CATTUTT's SparkPeople Blog CATTUTT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Feeling good right now! Last night ended very well. I never got anxious, and I DID get sleepy. I was ready for bed at my normal time and fell asleep quickly. I know that for most people, that's not worthy of comment. But for me, especially when I've been feeling off emotionally, falling asleep quickly and easily is basically a miracle. <BR> <BR> So I woke up this morning for weigh in, and was down 2.4 lbs from Thursday. Woo hoo! That was a great start to the morning! I'm back under 260, down to 258.2. Hop... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 18:27:34 EST Only 56 days! Last night was rough at the end, but by divine gift I managed to fall asleep relatively fast. I was feeling super anxious when dh went to bed and feared I'd be awake all night, but somehow I managed to doze off. That was definitely the best possible ending for the day. <BR> <BR> When I woke up this morning, I was feeling quite a bit better. Not great, but definitely better. That was a huge relief! I got up and got dressed, got some breakfast, and went to the gym to meet The Buddy. We s... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 19:26:48 EST Pets make great therapists... My Beto came to visit me... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Visit me where? In my room, where I have spent most of the day. I woke up this morning feeling crappy from the get go. Dh woke up not long after I did and we went to get a bite of lunch and go to the library. I ate super healthy, and not very much at that. I seemed to not have much of an appetite. <BR> <BR> While we were out, dh made an innocent c... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 18:52:15 EST My head is a really stupid place sometimes. Last night I woke up and ate. Not a ton, but I ate. Small binge. I was irritated that I did it, but I told myself to forget about it, go back to sleep, and wake up feeling better. Well, I did wake up, but I did NOT feel better. I'm honestly not sure what's going on with me emotionally lately, but I don't seem to be able to predict how I'm going to feel minute to minute. I slept until 11 because when I'd wake up, I'd think "Yeah, I don't wanna be awake." and would go back to sleep. Slee... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 19:30:58 EST Boy, when this day got going! I ended up sneaking in a walk before bed last night. It was relatively cool outside and I felt restless, so I figured I'd just get in a little walk. It was short, but it burned calories and burned off extra energy. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning just as dh walked in the door from work. I hung out with him for a bit, made some breakfast, ate, and just sat around chatting and waiting for time to go to the salon. It was a very quiet morning. I ended up getting antsy for time to leave, so... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 19:42:16 EST Ginger and I are pitiful... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Ginger's sad face sums things up. It's Wednesday, which means dh had to go to bed 2 hours ago, and Ginger and I are on our own. Definitely not our favorite night! And I feel bad every time I stand up, because she jumps up and runs down the hall to Daddy's room, hoping I'm going to let her in there. {Yes, we need to work on our co-dependency issues!} <BR> <BR> But despite the weekly sads... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 19:07:55 EST Much improved! The pain in my back is nearly gone! I probably could have gone to the gym today, but I decided I'd rather give it one more day. And I needed to clean up in the house, too. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning in very little pain, which was a HUGE relief. My back is so ridiculous sometimes and I never know what's going cause days or weeks of pain. When I was in college, I literally couldn't sit, stand or lay without assistance for a week... because I wasn't careful enough when I threw my back... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 18:58:25 EST My name may be Cat, but I sure don't have feline grace! Last night, in the middle of the night, I managed to trip and fall in the living room floor. I was fine, except for some pretty bad back pain. When I woke up this morning my back was still hurting pretty bad. I was afraid I had perhaps done some kind of serious damage, since I already have back issues. <BR> <BR> Then I realized I shouldn't go to the gym, and I nearly threw a tantrum to rival any toddler. I was just MAD that I wasn't going to be able to go. At that point I wasn't sure ... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 19:00:22 EST A stutter step... Last night didn't end on a great note. I ended up having a semi-binge. I wasn't feeling especially anxious or anything, I just gave in to the desire to eat. <BR> <BR> But! And this is a HUGE but for me! I woke up this morning and honestly logged what I ate last night. I NEVER do that. I never record a binge, even a small one. When I put in all the food I ate, I ended up 290 calories over my upper limit. Now, this is not GOOD... but some days I easily eat more than double that, so o... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 18:48:05 EST Sometimes anxiety isn't so bad... Last night ended poorly again. I got anxious, and nauseous from the anxiety, for the second night in a row. I'm not sure what's going on with that. When I was young, that was how my anxiety typically manifested... in nausea and vomiting. But it has been some time since I've had really bad nausea associated with anxiety. I get butterfly feelings with it, but not usually full blown nausea. Once again I settled down to read, and tried to lay nice and still and let the nausea pass. It got ... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 19:04:59 EST Geesh... I really can't seem to get things together this week. Last night I got super anxious, and even being with dh wasn't helping. I felt really sick and laid down to read and try to fight the nausea off. I laid there reading for over an hour and a half, not getting any sicker, but not getting any less sick either. I finally decided the only solution was to try to go to sleep and hope to feel better when I woke up. <BR> <BR> Then I sat up. And realized immediately my blood sugar was tanking. ... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 18:09:13 EST Stupid head... I ended up taking some sedatives and reading last night, and felt okay once it all kicked in. I fell asleep pretty easily, but I was awake several times during the night. When I woke up this morning, I was feeling kinda craptastic again. Not any one thing I could put my finger on, but I just felt unsettled and depressed. <BR> <BR> I really didn't get anything done for a while. I just sat around waiting for dh to get home. He had to work almost 2 hours late, but he did finally come hom... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 20:40:18 EST Got my workout plan! I stopped by Planet Fitness today and picked up my workout plan from the trainer. Just 5 different machines, with quite a few reps on each. I'm gonna try that out tomorrow and see how it goes! <BR> <BR> Nothing else much to report. I'm feeling kinda emotionally weird tonight, so I think I'm just going to lay down and read and try to forget about everything. <BR> <BR> I'll post with a report of my workout and all that tomorrow. Hope everyone is having a good evening! Wed, 15 Jul 2015 19:37:26 EST Getting things in order... Apologies for the MIA-ness I've had going on these last couple days. The laptop I had was crappy and I had been on the lookout for a new one, and found a great deal on one yesterday. Got it, hooked it up, liked it, but wasn't super impressed. Then I found the same store had another one that I thought might be good, so I got it today and... Eureka! Finally a laptop that works properly! <BR> <BR> Okay, so yesterday morning I met with the trainer. He had me do 5 different strength machines... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 18:52:32 EST Trying the same thing over and over and expecting different results? I think that quote is well enough known, but just in case... it IS the definition of insanity. And that is largely what I have been doing for months now, in particular in relation to exercise. <BR> <BR> I'm sure to my wonderful regular readers, you're all quite familiar with my "I'm injured" song and dance. I know I am! It seems that any kind of exercise I do, if I do it too often {as in, "consistently"}, I end up injured. If I walk regularly for more than a week or so, I end up with a f... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 19:17:44 EST Shorty! Dh and I were out most of the day, not really doing anything in particular, just going here and there. Then I got home and spent half the evening trying to get through to my grandmother who was on the phone for 2 1/2 hours. Now it's getting late, and I'm about ready to put my nose in a book. <BR> <BR> I did hit my step goal today, with all the walking around that we did in various stores/strip malls/malls. {Where we actually spent no money at all!} Yay for that! <BR> <BR> I think I'm wa... Sat, 11 Jul 2015 19:47:25 EST So glad I contacted my doctor! For the last several days, I've been feeling more and more tired. I mentioned the one morning when I was so tired I felt like I was living in a dream. This week has just been a hard one, energy wise. It finally occurred to me that the reason was not having my thyroid meds. I ran out a couple weeks ago, and was out of refills. I didn't think either my PCP nor my endo would write me a script without an appointment. I have an appointment with my endo, but not until the end of Sept. I can't... Fri, 10 Jul 2015 19:24:17 EST New glasses! Last night didn't end so swell. Dh had to go to bed early in the evening because he had to go back in to work at 1 am, so I was left to amuse myself. This happens every Wednesday, and for the past several weeks I had been dealing with it really well. My anxiety stayed low and everything was okay. Last night I was doing okay until about 9:45. I started to feel anxious, and found the anxiety rapidly escalating. I had already taken sedatives, and was still feeling lousy. So I fell back on... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 19:29:09 EST Forging ahead... I managed to get out of bed within 2 or 3 minutes of my alarm going off this morning, so I thought that a good sign. When I got up, I felt really tired and kinda fuzzy headed, but I figured a nice walk would fix it. I got dressed, put my headphones on, and headed out the door. Stepping outside, I found a dual pleasant surprise of fairly cool temps and cloud cover. <BR> <BR> After walking about halfway around, I deduced I was probably incorrect about the walk clearing my head. I still felt ki... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 18:55:46 EST Starting a streak? Maybe? Hopefully? This morning got off to an inauspicious start. It took me half an hour after my alarm went off to actually get off the futon and get going. Initially I was going to scrap my walk because I figured it would be too hot outside, and to stay on schedule for the rest of the day. Fortunately I reconsidered. The work for my blog can be done another day if it didn't get done today, but I NEEDED that walk way more. <BR> <BR> So I got dressed and headed out. Mother Nature was kinder than I exp... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 18:39:24 EST Posting a middle of the day blog to share this awesome article! I just read this article and thought it was extremely well written, and thought you guys might enjoy it too! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>100-pounds </link> Tue, 7 Jul 2015 13:20:36 EST Life is a plan in progress... I struggled, once again, with falling asleep last night. I was tired until I tried to sleep, and then my mind could think of a million things I should either do or remember to do. Note to self: Try keeping a notepad with me and see if writing them down helps clear my mind. <BR> <BR> I was not impressed when my alarm went off at 8:25. I was tired, and the last thing I wanted to do was get off my comfortable futon. But, after 10 minutes of arguing with myself, I did get up at 8:35. Once... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 19:12:24 EST Gonna hit the floor running tomorrow! I seem to have been busy most of the day, but there isn't much to show for it. I was up until 4 last night, getting my butt kicked by insomnia brought on by a head I just couldn't shut off. Too much thinking! Even so, I woke up around 10:30 this morning. I was tired, but couldn't seem to stay asleep. I figured I might as well give it up and get up. I mostly did some reading until it was time to head out for my first errand. I bought this painting <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 18:48:34 EST Making some changes... Apologies for yesterday's non-existent blog. I got preoccupied with other things and completely lost track of time. In the end, I found myself still awake at 3 am with my brain whirling and refusing to shut off. It happens. <BR> <BR> Health related things first -- I did really well on Thursday... until Thursday night. The nighttime food monster attacked me, or, more aptly put, I AM the nighttime food monster, and I attacked the kitchen. <BR> <BR> When I woke up yesterday, I was just f... Sat, 4 Jul 2015 19:11:50 EST Doing well with my fresh start... I had some trouble falling asleep last night and feared getting up this morning would be a bear, but I actually woke up with time to spare. I got up, got dressed, and played around online until it was time to leave for WW. Weigh in was ugly... actually, uglier even than I expected... so, ouch. It definitely stung to see the number, but I told myself that it was just a starting point, and would look better next week. <BR> <BR> After the meeting, I headed back home and made something to eat... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 19:23:53 EST Crawling out from under my rock... First of all, I want to say thank you so much to you guys. The Goodies and messages and comments were so appreciated! Mentally I wasn't in the game, but getting those surprises in my email made me feel a lot better every day. Thanks, my friends! <BR> <BR> Even though it has been a bit over a week since my last entry, not a lot has gone on. Maintenance finally came and fixed my sink, although not until yesterday. I waited all week last week before finally calling to inquire on Monday. I... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 19:15:03 EST Nothing to report... Another day of waiting, still no maintenance and my endo appt was cancelled, so nothing going on today. Not much to say tonight. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having a great week! Tue, 23 Jun 2015 18:07:28 EST Hurry up and wait... I set my alarm to wake me at 8:45. At 9:45 I finally drug myself out of bed, but only by threatening myself that maintenance could show up any second and I should at least have my teeth brushed first. I got up, got dressed, brushed my teeth... and flopped on the couch. I would've gladly paid someone $20 to sit here and wait for them so I could have gone back to sleep. Unfortunately there was no one applying for the job. <BR> <BR> I made some breakfast and ate, hoping that would give me a... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 18:36:30 EST Feeling kinda crummy... I did make an attempt at being less lazy today. I met The Buddy at the mall to walk, but we only made it 1/2 of our normal time before I gave in. My belly was feeling bad and I decided to call it quits and head for home. By the time I drove back to the store to get a newspaper, I was feeling weak and almost dizzy when I walked. By the time I got home and got up the stairs, I had to just lie down for a bit. <BR> <BR> After a while I felt some better, but I was still weak and a little li... Sun, 21 Jun 2015 18:55:42 EST Just a quickie... Not much to say about today. I've spent the majority of it watching the news, talking to dh, chatting online and reading political blogs. I have a bad habit of feeling like I"m doing things as long as I'm doing things with my mind, and I just realized how completely lazy I've been today. Yikes. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow will be better though, walking with The Buddy at the mall, I think. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having a good weekend! <BR> <BR> <em>86</em> Sat, 20 Jun 2015 18:48:11 EST It was so nice to get some fresh air! When I woke up this morning -- earlier than I have been -- I got dressed and headed out for a walk right away. I was almost excited for it, after all the time I've spent locked up indoors recently. Between the unbearable heat and the rain {sometimes combined with unbearable heat, and always soupy humidity}, I've barely been outside at all. It felt really good to just get out and walk and be outside. Even though I just walked around my apartment complex, it was super nice. <BR> <BR> Aft... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 18:30:48 EST Sink drama... Woke up this morning at 8:45, to be sure I was conscious and presentable in case the maintenance guy came early. He didn't come early, but he did eventually come around 11. He putzed around in the kitchen and then said he made a temporary fix to the faucet so that it could be used, but he was going to replace the whole thing. He said he'd be back after lunch, around 12:30 or 1, to put in a new faucet. He asked me to empty the dishwasher while he was gone because he would have to remove th... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 19:42:57 EST The waiting game... I woke up this morning hungry. I went in the kitchen to make some breakfast, and put one of the gallon jugs we fill for water under the faucet to fill while I did. When I went to take the jug out of the sink, it was hot. So then I started futzing around with the faucet handle and... it's broken. It won't turn to cold water, only hot. And also, it's a wrestling match to get it to turn on. <BR> <BR> That meant that once I was done eating breakfast, I had some cleaning to do. Thankfully... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 18:38:02 EST Still hanging in there... Not much to blog about today. I've managed to keep to our no-spend challenge and have almost finished Day 3 without spending any money. Eating has once again been so-so. Nothing unhealthy, but too much. <BR> <BR> Tonight's blog is a shorty, I'm not feeling much up to blogging tonight. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone's having a great Tuesday evening! <BR> <BR> <em>86</em> Tue, 16 Jun 2015 19:17:57 EST My double-barreled challenge has been a little single-barrel today... Once again, I slept forever. I was in bed early last night and, though I was up for a few minutes here and there during the night, I didn't officially get up until 12 1/2 hours after I went to bed. Probably 10 of that was actually sleeping, which should be far more sleep than one needs. Still hoping lingering TOM is the explanation for this fatigue! <BR> <BR> When I did finally get up, I sat for a few minutes, then made some breakfast. I ate and played online for a bit. Then I drug myse... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 19:41:32 EST Double Barrel Challenge: Day 1 Woke up a little earlier than I needed this morning, which was good. I was afraid I'd have a hard time getting up. I was tired, but I managed. I ate some healthy breakfast, stopped to get a paper, and went to the mall to meet The Buddy. We got in 34 minutes of walking in the mall, which was definitely the better option over being outside. It was roasty already at 10:30 am. <BR> <BR> After our walk, I came straight home. No stopping for any kind of treat, since I"m eating healthy AND ha... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 19:04:09 EST Giving myself a double-barreled challenge... We did watch Willow last night. It was a super cute movie, although I question the PG rating. I would think it deserves a PG-13 at least! I mean, not that it bothered me, but it didn't strike me as exactly the kids movie I thought it was. {As a side note... anyone with an affinity for young Val Kilmer -- see this film!} <BR> <BR> I went to bed shortly after the movie was over and slept forever again. I didn't get up until 11, which meant I was in bed for close to 12 hours. I'm not sure... Sat, 13 Jun 2015 19:49:34 EST The best laid plans... Well, last night I posted and said we were going to watch a movie... and that never happened. I had a headache/neck ache, but I figured some Aleve would cure it and we'd watch the movie when it did. Alas, it didn't work out that way for quite some time. By the time I finally felt better, it was too late to start a movie. So I just read for a while and went to bed. But the movie we planned to watch was Willow {yes, the one from the 80s}. We're still going to watch it, either tonight or t... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 19:38:36 EST Quickie... Dh and I have been out at the library and just got home, and we wanna watch a movie before bed. So tonight is just a drive by. I"ll post a real blog tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone had a great Thursday! Thu, 11 Jun 2015 21:06:17 EST Made it to WW! This morning was not easy. When my alarm went off, I was sooooooo sleepy. I turned the alarm off, and then spent 5 minutes guilt tripping myself into getting up. I did get up, got dressed, and went to WW. The weigh in was ugly... up 6 lbs from last time... but that was expected, since I have both been eating poorly AND it's TOM. <BR> <BR> During the meeting, I decided something. I decided that I don't like getting up that early, and I also decided I"m not particularly partial to any o... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 18:59:52 EST Time to get my nose back to the grindstone! First of all, I apologize to anyone who has sent me a message or Goodie and I haven't gotten back to you. I REALLY appreciate them, they've made me smile so much! <BR> <BR> Quick summary of the trip: We left very early Saturday morning. It ended up being a cool, cloudy day the entire drive. It was actually cool enough that we didn't need to run the AC much, so that was good for gas mileage... and it was also good because it meant we could leave Ginger in the car for a few minutes. That ... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 19:34:03 EST I'm home, and thank you for the birthday wishes!! We ended up coming home yesterday, because they were predicting some bad storms for today. <BR> <BR> Tonight we're still putting things away and getting some stuff done, but I wanted to drop by and thank everyone for the birthday wishes. You're all very sweet! <BR> <BR> Hope you've all had a good Monday! Mon, 8 Jun 2015 20:01:47 EST See everyone on Monday or Tuesday! The AC seems to be fixed, and hopefully for good this time! <BR> <BR> We are pretty much packed and ready to go now I think. We filled the car with gas and took down the stuff we could tonight, so there will be less chaos in the morning. <BR> <BR> In a little while, the friend that will be checking on Beto will be coming over to visit for a bit, and then there will be showering, food packing, and an early bedtime for us. 6 am is gonna come quick! <BR> <BR> Unless they've miraculously i... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 17:38:36 EST Busy tonight! Today kind of got off to a slow start. I spent the first couple of hours worrying about dh. He was working late and didn't text me to let me know. I was fairly sure that's where he was, but there's been a lot of crime in the area and I was a bit concerned. I finally heard from him and he confirmed he was still at work. After that I got up, got dressed, and went to get my hair cut. <BR> <BR> When I got home, dh had only been home for a bit and was still awake. I visited with him for a... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 20:07:30 EST Air conditioner, heal thyself...? Woke up this morning to find that the AC was working. I don't know what sort of sorcery makes an air conditioner repair itself, but whatever it is, that's one useful wizard! I was super happy I wasn't going to have to sit here all day waiting for maintenance. <BR> <BR> I still didn't do much though. I talked myself into staying awake, but I had no energy. I just spent the day looking for coupons and good deals in grocery ads, reading, chatting and playing with a blog. The coupons/store ... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 19:30:56 EST Well, I HAD air conditioning... I woke up this morning at 6 with a really sick belly. That didn't seem to be a good omen for the day! Fortunately I felt better after being awake about an hour, and decided to lay back down for a bit. <BR> <BR> When I got up again, I immediately told the leasing office about our air conditioner being out and that we needed maintenance. I settled in for a long wait for them to show up. Much to my surprise, he did actually show up about 2 hours later. It took him about half an hour of t... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 19:37:20 EST Feeling a bit better... I'm definitely feeling some better today. Still not spectacular, but better. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning to find that our AC is out. Fortunately it picked a good time to go out because it has been cool outside today. We went to move the fan that normally blows on me at the end of the couch into the window, and it shorted out. But that fan has run pretty much non-stop for 5 years or so, so I guess it was allowed to die. <BR> <BR> That meant we were off to Big Lots for a new fan. ... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 19:40:38 EST Not feeling 100%... Today hasn't been a great day either. I slept later today than I have been. I don't know if it was because the extra dose of medication sedated me for longer, or if it was just a side effect of not feeling great mentally and just not wanting to get out of bed. <BR> <BR> It hasn't been a BAD day really, but not a good one either. I had to tell my grandmother about the pills I was shorted to explain why I'm not doing things I normally do and so forth. She immediately started shouting abo... Sun, 31 May 2015 21:02:41 EST Finally figured out what my problem has been this week... To make a very long story short... the pharmacy shorted me some pills, which means I've been having to take a half dose of one of my meds for the last week. I can't not have it at all, so I had to take a half dose to make up the shortage of what they didn't give me. I started last weekend with the half dose, and as the week has gone on, I've felt emotionally crappier and crappier. It didn't dawn on me until just a few minutes ago... I'm feeling crappy because I only have half of one of the... Sat, 30 May 2015 19:38:52 EST It worked! This morning didn't start off too stellar. I woke up feeling anxious and uneasy right from the get go. I don't usually have problems with anxiety in the mornings, so that was kind of odd. I tried to just go on about my day and ignore it, but it definitely took some time to shake it off. I actually felt physically unwell with it, and just was not at the top of my game this morning. <BR> <BR> It did go away eventually, though. When it did, I got up and did a little bit of cleaning. Then ... Fri, 29 May 2015 20:08:20 EST