CATTUTT's SparkPeople Blog CATTUTT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I wanna clear something up... When I wrote last night's blog, I was definitely thinking "me me me" and being self-centered. I want to amend what I said to say my friend has done an AMAZING job of losing the weight. She has not taken any short cuts or done anything unhealthy. It has all been hard work, a healthy diet and exercise. And yes, I admit I am jealous. But I am using that jealousy to do GOOD things, like inspire me to want to accomplish even half what she has accomplished. Jealousy is not always a bad thing,... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 21:01:46 EST Half motivated and half depressed... A friend of mine here in Columbus has been losing weight for a while. She started at 234 and hit 169 yesterday. She posted a before and after picture, the before in a sports bra and workout shorts and the after in a bikini. My mind is BLOWN. She looks absolutely amazing. Just amazing. It's motivating in the "Wow, look what hard work gets you!" way... but it's also depressing because she's 11 years younger than me, and no matter how hard I might work, I would NEVER end up with a body lik... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 20:16:09 EST Lovely time at Market Day! Dh and I went to Olde Worthington Market Day today. It's basically an arts and crafts festival. The weather was amazing, low 60s and only partly sunny. The main street through town is shut down and there are artists lining both sides of the road. As I expected, much of it was very pricey. But not all of it. I got a little clay model of a dragon reading a book. He's absolutely adorable. And I got a handmade owl purse. Very cute. There was also lots of beautiful stuff to look at. Som... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 20:50:07 EST Impending Fall... It has been such a lovely day here! It was completely cloudy all day and never got above the mid 60s. My ideal kind of day. Fall is really coming and I got a taste of it. To celebrate, I got a small non-fat pumpkin spice latte. I love pumpkin flavored stuff, and I figured the small nonfat latte was a much better choice than a pumpkin cream cheese muffin! <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning rather grumpy. They were doing something upstairs that involved banging on the floor and it was driv... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 20:54:27 EST Stumbling across new music is like finding buried treasure! I'm actually really excited to workout tomorrow. By accident I came across a new band, and then started playing a radio station based on them, and discovered a bunch more awesome new bands. {The Birthday Massacre, if anyone is curious.} It's exactly what I've been looking for... up tempo rock that will keep me moving. I listened to the station for a while but then made myself turn it off and save it for workouts. <BR> <BR> It has been an okay day otherwise. I saw my psychiatrist at th... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 21:17:00 EST Horray for tech support! For several days now I've been complaining that Spotify wouldn't work on my phone. I finally gave up and got the Pandora app, only to have it do the exact same thing Spotify was doing. At that point I had dh get the Spotify app and see if it worked for him, and it did. So obviously the problem was with my phone. I called Verizon to see if they had any suggestions, and within minutes they had the problem solved and Spotify plays like a champ now. I'm so excited! Not having good music to ... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 20:36:39 EST One more warm day before the fall weather sets in... Tomorrow it is supposed to be in the mid 80s, and then starting Thursday and for the next 10 days, only in the 60s or low 70s. I'm so excited about that. I love when the weather starts turning towards fall. This is probably just a little cool snap and it ill get warm again, since it's still only early Sept, but nevertheless I"m looking forward to the lovely weather. <BR> <BR> Today has not been a great day. I woke up, then went back to bed for a while. During that period either I slept ... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 20:56:21 EST You win some, you lose some I guess... This day did not start out well. I woke up at 6 am with a really bad headache behind my right eye. I tried to go back to sleep but it was hurting so badly it was making me feel nauseous. So I got up and took some Advil and held a cold cloth to my head for an hour, waiting for the pain to let up. It finally did, but I still felt kinda sick. Dh made me a piece of dry toast and I ate that to calm my belly, and was able to fall asleep again after that. <BR> <BR> I woke up at my normal time,... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 21:02:26 EST Happy scale surprise... I have been avoiding the scale like the plague. My eating has been pretty crappy for the last 5 or 6 weeks, and my exercise was minimal. I kept putting off getting on the scale because I was terrified of what I'd see, but I finally did it. I was only up to 262. My lowest was 258.6 and I only saw that one day. Other than that one day, my lowest was 259.5, and I'm only up 2.5 lbs from that. I was VERY surprised. I was crossing my fingers to be below 265, but was honestly expecting to be ... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 20:46:14 EST Stupid, stupid appetite... The day started out really well. I didn't wake up til it was time for the game {Penn St} to start, so I ate breakfast, played online, and watched football until halftime. Then I went out and walked. It was a perfect day for a walk, low 70s and cloudy, not a bit of sun. Just my kind of day. I walked 20 minutes, and had surprisingly less leg pain than I expected. So that was pretty awesome. <BR> <BR> After I walked I came back and watched some more football while lunch cooked in the Croc... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 21:21:46 EST You guys have no idea how much I appreciate you! So, when I woke up today I was feeling really lazy. I sat for a few minutes, then my rumbling belly got the best of me and I went and made food. I made a pb & banana sandwich and a few pita chips. I was starving and poured out more chips than I should have had, but no where NEAR the amount of chips I normally would eat. While I was sitting here munching on my food, I came to SP. I started reading comments on my blog, messages, and things people had posted on my friend feed. The more I r... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 20:59:02 EST Let's get this ball rolling! I'm finally feeling about 90% normal. The urge to sleep 24/7 seems to have disappeared, and I'm finding I have more energy. I think I need to take a valuable lesson from this -- do NOT let myself run out of thyroid medication again. I didn't think it would be a big deal, but obviously it was. I felt like the walking dead for several days, and although my allergies were and are bothering me, they've never made me that tired before. I think it was missing the medication, and I definitely w... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 20:57:54 EST Feeling a bit better... It was a task to drag myself out of bed again this morning. I didn't manage to do so until noon. Things got better after that though. For one, I didn't go back to bed an hour later and sleep another couple of hours. Although I was super tired when I woke up, I slowly got going. I turned on some harder music than I normally listen to {Puscifer and A Perfect Circle} and I think that helped light a fire under me. <BR> <BR> I bargained with myself to just get up and rinse the soda cans, the... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 20:59:09 EST Hoping I have the solution... Today has been another rough day. I slept late, woke up, and then went back to sleep and slept more. I've been without my thyroid medication for a few days {not smart, I know}, and I have a feeling this weary, crappy thing I've got going on is a combination of the lack of thyroid meds and my allergies. I have my thyroid med again and will be taking it tonight, so if that's the problem, I should be good as new in a few days. The allergies are probably gonna drag on for a while, but hopeful... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 21:08:10 EST Not feeling so hot... I'm really dragging today. I'm not sure exactly what's going on, but I'm tired and weak and just want to sleep 24 hours a day. My allergies are also bothering me, so that's probably part of it, but... ugh. <BR> <BR> Anyway, despite feeling fairly crappy, I have eaten pretty well today. I did not baby myself and allow myself to go out and get something to eat, I cooked what I planned. Fortunately it was simple, steak, mashed potatoes and green beans. I ended up not finishing all that I p... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 20:54:46 EST Yawning, sniffling and sneezing... My allergies are apparently sucking the life out of me today. I'm exhausted, and I've been sniffly and sneezy all evening. Otherwise, though, it has been a good day. I kind of got a late start, not waking up til my alarm went off at 12:20. I almost didn't set an alarm cause I was sure I would wake up in time to meet The Buddy at 1, but it turns out it's a good thing I set one. <BR> <BR> When my alarm went off I got up, got dressed, and headed out to meet her. Our original plan had bee... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 21:13:27 EST Getting back on the straighter and more narrow... This day did not start well. I woke up, excited for the first Ohio State game of the season. When it was time, we turned the tv on... and discovered we don't get that channel. First Buckeye game of the year, and I was going to have to miss it. Grrrr. <BR> <BR> I pouted for a while, then we went out for a bit. We decided to have brunch at this little place that opened up a couple months ago, mainly because we knew they'd be showing the game and I could see part of it. So I had just a ... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 21:31:24 EST Exhibiting a little self control today... Last night dh and I were watching a movie, and halfway through, only a little after 11, I was so sleepy I felt sick. {I get nauseous when I get overly tired, I dunno what that's about...} So I went to bed, and was asleep within 5 minutes. I woke up a lot throughout the night, but that's normal. I didn't actually get up until noon. So I slept for about 12 1/2 hours, minus probably an hour or so of being awake in the middle of the night. I dunno what that was all about, but I do know I th... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 20:24:04 EST Dh was in a logical mood... So I asked dh about going to see A Christmas Carol. He told me that it was up to me and we could go if I wanted, but he pointed out that it's in Dec and the weather might be crappy. I hadn't thought about that, and after he said it, I changed my mind about going. I knew that if the weather was bad, either I'd be upset cause we didn't go, or we'd go and I wouldn't enjoy it because I'd be worrying about driving home. So... le sigh. He told me we could get the dvd to The Nutcracker from the... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 21:15:51 EST Hoping dh is in a generous mood... For some reason I decided it was a good idea to look at events going on in Columbus. I found that, one day after what will be our 14th anniversary, there's a live show of A Christmas Carol going on downtown. To say I want to go is a massive understatement. Also, there are still front row seats available for that performance. When dh wakes up from his nap I'm going to ask his opinion, but I am really hoping he will think it's a good idea to go. We pretty much never do anything for our ann... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 21:12:40 EST Home sweet home... Last night was wonderful. It was so nice to be back on my futon in my house. I fell asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow and slept peacefully. I woke up at 11 this morning and stayed up til 12:30, then went back to bed and slept til 2. So I've caught up on my rest, and it felt wonderful. A good night's sleep is indescribably wonderful! <BR> <BR> It has been a fairly productive day. Dh and I made a run to the library to pick up a couple things on hold. After that we went to ... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 21:16:44 EST So tired, and so glad to be home... We're back from the land of no communication. From mid-day on Saturday til this morning, I mostly had no cell service. It was a long couple days. The trip was okay though. Here's some photos... <BR> <BR> Ginger, on our way to Virginia... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Two pics taken from my grandmother's house... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 21:03:09 EST 10 hours til we hit the road... Today has been a busy day. It started off slow with sleeping in. After I got up I ate some breakfast and gave the kitchen a good cleaning. <BR> <BR> Not long after that it was time to wake dh up to head out. I woke him up at 2:30 and we left as soon as he got dressed, and it was after 7 when we got back home. Too many errands, library, drop off apartment key with friend, food, dealership, drug store and recycling. Most of it during rush hour traffic. So that was a good time. <BR> <B... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 21:04:52 EST Stress eating... T Minus one more day until vacation and the stress is really setting in. I keep trying to tell myself the trip is worse in my mind than it will be in reality, but I don't seem to be convincing myself. I think I'll feel a lot better once 6:30 am on Saturday rolls around and we get on the road. I think the wait for it is the worst part. <BR> <BR> So, eating hasn't been great today. On the way to the ultrasound, I stopped for fast food. But I did something I've rarely ever done in my life ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 21:11:31 EST The picture that made my day... As I've mentioned in passing in a couple blogs, a dear SP friend just had a baby. XANGELSTEARZX gave birth to her son Kody, and they just came home from the hospital on Monday. She just posted this pic... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Of him wearing a onesie I sent him, and it couldn't be cuter. Getting this pic was the best part of my day! <BR> <BR> Otherwise, it was an okay day. I did the wake up and then go back to bed thing ... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 21:21:22 EST Sometimes it's fun to not be a homebody... I am happy to say I accomplished the things I said I would today. Well, 99% anyway. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning and was actually ready to be awake, so that was a better start than yesterday. After I sat around for a little bit, I got up and did the first ever-present chores... cleaning the kitchen, rinsing the soda cans for recycling and unloading and reloading the dishwasher. <BR> <BR> After that was done I sat for a while. TOM started hardcore last night, much worse than it ha... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 21:19:12 EST Say what? All the laundry is done? I started out the day being about as lazy as humanly possible. I woke up once, stayed up for about half an hour, and went back to bed for another hour and a half. I just wasn't ready to be awake yet. <BR> <BR> I was more productive the second go around. I cleaned the kitchen, rinsed the cans, unloaded the dishwasher and reloaded the dishwasher. After that was done I woke dh and once he got the cobwebs out of his brain, he hung the photos of the babies... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 21:10:51 EST Sunday walks with The Buddy... Today turned out to be an absolutely lovely day for a walk with The Buddy. We met at the park at noon, and although it was pretty roasty at first, within 5 minutes or so of starting our walk, the shade came over and a breeze was blowing. It was perfect weather. We walked for 11 minutes, then sat on a bench for a while and talked. I love that part of our walks, just getting to sit and chat. Then we walked 12 minutes back. My legs and back were pretty exhausted, but I was so glad we went.... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:09:16 EST New loveseat and rug... Today has been a pretty awesome day around here. I initially woke up stupidly earlier than I wanted to, but it wasn't too bad. I managed to occupy myself and keep my sanity, that's the important part. I made something to eat, tidied the kitchen and got the food for later cooking in the slow cooker. <BR> <BR> My friend was coming over today to bring the loveseat she was giving us. She said she'd be here at 11:30, so I woke dh up at 11:15 so he could be awake and ready to carry it. Of cou... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 21:22:11 EST A small victory... Dh woke up earlier than normal this afternoon, so we decided to go run the one errand we needed to run before we ate. We had hoped we would avoid rush hour traffic if we did that. So we set off on an errand that should not have taken more than 45 minutes round trip. What happened? We got stuck in traffic for an hour. Instead of the trip taking 45 minutes, it took an hour and 45 minutes. And I still had to come home and cook. I was SO tempted to just swing in somewhere and get food beca... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 20:55:26 EST No queso, but someone needs to slap the chips out of my hands! So I said last night we were going to Moe's, and although it wouldn't be healthy, I was going to make one healthy choice and have tomatillo salsa instead of the queso dip with my chips. I did do that, I'm happy to say. Dh got the queso, and although I love it, I only had the salsa. The burrito bowl itself wasn't terribly unhealthy, a little rice, 2 kinds of beans, lean chicken, tomatoes, peppers, mushrooms, a little cheese... and sour cream. But I didn't have as much sour cream as normal,... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 21:01:13 EST "Vacation" is planned... Finally got a confirmation that dh will get to take off week after next for vacation. Which means we are going on "vacation". I use the term vacation loosely because, although we are leaving Columbus and going to Virginia, it's not really a pleasure trip. Just going back to my hometown to visit my grandmother. And I should add... I hate my hometown. But I love my grandmother, despite the fact she drives me batty, so we are going. We will be leaving a week from Saturday and coming home a... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 21:15:13 EST Just making a short one tonight... I'm having kind of an off day. An off week, actually. One of my meds was reduced and I'm not doing well on the lower dosage. I left a message for my psych today, I'm hoping she will agree to raise it back to what it was. <BR> <BR> It hasn't been the unhealthiest day ever, but it hasn't been great either. No fast food, at least. Just ate a little too much overall. <BR> <BR> I did get in a little bit of exercise cleaning the house. I did about 20 minutes worth of hard cleaning and tha... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 21:01:56 EST Embarrassing day... I'm not going to list everything I ate today because it's horrifying. So let's just shorten the story and say -- bad, bad, bad. Fast food and all kinds of crap. <BR> <BR> Otherwise it was a very productive day. I woke up kinda early and sat around for a bit this morning. Then it was off to run errands. To the Goodwill to drop off some stuff we didn't need, to the Post Office, then to eat, then to the library. <BR> <BR> After that was done I had an eye dr appointment. I wanted to get... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 21:12:34 EST It's been a good day... I started out the morning waking up earlier than I wanted to, but I managed to occupy myself and not get bored, so it turned out okay. When I got hungry I made some soup and a grilled cheese sandwich and ate that for breakfast. <BR> <BR> Then it was time to go walk with The Buddy. We walked in the mall today because it was hotter than blazes outside. But it actually ended up working in our favor because there was a girl walking around hanging out bags of free Murad skincare samples. So w... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 21:26:16 EST Got my new car! I'm so relieved, I was finally able to pick up my "new" car today. It was supposed to be a done deal but I wasn't convinced until they gave me the keys and I drove it off the lot. Here it is, parked comfortably in my apartment complex. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Picking it up was a task though. Very long drive, and then of course they didn't have the car actually ready to drive off the lot when we got there. They were giving i... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 21:20:23 EST No restaurant food, yay! I slept in til about 11 this morning. I got up and sat around while I shook the cobwebs out of my brain. Then I made a veggie burger and a few mini-rice cakes for breakfast. <BR> <BR> After I ate I got off my butt and did what I said I would -- cleaned out the cabinet. And then cleaned out a second cabinet for good measure. I'm so glad I finally got it done, but it was depressing how much stuff had gotten lost in that cabinet and gone bad. Gonna have to be more careful not to let that h... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 21:10:37 EST Grocery day... Woke up this morning at like 10:30 and couldn't sleep anymore. I was hoping to sleep later than that to avoid boredom, but alas, it wasn't to be. So I got up and ate a frozen burrito and sat around on the computer. Didn't do much of anything, to be honest. <BR> <BR> Later I got hungry again and ate a veggie burger. After that I was finally motivated enough to go clean out the fridge. That was the main thing on my list to do today, and I did it. I wasn't motivated to do anything else ... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 20:59:02 EST So happy to be a renter... Some days I am ever so thankful we don't own a home, and today was one of those days. I woke up around 8 this morning to pee, and when I got up I thought... hmmm, it's awfully warm in here... so I checked the thermostat. Sure enough, it was almost 80 in here. The AC was dead. I was annoyed, but immediately thankful for two things: 1. That we cleaned in here over the weekend and didn't have a bunch of stuff to do before we could call maintenance. 2. That all I had to do was call mainten... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 21:00:01 EST Half excited, half depressed... After a great deal of discussion, hand wringing and hesitation, dh and I decided we would be better off to buy a "new" car than to sink a big chunk of change into our current car. Our current car has all kinds of problems and is in bad shape, and it's only a matter of time until other things start breaking down, on top of the major problem we're having right now. So I looked online at cars for many hours last night and this morning. Finally found one we liked, so we went to check it out. ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 21:10:48 EST Strangely tired tonight... I think TOM is dragging me down hardcore today. It has been going on for 35 days now. I'm so tired of it, but there's nothing I can do except hope this Pill stops it. Le sigh. <BR> <BR> Despite being tired I did get a little bit done today. I woke up a little earlier than normal and made one of my frozen breakfast burritos. It was super good. I was afraid the shells might taste weird or something after reheating them, but it was perfect. <BR> <BR> After that I put my nose in a book. ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 21:02:58 EST Another fairly productive day... I managed to sleep til noon today, which is exactly what I was hoping for. I knew if I got up any earlier than that I'd end up bored before it was time to wake dh up. <BR> <BR> When I did wake up, I did the usual sitting down and playing online for a few minutes while I got good and functionally awake. Considering how long it takes for me to get moving now, I wonder how I ever used to roll out of bed 10 minutes before I had to be out the door. Age catching up with me I guess. <BR> <BR> A... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 20:59:04 EST Healthy, productive day... Today has been pretty much a 180 from yesterday. I'm feeling pretty good about things at the moment. <BR> <BR> I woke up around 11ish. I played on the computer for a bit while I waited for my belly to wake up and want breakfast. Then I made eggs with salsa and light whole wheat toast. After I ate I played on the computer a little more and did some reading. <BR> <BR> Then I got to work. First up was the kitchen. I rinsed the gathering of soda cans waiting to be put in the recycling bag... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 21:02:21 EST Being pouty... Dh and I were going to go to the Irish Festival tonight. But we're starting to have car problems, and repairs are in our future. So we figured we should skip the festival and save the money we would have spent for the impending car repairs. <BR> <BR> This has resulted in a pouty Cat today. <BR> <BR> I woke up at like 11, stayed awake for a few minutes, and went back to bed til 1. Then I ate some food and sat around for a while. I finally got up the gumption to at least put away the ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 21:01:04 EST So ready for bed! I'm exhausted tonight. I got woken up around 10:30 by a call from the Verizon lady. That led to a trip to the Verizon store. That trip accomplished nothing. It led to a trip back home to recall that lady because of course I didn't take her number with me. I called her and got the problem at the store straightened out. <BR> <BR> Then I went to therapy. I was really not in the mood for therapy today. Some days I feel like talking, and other days I don't want to say anything. Today was ... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 21:04:33 EST Not a productive day... I slept in pretty late this morning cause I was feeling lazy. I got up and played on the computer for a bit and sat around. Then I cleaned up a little in the living room and went in my bedroom and gathered up some more laundry for dh to do. <BR> <BR> After I woke him up, I made bean tacos for lunch and we went to a battery store. Came home and I dealt with Verizon again for another hour. After that it was time to make the menu and grocery list, and I was totally not motivated to do it. ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 21:19:35 EST I hate Verizon... So, as I posted a couple days ago, I need a new battery for my phone. Verizon refused to give me just a battery and instead sent me an entire phone. Fed Ex won't deliver to us so we had to drive an hour and half to the Fed Ex distribution center and back to pick up said phone. When I got home? No battery with the phone. They don't send batteries with replacement phones. So now I have 2 phones and no functional battery. To make a long story short, I ended up sending a nasty letter to th... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 21:08:04 EST Has anyone seen my motivation? Today has not been a healthy day, but it has been a good day nonetheless. I haven't gone hog wild -- as in, I have not had any fast food {I had Subway but that was relatively healthy... no fries involved, anyway.} For me, a day isn't a total throw away if I've managed to stay out of the fast food drive thru. Most of the time, once a day starts going bad, that's my next stop. But not today. So I give myself a couple points for that. <BR> <BR> It hasn't been an especially productive day i... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 21:01:46 EST Much better day... Today has been considerably better than yesterday. Health wise and mood wise. I'm not a ball of grump tonight, which is nice. I hate being grumpy like I was last night. I try not to let that happen too often, although it surely does from time to time. <BR> <BR> I slept super late today. I ended up not going walking with The Buddy. My back started hurting again last night and I decided I should let it rest all day today to see if I can get it better. So I didn't get up til like an hour... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 21:04:52 EST Short and grumpy... This one is gonna be a short one. I'm in a crappy mood tonight and if I write a long post it will all be complaining. I dunno what my deal is today. Partly TOM and partly just the nature of being bipolar I guess. <BR> <BR> It has not been a healthy day. I have eaten a lot of crap and gotten no exercise. I haven't completely fallen apart and eaten as much crap as I have been tempted to eat, but still, it hasn't been a good day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow will be better though. I'm walking with... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 20:47:45 EST