CATTUTT's SparkPeople Blog CATTUTT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It worked! This morning didn't start off too stellar. I woke up feeling anxious and uneasy right from the get go. I don't usually have problems with anxiety in the mornings, so that was kind of odd. I tried to just go on about my day and ignore it, but it definitely took some time to shake it off. I actually felt physically unwell with it, and just was not at the top of my game this morning. <BR> <BR> It did go away eventually, though. When it did, I got up and did a little bit of cleaning. Then ... Fri, 29 May 2015 20:08:20 EST Me? Hooked on a tv show? I got Downton Abbey from the library to entertain me when dh is not around. I VERY rarely watch anything on the television, movies or shows or anything, of my own accord. Sometimes dh plays stuff, but it's rare for it to be my idea. I think I'm actually kind of a weirdo because of my general aversion to watching anything. But I have found the exception -- Downton Abbey! I am in love with that show! So yeah, I watched 2 episodes of that today. <BR> <BR> I did manage to get the kitchen c... Thu, 28 May 2015 19:48:52 EST A bad day turned good! Today did not start out as I'd hoped. I completely slept through WW again. A good SP friend suggested that maybe my body sleeps through things it doesn't really want to do. If that's the case, I guess telling myself over and over that going to the WW meeting would be good for me, even if the weigh in was bad, and that I should get up and go... didn't work. I was frustrated that I had slept through it because I do KNOW it would have been good for me. <BR> <BR> When I did wake up, an hou... Wed, 27 May 2015 19:45:54 EST Still no storms... They're still promising storms, and I've still yet to see one. We got a little rain though. Maybe some will pop up just in time for bed. Nothing better than falling asleep to rumbling thunder! <BR> <BR> I didn't wake up as early as I intended this morning, but I told myself that was too bad, and went for a walk anyway. It was definitely uncomfortably warm, but I survived it. When I started, it was cloudy and a little breezy, but a few minutes into my walk the sun came out, guns blazing,... Tue, 26 May 2015 20:14:49 EST They lied about my thunderstorms... When I checked the weather this morning, it shouted that we had a 100% CHANCE of heavy thunderstorms this evening! Now, I could do without the "heavy" part, but I LOVE a nice thunderstorm. I was immediately happy at the prospect of relaxing to the sounds of rain and thunder this evening. Then I checked the weather a couple hours later... and *poof*, our 100% CHANCE of thunderstorms was gone, and replaced with a 20% chance of showers. I was pretty disappointed at first, but then I decided ... Mon, 25 May 2015 19:54:12 EST Last night was a rough night! About the time I was planning to lay down for bed, my belly started hurting. I ended up being awake until about 3 am with a sick belly, which wasn't much fun. I'm not sure what caused it, but it was a long night. Fortunately I had my book and MEWHENRYSMAMA to talk to keep from getting anxious, so it wasn't so bad. <BR> <BR> I felt much better when I woke up this morning, although I didn't wake up until later than normal. My hope that I was going to be able to head off the Achilles tendon... Sat, 23 May 2015 19:28:40 EST Gorgeous day for a festival... The first part of the day was quite sedentary. I slept a little bit late, then just got up and sat around, took a shower and sat some more until it was time to go meet friends for lunch. <BR> <BR> We all got together in the basement of the building a couple friends work in and had our lunch and visited. It's rare that we can work out a time for all 5 of us to get together, so it was nice to get to hang out. Years ago, the 5 of us were together every night, hanging out at our place. But... Fri, 22 May 2015 20:27:17 EST Drive by... Just a shorty tonight. My Achilles tendon is bothering me again, so I'm taking anti-inflammatories and gave it a break today, other than grocery shopping. It's feeling some better this evening, so hopefully treating it early this time will take care of it. <BR> <BR> Not much exciting to report today. Went shopping and came home, and that's about it. I did get some healthy food though, so that's always nice! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow dh and I are going out to lunch with 3 friends. One of them ... Thu, 21 May 2015 19:25:54 EST Too pretty for a rest day! The comments you guys had left before I went to bed last night convinced me to set my alarm and get up for WW. Unfortunately I apparently turned my alarm off without fully waking up and just went right back to sleep. I used to be REALLY bad for doing that, but it hadn't happened in quite some time. When I did wake up, I thought... shouldn't my alarm have gone off by now?... ANd indeed, it should have, and probably did. So I was bummed about that one! <BR> <BR> I started the morning off r... Wed, 20 May 2015 19:47:16 EST I think I've possibly lost my mind... As planned, I didn't set an alarm last night. Still, I woke up at 8:30 this morning. Even though it wasn't supposed to be terribly hot today, I decided to just go on and get dressed and head out for my walk. Like having it done early. About 1/3 of the way around, I started getting wheezy. I have asthma, but it has bothered me very little since I quit smoking more than 3 years ago. It was warm and humid out, though not unbearably either, so I'm not too sure what the problem was. Once I ... Tue, 19 May 2015 19:34:13 EST Space Cadet Cat I did manage to get up and get out for a walk today. When my alarm went off I was tired, but I got up anyway. I took a short walk, but I was proud of myself for walking at all. TOM usually leaves me laying on the couch doing nothing. <BR> <BR> Shortly after I walked, dh got home from work. I ate some breakfast and visited with him for a bit. Then I decided I was once again too tired to do anything, so I took a nap. It kind of concerns me that I've given into napping 2 days in a row, af... Mon, 18 May 2015 19:24:17 EST Not feeling very good... Last night, later in the evening, I started feeling kinda crappy. I ended up going to bed earlier than normal and fell asleep right away, and was hoping to wake up feeling better. I woke up when my alarm went off and still didn't feel very good. I really wanted to go walk with The Buddy though, so I figured I'd go to the park and try and if I felt too icky to finish the lap, then I'd stop. When I got there, I was feeling a bit better, and pushed for the full lap. We had a nice walk and t... Sun, 17 May 2015 19:28:11 EST Walking groups and dollar theaters... Getting up this morning was not easy. We stayed up later than normal last night watching a movie, so I ended up in bed late. I was sleeping quite soundly when my alarm went off. So soundly, in fact, that I was confused for a minute about why my alarm was going off at 7:45 am. I shook the cobwebs out and remembered that it was because I was meeting my walking group this morning, so I {very} reluctantly crawled out of bed. <BR> <BR> I got dressed and headed out right away. It had rained r... Sat, 16 May 2015 20:09:44 EST It's a miracle I didn't pull my hair out! Woke up this morning really early, all on my own. I got up, got dressed, and headed out for my walk. About 5 minutes into the walk it started to sprinkle rain, but it wasn't supposed to rain, so I figured it was just some passing sprinkles and kept going. Then when I was literally at the furthest point away from the house, it started to rain pretty hard. Thankfully it was cool enough out that I had put on a hoodie to walk in, so I just pulled up the hood and kept going. The hoodie got pr... Fri, 15 May 2015 20:06:55 EST Just a short one tonight... Not too much worthy of chattering about today. I did wake up and go for a walk early this morning, so yay! After my walk I went to my psychiatrist, which of course resulted in a long wait in the waiting room for a short visit with her. But at least it's done for the next 3 months! <BR> <BR> After that I came home and didn't do much except go to the library. Eventually it was time to wake dh, so he got up and we went and ate and went grocery shopping. Nothing very exciting there, unless ... Thu, 14 May 2015 20:34:03 EST I got over myself... I woke up far too early this morning, much earlier than I needed to. Which meant I got entirely too hungry to wait until after weigh in to eat. Weigh in was ugly, made even uglier by having eaten before hand. But really, it's not a big deal. It happens sometimes, and it's done. <BR> <BR> After I finished at WW, I stopped by dh's store. I counted and rolled some change last night that I wanted to deposit into savings, so I did that and then went to say hi to him for a while. I wasn't ... Wed, 13 May 2015 20:50:13 EST Trying to shake off a crabby mood... As amazing as it sounds, I actually managed to get myself out of bed when my alarm went off at 6:35 this morning. It was way too early and I wasn't thrilled about it, but I did it! I got dressed, got a diet soda to help get me moving, and went to the park to meet The Buddy. We had a very nice walk in a quiet park. Not many people hitting the trail that early! We got in a full lap around the lake with only medium-levels of pain in my legs, so not too bad! <BR> <BR> When we finished our w... Tue, 12 May 2015 20:21:20 EST I'm getting up at what time tomorrow?? I actually woke up today almost an hour earlier than my alarm. I went ahead and got up and went outside to walk. It was pretty nice out, since I was out before the sun came up. Kinda humid, but mostly pretty nice. And again, no pain while walking, so I made it two laps around. Can't beat that for a start to a Monday morning! <BR> <BR> I came upstairs after I finished my walk and drank some water and relaxed for a few minutes. Then I decided I needed a cool shower, so I got up and did t... Mon, 11 May 2015 19:52:46 EST Am I really getting better at the waking up early thing? I woke up this morning around 5:30 and saw poor dh sitting in his chair playing online for a few minutes before he had to leave to be at work at 6. And then I rolled over and went back to sleep until my alarm went off at 8:20. I won't say I was happy about getting out of bed, but it wasn't really so bad. And I wasn't tempted to say "screw it" and go back to sleep, so I figure that's a HUGE improvement for me! <BR> <BR> I got up and got dressed to go walk with The Buddy. I remembered to f... Sun, 10 May 2015 21:25:22 EST Lovely Saturday! I ended up in bed at my normal time last night. I got too sleepy to stay awake late, so I went ahead and went to bed. I set my alarm to wake me up to go walk this morning, half figuring I'd talk myself out of it when it went off. Surprisingly, I didn't! I got up, got dressed and headed out. It was overcast, but it was seriously mugtastic. 8:40 in the morning and it felt like a bowl of lukewarm soup outside. Yuck! The walk ended up being pretty good, though. I did a lap and a half and... Sat, 9 May 2015 20:51:10 EST Thrift shopping is fun! Managed to get myself out of bed even earlier this morning for a walk. I was tired and didn't wanna, but I did it anyway. Only got in one lap, but I was so proud of myself for waking up and getting out there so early and getting in some movement! <BR> <BR> After that, I came upstairs and visited with dh until he went to bed. Then I decided to go to the consignment store to look for a black shirt. I have a couple skirts that need a black shirt, but the black shirts I have are too big. I ... Fri, 8 May 2015 20:43:50 EST Guess 8:55 am wasn't quite early enough! I drug myself out of bed when my alarm went off at 8:45. I sat on the side of the futon and was deeply sad about the fact I had to get up and go walk, but I sucked it up and got dressed anyway. I checked the time on my phone when I was walking out the door and it was 8:55. I got outside and it was already unpleasantly warm. Sheesh! The sun was out very bright, and very warm. But I carried on anyway, and ended up being able to walk 2 laps for 41 minutes. I honestly never know what I'm g... Thu, 7 May 2015 20:48:29 EST Weight Watchers Wednesday... {Otherwise known as "Miracles really do happen!} Last night I woke up and ate. Not a ton, but I did eat. When I did it, in my head I was saying "Well now you're REALLY gonna show a gain at weigh in tomorrow!", but I kept eating anyway. When I laid back down, honestly I almost turned my alarm off and said forget it and decided not to bother. I decided not to shut it off and told myself I could reassess when the alarm went off and decide then. When it did, I somehow managed to talk myself into getting up and going. <BR> <BR> When I got ... Wed, 6 May 2015 20:47:19 EST The chat with the neighbor was fruitful... Okay, so our apartment complex is not an overly friendly place. As in, we really don't know anyone. We know the neighbors on one side of us are pretty nice, and have a grumpy little dog that likes to get in grumping contests with Ginger. Other than that, there is one other family, a lady and her husband and two daughters {only one living there now} that have been here for 5 years. {We've been here over 14.} The man and woman are super friendly, but they're disposed to chatting your ear o... Tue, 5 May 2015 20:50:09 EST Guess that's what I get for looking! For some reason, this week I have felt like I was not losing any weight. Even felt like I was gaining. I couldn't figure out why, because I haven't had any binges or anything. So this morning I told myself I'd get on the scale, show myself I wasn't gaining weight, and then I'd feel better. Except... I AM gaining weight. I'm up a lb and a half from Thursday. HMPH! I know there are a lot of possible reasons for it, but it's still really frustrating. By this point I should've been DOWN, ... Mon, 4 May 2015 20:49:41 EST Some days are really just easy... I almost hesitate to say today has been easy because I fear it will jinx me and make things fall apart before bed, but I will say it anyway... today has been an easy day. <BR> <BR> I woke up before the alarm, which is always good. I got up and went to the bathroom and started slathering on a million layers of sunscreen, then got dressed, did my makeup, and by then dh was home from work. I visited with him for a little bit, then it was time to go meet The Buddy and walk. <BR> <BR> Our walk... Sun, 3 May 2015 20:54:48 EST Great day! I was afraid I wouldn't want to wake up and go to the walking group this morning, but I actually woke up half an hour earlier than I needed to. I managed to catch a good friend online before she went to work and chatted with her for a bit while I waited for time to go. <BR> <BR> The park where the walking group was meeting was one I didn't even know about. We drive on the road it's off of, but it's behind some stuff and I never knew it was back there. That was my first surprise. I got ... Sat, 2 May 2015 21:01:40 EST Fun with family... I woke up feeling weirdly anxious this morning, but once that went away the day was pretty awesome. I didn't exercise this morning, I was still feeling pretty sore and, honestly, lazy. <BR> <BR> It wasn't too long until it was time to start getting ready to go meet my cousin and great aunt for lunch. We went to a cafe I had never been to, and the food was delicious. I had a Sweet Basil burrito and a few tortilla chips. It was, overall, pretty healthy. Here's me with my cousin and great ... Fri, 1 May 2015 21:15:08 EST A much more uneventful night... I'm happy to say, nothing even remotely exciting happened last night. I started getting REALLY anxious kinda later in the evening, so I took a couple of sedatives, then laid down and talked to dh before he left for work, then rolled over and went to sleep. Horray! <BR> <BR> I woke up earlier than I wanted to today because someone knocked on the door across the hall and made Ginger go nuts. Dh hadn't gone to bed yet, so I got up and visited with him for a while. I was pretty hungry so I a... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 20:43:46 EST Very scary start to the day... {Really long, sorry!} I got woken up in the night by a knock at the door. It always makes me panic when someone knocks on the door in the middle of the night, so when I went to the door and cracked it to peek out and saw there was no one there, I was annoyed. Figured it was just someone being a butthole knocking on doors. I went and sat back down on the futon and a minute later there was another knock at the door. I went back to the door and actually opened it this time... and found the hallway filled with smo... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 20:52:33 EST Ouch! Probably should've known today wasn't going to be a great day by the way it started. In the middle of the night, when I woke up starving and semi-binged. I'm sure it goes without saying that I'm rather frustrated about that, but it's done and I've moved on. <BR> <BR> So I didn't wake up until the alarm went off, and I was mighty sad when it did. I drug myself out of bed and made something to eat. The only good part about it was that dh had just gotten home from work and wasn't in bed yet... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 20:40:47 EST Some photos for your spring time photo viewing pleasure... Today has been another really good day. I woke up at a decent time feeling pretty good. I made something healthy for breakfast and ate, and played online for a bit. I got the food in the crockpot, then made some egg salad for sandwiches for dh and I for lunch later. <BR> <BR> Over the course of the morning I decided I didn't feel like driving to the other side of town and back again. Wasn't in the mood for the driving and the traffic, and money is tight this week, so I saw no reason to... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 20:59:15 EST Cruising along... Another good day today! I woke up about an hour earlier than I needed to, which meant not having to wake to a blaring alarm. Good start to the day! I sat around for a while, then got up and got myself something healthy to eat and had breakfast. <BR> <BR> Soon it was time to go walk with The Buddy, so I headed to the park. It was a gorgeous day out today. A little chilly, especially with the wind, but really beautiful. And pretty much all the trees and bushes are bloomed/budding, so thi... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 20:57:36 EST Zero Point Veggie Soup... Some of you guys have asked me for the recipe for the soup I posted the pic of earlier. Here it is if you didn't see it... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It was delish, but I'm sorry to say I don't really have a recipe. I just took a couple boxes of veggie broth and put it in the pot. Then I chopped up some cabbage and dumped it in, opened a bag of baby spinach and dumped it in. While the spinach was wilting to make room in the p... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 21:13:48 EST Getting by with a little help from my friends... So, this morning started out well. I was tempted to get on the scale, but talked myself out of it. I really want to only do it once a week. So I stayed off the scale, and then made some healthy food and ate. <BR> <BR> After I ate, it was time to exercise. I got dressed, got my music going, and headed out for my walk. I think the wind causing back pain hypothesis was probably correct. The wind was somewhat calmer today, and I also had less pain. I managed to make it the 2 laps around I... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 21:07:01 EST Still going strong! Yesterday ended up being successful, even through the night. I didn't wake up and binge or eat at all, and I always consider that a huge win. I weighed in when I woke up, for my weekly SP weigh in, and was up roughly a lb from last week, which is better than the 2.4 I was up at the WW meeting yesterday, so I"ll take it! <BR> <BR> I got up for a few minutes, then decided I was still sleepy and went back to bed. So lazy! When I woke up the second time, it was later than I would have liked.... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 20:48:18 EST Well... that was harsh... Happily, I had no trouble waking up this morning. In fact, I woke up about a half hour early and just sat around for a while. I'm always afraid my half-asleep brain won't want to get up and will talk me out of going to WW, but it didn't happen today. <BR> <BR> So, I went to WW, and the results were... not good. Up 2.4 lbs. I wasn't surprised by this, but it was still painful to see. I mean, obviously if you eat like a piggy for a week, you're not going to have a good weigh in. But I do... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 20:47:03 EST So ready for WW tomorrow! Being honest, this has not been a good week. I've eaten too much pretty much every day and just haven't done well. Normally I'd skip tomorrow's meeting and "work hard and go next week", but I"m not letting myself get away with that this time. I have not done well and I'm going to go face up to that. I'm sure the scale will be up some, but I will simply be reaping what I have sewn. <BR> <BR> It has been a decent day today. I woke up early and went ahead and got dressed and left. I had... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 20:36:20 EST Something good came of my insomnia! So last night was just terrible. I was still awake at 6 am. I don't know what happened but my insomnia just would not let me catch a break. BUT!! Since I get antsy and anxious if I lay there too long trying to fall asleep, I found myself in need of something to do. I ended up going in dh's bedroom, where all the clothes I don't fit into anymore are located. I went through the skirts hanging in there and ended up with 5 or 6 skirts I can now fit back into. Woo hoo! I also found a pair ... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 21:01:34 EST So much better! Okay, it is definitely FACT that you are more likely to exercise when someone is waiting on you to do it. When my alarm went off today, I desperately wanted to turn it off, roll over, and sleep for another 3 hours. Fortunately, I was due to meet The Buddy at the park in less than an hour. As lazy as I was feeling, the lure of getting to have visiting time with her pulled me out of bed. <BR> <BR> Once I was up, I made some quick breakfast and ate, then got dressed. We met at the park an... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 20:44:05 EST You guys are just amazing! I really appreciate all the support I've gotten from all of you the past few days. You guys are the best friends a girl could ask for! <BR> <BR> Today has not been great nutritionally, but emotionally I've felt okay. I woke up for a while at a reasonable time... then went back to bed and slept til a very unreasonable time. Most of the time, doing that is a sign I'm feeling depressed. I wasn't really feeling depressed today, though, I was just tired and nothing sounded appealing except mo... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 21:24:22 EST Spoke too soon I guess... Today was going really well. My mood was better, I was eating well, we even went to the park and walked. It was all very nice and on track. <BR> <BR> Then I ended up eating a bunch of crap food, just stuffing myself with junk, for no good reason. I was hungry, yes, but that's definitely no excuse. Nobody is THAT hungry. I have no excuses, no explanations, no justifications, aside from the fact that I simply have a compulsive eating disorder that I'm obviously not controlling. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 21:08:48 EST Tonight's non-entry... Been a lousy day, and I'm just not feeling the spirit of writing tonight. Tomorrow WILL be better and I"ll be back to blog tomorrow night. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a great Friday! Thu, 16 Apr 2015 20:47:04 EST Busy day! My morning started off early. I had my alarm set for 8:15, which is the crack of dawn in my book. I got up, got dressed, gathered some food to eat after my weigh in, and headed out for my WW meeting. I was down .8 this week. It's not an impressive number, but considering the blood sugar drop and the resulting binge two days ago, I'll definitely take it. <BR> <BR> After my meeting was over I came home and found dh hadn't gone to bed yet. We visited for a few minutes, then he headed off... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 21:33:45 EST Much better day!! I continued to feel like crap last night until I went to bed, and early at that. I woke up this morning ready to be back on track as though yesterday's fiasco never happened. I showered, ate some breakfast, and played online for a bit. <BR> <BR> Later in the morning I had an appointment at the salon for a bang trim and so forth, so I went and did that. I kept myself away from all drive-thrus, which I was happy about. Restaurant food is the hardest thing in the world for me. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 20:20:41 EST Disappointed, frustrated and feeling like crap... Today started out well. I slept through the night last night without waking up and eating, and woke up and got up at a decent time. I wasn't very hungry right away, so I played online for a bit before making some breakfast and eating. After I ate, I remembered there was a package for me at the leasing office and I hurried down to get it. I knew it was from my mom, but I had no idea what it was. This is what I found... <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 13 Apr 2015 20:47:31 EST Still not at the top of my game... I think the icky belly thing I had yesterday may have been some kind of bug. I was worn out last night by 10:30 and went to bed. I slept off and on, not very peacefully, and still felt crappy this morning. I had to bail on going for a walk with The Buddy, my belly just wasn't cooperating with me. I was also still exhausted and slept really late. <BR> <BR> When I finally did get up, I was still tired and had no energy, so I just sat for a while. Eventually I made some breakfast and ate... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 20:46:05 EST Feeling crummy... Last night shortly after I fell asleep, I woke up with my blood sugar low. It wasn't dangerously low, but low enough to have to treat, and low enough to make me want to eat everything I could get my hands on. Which I sort of did. The only thing saving me from a horrible binge was that I also felt dizzy and nauseous and couldn't stand up to make food, so I was limited to only what I could grab and shove in without having to do much standing. Definitely not a great way for the night to end,... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 20:59:51 EST Three night streak! Last night made the third night in a row I didn't wake up and eat. Woo hoo! It feels so good to finally be getting on a streak and getting the nighttime eating under control. I don't think I'll ever conquer it 100%, but I'll take any improvement I can get! <BR> <BR> I woke up today about when I wanted to, so that was nice. I sat and chatted with some friends for a while before making some breakfast. I was hungry earlier but sometimes it takes a while to get up the motivation to make som... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 21:05:46 EST Loving all these storms! I should say, I'm loving all the storms that are happening at times when I am safe inside and not wishing I was outside. But all this thunder is so relaxing to me. I've always loved a storm. {Not dangerous ones, of course.} <BR> <BR> Today has been pretty good! I woke up early because I was excited to weigh myself on my home scale and see if it also showed a loss. I've decided to keep my SP weight as what shows on my home scale because I won't be going to WW forever to weigh in. It sho... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 20:40:54 EST