http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CELESTINEW CELESTINEW's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5002082 677 days and I haven't been on here, and things are the same. Doesn't speak well of my will power. <BR> <BR> In my defense... who am I kidding I have just been sitting around doing the least amount to get by. I just have this feeling of doom closing in... waiting for the next hurdle to jump pops up dead in front of me. And the kicker ... I didn't have anything to do with that hurdle, it belongs to someone else. But I still have to jump it and carry them also. <BR> <BR> I worry constantl... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 14:50:19 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3481914 It's been awhile. Things have gotten tremendously better. My husband found a job and started yesterday. <BR> <BR> It has been a VERY tying three weeks. I tried to keep his spirits up but it felt as though he was just sucking me down. It seems I go through these cycles. <BR> <BR> When all seems bleak .... I always retreat within and put a great amount of energy to solving the problem. Everything can be solved. If you don't have it (what ever it my be) decide on the best course of a... Thu, 29 Jul 2010 11:23:21 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3435374 Right now I wish I could just turn my back on every thing. Not a feasible thing to do, to many responsibilities. <BR> <BR> I am just going to work on getting what every I can done, and not sweating what I can't. One step at a time. I have been riding my bicycle around the neighborhood, I wanted to do it twice a day but once is kicking my butt. <BR> <BR> I am working in 15 minute spurts to get things taken care of around the house. But I would love to just crawl back into bed and cove... Thu, 15 Jul 2010 14:27:22 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3423365 How to start.... When I was young, I was told I was a pessimist, but I have come to realize I am a realist. I don't look for the bad I truly hope for the good in all situations. <BR> <BR> There are things we can avoid and things that will cause us distress no matter what we do. <BR> Last night I received a phone call from my husband telling me he had just lost his job. I saw this coming and no amount of talking to him could avoid it. I knew he was having problems at work, he has been ... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 11:15:10 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3418273 Well not sure how blogging will go.... <BR> <BR> I joined 8 days ago, and haven't done to much. I am not good at checking in, I have logged on and read different areas. I found the are to map a route to walk... they had my neighborhood and if I walk the outer loop once it is 1/2 a mile. So I figured that I would try walking. Boring and the neighbors stare LOL. I did try twice, I didn't log it in to the tracker. <BR> <BR> My daughter walked with me both times, she is leaving for the... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 18:19:59 EST