CDCSMITH2013's SparkPeople Blog CDCSMITH2013's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Photos of what I'm stocking up on for post-op I won't show pictures of the liquid diet items, but I'll give you an inventory none the less. One of my problems is food allergies, particularly to corn, so all Ensure products are off the table so to speak. I've managed to get 18 protein drinks, lots of fruit and veggie drinks, chicken broth, and beef broth. <BR> <BR> Now for the fun stuff. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Ripper Street. I don't watch a lot of television, but I... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 18:39:58 EST Trying to organize before surgery Next month is FINALLY the surgery on my jaw. I'll be out of work for 3 weeks. For some period of time, I won't be allowed to drive. I'm also the one who does all the bill paying and grocery shopping so I need to plan things out. <BR> <BR> First is gaining weight which is just so foreign to me after losing and maintaining, but that is what I need to do. As of today, I'm at 125. The DR would like to see me at something more like 135 since the potential to drop 10% of my weight is very rea... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 12:51:35 EST Things could be worse doesn't mean things don't suck This is entirely a 1st world vent with attempts to off-set it. Yes, things could be so much worse, but that doesn't mean life is all happy and good. <BR> <BR> My middle son is smart and talented and lazy. My side of the family has struggled with depression for generations. I've dealt with it myself. There is a balance to be walked. This may or may not factor into my middle son (aka - the boy) and his current school issues. I'm inclined to believe not, but I can't very well say it isn... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 06:50:32 EST How this Pagan does Advent When I attended the Unitarian-Universalist church, there was a giving tree for advent. I liked the idea then and I still try to follow it. Back then they told us what to bring, so week 1 might have been gloves, hats, mittens, week 2 might have been toothpaste, floss, and tooth brushes, etc. <BR> <BR> The kid and I decided to do a 50-50 split between animals and people. We donated a bag of cat food to the cat shelter. While we were there the kid played with Tigger (who is absolutely lovea... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 20:00:45 EST December with a semi-fresh start This is not my usual fresh start when I've lost focus of my goals, though it does have some of that too. <BR> <BR> This month, I have a few different kinds of goals and I thought it would be best to get it all down on er, um, electronic paper. <BR> <BR> Writing. I want to do a re-write of my Halloween story, but I have an awful lot of research to do. I can be a research junkie, but I was feeling a tad overwhelmed with my list, but after talking with my mom, I think I have a visual organ... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 19:10:03 EST A Very short Happy Thanksgiving blog <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My 9 year old started a comic book series. This was his Thanksgiving greeting to his fan base. <BR> <BR> Thu, 27 Nov 2014 07:09:03 EST The best parts of yesterday with many photos Yesterday was the first day without the neighbors. The last day with them went about as smoothly as it could've really. The kid held it together until we went home and the family headed to the airport. <BR> <BR> This first shot is the photo of the kids. Johnny, Dylan in the middle, and Anna. I couldn't get them to be serious, so this is the last photo of the 3 of them. It's somehow fitting. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 19:39:57 EST Tomorrow will be a sad day Roughly 3 years ago, our neighbors moved in. They fit rather well with the core group. The N family has 3 kids, the oldest son is the same age as the daughter in the O family. The son in the O family is in the same grade as the younger boy in the N family and my kid. <BR> <BR> The O family is moving from our corner of the world (Massachusetts) to Arizona tomorrow. The last month has been a mad dash to get the kids involved in making memories. They marched in the town Halloween parade,... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 14:52:00 EST Halloween around my house - a blog of photos <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This was me at work. The other witch is actually from our sister company. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The kid doing homework with his newest friend. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The kid and me before trick-or-treating begins <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 1 Nov 2014 12:09:59 EST A weekend update, zombies, parties, and parades, oh my! This Saturday was a true test of the limits to my sanity. The zombie 5K. Just a reminder... I LOATHE running and I'm scared to death of zombies. It also was the same day as the annual family Halloween party. I still have no idea of why I did it, but I can assure you it will NEVER happen again. My new policy for 5K running is that there needs to be Guinness at the end and men in kilts cheering me on while I'm running. The race wasn't chip timed. The race clock was set to the starting ho... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 07:33:36 EST Quick update and photos from New Hampshire First, Spot the tick. The nurse said it was a female dog tick and another group said a female black legged deer tick - probably. Either way, the meds should eradicate anything either one might have passed along. Those antibiotics have wreaked havoc on my digestive system though. Should have gotten some probiotics. In any case, it looks fine. <BR> <BR> On a better note, we went camping in Hew Hampshire this past long weekend. Now I'm going to flood this blog with assorted photos. We to... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 08:44:12 EST The email I sent at work To preface, I have an immediate supervisor, a boss (boss of both of us, but I used to answer directly to him, so I always still keep him in the loop), my payroll person (who is also a work friend), and a co-worker who is friends with my dad and I just like to let him know stuff. And now the email, subject line: In an effort to keep you all amused <BR> <BR> Long version: I’d like to introduce you all to Spot, as in “Out damn spot,” words spoken so well by Lady Macbeth. Spot is a tick, you’... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 08:07:18 EST Sunday was all about taking a mental health day The weather for Sunday was unseasonably warm. The high temps were in the mid-July range. My husband mentioned we could drive down the Cape (Cape Cod) and go to one of the National Seashore beaches. <BR> <BR> Now I love the beach. I'm a little weird in that I prefer going on overcast days that are chilly. The perfect beach attire for those days would be jeans rolled up a bit for walking in the water and a sweater. But I'll take the beach on a traditional "beach day" too. Beggars can't... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 20:59:38 EST Check list for my 5k's Not so much a check list. I'm just trying to gage where I've timed in the 3 5k's I've run so I can make a realistic goal for the zombie run next month. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The first one ever, was post injury and honestly, I am very proud of my time on that one. It also happens to be the best one to date. 37:14. I was the 95th female and the 167th overall. <BR> <BR> I don't have a photo of me for the 2nd 5k, but it was... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 16:34:00 EST What a difference in my mood The issue with the orthodontist/surgeon was more of a weight on my mood that I think I realized. I knew I was incredibly frustrated, but I didn't see how much that frustration pulled me down until some of it lifted. <BR> <BR> Quick background for those unfamiliar - I've needed jaw surgery for a while and I have all sorts of reasons or excuses why (at one point I didn't have insurance and that really is a valid reason, the rest are really excuses because I'm terrified about the prospect of s... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 09:45:30 EST Hearts and Hands Walk for Autism This past Saturday, the kid and I did a walk-a-thon for a local group called Community Autism Resources. It was the 11th annual Hearts and Hands Walk for Autism. It's a great agency that does all sorts of things to help families with someone in the Autism spectrum. I mean, truly a family program. They have events for grandparents, siblings, of course the parents and the children who have autism as well. They have lending libraries, family friendly events, advocates, help when dealing wit... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 20:25:19 EST Life is good It has been a good, oddly calm feeling weekend for the most part, which I really needed. Work really has sucked of late. Short version is there have been a lot of things that are , if not illegal, certainly immoral. Nothing like putting people at risk for dying or anything grand like that, but things that a normal company, the HR department would've cracked down on someone for, so Fridays take on a new level of relief. <BR> <BR> Saturday, the city my husband and I work in, had a celebrati... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 15:16:22 EST The surgery sage... Before I agreed to this fixing of my jaw (my jaw is longer on one side than the other and because of that, my teeth don't match as they should and I've started to do "catastrophic" damage merely in the act of eating), I was told 9-12 months in braces, surgery and recovery, another 9-12 months in braces. I've had the braces now for 17 months. No changes in the orthodontic works since the end of March when the orthodontist felt I was ready for surgery. The surgeon, when I met with him, disag... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 16:50:42 EST Body images and teachable moments I won't lie. For whatever reason, probably multiple, I have a lousy self image of my appearance. I don't ever remember feeling good about how I looked for days at a time. I was picked on in school for being fat, ugly, weird. I coped by embracing my weird and maybe even exaggerating it. I figured I couldn't do anything about ugly. Ah, but my weight... now there is something I could control. I've been overweight as an adult, but never as a kid. If anything, I was probably skinny. After... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 07:10:50 EST Not so much a blog This was my ALS ice bucket challenge that my friend nominated me to do. The kid wanted to be nominated as did my mother. My 3rd nomination went to Graham Norton of The Graham Norton Show (BBC). I'm sure he will never see it, and even if he did, I certainly wouldn't expect him to accept, but it would be rather cool if he did. Mon, 18 Aug 2014 19:32:04 EST Catching up part one - vacation I looked at the last time I blogged and I am a bit embarrassed to say it's been a while. It's been busy. So what has been going on in the last couple of months? <BR> <BR> VACATION!!! Oh how I needed it this year and I was literally counting down the hours towards the end of it. It was an exceptionally great one too. We spent 10 days in more or less my old stomping grounds of Cape Cod, MA and it was, for the mot part, wonderful. The kid got to kayak for the first time. <img src="http:/... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 17:41:03 EST Something of a surgury update Something in that I went to the surgeon today thinking I'd be going over the surgical stuff (post and pre-op) so I brought my husband since I knew I wouldn't be able to retain any of it and he'd be the one dealing with the post-op rules. <BR> <BR> Turns out he would like more orthodontics first. It's close. Really close. But if he did it now, it would be much more involved. So we wait. He and the orthodontist will be sitting down one on one to discuss what is next but it is starting to ... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 17:47:39 EST Things that have nothing to do with eating or exercise 1) The kid was eliminated from the baseball playoffs. First team to be eliminated. Good news is that means no more baseball for me for a while (I find it very stressful). On a good note, he has the art show tonight (not competitive - any elementary school aged kid in town could enter). <BR> <BR> 2) A book I've wanted for YEARS arrived today. I'm torn between wanting to hide out and read it without stopping and trying to savor it reading it slowly. It is officially not released until tom... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 17:34:41 EST The kid quits running and I quit eating Well the kid's enthusiasm for running has ended. All he wants to run now is the same event we ran this past weekend. Mostly because of the post race stuff. I'm actually good with this. I see so many kids pushing themselves (or worse, being pushed by adults) to do things that are too tough on their little bodies. There were so many kids when I was at PT last year (prime after school time appointments) and almost all of these kids were there because of sports injuries. So I'm actually goo... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 18:50:38 EST The kid's first 5K The kid trash talked for most of the week leading up to the 5K on Saturday. He felt sure he was going to run the entire 5K while I was only going to "run" the 5K. Well, I haven't really trained for this one. I was pretty much planning on walking it. I've tried multiple times to do the C25K training, but every time I end up with my knees feeling less than stellar, so I've stopped and semi-throw in the towel. I HATE running, but the control freak in me is having a hard time letting go of t... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 10:23:44 EST Another 5K on the agenda I'm fiercely (and secretively) competitive. My company started a "Wellness" team. This would be right up my alley, but to be honest, the team is waaaaay too big for the size of my company and for the most part, aside from the HR people that sort of have to be a part of it, I don't much care for the rest of the team. They joined for the wrong reasons in most cases. They're in it for the show and I have no tolerance for that. <BR> <BR> With this in mind, I signed up for a company promoted ... Wed, 21 May 2014 09:09:23 EST Well that changes everything This jaw surgery that has been looming in my future has been one royal pain after another. Originally, the treatment plan was braces for 9-12 months, followed by surgery, followed by another 9-12 months of braces. My teeth weren't so willing to migrate, so instead of 9-12 months, we are at 14 and counting. However, we are close enough that there was no adjustment made at my last appointment. <BR> <BR> Impressions were made, photos take of my face much like when someone is being booked aft... Tue, 20 May 2014 13:33:53 EST A look back and a peek ahead I saw some new goodies on my Spark page this morning. I was being congratulated on my 1st anniversary of being in maintenance mode. Cool. I knew it was coming, but it sort of snuck up on me. Yay me. I've tended to run more in a seasonal cycle of weight loss/weight gain, so being able to stay in my range the entire year, has been a new experience. The year hasn't been the easiest so maybe that makes it more significant to me. <BR> <BR> Looking ahead, next week I head back to the ortho... Mon, 12 May 2014 10:42:20 EST Wet and chilly day, but it went well I've been and will probably continue to be out of sorts for a few more days. That said, today was the walk-a-thon that I got a team together for. The Cobb Street Quad. There are 4 families that get along reasonably well and we walked together for School on Wheels. It's a program for homeless kids doing everything from tutoring and mentoring, to supplying backpacks and supplies. <BR> <BR> The weather forecast was the first hurdle. I thought for sure we would have drop outs. But I am p... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 13:23:27 EST Really need to update my blog more I believe my goal was 3x/week. Now I'm lucky if I manage one a week. <BR> <BR> I've been very busy, but not with things worthy of sharing for the most part. Baseball season is back so that means practices and games that are at least 90 minutes long. Having 3 or 4 of those in a week makes everything else that needs doing, a tight squeeze. <BR> <BR> I noticed I was at week 47 of maintenance this week. Kind of cool. I'm on the high end of the range, but this is semi on purpose. I need ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 12:39:27 EST Random updates from the week thus far So far, the word on my father in law is that he did NOT have a stroke. I'm going with this being good news since I've had two grandparents who had them - one resulting in death within a couple of days, the other went on to live for years with additional "mini-strokes" and varying degrees of recovery, none of which were anything close to full. However, the 2 doctors on his case seem to have very different opinions on things. Hopefully we will kow more today. My husband though, is having so... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 07:09:57 EST The transitions Change can be good or bad. It is inevitable. The only thing that stays the same is change? Might be misquoting that. <BR> <BR> My husband is at the hospital with his dad. Not sure what the issue is exactly, but my husband, who is not prone to being overly dramatic, says he isn't good. My husband is in his late 50's so his parents aren't exactly young. <BR> <BR> I'm not even sure what it is I'm saying really other than our family being in the midsts of transitions. Kids becoming adu... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 14:02:21 EST The bandwagon I don't have a lot of excess income. In fact, there have been more occasions than I care to recount that groceries were done on a charge card out of necessity. This means I can't throw a lot of money out to causes I believe are important, so I have to go about other ways of helping. For me, doing walk-a-thons work well. I have 2 standards - one for a local agency that helps people and families impacted by Autism (a cause near and dear to me because of my oldest) and food allergies (also n... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 08:54:54 EST The boy is famous! Okay, that is a smidge of an exaggeration. You have to understand that this was a rather shy kid. He had friends and actually made them easily, but it was work for him. So when he signed up for drama club in high school, initially only to play a bit part (guitar player), it was a shock when he ended up playing 3 roles. In the senior class play, he was the male lead. And not, in college, he's on a poster. My husband, the kid, and I will be heading out to see him Saturday in this play. <i... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 15:50:40 EST If it isn't one thing, it's another Things could be worse. They really could, so I'll try to stay as upbeat as I can. I'll also try to stay as on track as I can. <BR> <BR> Our heating system died. It's the furnace. It's the end of March and it's been a cold one at that. However, it is the end of March. This would have been worse to contend with 3 or 4 months ago. It's only going to get warmer (in a general sense) going forward, so we will deal with it. I think this is going to be an expensive fix though and I have othe... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 08:51:19 EST Getting back on track There has been a lot of stuff going on lately that has made everything more difficult. Nothing major, but a lot of small things that after a while, I confess, I threw my hands up in disgust and pretty much said, "I give up." I didn't. Not really, but I definitely let far more slip than I could have. <BR> <BR> So today, I start getting myself to a routine I know I can do. Not speaking only of what I eat or how much I work out, but in trying to regain my balance in life in general. Mon, 24 Mar 2014 07:16:34 EST Minor workout glitch today I belong to Planet Fitness and a few months back, they became a 24 hour gym (Monday it opened at midnight and it didn't close again until sometime Friday night - the weekend maintained their former hours). This morning, I got there and was one of many waiting for the doors to open. Here's the thing, it was 4am at this point. The gym is on my way to work. If it isn't open, I need to either get ready at work or go back home and get ready for work. I waited until about 4:10 and headed back ... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 12:51:43 EST The best part of St. Patrick's Day being a Monday... We do a big Sunday dinner, so generally speaking, the Sunday before St. Patrick's Day is the big New England corned beef dinner. There are usually left-overs, in part because I buy the biggest slab of meat I can. It's one of my favorite meals and I get to have it twice a year. I make it last. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow when I'll be decked out all in black and green, I will also be eating left-overs. Not the Guinness probably, but the food to be sure. <BR> <BR> Later today, we settle in and wa... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 14:39:59 EST Celebrating St. Patrick's Day on Sunday I think the best way to explain my feelings about Ireland are to say my fascination is more than a hobby at this point, though I wouldn't say I was obsessed. The only beer I'll drink is Guinness. I've tried lots of different kinds over the years, but that is the only one I've enjoyed. For a long while my fascination with Ireland pretty much ended there. I am a fan of U2 and perhaps being a fan of the two planted the idea of visiting Dublin someday, in my head. <BR> <BR> I grew up south o... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 09:36:16 EST Weekend update Seriously getting myself back on track this week. I am still within the weight range, but I don't feel as good as I had been. <BR> <BR> Had a busy weekend. Friday, my mom brought home a cat from the shelter she works at. The kid is ecstatic about the new beast. Her shelter name was Maddy, but she has been renamed to Tiffan. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The kid and I went to the Snowflake Social Friday night. This means he and I were in... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 09:20:45 EST Books, the kid, and so forth Books first, or rather book first. The book, the book that I was so excited about reading, the final book in the trilogy... Very good. The ending could not have been more fitting or better written in my opinion. I worried a little (or a lot if I'm being honest about it) about that. I will lovingly put it in the bookcase, on the shelf with his brothers. <BR> <BR> The kid. Tonight is the Snowflake Social (formerly known as the mother-son/father-daughter dance). Last year, he was too co... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 07:46:20 EST Book addict? Me? Never. ;) I could quit reading anytime I wanted to. Sure I could. <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> I may be a tad compulsive when it comes to books. I know people more addicted than I am to the written word, but they are few. I have a few reading goals for this year. I have a HUGE TBR pile in my house and another long list of TBR that I don't own. There are many, many, many books on my kindle, and with the local radio stations going down the tubes, I've taken to listening to audiobooks in the car. <B... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 10:47:27 EST Quick blog about jaw surgery The orthodontist told me yesterday that they have June down for surgery. Unless it is the first week of June, I will be pushing it out until about the 2nd week in July. Why? Well The braces went much slower than I was told (9-12 months). I'm at a year now. We go on our one big camping trip a year at the end of June, first week in July. It's already booked and it is the only time my husband and I get to take all that time off together. We're going. By the end of August, I should be jus... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 04:23:19 EST Of science fairs and snow <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just because I like snow. I will not be so fond of sudden, completely unexpected snow squalls in May, but in February, they rock (so says The Snow Queen). <BR> <BR> My son, my youngest, my last... is participating in his school science fair next month. I have a long list of complaints about how they do it now. A 1 page research paper, scientific method is optional, this is not really a science fair so much as a... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 20:19:50 EST Annual physical I got some sort of weird numbers from my blood work last year so I was a tad hesitant going to the doctor today. Everything was back to my normal. I was given a risk of less than .5% of dying of stroke or heart attack based on my current numbers, in spite of family history, so that was pretty cool. <BR> <BR> Also got to do a pelvic exam. Probably best I didn't know that ahead of time. It isn't that they are all that horrid, but they aren't exactly the most relaxing experience either. <BR... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 20:13:22 EST Frustrated, tired, done Anyone who knows/follows me at all knows my oldest has autism (high functioning in that he can drive, though I am of the opinion he shouldn't, and holds a job). He lost his job last year but it is a rather tangled history to explain. Suffice it to say, after speaking with an advocate, we were told what was done was illegal. So I started to get the ball rolling to rectify that. This was back in early May. I would guess I've invested between 50-60 hours of time making calls, faxing paperwo... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 08:15:13 EST The new exercise bike My husband has a new exercise bike. It's a recumbent bike, very different than the stationary bike I use at the gym. I think I like it. I think it will actually help me with my somewhat obsessive reading goals. You see, I can use it and read at the same time. Easily. More easily than the bike at the gym. This could be dangerous - but in the best possible way. Sun, 16 Feb 2014 16:52:18 EST Quick update First, thanks for the comments about yesterday. Brief update (I promise). Things went pretty well all things considered. No major drama. The new surgeon, while very different from my other one, seems very good. In fact, if I had met both, I may have picked this guy over the other. He's more jovial where the other had a more dry sense of humor. But this guy knew just how petrified I am of going under the knife and really put as much at ease as I'm probably capable. <BR> <BR> He explaine... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 09:03:26 EST Why yes, I would like some cheese with my whine I'm having a rough time at the moment. It's been a tough year. Literally coming up on the anniversary date of when my oldest's world came crashing down (February 15th). There have been some gains there and in fact, he finally sees a psychiatrist that takes the state insurance on the 20th. This has been months in the making. He's been out of his meds since late August/early September and he can't get a new script until he meets with this person (probably for a month or so even though he h... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 06:49:19 EST Let's talk about being a reluctant runner for a minute Those of you who "know" me, know that last year I did the C25K program and managed to discover that I have "flexible knees" which isn't a good thing. Did the PT thing, got knee braces, tried doing the C25K thing again and any time I felt a twinge of the injury I had before, quit. I may be trying again. Why? Well, partly because I'm insane obviously. <em>20</em> But really, the bigger issue is that if I quit something, I want it to be because I want to, not because I'm not capable. I h... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 10:41:25 EST