CHANGING4ME49's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CHANGING4ME49 CHANGING4ME49's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dealing With Unexplained Pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734766 Approximately 2 weeks ago I began having pain in my hip joint. Completely out of the blue. I haven't fallen or bumped it or over exercised. At first I thought it was Arthritis but it is unlike the pain in my knees, both of which are Arthritic. Its more sharp in nature, not achy, painful and happens only when I rotate my left leg (getting in and out of bed or the car. lifting the leg is nearly impossible) or sit for any period of time. I went to the movies with my grandson yesterday and it was... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 18:35:04 EST Fitness Challenge Upddate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726986 5 weeks into my Fitness Challenge and I have begun to time my walks. A whole 25 minutes this morning. WOOHOO! I'm blazing the trails now!! <em>246</em> Since I still walk at a snails pace, the distance is not far but hey, I'm a work in progress. Seeing that 6 months ago I was on Life Support and when I got released from the hospital could barely (no joke) take a step without help, I am feeling positive about my progress today and will continue my efforts. The sheer fact that I can put on... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 09:47:25 EST Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719364 Well the daughter is leaving for a vacay in Boston tomorrow. She is need of some down time and will be visiting one of her girl friends there. On the flip aside DH asnd I hsve decided o postpone our trip to Florida until Fall. He hates Florida in the summer time which is one reason what I never understood him agreeing to go in the first place. Anyway we will go when it is s bit cooler in September or early October. Part of me is a little concerned about postponing the trip because I don't kn... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 20:42:02 EST Father's Day just isn't the same at our house http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718327 because my husband has no clue what it takes to be a good dad. Our daughter is still very much at odds with her father. She has not gotten over the fact he left me in the hospital in January and dropped EVERYTHING in her lap without any emotional support what so ever. Than he accused her of setting him up to make it look as if he was the bad guy in it all. He also in recent months has tried very hard to convince me into believing that DD is still the hateful girl towards me she has been in re... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 09:23:03 EST Enjoyable Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716088 Had an awesome time with the daughter & grandson today. The movie Maleficent was really good. Than we got out Sushi on at Icheban's Japanese Steak House. My daughter was a little concerned with the sodium content of such food but I told her I am 99% good and on target that 1 meal won't kill me. Well I certainly hope not! 6 months of my new lifestyle changes have now been in effect and so far so good. Low to no sodium, healthy, healthy, healthy, no careless snacking, and portion control. Now i... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 22:04:42 EST Teacher Gifts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715304 Spent some time with the grandson tonight and we made some Apple Stamped Tote bags for his teachers End of Year gifts. Thought you all would like to see the photos. I'm sure his teachers will love the bags as well as the yummy apples inside. <em>30</em> ?He also painted a picture for each of them with a nice note attached stating how much he appreciates them. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1138231854.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 22:23:47 EST Best Laid Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712583 sometimes get sidelined. The Mother's Day Make Up plan for today, lunch and a movie with the daughter and grandson, has been rescheduled AGAIN. This time because my grandson is sick with a fever an a thoat that looks like a roadmap for strp. <em>39</em> We will try again for Wednesday. Hoping little man is feeling better by then. His last week of school is this coming week and he is set to leave on a cruise (his first) with his dad, Shannon sand baby brother next Sunday. So he best get to ... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 08:42:16 EST Needed Something New http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711379 NOT ME obviously but this is my NEW hairstyle! DH won't take a picture of me because he says he doesn't know how to take a good one <em>24</em> so must wait until Saturday to ask the daughter to take one. My hairdresser liked my choice, DH does too so I feel good about it. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> In other news, I began walking again at my favorite place Sycamore Flats. Although I only did a quarter of what I use to do there nevertheless ITS A START! Plan on walking again on Satur... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 14:09:14 EST Fitness Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711038 Day 5 of my Fitness Challenge is complete! WOOHOO!! Definitely feeling it today. A bit harder to roll LOL out of bed this morning. Muscles are aching. They're just letting me know they are being worked. Hair cut and walking today. My legs are going to love me later. hahaha <em>386</em> Thu, 5 Jun 2014 06:39:19 EST This n That http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710254 After speaking with the daughter yesterday, she brought it to my attention that I should rename my AB Challenge... the Fitness Challenge since I have replaced the planks with Wall Pushups so technically it's not a total ab workout anymore. So hence from today forward my Challenge will be referred to as the Fitness Challenge. Today's a rest day so no workout for me. Super glad too as I did enough walking around yesterday to be bothered with leg cramps all night and my legs are in poor shape th... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 06:17:58 EST 30 Day AB Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709525 Here is the 30 day Ab challenge I began June 1. I don't expect miracles just want to challenge myself to get in some form of exercise every day. So far so good! I can't do a plank yet so I do wall pushups instead. Not the same thing but good for me anyway. After my first week I will add in an aerobic workout in (walking) as well to help me combat the tiredness I feel from the kidney disease and meds. This is a tough challenge but I'm not in it to win medals just to challenge myself to do it ... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 07:33:00 EST Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709512 Day 3 of the Ab Challenge complete! GO ME!! I began Jun 1. Will post what I am trying to do at some point today. Feels good doing some form of exercise again. Although I need to begin some aerobic workout as well to combat the tiredness. <BR> <BR> Headed out later today for a Kidney Smart Class. It is a 1st step towards Dialysis. I will have another class after this in July then doctors will discuss the insertion of the portal than the surgery then finally the hook up. Its a long process b... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 07:08:47 EST Lastest Lab Reults http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708801 Lab Results finally in: the good, the bad and the ugly. Liver checks out good. Nice to know something's working correctly in this body of mine. Parathyroid is a bit high but not as high as expected. This can explain some of my bone pain but not all of it. Cholesterol's down, improved. Not perfect yet but on the right track. Creatine (kidney) back up to 3.2 from 2.6 last time. NOT a good sign!! It's definitely not going in the right direction. My kidney is being put through the ringer despite ... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 10:18:49 EST Dealing With Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706675 This is certainly what I try to do although I am not always successful. Especially these days. Present times are tough! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1994991622.jpg"> Fri, 30 May 2014 09:56:18 EST Family Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704109 I know it's long overdo but here it is. The daughter and I have been getting along in relative harmony since my health crisis in January. I know crazy, right? Sometimes I feel aliens have come down and switch her completely but than I know that's untrue. Although she is totally different in her relationship with me these days. She was amazing I hear during my scare and has stayed steadfast in her care and concern for me since. She calls often to check on me and to receive updates on my medica... Tue, 27 May 2014 07:35:55 EST +16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5703921 That is the amount of weight I have regained in the past 3 months. Not from overeating or eating the wrong stuff but just eating once again. Remember at one point post hospital stay #1 I had stopped eating altogether and even became severely dehydrated and ended up back in the hospital for stay #2. So I have now since regained my appetite and am eating 3 meals a day plus 2 healthy snacks with little to no exercise. So hence the gain! <BR> <BR> I am hoping that with the addition of walking o... Mon, 26 May 2014 22:37:16 EST Starting Fresh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702682 This weekend marks 4 months since my post-hospital/ life support crisis. It has been a long road to get to just this this point but I am feeling well enough now I think to transition from general recovery mode to much more preventative care. Returning my focus to losing additional weight and achieving some fitness goals no matter how small. Two things that will benefit my overall health, as well as my kidney. It's a start! <em>104</em> I figure I can't just exist, which is basically what I... Sun, 25 May 2014 10:14:31 EST Primary Update: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695669 I have now been taken off 1 Blood Sugar med. Januvia has been linked to kidney damage and my primary doesn't want me on it anymore. That is the second medication I have been on that has been linked to kidney damage. Anyway the doc wants to see how my sugar does without it before beginning anything new. Otherwise I will see him again in July. My Blood Pressure was 144/82 today. Not horrible but not perfect either. Oh well, doing the best I can. New Blood work scheduled for Tuesday morning!!!!... Thu, 15 May 2014 12:02:52 EST Missed Out On Grandson's Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675801 Well, I didn't make it to the grandson's soccer game this morning. Wasn't feeling well so I decided to stay home and rest. More like SLEEP that is! Fortunately for me the game was canceled due to rain. Although this is all so not like me, the Mema who never missed anything concerning Peanut nowadays can't see to get my get up and go to attend much of anything. I HATE feeling sick and tired ALL THE TIME!! And I am sure the grandson is sick of me feeling this way too! <BR> <BR> Anyways tomor... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 15:38:27 EST Sleep Study http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675154 I lived through the Sleep Study last night if you can call it that. Only got minutes, seriously minutes of sleep before the tech woke me up at 5:30 am with a very cheerful "Good morning Sallie!". How they expect anyone to sleep restfully on a mattress that resembled a plank of wood and a pillow made of concrete I have no idea. Upon arriving home this morning I went to bed and slept cor 3 glorious hours. WOOHOO! Chalk it up to an experience I don't wish to repeat any time soon. Wondering wha... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 14:30:55 EST Kidney Specialist Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674564 So add 4 more pills to my daily regimen. My Kidney Specialist is NO JOKE! Found out today that I am retaining fluid again, also my body has way too much ACID in it and my GFR (overall kidney function) has dropped to 19. 15 is Total Kidney Failure so I'm real close. Moving forward on preparing for Dialysis and Transplant. Education classes begin next month. In 3 months (July) I need to request what type of Dialysis's I want ( in home or center). I wonder if "NONE" is a choice? Hummm guess no... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 18:42:41 EST Lab Results In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673539 LAB RESULTS: A1C Blood Sugar, excellent. Vitamin D, extremely low, could explain why my bones hurt, adding a daily D3 supplement. Cholesterol not so good, adding a statin. :( Will recheck next month. Kidney numbers, on the rise. Not a huge increase however (2.6) so won't know what it means for me if anything until I see the specialist tomorrow. Still I was hoping and praying these would continue to go down. All in all, it could be worse so I will take it for what it is. Kidney Specialist a... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 11:46:28 EST Blood work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673025 First stick was not so successful this morning but another one and finally the blood suckers got the 4 tubes of blood they needed. Amanda is fast becoming my GO-TO LAB GIRL. So happy today is done, just need to sweat out the results now. Praying for the best! <BR> <BR> In other news, finished the grandson's Easter shopping with a trip to Michael's and Target. Little man will be more than HAPPY!! YAY ME! First BIG walking adventure I have done in months. My legs are not happy but I will liv... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 18:49:43 EST Primary Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667340 Got the ALl clear, Kep Up the Good Work from my primary today. Blood pressure 150/82 which is okay, Blood sugar holding steady. He has ordered Full Labs next Tuesday. Liver & Kidney functions, Cholesterol, A1C, Vitamin D and more. FUN! Hell NO!! I hate needles!! Nonetheless it has to be done. <BR> <BR> Docs may tweak my BP meds again since my BP has been running high than low for a couple weeks now but will wait until I talk to the kidney doc first. <BR> <BR> Still struggling with tiredne... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 11:40:52 EST Kidney Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653182 So the kidney doctor is pleased with my current lsb work but nonetheless he is cautiously optimistic. Said to not forget no matter how good my numbers look, I still have Stage 4 kidney disease with a GFR of 21. 15 would mean automatic dialysis! That is not too far off however it appears I can now concentrate more on delaying dialysis for as long as possible and postponing further kidney disease with a continued healthy diet, exercise, BP and Diabetes control, etc. Gee, I thought that was wh... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 11:52:51 EST Latest Blood work Results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651571 OMG, I could just cry! Tears not from anything bad but from sheer relief. Anyone who knows what I have been going through since January knows how much I sweat out my blood work results these days. I hope for the best but know full well the bottom can fall out from under me any time. Although I wont see the kidney specialist until tomorrow afternoon I know he will be pleased with this week's results. My kidney number is down to a 2.44 which shows my kidney function is still improving little b... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 12:34:16 EST Primary Care Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645496 Primary Care Doctor appt went well. Blood Pressure is staying within range. Oxygen level, Temp, and pulse all good. Blood work postponed until next week just prior to me seeing the Kidney Specialist again. NO needles this week. YAHOO!! I can relax sort of, until next Tuesday! Doc says I am doing well considering and all I can for now. Lab results will let us know if what I am doing is good enough. Praying hard that my numbers stay the same or improve more. I know too well what the opposite... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 15:47:51 EST Trudging along day by day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644778 Slow going but hanging in as best I can. Doc apt and lab work in the morning than its waiting for the results... a nail biter for sure. Nevertheless it is what it is. Doing my best at home: taking meds as directed, eating right according to the dietitians orders. The rest is in God's hands, as they say. <BR> <BR> Not as weak or dizzy since my doctor reduced one of my medications but still I am so tired. It doesn't take much for me to feel like I have run a marathon. I am getting by however ... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 20:15:12 EST Kidney Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636212 So yesterday's meeting with my kidney specialist didn't quite go as planned. Despite good lab results on Wednesday, it looks like my kidney is much too damaged (stage 4 kidney disease) to last , and dialysis and transplant will be in my future. When these will actually take place depends on future blood work but doc wanted to give me a heads up as well as go ahead and get the ball rolling so to be prepared for what lies ahead. Definitely not the news I wanted or prayed to hear but it is what ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 15:37:41 EST Lab Results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634468 CELEBRATING GOOD LAB RESULTS!!! KIDNEY NUMBERS HAVE COME DOWN EVEN MORE THAN WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL LAST WEEK. HALLUJAH! I AM SO HAPPY AND RELIEVED. AT LEAST FOR NOW. I KNOW FULL WELL THAT THIS CAN CHANGED IN A HEARTBEAT BUT PRAYING IT CONTINUES. SEEING THE KIDNEY SPECIALIST TOMORROW. HOPE HE IS AS PLEASED AS I AM. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Still recuperating at home. Found out yesterday that the tiredness, weakness and dizzy feeling I experience daily is not likely to go away until I a... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 14:52:50 EST Much Needed Rest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631268 is on the agenda but absolutely NO sleep. That is how it is these days At least my appetite is back . Baby steps! I am eating, what I am allowed that is. And that is a food thing. I was eating next to nothing for a solid week than nothing at all for 3 days straight not even water. I couldn't keep it down. Now that I can eat I can't seem to sleep at all. My body is a total wreck! Seriously. All because my primary doc gave me the wrong drugs for the last 10 years and has totally ruined my one ... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 00:19:45 EST 2nd Hospital Visit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630338 It's good to be back home AGAIN and I'm feeling blessed! 2nd hospital visit not as scary as the first but it did hold just as much drama. Riding in EMS trucks is becoming a habit with me and that is not a good thing. LOL Came down with a rather nasty stomach virus last weekend and became extremely dehydrated which shot my kidney numbers through the roof and sent me running for the ER. Doc didn't waste any time slapping me back into the hospital again. This time for 5 days. Got out for good be... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 18:31:55 EST Kidney Dietitian http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618129 Kidney Dietitian appt went really well today. Not so bad. Keep doing what I'm doing, watch my carbs, potassium, protein and sodium and hang in there! Dropped another 2 lbs. Fluid or Fat? Don't care much which it is at this point just as long as its coming off. Down 42 total since The incident Jan 23rd. <BR> <BR> Today marks 9 days out of hospital and I still wear out easy but slowly improving. Super glad a very hectic week of non stop doctors visits is now a thing of the past. For now that ... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 19:55:19 EST Dietitian Appt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617312 YAY! Another a[[ppt done. Will see the Kidney Dietitian tomorrow. I am sure she will add to my list of THINGS I I NEED ADVOID. <BR> <BR> My life= Bread crumbs & water <BR> NO, Wait, <BR> NO BREAD CRUMBS either. <BR> <BR> <BR> Must keep my sense of humor... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 21:43:05 EST 2nd Post Hospital Checkup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616512 2ND post Hospital appt TODAY. Lost a few more lbs bringing the total to 41 lbs now in 2 weeks. MGot a better ideal of what actully happened to me 2 weeks go. A BP med I was on since June 2013 has severely damaged my only remaining kidney spiking my BP to 250/102 and filled my body with fluid which baascally did not allow me to breath so I stopped and they had to intubate me for 3 days. I am left with a kidney that functions at only 20 % thus far. How much will om back and when are he BIG Ques... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 01:51:22 EST Day 6 Home: First Post Hospital check Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615147 My first Post-Hospital Check up went well today! Down 42 lbs. in 2 weeks. Most of this is excess fluid. Although I wouldn't recommend this as a means to weight loss The whole turning The Walking Dead on eveyone is a bit scary. So far so good though! Continue recoup as scheduled. Taking things day by day. Another dr. appt tomorrow! <BR> <BR> BP was great Offfice reading of 140/80 was a sight for sore eyes. so glad the meds are WORKING!!!! Srill sore nd tired but they say its normal for what ... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 16:10:01 EST 38 lbs of Fluid http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613126 So I jumped on the scale first thing this morning and was not prepared for the number that stared back at me ... 232 lbs. That's down from 270 when I was admitted to ICU 12 days ago. I have removed 38 lbs of excess fluid in 12 days with the help of diet and med changes. No wonder I feel totally wiped out! I have had some really good BP numbers the last 2 days as well thanks to the new medication. I till find it hard to absorb that I had that much fluid on me and didn't realize. Obviousdly I n... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 14:47:34 EST DAY 3 HOME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612084 DAY 3 HOME: I have a bit more energy today. I need to be patient with myself though and remind myself often that I was on Life Support just last weekend so give myself a break and not rush. More easier said than done though. My legs, ankles and feet are skinny, wrinkly again which is actually a GOOD THING. LOL It means I have finally lost the last of the fluid that was in them. NO MORE Puffy Marshmallow Woman. GO ME! Following doctors orders as closely as possible and doing all I can to impro... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 12:26:07 EST When The World Comes Crashing Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610327 On January 23rd, my present world changed forever, I stopped breathing!!! Many thanks to the staff of both Transylvanian And Mission hospitals for they saved my life, no doubt about it , and have returned me to the land of the living with a renewed hope and outlook for the future. <BR> <BR> I was released from the hospital last night along with a host of guidelines, new medications and physicians to see within the coming week. I am feeling totally wiped out today but know things will contin... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 14:51:03 EST Weigh In Week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598691 Stayed the same. No loss this week which does not surprise me sa I did absolutely nothing. I ate on targt but don't think I burn a single calorie. HA! I have a serious case of The BLAHS. Have a list of things to do which is overwhelming to even look at and no go get em-nish to tackle any of it. <BR> <BR> So I'll handle it and do my best to shake off whatever is holding me down and work at becoming more active this next week. Have already loss half of my goal so I am not worried as of yet. D... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 08:11:25 EST Weigh In Week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598690 Stayed the same. No loss this week which does not surprise me sa I did absolutely nothing. I ate on targt but don't think I burn a single calorie. HA! I have a serious case of The BLAHS. Have a list of things to do which is overwhelming to even look at and no go get em-nish to tackle any of it. <BR> <BR> So I'll handle it and do my best to shake off whatever is holding me down and work at becoming more active this next week. Have already loss half of my goal so I am not worried as of yet. D... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 08:11:25 EST Have the Blahs... What to do? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597746 Week 2 has ben slow going. No major issues but have been plagued with allergy symptoms which are giving me headaches and have me feeling downright BLAH. Otherwise I'm doing my bet ro hang in. I'm hoping for a good result come weigh in on Sunday but I will just have o wait and see. <BR> <BR> DH has been rough to live with this week. Grumbling about EVERY LITTLE THING! Which just makes me want to take him out back and beat him with a stick. It certainly would be a good stress reliever <em>... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 08:49:28 EST week 1 Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591115 Week 1 complete! I dropped 5lbs.WOOHOO!!!! I feel refreshed and motivated that my first week back on track was a successful one. It has definitely upped my determination to keeping moving forward. I did really well incorporating 1 serving of fruit into my daily eating plan. This week I will shoot for 2 daily servings. Eventually I want to include 2 daily servings of fruit and 3 daily serving of vegetables as a starting point. This is an area where I usually struggle a lot with so I’m bre... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 11:07:16 EST No news Is Good News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588913 Nothing to report. It's been a good week so far. <em>30</em> Fri, 10 Jan 2014 07:57:43 EST DH's Aha Moment to Come http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584142 I must say I am enjoying myself this morning. There is justice after all. My husband has decided to lose some weight. This recent revelation began a couple weeks back when he went shopping and found he is 3 sizes larger in pants. The huge belly he has been carrying around for over a year didn't get through to him. Our grandson remarking that Pepa has boobs last summer at the beach didn't ring any bells for him either. His BP rising to 145/100 hasn't motivated him neither. However larger pant... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 10:44:52 EST Back In The Driver's Seat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582596 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l697935939.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I have spent the past few weeks tweaking my eating plan and ridding myself of the garbage I have re-included back into my diet the past 7 months. Whoops! My bad! You know the stuff that you know without a doubt is no good for you and will most certainly get you nowhere but fatter. It's no joke how that stuff creeps back in when you don't stay focused. <BR> <BR> Anyways I feel at this point in time I have d... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 04:09:36 EST Catch Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581592 Playing catch up concerning the past 7 months. Not complaining just stating the current situation regarding different aspects of my life. <BR> <BR> HOME IMPROVEMENT: Not finished yet. DH, after becoming motivated last spring to begin updating the house, a project long in the making, lost all incentive after painting the kitchen and simply STOPPED! Hopefully thie spring he will resume. This remains to be seen. <BR> <BR> HUSBAND: Still abusive towards me and still remains silent when daugh... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 07:43:41 EST Coming Home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580310 I figure its time I apologize to all the friends I have made here on Spark who have listened, advised and supported me through my trials and tribulations. I am sorry for basically dropping off the planet back in June of last year. I have no excuses except to say I needed a break from EVERYTHING. I became so tired of hearing myself whine and complain about my “Woe is me life” as well as family issues that I seriously couldn’t take it anymore. I didn’t want to write one more blog about the stu... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 04:17:27 EST Winning One Battle At A Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578604 Stop fighting a battle with yourself over and over again. Instead of thinking about the negatives and the "can'ts", focus on the positive and the "can's" and see how quickly your state of being will improve. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l519514188.jpg"> Wed, 1 Jan 2014 21:33:47 EST Happy & Healthy 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577034 In 2014, I will continue to choose healthy over non, drop more weight, walk further, stress less, assume nothing, do more, need less, smile often, dream big, focus on the positive, laugh a lot, sleep soundly, and realize how truly blessed I am. <BR> <BR> Happy New Year everyone! Make it count!! <BR> <BR> I have missed my Sparkfriends! <em>30</em> Tue, 31 Dec 2013 18:57:30 EST