CHANGING4ME49's SparkPeople Blog CHANGING4ME49's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Last Day Of Nursing School For tthe Daughter Today marks my daughter Lindsay's last day in Nursing School. Congrats to her and to the rest of South College's Nursing Class of 2014! It's been a long, tough 15 months (Accelerated Program) but she met this challenge head on like she does everything else in her life. On Saturday she will graduate Summa Cum Laude. Her dad and I are so very proud of our RN! We can't wait to celebrate with her and Peanut this weekend!! Well done Lindsay! Love you always & forever. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 19:20:49 EST No Fistula For Me! Well, NO Fistula for me! My veins are way too small to support one in either arm. So it looks like an AV graft is in store for me instead. An arteriovenous (AV) graft is a man-made tube that is inserted into your arm to connect an artery to a vein. It will be a bit more intensive, surgery wise, but it will do what they need it to do. It is permanent. Have tube, will travel! <em>334</em> The best part is I can wait until the time I am about to go on Dialysis to get it done. So I will be sit... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 13:45:15 EST Challenges Not looking forward to meeting the Vascular Surgeon this morning who will put in my fistula (Dialysis port) sometime in the near future. I guess it's just another challenge I must face head on! <BR> <BR> My knee is slowly improving so I am thankful for that. <BR> <BR> I'm extra tired today but that is par for the course so will meddle through. <BR> Mon, 15 Dec 2014 06:51:42 EST I Should Come With A Warning Label Well, I had a great time tonight with the husband, Peanut, his mom and baby brother Parker despite my fall at Asheville Mall. Yep, I did it again! Lol I need a warning label. <em>246</em> A BIG Thanks to the EMT that happen to be there at the time and to my daughter for helping me regain my footing. Not an easy task to say the least. Lucky nothing is broken. Although my right knee took the full impact and it is letting me know, it's not at all happy about it. I am now making friends with t... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 20:34:45 EST Medical Test # 1 Your Mammogram is normal! YAY!!! One less think to worry about. Aced my first medial test ordered by the UNC Transplant Team now on to the next. Feeling grateful!!! <BR> Thu, 11 Dec 2014 16:41:20 EST Missions Week 2 I mislogged my weight last week here on Spark. It should have read 259 but instead I just realized I put in 257 but its all good because today I weighed in at 257!!! Down 2 lbs for the week!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I am really starting to feel this program working. Had another class today also. Today's topic: Changing Your Eating Style. Its was a full class, 20 people, men and women and very informative. I met 2 very nice ladies today, one that has been with the program 5.5 years. She is i... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 18:05:47 EST This Week Today I had the first of many medical tests to come my way on my path to a new kidney. My annual Mammography. I will get the results by Friday. Part of this feels scary as I never know if something else will be found. Fear of the unknown, I guess. Than again this is slowly teaching me to put myself first and making me proactive when it comes to my health. Something I have needed for a very long time. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is more Lab work. Oh how I love the idea of that! <em>24</em> I wonder ... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 18:35:27 EST Met With Transplant Team Met with the UNC Transplant Team out of Chapel Hill, NC today. The group of people who will be working on my behalf to hopefully provide me with a new Kidney. They are truly a special group of surgeons, doctors, nurses, coordinators, and social workers. The ones (my team) I met today will stay the course with me throughout. I can't thank them enough for all they plan to do for me. <BR> <BR> Over the next 3 months I will be barraged with medical tests (they plan to throw everything but the k... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 19:19:32 EST Mission Week 1 Had my first weigh in with the Mission Weight Loss Program after my initial enrollment and I have dropped 5 lbs. <em>244</em> A good start! <BR> <BR> Saw the doctor again today. The nurse couldn't find my Blood Pressure and finally gave up after 6 tries. <em>24</em> Uh, that's not a good sign. Everything else was good though so no new worries. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Attended my first Health Class as part of the Mission program today too. Met some really cool people there. Afterward... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 15:18:40 EST Happy December 1st Good Morning Sparkers! It's the first day of a brand new month so make it a good one. I'll be meeting with the UNC Transplant Team out of Chapel Hill this week. This will start off a very busy month of more, yes more doctor appts and medical tests for yours truly. They will outlined what I need to do over the next few months to get myself on the Transplant waiting list. I'm sure it won't be pretty! Than again it will be worth it. Am I having fun yet? My doctors obviously don't think so, eithe... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 06:27:32 EST Not Feeling So Hot Second day of not feeling so good. It began yesterday and today I am so physically tired. it's pathetic! Sleep is fine so I'm not sure what the deal is? I'm sure though the docs will say it's kidney related. Poor thing gets blamed for everything these days. <BR> <BR> Everything is good diet wise though still not walking much. Don't have the strength! <BR> Blood sugar was down this morning to 185. Still high but better. <BR> <BR> If I could shake this blah, tiredness I would be doing good. ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 12:27:05 EST 3 Days In I'm halfway through my third day on this new program and well, I'm tired. Physically, emotionally and mentally tired. Feel like I have run a full marathon each of the last 3 days. <em>522</em> <em>522</em> <em>522</em> I'm guessing my body is trying hard to adjust to the new guidelines and it's not liking it one little bit. Not feeling so hot but I will hang in there. <BR> <BR> First day I had some seriously cravings for a cheeseburger of all things but they have passéd. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 16:02:37 EST A Fresh Approach with a brand new program and outlook. Today marks the start of another new beginning! I am feeling confident with my new team of doctors and dietician from Mission Hospital Weight Loss Management by my side. Thanks to my family and friends for your ontinued love, support and encouragement. You give me strength to continue my fight! <BR> <BR> I met with my new doctor from the Mission Weight Loss Program and I like her. She is an obesity specialist. She is on top of her game, detail oriented a... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 07:00:02 EST T-minus 7 days Well I spoke with the patient navigator for the Missions Weight Loss Management Program and had my first appointment with her this morning. I signed all the documents today and will begin on Wednesday of next week. I am so excited!!! <BR> <BR> I have my first Health & History appt with their doctor that day followed by a meeting with the dietician on Thursday and actually begin the Optfast part of the program on Friday. They gave me the option to begin after Thanksgiving but I turned it down... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 13:29:47 EST Thursday's Tidbits Thanks so much to all those who responded to my blog concerning my daughter. I am pleased to report things are better on that front. In fact she even walked me to my car last night. She said she didn't want me to fall and knew there were rocks on the sidewalk that I might not see (my vision is not great) so she kicked them out of the way for me. She never ceases to surprise me these days. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway I had a wonderful time with the grandson last night. It was a short but... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 08:35:35 EST Restless Heart I had a disagreement with my daughter last night. I called her because I was missing hearing her voice and wanted to know how her week had went. At one point she asked if DH and I would watch our grandson on Wednesday night while she and the boyfriend enjoy a date night. I asked how late they would be out, knowing well that DH becomes enraged whenever he has to be out late. 11 is late for him these days. <em>246</em> I m also aware that he is a creature of comfort and doesn't like any dis... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 06:06:23 EST 2014 NYC Kidney Walk My niece an Goddaughter Melissa walked the NYC Kidney Walk on my behalf yesterday. She had a great time and raised more than $200 to fight Kidney Disease. This meant so much to me and I appreciate her efforts! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The shirt she had made up for the event. <... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 03:37:42 EST Inspiration Just a few of my favorite quotes. Enjoy! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Have an AWRESOME week everyone!! Mon, 3 Nov 2014 07:44:25 EST November 1st Woke up this 1st day of November to 26 degrees and with our first SNOW of the season. Just 2 inches for us but other areas of Western NC saw up to 6 inches this morning and it's still falling. Good God, Winter has come early!! <em>425</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway hope everyone had a pleasant and safe Halloween. We only had 5 Trick or Treaters last night, all pre teens except for my grandson. A bit disappointing. We usually get 40 - 50 kids of all ages but the pas 2 years have been depressing. ... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 10:02:00 EST Wishing Everyone A Happy Halloween!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 31 Oct 2014 08:25:25 EST Scarefest In Honor of Halloween Continuing my Scare fest tonight in honor of one of my favorite holidays, Halloween. Tonight's line up includes The Strangers, and Aliens. Last night I watched a flick called THEM that was crazy scary. Why do I do this to myself every year when undoubting I will be hearing creepy noises all night. Will I survive scaring myself senseless? <em>40</em> I guess I can't help myself. I love Halloween!!! <BR> <BR> Not much happening this week. Bought a ton of candy for the kiddos on Friday. Re... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 18:14:54 EST Week In Review Wednesday Dh and I wen o he Farmer's Markey with our grandson, his mommy and Dan to pick pumpkins out for Halloween. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> One guess as to who went home with the most. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we attended the Grandparents Luncheon at our grandson's school. Had a great time as usual. Afterwards we hit the Book Fair with him and stock... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 10:17:51 EST Monday Update I am fully recovered form this weekend. Caught a 48 hour stomach bug and was miserable all weekend. I hate being sick but from what the docs tell I could be in for a lot more since my immune system is weak because of the kidney disease. Oh well, just another reason tto be as healthy as possible in all I do. I missed my grandson's last game of the football season. He was bummed with his Mema but couldn't' be helped. Told him I would make I up come Basketball Season, up next or buy him a reall... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 13:25:29 EST Optifast and more So I attended the Mission Weight Loss Management/ Optifast Program Information Session last night. It had a very good turnout and I do feel it is a comprehensive, well balanced program which I believe would do me a world of good. Probably something I should have done a long time ago. However I did find out that they may not actually give me the product because of my kidney issue. This would be left up to the doctor in charge and if they can't they say they would become creative with nutritio... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 13:22:28 EST No Sleep for the Weary Well I tried Melatonin Last night for my sleep issue. After doing a bit of research I decided to half a 3 mg pill last night but it didn't help at all. Instead I felt wired all night long. Since my research said to not turn on any lights doing the night I laid in bed all night feeling as if I was hooked up to electrodes that were zapping my body every few seconds. Why I had such an in tense reaction I have no idea but I did not like it, not one little bit. Oh well, still on the look out for ... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 13:41:53 EST Moving forward So UNC's Transplant Team called me to schedule their first look see at me for December 5th. I will take a class on transplants than meet with one of their surgeons at that time and he will schedule the various preliminary testing that I will need to be followed by a final visit to chapel Hill Hospital before I am finally put ... on the list. Moving forward we are, one baby step at a time. Tue, 14 Oct 2014 16:52:11 EST Sleep Relief? Finally my doctor has okayed me to use Melatonin for my sleep issue. After years of suffering I may actually get some much need SLEEP. I am praying it works for me. I have heard some good things about it so hoping I am one of the lucky ones. Will take it tonight and see what happens. <em>30</em> Tue, 14 Oct 2014 09:57:08 EST Enough is Enough I am so tired of not sleeping. I have finally made up my mind to call the doctor lter this am and see what I can take for it. There has got to be something safe AND EFFECTIVE for me and my CKD. Not sleeping more than one or or two hours at best can't be healthy. It's been 3 weeks now on this cycle and I have had ENOUGH! Perhaps I shouldn't have complained about sleeping too much. Ha, where did that go? And it's not like I am getting oh so much done either with these nonstop hours awake. No,... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 02:16:45 EST Thank God for Small Steps Well out of all my goals for the week I only managed to do one. Transfer my files to the NEW desk. WOW GO ME! <em>246</em> Oh well, it's a small step but it is a step nonetheless. <BR> <BR> I am back to eating lunches again too. I have seen the return of my appetite this past week. I am not sure whether this is a good sign or not. I am set to have my first visit with the Optifast people this Thursday. I'm not sure when they will start the actual program for me, that day or the next. Eit... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 10:59:26 EST WORSE NIGHT EVER! WORSE NIGHT EVER = NO SLEEP!! Haven't had a sleepless night in a long time, well at least a few months now anyway. So this has thrown me for a loop. What to do? What to do? Try and stay up all day, praying I can and hopefully go to sleep super early tonight OR Cave in and sleep now??? <BR> <BR> UGH Decisions Decisions. <BR> Tue, 7 Oct 2014 06:47:14 EST Happy Birthday To ME! Today is my birthday. I have turned 56 today. And boy do I feel OLD!!!!!! <em>246</em> For the ver firs time I feel my age and it's like a big slap in the face. Yesterday I slept most of the day because I didn't feel well. My daughter called and asked what was wrong and all I could tell her was I didn't feel "right". So what is right? Ha, anything other than what I feel like now. Tired, Lethargic, Run down, Depleted... <BR> <BR> To be honest I am so tired of saying that is how I feel thes... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 14:58:23 EST Feeling awful I am feeling so bad today that I canceled dinner plans with my daughter and grandson to celebrate her and my birthdays. We were to celebrate at Ichebans Japanese Steakhouse tonight but I just can't. Feeling like I do today is to be expected what with all my health issues at present but it still sux. Hope my daughter and grandson will understand. I feel terrible about canceling especially after waiting the past few days to see whether my grandson would feel well enough to even go. He did and... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 12:22:02 EST My Grandson Is Starting To Improve!! Just heard that my grandson's fever is down. YAY!!!! And his Oxygen is back up to 98. He had his follow-up today with his pediatrician and there are small signs of improvement but still no school for the little guy until Monday at the least and no PE for another week after that. I am so happy Peanut is improving. At least maybe now he can get the much needed rest his body needs. Praying still that he feels 100% very soon. Thank you for all your prayers. Very much appreciated!!! <BR> Wed, 1 Oct 2014 15:35:30 EST Update on Grandson My grandson is a real trooper. Mega doses of Motrin and Tylenol, 1 shot and 1 breathing treatment later and the little guy is back home from the ER for the second time. He needs to receive another injection later today and again on Thursday which will help to boast the antibiotics that he is now taking along with staggering larger than normal doses of Motrin and Tylenol throughout the day and night to help reduce his fever. Maybe now he and his mommy can get some much needed rest. ME too. ... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 09:34:06 EST Update On Grandson My poor little grandson is back at the ER tonight as his fever keeps increasing as the night wears on. Now up to 103 and that is with 8 hour Motrin in him. Peanut can't seem to catch a break. So his pediatrician said to bring him back in. The ER doctor has yet to see him since the ER is busy so don't know yet if they will decide to keep him or not. My daughter Lindsay and his daddy Pj are with him. Daniel is too. If we are needed at some point, the hubby and I will certainly go. As for me rig... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 00:44:55 EST Grandson Update! Update on the grandson! Peanut is on his way home with his mommy. Not out of the woods yet but he received an IV dose of Antibiotics and has 2 different ones to take at home. He will see his regular pediatrician tomorrow for follow-up. His white cell count is 22,000. his lung x-ray showed a lot of fluid in his lungs especially his left one. but his oxygen level although still low is okay enough to release him home . And he still has a low grade fever. Cultures won't be back for a day or two..... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 15:49:53 EST Prayers needed please!! Please pray for my grandson. I just received word that Peanut was sent home from school today and is now at the ER. Doctors say he has Pneumonia. He is waiting on some IV antibiotics and has his mommy & daddy with him at the moment. My daughter says she will keep us updated throughout the day. <BR> <BR> Tue, 30 Sep 2014 13:50:42 EST Friday's Stuff I finally received my NEW desk yesterday and DH put it together, all but the drawers which we will do together today. It looks really nice even without the drawers. <em>246</em> It is smaller than my old one but I already knew that, just have to adjust to keeping less STUFF. This will be a good thing. I am surprised by the leather insert on the desktop however. The ad photo didn't show it and the description never mentioned this. Nonetheless it looks nice so I am happy with the surprise. ... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 07:20:31 EST Tuesday Tidbits Part of the plan my kidney doctor has begun for me is I am to take part in Mission Hospitals Weight Loss Clinic. So I set up a consult for Oct 16th. Since my weight is creeping ever so upward these past few months I see no other choice but to do as doc orders. Drop 70 lbs off me FAST so I can get on the transplant list! He also believes this will help my blood pressure as well as my Diabetes. That would be a win-win-win for me! The program he is encouraging me to do is a 16+ week Optifast pl... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 11:50:18 EST Kidney Update My grandson is sick today with a bad respiratory something. :( So off to the doctor he went this morning. Haven't heard back from Lindsay yet on how things went for him so just praying he feels better soon. <BR> <BR> I saw the kidney doctor this morning. My BP was a stellar 126/72!!!! The best one yet! No Dialysis yet either. Even though my lab numbers state I am in Kidney Failure, according to my doctor I must be literally at deaths door before they hook me up. In the meantime we are off ... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 12:54:19 EST Blood Results Well I didn't quite get the Good News I was hoping for. Blood Results are in: Some Good , Others Very Bad! <BR> <BR> Cholesterol is Down YAY! Total 198 LDL 105. So the Lipitor has worked but I am off it now. Liver function is overall fine. I am happy about this. <BR> <BR> However for my Kidney: my Creatine is up to 3.77 (not a good sign) and my GFR (overall kidney function) is at an all time low of 12. 15 and below is Complete Kidney Failure So this is definitely not want I wanted to hear... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 09:39:21 EST Primary Care Visit So happy the dreaded Lab work is over. One stick Katy. Lol The only lab tech in 9 months that has been able to get what she needed with just 1 stick. YAY!! God bless her. Doctor visit went okay. He's taking me off one of my meds, he thinks it may be the cause why my sugar has been running high the last 2 months. 290's are no good! My diet has been steady for months now and on track. I also jus learned that Lipitor, the FDA is warning causes all sorts of bad things for your health. SO I think ... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 16:04:54 EST Short Update Tonight Not looking forward to Lab work in the early morning. Yep, it's that time again. Time once again to find out just how bad things are. UGH!!! Well, still I hope for some good news to be thrown in there some where. A speck, maybe! <BR> <BR> Still waiting for my new desk. It's been 3 weeks since I ordered it. Now Office Max says it's on back order and they have no clue when I will receive it. Nice huh? It would have been nice to tell me that in the first place. I received the hutch part a week ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 22:38:55 EST Missing Out on Some Fun Best wishers to the grandson on his first Flag Football Game of the season. Unfortunately I won't be able to cheer him on from the sidelines today because I must attend some more Kidney Education classes beginning today and over the next few weeks. Doctors orders! UGH! Oh well, I'll be there in spirit! Go Peanut!! <em>104</em> Sat, 6 Sep 2014 09:15:18 EST I's Been Awhile since I had a run in with my daughter. So today was the day. It's been one of "those " weeks! Anyway she calls me up and precedes to tell me she feels her dad is Mentally Retarded. <em>198</em> I said I would go so far as to say he has learning disabilities but without a professional's opinion I would not agree with her opinion. I ask if her reasoning has something o do with her doing a clinical at a mental hospital his semester and she is marching her fathers issues with what she has lea... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 17:45:51 EST My Anniversary No Less Today marks 32 years for my husband and me. 32 years of verbal abuse, emotional abuse, mental cruelty, cheating, lying, and deceiving and that is just on the part of my husband. Sad, isn' it. Why do I stay in a relationship like this? Simple. I feel trapped. Trapped by health circumstances. Trapped by Financial circumstances. Trapped by lack of support. I know in my heart that if I had the financial means and support system in place to do so, I would leave. No doubt in my mind. The love I h... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 15:43:26 EST Stuff As I sit here trying to toss out and delete items from my desk and computer, I have come to the conclusion that I have a hard time ridding myself of stuff associated with memories. I truly struggled with this. To the point of going over and over an item to decide whether to keep it or not. I'm not speaking of things like notebooks, pencil sharpeners, etc but of ticket stubs, news clippings, trip brochures, anything that has a memory attached to it. Now I don' know if others have the same di... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 14:21:25 EST New Desk Finally after 2 days of hunting I have found my new office desk. Office Max was the site and delivery was a faction of what the other place wanted for heirs. Below is a picture of it in Espresso however I ordered mine in Honey Maple so mine will be much lighter. Super excited but must still wait for delivery and for the DH to put it together. I should have it up and ready by sometime next week. Tomorrow I will begin to par down my files and stuff so I don' have as much to transfer over to th... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 00:12:41 EST New Office Project Looking for a new office desk and it's driving me bonkers. Why can' I find one that fits my configurations? Either their too big, too small or don't have enough storage. Looking for something that is large enough to have computer space and also do my scrapbooking/ crafts and writing on but must have ample storage too. Just when I do find the right one they want $349 to ship it to me. UggggggH! Sat, 30 Aug 2014 16:48:38 EST Beer Late Than Never My doctor finally got around to signing me up for a second round of Kidney Fundamental Classes. Oh boy! He's intent on me knowing as much as possible about kidney health and what can go wrong before I begin Dialysis. Personally I feel my doctor should have done this before my kidney decide to jump ship. <em>24</em> Fri, 29 Aug 2014 11:42:27 EST