CECE0330's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CECE0330 CECE0330's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 12 of Whole30, feeling like no big deal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969668 I don't know if it's just because i have so many other things going on that I am distracted by or what, but it really seems like no big deal right now to be in the middle of Whole30. I'm not missing wine, chocolate, or even ice cream. Going out of town this weekend, and will be hitting up a street fair, and I'm not even worried about that. <BR> <BR> Here's the breakdown so far: <BR> <BR> ~I feel way less bloated. I'm not saying i lost significant weight in 12 days, but I FEEL signif... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 09:44:38 EST Day 8 of Whole30, Just a little over 3 weeks til Greece http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967327 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/85de43e4-d155-4e16-a02d-0b26d1f47901.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> Feeling pretty good on the diet front. Made it through the weekend strong. Game night was no big deal. I could have planned a little better, but my contribution was a fruit salad, and I brought some sugar snap peas also, so that's all I ate there. Drank a ton of water, too. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I veered a little into (Whole30) questionable territory: Made some Mexican Meatloaf from ... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 10:06:11 EST Day 5, big challenge will be the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966073 Weekends are so hard! I'm tempted by food at summer outings, hardcore. Tonight is pulled pork already cooking in the crock pot, and I'm going to try kale chips for the first time. Hope they turn out! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow the big tests will be meeting my sister for lunch and then heading to a friend's house for game night. I love this group of friends/in-laws, but they are all super unhealthy (though one is having gastric bypass in a couple months) with 5 out of the 6 being obese, so when... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 16:16:47 EST Taking a second go at Whole30, on Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964805 What I disliked about Whole30 the first time around: <BR> <BR> ~The obsessive-compulsive nature of it. If you've ever scoped out Whole30 forums, they are filled with people bemoaning silly things like "Oh no! I had some ZzzQuil to help me sleep, only to realize there's (some miniscule number) of sugar grams in it!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO?!?!?!??!?!?!?" To which others will inevitably reply "You messed up, START OVER." <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Look, I get that many people have difficulty sta... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 09:49:42 EST Blogging for accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943943 I did in fact get up and run today, despite pushing back the alarm 15 minutes. I'm not going to lie, it was tough to convince my body that running was better than being in my cozy bed but I did manage to run 2 miles. Nothing to write home about, but you have to start somewhere. Overall it went OK, I maintained a 10-11 minute mile despite my knee crying and my hip being cranky (the humid drippy weather doesn't help on that front). <BR> <BR> One day at a time. Food stayed on track as pl... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 10:22:52 EST Oh wow have I been in denial http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943368 I haven't weighed myself, but most of my clothes have gotten uncomfortably tight. I've put weight back on in the one place that really really bothers me, my chest, which does NOT need any more additions!!! Here's a picture i have in my photo gallery: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d131cc1a-dabf-4172-980b-067bad951acf.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I was 139 here, and thanks to lovely genes, still a 34DD. Now? I can barely fit the girls into a 36DDD. I used an online measu... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 09:08:47 EST Day 1, so far so good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864604 Got my butt out of bed today and ran 2.5 miles. It was cold, dark, and omg so icy. Good news is I did not fall! My initial plan was to try a new class, Ultimate Conditioning, but with a wake up time needed of 5 a.m., yeah, running at 6 sounded better! <BR> <BR> Good on the food front today. Honestly after the crazy weekend of eating, I don't even WANT food today!!! No joke. Vegas might be known for gambling, but holy mackerel the food....My brother took us to Emeril Legasse's restaurant... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 15:21:25 EST Oh man. It's been a year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857781 A whole year since I've blogged, or even logged into Spark People really. I know why too. I lost weight, I maintained for a little while, then when I knew I had gained back maybe 15lbs, and KNEW I needed to come back and get my sh!t back in order, I rebelled. <BR> <BR> I hate logging calories. <BR> I hate denying myself food I love. <BR> I hate thinking about this journey 24/7 <BR> <BR> But... <BR> I also hate feeling jiggly <BR> I hate suffering from gluten hangovers (hardcore today... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 10:16:21 EST Day 6...feeling like 60 since my beloved chocolate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585968 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Oh man. I'm sitting here wondering WHY WHY WHY do I have to do this to myself???? Can't I surely just sneak a little chocolate, a cube of cheese? Some wine???? I mean, I know why: I was completely OUT OF CONTROL ON THE FOOD FRONT. Witness New Year's Brunch: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l575840585.jpg"> <BR> If I close my eyes, I can taste the warm sugary goodness of those cinnamon rolls....and in the crock pot? Heaven, it w... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 18:09:48 EST On Day 5 of 17 Day Diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584244 And I fell off the face of the earth AGAIN. The end of 2013 totally and completely kicked my behind for sooo many reasons, and I let myself get caught up in some pretty horrific emotional eating, on top of holiday eating. The result was not good at all. By New Year's Eve, I felt (um, and looked) about 4 months pregnant. Granted, I had gone on a huge grain/sugar binge the prior weekend, so what did I expect, really?? <BR> <BR> Anyway, decided actually mid-gluttonous phase that a det... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 12:02:51 EST Dropped off the face of the earth, but back now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555209 Good grief. Been gone since August this time around. I wish I could say that after all this time, and weight lost, I don't NEED Spark People, but uh, that is not the case at all. <BR> <BR> Went on my Caribbean vacation, and it was sooooooo wonderful. Had a great time lounging, hanging with my BFF, and seeing the ocean for the first time. <BR> <BR> Then I came home and dealt with a whole sh!tstorm of stress at work, in zumba, and at home. And now I'm sitting here feeling really an... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 15:57:59 EST Two amazing (to me anyway) things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459901 1. My Zumba mentor/BFF and I co-teach crazy early a.m. zumba to a FABULOUS group of ladies (about 15 of them). Mentor recently got Aqua Zumba licensed, and wanted to test out some choreo on the ladies, and just have a nice little get-together afterward, potluck & BYOB (one of the ladies has an in-ground pool). We did this Friday night, and while I'm not a fan of AZ myself, overall it was a blast, as we had a great time socializing after. It was a great bonding experience not only with s... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 12:43:40 EST 16 days til the Caribbean! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454055 Yeah, the 30 day challenge train derailed and never quite got back on track. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l843129148.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm fine with that. I came to this realization that I just need to be OK with me NOW. I keep striving for "perfection" as I imagine it in my mind, but it's going to take true dedication and sacrifice to get to THAT high standard, which is something like this: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l123594974.jpg"... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 13:46:34 EST Total and complete derailment (aka Day 15) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445147 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Friday was fine. Saturday was set up for failure. I did my class from 10:30-11:30, showered quick at the Y, then headed to a Lia Sophia party where I was able to eat some yogurt w/frui... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 11:07:40 EST Day 12....and logging is a real drag sometimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442275 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Didn't log calories yesterday. Honestly it's just a PIA when you make a recipe (paleo banana pancakes) and I don't feel like bothering with the hassle. Logging calories in general is... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 12:30:09 EST Day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441012 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> I'm happy to still be plugging along on Day 11, but this is the time usually when I start getting a little sloppy. Yesterday I had 2 Godiva truffles, and NO veggies (WHA?!?!?!??) and ... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 12:03:33 EST ....and here we are on Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439608 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> (Ok, time seems to be DRAGGING now!!!) I did feel very devil-may-care last night, and I did NOT log my calories (maybe i'll go back in and do that today) but I did manage to keep it toge... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 10:26:20 EST Day 9....and here's the slip-up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438428 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Well, Day 8 was not so hot. Ate even more of the dark chocolate acai blueberry dealies. oops. Did not drink my water (only 4 cups) and vegetables were practically non existent. Bah... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 10:21:23 EST Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437608 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Feeling so incredibly sleeeeeepy after lunch!!! Not sure what that is all about. Probably not the best idea, but I bought some dark chocolate covered acai/blueberry thingees at lunch. ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 16:41:23 EST Day 7 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436477 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Well, it's the weekend and I'm holding strong. Need to get groceries so I can continue to stay strong throughout the week; it's the pits when you are out of just about everythin... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 18:06:47 EST A weekend entry! Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435805 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Holding strong! No gluten, drank water, lots of fruits & veggies, no cake. I did have a bloody mary, but that's a vegetable, right? <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> I feel like I sn... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 00:28:24 EST Boring, i know, but Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5434125 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> (this is getting stale, but it's helping keep me on track!) <BR> <BR> OK, so good calories yesterday, good protein, good veggies, no gluten, drank my water. ... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 10:35:44 EST Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432885 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Moving right along! OK day yesterday. I fell short on protein, and fat grams were high on account of those Paleo waffles (leftovers I had for lunch). I know it was GOOD fat and not b... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 09:40:23 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431628 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Almost 10% done! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Drank a TON of water yesterday, did really good on the food front. Though I did make the "mistake" of putting in the Paleo Parents Waffle r... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 09:33:46 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430384 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> So yesterday wasn't too shabby. I DID drink water, limit my fruits, increased veggies, got good protein and no gluten/grains, logged EVERYTHING.....but did have a glass of white wine. ... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 09:42:28 EST . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429539 Writing this to really just kind of get my @$$ in gear. I have issues, as I've discussed before. Top of the list is simply NOT CARING ENOUGH to eat how I am supposed to be eating. As a result, my goal weight is long gone, and I just don't feel as good about myself. The areas where the weight loves to stick when I'm carrying this extra 10-15 lbs...well, it IS noticeable. <BR> <BR> I tell myself i'm going to do "x, y, and z" about it, but then I don't. Then I think "well, clearly I ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 15:13:32 EST T Minus 43 Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424022 What the heck is "t minus" anyway? Takeoff in minus "x" minutes? You know how you use phrases but never really think about their origin... <BR> <BR> Anywho. <BR> <BR> 43 Days: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1812747023.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm likely driving everyone insane with my counting down, but listen, I have not had an honest-to-god vacation since 2000!!!!! 13 YEARS AGO PEOPLE!!!!! lol. And it was nice to go to San Fransisco for a week, it really... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 10:16:48 EST Dang it all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422110 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l78061920.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You ever make out a nice little budget with everything nice & neat & taken care of....then totally and completely BLOW it???? *sigh* Been having this "summer living" mentality happening; impromptu BBQs, pool parties, etc. Happened last weekend and between bringing some flowers for the most gracious host, a 12 pack of Corona, and paying our share of the BBQ, plus bringing grapes, drinks for the kids, etc, that l... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 16:46:26 EST Random thoughts for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417750 49 Days til I'm here: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1045653043.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Super excited! I've only been out of the country once, when I was 15, to Nogales Mexico (about as anti-touristy of a place as one could find) with a friend who lives just north of the border in Arizona. You didn't even need passports back then. Ha, funny (bad!) story: My friends and I were angels, really, didn't drink, smoke, got good grades, were very innocent. We sneaked ... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 11:00:22 EST I LOVE this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414194 Read an article by Shelley Emling this weekend: Dear Daughter, 13 Things I Want You to Know on Your 13th Birthday <BR> <BR> "3. It is usually not about you. <BR> As you grow older, don't worry so much about sucking your tummy in, or making sure there's not a hair out of place. Most of the time, no one is looking. Really. People like to think everyone is focused on them but, in actuality, people are usually focused on themselves. And if someone does something to you that's hurtful, it's almos... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 10:28:28 EST Big time DETOX today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411687 Went to my sister's house in middle-of-nowhere WI to watch my niece while my brand-spanking new niece was being delivered: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1589405209.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Over the course of 4 days took my girls +1 to the zoo, and I lost track of how many parks (the key to minding three kids? TIRE THEM OUT!!! lol) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l312484181.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2074902... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 16:34:44 EST Weekend Recap (and will somebody PLEASE SLAP ME) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400137 Busy weekend! <BR> <BR> Friday night we visited our local City Market event, which is a farmer's market/crafters market/foodie paradise. There's musical entertainment, and it's done a lot to revitalize our modest downtown. It was hot, so we didn't stay too long. Had some frozen yogurt & a Limearita. Yum. Oh yeah, two steak tacos too. OMG, they are soooo delicious, gluten be darned. <BR> <BR> Saturday was class, my first 31 party, and then a zumbathon to benefit a small city f... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 11:39:10 EST R.I.P., T http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396228 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l423666000.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm really sad about the passing of James Gandolfini. He was a great actor, and will be missed by many. <BR> <BR> It makes me think though of all the people out there, my BIL in particular, who are not taking care of themselves (and obviously I have no clue of cause of death here, but it seems for men in particular, heart attacks at this young age are so common, and PREVENTABLE. And of course not just men, ei... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 11:11:44 EST Well that's just dumb. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395026 So I've been *trying* to keep the budget on a shoestring due to the big vacation (9 months and counting). This means I've been trying to put EVERY EXTRA cent I have on the Big Kahuna credit card. (very brief history: my credit cards got scary while I was waiting not-so-patiently for YEARS for DH to get full time employment at UPS. I paid off one last year, and now, after this family vacation, will work on paying off the others. CREDIT CARDS ARE EVIL!!) But in the meantime, I'm making e... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 10:06:07 EST Weekend recap & Random thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391872 Random thought #1: Oh yeah! True Blood is back, baby! I'm always sad when a show I love ends for the season, but True Blood last night went a loooong way to help me cope with the end of Game of Thrones. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l284917463.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> That hour went so incredibly fast! Added bonus, Mad Men is winding down, but still on, so two hours of perfect TV viewing last night. It's the little things sometimes.... <BR> ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 10:56:36 EST How do I feel? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389091 Pretty good! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Got up this morning for a run (2nd Friday in a row...I can see a pattern coming back into play! YAY!) of 3.3 miles. Went pretty good, though my knee was hurting me a little bit. But Day 2 of being DONE with the scale, and I find (so far) I'm not obsessing over what that number might be. I've made good food choices this week, have been drinking a ton of water, have gotten my normal workouts in..... <BR> <BR> .....here's a funny aside for the zum... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 12:58:36 EST I think I'm done weighing myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387954 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1364173092.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have an unhealthy obsession with the scale. I can't even tell you how many times I have woken up feeling GOOD; lean, fit, strong, only to step on the scale and be totally crushed by the number not backing me up. But I think I have finally realized today that IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I WEIGH, despite the fact that every doctor's appointment starts with a weigh-in and BMI charts are everywhere, constantly proc... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 11:37:41 EST Today's blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386832 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Gluten free for 3 days now, and my fingers no longer hurt. Also, I could walk DOWN the stairs without having to move sideways, and "baby step" down. Yay! <BR> <BR> But food....food is driving me CRAZY right now in my brain. I like the Paleo lifestyle because it lines up with a lot of what I believe in as far as eating goes: <BR> <BR> <em>496</em> lean organic meats <BR> <em>277</em> fruits <BR> <em>267</em> vegetables <BR> <em>490</em> eggs <BR>... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 10:49:41 EST Gluten is just plain eeeeeevil. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385807 <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> For my body anyway. I was telling my SIL this weekend that the cycle for me was: <BR> <BR> 1. achy knees <BR> 2. knock out gluten <BR> 3. Yay! WAY better knees! <BR> 4. Oops, eat gluten <BR> 5. Tendonitis in arm and achy hip <BR> 6. knock out gluten <BR> 7. Yay! Back to feeling good! <BR> 8. D'oh! eat gluten <BR> <BR> and after this weekend's gluten binge (seriously, WHEN will I learn?!??!?!?!) <BR> I now have incredibly achy fingers on my right hand. ... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 12:16:30 EST Better make that 80 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384739 Wondering if they have a clinic here that will wire my jaw shut on the weekends. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Ugh. I'm in a funk. Trying to get out of it, really I am. <BR> <BR> Ok choices so far today, but we're getting to the end of the groceries in the house, so it's slim pickings. Won't go reload until Thursday evening. <BR> <BR> *sigh* <BR> <BR> I just need.....something. Not sure what. Mon, 10 Jun 2013 15:29:55 EST "83 Day challenge" just doesn't have the same ring.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381270 <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> But it's what I have to work with, and yesterday, FINALLY, it clicked with me: If I want change, I need to freaking make it happen. So my goals for the next 83 days: <BR> <BR> 1. Blog daily to help with accountability <BR> 2. Get back into REGULAR running, working back up to 6 on Sundays (long day) <BR> 3. Stop being dumb with food choices <BR> 4. CURB THE LITTLE SPENDING. This is hard. Really hard, especially since every time I turn around there seems t... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 10:02:45 EST Ah....much better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380291 The girls and I passed out snuggling last night around 9:30. Woke up squished in between them around 11 or so and carried the little one (ha, not so little anymore! It's not easy maneuvering 46 lbs!) to bed and the oldest wanted to "watch cartoons" I swear sometimes I don't know whose child she is! <BR> <BR> But anyway, since I didn't have to get up til 6:15 today (!) that means I got a good 8-9 hours of sleep! Wahoo! And no crazy sugar binges yet today, so that's good too. Stocked... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 11:55:13 EST I NEED TO STOP EATING!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379370 Wow. Freaking hormones! I need an "off" switch for crying out loud. <BR> <BR> That's about my only thought for today. <em>334</em> Super tired....told my 10 year old I was going to bed, and she could stay up til 10:30. I had 5:30 a.m. class yesterday and today, and was exhausted last night and needing good sleep to face class this morning. Yeah. She came in and WOKE ME UP at 10:30 to ask if she could stay up later. <em>234</em> Um, NO. Especially not now that you wok... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 16:48:19 EST I NEED TO STOP EATING!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379369 Wow. Freaking hormones! I need an "off" switch for crying out loud. <BR> <BR> That's about my only thought for today. <em>334</em> Super tired....told my 10 year old I was going to bed, and she could stay up til 10:30. I had 5:30 a.m. class yesterday and today, and was exhausted last night and needing good sleep to face class this morning. Yeah. She came in and WOKE ME UP at 10:30 to ask if she could stay up later. <em>234</em> Um, NO. Especially not now that you wok... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 16:48:18 EST 90 Days til the Caribbean! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373553 <em>218</em> <em>67</em> <em>274</em> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> So that means time to stop jacking around and really, really focus on making good choices. I don't have to be perfect as I'm sitting there on the beach, but I DO want to think to myself at that moment: There is NOTHING ELSE I could have done to feel as confident as possible. <BR> <BR> It remains to be seen if I actually have the guts to wear a freaking BIKINI in public. <em>334</em> Though since i didn't exactl... Fri, 31 May 2013 10:56:06 EST WTF. I quit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364441 <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> OK, not really. But I am annoyed. I'm up THREE lbs this week. Not even week, as i weighed myself Sat and am now up 3 lbs in 4 DAYS. <BR> <BR> *sigh* <BR> <BR> It's so annoying. There are a number of potential causes: <BR> ~hormones. Whee <BR> ~muscle fatigue. I swear, when my muscles hurt like they do now, I ALWAYS weigh more. Think I read once that you retain more water as your muscles try to "repair" themselves. Maybe I'm just pulling that out of my ... Wed, 22 May 2013 10:36:29 EST UGH. Pushed myself too far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362560 <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> Last week: <BR> <BR> Mon: 5:30 a.m. Zumba <BR> Tue: 5:30 a.m. Toning <BR> Wed: 5:30 a.m. Sentao <BR> 5:45 p.m. Toning <BR> Thu: 6:30 p.m. Zumba <BR> Fri: 5:30 a.m. Zumba <BR> 7:00 p.m. Toning demo (30 min, but also followed along to some Sentao) <BR> Sat: 10:30 a.m. Zumba <BR> <BR> I think I would have been OK if it weren't toning/sentao/toning all crammed in together. My quads HURT HURT HURT. Like they are on FIRE hurt. There... Mon, 20 May 2013 17:26:33 EST "My BFF went to Europe and all I got was 10 extra zumba classes" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359321 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I'm gonna put that on a tee shirt. BFF and her hubby (my co-teacher for 2 classes/week) are in Europe on a delayed honeymoon for TWO WEEKS. We're nearing the end of week 1 here, and man alive I am EXHAUSTED. The good news about that is: I had sometimes wondered if I should pick up more classes (my normal schedule is between 4-6 weekly since I alternate some days) and now I realize that is a preposterous idea. Yes, she teaches 7-8-9 classes/week. Yes like ... Fri, 17 May 2013 12:49:37 EST Not much going on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352116 Per USPS tracking, bikini should arrive today <em>40</em> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> So the 17 Day diet, Cycle 1 I stuck to pretty good. Got very...agitated...towards the end with the limited (BORING!!) food choices, but did manage to go from 161-162ish to 155.8. <BR> <BR> The weekend was a bit of a train wreck, reminding me of why uber-restrictive diets are just not for me. However, I still think it was a good thing to do, because I find myself now questioning one SMALL "slip" these ... Fri, 10 May 2013 12:05:00 EST Best BIKINI BODY advice EVER!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350796 ******************************************<BR>***************** <BR> (Sorry, it DOES contain a bad word. I love a well placed f-bomb, but I wish this were edited for all audiences. Please don't continue reading if this offends. I feel bad, but the message itself is SO powerful!) <BR> ****************************************<BR>******************* <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1715398163.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And I am going to try very, very hard to remember this... Thu, 9 May 2013 09:43:57 EST