CHALLENGEME4's SparkPeople Blog CHALLENGEME4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Feeling Full I have been on this new journey for@ 2 months and I get really scared when I have the feeling of fullness even though I am eating healthy choices a fear always comes over me when I am full. Yes, I measure my portions and the majority of my meals consist of veggies <BR> But after I finish eating and I feel full I get scared that I overate and will gain some pounds on the scale, I literally find it very difficult to eat my next meals instead of 3 -4 hours later I will wait until my stomach is g... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 15:39:18 EST UPDATE...... 12 days ago I let fear stand in my way of walking the entire mile <BR> Since that time I have walked that mile 2 other times in the daylight which of course made a world of difference. I have also signed up for tbe Susan G Komen breast cancer walk which is 3.5miles so this is now practice for the upcoming event.....very excited hunni and youngest son will walk with me. <BR> Being able to push myself to further limits makes me feel good and feeling good keeps me coming back one day at a time <... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 14:48:16 EST Hunni makes a change Its been a little over a month and my hunni has finally turned over a new leaf. It happened much sooner than I expected but he has thrown out the frying pan in exchange for salads. Unbelievable, I am so proud of him, it really makes a difference when your partner works with you. <BR> <BR> I was buying separate food, or simply throwing away food thatzwas loaded with calories he insisted on cooking. He has decided to try the HCG diet and though I would prefer he lose it by exercise the fact ... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 01:09:23 EST Fear can stop you in you tracks There are so many wonderful things that are happening on my journey but that dysfunctional emotion FEAR still lurks its ugly head to try and knock us down. I went for a walk mostly because I was upset didn't want to argue or eat so I walked. Not paying attention to where I was going or how far(nighttime ) I just kept walking. Then I stopped....realize where I was and how far I was to get backhome and the fact my phone battery was really low, it was getting cold.....i became anxious and afraid... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 13:23:43 EST B.M.I. Off The CHARTS I first started this journey January 2,2013 and joined the gym on that day as you all probably know they do all your measurements and record weight and BMI(body mass index) well last week I was pleased to record I lost inches everywhere but we didn't do the BMI test till today. On January 2 my BMI wasn't readable on their machine. He said that it was sooo high that it was scary...more than 50!Today they tried it again and its now at least readable still too high but at least my number is now ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 15:02:27 EST Saying No when you really want to say Yes Please My favorite weakness is McDonald's and since January 1,2013 I have not had any.....YAY! But my second weakness is soft pastries.....donuts, muffins, cookies...etc <BR> <BR> Keeping that in mind <BR> I was walking through the store in veggie section and along the shelf side is the bread, muffin...etc section. Now one has to wonder why do they set us up like that here I am searching for my veggies and they have fresh muffins so close...smh <BR> <BR> I walk over looking just checking out what ... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 15:05:17 EST Non Scale Victories ; They Do Exist!!!! On my way to the gym today I decided I was going to tell the trainer I wanted to quit working with him mostly because I just felt like quitting altogether and I really didn't feel like working out today and I knew if I stop working with him I knew I could ease my way out of going to the gym period. <BR> <BR> Now you ask why? I am doing well, lost 8lbs, eating healthier and feeling better! <BR> <BR> I don't really know I just felt this morning it wasn't enough <BR> <BR> So I was thinking ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 15:14:22 EST IT Clicked I am not exactly sure when it happened but sometime in the middle of the night a light bulb went off and I realized the concept of eating more to lose weight. My calore range is between 1210-1560 in most cases I don't eat that much but what became clear is I can eat quite a bit within that range if I am eating the right things. <BR> <BR> In the past one meal would consists of more than my calorie range which lead to me being on this journey. Now I make better food choices and often times fin... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 23:06:44 EST ITS TRUE!!!! Well its been said many times the weight comes off the better you feel....its true, to date its 7lbs but I feel much better I think most of the credit goes to exercise and healthier eating changes. I don't the need to sit or sleep as much. After a good workout though I am still a little sore I am able to get other things done around the house besides laying around watching TV <BR> <BR> Its a struggle to get out and go to the gym but feeling better one day at a time is more rew... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 15:58:13 EST 300 plus lbs.....Never Been So today I go to gym and meet with trainer and while I am doind my strength training he ask me how did I feel since our last session.....keeping in mind while I am working with him I rarely say anything. I just do what he says and get it over with. Usually I curse in my car after its over blaming myself for getting this heavy in the first place. But today I decided to tell him I was really sore and he says....You shouldn't still be sore! What? Excuse me good looking made of all muscles but ha... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 16:24:31 EST I can cry If I Wanna! Nobody said this journey would be easy.......Lord knows this is one of the hardest things an obese person has to do. Find the will to go on. You hear time and time again don't give up, keep pushing the pounds will come off, you have other things to be grateful for but at the end of the day when the scale doesn't agree with your efforts.....IT HURTS and I really want to give up. Why work this hard and not be rewarded. I am doing different things why then are the results the same?! Yes I have t... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 12:40:38 EST OTHER Victories I have been working very hard the past 19 days eating healthy(mostly subway), going to the gym, getting up more often when watching TV, playing kinect with my son and tracking my food why then does this scale betray my hard efforts. I use to eat McDonald's at least once a day and turning my back on those hot delicious fries has been difficult but I believe a habit is formed in 2 wks so again why does the scale betray me this week its holding steady like a bad joke. I must find victory somepla... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 21:49:30 EST As Tears Roll Down My Face I must first start off by saying my hunni loves me very much this I know.......but at 4am he comes home from work waking me with "baby I got something for you," I turn over groggy cuz I must wake in a couple of hours for the gym(he knows this) and to my surprise <em>2</em> he hands me a Hot to go container from Denny' I am sure you see the look on my face <em>24</em> I say as nicely as I can muster up"What is this?"! He says baby I know you haven't been eating much late... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 15:41:27 EST tracking everything I do! I use to think it was ridiculous and a total waste of time to track my food and definitely unnecessary to track my activity but with the new year comes new changes(change is usually good) so I now track my food and workouts. In the beginning I was annoyed but as I am learning the accountability is actually working! Seeing it on paper that I just enjoyed a double cheese buger with extra mayo, honey mustard and a large frie just doesn't look good not to mention what it looks like on my body. Th... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 12:48:07 EST