CHAIRUL's SparkPeople Blog CHAIRUL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community HERE I AM! This is a must do.Got on the scales this morning and although I always walk EVERY DAY I am back up to 180! NOOOOOOOOO! This is unacceptable. I will make proper food choices and I started this morning. <BR> Off running! (This is a blog to me,myself-but I have no problem with ALL THE SUPPORT I CAN GET!!!!) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 2 years ago when this picture was taken,I was at about 165....back down I must go! Wed, 9 May 2012 10:34:17 EST Here I am! <img src=""> <BR> I am still a'sparkin'.....just not taking too much time to be online as life is happening in the real world. <BR> Two months ago I made a goal of running the 4 on the 4th race here in Bridgton. I am walking and running every day and feeling pretty strong. I am very committed to doing this,have already registered for the race. I must run it at a bit faster than 8 mph in order to break my record time of 32 minutes. I want ... Fri, 10 Jun 2011 21:04:54 EST I'm Feeling It! I am totally believing that this is the time I can do it-get to my goal and stay there. The dress rehearsal is so over. Even if I flub up a little-from now on,it's "Love Thyself" time! My life is passing me by and I don't want to spend the last bits of it burdened by overweight. <BR> I seem to have SO much energy for exercise this past week-like some weird switch flipped on wide open. <BR> I'm psyched. <BR> Just putting this out there....mostly for ME!!!!!!! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpe... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 21:44:52 EST Hmmmmmmmm.....something interesting is going on.... <img src=""> <BR> OK I'm not going to question it or confront it but something inside me is definitely on the mend attitude-wise. <BR> I feel great. Heavy but great. I haven't felt worth anything for so long even though I intellectually know I AM worth a's that emotional deficit I was immersed in. It's gone....don't know why but I don't much care. I just got through dancing my brains out in my studio for half an hour,passed up to... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 19:00:31 EST Here I am! Just finished my very delicious chicken,brown rice and peas along with a nice tossed salad. Feeling better every day and wondering why oh why do I not stick to this way of eating when it makes me feel so much better???!!!! <BR> Not walking very much yet but it will come. <BR> I know this blog is not particularly interesting but it's for me,mostly,as I think checking in verbally everyday helps me keep on ytack-even if it does make boring reading from time to time. <BR> On to the next day! Hoor... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 18:23:03 EST Second Day <img src="">Here I am but briefly. I had another good day but went visiting a few family and friends to deliver some belated Christmas cheer. I went out to eat with my hubby and my daughter but did very well if you care to check my meal record. I didn't walk enough but my time was limited. I plan to do an extra mile or so tomorrow. Anyway,it's late and I'm all ready for bed in my new footie p'j's my daughter got me for Christmas. <BR> Nig... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 22:18:14 EST The First Day of the Rest of My Life cliche is that????? But that's how I am feeling. I don't feel very chatty at the moment,but I wanted to at least acknowledge that I am back in the Spark saddle again. It's New Years' Day and I am doing very well today-I'm purging my system of the garbage I've been consuming all this past week, cookies,pie,cheese cake,chips and dip,nuts til they fell out of my ears,all the no-no's I've indulged in without a second thought to my growing waistline. It was ever thus for me. <BR> Time to... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 20:10:19 EST New Week Hello Fellow Sparklers, <BR> I had a very busy weekend and with the upcoming holiday season,it's only going to get busier. But never fear,I am doing just fine in the eating moderately and exercising departments. I ate out at my son Roland's new restuarent last night-a superb experience. But I did not over-indulge. I went to a grandaughter's 4th birthday yesterday,and although I baked and decorated her Little Mermaid cake,I did not eat a bite. I'm optimistic,the best way for me to be. <BR> I c... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 19:32:56 EST Another Day Almost Put to Bed Good Evening Fellow Sparklers! <BR> It's blustery cold out there and my house is so cozy/toasty that it was a chore to go down the street a few minutes ago and get a gallon of milk. But we needed it for the am so out into the brisk air I went. There is a big,round cold full moon up there,and the wind is gusty.So nice to be home,and up in my warm studio. <BR> I've had a productive day,in more ways than one. I ate well,exercised adequately,and finished drawing a design for my work. It seems tha... Fri, 19 Nov 2010 19:08:43 EST Day Four Hey! It's been a bright sunny beautiful November day so far and although I didn't want to write the Great American novel today,I wanted to at least check in. I have consistently made good food choices these past 4 days. Tonight I actually get to eat supper with my husband as he has no lodge event tonight! Yay! We'll be having baked haddock (it was cheaper than the salmon I love) and baked sweet potatos with peas. MMM MMMM Good! Nutritious and filling! I may even put another mile behind me thi... Thu, 18 Nov 2010 14:14:04 EST Third Day <img src="">Hello All! <BR> Here I am after a morning of walking,chit-chatting and generally not getting down to business.Right after I do this blog,I intend to park myself at my drawing table for a few significant hours. I've been fluffing off way too long. <BR> The walk I took at 8 this morning was in a downpour. I thought about using the treadmill,or waiting to see if it would stop(it has). I decided to put on my raincoat and tough it ... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 13:23:06 EST Second Day 11/16/2010 Here I am,friends rallying around to offer me support as I gather some good life style momentum. I had a great day today,walked about 4 miles,made some squash soup for supper-nice and low cal,with some fat free sugar free pudding for dessert. <BR> I'm going to take this one day at a time because for me,food is like alcohol,it's a minute to minute battle sometimes. I've done it before and I know I can do this. <BR> In past years I have cheated myself by putting off dieting and exercising until... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 18:31:05 EST Here I am again...TA DA!!!!!11/15/2010 Yes here I am again....never say die is my motto...always has been since I was like fourteen and thought I was a cow with a pony tail. At least I have never given up..... <BR> I stepped on the scales this morning and had my regularly schedualed heartattack when I realized I had gained back just about every pound I had previously said good bye to in the past year or so. I pretty much already knew that it would be bad. I could feel it as I bent over to pick up my sneakers,the extra thick ripple... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 19:50:38 EST 1 September 2010 Here I am-finally checking in at Spark People after a very long hiatus. I bit the bullet and weighed in Monday to find I had gained back 11 pounds over the past 2 months. My attitude is not like it was in years past though. I am gratified to learn that I cannot allow myself a complete abandon of disipline and good choices indefinately. I think it has something to do with the fact that I'm not 25 anymore and if I don't resolve my weight issues soon I won't ever live free of them in this life. ... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 18:57:38 EST Another cake....another cake.... Hi All, <BR> Nope-not Fat Smashing today but I'll be all over it come Tuesday! One more day of freedom and then it's nose to the grindstone time again. I'm ok with that. I'm pretty happy actually. The wedding was beautiful yesterday-cake arrived safely after an hour+drive in 90 degree heat.I danced hard and boogied some GREAT FOOD off,then we drove home at 9:30 pm with my car's top down. Does it get any better than this? Nope! I think not! And I looked pretty darn cute in my new dress-size 10... Sun, 4 Jul 2010 18:42:12 EST Limbo Days Hello All you fellow Sparkies out there! Long time-no hear from me!!! <BR> I had a three day mini-vacation at one of my best friend's homes up in St.Jacques,New Brunswick,Canada. What a beautiful place! I love it there. I had a wonderful time and my friend was so accomodating with the food she served me. Usually she bakes cake when I come,and makes home made pizza that is to die for but this time I ate very carefully and she and her husband were wonderful. I needed the nurturing. <BR> I weigh... Thu, 1 Jul 2010 21:53:24 EST Day 4 <img src="">Just a quick one as I'm hot and pooped. I ran around all day-had company-didn't get to walk til 7 pm-and did a wedding cake that I have to deliver at 9 am tomorrow. <BR> I did fine the past 4 days and I will continue because I REALLY REALLY want to do it this time-NO CAKE FOR ME! Sat, 26 Jun 2010 22:24:31 EST Day 2 Yes I'm starting over at the first week of the Extreme Fat Smash. <BR> You know,people can get pretty complacent....that or just plain cocky. I thought I had it all together. I had been doing so well for over 60 days that I thought it was now a deeply ingrained habit to choose the right foods in the right quantities. But I learned Sunday and then Big Time on Tuesday that the long habitual lifetime abuse of food runs much deeper than a mere 2 months in someone's life. <BR> Tuesday evening I ha... Thu, 24 Jun 2010 22:14:11 EST Day 63 Yes I missed Sparking yesterday. It was a crazy,busy noisy and wonderful day altogether. We had my step-daughter's graduation party at our house-a cook out with all kinds of great food...and woe is me-after 9 weeks of perfect healthy eating-I blew the day! But not the bigger picture...I'm right back on track today because I DO NOT WANT ANY BACK-SLIDING THIS TIME! <BR> I didn't track my food for yesterday-it would be in the 2000 calorie <img src=" Mon, 21 Jun 2010 18:42:08 EST Day 61 It's really really been a long hectic day and also 90 and humid....I'm ready to hit the hay right now but first I have to make a Congratulations Kim sign for the party tomorrow. <BR> Hopefully I will have more time to visit Spark Land tomorrow!!! Sat, 19 Jun 2010 22:35:11 EST Day 60! Wowee WOW! Day 60! How about that?! <BR> I figured out that in order to eat the correct things on the Fat Smash diet one needs to get to the grocery store and buy the correct things....I had a hard time today because I need to go to the store and I had no time! <BR> Tomorrow will be an insanely busy day too as the big party here is on Sunday and I have to do a million things before it plus go see my father tomorrow afternoon. I won't be able to see him on Father's Day. I'll be glad when this ... Fri, 18 Jun 2010 21:39:54 EST Day 59 Hi All! <BR> I had a blast today. I went with my husband Chris to give away bicycles to elementary students who read a lot of's a program that the Masons thought up-how to get kids to read more. They read books,and get to put their names in a jar,then one gets picked and that person wins a new bike and helmet. Chris,as the Lodge Master,got to make the presentations himself. He's a kind of shy guy and is not very comfortable speaking in front of two or more people at a time but he d... Thu, 17 Jun 2010 21:09:49 EST Day 58! On I go...with the virtual cheers from my fellow Sparklers! <BR> I walked late and not as far as I usually do because my eldest son came to visit me and have supper,then we got into a long,convoluted spiritual discussion and before we knew it,the evening was getting late. He had to drive an hour to get home and I went for a short mile or so walk in the dusk. <BR> But all in all,it was a good day and I stuck to the food plan. One more week after this one and then I get a short break.That week ... Wed, 16 Jun 2010 21:49:45 EST Day 57! It's been an extra busy day today. I painted my back deck and railings to make it pretty for our graduation party this coming Sunday. I started painting the front porch and was standing on the top wooden stair and it was so rotten I fell through it. Not to worry though,I wasn't hurt-and my lovely hublet made me a new top stair as soon as he was finished eating his supper like the good boy he is. I'll paint that tomorrow. <BR> Now on to the good news-I weighed myself yesterday and was disappoi... Tue, 15 Jun 2010 22:33:52 EST Day 56! This will be a short one. I am STARVING TODAY!!! I'm having a hard time because my menu is so limited!!! But I will perservere....tomorrow is a new day! <BR> See you then! Mon, 14 Jun 2010 20:31:27 EST Day 55!!! Hello All!!!!! <BR> I made it through the night at Project Graduation without eating ONE SINGLE THING!!!! I drank two bottles of water in the 7 hours I was there drawing. I sat and drew nonstop from 9:30 pm last night til 5am this morning! I had a lot of fun but towards the last couple of hours I was wearing out big time. The kids were great and I think they had a wonderful night. I kept smelling tempting whiffs of so much free food laid out on tables in the cafeteria which was the next room ... Sun, 13 Jun 2010 19:02:23 EST Day 54 My day is a little topsy-turvy. I just ate Cheerios for the second time today because I didn't want to cook. I'm leaving in about an hour to go draw caricatures at the local high school for Project Grad. It's a large gathering of high school kids who are graduating,and lots of teachers and the school hosts a big all night party for them,with lots of food and entertainment. I'm some of the entertainment. I get to draw as many of the kids as I can squeeze into 4-5 hours. Last year I drew about ... Sat, 12 Jun 2010 19:59:26 EST Day 53 I'm very full of lima beans as one could see if they checked my daily food log. I went a little high in the calorie department but I'm thinking that's ok as I have been low a lot. I'm all alone tonight....son moved out and husband is at a Mason event til pretty late tonight, just me and my kitty Sonja! And that's fine with me.... <BR> So off I go to watch something lame on tv and eat my low cal pudding! <BR> Hope it's a great evening for all of you out there,my wonderful fellow Sparklers!!!! ... Fri, 11 Jun 2010 18:07:09 EST Day 52! Rain Rain ALL DAY LONG! My old sneakers are wet!!!! But I had another great day and I cannot believe how many days I have managed to remain on task! It's been a long,long time since I kept at it for over even a week or two. <BR> I smell victory!!! Someone said today that my face looked thinner. It was chilly today so I was wearing my husband's Old Navy fleece shirt(he's 6'2" and 225 pounds so it's a BIG one!) so they couldn't see my tummy and butt are thinner too,but I thanked them just the s... Thu, 10 Jun 2010 20:33:25 EST Day 51 I walked in my new sneakers and after 2 miles,they were killing the backs of my heels! I think they need breaking in. So I guess it's back to my old smelly ones tomorrow to give the blisters a chance to heal. Oh well. They (the new ones)felt pretty good on the first mile! <BR> I ate a little lightly again today-I think I may need to go drink a glass of milk. <BR> My baby just moved out today-Sean,my 22 year old son. He moved into an apartment of a buddy's here in town and seems pretty excited... Wed, 9 Jun 2010 18:38:16 EST Day 50! Wow!!!! Day 50! I can hardly believe it!!!!! <BR> Well it's late,I just finished watching my Britcoms on public television and it's after 11 so this will be brief. I walked over 5 miles today-it was simply gorgeous out. I finally broke down and bought myself a new pair of sneakers today-I'll try them out in the morning. The old ones were pretty worn-lots of miles on them. <BR> My calories were a little light today but since I had been previously overdoing my portion sizes I'm not going to wor... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 23:15:12 EST Day 49! I lost another pound but I think I could do better if I keep a rein on my portion size. I'm not pigging out or anything like that. I just don't measure as carefully as I was at the beginning. I'm thinking my portions are growing,but I'm still doing great. One by one-these pounds are history....soon I'll be at the 20 pounds off mark. <BR> I'm getting very used to living on brown rice with all the extras(veggies,fruit,meats etc) as condiments.... <BR> I feel very good,and my clothes are sure sw... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 19:31:09 EST Day 48 Well I missed yesterday's opportunity to blog but I didn't over eat or not exercise. It was just a really busy day. I made two sheet cakes,delivered them then went to the Seadogs baseball game in Portland with Chris. We had a lot of fun. The only thing I got to eat was popcorn though, and I had to watch Chris scarfing down a quart of french fries. I lost count of the people walking by with big plates of fried dough and pizza. It was kind of sad to see how many people were there who were very ... Sun, 6 Jun 2010 19:05:02 EST Day 46 Just came home from taking a dip in the lake with Chris. The water was cool but very nice,after the humidity here in Bridgton today. I swam out to the floating dock and back. It doesn't take very much effort but I'm thinking since it was only last week that I started swimming for the season,I don't want to do too much too quickly. <BR> Staying right on track with the food amounts,hopefully the weight will take a serious dive on my next weigh in day. Eating supper at 9 last night after my step... Fri, 4 Jun 2010 20:51:59 EST Day 45 It was a weird kind of day....I ate well but I feel like I ate too much. I'm not sticking as closely to the portions that are stated in the Extreme Fat Smash diet...I think I need to start measuring again because I'm getting sloppy. I walked 4 miles and am thinking about going for a swim. <BR> I think part of my problem is that I stayed up way too late last night and didn't get enough sleep. It's early to bed with me tonight,I'm thinking. <BR> On to tomorrow...I love ya-TOMORROW! Wed, 2 Jun 2010 18:55:40 EST Day 44 Here I am...Little Jumping Cheryl...or should I say "Shrinking" Cheryl????? <BR> Doing great still. I walked in the rain today and didn't even mind. I am still so motivated to do this and I don't see anything stopping me THIS TIME!!!! YAY! It's ABOUT TIME! I've been struggling for years! I really have some serious confidence that I will do this-THIS time! 2 and a half more weeks and I will have completed 3 rotations of the diet...I think I miscalculated the weeks. I thought I was going to be ... Tue, 1 Jun 2010 22:17:52 EST Day 43 Just a quickie tonight....we had a wonderful couple of days,with cook outs,planting blueberry bushes and visiting family. Even though it felt like a Sunday all day long because my husband was home for the Memorial Day holiday, I still weighed in this morning and lo and behold-I'd lost another pound! So I feel I am making consistent head way. Since Census is pretty much over,I'll be able to get my walking in much more easily,and then just watch these pounds roll off!!!!! <BR> See you tomorrow!... Mon, 31 May 2010 21:18:10 EST Day 42 What a great day! I had a wonderful visit with my precious grandson and got to spend some time with my extended family at a cookout. I ate two plates of tossed salad with very little Italian dressing and a hamburger without a bun.No pound cake,no pasta salad,no chips.We put the top down on my little Sebring because it was such a perfect day. I got a new bathing suit after we left my sister's and I got home and tried it on. I LOVE IT! It's a 12 and fits perfectly,not snug at all. Very comforta... Sun, 30 May 2010 22:44:38 EST Day 41 This will be a brief blog because I have the priv <img src="">ledge of having my grand son Ethan over to my house for the night! <BR> So it's off to read him a few bedtime stories before he goes to bed. we've had a great day,planting flowers and going swimming at the lake and having some amazing conversations...I really miss little people some times. So instead of sitting here on the computer,I'm off with my little "E"! <BR> BY the way-I h... Sat, 29 May 2010 20:51:56 EST Day 40! Day 40...hmmmmm....doesn't sound THAT impressive but when I think of all the miles I have walked, all the mini-meals I've had,all the self restraint I've exhibited every day this past month plus- I guess it IS quite a feat. One more day to THIS week and I start my third and last rotation of the Extreme Fat Smash. I've learned that when completely committed I can stick with a strict plan. I've learned that I CAN loose this weight-having lost a whopping 15 pounds already and maybe a pound or tw... Fri, 28 May 2010 20:28:07 EST Day 39 Well it was just a beautiful day...couldn't have been prettier or more comfortable. It would have been nice to have enjoyed a day in my yard with my easel, but I still loved it-census work and all. I took my walk late,after 8 then I went to the lake and had a quick cool dip watching the ducks splashing a little ways down the beach. I am so lucky to live in such a gorgeous place. All I can smell when I stick my face out the back door is my lilac bushes....heavenly! <BR> I slid into a skinny pa... Thu, 27 May 2010 21:17:44 EST Day 38 Still on track although I feel like I was munching all day. I drank about a gallon of water too because it was so hot. I'm really hoping the census work will be over by Friday as I am just itching to get back to the drawing board. <BR> I think this style of eating is becoming a habit-hopefully for life. The heat makes it really hard to walk-I did it at 7:30 this morning and it was already hot and humid then! Tonight it feels like there is some relief in the air. Cool breeze. I went swimming a... Wed, 26 May 2010 21:29:09 EST Day 37 It is much too hot to linger here in the third floor in my studio so I'm just popping in to say "I'm DOING GREAT!!!" <BR> I went swimming today and the water was BEAUTIFUL!!!! And Chris went in too!Whew hoooo!!!!! Summer is officially here for me!!!! Tue, 25 May 2010 22:38:27 EST Day 36 It's like 90 up here in my studio and the sweat is dripping off me as I type so this will be a really quick blog. <BR> I LOST ANOTHER 2 POUNDS!!!!!! YAHOOOOO!!!!!! That makes 15 from the day I started 5 weeks ago. I have to say that although it's a tough regime....lots of exercise and few food choices,I am absolutely loving the results!!!!!! <BR> My husband says my butt looks smaller already!!!! <BR> After I get down to where I want, I think I will always keep the basics of this diet in mind ... Mon, 24 May 2010 20:38:49 EST Day 35 End of 5th week and starting week 6!!! Wow! What a ride it's been so far. 4 more weeks and I can step back for a moment and see where I am and what more will need to be done on this journey to goal weight. I tried to go swimming today in the near by lake and only got to my waist. It was frigid but a couple other nuts were in there swimming with their dogs. I so wanted to get in but I didn't want to initiate a heart attack. I splashed water over my face and arms then tottered out to the beach ... Sun, 23 May 2010 20:02:03 EST Day 34 Just quickly checking in....I still need to walk but I have 2 sheet cakes in the oven right now. As soon as they are out and on racks I plan to do a quick 3 mile jaunt around town. <BR> It's been kind of a lazy day,watched 2 movies this afternoon, and practically fell asleep during them. I guess rushing around all week doing the census is really tiring me out. It was nice to vege today. <BR> I'll be back,Fellow Sparklers! <BR> Keeping an eye(or two) on the goal but enjoying the ride! <img src... Sat, 22 May 2010 19:27:24 EST Day 33 Whew! Long week this week but I clocked in a full 40 hours of work and still managed to do laundry, go grocery shopping, make meals,scrub toilets,do dishes and also exercise as much as possible and eat PROPERLY every day! Proud of myself. I think I have some serious momentum going. Week 5 almost in the bag and I'm halfway through my "challenge" of a full 9 weeks of the Extreme Fat Smash. I have to bake cake again tomorrow for the church group but I know I won't take one lick of the frosting. ... Fri, 21 May 2010 19:52:09 EST Day 32 Too pooped to write much tonight but just wanted to report in so everyone knows I'm still smashing fat like gangbusters! Thu, 20 May 2010 21:19:06 EST Day 31!!!'s 8 am and I am about ready to start the new day but before I dash off,I wanted to blog an update. I was a bit naughty this morning at 7. No, I didn't eat a donut or not exercise...I stepped on the scale on a non-weigh in day. I was a little disappointed this past Monday that I had only dropped one pound, disappointed but certainly not disheartened. When I got up this morning, rainy day and all, I felt great. Slimmer. Lighter. I just knew I was down more, so I climbed on to my friendl... Wed, 19 May 2010 08:12:06 EST Day 30! A whole month's worth of good behavior! I'm doing great but it's very late and I need my rest so I can work another 12 hour day tomorrow! I don't know how I am doing it but I'm managing to get the walking in and the proper eating too! <BR> So good night to all my fellow struggling Sparklers. See you tomorrow! <em>306</em> Tue, 18 May 2010 23:20:09 EST