CCISSEE's SparkPeople Blog CCISSEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A full month Not sure if I've ever stuck with this for a full month in a row before. I'm sure I have. But I'm excited that I have been fully tracking for a month now, and lost 10 pounds. Tomorrow is my actual month, so I'll weigh in then. I'm just happy to be consistent. <BR> The victoza is working, I guess. I started it on Tuesday (today is Saturday), and since I was already eating low calories, I don't see as much appetite suppression. But I lost weight, so there's that. Would I have lost it anyway? I d... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 09:53:14 EST accepting me... completely I don't have tons of willpower. I hate working out. I am lazy, and I like TV. I love good-for-me food, but an occasional gooey treat is awesome. I quit every diet, weight loss program, or "lifestyle change" I ever start. <BR> <BR> BUT... This is not a me-bashing blog, oh no! <BR> <BR> I've learned to accept me. I learned a while back that with my thin, straight hair, I am better off keeping it short & spiky. I learned that since I hate house cleaning, I'm best off having a cleaning lady com... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 09:15:13 EST we're working... we're working... So I'm working part time up at a different school helping them with some stuff. That's a whole different story, but it turns out to be a good amount of money. <BR> I have 2 interviews tomorrow in Houston, and that's really awesome. Neither is the job I'd dearly love (counselor), but they're jobs. <BR> I worked out today on my gazelle while watching Dr Who. I must say, this may be my new favorite anything. I can see myself waking up early enough to gazelle through an episode and then start my... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 12:30:51 EST I could be a nun (with Dr Who) I'm at the play therapy institute at the University of North Texas. <BR> First of all, I am staying in the dorm. I got a mini fridge and stocked it with stuff for my breakfast, lunch and dinner. Having Taco Bell or Chik-Fil-A in the student union for lunch really doesn't appeal. <BR> Breakfast has been a Yoplait 2x Greek yogurt, the kind with double protein in it, and a piece of fruit. Of all the Greek yogurts I've tried, I like this one best. The double protein is just a plus. A sandwich, ... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 20:41:46 EST fourth with the fam & my continuing saga I'm in Houston for the fourth with my family. It's been a great trip. We blew up a bunch of fireworks yesterday and went to the Johnson Space Center today. It's been interesting to be around the small children (a just-turned-8 and a 12-weeks-old). I've been working a lot on a research paper, which has not been enjoyable, but I work on it sitting at the kitchen table while the others are being all artsy. Coolness. <BR> <BR> I have not done my cardio properly lately. Today is Thursday, so let'... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 20:38:58 EST broken heart the hard way So I've had some bad news recently. Compared to people facing deaths of loved ones or debilitating diseases, my news was not so bad. But it broke my heart just the same. My job for next year has changed, not by my choice. While it might end up being a step up financially, it is definitely a step down in every other way possible. It broke my heart into itty bitty pieces. <BR> On Thursday, I got the call to come to the meeting. Being a natural-born worrywart, I couldn't eat the rest of the day.... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 18:57:05 EST Broken habits the easy way I've never in my life been the skinny one. Never athletic, never in the misses or juniors sizes, the last time I wore a size 6 was when I was in 6th grade. See, I'm fat. Like fatty fatty 2x4. I have been through chunky, thick, chubby, fluffy, you name it. But at 5"1' tall and 230.6 pounds, there is no euphemism that cuts it. A noticeably short girl who outweighs some professional athletes. <BR> I've blamed lots of things for my weight over the years. Genetic predisposition, lack of willpower,... Wed, 27 Jun 2012 12:13:57 EST I've lost a whole foot! I measured the first day of Bootcamp. Since that morning, I've lost 12 inches around my body. I've lost 4 on my waist, 2 on each thigh, 1.5 on each arm, and 1 on my hips. I measured my neck for the first time today, to see if it shrinks, too. <BR> Also on a high note, my fasting blood glucose was in the double digits for the first time in like, ever. Seriously, I don't remember having double digit blood sugar. <BR> So yay, me! Yay, Bootcamp! Yay, Sparkpeople!!! Thu, 21 Jun 2012 09:49:05 EST Good patterns, good times My fasting blood sugar today was 114. That's pretty low for me. Then I looked at my averages on my meter. 30-day average is 138. 14-day average is 128. 7-day average is 120. Anyone else seeing a pattern here? I can't wait until my next appointment to have my A1C done!! Wed, 13 Jun 2012 14:59:38 EST Boot camp, boot camp I'm thinking of POTC "Bootstrap's bootstraps..." <BR> I switched day 7 with day 8 by mistake, but I'm still going strong! I've been working and taking my lunch, so I'm excited about that. I didn't take my blood sugar today, but I did take all my medicines, so that's something. <BR> Tonight I'm going to Painting With a Twist. It'll be a super fun time, and I'll have lots of boogie down time in between layers of paint. Taking some Amy's snack mix and light Jose Cuervo margaritas will make it a ... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 17:41:43 EST Magically good day!! I've had a wonderful day so far and it's not even 11 am. <BR> 1) found out my credit score is almost to the "excellent" range. <BR> 2) did part of Zumba cardio party because today is my day off from the Boot Camp DVD <BR> 3) have lost a total of 5.5 inches since Monday. Since Monday!! (1.5 off each thigh, 1 off my waist, .5 off my hips, .5 off each upper arm) <BR> 4) today is new hair day! cut & color at 3:30 pm <BR> 5) friend's wedding is tonight. I'll debut a new blouse that I bought but i... Sat, 9 Jun 2012 11:44:39 EST happy Tuesday! So Tuesday is almost over. It's been an ok day. Two weeks of school are down, and we have something like 36 to go. Yeesh! But they've been good weeks. I'm having a much better year than last year. I'm feeling valued and needed and not feeling like my principal hates me and can't wait to get rid of me. I'm loved! <em>26</em> <BR> I'm all over this new challenge, but I bet I gained. I was way under on calories for two weeks, then was up or even over for 4 days, so I'm a little crazy. But work... Tue, 8 Sep 2009 22:11:38 EST the iphone app ruined me I used to be pretty active on Spark, getting points, huddling, posting on my team boards, etc. But the iphone app made logging my nutrition so easy I slacked off when I got busy. And my life really is busy what with working, taking classes, etc. But I want to be active for my teammates (go white tigers, go!) and because Sparking is relaxing for me. It helps me unwind and it really takes me out of my tunnel-visioned little world. Takes me out of myself, you might say. <BR> Long story short (t... Sat, 29 Aug 2009 19:54:57 EST new toy I usually walk on a gazelle, when I walk. But yesterday I bought a new exercise toy. It's a Gold's Gym cycle thingy that is just the pedals. You use it while sitting in a chair. I love it!! I have used it while watching tv, reading, and just about everything. It's faboo. Tue, 4 Aug 2009 22:39:41 EST Ghostbusters moment -- We're ready to believe (in) you! I was reading some intros from new members and thinking, gosh, I really believe they can do it! I can't say I've finished or I've done it, but I believe I can do it, too! <BR> I'm feeling particularly uplifted today because I have lost 4 inches off my waist, 4 inches off my hips, and 4 pounds. It's funny that I've lost so many inches and still only 4 pounds, but since I'm focused more on size and health than scale numbers, I'm still good. <BR> Woohoo! <BR> <BR> lil edit: I have lost enough... Sat, 4 Jul 2009 09:26:39 EST Watching My @$$ Off! Ok, so I'm enjoying the premiere. And as they dance, I wiggle my own @$$ sitting here on the couch. I think this counts as my "listen to a get-up-and-go" song. My only problem is that it's kind of late and I'm getting all jazzed up singing along. That'll make it hard to fall asleep. <BR> This is the last week of summer school. Tomorrow is the 8th grade math TAKS test. Then Wednesday, I'll be stuffing envelopes with summer school grade reports. Woo!! So no more kids after tomorrow. Mon, 29 Jun 2009 22:25:04 EST looking at a life change I'm working on my master's degree in educational administration. I don't really want to use it, just have it. But I've been thinking about becoming a principal. And I'm kind of wondering... I think I'd be good at it. So will I or won't I? If I do, I'll have to do an internship this spring. I can do that. Do I want to be a principal one day? That's a whole lotta work. Hmm... <BR> <em>150</em> Tue, 23 Jun 2009 21:28:28 EST ready to have time off So isn't this supposed to be summer? Well, summer school is not my bag. Totally not my bag. But there are still 2 1/2 weeks of it. Yuck-o. The two classes I'm taking for my master's degree are ok, but they are a ton of work. And on top of that, I have a sinus infection from hades! <BR> I guess I'm whiney tonight. Changing gears... <BR> <BR> I went 500 under my calories today because I didn't feel good. See sinus infection above. Oops!! I won't do that very often. <BR> My bermudas were way l... Tue, 16 Jun 2009 22:14:00 EST end of the weekend Well. The weekend is almost over. It's been ok. I don't like that I've got so much to do for these few weeks, but I'll live. And at the end of it, I will have more money (teaching summer school) and be that much closer to my master's degree. <BR> I've done well on sparking. I got discouraged about the scale, and I decided I'd pay more attention to my measurements. I think that will keep me from getting discouraged. My clothes are fitting better, and I'm actually looking smaller, so Woo!! <BR>... Sun, 14 Jun 2009 23:06:50 EST Superhero bites me in the booty So I keep volunteering to help people. I think I have a superhero complex. I have to be helpful when I see people in need. <BR> It's not like I'm trying to buy people's affection or anything, I just honestly see a need. And when I think it will help the person or the school or society or whatever, I volunteer to help. Which is why I worked an hour late today without pay. <BR> Some people didn't take care of their business, and their business fell on others, and I helped the others. So ouch. ... Mon, 8 Jun 2009 22:06:05 EST more of a diary... So this is just like having a public diary, to me. If people read it, fine. If not, I got whatever it was I was thinking about out. <BR> I am officially no longer an employee of LVISD. And I went to BMS on Friday to see my new classroom and meet some people. I was not encouraged. The school is SO OLD!! It's just the most miserable, crumbling structure! Ok, so it's not crumbling. But I'm leaving a school that was dedicated in '05. So to be in this old old old elementary school is a bit much. U... Sun, 7 Jun 2009 20:55:16 EST Little Red Wagon I always wondered what wagon people might fall off of or get back onto. I like the idea of a radio flyer. It won't hurt so bad when you fall off. And it's really easy to get back onto, because it can't go very fast. <BR> Anyway, I thought I was falling off the wagon yesterday and today. I don't know if it was emotional eating because I was sad to leave my friends at my old school, or celebratory eating because I was happy school was out, or boredom eating because I had nothing better to do, o... Fri, 5 Jun 2009 22:12:49 EST 2 things... First, what am I going to do for cardio when I'm done moving out of my classroom? I moved boxes for 3 1/2 hours today, but I only logged 2 hours because I don't want to superinflate my cardio minutes. But I worked so hard, every muscle in my body is crying out for mercy!! <BR> Second, both my summer school classroom and my new fall classroom are upstairs. It will be a pain sometimes, but it will help me move. And that's worth it. Woooohoohoohoohoo!!! (a la Goofy) Wed, 3 Jun 2009 19:25:48 EST Ego Boost I met several people from my new school today. And you know, I didn't feel self conscious at all. I didn't feel that they were judging me or thinking one tiny little bit about my weight. Yes, I was a dork. But I'm always a dork. Correction: I'm a nerd. I teach 8th grade math and algebra 1, so I'm destined for some nerdiness. <BR> The impression I felt they had of me is that I am: 1) smart 2) passionate about teaching 3) helpful to new teachers. And possibly slightly pushy or arrogant. I'm no... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 20:36:19 EST My Invisible Audience You know how, when you were 13, you always felt like people were looking at you, laughing at you, talking about you, etc? Well, for the most part, I outgrew that. But I'm changing jobs this year and I'm wondering what words will be used to describe me. I don't want to meet a whole new campus of teachers and have my main descriptor be "the new 8th grade math teacher -- you know, the short chubby one." Well, I know I can't do anything about the "short" part. I mean, at 33, I'm pretty used to it... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 21:09:51 EST Being content is harder than it seems So I read the SparkPeople article or whatever that said people are not happy with small weight losses. And I realized I'm the same way. Since July 8, 2008, I have lost 25 pounds. More than 10% of my body weight. Yet I find myself feeling disappointed that it was only 25 pounds. Why disappointed? That's ridiculous. I should be thrilled and excited, but all I can think of is to berate myself, "If I had tried harder, I could have at least doubled that." <BR> So why kick myself over not having l... Sun, 31 May 2009 10:07:35 EST Planned Splurge So I'm going to splurge on Chinese food today. I like to have one splurge meal a week. I've found the nutrition info on all the foods I generally like, so I know I can stay within my goals and still have a tasty splurge. The thing that struck me, though, was how many calories did I eat when I didn't care to track them? Wow. To stay within my ranges, I'll have a huge lunch and eat very little the rest of the day. Is it worth it to me? I think so. It's only one meal a week. :) Sat, 30 May 2009 10:17:25 EST Teeny tiny milestone So my weight loss ticker finally moved down a pound. Or up a pound. Whichever you call it. I am unbelievably thrilled about that! <BR> Working on packing up and moving out of my classroom. Boy, does that add up the fitness minutes and calories burned. I'm very glad for that. And we only have 3 days left of school (with students, 4 for teachers). 2 1/2 if you keep in mind the last day is early release. <BR> Looking forward to a super busy summer and buying new school clothes in August! Fri, 29 May 2009 11:15:08 EST