CECE0330's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CECE0330 CECE0330's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 6...feeling like 60 since my beloved chocolate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585968 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Oh man. I'm sitting here wondering WHY WHY WHY do I have to do this to myself???? Can't I surely just sneak a little chocolate, a cube of cheese? Some wine???? I mean, I know why: I was completely OUT OF CONTROL ON THE FOOD FRONT. Witness New Year's Brunch: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l575840585.jpg"> <BR> If I close my eyes, I can taste the warm sugary goodness of those cinnamon rolls....and in the crock pot? Heaven, it w... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 18:09:48 EST On Day 5 of 17 Day Diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584244 And I fell off the face of the earth AGAIN. The end of 2013 totally and completely kicked my behind for sooo many reasons, and I let myself get caught up in some pretty horrific emotional eating, on top of holiday eating. The result was not good at all. By New Year's Eve, I felt (um, and looked) about 4 months pregnant. Granted, I had gone on a huge grain/sugar binge the prior weekend, so what did I expect, really?? <BR> <BR> Anyway, decided actually mid-gluttonous phase that a det... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 12:02:51 EST Dropped off the face of the earth, but back now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555209 Good grief. Been gone since August this time around. I wish I could say that after all this time, and weight lost, I don't NEED Spark People, but uh, that is not the case at all. <BR> <BR> Went on my Caribbean vacation, and it was sooooooo wonderful. Had a great time lounging, hanging with my BFF, and seeing the ocean for the first time. <BR> <BR> Then I came home and dealt with a whole sh!tstorm of stress at work, in zumba, and at home. And now I'm sitting here feeling really an... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 15:57:59 EST Two amazing (to me anyway) things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459901 1. My Zumba mentor/BFF and I co-teach crazy early a.m. zumba to a FABULOUS group of ladies (about 15 of them). Mentor recently got Aqua Zumba licensed, and wanted to test out some choreo on the ladies, and just have a nice little get-together afterward, potluck & BYOB (one of the ladies has an in-ground pool). We did this Friday night, and while I'm not a fan of AZ myself, overall it was a blast, as we had a great time socializing after. It was a great bonding experience not only with s... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 12:43:40 EST 16 days til the Caribbean! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454055 Yeah, the 30 day challenge train derailed and never quite got back on track. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l843129148.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm fine with that. I came to this realization that I just need to be OK with me NOW. I keep striving for "perfection" as I imagine it in my mind, but it's going to take true dedication and sacrifice to get to THAT high standard, which is something like this: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l123594974.jpg"... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 13:46:34 EST Total and complete derailment (aka Day 15) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445147 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Friday was fine. Saturday was set up for failure. I did my class from 10:30-11:30, showered quick at the Y, then headed to a Lia Sophia party where I was able to eat some yogurt w/frui... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 11:07:40 EST Day 12....and logging is a real drag sometimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442275 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Didn't log calories yesterday. Honestly it's just a PIA when you make a recipe (paleo banana pancakes) and I don't feel like bothering with the hassle. Logging calories in general is... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 12:30:09 EST Day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441012 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> I'm happy to still be plugging along on Day 11, but this is the time usually when I start getting a little sloppy. Yesterday I had 2 Godiva truffles, and NO veggies (WHA?!?!?!??) and ... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 12:03:33 EST ....and here we are on Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439608 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> (Ok, time seems to be DRAGGING now!!!) I did feel very devil-may-care last night, and I did NOT log my calories (maybe i'll go back in and do that today) but I did manage to keep it toge... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 10:26:20 EST Day 9....and here's the slip-up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438428 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Well, Day 8 was not so hot. Ate even more of the dark chocolate acai blueberry dealies. oops. Did not drink my water (only 4 cups) and vegetables were practically non existent. Bah... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 10:21:23 EST Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437608 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Feeling so incredibly sleeeeeepy after lunch!!! Not sure what that is all about. Probably not the best idea, but I bought some dark chocolate covered acai/blueberry thingees at lunch. ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 16:41:23 EST Day 7 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436477 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Well, it's the weekend and I'm holding strong. Need to get groceries so I can continue to stay strong throughout the week; it's the pits when you are out of just about everythin... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 18:06:47 EST A weekend entry! Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435805 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Holding strong! No gluten, drank water, lots of fruits & veggies, no cake. I did have a bloody mary, but that's a vegetable, right? <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> I feel like I sn... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 00:28:24 EST Boring, i know, but Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5434125 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> (this is getting stale, but it's helping keep me on track!) <BR> <BR> OK, so good calories yesterday, good protein, good veggies, no gluten, drank my water. ... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 10:35:44 EST Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432885 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Moving right along! OK day yesterday. I fell short on protein, and fat grams were high on account of those Paleo waffles (leftovers I had for lunch). I know it was GOOD fat and not b... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 09:40:23 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431628 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> Almost 10% done! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Drank a TON of water yesterday, did really good on the food front. Though I did make the "mistake" of putting in the Paleo Parents Waffle r... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 09:33:46 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430384 ****30 DAY CHALLENGE**** <BR> 1. blog progress/setbacks <BR> 2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays. <BR> 3. Avoid alcohol like the plague <BR> 4. better balance on veggies over fruits <BR> 5. lean meats & protein galore. <BR> 6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN. <BR> 7. log calories <BR> 8. Run once/week <BR> <BR> So yesterday wasn't too shabby. I DID drink water, limit my fruits, increased veggies, got good protein and no gluten/grains, logged EVERYTHING.....but did have a glass of white wine. ... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 09:42:28 EST . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429539 Writing this to really just kind of get my @$$ in gear. I have issues, as I've discussed before. Top of the list is simply NOT CARING ENOUGH to eat how I am supposed to be eating. As a result, my goal weight is long gone, and I just don't feel as good about myself. The areas where the weight loves to stick when I'm carrying this extra 10-15 lbs...well, it IS noticeable. <BR> <BR> I tell myself i'm going to do "x, y, and z" about it, but then I don't. Then I think "well, clearly I ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 15:13:32 EST T Minus 43 Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424022 What the heck is "t minus" anyway? Takeoff in minus "x" minutes? You know how you use phrases but never really think about their origin... <BR> <BR> Anywho. <BR> <BR> 43 Days: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1812747023.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm likely driving everyone insane with my counting down, but listen, I have not had an honest-to-god vacation since 2000!!!!! 13 YEARS AGO PEOPLE!!!!! lol. And it was nice to go to San Fransisco for a week, it really... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 10:16:48 EST Dang it all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422110 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l78061920.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You ever make out a nice little budget with everything nice & neat & taken care of....then totally and completely BLOW it???? *sigh* Been having this "summer living" mentality happening; impromptu BBQs, pool parties, etc. Happened last weekend and between bringing some flowers for the most gracious host, a 12 pack of Corona, and paying our share of the BBQ, plus bringing grapes, drinks for the kids, etc, that l... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 16:46:26 EST Random thoughts for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417750 49 Days til I'm here: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1045653043.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Super excited! I've only been out of the country once, when I was 15, to Nogales Mexico (about as anti-touristy of a place as one could find) with a friend who lives just north of the border in Arizona. You didn't even need passports back then. Ha, funny (bad!) story: My friends and I were angels, really, didn't drink, smoke, got good grades, were very innocent. We sneaked ... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 11:00:22 EST I LOVE this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414194 Read an article by Shelley Emling this weekend: Dear Daughter, 13 Things I Want You to Know on Your 13th Birthday <BR> <BR> "3. It is usually not about you. <BR> As you grow older, don't worry so much about sucking your tummy in, or making sure there's not a hair out of place. Most of the time, no one is looking. Really. People like to think everyone is focused on them but, in actuality, people are usually focused on themselves. And if someone does something to you that's hurtful, it's almos... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 10:28:28 EST Big time DETOX today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411687 Went to my sister's house in middle-of-nowhere WI to watch my niece while my brand-spanking new niece was being delivered: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1589405209.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Over the course of 4 days took my girls +1 to the zoo, and I lost track of how many parks (the key to minding three kids? TIRE THEM OUT!!! lol) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l312484181.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2074902... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 16:34:44 EST Weekend Recap (and will somebody PLEASE SLAP ME) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400137 Busy weekend! <BR> <BR> Friday night we visited our local City Market event, which is a farmer's market/crafters market/foodie paradise. There's musical entertainment, and it's done a lot to revitalize our modest downtown. It was hot, so we didn't stay too long. Had some frozen yogurt & a Limearita. Yum. Oh yeah, two steak tacos too. OMG, they are soooo delicious, gluten be darned. <BR> <BR> Saturday was class, my first 31 party, and then a zumbathon to benefit a small city f... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 11:39:10 EST R.I.P., T http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396228 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l423666000.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm really sad about the passing of James Gandolfini. He was a great actor, and will be missed by many. <BR> <BR> It makes me think though of all the people out there, my BIL in particular, who are not taking care of themselves (and obviously I have no clue of cause of death here, but it seems for men in particular, heart attacks at this young age are so common, and PREVENTABLE. And of course not just men, ei... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 11:11:44 EST Well that's just dumb. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395026 So I've been *trying* to keep the budget on a shoestring due to the big vacation (9 months and counting). This means I've been trying to put EVERY EXTRA cent I have on the Big Kahuna credit card. (very brief history: my credit cards got scary while I was waiting not-so-patiently for YEARS for DH to get full time employment at UPS. I paid off one last year, and now, after this family vacation, will work on paying off the others. CREDIT CARDS ARE EVIL!!) But in the meantime, I'm making e... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 10:06:07 EST Weekend recap & Random thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391872 Random thought #1: Oh yeah! True Blood is back, baby! I'm always sad when a show I love ends for the season, but True Blood last night went a loooong way to help me cope with the end of Game of Thrones. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l284917463.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> That hour went so incredibly fast! Added bonus, Mad Men is winding down, but still on, so two hours of perfect TV viewing last night. It's the little things sometimes.... <BR> ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 10:56:36 EST How do I feel? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389091 Pretty good! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Got up this morning for a run (2nd Friday in a row...I can see a pattern coming back into play! YAY!) of 3.3 miles. Went pretty good, though my knee was hurting me a little bit. But Day 2 of being DONE with the scale, and I find (so far) I'm not obsessing over what that number might be. I've made good food choices this week, have been drinking a ton of water, have gotten my normal workouts in..... <BR> <BR> .....here's a funny aside for the zum... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 12:58:36 EST I think I'm done weighing myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387954 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1364173092.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have an unhealthy obsession with the scale. I can't even tell you how many times I have woken up feeling GOOD; lean, fit, strong, only to step on the scale and be totally crushed by the number not backing me up. But I think I have finally realized today that IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I WEIGH, despite the fact that every doctor's appointment starts with a weigh-in and BMI charts are everywhere, constantly proc... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 11:37:41 EST Today's blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386832 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Gluten free for 3 days now, and my fingers no longer hurt. Also, I could walk DOWN the stairs without having to move sideways, and "baby step" down. Yay! <BR> <BR> But food....food is driving me CRAZY right now in my brain. I like the Paleo lifestyle because it lines up with a lot of what I believe in as far as eating goes: <BR> <BR> <em>496</em> lean organic meats <BR> <em>277</em> fruits <BR> <em>267</em> vegetables <BR> <em>490</em> eggs <BR>... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 10:49:41 EST Gluten is just plain eeeeeevil. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385807 <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> For my body anyway. I was telling my SIL this weekend that the cycle for me was: <BR> <BR> 1. achy knees <BR> 2. knock out gluten <BR> 3. Yay! WAY better knees! <BR> 4. Oops, eat gluten <BR> 5. Tendonitis in arm and achy hip <BR> 6. knock out gluten <BR> 7. Yay! Back to feeling good! <BR> 8. D'oh! eat gluten <BR> <BR> and after this weekend's gluten binge (seriously, WHEN will I learn?!??!?!?!) <BR> I now have incredibly achy fingers on my right hand. ... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 12:16:30 EST Better make that 80 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384739 Wondering if they have a clinic here that will wire my jaw shut on the weekends. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Ugh. I'm in a funk. Trying to get out of it, really I am. <BR> <BR> Ok choices so far today, but we're getting to the end of the groceries in the house, so it's slim pickings. Won't go reload until Thursday evening. <BR> <BR> *sigh* <BR> <BR> I just need.....something. Not sure what. Mon, 10 Jun 2013 15:29:55 EST "83 Day challenge" just doesn't have the same ring.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381270 <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> But it's what I have to work with, and yesterday, FINALLY, it clicked with me: If I want change, I need to freaking make it happen. So my goals for the next 83 days: <BR> <BR> 1. Blog daily to help with accountability <BR> 2. Get back into REGULAR running, working back up to 6 on Sundays (long day) <BR> 3. Stop being dumb with food choices <BR> 4. CURB THE LITTLE SPENDING. This is hard. Really hard, especially since every time I turn around there seems t... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 10:02:45 EST Ah....much better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380291 The girls and I passed out snuggling last night around 9:30. Woke up squished in between them around 11 or so and carried the little one (ha, not so little anymore! It's not easy maneuvering 46 lbs!) to bed and the oldest wanted to "watch cartoons" I swear sometimes I don't know whose child she is! <BR> <BR> But anyway, since I didn't have to get up til 6:15 today (!) that means I got a good 8-9 hours of sleep! Wahoo! And no crazy sugar binges yet today, so that's good too. Stocked... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 11:55:13 EST I NEED TO STOP EATING!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379370 Wow. Freaking hormones! I need an "off" switch for crying out loud. <BR> <BR> That's about my only thought for today. <em>334</em> Super tired....told my 10 year old I was going to bed, and she could stay up til 10:30. I had 5:30 a.m. class yesterday and today, and was exhausted last night and needing good sleep to face class this morning. Yeah. She came in and WOKE ME UP at 10:30 to ask if she could stay up later. <em>234</em> Um, NO. Especially not now that you wok... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 16:48:19 EST I NEED TO STOP EATING!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379369 Wow. Freaking hormones! I need an "off" switch for crying out loud. <BR> <BR> That's about my only thought for today. <em>334</em> Super tired....told my 10 year old I was going to bed, and she could stay up til 10:30. I had 5:30 a.m. class yesterday and today, and was exhausted last night and needing good sleep to face class this morning. Yeah. She came in and WOKE ME UP at 10:30 to ask if she could stay up later. <em>234</em> Um, NO. Especially not now that you wok... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 16:48:18 EST 90 Days til the Caribbean! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373553 <em>218</em> <em>67</em> <em>274</em> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> So that means time to stop jacking around and really, really focus on making good choices. I don't have to be perfect as I'm sitting there on the beach, but I DO want to think to myself at that moment: There is NOTHING ELSE I could have done to feel as confident as possible. <BR> <BR> It remains to be seen if I actually have the guts to wear a freaking BIKINI in public. <em>334</em> Though since i didn't exactl... Fri, 31 May 2013 10:56:06 EST WTF. I quit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364441 <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> OK, not really. But I am annoyed. I'm up THREE lbs this week. Not even week, as i weighed myself Sat and am now up 3 lbs in 4 DAYS. <BR> <BR> *sigh* <BR> <BR> It's so annoying. There are a number of potential causes: <BR> ~hormones. Whee <BR> ~muscle fatigue. I swear, when my muscles hurt like they do now, I ALWAYS weigh more. Think I read once that you retain more water as your muscles try to "repair" themselves. Maybe I'm just pulling that out of my ... Wed, 22 May 2013 10:36:29 EST UGH. Pushed myself too far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362560 <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> Last week: <BR> <BR> Mon: 5:30 a.m. Zumba <BR> Tue: 5:30 a.m. Toning <BR> Wed: 5:30 a.m. Sentao <BR> 5:45 p.m. Toning <BR> Thu: 6:30 p.m. Zumba <BR> Fri: 5:30 a.m. Zumba <BR> 7:00 p.m. Toning demo (30 min, but also followed along to some Sentao) <BR> Sat: 10:30 a.m. Zumba <BR> <BR> I think I would have been OK if it weren't toning/sentao/toning all crammed in together. My quads HURT HURT HURT. Like they are on FIRE hurt. There... Mon, 20 May 2013 17:26:33 EST "My BFF went to Europe and all I got was 10 extra zumba classes" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359321 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I'm gonna put that on a tee shirt. BFF and her hubby (my co-teacher for 2 classes/week) are in Europe on a delayed honeymoon for TWO WEEKS. We're nearing the end of week 1 here, and man alive I am EXHAUSTED. The good news about that is: I had sometimes wondered if I should pick up more classes (my normal schedule is between 4-6 weekly since I alternate some days) and now I realize that is a preposterous idea. Yes, she teaches 7-8-9 classes/week. Yes like ... Fri, 17 May 2013 12:49:37 EST Not much going on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352116 Per USPS tracking, bikini should arrive today <em>40</em> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> So the 17 Day diet, Cycle 1 I stuck to pretty good. Got very...agitated...towards the end with the limited (BORING!!) food choices, but did manage to go from 161-162ish to 155.8. <BR> <BR> The weekend was a bit of a train wreck, reminding me of why uber-restrictive diets are just not for me. However, I still think it was a good thing to do, because I find myself now questioning one SMALL "slip" these ... Fri, 10 May 2013 12:05:00 EST Best BIKINI BODY advice EVER!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350796 ******************************************<BR>***************** <BR> (Sorry, it DOES contain a bad word. I love a well placed f-bomb, but I wish this were edited for all audiences. Please don't continue reading if this offends. I feel bad, but the message itself is SO powerful!) <BR> ****************************************<BR>******************* <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1715398163.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And I am going to try very, very hard to remember this... Thu, 9 May 2013 09:43:57 EST The industrialization of food in the U.S. is scary & sad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349706 I feel pretty educated when it comes to nutrition. Not that I always am smart about my choices, but if I eat something not-so-great for me, at least I UNDERSTAND what makes it not so great. <BR> <BR> It's so confusing to the average person though: A hodgepodge of reports by "professionals" gets thrown out to the public with crazy conflicting info. People assume that things marked "low fat" and "lower calorie" are better for you than the less chemically altered full-fat versions. <BR> <... Wed, 8 May 2013 10:49:24 EST Alright...it's ON, cuz i just bought this bikini: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348394 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1793025552.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <em>40</em> <em>40</em> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I've been stalking the internet, flagging styles I think I can live with-no point in even going to the stores because the tops are usually laughable. And manufactures assume if you're big up top, you're big all around. <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> I decided to just poke around on ebay to see what brands I liked that might be available for cheape... Tue, 7 May 2013 09:25:03 EST Random thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347667 Or maybe not entirely random. I've decided I'm totally bi-polar when it comes to food. Not gonna whine & moan about what I ate this weekend, which was most assuredly NOT in keeping with Cycle 2 of the 17 Day Diet and was unfortunately also not gluten free. Yeah. Paid for that big time with a horrid stomach ache and other unpleasantness this morning. <BR> <BR> Today I'm back to "normal" eating. Not even sure what that is anymore for me, but so far I've had: Organic all natural apples... Mon, 6 May 2013 17:18:09 EST EPIC FAIL last night and now I'm crabby and frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5341825 Well to be fair I was crabby last night, before I went on a crazy (for me, anyway) binge. *sigh* <BR> <BR> I was at 156.2 yesterday, and I know if I had held strong I could have been at 155 something this morning. I don't know what happened....well, OK, maybe I DO know what happened, in part....but anyway, after work I had a lame salad of romaine lettuce, chicken breast, and parmesan cheese. That was problem #1, but I was in a hurry because we had some errands to do. So I ate, then l... Wed, 1 May 2013 10:16:52 EST Day 14 of 17 Day Diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339682 Haven't weighed myself since Saturday (156, my lowest so far on this plan), but I did hold pretty strong over the weekend. Had game night Saturday and ate: turkey burger, tomatoes, zucchini, carrots, and cottage cheese. No real desire for the chips present, and the pan of brownies only reminded me how anxious I am to try the Paleo brownies I recently bookmarked. No alcohol, no sugar. Hooray! <BR> I will admit that if there had been marshmallows present around the fire pit, i might hav... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 15:47:25 EST I just don't get people who won't even TRY to help themselves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338435 Anyone who has been on Spark for a while, attempted to lose weight and/or get in shape knows: IT IS NOT EASY. It takes constant vigilance, sacrifice, and determination to push yourself harder than you ever have. <BR> <BR> It's one thing to be obese and simply not be ready to make all the necessary changes needed, but quite another to be obese, on multiple medications, feeling miserable ALL THE TIME and still unable to scrounge up enough gumption to TRY to make things better. <BR> <BR... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 16:36:40 EST Happy Thursday :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335360 This is the bikini I'm eyeballing (though it does not look very supportive up top...) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l931733816.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And I actually ordered this top: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l192487771.jpg"> <BR> Because for the sale price of 4.98 (hey, for once being a "freak" size worked in my favor!) it's worth a shot as a backup. Even if it's awful, with shipping I'm only out $10. If nothing else, I will hang it ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 13:38:21 EST I just like food. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334022 <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> For 9 days now my diet has consisted of lean protein, fruits, veggies, eggs, and some greek yogurt or cottage cheese. <BR> <BR> No iced caramel macchiato from Starbucks. No chocolate from the candy dish at work. No gluten free brownies. No quinoa. No delicious vanilla bean banana pancakes (made without grain using coconut flour) from PaleOMG. <BR> <BR> And I'm cranky. <BR> <BR> Really cranky. I'm tired of this limited food selection. I know it's just 1... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 10:57:15 EST