EST Sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906314 Oh man! Not feeling well again. <em>39</em> This will make 3 weeks where I have been on again/ off again SICK! At first I thought it was food poisoning than a virus but now I have no idea what is going on. I just know every few days all hell breaks loose. At least I got though the holiday and mini vacay without issue. I'm thankful for that! Nevertheless I need to figure out what is going on. So to the doctor here I go. <BR> Mon, 6 Apr 2015 10:00:58 EST Shots http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890614 Home from getting only one shot today. HEP B Part 3, Part of my Kidney Transplant EVAL. The nurse was great, didn't feel a thing. <em>334</em> The other two Shingles and a TB test will need to wait until May. <em>104</em> Seems I need a prescription for them. However I learned today that I have major blood work ahead in April, May and June. Hummm They must not have gotten the memo which states I HATE needles!! <em>101</em> <BR> Tue, 10 Mar 2015 17:18:56 EST Mission Weight Loss - Week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886383 Beginnings are always difficult and mine was no different. Weigh in was tough today. 269.8 was not a number that brought a smile to my face but it is the truth. Things on the home front have not been great so that number represent that.All in all the tough part is over. Admitting my wrong and facing it head one was hard but I did it honestly. <BR> <BR> Dr. Humphries, my doc at the Missions Weight Loss Center was happy to see me back. Even though I was feeling anxious about admitting that I ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 17:18:24 EST