CHAINEDFAYE's SparkPeople Blog CHAINEDFAYE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Post meltdown Life has blessed me with so many wonderful loved ones. Today when I had a bit of a wedding panic attack brought on by a week long headache (which I probably need to go see a dr about again), they calmed me down. Actually I don't think they really know they did just talking with them helped me. That's why moms and dads and fiances are so awesome. <BR> <BR> I can't wait for the day to get here whenever it ends up being! Now back to getting skinny! Tomorrow morning I think I might even have a ... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 01:15:30 EST So much to do!!! Ahhhh! Before I was engaged, I used to spend so many hours on the Knot browsing pictures and dreaming away. Now that its here, it seems way too overwhelming (and more like work than fun! ). That and I just really want to enjoy this time together with FH before getting pulled into wedding planning. But I'm so eager to be his wife and if we really are getting married in May then we can't waste too much time. <BR> <BR> But there are soo many cultural/religious things I have absolutely no idea about. N... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 14:10:25 EST "I DO" Skinny Guess what that means?!? <BR> <BR> Yup! I just got engaged! <BR> <BR> And I have to say ever since then I've been super motivated to get back on track. I'm hoping for May which motivates me even more since I don't have much time to get cracking. I think my goal is to lose 25 pounds before then as its very doable but am really hoping for more. 'Cause you all know what happens after marriage and I want to make sure I'm super healthy for mommyhood when it comes a knocking. <BR> <BR> Super e... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 15:17:41 EST LASIK GOAL ACHIEVED! So I had my LASIK surgery. Originally, it was a goal for reaching 185 but I had to switch it with my 200 goal. I'd already set aside the money in my flexible spending account for this year and didn't want to risk losing it. I was getting very close to the goal so I went ahead and scheduled the surgery. I did reach my goal a week or so before surgery but have since gained a little bit back. <BR> <BR> It's been almost 3 weeks since and I have to save I absolutely love it. My face seems kinda ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 17:19:24 EST Weight loss math So todays featured sparkblog was about a test you can take to determine your resting metabolic rate (RMR) in oder to figure out how many calories a day your body needs and how many you need to cut back. I was thinking how handy would that be until I realized there are a ton of calculators out there that essentially do the same thing. (I used ) Based on weight and height my RMR is 1,682. <BR> <BR> But that's just resting. Add in an activity level factor and you get: <BR>... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 14:13:00 EST Lessons from Ramadan With my second Ramadan practically over, I feel as though I did so much better this year (It helps when you know the rules too, haha!). Last year seemed like such a challenge. This year it seemed...cleansing. <BR> <BR> I wasn't able to fast for a few days this past weekend though. It felt weird to be able to eat again, I mostly snacked and then still had the larger meal. But I noticed during the days when I would reach for a snack, that I stopped myself first and asked "Wait. Are you really... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 19:22:49 EST The problem with Doctors So yesterday I went to the doctor to get my trigger point injections. It had been a year since I needed them last which I thought was pretty good, especially considering the last time it had only been 8 months in between shots. <BR> <BR> So the doctor asked if they worlked last time and I replied oh yes its been awhile since I needed them and I think since I've been more active and losing weight that has helped with the pain too. And he goes: <BR> <BR> "Well it looks like you've only lost ... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 14:55:04 EST Progress Pictures!! I finally had mom take another set of pictures of me and put them together with the old ones. It had been over a year since I'd taken the first set. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> About 230-235 versus about 210. <BR> <BR> I can't believe the difference! <BR> <BR> And I can't ... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 13:38:07 EST Beware the Lobster & June Goals Owwwww. I went sea fishing over the weekend and I'm sooo sunburned. Just my arms and chest I covered everything else up pretty well with sunblock. I just forgot I hadn't covered those areas when I took my jacket off. With no mirrors on board, by the time BF mentioned I looked a little pink it was too too late. I have learned my lesson and am insisting before we do anymore outside activities that I must be equipped with a lightweight long sleeved high necked undershirt. They have clothing now ... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 16:07:22 EST Booyah baby! For maybe the first time since I started this weight loss journey two years ago, for the past week or so I can honestly say I feel like I've given a good go of it. I'm hitting it from a three angled approach: diet, exercise, and water. Before I had always been a bit wishy washy with one or the other, never fuly dedicated to all three. But not this time. And I have to admit it feels amazingly good when I check my sparksumary calendar at the end of the day and see that star next to my calories ... Thu, 10 May 2012 14:28:48 EST New finish lines School's almost over with! Woohoo! Just a few more assignments to turn in. I walk next Saturday so I've been busy trying to finish some projects and tidying up around the house because after the ceremony I will be having friends and family over for a bbq. This will be the first time that his family will be coming to my house so I feel like it needs to be spotless. It will also be the first time my family and his will be meeting each other. I hope everything goes well. <BR> <BR> I somehow ma... Tue, 8 May 2012 15:08:58 EST My rug The rug was pulled out from underneath me today. A week ago I received news that I was eligible for for the honor society for my Master's degree. I was ecstatic as I didn't think I qualified...I only had a 3.91 GPA. I emailed the adviser back to confirm. All was well so I started telling me and ordered the extra graduation regalia. <BR> <BR> Today while picking up my cap and gown, I asked the director if there was anything else I needed to do. She worked with me to email the person that han... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 03:00:30 EST 2013 Tinkerbell Half Marathon So I'm signing up for the 2013 Tinkerbell Half Marathon at Disneyland next year as soon as registration opens. It sounds crazy even to me but its something I really want to do if only for the medal. I'm sure it will be great fun either way. And if you do another half marathon or marathon at Dinsey World in the same calender year you get a special Coast-to-Coast Medal, which would be very cool. <BR> <BR> It's in January so I have plenty of time to train and get ready for. I'm very disappoint... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 17:01:30 EST "You've lost weight!" I got an IM from a coworker this morning with that message. <BR> <BR> Followed by "And its super noticeable." <BR> <BR> The funny thing is I've heard it from a couple other people too. But somehow it didn't really click . I have to wonder if was because they were women and some little part of my mind thought well maybe they were saying it just to be nice. Or perhaps its because this coworker happens to be very into fitness and for him to notice that I've lost weight somehow means more beca... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 13:48:18 EST Onederland, here I come! There's a zero on my scale. And it ain't the last number either. Woot! This is my lowest weight in maybe 5 or so years? <BR> <BR> I'm starting to prepare for my second annual 5k in March, and I'm rather afraid that I won't beat my previous time. It feels like I haven't achieved anything this past year. So I took a look back this morning to see where I was at the beginning of last year. <BR> <BR> I've lost 15 pounds since last year! Booyah! And so I looked a year before that. Bam. Another 1... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 14:30:26 EST I ate a whole bag.... ....of apples last night! The presliced ones...yeah I know they are ridiculously overpriced but I swear they taste better when someone else cuts them up. And I'm more likely to grab them than a whole apple so it's worth it. <BR> <BR> I think it probably made me go over my calorie range for the day but I don't care. It was healthy and significantly better than the overwhelming urge to hit a fast food place on the way home from class when they finally let us out at 10. <BR> <BR> I also made... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 12:02:17 EST Its a groogy bleh day I'm feeling a little down today, I think mostly because I'm exhausted and a little overwhelmed with everything that needs to get done. I didn't sleep very well the past few days because I forgot my sleepy meds at home when I went to my bf's. I tried to go without but after 2 hours of tossing and turning (and waking him up every time I did, he's such a light sleeper) I felt guilty and took some of my old sleepy meds that I still had stashed there. It helped me sleep but always left me feeling ... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 17:52:36 EST December Goal - the happy dance! So last month's goals = epically failed. That's ok. This month I'm more determined than ever. <BR> <BR> Goal 1: I want a shiny gold star on 25/31 days in December. That's 6 days of allowing myself to go over my calorie allowance (and a horrifying 20% of the month which will probably yield a 100% increase in sanity. Worth it? Oh yes). <BR> <BR> Goal 2: Do the happy dance everyday for five minutes. (Directions: Enter empty room. Shake booty with wild abandon while only allowing yourself to ... Fri, 2 Dec 2011 18:02:11 EST Surgery date set Well...I had my LASIK consult and it turns out I'm a good candidate for it (yay!). Although I haven't actually scheduled it yet, I've set the date in my mind - March 9th. I will have a two week break from classes so I won't have to worry about spending hours in front of a computer typing up papers or reading textbooks. <BR> <BR> I'm just hitting 13 pounds to oneland and my first reward of teeth whitening and after that another 15 pounds to the LASIK reward. 28 pounds in a little over 3 mont... Thu, 1 Dec 2011 18:53:18 EST Dear Self - "The pursuit of perfection often impedes improvement. " - George F. Will <BR> <BR> Remember this next time you don't meet a goal and are beating yourself up. <BR> <BR> Love, <BR> me <BR> <BR> P.S. But don't use it as an excuse not to even try. <BR> <BR> Tue, 8 Nov 2011 16:51:27 EST November Goals I've not been doing this for a long time and I need to start again. <BR> <BR> Goal #1: Earn the consistency trophy. <BR> Goal #2: Work on tracking food regularly. <BR> Goal #3: Workout 3 times a week. <BR> <BR> As much as I woud like to, I'm not going to make a weightloss goal. I think working on the building blocks and just being mindful is more important right now, and hopefully might even result in some loss anyway. Tue, 8 Nov 2011 15:55:44 EST Time for New Rewards At the beginning of the year when I really started this journey, I came up with some rewards to help me along. Except they didn't. At all. They were too small, things that if I really wanted to I could live without. It didn't motivate me enough to put in the time and effort to really drop the weight. So out with the old and in with the and rewards! <BR> <BR> 200: Teeth whitened <BR> <BR> 185: LASIK <BR> <BR> 150: Laser Hair Removal <BR> <BR> I know they are big ones but I've bee... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 18:03:59 EST An new day has begun Alright. It's time to stop playing around. I'm ignoring the excuses and starting another streak. No, maybe now isn't the best of times to do it what with overtime and classes. <BR> <BR> But if not now, when? Ever? <BR> <BR> And note to self: You don't have to be perfect. Maybe you don't make it to 100. The world is not going to end. <BR> <BR> At least you started. <BR> <BR> Stop letting the excuses win. Tue, 13 Sep 2011 02:07:49 EST Do you remember... the time *breaks out in Michael Jackson lyrics* <BR> <BR> Kidding! But I wanted to remind myself of why I want to get healthier: <BR> <BR> Do you remember how out of breathe you were after climbing 3 flights of stairs with all your coworkers? <BR> <BR> Do you remember the feeling of crossing the finishing line of your first 5k? <BR> <BR> Do you remember walking through all those fashionable nice stores with him and longing, wishing to look at the clothes but knowing nothing here would eve... Mon, 15 Aug 2011 20:05:22 EST Going it alone - forgoing medication I have recently made a difficult decision. I am going to stop taking the medication I've been on for the last 6 years to help me with PTSD after my rape and abusive relationship to help ease the nightmares and anxiety. I have to say I'm completely terrified - I've been on it so long that I simply CANNOT sleep without them. Not a wink. So stopping means possible days of little to no sleep for who knows how long. But I'm willing to do it. Why? <BR> <BR> Because several months ago after working... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 18:38:24 EST March Fail I'm not sure what happened but March has been horrible. I've completely lost all motivation. I've been exhausted and achy and grumpy. I don't wanna anymore *insert temper tantrum here* <BR> <BR> I haven't been tracking my food. Or working out regularly. Or even logging into SP everyday. I'm probably not gonna even earn my 500 SP trophy this month. <BR> <BR> The only good thing is that I haven't gained back much weight. (+1 pound or so). I think though that if I had gained back some more, ... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 13:44:24 EST 5k report So I completed my 5k on Saturday! My official finish time was 51:45 which was two minutes faster than my trial run and I even walked most of the way! My leg hurt so bad, I think I'm gonna have to make an appt with the dr to have her look at it. <BR> <BR> There's another one in April so I'm aiming for under 50 minutes. If I actually work at the training this time, I know I will make it. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="http://phot... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 16:06:15 EST February Recap and March Goals So I don't think February went too horribly bad, numbers wise anyway. I finally started to lose some weight and inches and achieved all three trophies. I tracked my food everyday but only stayed within my range 8/28 days. Not that great. To be fair though, most of the time I was within 100-200 calories of my upper limit. <BR> <BR> But it feels like February was the worst month so far. I've been so drained and achy that some days I didn't work out at all (which I allowed as long as I made up ... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 22:11:55 EST Libra's Fitness Horoscope So another Sparker posted their fitness horoscope and curious, I had to go find mine. <BR> <BR> ~*~*~*~*~ <BR> <BR> Fitness for Libra <BR> <BR> Your Ruling Planet: Libra is ruled by seductive, adorable Venus, planet of beauty, love, fun, and comfort. <BR> <BR> The part of the body your sign rules: The lower back. <BR> <BR> Your Metabolism: Low. <BR> <BR> Your Health Profile: <BR> <BR> Few signs are as well groomed and polished as yours. Libra generally takes good care of his or he... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 17:51:04 EST 5k Trial Run Last night I did my first 5k ever. I followed SP's pan and walked for 3 minutes then ran for 2. after about the 30 minute mark though I just couldn't do it anymore so I walked for most of the rest of the time. Here are my times: <BR> <BR> 17:49 - 1 mile <BR> 34:22 - 2 miles <BR> 54:37 - 3.11 miles <BR> <BR> I'm not that pleased with the time. I think I will try to do the 5k once a week from now until the actual 5k just to get a feel for how fast I'm coming along. My next goal will be to get... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 12:00:22 EST 5K, inches, and scales oh my! I just signed up for a 5k on March 12th. To be honest, I'm feeling a little panicky that its so close as I haven't been working too hard on the C25K for the past 3 weeks or so and was worried that I wouldn't be ready in time. I found a SP training plan for 5 weeks though and I get a trophy when I complete it too. Hazzah for trophies! I'm aiming between 35-45 minutes. Last night I did 2.05 miles in 40 minutes (10 of which was just warm-up/cool down), so I think that's doable. <BR> <BR> So in... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 18:52:59 EST I'll take a size 16 please! I haven't been clothes shopping in quite some time (well I did buy a new top a few months or two ago, but tops don't really count as I'm always gonna be an XL no matter how much weight I lose). But I had a special event this past weekend and well I needed a new outfit, something I could wear with my corset. So in to Torrid I head and start scouring the clearance racks as I figured I wouldn't be able to wear it for too long anyway. And I find this amazing black pencil skirt so I grab my custom... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 15:33:12 EST Attitude So my plans for this weekend just fell apart. A friend of mine that I've known for years was supposed to come up for the weekend and we were gonna hang out, play video games, watch anime and all sorts of other fun stuff. And he just blew me off. Again, I might add. <BR> <BR> Now it has happened before so I was kinda anticipating it. It would have been great fun if he had been able to come though. <BR> <BR> In the past, my thinking would have been "what is wrong with me that he would keep b... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 21:13:15 EST FINALLY! *does the happy dance* <BR> <BR> Grumpy and stubborn Mr. Scale has finally relented and acknowledged that my new efforts are indeed making a difference by going down four pounds or so seemingly overnight. I could feel the changes in my body taking place such as my pants starting to get a little too big (even my stretchy workout pants had started sliding down when I was running!), feeling more fit, and not being able to eat quite as much as I used to. But Mr. Scale (who seems to take on the p... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 18:10:32 EST January Recap and February Goals I'm a little late but January was a good month. While I haven't lost any weight or inches yet (getting kinda frustrated) I hit my goals for Sparkpoints, attendance, and fitness minutes and got all four trophies. I'm not giving up because I can feel my body getting stronger. <BR> <BR> February I'm going to focus on making sure I track every piece of food I put in my mouth. I've tackled the fitness aspect of losing weight and now I need to rein in the food aspect. I did track most of January,... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 13:21:53 EST New Waterbottles So lately I've been trolling around the clearance aisle in the fitness section at Target and Walmart. And I found a great waterbottle with a flip-top lid perfect for working out. But I needed more than just one and they only had one design in-store, so I decided to head to their website. <BR> <BR> Before I continue I should explain - I tend to keep about 5-6 old bottled water plastic containers in the fridge so I always have nice cold water on hand anytime I reach in. I do have a filtered wa... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 14:51:46 EST Day 61 So when I started the 100 day challenge 61 days ago, (Holy crap did I just type 61?? The enormousness of that just hit me) my primary goal was just to get in the 30 minutes. Didn't care about the calories burned as long as I was moving. Now that I've reached the midway point...well that just ain't gonna fly anymore. Don't care how long it takes me, I WILL burn the required number of calories everyday. And sorry Wii Fit Plus, but you just aren't gonna cut it anymore. <BR> <BR> So I finally b... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 18:01:46 EST Sparkin' Away Behind the Scenes So it feels like I'm been absent for awhile. I've been really busy with life and haven't had the time to sit down and post much. But I have kept sparking and made what I consider to be some great achievements: <BR> <BR> 1. I passed 50 days in my 100 day challenge. The furthest I got last time I attempted was 48. I'm now on day 57 and owe myself a massage as a reward. Now I just have to make the time for it. <BR> <BR> 2. My belt slipped back to a new hole yesterday! I don't think that one ... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 11:34:47 EST Start Pictures I have been meaning to post these pictures for ages. My start pictures. They are a little blurry, I shall have to fire my photographer (my mom lol). They are a little over a year old now, but not many changes so far. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The last one was a joke. I'm being arrested for crimes ag... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 00:29:33 EST The cold hard truth So I'm feeling kinda yucky today. I didn't sleep well, I have a buzzing headache, my body is a little stiff and I'm sitting in my jacket at work still freezing my ass off. <BR> <BR> As part of my journey to get more active on the site, I'm reading a new friends blog and thinking WOW. She is working it. She's not making excuses, not taking no for an answer and getting the job done. Which leads me to reflect on myself. <BR> <BR> I've been telling myself over the past year I'm making progress... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 14:10:22 EST Rewards So I've had this fuzzy ideas of what rewards I would use for accomplishing my goals but they were never very firm and I've been putting off writing them down for far far too long. So here goes: <BR> <BR> So every 3 pounds I love and keep off for a week, I get one of these lovely mini Opi nail polishes. <link><BR>?id=P273909&shouldPaginate=true&catego<BR>ryId=5907 </link> <BR> To add a bit of surprise, I've decided to put all the names of the colors on ... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 18:45:30 EST Confused! So I had intended to finally write down my rewards today. However yesterday I decided to move from Stage 2 to Stage 3 of the SparkPeole diet. Before it changed stages it asked if I wanted to update my goals - so I said yes and POOF out popped a new calorie calculation for me: between 1330 and 1680 a day. <BR> <BR> However, it didn't ask what my activity level was, like it did the first time I set it up. So now I'm puzzled. <BR> <BR> I'd previously figured out I have BMR of 1821.75. <BR> ... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 17:26:07 EST New Year's Resolutions I don't normally make new year's resolutions as they seem to be a vicious cycle of setting myself up for failure. Either that or I make them so vague like last's years "I'm going to be better to myself" resolution that I couldn't possibly fail. <BR> <BR> But this year I wanted to think of them differently. So instead I am making promises to myself. <BR> <BR> 1. To attend as many events as I possibly can. <BR> 2. To continue making progress on my MBA and LVL 2. <BR> 3. To finally attend bel... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 18:16:26 EST A year later So I've been on SP for roughly a year now. While I didn't lose the weight I wanted to I'm happy to say that I'm still roughly 10 pounds lighter then I was this time last year. It's not much I know but as I normally either gain or maintain weight, 10 pounds is a good start. <BR> <BR> Last year one of the motivations for losing weight was "Lots of changes are going on in my life right now. New job, new home, new city. Seems like a good time to get started on a new, healthier me." Changes have... Tue, 30 Nov 2010 01:45:56 EST Stuck in Ohio So I've been in Ohio for the past two weeks and still have three more to go. My room is essentially a dorm room - microwave and a minifridge. It's really hard to control what I eat when I can't cook and the frrezer only holds about 3 lean cuisines. There's no scale anywhere around so I have no idea how I'm doing. I'm sure if I could see how much I'm gaining back I would be horrified and a little more motivated. There's no excuse either - they have an amazing gym on base - two actually but I'v... Mon, 3 May 2010 23:12:51 EST Lost my streak, but back at it again Sooo, it's been awhile. I haven't been too active much lately, so I hope all my friends are doing well. Work has been really stressful lately. A coworker was TDY doing a class and I had to cover all his work in addition to mine. That and we are having an inspection soon at work, so had to look over all my work to make sure it was solid. I've learned a lot since I first started and mistakes were made early on but I'm hoping everything is good now. <BR> <BR> I did a pretty good job of staying ... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 02:55:46 EST No energy This hasn't been a good week for me. I feel so low on energy - I go to work, the gym, come home lay down, get up and do the rest of my routine and then an hour or so later go back to bed. It's my time and I think that might be the cause. Work has been kinda busy lately too. A coworker is TDY and I've inherited his workload as well as mine. <BR> <BR> Either way I've made a lot of bad food choices. I'm craving salty fatty foods like I've never before. I don't even have the courage to log my f... Fri, 5 Mar 2010 03:10:46 EST February Recap So at the beginning of February I had a few goals. <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. Perfect attendance trophy- ACHIEVED! <BR> <BR> 2. 1,00 Fitness Minutes Trophy - Not only ACHIEVED but more than doubled. Final Tally 2,057 minutes. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> 3. 500 Sparkpoints Trophy- ACHIEVED. Final tally was 1,973. Some of that was due to buying the Spark though. <BR> <BR> 4. Get down to 220 - Well, I only managed to achieve 5 pounds lost to bring me to 225 but I'm more than pleased with all the work... Tue, 2 Mar 2010 03:34:00 EST Not feeling well, but staying positive Bleh. I did not feel good today. Think I might have a touch of food poisoning. Was sick several times today and didn't go to work. Ended up lazing about watching tv, something I haven't done that in a long time. Was supposed to go out with the girls tonight too, a sort of bachelorette party. I even had gone to the restaurant's website and picked out a meal that fit within my budget. Oh well. <BR> <BR> I didn't want to ruin my 22 day streak though, so I decided to do the free step which I dis... Wed, 24 Feb 2010 02:47:37 EST Losing my drive I am getting so frustrated. It's been roughly two and half weeks now since I started exercising every day at least 30 minutes (usually more like 60) and the scale has not budged an ounce. <BR> <BR> I thought perhaps I was losing inches, so I measured myself again. Nope. Still the same. Sigh. <BR> <BR> I know what I'm doing is great for my body but I'm a very visual person - I need to see some results. And its a bit hard to visual my heart getting stronger, cholesterol going down, etc. The... Tue, 16 Feb 2010 03:39:46 EST