CHANGING4ME49's SparkPeople Blog CHANGING4ME49's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A Fresh Approach with a brand new program and outlook. Today marks the start of another new beginning! I am feeling confident with my new team of doctors and dietician from Mission Hospital Weight Loss Management by my side. Thanks to my family and friends for your ontinued love, support and encouragement. You give me strength to continue my fight! <BR> <BR> I met with my new doctor from the Mission Weight Loss Program and I like her. She is an obesity specialist. She is on top of her game, detail oriented a... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 07:00:02 EST T-minus 7 days Well I spoke with the patient navigator for the Missions Weight Loss Management Program and had my first appointment with her this morning. I signed all the documents today and will begin on Wednesday of next week. I am so excited!!! <BR> <BR> I have my first Health & History appt with their doctor that day followed by a meeting with the dietician on Thursday and actually begin the Optfast part of the program on Friday. They gave me the option to begin after Thanksgiving but I turned it down... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 13:29:47 EST Thursday's Tidbits Thanks so much to all those who responded to my blog concerning my daughter. I am pleased to report things are better on that front. In fact she even walked me to my car last night. She said she didn't want me to fall and knew there were rocks on the sidewalk that I might not see (my vision is not great) so she kicked them out of the way for me. She never ceases to surprise me these days. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway I had a wonderful time with the grandson last night. It was a short but... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 08:35:35 EST Restless Heart I had a disagreement with my daughter last night. I called her because I was missing hearing her voice and wanted to know how her week had went. At one point she asked if DH and I would watch our grandson on Wednesday night while she and the boyfriend enjoy a date night. I asked how late they would be out, knowing well that DH becomes enraged whenever he has to be out late. 11 is late for him these days. <em>246</em> I m also aware that he is a creature of comfort and doesn't like any dis... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 06:06:23 EST 2014 NYC Kidney Walk My niece an Goddaughter Melissa walked the NYC Kidney Walk on my behalf yesterday. She had a great time and raised more than $200 to fight Kidney Disease. This meant so much to me and I appreciate her efforts! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The shirt she had made up for the event. <... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 03:37:42 EST Inspiration Just a few of my favorite quotes. Enjoy! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Have an AWRESOME week everyone!! Mon, 3 Nov 2014 07:44:25 EST November 1st Woke up this 1st day of November to 26 degrees and with our first SNOW of the season. Just 2 inches for us but other areas of Western NC saw up to 6 inches this morning and it's still falling. Good God, Winter has come early!! <em>425</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway hope everyone had a pleasant and safe Halloween. We only had 5 Trick or Treaters last night, all pre teens except for my grandson. A bit disappointing. We usually get 40 - 50 kids of all ages but the pas 2 years have been depressing. ... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 10:02:00 EST Wishing Everyone A Happy Halloween!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 31 Oct 2014 08:25:25 EST Scarefest In Honor of Halloween Continuing my Scare fest tonight in honor of one of my favorite holidays, Halloween. Tonight's line up includes The Strangers, and Aliens. Last night I watched a flick called THEM that was crazy scary. Why do I do this to myself every year when undoubting I will be hearing creepy noises all night. Will I survive scaring myself senseless? <em>40</em> I guess I can't help myself. I love Halloween!!! <BR> <BR> Not much happening this week. Bought a ton of candy for the kiddos on Friday. Re... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 18:14:54 EST Week In Review Wednesday Dh and I wen o he Farmer's Markey with our grandson, his mommy and Dan to pick pumpkins out for Halloween. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> One guess as to who went home with the most. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we attended the Grandparents Luncheon at our grandson's school. Had a great time as usual. Afterwards we hit the Book Fair with him and stock... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 10:17:51 EST Monday Update I am fully recovered form this weekend. Caught a 48 hour stomach bug and was miserable all weekend. I hate being sick but from what the docs tell I could be in for a lot more since my immune system is weak because of the kidney disease. Oh well, just another reason tto be as healthy as possible in all I do. I missed my grandson's last game of the football season. He was bummed with his Mema but couldn't' be helped. Told him I would make I up come Basketball Season, up next or buy him a reall... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 13:25:29 EST Optifast and more So I attended the Mission Weight Loss Management/ Optifast Program Information Session last night. It had a very good turnout and I do feel it is a comprehensive, well balanced program which I believe would do me a world of good. Probably something I should have done a long time ago. However I did find out that they may not actually give me the product because of my kidney issue. This would be left up to the doctor in charge and if they can't they say they would become creative with nutritio... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 13:22:28 EST No Sleep for the Weary Well I tried Melatonin Last night for my sleep issue. After doing a bit of research I decided to half a 3 mg pill last night but it didn't help at all. Instead I felt wired all night long. Since my research said to not turn on any lights doing the night I laid in bed all night feeling as if I was hooked up to electrodes that were zapping my body every few seconds. Why I had such an in tense reaction I have no idea but I did not like it, not one little bit. Oh well, still on the look out for ... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 13:41:53 EST Moving forward So UNC's Transplant Team called me to schedule their first look see at me for December 5th. I will take a class on transplants than meet with one of their surgeons at that time and he will schedule the various preliminary testing that I will need to be followed by a final visit to chapel Hill Hospital before I am finally put ... on the list. Moving forward we are, one baby step at a time. Tue, 14 Oct 2014 16:52:11 EST Sleep Relief? Finally my doctor has okayed me to use Melatonin for my sleep issue. After years of suffering I may actually get some much need SLEEP. I am praying it works for me. I have heard some good things about it so hoping I am one of the lucky ones. Will take it tonight and see what happens. <em>30</em> Tue, 14 Oct 2014 09:57:08 EST Enough is Enough I am so tired of not sleeping. I have finally made up my mind to call the doctor lter this am and see what I can take for it. There has got to be something safe AND EFFECTIVE for me and my CKD. Not sleeping more than one or or two hours at best can't be healthy. It's been 3 weeks now on this cycle and I have had ENOUGH! Perhaps I shouldn't have complained about sleeping too much. Ha, where did that go? And it's not like I am getting oh so much done either with these nonstop hours awake. No,... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 02:16:45 EST Thank God for Small Steps Well out of all my goals for the week I only managed to do one. Transfer my files to the NEW desk. WOW GO ME! <em>246</em> Oh well, it's a small step but it is a step nonetheless. <BR> <BR> I am back to eating lunches again too. I have seen the return of my appetite this past week. I am not sure whether this is a good sign or not. I am set to have my first visit with the Optifast people this Thursday. I'm not sure when they will start the actual program for me, that day or the next. Eit... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 10:59:26 EST WORSE NIGHT EVER! WORSE NIGHT EVER = NO SLEEP!! Haven't had a sleepless night in a long time, well at least a few months now anyway. So this has thrown me for a loop. What to do? What to do? Try and stay up all day, praying I can and hopefully go to sleep super early tonight OR Cave in and sleep now??? <BR> <BR> UGH Decisions Decisions. <BR> Tue, 7 Oct 2014 06:47:14 EST Happy Birthday To ME! Today is my birthday. I have turned 56 today. And boy do I feel OLD!!!!!! <em>246</em> For the ver firs time I feel my age and it's like a big slap in the face. Yesterday I slept most of the day because I didn't feel well. My daughter called and asked what was wrong and all I could tell her was I didn't feel "right". So what is right? Ha, anything other than what I feel like now. Tired, Lethargic, Run down, Depleted... <BR> <BR> To be honest I am so tired of saying that is how I feel thes... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 14:58:23 EST Feeling awful I am feeling so bad today that I canceled dinner plans with my daughter and grandson to celebrate her and my birthdays. We were to celebrate at Ichebans Japanese Steakhouse tonight but I just can't. Feeling like I do today is to be expected what with all my health issues at present but it still sux. Hope my daughter and grandson will understand. I feel terrible about canceling especially after waiting the past few days to see whether my grandson would feel well enough to even go. He did and... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 12:22:02 EST My Grandson Is Starting To Improve!! Just heard that my grandson's fever is down. YAY!!!! And his Oxygen is back up to 98. He had his follow-up today with his pediatrician and there are small signs of improvement but still no school for the little guy until Monday at the least and no PE for another week after that. I am so happy Peanut is improving. At least maybe now he can get the much needed rest his body needs. Praying still that he feels 100% very soon. Thank you for all your prayers. Very much appreciated!!! <BR> Wed, 1 Oct 2014 15:35:30 EST Update on Grandson My grandson is a real trooper. Mega doses of Motrin and Tylenol, 1 shot and 1 breathing treatment later and the little guy is back home from the ER for the second time. He needs to receive another injection later today and again on Thursday which will help to boast the antibiotics that he is now taking along with staggering larger than normal doses of Motrin and Tylenol throughout the day and night to help reduce his fever. Maybe now he and his mommy can get some much needed rest. ME too. ... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 09:34:06 EST Update On Grandson My poor little grandson is back at the ER tonight as his fever keeps increasing as the night wears on. Now up to 103 and that is with 8 hour Motrin in him. Peanut can't seem to catch a break. So his pediatrician said to bring him back in. The ER doctor has yet to see him since the ER is busy so don't know yet if they will decide to keep him or not. My daughter Lindsay and his daddy Pj are with him. Daniel is too. If we are needed at some point, the hubby and I will certainly go. As for me rig... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 00:44:55 EST Grandson Update! Update on the grandson! Peanut is on his way home with his mommy. Not out of the woods yet but he received an IV dose of Antibiotics and has 2 different ones to take at home. He will see his regular pediatrician tomorrow for follow-up. His white cell count is 22,000. his lung x-ray showed a lot of fluid in his lungs especially his left one. but his oxygen level although still low is okay enough to release him home . And he still has a low grade fever. Cultures won't be back for a day or two..... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 15:49:53 EST Prayers needed please!! Please pray for my grandson. I just received word that Peanut was sent home from school today and is now at the ER. Doctors say he has Pneumonia. He is waiting on some IV antibiotics and has his mommy & daddy with him at the moment. My daughter says she will keep us updated throughout the day. <BR> <BR> Tue, 30 Sep 2014 13:50:42 EST Friday's Stuff I finally received my NEW desk yesterday and DH put it together, all but the drawers which we will do together today. It looks really nice even without the drawers. <em>246</em> It is smaller than my old one but I already knew that, just have to adjust to keeping less STUFF. This will be a good thing. I am surprised by the leather insert on the desktop however. The ad photo didn't show it and the description never mentioned this. Nonetheless it looks nice so I am happy with the surprise. ... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 07:20:31 EST Tuesday Tidbits Part of the plan my kidney doctor has begun for me is I am to take part in Mission Hospitals Weight Loss Clinic. So I set up a consult for Oct 16th. Since my weight is creeping ever so upward these past few months I see no other choice but to do as doc orders. Drop 70 lbs off me FAST so I can get on the transplant list! He also believes this will help my blood pressure as well as my Diabetes. That would be a win-win-win for me! The program he is encouraging me to do is a 16+ week Optifast pl... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 11:50:18 EST Kidney Update My grandson is sick today with a bad respiratory something. :( So off to the doctor he went this morning. Haven't heard back from Lindsay yet on how things went for him so just praying he feels better soon. <BR> <BR> I saw the kidney doctor this morning. My BP was a stellar 126/72!!!! The best one yet! No Dialysis yet either. Even though my lab numbers state I am in Kidney Failure, according to my doctor I must be literally at deaths door before they hook me up. In the meantime we are off ... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 12:54:19 EST Blood Results Well I didn't quite get the Good News I was hoping for. Blood Results are in: Some Good , Others Very Bad! <BR> <BR> Cholesterol is Down YAY! Total 198 LDL 105. So the Lipitor has worked but I am off it now. Liver function is overall fine. I am happy about this. <BR> <BR> However for my Kidney: my Creatine is up to 3.77 (not a good sign) and my GFR (overall kidney function) is at an all time low of 12. 15 and below is Complete Kidney Failure So this is definitely not want I wanted to hear... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 09:39:21 EST Primary Care Visit So happy the dreaded Lab work is over. One stick Katy. Lol The only lab tech in 9 months that has been able to get what she needed with just 1 stick. YAY!! God bless her. Doctor visit went okay. He's taking me off one of my meds, he thinks it may be the cause why my sugar has been running high the last 2 months. 290's are no good! My diet has been steady for months now and on track. I also jus learned that Lipitor, the FDA is warning causes all sorts of bad things for your health. SO I think ... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 16:04:54 EST Short Update Tonight Not looking forward to Lab work in the early morning. Yep, it's that time again. Time once again to find out just how bad things are. UGH!!! Well, still I hope for some good news to be thrown in there some where. A speck, maybe! <BR> <BR> Still waiting for my new desk. It's been 3 weeks since I ordered it. Now Office Max says it's on back order and they have no clue when I will receive it. Nice huh? It would have been nice to tell me that in the first place. I received the hutch part a week ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 22:38:55 EST Missing Out on Some Fun Best wishers to the grandson on his first Flag Football Game of the season. Unfortunately I won't be able to cheer him on from the sidelines today because I must attend some more Kidney Education classes beginning today and over the next few weeks. Doctors orders! UGH! Oh well, I'll be there in spirit! Go Peanut!! <em>104</em> Sat, 6 Sep 2014 09:15:18 EST I's Been Awhile since I had a run in with my daughter. So today was the day. It's been one of "those " weeks! Anyway she calls me up and precedes to tell me she feels her dad is Mentally Retarded. <em>198</em> I said I would go so far as to say he has learning disabilities but without a professional's opinion I would not agree with her opinion. I ask if her reasoning has something o do with her doing a clinical at a mental hospital his semester and she is marching her fathers issues with what she has lea... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 17:45:51 EST My Anniversary No Less Today marks 32 years for my husband and me. 32 years of verbal abuse, emotional abuse, mental cruelty, cheating, lying, and deceiving and that is just on the part of my husband. Sad, isn' it. Why do I stay in a relationship like this? Simple. I feel trapped. Trapped by health circumstances. Trapped by Financial circumstances. Trapped by lack of support. I know in my heart that if I had the financial means and support system in place to do so, I would leave. No doubt in my mind. The love I h... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 15:43:26 EST Stuff As I sit here trying to toss out and delete items from my desk and computer, I have come to the conclusion that I have a hard time ridding myself of stuff associated with memories. I truly struggled with this. To the point of going over and over an item to decide whether to keep it or not. I'm not speaking of things like notebooks, pencil sharpeners, etc but of ticket stubs, news clippings, trip brochures, anything that has a memory attached to it. Now I don' know if others have the same di... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 14:21:25 EST New Desk Finally after 2 days of hunting I have found my new office desk. Office Max was the site and delivery was a faction of what the other place wanted for heirs. Below is a picture of it in Espresso however I ordered mine in Honey Maple so mine will be much lighter. Super excited but must still wait for delivery and for the DH to put it together. I should have it up and ready by sometime next week. Tomorrow I will begin to par down my files and stuff so I don' have as much to transfer over to th... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 00:12:41 EST New Office Project Looking for a new office desk and it's driving me bonkers. Why can' I find one that fits my configurations? Either their too big, too small or don't have enough storage. Looking for something that is large enough to have computer space and also do my scrapbooking/ crafts and writing on but must have ample storage too. Just when I do find the right one they want $349 to ship it to me. UggggggH! Sat, 30 Aug 2014 16:48:38 EST Beer Late Than Never My doctor finally got around to signing me up for a second round of Kidney Fundamental Classes. Oh boy! He's intent on me knowing as much as possible about kidney health and what can go wrong before I begin Dialysis. Personally I feel my doctor should have done this before my kidney decide to jump ship. <em>24</em> Fri, 29 Aug 2014 11:42:27 EST Thursday Tidbits Enjoyed my time with Peanut today, sorting through toys making some room for Christmas, playing checkers, I WON - twice, Twister fun, I spun, he twisted. Lol Good times with the grandson!! Woohoo!! Also hope the daughter likes the new light fixture her dad put up. <em>30</em> Thu, 28 Aug 2014 20:35:38 EST Scary Moment Exciting moment at the doctor this morning. Had a very scary low blood sugar episode while there so no blood work today. <em>39</em> Doc comes in and says to me, "Wow, you don't look so good. To which I reply, "I don't feel so good". So he checks my BP again and it's okay, he listens o my heart, it's beating Lol than he checks my Blood Sugar. 41... YIKES! So he quickly gets me some juice and tells me I will have to wait on my blood test and since it has to be a fasting one it won't be fo... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 12:03:49 EST Saturday Exercise time out of the way. YAY! I bought a new 75 cm Fitness Ball yesterday. Yet it doesn't seem to be as strong as the one I use at the physical therapist center. when I sit on it it feels like I am using more of my legs to keep me up which makes me unsure of falling off the damn thing unlike the one at the enter. Same size though so I don't know, do they come in different strengths? <BR> <BR> Looking forward to seeing Peanut later on tonight. We are watching him while our daughter runs... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 10:14:24 EST The Day Has Turned Around Recovering from P/T was a bit easier today. Muscles are definitely protesting in the way of leg cramps but Victoria's routine was much more gentile than Grant's so I am grateful. Got to use my favorite piece of equipment (step elliptical) today for 10 whole minutes. Woohoo! Have got to get me one of these. <BR> <BR> My routine today went something like this: <BR> 40 Step Ups <BR> Balance with eyes shut "Whoa" on Balance Platform <BR> 20 Mini Squats <BR> 4 rows of Side Steps side to side. <BR... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 15:43:29 EST Not A Good Day So Far So not feeling well today. I was so tired and sore from Physical Therapy Tuesday that I slept most of yesterday. And silly me forgot to take my meds. That mistake is catching up to me today. P/T is in a little while and I will drag myself there. Yeah, that sounds fun. <em>246</em> Hoping I get Victoria today and not Grant. He was an exercise demon on Tuesday and put me through hell. I was hoping to be release that day but he said I am not ready even though I passed his exercise torture. I ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 09:40:31 EST Lazy Day Had a laid-back Friday on account I woke up this morning feeling at least 25 years older than I am. Lol Creakily old bones. UGH Finally getting some pep back in my step and wouldn't you know it, the day is nearly over. Such is my life these days. <em>24</em> Fri, 15 Aug 2014 17:41:05 EST Crazy thought Feeling that elliptical machine tonight. Legs, arms and upper back are hurting. Yet I feel good! Who would have thought that just 7 minutes on that thing could feel so good but it's the first workout in 7 months that I have had. :| Honestly though I LOVE that machine! Lol I want one!! I think I might add it to my ever-growing birthday list. Hee Hee Hee Do you think if I give up Christmas gifts for the next few years... Just a crazy thought! Thu, 14 Aug 2014 20:21:29 EST P/T Day 8 Physical Therapy - Day 8 was GREAT. Killer but GREAT! First day on the Recliner Elliptical. A whole 7 minutes. WOOHOO!! Slow going but it's a start!! I can now bencd my left knee 71% of the way. Up from 40%. Still have pain though but it's bending! Next Tuesday, they will reevaluate my progress and see what's the Senior Therapist has to say.? Now I'm chill-laxing with a treat. A serving size of Honey Nut Cheerios. YUM!! <em>30</em> <BR> Thu, 14 Aug 2014 14:01:21 EST New Hope For The Coming Weeks I thought I made some positive changes to my nutritional plan this week but alas my weight has stayed the same. 235 lbs. UGH Guess I haven't made the right ones yet. <BR> <BR> I need to go back to logging in my food every day to see what else I can change. And yes, I need to exercise which is still a problem for the most part with my hip pain. Even with what the therapist gives me to do, it just isn't enough to change anything. <BR> <BR> I see my doctors again in 2 weeks, that is if they ... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 10:30:25 EST P/T Day 7 Physical Therapy - Round 7 was killer today but definitely needed. Up to 2 sets of 10 now on each exercise. Woohoo! Still can't bend my left leg too much, about a 1/3 of the way up only. Have also experienced more pain the past 2 days and I'm not at all sure why it's increased again. Perhaps it's rearing its ugly head one last time before it dies completely out. Let's hope! Tue, 12 Aug 2014 19:11:28 EST Blah day x 2 So super tired the pass two days. All I want to do is sleep and I have certainly done that but I'm still so tired. Wondering if the kidney has finally bite thee dust. Doc says qhswn tht happens I would become so tired I wouldn't want to get out of bed. And well, that about explains it these last two days. <em>24</em> My next lab work is Tuesday so I will know soon enough. Otherwise I feel okay in other areas. <BR> <BR> My hip I believe is healing. I've been doing my strengthening exercis... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 13:10:59 EST The Man Drives Me CRAZY So DH confused Urologist with Oncologist the other day. Today we received his lab report. The nurse called huim the other day and he told me she said that his HDL was higher than normal but otherwise everything was okay. He would just have to tweak his diet a little. Which didn't make sense to me because HDL is the good cholesterol and you want that to be higher? <BR> <BR> When the report came today it turns out tht it is his LDL that is too too high and he has to watch his diet more clos... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 18:19:47 EST