CATTUTT's SparkPeople Blog CATTUTT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hoping dh is in a generous mood... For some reason I decided it was a good idea to look at events going on in Columbus. I found that, one day after what will be our 14th anniversary, there's a live show of A Christmas Carol going on downtown. To say I want to go is a massive understatement. Also, there are still front row seats available for that performance. When dh wakes up from his nap I'm going to ask his opinion, but I am really hoping he will think it's a good idea to go. We pretty much never do anything for our ann... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 21:12:40 EST Home sweet home... Last night was wonderful. It was so nice to be back on my futon in my house. I fell asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow and slept peacefully. I woke up at 11 this morning and stayed up til 12:30, then went back to bed and slept til 2. So I've caught up on my rest, and it felt wonderful. A good night's sleep is indescribably wonderful! <BR> <BR> It has been a fairly productive day. Dh and I made a run to the library to pick up a couple things on hold. After that we went to ... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 21:16:44 EST So tired, and so glad to be home... We're back from the land of no communication. From mid-day on Saturday til this morning, I mostly had no cell service. It was a long couple days. The trip was okay though. Here's some photos... <BR> <BR> Ginger, on our way to Virginia... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Two pics taken from my grandmother's house... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 21:03:09 EST 10 hours til we hit the road... Today has been a busy day. It started off slow with sleeping in. After I got up I ate some breakfast and gave the kitchen a good cleaning. <BR> <BR> Not long after that it was time to wake dh up to head out. I woke him up at 2:30 and we left as soon as he got dressed, and it was after 7 when we got back home. Too many errands, library, drop off apartment key with friend, food, dealership, drug store and recycling. Most of it during rush hour traffic. So that was a good time. <BR> <B... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 21:04:52 EST Stress eating... T Minus one more day until vacation and the stress is really setting in. I keep trying to tell myself the trip is worse in my mind than it will be in reality, but I don't seem to be convincing myself. I think I'll feel a lot better once 6:30 am on Saturday rolls around and we get on the road. I think the wait for it is the worst part. <BR> <BR> So, eating hasn't been great today. On the way to the ultrasound, I stopped for fast food. But I did something I've rarely ever done in my life ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 21:11:31 EST The picture that made my day... As I've mentioned in passing in a couple blogs, a dear SP friend just had a baby. XANGELSTEARZX gave birth to her son Kody, and they just came home from the hospital on Monday. She just posted this pic... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Of him wearing a onesie I sent him, and it couldn't be cuter. Getting this pic was the best part of my day! <BR> <BR> Otherwise, it was an okay day. I did the wake up and then go back to bed thing ... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 21:21:22 EST Sometimes it's fun to not be a homebody... I am happy to say I accomplished the things I said I would today. Well, 99% anyway. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning and was actually ready to be awake, so that was a better start than yesterday. After I sat around for a little bit, I got up and did the first ever-present chores... cleaning the kitchen, rinsing the soda cans for recycling and unloading and reloading the dishwasher. <BR> <BR> After that was done I sat for a while. TOM started hardcore last night, much worse than it ha... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 21:19:12 EST Say what? All the laundry is done? I started out the day being about as lazy as humanly possible. I woke up once, stayed up for about half an hour, and went back to bed for another hour and a half. I just wasn't ready to be awake yet. <BR> <BR> I was more productive the second go around. I cleaned the kitchen, rinsed the cans, unloaded the dishwasher and reloaded the dishwasher. After that was done I woke dh and once he got the cobwebs out of his brain, he hung the photos of the babies... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 21:10:51 EST Sunday walks with The Buddy... Today turned out to be an absolutely lovely day for a walk with The Buddy. We met at the park at noon, and although it was pretty roasty at first, within 5 minutes or so of starting our walk, the shade came over and a breeze was blowing. It was perfect weather. We walked for 11 minutes, then sat on a bench for a while and talked. I love that part of our walks, just getting to sit and chat. Then we walked 12 minutes back. My legs and back were pretty exhausted, but I was so glad we went.... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:09:16 EST New loveseat and rug... Today has been a pretty awesome day around here. I initially woke up stupidly earlier than I wanted to, but it wasn't too bad. I managed to occupy myself and keep my sanity, that's the important part. I made something to eat, tidied the kitchen and got the food for later cooking in the slow cooker. <BR> <BR> My friend was coming over today to bring the loveseat she was giving us. She said she'd be here at 11:30, so I woke dh up at 11:15 so he could be awake and ready to carry it. Of cou... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 21:22:11 EST A small victory... Dh woke up earlier than normal this afternoon, so we decided to go run the one errand we needed to run before we ate. We had hoped we would avoid rush hour traffic if we did that. So we set off on an errand that should not have taken more than 45 minutes round trip. What happened? We got stuck in traffic for an hour. Instead of the trip taking 45 minutes, it took an hour and 45 minutes. And I still had to come home and cook. I was SO tempted to just swing in somewhere and get food beca... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 20:55:26 EST No queso, but someone needs to slap the chips out of my hands! So I said last night we were going to Moe's, and although it wouldn't be healthy, I was going to make one healthy choice and have tomatillo salsa instead of the queso dip with my chips. I did do that, I'm happy to say. Dh got the queso, and although I love it, I only had the salsa. The burrito bowl itself wasn't terribly unhealthy, a little rice, 2 kinds of beans, lean chicken, tomatoes, peppers, mushrooms, a little cheese... and sour cream. But I didn't have as much sour cream as normal,... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 21:01:13 EST "Vacation" is planned... Finally got a confirmation that dh will get to take off week after next for vacation. Which means we are going on "vacation". I use the term vacation loosely because, although we are leaving Columbus and going to Virginia, it's not really a pleasure trip. Just going back to my hometown to visit my grandmother. And I should add... I hate my hometown. But I love my grandmother, despite the fact she drives me batty, so we are going. We will be leaving a week from Saturday and coming home a... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 21:15:13 EST Just making a short one tonight... I'm having kind of an off day. An off week, actually. One of my meds was reduced and I'm not doing well on the lower dosage. I left a message for my psych today, I'm hoping she will agree to raise it back to what it was. <BR> <BR> It hasn't been the unhealthiest day ever, but it hasn't been great either. No fast food, at least. Just ate a little too much overall. <BR> <BR> I did get in a little bit of exercise cleaning the house. I did about 20 minutes worth of hard cleaning and tha... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 21:01:56 EST Embarrassing day... I'm not going to list everything I ate today because it's horrifying. So let's just shorten the story and say -- bad, bad, bad. Fast food and all kinds of crap. <BR> <BR> Otherwise it was a very productive day. I woke up kinda early and sat around for a bit this morning. Then it was off to run errands. To the Goodwill to drop off some stuff we didn't need, to the Post Office, then to eat, then to the library. <BR> <BR> After that was done I had an eye dr appointment. I wanted to get... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 21:12:34 EST It's been a good day... I started out the morning waking up earlier than I wanted to, but I managed to occupy myself and not get bored, so it turned out okay. When I got hungry I made some soup and a grilled cheese sandwich and ate that for breakfast. <BR> <BR> Then it was time to go walk with The Buddy. We walked in the mall today because it was hotter than blazes outside. But it actually ended up working in our favor because there was a girl walking around hanging out bags of free Murad skincare samples. So w... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 21:26:16 EST Got my new car! I'm so relieved, I was finally able to pick up my "new" car today. It was supposed to be a done deal but I wasn't convinced until they gave me the keys and I drove it off the lot. Here it is, parked comfortably in my apartment complex. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Picking it up was a task though. Very long drive, and then of course they didn't have the car actually ready to drive off the lot when we got there. They were giving i... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 21:20:23 EST No restaurant food, yay! I slept in til about 11 this morning. I got up and sat around while I shook the cobwebs out of my brain. Then I made a veggie burger and a few mini-rice cakes for breakfast. <BR> <BR> After I ate I got off my butt and did what I said I would -- cleaned out the cabinet. And then cleaned out a second cabinet for good measure. I'm so glad I finally got it done, but it was depressing how much stuff had gotten lost in that cabinet and gone bad. Gonna have to be more careful not to let that h... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 21:10:37 EST Grocery day... Woke up this morning at like 10:30 and couldn't sleep anymore. I was hoping to sleep later than that to avoid boredom, but alas, it wasn't to be. So I got up and ate a frozen burrito and sat around on the computer. Didn't do much of anything, to be honest. <BR> <BR> Later I got hungry again and ate a veggie burger. After that I was finally motivated enough to go clean out the fridge. That was the main thing on my list to do today, and I did it. I wasn't motivated to do anything else ... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 20:59:02 EST So happy to be a renter... Some days I am ever so thankful we don't own a home, and today was one of those days. I woke up around 8 this morning to pee, and when I got up I thought... hmmm, it's awfully warm in here... so I checked the thermostat. Sure enough, it was almost 80 in here. The AC was dead. I was annoyed, but immediately thankful for two things: 1. That we cleaned in here over the weekend and didn't have a bunch of stuff to do before we could call maintenance. 2. That all I had to do was call mainten... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 21:00:01 EST Half excited, half depressed... After a great deal of discussion, hand wringing and hesitation, dh and I decided we would be better off to buy a "new" car than to sink a big chunk of change into our current car. Our current car has all kinds of problems and is in bad shape, and it's only a matter of time until other things start breaking down, on top of the major problem we're having right now. So I looked online at cars for many hours last night and this morning. Finally found one we liked, so we went to check it out. ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 21:10:48 EST Strangely tired tonight... I think TOM is dragging me down hardcore today. It has been going on for 35 days now. I'm so tired of it, but there's nothing I can do except hope this Pill stops it. Le sigh. <BR> <BR> Despite being tired I did get a little bit done today. I woke up a little earlier than normal and made one of my frozen breakfast burritos. It was super good. I was afraid the shells might taste weird or something after reheating them, but it was perfect. <BR> <BR> After that I put my nose in a book. ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 21:02:58 EST Another fairly productive day... I managed to sleep til noon today, which is exactly what I was hoping for. I knew if I got up any earlier than that I'd end up bored before it was time to wake dh up. <BR> <BR> When I did wake up, I did the usual sitting down and playing online for a few minutes while I got good and functionally awake. Considering how long it takes for me to get moving now, I wonder how I ever used to roll out of bed 10 minutes before I had to be out the door. Age catching up with me I guess. <BR> <BR> A... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 20:59:04 EST Healthy, productive day... Today has been pretty much a 180 from yesterday. I'm feeling pretty good about things at the moment. <BR> <BR> I woke up around 11ish. I played on the computer for a bit while I waited for my belly to wake up and want breakfast. Then I made eggs with salsa and light whole wheat toast. After I ate I played on the computer a little more and did some reading. <BR> <BR> Then I got to work. First up was the kitchen. I rinsed the gathering of soda cans waiting to be put in the recycling bag... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 21:02:21 EST Being pouty... Dh and I were going to go to the Irish Festival tonight. But we're starting to have car problems, and repairs are in our future. So we figured we should skip the festival and save the money we would have spent for the impending car repairs. <BR> <BR> This has resulted in a pouty Cat today. <BR> <BR> I woke up at like 11, stayed awake for a few minutes, and went back to bed til 1. Then I ate some food and sat around for a while. I finally got up the gumption to at least put away the ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 21:01:04 EST So ready for bed! I'm exhausted tonight. I got woken up around 10:30 by a call from the Verizon lady. That led to a trip to the Verizon store. That trip accomplished nothing. It led to a trip back home to recall that lady because of course I didn't take her number with me. I called her and got the problem at the store straightened out. <BR> <BR> Then I went to therapy. I was really not in the mood for therapy today. Some days I feel like talking, and other days I don't want to say anything. Today was ... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 21:04:33 EST Not a productive day... I slept in pretty late this morning cause I was feeling lazy. I got up and played on the computer for a bit and sat around. Then I cleaned up a little in the living room and went in my bedroom and gathered up some more laundry for dh to do. <BR> <BR> After I woke him up, I made bean tacos for lunch and we went to a battery store. Came home and I dealt with Verizon again for another hour. After that it was time to make the menu and grocery list, and I was totally not motivated to do it. ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 21:19:35 EST I hate Verizon... So, as I posted a couple days ago, I need a new battery for my phone. Verizon refused to give me just a battery and instead sent me an entire phone. Fed Ex won't deliver to us so we had to drive an hour and half to the Fed Ex distribution center and back to pick up said phone. When I got home? No battery with the phone. They don't send batteries with replacement phones. So now I have 2 phones and no functional battery. To make a long story short, I ended up sending a nasty letter to th... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 21:08:04 EST Has anyone seen my motivation? Today has not been a healthy day, but it has been a good day nonetheless. I haven't gone hog wild -- as in, I have not had any fast food {I had Subway but that was relatively healthy... no fries involved, anyway.} For me, a day isn't a total throw away if I've managed to stay out of the fast food drive thru. Most of the time, once a day starts going bad, that's my next stop. But not today. So I give myself a couple points for that. <BR> <BR> It hasn't been an especially productive day i... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 21:01:46 EST Much better day... Today has been considerably better than yesterday. Health wise and mood wise. I'm not a ball of grump tonight, which is nice. I hate being grumpy like I was last night. I try not to let that happen too often, although it surely does from time to time. <BR> <BR> I slept super late today. I ended up not going walking with The Buddy. My back started hurting again last night and I decided I should let it rest all day today to see if I can get it better. So I didn't get up til like an hour... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 21:04:52 EST Short and grumpy... This one is gonna be a short one. I'm in a crappy mood tonight and if I write a long post it will all be complaining. I dunno what my deal is today. Partly TOM and partly just the nature of being bipolar I guess. <BR> <BR> It has not been a healthy day. I have eaten a lot of crap and gotten no exercise. I haven't completely fallen apart and eaten as much crap as I have been tempted to eat, but still, it hasn't been a good day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow will be better though. I'm walking with... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 20:47:45 EST If I don't sleep well tonight, there's no hope... As I predicted, I didn't sleep well last night. I fell asleep much faster than I thought I would, but I woke up a million times, and gave up and got up a half hour before my alarm was going to go off. <BR> <BR> After I got up I played on the computer til it was time to leave for my dr's appointment. I stopped and got breakfast on the way there, but I chose something fairly healthy. Then it was time for my appointment. <BR> <BR> My appointment... <BR> <BR> I was seeing the nurse practi... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 21:22:22 EST Busy day, even busier tomorrow... I found out mid-morning that a good friend is in the hospital. She has a bowel obstruction, and they think it's probably Crohn's disease. The worst part is that she has been dealing with symptoms of it for about 10 years and this is the first time they are considering that's what it might be. I personally have spent many long nights in the ER with her being very sick. So while being diagnosed with Crohn's certainly isn't a good thing, if that is the problem and they begin treating her, sh... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 21:08:16 EST Relatively productive day... The day did not start out especially well. I woke up for a while at 10:30... then went back to bed at 11:30 and slept til 1. I just wasn't ready to be awake yet, I felt tired and weak and just crappy. I didn't sleep well again last night, and I guess I needed the extra sleep. I felt better when I woke up the second time. <BR> <BR> For breakfast I had turkey and Swiss on light wheat. I didn't have a big breakfast since I didn't eat it til 1. I knew it wouldn't be too long until lunch. ... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 21:01:03 EST Just kinda muddling through... Today has not been a stellar day. First, I slept terribly last night. I kept waking up, even more often than I normally wake up. I think I was afraid of over sleeping for my test. By the time I got up, I was still crazy sleepy and irritated I couldn't sleep. <BR> <BR> I decided to grab a grilled chicken sandwich for breakfast, which would have been fine, but then I decided to have some nuggets too. Not a great choice, but better than fries, so it wasn't the worst thing I could have done... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 20:58:37 EST Had a great workout! I started out the morning feeling kind of bummed cause I woke up and ate last night. I didn't binge, though. So I told myself... you were hungry, you ate, it's over, move on. And I did. <BR> <BR> First was making a healthy breakfast of eggs, light whole wheat toast and a pear. After I ate I sat and relaxed for a few minutes while I worked up the gumption to go to the community center and workout. Then I did it! I decided to add 5 minutes to my workout by riding the recumbent bike 2 tim... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 21:12:10 EST Lovely Sunday... I feared I was starting the day off all wrong when I slept until my alarm went off. I hate the sound of that alarm, but it takes really loud, horrible, obnoxious sounds to wake me. Regular alarms, music, phones ringing... sleep right through all of it. So I have this horrible alarm sound, but it works. <BR> <BR> Surprisingly though, since then the day has been pretty good. I had a grilled chicken sandwich for breakfast. Then I headed to the park to walk with The Buddy. We had a great... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 20:44:04 EST Not a healthy day, but a good day... Started out the day sleeping nice and late this morning. I had nothing planned that I needed to be up for, and I felt lazy, so I just slept. When I did get up, I made some steel cut oatmeal with some peanut butter for breakfast. <BR> <BR> After that I just sat around and wasted time online, waiting for dh to wake up. But I ran out of patience before he woke up, so I woke him up so we could go out. First we grabbed a bite of food, I just had a grilled chicken sandwich. Still making good ... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 21:08:31 EST Got an answer to one question, so I guess 50% isn't too bad... I went to the dr with two problems today: <BR> <BR> 1. Possible PAD. On this I got no answer. She had them schedule me for an ankle brachial pressure index test. That's on Tuesday. She said after the test is done it will take her a couple days to interpret the results, and she will email me if everything is normal, or call me if there is a problem. Initially she didn't seem at all convinced I might have PAD because I am "so young", but when I reminded her about my diabetes, she agreed ... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 20:41:36 EST Another good day... Today started off well, since I woke up on my own and not to an alarm. Waking up to an alarm is never a good way to wake up. I got up and sat around a bit, then made some eggs, whole wheat bagel thin and cherries for breakfast. <BR> <BR> Then it was time for therapy. It wasn't especially exciting today, but we did cover a lot of ground. It seemed like the conversation just bounced from one thing to another. My assignment, of sorts, is to become aware every time I'm thinking something ... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 20:52:43 EST Productive day! Today has been a pretty good one. I slept fairly well last night {although it took me a long time to fall asleep}, and that started the day out pretty nicely. I woke up and went in the kitchen and put food in the slow cooker, then made breakfast. I had eggs with salsa and a whole wheat bagel thin. <BR> <BR> After breakfast I sat down and caught up on my online stuff and relaxed for a few minutes. Then it was off to walk. I took another lap around the complex, 22 minutes. My legs were... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:20:30 EST Appointment Status: Made I called first thing this morning to get an appointment with my pcp to talk about PAD. It took half the day of waiting, but finally they had a cancellation for Friday at 3 and gave it to me. I was really hoping to get in sooner, but since it is this week, I'm happy. When I first called she said there was nothing available until next week, so I've at least been spared having to wait over the weekend. <BR> <BR> Health wise, it has been a so-so day. I started out really badly and ate fast f... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 20:53:30 EST I hope this is just my hypochondria... A few months ago I was walking with The Buddy and mentioned leg pain, and she was concerned. At the time I assured her it was just because my muscles are out of shape, and that's what I believed. Now I'm not so sure. Every time I walk, my legs are on fire. Today the pain was so bad I was barely able to make it through my walk. So I decided to research her concerns and searched "leg pain while exercising". And found that what happens to me... pain every time I exercise, that stops almost... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 21:03:27 EST Happy Sunday, all! Today has been a really good day. I slept extra late, probably because I was up extra late finishing my book. I reached that point where there was just no putting it down until it was finished. And I slept relatively peacefully until I woke up at almost 1 pm and got up. <BR> <BR> I was feeling pretty lazy, so I just made some light whole wheat toast and put some peanut butter on it, and had cherries with it for breakfast. I usually have eggs for breakfast, but since I had slept so late I... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 20:48:06 EST Just taking it easy today... I woke up this morning still feeling tired, and just generally kinda blah. And I wanted Taco Bell. Breakfast of champions, right? So that's what I had. I showed some restraint and didn't eat as much as I normally would, but it still wasn't good. Except it was good. Totally hit the spot. Last week I ignored TOM cravings but today I fed them Taco Bell. <BR> <BR> The rest of the day has been okay though. For lunch, I made up a beans and rice dish. It was really really good. Then for d... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 21:07:31 EST Tired tonight... Round 2 of TOM is still kicking my butt a little bit. The cramping and back pain haven't been as bad as they were last night, but they're definitely still there. And my head is pounding, which I'm guessing is a hormonal thing at the moment. In spite of it, though... I'm still hanging in there today! <BR> <BR> I started off the day well by getting up a little early. I knew I had to be ready to go to that class thingy with my friend this evening, and I wanted to be sure I had time to get e... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 21:00:20 EST What is going on with my body? My body seems to be starting another cycle of TOM. Before the last one even fully ended! It was almost gone and I was feeling normal again... and now all the sudden it has gotten heavy, and I'm cramping again and my back hurts. And as yesterdays post will attest, I'm also not 100% emotionally stable either. I don't know what's going on. I've been on the same birth control pill for a bout 5 months and this is the first time this has happened. Guess it's time to send the dr an email and a... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 21:50:46 EST So glad this day is almost over... The day started all wrong at 1 am. I woke up, and couldn't fall asleep again, and ended up stuffing my face. I finally fell asleep again, and slept til 11:30 am. I woke up, sat around for a few minutes, decided I wasn't ready to face the day, and went back to sleep until 1:15 pm. At that point I got up for the day. <BR> <BR> As I've mentioned {many times}, I am bipolar. I'm more inclined toward manic anxiety than depression, but sometimes I do swing towards depressed. That's where I was... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 20:59:12 EST Feeling like a fraud... First of all, I want to say thank you so much to all of you that left comments on my blog last night. You're all so supportive and encouraging and it means the world to me. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately I'm not sure I deserve the praise. About 3 hours after I posted last night's blog, I was shoving food in my face. I laid down and tried to go to sleep, and I couldn't fall asleep. And I couldn't think about anything but food. I tried to distract myself, but nothing was working. All I could ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 21:31:22 EST Exhausted! Last night was a looooooong night. For some reason I couldn't sleep. It took me forever to fall asleep, and then I kept waking up and not being able to doze off again. I probably only got a handful of hours of sleep before I gave up and got up when dh got home from work at 8:45 this morning. That's almost 4 hours earlier than I'm used to getting up. But I was tired of rolling around and struggling to sleep and decided I'd rather be awake and tired than to lay there any longer. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 21:02:04 EST