CHANGING4ME49's SparkPeople Blog CHANGING4ME49's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community So Frustrated I finally got over the worse stomach bug of all time. YAY!! However I am now facing a new issue with the FAM. <BR> <BR> The part involving my husband isn't new but nevertheless extremely irritating. He seems to enjoy causing trouble between my daughter and I. I get the feeling he is bothered by the fact that she and I have been getting along these days. So he uses my diet as a means to get her upset at me. For example: When she asks him how is mom doing on her program? He will answer with ... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 21:44:58 EST Sick Oh man! Not feeling well again. <em>39</em> This will make 3 weeks where I have been on again/ off again SICK! At first I thought it was food poisoning than a virus but now I have no idea what is going on. I just know every few days all hell breaks loose. At least I got though the holiday and mini vacay without issue. I'm thankful for that! Nevertheless I need to figure out what is going on. So to the doctor here I go. <BR> Mon, 6 Apr 2015 10:00:58 EST Shots Home from getting only one shot today. HEP B Part 3, Part of my Kidney Transplant EVAL. The nurse was great, didn't feel a thing. <em>334</em> The other two Shingles and a TB test will need to wait until May. <em>104</em> Seems I need a prescription for them. However I learned today that I have major blood work ahead in April, May and June. Hummm They must not have gotten the memo which states I HATE needles!! <em>101</em> <BR> Tue, 10 Mar 2015 17:18:56 EST Mission Weight Loss - Week 1 Beginnings are always difficult and mine was no different. Weigh in was tough today. 269.8 was not a number that brought a smile to my face but it is the truth. Things on the home front have not been great so that number represent that.All in all the tough part is over. Admitting my wrong and facing it head one was hard but I did it honestly. <BR> <BR> Dr. Humphries, my doc at the Missions Weight Loss Center was happy to see me back. Even though I was feeling anxious about admitting that I ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 17:18:24 EST Fresh Start Due to the fact I have experienced a lot of scheduling conflicts the past 2 months and have been unable to attend many of my Mission Weight Loss appts and classes, they have graciously offered to allow me to ... START OVER. Tomorrow March 3rd will begin my Week 1. I am actually happy about this because everything has been a mess around here ( stress, conflicts, etc) and I have fallen off the wagon, boat, ship the past few weeks. I am right back where it all began, eating way too much to avo... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 21:44:25 EST Daughter Lands Her Dream Job Right after passing her state exam and officially becoming an RN, she applied to her area's largest hospital system and just learn she got the job. She will be working in the General Surgery department, night shift which is what she wanted. Her starting pay will be $52, 000 a year with full benefits including 9 months of continuing education classes for beginning nurses. <BR> <BR> Her dad and I are so happy for her. She has sailed though all her challenges and accomplished so much graduati... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 21:03:02 EST Cha Cha Cha Changes Just when I think I have all my doctor, medical tests and transplant team appts lined up perfectly, someone gets the brilliant idea to change one upsetting my whole schedule. UGH!!! My New Transplant List date is now June 4th! That would be the day they give me the go ahead to be put on the actual list if the hubs kidney doesn't pan out. My back up plan so to speak. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Otherwise all is fairly well. My weight loss is going, but super slow. Down only 5 lbs in 3 months ... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 09:51:32 EST Life is a Highway Lol OMG! Have to go to Chapel Hill tomorrow to meet with some of the UNC transplant team that will be working on my behalf to find me a kidney if the hubs doesn't pan out. 4 and a half hours one way with a husband who has been "in a mood" to kill all moods all weekend. Praying he is a different person by morning LOL or it's going to be a hell of a ride. No joke! I need to find the duct tape fast! <em>198</em> <BR> Sun, 1 Feb 2015 17:23:25 EST January 23, 2015 January 23, 2015 is the one year anniversary of the horrific day last year when 3 organs of mine failed plunging me head on into Life Support. I was a complete mess with heart, lung and kidney failure, and I was as close to death’s door as one could be. I now have complete function in 2 out of the 3 organs back. Go ME! At one point however this past year I didn’t think I would make it to see my birthday in October, Christmas, let alone a brand new year but I have. Each and every day is a gift... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 05:25:01 EST Check Up Two of my doctors said today how very pleased they are with my motivation to do all they have asked of me this past year. I am the ideal patient they said! Woohoo!! Lol Fear of dying is a BIG motivator!! Anyway my Kidney numbers are holding steady for the moment. Preceding with medical eval (tests) for transplant list. Blood pressure, adding another med. Doc wants pressure 10 points lower. Back on sleep med. YAY!!! On new Diabetes mec because my insurance will no longer cover the old one. Don... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 18:03:43 EST Lack There Of Okay so my weight loss is not going along as planned. My weigh in Tuesday at Mission's Weight Management showed I gained 2 lbs. The doctor and I figure its not from my diet but from my lack of exercise sue to my knee injury a few weeks ago. Although my knee is better I have yet to really work out. I need to get motivated but it is just not there. I am just coasting along and that is not good. <em>134</em> It's a new year and I have so much to get done and I am just blah! <BR> <BR> I join... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 23:26:32 EST Super Excited!! And very proud of my daughter Lindsay!! She graduated with honors last month from nursing school and nailed the NC State Licensing Boards this week. WOOHOO!!!! Her dad and I are on cloud 9, 10, 11 and 12. Lol And I am sure her feet are not touching the ground either. Congratulations baby girl!! It's been a long time coming but you saw your dream come true. <em>334</em> WOW! WOW! <BR> Thu, 8 Jan 2015 10:47:00 EST Lab Results Okay, so I know that my health this past year as well as the present is up a creek without a flippin paddle, it bites, but one still has to have hope. No matter how tiny it may be I believe I must hold onto whatever little glimmer comes my way. That is why in light of my current Lab work I choose to see the bright side of the tiniest changes that have presented themselves. Creatinine's down to 3.66 from 3.77 and my GFR is at 13 up from 12. I know these are really small, small changes, the ea... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 13:36:54 EST A NEW Day, A NEW Year Wishing everyone a really great year full of LOVE, HEALHT and HAPPINERSS. Make it a good one Peeps! NO excuses!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 1 Jan 2015 08:04:16 EST 2nd Round of Tests Mammogram done Results normal. <BR> <BR> WOOHOO! Kidney Ultrasound, X-rays are done and 3 sticks, 11 tubes of blood, and 2 lab ladies later so is the Transplant Blood work. Results in next week. YAHOO! I am free at last. Well, until the next test, that is. <em>104</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Up next: Dental Cleaning and the dreaded Colonoscopy. I hate the thought of being put out. The test itself and prep, no problem. Anesthesia <em>40</em> <em>46</em> I guess I am I am learning... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 15:27:27 EST Christmas Memories <img src=""> <BR> Presents from Mom, Dan and DH and I under one tree. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Presents from Santa under the other. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Grandson choosing to open Santa gifts first, of course. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Happy with his Starw... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 15:26:20 EST Christmas Day Had an enjoyable time at the daughter's with the grandson and Dan. Thank you Lindsay for spoiling me. I love you so much!! I actually received 4 gifts this year from my daughter. 3 cookbooks from a practical standpoint to aid in my new lifestyle with DASH, Diabetes and Heart Healthy themes, and a beautiful white gold XO necklace. WOOHOO!! I am beyond excited!! What a difference a year makes. Whatever brought this positive change in my daughter's attitude towards me, I must say is happily we... Thu, 25 Dec 2014 16:40:17 EST Christmas Eve Spending a quiet Christmas Eve with the husband. WE plan on opening gifts tonight after enjoying a nice meal. <em>334</em> Our BIG celebration will be tomorrow at the daughter's place. She wants us there bright and early as she only has her son for the first half of the day. Dan and her are doing Christmas lunch with all the trimmings and DH and I will bring the pies... Pumpkin and Apple Pecan. YUM! Okay, it's only 1 day and I have learned NOT to go overboard thankfully! <BR> <BR> My kne... Wed, 24 Dec 2014 12:16:14 EST What Do You Do? Just out of curiosity: Do you wrap or not wrap stocking stuffers? I use to wrap each and every thing but now I don't. I now figure the stocking is the wrapping. Perhaps I am just getting lazier. <em>246</em> Anyway I am now wondering, what do others do? <BR> Tue, 23 Dec 2014 16:26:52 EST My Daughter Graduates My daughter graduated Summa Cum Laude from Nursing School on Saturday. Lots of blood, sweat and tears went into the last 15 months but she made it. We are so proud of her. Here are some highlights: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My daughter, second from the left and 20 other graduates. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My grandson pinning his mom with her nursing pin. Quite the moment! <... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 04:36:12 EST Last Day Of Nursing School For tthe Daughter Today marks my daughter Lindsay's last day in Nursing School. Congrats to her and to the rest of South College's Nursing Class of 2014! It's been a long, tough 15 months (Accelerated Program) but she met this challenge head on like she does everything else in her life. On Saturday she will graduate Summa Cum Laude. Her dad and I are so very proud of our RN! We can't wait to celebrate with her and Peanut this weekend!! Well done Lindsay! Love you always & forever. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 19:20:49 EST No Fistula For Me! Well, NO Fistula for me! My veins are way too small to support one in either arm. So it looks like an AV graft is in store for me instead. An arteriovenous (AV) graft is a man-made tube that is inserted into your arm to connect an artery to a vein. It will be a bit more intensive, surgery wise, but it will do what they need it to do. It is permanent. Have tube, will travel! <em>334</em> The best part is I can wait until the time I am about to go on Dialysis to get it done. So I will be sit... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 13:45:15 EST Challenges Not looking forward to meeting the Vascular Surgeon this morning who will put in my fistula (Dialysis port) sometime in the near future. I guess it's just another challenge I must face head on! <BR> <BR> My knee is slowly improving so I am thankful for that. <BR> <BR> I'm extra tired today but that is par for the course so will meddle through. <BR> Mon, 15 Dec 2014 06:51:42 EST I Should Come With A Warning Label Well, I had a great time tonight with the husband, Peanut, his mom and baby brother Parker despite my fall at Asheville Mall. Yep, I did it again! Lol I need a warning label. <em>246</em> A BIG Thanks to the EMT that happen to be there at the time and to my daughter for helping me regain my footing. Not an easy task to say the least. Lucky nothing is broken. Although my right knee took the full impact and it is letting me know, it's not at all happy about it. I am now making friends with t... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 20:34:45 EST Medical Test # 1 Your Mammogram is normal! YAY!!! One less think to worry about. Aced my first medial test ordered by the UNC Transplant Team now on to the next. Feeling grateful!!! <BR> Thu, 11 Dec 2014 16:41:20 EST Missions Week 2 I mislogged my weight last week here on Spark. It should have read 259 but instead I just realized I put in 257 but its all good because today I weighed in at 257!!! Down 2 lbs for the week!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I am really starting to feel this program working. Had another class today also. Today's topic: Changing Your Eating Style. Its was a full class, 20 people, men and women and very informative. I met 2 very nice ladies today, one that has been with the program 5.5 years. She is i... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 18:05:47 EST This Week Today I had the first of many medical tests to come my way on my path to a new kidney. My annual Mammography. I will get the results by Friday. Part of this feels scary as I never know if something else will be found. Fear of the unknown, I guess. Than again this is slowly teaching me to put myself first and making me proactive when it comes to my health. Something I have needed for a very long time. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is more Lab work. Oh how I love the idea of that! <em>24</em> I wonder ... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 18:35:27 EST Met With Transplant Team Met with the UNC Transplant Team out of Chapel Hill, NC today. The group of people who will be working on my behalf to hopefully provide me with a new Kidney. They are truly a special group of surgeons, doctors, nurses, coordinators, and social workers. The ones (my team) I met today will stay the course with me throughout. I can't thank them enough for all they plan to do for me. <BR> <BR> Over the next 3 months I will be barraged with medical tests (they plan to throw everything but the k... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 19:19:32 EST Mission Week 1 Had my first weigh in with the Mission Weight Loss Program after my initial enrollment and I have dropped 5 lbs. <em>244</em> A good start! <BR> <BR> Saw the doctor again today. The nurse couldn't find my Blood Pressure and finally gave up after 6 tries. <em>24</em> Uh, that's not a good sign. Everything else was good though so no new worries. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Attended my first Health Class as part of the Mission program today too. Met some really cool people there. Afterward... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 15:18:40 EST Happy December 1st Good Morning Sparkers! It's the first day of a brand new month so make it a good one. I'll be meeting with the UNC Transplant Team out of Chapel Hill this week. This will start off a very busy month of more, yes more doctor appts and medical tests for yours truly. They will outlined what I need to do over the next few months to get myself on the Transplant waiting list. I'm sure it won't be pretty! Than again it will be worth it. Am I having fun yet? My doctors obviously don't think so, eithe... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 06:27:32 EST Not Feeling So Hot Second day of not feeling so good. It began yesterday and today I am so physically tired. it's pathetic! Sleep is fine so I'm not sure what the deal is? I'm sure though the docs will say it's kidney related. Poor thing gets blamed for everything these days. <BR> <BR> Everything is good diet wise though still not walking much. Don't have the strength! <BR> Blood sugar was down this morning to 185. Still high but better. <BR> <BR> If I could shake this blah, tiredness I would be doing good. ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 12:27:05 EST 3 Days In I'm halfway through my third day on this new program and well, I'm tired. Physically, emotionally and mentally tired. Feel like I have run a full marathon each of the last 3 days. <em>522</em> <em>522</em> <em>522</em> I'm guessing my body is trying hard to adjust to the new guidelines and it's not liking it one little bit. Not feeling so hot but I will hang in there. <BR> <BR> First day I had some seriously cravings for a cheeseburger of all things but they have passéd. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 16:02:37 EST A Fresh Approach with a brand new program and outlook. Today marks the start of another new beginning! I am feeling confident with my new team of doctors and dietician from Mission Hospital Weight Loss Management by my side. Thanks to my family and friends for your ontinued love, support and encouragement. You give me strength to continue my fight! <BR> <BR> I met with my new doctor from the Mission Weight Loss Program and I like her. She is an obesity specialist. She is on top of her game, detail oriented a... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 07:00:02 EST T-minus 7 days Well I spoke with the patient navigator for the Missions Weight Loss Management Program and had my first appointment with her this morning. I signed all the documents today and will begin on Wednesday of next week. I am so excited!!! <BR> <BR> I have my first Health & History appt with their doctor that day followed by a meeting with the dietician on Thursday and actually begin the Optfast part of the program on Friday. They gave me the option to begin after Thanksgiving but I turned it down... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 13:29:47 EST Thursday's Tidbits Thanks so much to all those who responded to my blog concerning my daughter. I am pleased to report things are better on that front. In fact she even walked me to my car last night. She said she didn't want me to fall and knew there were rocks on the sidewalk that I might not see (my vision is not great) so she kicked them out of the way for me. She never ceases to surprise me these days. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway I had a wonderful time with the grandson last night. It was a short but... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 08:35:35 EST Restless Heart I had a disagreement with my daughter last night. I called her because I was missing hearing her voice and wanted to know how her week had went. At one point she asked if DH and I would watch our grandson on Wednesday night while she and the boyfriend enjoy a date night. I asked how late they would be out, knowing well that DH becomes enraged whenever he has to be out late. 11 is late for him these days. <em>246</em> I m also aware that he is a creature of comfort and doesn't like any dis... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 06:06:23 EST 2014 NYC Kidney Walk My niece an Goddaughter Melissa walked the NYC Kidney Walk on my behalf yesterday. She had a great time and raised more than $200 to fight Kidney Disease. This meant so much to me and I appreciate her efforts! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The shirt she had made up for the event. <... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 03:37:42 EST Inspiration Just a few of my favorite quotes. Enjoy! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Have an AWRESOME week everyone!! Mon, 3 Nov 2014 07:44:25 EST November 1st Woke up this 1st day of November to 26 degrees and with our first SNOW of the season. Just 2 inches for us but other areas of Western NC saw up to 6 inches this morning and it's still falling. Good God, Winter has come early!! <em>425</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway hope everyone had a pleasant and safe Halloween. We only had 5 Trick or Treaters last night, all pre teens except for my grandson. A bit disappointing. We usually get 40 - 50 kids of all ages but the pas 2 years have been depressing. ... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 10:02:00 EST Wishing Everyone A Happy Halloween!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 31 Oct 2014 08:25:25 EST Scarefest In Honor of Halloween Continuing my Scare fest tonight in honor of one of my favorite holidays, Halloween. Tonight's line up includes The Strangers, and Aliens. Last night I watched a flick called THEM that was crazy scary. Why do I do this to myself every year when undoubting I will be hearing creepy noises all night. Will I survive scaring myself senseless? <em>40</em> I guess I can't help myself. I love Halloween!!! <BR> <BR> Not much happening this week. Bought a ton of candy for the kiddos on Friday. Re... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 18:14:54 EST Week In Review Wednesday Dh and I wen o he Farmer's Markey with our grandson, his mommy and Dan to pick pumpkins out for Halloween. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> One guess as to who went home with the most. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we attended the Grandparents Luncheon at our grandson's school. Had a great time as usual. Afterwards we hit the Book Fair with him and stock... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 10:17:51 EST Monday Update I am fully recovered form this weekend. Caught a 48 hour stomach bug and was miserable all weekend. I hate being sick but from what the docs tell I could be in for a lot more since my immune system is weak because of the kidney disease. Oh well, just another reason tto be as healthy as possible in all I do. I missed my grandson's last game of the football season. He was bummed with his Mema but couldn't' be helped. Told him I would make I up come Basketball Season, up next or buy him a reall... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 13:25:29 EST Optifast and more So I attended the Mission Weight Loss Management/ Optifast Program Information Session last night. It had a very good turnout and I do feel it is a comprehensive, well balanced program which I believe would do me a world of good. Probably something I should have done a long time ago. However I did find out that they may not actually give me the product because of my kidney issue. This would be left up to the doctor in charge and if they can't they say they would become creative with nutritio... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 13:22:28 EST No Sleep for the Weary Well I tried Melatonin Last night for my sleep issue. After doing a bit of research I decided to half a 3 mg pill last night but it didn't help at all. Instead I felt wired all night long. Since my research said to not turn on any lights doing the night I laid in bed all night feeling as if I was hooked up to electrodes that were zapping my body every few seconds. Why I had such an in tense reaction I have no idea but I did not like it, not one little bit. Oh well, still on the look out for ... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 13:41:53 EST Moving forward So UNC's Transplant Team called me to schedule their first look see at me for December 5th. I will take a class on transplants than meet with one of their surgeons at that time and he will schedule the various preliminary testing that I will need to be followed by a final visit to chapel Hill Hospital before I am finally put ... on the list. Moving forward we are, one baby step at a time. Tue, 14 Oct 2014 16:52:11 EST Sleep Relief? Finally my doctor has okayed me to use Melatonin for my sleep issue. After years of suffering I may actually get some much need SLEEP. I am praying it works for me. I have heard some good things about it so hoping I am one of the lucky ones. Will take it tonight and see what happens. <em>30</em> Tue, 14 Oct 2014 09:57:08 EST Enough is Enough I am so tired of not sleeping. I have finally made up my mind to call the doctor lter this am and see what I can take for it. There has got to be something safe AND EFFECTIVE for me and my CKD. Not sleeping more than one or or two hours at best can't be healthy. It's been 3 weeks now on this cycle and I have had ENOUGH! Perhaps I shouldn't have complained about sleeping too much. Ha, where did that go? And it's not like I am getting oh so much done either with these nonstop hours awake. No,... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 02:16:45 EST Thank God for Small Steps Well out of all my goals for the week I only managed to do one. Transfer my files to the NEW desk. WOW GO ME! <em>246</em> Oh well, it's a small step but it is a step nonetheless. <BR> <BR> I am back to eating lunches again too. I have seen the return of my appetite this past week. I am not sure whether this is a good sign or not. I am set to have my first visit with the Optifast people this Thursday. I'm not sure when they will start the actual program for me, that day or the next. Eit... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 10:59:26 EST WORSE NIGHT EVER! WORSE NIGHT EVER = NO SLEEP!! Haven't had a sleepless night in a long time, well at least a few months now anyway. So this has thrown me for a loop. What to do? What to do? Try and stay up all day, praying I can and hopefully go to sleep super early tonight OR Cave in and sleep now??? <BR> <BR> UGH Decisions Decisions. <BR> Tue, 7 Oct 2014 06:47:14 EST