CEHALLA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CEHALLA CEHALLA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A brief list of Blessings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890489 I've continued going to the Silver Sneakers class, just because it is at the right time on the right day to go with my current work schedule. I didn't make it to the Zumba class that week, but went the next week, at the wrong time! So I just did my own cardio workout for an hour and went home. I plan to make it to Zumba this week, and do some sweating! <BR> <BR> I wanted to write some about my blessings. I have so much to thank God for in my life. Here's a brief list: <BR> <BR> My husband--... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 13:04:56 EST A Day off is a Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878083 I am happy to report I went to the gym yesterday, to a "silver sneakers" class. I was a little nervous, for no reason. I got there a little early, did what the other people were doing and it went fine. The other classmates were mostly "silver citizens" and the work-out didn't make me sweat a lot, but there were moves I couldn't do. Mostly ab work. I will go again, my friend goes all the time and was happy to see me. <BR> <BR> I plan to go to a Zumba class tonight. That will be more of a chal... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 11:46:55 EST Freedom to choose is freedom to live http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876843 Time to be diligent about journaling my life. I am determined today to commit to a healthy life. There are many blessings I need to earn. I read that if we always received the consequences of our choices right away, we would never learn to have faith. So that is what I need to develop more of--faith. <BR> <BR> I need to develop faith in my Heavenly Father and his long term promises. I need to have faith in Jesus Christ and in the Holy Ghost that they will stick by me and give me support in m... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 15:06:05 EST I found the part of my brain that knows the truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568642 I got to walk with a friend today! That hasn't happened in months, and it was just random--she saw me out walking yesterday & asked if she could join me today. And I wasn't even planning to walk two days in a row! <BR> <BR> I am not a big plan ahead, schedule kind of person. I should probably give that some thought. I could make a list of household things that need to be done that I just keep putting on the list in my head. But I won't call to make an appt. to get my brakes done, or go to th... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 11:12:45 EST There is a plan inside my head somewhere http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564592 Today is a good day to record some thoughts. I've been struggling with my eating choices for several months. There are several reasons all having to do with life. And its pointless to list them all, because even though they are different issues from a year ago, or 5 years ago, I'm still using the same old habits to deal with them. <BR> <BR> I had a thought a few days ago, that since I started this journey 5 years ago, I have always gotten back on the right path after straying. So there is no... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 00:44:08 EST Adding daily reminders to my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472505 I just finished the latest BLC here on SparkPeople. It was my third round and the least successful if all you're measuring is pounds lost. I think it was valuable time spent learning about myself. Especially how I handle stress. But enough about the past, I am looking to the future. <BR> <BR> I am setting daily and weekly goals. I am old-fashioned, so I got out my Spark Journal and made a chart to check them off: <BR> <BR> Track food--that means record (I use SP for this) everything I eat <... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 11:16:43 EST Time for Reflection--halfway through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5428764 <BR> Looking back on the last six weeks, I see a lot of ups and downs instead of steady progress on my goals. A lot of it has to do with stress at work and vacation thinking. I had family visiting for a couple weeks, and even though all of my children are currently focused on health and nutrition, I thought I should take a vacation from healthy eating. Just ridiculous! <BR> <BR> And my answer for stress at work is to go in earlier and come home later, leaving no time or energy for exercise.... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 22:49:17 EST Fitness test results and some thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395044 <BR> <BR> I did my fitness test this week, as requested by my team. Here are the results: <BR> <BR> Push-ups: 29 in 1 min. <BR> Squats: 28 in 1 min. <BR> Crunches: 52 in 1 min. <BR> Lunges: 29 in 1 min. <BR> Bicep Curls: 27 in 1 min. <BR> <BR> <BR> I think the numbers look pretty good. We'll see how I can improve them over the next few weeks. <BR> <BR> The last few days I have been eating without thinking, and the scale reflects it. I will make better choices... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 10:13:46 EST Pantry list for WC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392434 The latest WC asked all of us to make a grocery list of staples we keep in our kitchen to be prepared to eat healthy at all times. My mom always taught me keep my kitchen stocked, so I have a running grocery list in my head all the time. <BR> <BR> Here is what I keep on hand: <BR> <BR> Quinoa <BR> Whole wheat flour <BR> brown rice <BR> whole wheat pasta <BR> peanut butter, crunchy w/no added sugar <BR> WASA crispbread crackers <BR> nuts, raw & roasted <BR> carrots <BR> celery <BR> romaine <... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 19:32:42 EST Onward to week 2! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386917 Today starts the 2nd week of the BLC. I lost 1 pound the first week, which is good, but it will be difficult to reach my goal if I only lose 1 pound every week. So let's see how well I followed my plan: <BR> <BR> Eat only at the table? not so good. I still put food in my mouth while in the kitchen. <BR> <BR> Eat only at mealtime? good. except there were 3 days when I actually missed a meal. <BR> <BR> Read SP blogs? could be better. has to do with time management. <BR> <BR> Scripture & pr... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 12:19:26 EST Goals for BLC round 22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379780 I have to write about my goals and plans for BLC 22, which started today. <BR> <BR> My main goal is to replace my emotional eating habits with better choices. I will eat only at mealtimes while sitting at the table. I will use distraction, meditation, and journaling to identify the emotions behind urges to eat outside of mealtime, and use other strategies to deal with those emotions, both positive and negative. <BR> <BR> It isn't an easy goal to measure, so I'll set up separate goals for ea... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 23:58:37 EST A visit, a NSV, and determination to suceed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375883 I have the habit of writing my blog, and then going back and choosing the title. I don't always know what I'm going to write until after its done. <BR> <BR> I know this time I want to share some recent insights. I continue to struggle with emotional eating and replacing it with healthier habits. Some days I do better than others. <BR> <BR> I gained weight the last 2 weeks, mostly because I visited my sister in Ohio and decided to be on vacation from healthy eating. Like that is even possib... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 19:03:13 EST Good choices = Happy day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351590 I am happy to report the scale revealed a good number on Wednesday! And I continue to be satisfied with my new eating choices. <BR> <BR> I had eggs with mushrooms, salsa, a little cheese, and 1/2 an orange for breakfast this morning. Some ww pasta with chicken and broccoli and a carrot for lunch, and then a good dinner. <BR> <BR> I baked a double batch of oatmeal cookies to take to my training at work. I was so happy to not eat any cookie dough, not eat any of the warm cookies out of the o... Fri, 10 May 2013 00:46:43 EST Happy with progress this week, even without feedback from the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349335 Just wanted to give a brief update. I've decided to adjust my food choices, eating more protein and good fats, and much less carbs. So I have eggs, bacon, and strawberries for breakfast instead of oatmeal or Kashi cereal. <BR> <BR> It almost scares me to write this! But it is uncured bacon from Trader Joes, and only 2 small strips. And the eggs aren't real big, and they are from my sister's chickens. And I don't have any toast! I can't remember ever eating eggs without toast. <BR> <BR> Fo... Wed, 8 May 2013 01:47:46 EST Re-committed to the path I already know http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346115 Well, I've decided enough of this floundering around. I know what has worked for me in order to lose almost 80 pounds, so I just need to do what I did before instead of looking for some other miracle cure. <BR> <BR> So today I started a commitment to 10 minutes of daily exercise, and a personal 10 day challenge with two goals--no eating sweets and no eating outside of meals. I feel like this will get me back on track and provide the motivation I need. <BR> <BR> I also plan to work on the e... Sun, 5 May 2013 10:22:09 EST have you heard of carb cycling? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345258 Just a quick one this morning. Not so good with the choices yesterday, over my calories again. It's because I've been seriously considering changing my eating drastically by starting a carb cycling program with ultra low carbs. I read about it and talked to my son who is into body-building. It is the only way to actually destroy fat cells. And I have plenty! <BR> <BR> So because I'm thinking I'm going to adopt this new plan, I gave myself permission to eat whatever I could find in the house.... Sat, 4 May 2013 11:16:36 EST the one that got away. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343163 Well, I just wrote a beautiful blog entry about acknowledging my emotions and learning to deal with them without food. <BR> <BR> I somehow erased it, and don't have time to write it again.. But it is in my head, so I'll think about it and make an effort to blog again tomorrow. Thu, 2 May 2013 11:23:20 EST But I like cake! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340206 As I reflect on the day, there is lots to be happy about. Work went well. I drove home with less traffic than what I drove to work in and snacked on celery I had packed. Dinner was a potluck a little later than we usually eat. I made a pan of enchiladas yesterday night that DH put in the oven for me. <BR> <BR> There was tons of food at the potluck, which had a Mexican theme. I had a little of this and that, lots of fruit and guacamole, tortilla chips, etc. Then it was time for dessert--choc... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 00:32:07 EST Another day on the right path http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338928 I am tired tonight, but its a good tired. My son brought my 3 granddaughters down for the afternoon, while he went out for some alone time. He works from home, and my DIL has been battling some recent health problems, so the girls and the house have all been on his shoulders. He did ask first, and I said OK!! <BR> <BR> These granddaughters are the reason I decided to change my life. It was 4 years ago, on the oldest one's first birthday I realized I couldn't get down on the floor to play wit... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 01:13:52 EST A little success, so I will do it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337205 I can say that yesterday was a success. I pushed myself on my run, made good choices at mealtime, and looked hard for the hidden door at the end of the day. That's when I'm left work and wanted some reward or recognition for my accomplishments. <BR> <BR> Food has always been the reward of choice. I have a 30 minute drive home and often eat in my car if I have something available, or even stop and buy something (never a good choice). <BR> <BR> Last night I wrote a reply to an e-mail my boss... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 10:40:13 EST Finding/creating the hidden door http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336358 This is what was going through my head this morning on my run: <BR> <BR> "He is always near me, though I do not see Him there. <BR> And because He loves me dearly, I am in His watchful care. <BR> So I'll be the kind of person that I know I'd like to be <BR> If I could see the Savior standing nigh, watching over me." <BR> <BR> This is the third verse of a song I'm learning with my Sunday School children, written by Sally DeFord. <BR> <BR> I so appreciate the thought that my Savior loves me ... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 12:22:11 EST Getting my head in a better place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335830 I've been in a holding pattern for several weeks now, which equates to eating whatever I want and gaining weight. <BR> <BR> I'm ready to get back the person I was, who was less interested in short term rewards of sweets and more interested in living a healthy life focused on the future. I just don't know how to get my head back in that place, at least not overnight. <BR> <BR> So for today, I tracked my food. Tomorrow I'm going to get up and go for a run. And track my food. And the next day ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 23:13:14 EST Getting my head in a better place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335829 I've been in a holding pattern for several weeks now, which equates to eating whatever I want and gaining weight. <BR> <BR> I'm ready to get back the person I was, who was less interested in short term rewards of sweets and more interested in living a healthy life focused on the future. I just don't know how to get my head back in that place, at least not overnight. <BR> <BR> So for today, I tracked my food. Tomorrow I'm going to get up and go for a run. And track my food. And the next day ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 23:13:14 EST Just some random thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283282 What is on my mind? That's the question for the BLC Weekend Challenge. Sadly, it takes an opportunity to get points for my team to motivate me to write a blog. Oh well, do be it. <BR> <BR> My mind is always busy, that is often the problem! I've been mixing my work outs up after visiting DD a couple weeks ago, doing them in the evening instead of the morning, and less running after I bruised my tailbone. But my body is liking the change! And my brain acknowledges that working out anytime is b... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 23:31:43 EST Getting the head and heart in line http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236405 It is exciting to me to discover more new things about myself. This week after a good run, I was thinking about my current life. There are things I don't like about my life, everybody has those. Some are a result of choices I made long years ago. I realized I was holding on to regrets about those choices, wishing things were different so I could be happy. <BR> <BR> You would agree that is crazy thinking! But that subconscious attitude was influencing how I acted, the choices I made, especia... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 23:30:20 EST Creating peace with food starts every day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226425 What do I have to say today? Life is good. My focus on my "interior integrity" has really made a difference. It has been easy to stay on track with my eating choices, I have been running faster, and I have been happy with myself at the end of my day. <BR> <BR> I left work late in the evening the last 3 days, and instead of thinking ahead to what I could eat when I got home at 10 pm, I was thinking about my friends and family. I was reviewing my day and feeling satisfied. Satisfied without ea... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 00:21:36 EST Perfection? that's not happening here. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223880 I learned something else about myself this week. I made a mistake at work, which was pointed out to me. I was so upset! It was a scheduling error, and I had to go back and redo next week's schedule, which I was afraid would make my coworkers upset. <BR> <BR> But I realized the reason I was so upset was just that I had made a mistake. I had spent a lot of time making the schedule and all that time was wasted, because now I had to spend more time to fix it. I was way more upset than the mista... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 01:31:12 EST New-found benefit of exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217829 I go to church every Sunday, and during the Sacrament (when the bread and water representing Christ's body and blood are passed to the congregation) I write in a journal. I started this habit more than 8 years ago, and have been consistent with it. I wrote about some of the same thoughts as my last blog--struggling with Integrity. <BR> <BR> I decided to identify it as "interior Integrity" to be separate from "exterior Integrity" which is my relationship with others. <BR> <BR> As I went on ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:58:39 EST Overcoming lack of Integrity with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215014 I remembered the other inspiration I received this week, it was about Integrity. I capitalize the word to emphasize its importance. I was taught by my parents to always keep my word to others, and I look for that commitment in the people I hire. I strive to be an example to them and to my friends and family and believe I am successful in living with integrity. <BR> <BR> Then it came to me--I don't have integrity with myself. This was stunning. I didn't want to believe it. But the evidence is... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 00:35:05 EST The benefit of seeing through God's eyes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213824 I've been having some thoughts about myself and my relationship with God, and how I talk to myself. <BR> <BR> The first thought was that I am too hard on myself when I make a mistake. I realized I should learn to see myself the way God sees me. <BR> <BR> At work, I am a retail manager and am very good at my job. Its because I can walk the sales floor and see all the details--the good things and the "opportunities". I can make lists of notes for my coworkers to fix all the things I see. Many... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 01:55:04 EST One step further along the road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194134 I have decided the only way to make progress in my journey is to know myself better. If I am willing to recognize the real things I believe about myself and the motivation behind my actions I will be able to make the changes I need. <BR> <BR> I have been more diligent with my scripture study. One thought that came to me today during prayer and meditation was that I can relate something I learned at work to my personal life. As a retail manager, I train my coworkers to see the sales floor th... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 00:03:48 EST Plans to continue my healthy journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182226 What are my goals for 2013? <BR> <BR> I like this question better: What am I doing that works, and what changes can I make to improve my health? <BR> <BR> I am a big believer in working all the time on my goals, and not using a specific date as a marker for beginning or ending. There have been so many times in the past that I make a New Year's resolution with high hopes for change only to disappoint myself. <BR> <BR> So--what is working well right now? <BR> <BR> I completed a difficult 10... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 12:52:50 EST Avoid emotional eating, and really enjoy the holidays! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155370 I only have time for a short entry. The topic is how to stay on track during the holidays. I recently wrote a list of goals to stay on track. A week later, I can see that some are easy to do and some much harder. <BR> <BR> I am an emotional eater, and keep thinking that food will make things better. So I commit to finding other ways to deal with my emotions rather than food. There are many resources here on SP, as well as ones I know. <BR> <BR> Mon, 3 Dec 2012 23:08:02 EST Writing down plan for Holidays, one step closer to making it happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147778 Its time to evaluate my recent progress and plan for the HOLIDAYS! I have been maintaining the last few weeks, which isn't a bad thing, but not really a good thing either. I haven't met my exercise goals or followed my eating plans (which I just reviewed by reading my last blog, oops!) <BR> <BR> I am just having a hard time keeping healthier habits while I have so much stress right now. My DH is still out of work, with no prospects and no plan to look harder until Jan 1st. <BR> <BR> I'm re... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 23:05:07 EST How to continue the success of the last 5 weeks into eternity and beyond http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107475 This weekend challenge is asking for me to review my goals from the start of the challenge, and either re-commit just keep the course. I would have to say that I am doing great, and just need to stick to what is working. <BR> <BR> And that is: <BR> <BR> Exercise--running 8-10 miles/week <BR> <BR> ST every day, for 20 minutes minimum. The GOYB challenges are my starting point for this. I do several sets of several days like circuit training. On other days, I do one of my DVD'... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 19:31:00 EST Final 3 things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5100571 I've got a few minutes before dinner, so I'll finish my series of blogs listing what I love about myself. <BR> <BR> Today I reflected on my love affair with food and cooking. I love to cook and bake. I learned it from my mom and passed it on to my children (son and daughters). And as I work on healthier eating, I am finding healthy recipes to make that I love to eat. I even make healthy treats to take to work and share. I have quite the reputation there! <BR> <BR> The second thing I love is... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:17:12 EST The next three things I love... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098823 Its Sunday afternoon and I'm here at my daughter's house enjoying my grandchildren. <BR> <BR> So the first thing I love about myself is that I'm a grandma!! Of course, that means I'm also a mother. I have four children, all grown. Three are married, two have children so far, with more in the plans. I loved being a mom and raising my children (with my husband). I'm happy for them to have become great people. I feel like my daughters are more my equals now, like good friends that ask for my ad... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 16:16:57 EST and another 3 things I love about myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5097446 Not much time today, so here are 3 more things I love about myself: <BR> <BR> I am organized. I keep my home neat (although not always perfectly clean) with things put away where they belong. I have structure in my schedule at home and at work. I make lists and prioritize so I can get lots of things done. Sometimes life creeps in and stirs things around, but I do the best I can. <BR> <BR> I am a good listener. I noticed this when my kids were little. I can hear what is behind the actual wor... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 10:54:35 EST 3 things I love about myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5096543 Talking about what I love about myself is problematic. I was very shy growing up, not too shy now after marrying an extreme extrovert 30+ years ago. I detest some people that refuse to admit they do anything well. So I have to recognize that I have good qualities myself. <BR> <BR> What are they? For this blog I am only required to list 3 things I love about myself, that's doable: <BR> <BR> I have a positive attitude. I don't worry a lot about the future or the past. I work in the present wi... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 13:49:43 EST Good time for a reality check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091061 I am one third of the way through this awesome spark challenge and want to examine my progress. <BR> <BR> The scale is down significantly, I'm halfway to my goal there. I've been tracking my food every day. But the last few days I've been using an old sabotage strategy: having too much success is bad, must eat more to compensate. So I've been using food as a reward for my healthy choices. Its crazy, I know. <BR> So I'll do more journaling, more reading and studying, more time on SP to get mo... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 09:56:56 EST Dinner menus and plans for success! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083173 So I need to plan my dinner menus for the week: <BR> <BR> Sunday--dinner at friends, I'll bring a big salad <BR> Monday--pot luck dinner with my mom & her friends, I'll bring more salad, no second helpings and only 1 serving of dessert <BR> Tuesday--Pork, noodles, squash, orange <BR> Wed--BBQ chicken wings, salad, greens <BR> Thur--pork, salad, squash, banana <BR> Fri--vegetable soup, orange <BR> Sat--chicken, vegees, orange <BR> <BR> Here are some ways I plan to keep on track: <BR> <BR> A... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 00:11:51 EST Breakfast & lunch meal plans for the week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079431 Here are my breakfast plans for the week: <BR> <BR> Fri: baked oatmeal with hemp milk & nectarine <BR> Sat: cheerios, kashi go lean with hemp milk & nectarine <BR> Sun: fasting <BR> Mon: baked oatmeal with hemp milk & banana <BR> Tue: baked oatmeal with hemp milk & strawberries <BR> Wed: baked oatmeal with hemp milk & banana <BR> Thur: baked oatmeal with hemp milk & raisins <BR> <BR> Pretty boring? I don't mind <BR> <BR> And for lunch: <BR> <BR> Fri: vegetable soup w/beef, orange <BR> Sa... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 11:03:13 EST Overcoming Procrastination: BLC20 Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5062117 I made a commitment when I signed up for the BLC that I would fully participate. This weekend's challenge is to blog a detailed plan for success over the course of the 12 week challenge. <BR> <BR> I had to work on Friday and Saturday, as well as take care of other things, so I planned to write my blog on Sunday. So here I am, procrastinating until 5pm, writing the blog. I am so tired, and my brain just wants to say forget the whole idea. <BR> <BR> But I know I really want to conquer these s... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 20:19:26 EST Where I acknowledge my fierce need for Power & Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4971131 I am basically a happy person. There are many things about my life I really like. I like my husband, my children, their spouses, my grandchildren. I like my house and my neighborhood. I like my job (most of the time). I like my body (some days more than others). <BR> <BR> The things I don't like: never having enough time to get everything done I want, all my grandchildren live far away that I see them only a few times a year. I don't like worrying about the future and if we'll have enough i... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 11:18:53 EST Keep meeting those challenges and look for support everywhere http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4968715 This is for yesterday and today. I still am not making blogging a priority. That's OK, as long as my health is a priority. I get up and go to the gym or do other exercise almost every day, I have pretty active job, and I do my best not to have dangerous food in the house. <BR> <BR> Geo. was good to me this week. He bought a package of cookies, but then he took them to school with him and used them as prizes for a math relay in his class. Store bought cookies are never my favorite thing, but ... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 12:46:54 EST Using curiosity instead of food to find the real answer to unasked questions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4966313 I'm doing my best to keep up with a daily blog, but it is a challenge. Work is kind of taking over my life again. <BR> <BR> I did watch some good advice from a life coach I like. She does short video clips on how to overcome emotional overeating. Here's a link to the clip I watched yesterday: <BR> <BR> http://toomuchonherplate.com/emotional-e<BR>ating-video-tip-curiosity/ <BR> <BR> I even used the idea of asking what I really want when I was tempted to eat a piece of candy at the end of m... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 22:28:42 EST A few reflections on the day's choices--Grade B+ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963048 So I'll take a few minutes to write today. I was so busy from the time I got up until now that I didn't really think about anything. Ate my breakfast oatmeal in the car on the way to work. Ate lunch in the staff cafe (mac & cheese, bbq beef, broccoli & cherry tomatoes) in about 10 minutes flat. <BR> <BR> When I came home from work, I had to finish cooking dinner for some guests. But then I had some extra time, so I snacked on graham crackers! What was that about? I think I was hungry and de... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 22:32:17 EST Yesterday's blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963023 I went to Spark People to write a blog to continue my 10 day challenge, but it wouldn’t let me add a blog entry. So I went to Microsoft Office to write one there I could copy paste later. But it reminded me I had to use the free “starter” version. So I opened that, and then couldn’t figure out how to get the view I wanted. Took me several minutes to get to the “draft” view. It seems everything was against me writing a blog this morning, but I persevered. <BR> The scale this morning was at the... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 22:16:53 EST I am enough, I just keep forgetting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4959167 I haven't taken the time to write a blog in quite a while. Partly because of work taking over life, partly because I didn't see the benefit. <BR> <BR> But in talking to people whose opinion I value, I decided there are intangible benefits in writing about life and feelings and etc. <BR> <BR> I realize I am an emotional eater. I am happy to have lost 50 pounds and kept it off for almost 3 years. I am unhappy that I lost 20 more than that and gained it back in the last 9 months. I am happy to... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 11:19:42 EST Where I finally learn that emotions deserve equal time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4760650 I've been working this week on a program to deal with emotional eating. Yesterday I was specifically being aware of my emotions during the day and how they related to my eating. <BR> <BR> I was feeling very sad and neglected as I came home from a women's meeting at church Sunday evening. I was especially sad about my relationship with my husband, he won't acknowledge his spiritual side and I really want to have that support and interaction with him. <BR> <BR> Actually, I would love to have ... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 22:24:51 EST