CATTI53's SparkPeople Blog CATTI53's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Feel Good Jar Prior to the New Year I read somewhere about starting a "What made me feel good today" jar. The idea is to write it down, place the paper in the jar and read them at the end of the year so you can see positive things that happened during the year. <BR> <BR> My daughter loved the idea as well so together we began this "new" tradition. What's nice with this is as we write our thoughts we also share them which amplifies the "feel good" part and helps us focus on the positives in our lives.... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 19:40:01 EST Working my way back....slowly Not sure what happened in the last year (actually the past few years) that put me on this downward spiral. I can think of a few possible things but right now they don't seem that important. Maybe trying to jump in with two feet was too much pressure for me. This time I'm dipping my toe in the water and taking my time because THIS time I want not only to make it work, this healthy lifestyle choice, but I want it to last. I don't want to be a yo yo-er. I want to be a ball...bouncing back...... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 19:15:44 EST 5 years later I begin yet again At some point I just gave in and gave up! I handed my power over to external events because I just became so tired of trying to fight it and overall just plain "tired!" I wallowed in self pity, ate whatever was convenient and parked myself on the couch after work every day and on the weekends - only doing what absolutely needed to be done. A MAJOR pity party! <BR> So now that I'm well rested I'm ready to take control of my life, my health, my well being and my happiness. I'm actually get... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 16:49:47 EST Analyzing Spent the last few days looking at my eating habits and finding my triggers. I KNOW how to lose weight. I thought I had a good gripe on the healthy lifestyle I had achieved ----but it slipped away. <BR> <BR> In order for me to move forward I need ed to analyze my eating habits - and that's what I've been doing. <BR> I've been monitoring my food intake. I've been looking at "when" I eat, "what" I'm choosing and how I'm feeling at the time. I've noticed a pattern. This is the pattern th... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 15:53:02 EST Finding my way home Home....back to me. I've been sidetracked for too long. Time to focus on the good things in my life, either deal with the not so good things, when possible.... Or just let go and move forward in the direction that "I" choose for me. It's time to come home. Tue, 26 Aug 2014 20:33:11 EST Last thought for today <img src=""> Mon, 28 Apr 2014 23:12:43 EST Bouncing back after a difficult time. Took me longer than I wanted but I'm moving forward again. <BR> <BR> I just got back from a dance weekend. The last few I've been on....well, I'm not going to even bother looking back when I feel so positive and refreshed. <BR> <BR> I had a great time, a lot of laughs, quality time with my daughter and my friend, reconnected with some old friends and made some new ones. This break was just what I needed. I feel like ME again!!! <BR> <BR> Now back to the busines... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 19:53:19 EST My laughs today <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and my favorite.. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Where is the <BR> <img src=" Sat, 5 Apr 2014 20:25:32 EST Breaking bad habits I have a few but I'm making progress. I'm making small changes, ones that will stick. Now that the weather is getting better I know I'll spend more time outside. The yard work is calling me!!! But I do enjoy it, mostly. I just have to pace myself and not try to do everything in one weekend. <BR> <BR> I still haven't stepped on the scale. I think I've lost some weight...not a lot... but it will come off. My eating has been good (not perfect) but I do need to kick up the exercise and ... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 11:35:26 EST Tenacity Persistence and drive...... Stubbornness....that's me!!! <BR> I may be losing weight. I don't know. I refuse to step on the scale or take my measurements. My clothes feel loser...some days...but I'm eating healthy, mostly... and trying to get in some exercise. But I feel good! I plan to step up my game this week. I think the nicer weather is helpful. But even if it snows or gets bitterly cold, yet again, I'm going for it. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 22 Mar 2014 20:54:02 EST Ready for change Permanent change this time. I did retain some of the positive changes I made last time when I lost so much weight but some of the negative habits found their way back into my life. It's a learning curve. <BR> I know what works for me <em>224</em> and more importantly.....what DOESN'T!!! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I have to be vigilant every week. If I find I've strayed a bit too much during the week I have to get right back on track or the unhealthy habits will slowly take over....PER... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 19:21:10 EST Spring is coming Spring is a time of renewal. It's been a harsh winter and I'm enjoying the somewhat warmer temps. <BR> I'm putting the past behind me and working towards renewal... a more positive attitude for starters. I'm looking at the good things in my life...the things that make me smile. I'm not thinking or talking about the negatives anymore. When they try to pop into my head I replace them with some good thoughts. <BR> <BR> This makes me smile.. <BR> <img src=" Mon, 10 Mar 2014 21:35:33 EST Not sure what to title this one. Just going with it.. I'm just going to ramble...get my thoughts down and out of my head. I'll analyze later or maybe tomorrow...or maybe just let it all go. <BR> I began yet another chips and dip for dinner night. I stopped it! My healthy dinner is cooking now. I don't understand what gets into me and why I don't value myself enough to take the time to cook healthy. Yes I have problems...yes I have stress. But so do many other people. And my problems seem small compared to what others deal with. <BR> W... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 20:25:14 EST My thought for today.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think this says it all! <BR> <BR> Wed, 5 Mar 2014 20:53:25 EST Staying inspired I'm doing pretty good. Tracking most of my meals. I'm trying not to be obsessed with the scale or becoming fanatical about my measurements. Instead I'm focusing on feeling good... and I do feel good...not tired and bloated. I'll weigh myself soon but I do feel my clothes getting looser and I have more energy. That's a good thing! My whole being feels so relaxed. I'm enjoying it - the balance. <BR> <BR> Today I feel more like I'm concentrating on working towards a healthy lifestyle, so... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 21:20:51 EST More inspirations <img src=""> <BR> <BR> May miss more that one workout....but will keep pushing myself <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm going to make good choices. I am "responsible." I have control over more than I think! I'm going to exercise that power. <BR> <BR> And this....I just love... look for the positive in anything!...... <BR> <img src=" Wed, 29 Jan 2014 18:49:10 EST Inspirations <BR> Honesty.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yikes..... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Mon, 27 Jan 2014 20:54:10 EST Honesty.. it's about time!!! That's my word for my journey. <BR> <BR> I'm putting it out there so that I become RESPONSIBLE.... and find BALANCE. <BR> <BR> I tracked my food and exercise for a few days..then I stopped...the weekend. <BR> <BR> Today started off as a great day. I was tracking. I even pushed myself to exercise for 45 minutes..dancing in my kitchen. I'm not feeling so tired after work because I'm taking liquid them!! <BR> <BR> Then, after I exercised (something good), played with the d... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 20:41:51 EST Found my word Balance...that's my word. It just feels right. My actions are going to bring balance to my life. <BR> I realize that I haven't been balanced. I either work too much, or play too much...mostly work. I either go to extreme on eating - either totally unhealthy (chips and dip for dinner) or too healthy, no deviating from a strict diet. When I work out - I do it till I'm so sore I can't move or I don't move at all. I think you get the drift. <BR> <BR> Going forward I'm going to keep "bala... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 17:23:08 EST It's time It's time for me to move forward...again. I lost myself for a bit. I didn't bounce back as quickly this time. But I didn't beat myself up about it...progress! I allowed myself the time I needed. I still may take a few more days... But I will begin. And I will continue. And I will succeed! I am NOT giving up on me. Yes I've gained some weight back, yes I'm out of shape. But I'm still not where I was when I first joined SP. And I've grown in so many other ways that can't be measure... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 18:33:30 EST Life is choices. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I choosing MUSCLE!!! Time to make it happen! <BR> <BR> I love this one...... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 31 Dec 2013 21:23:38 EST The kale chips didn't make it My daughter came home and ate most of I had to make another batch. <BR> <BR> Going to share my recipe <BR> Kale leaves, stems removed, break into large pieces <BR> Lay flat on cookie tray. Drizzle a little bit of extra virgin olive oil on don't need much. Sprinkle with garlic powder, some crushed red pepper flakes and some Parmesan cheese. <BR> Bake in pre heated 350 degree oven for 15 to 20 minutes. <BR> <BR> Enjoy! Wed, 30 Oct 2013 20:49:06 EST If you always do what interests you at least one person is pleased. Read that somewhere and it stuck with me. Lately I've been doing what interests me and I am pleased! I'm eating pretty good but haven't been able to exercise much. Fell about 2 weeks ago, nothing broken, but sore muscles and a big bump on my knee. I did go dancing last night and my muscles are a bit sore. I'm going on a dance weekend next weekend and I really need to get in shape for it. <BR> <BR> I've been writing a lot in my journals instead of blogging on here. I like the change b... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 17:36:55 EST I looked back I pulled out my journal over the weekend and read some of my entries. It helped me to understand where I was, where I am now and where I want to be. It was helpful to me...a bit sad but I realized I'm not in that place anymore. I moved forward..then took a few steps biggie. But I'm ready to move forward again. <BR> <BR> I also took a look at my eating and exercise plan from almost 2 year ago..(thank you SP for keeping that available to me)... I'm eating almost the same...bu... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 20:48:14 EST No more looking back. What I did, I did. I can't change the past.... and I'm not going to beat myself up over it! Instead of saying to myself "I should have done this, or why did I do that" my new expression is NEXT TIME..... it's very empowering. <BR> <BR> Today I'm going to set some realistic goals and work everyday to reach them. I'm pretty clear about some things I want but with other things I'll decide as I go along. <BR> <BR> It's another beautiful day. I'm going to get out and enjoy it! I will tak... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 11:35:26 EST Enjoying my weekend! Went dancing last night. I danced so much. Today I went for a hike with a friend. Beautiful day. I need to get out more. I feel so calm tonight. I live about a 10 minute drive from the park. I always loved to go up there and just sit and enjoy the beauty of it. It seems I've forgotten so many things that make me feel great. Stuck in everyday nonsense, things that don't really matter that much. So what if my home isn't spotless, and I have clutter all about. I'll get to it. But f... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 20:22:42 EST Looking forward, not back This morning I paid for my pity party last night. My stomach was sooo upset! I made myself a healthy breakfast, egg white omelet with was just what I needed to start my day off right, my new life off on the right track. <BR> I have some things to do around the house today then I'm going dancing tonight. I haven't gone in a while. I miss it and I need it! I just registered for a dance weekend in November. I need to get in shape for it - so I can keep up and fit into my clot... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 11:53:01 EST Hit what I feel is my all time lowest For dinner tonight I had potato chips and dip... after 2 martinis. What am I thinking??? I've been steadily falling into a decline in my efforts to be healthy. It slowly took over. My weight has remained the same but my body has changed, re-shifted... and I feel tired...too tired lately. I haven't been eating right. And that makes me tired so I don't exercise. This is NOT acceptable! Yes... things in my life have not been easy lately but this is not an excuse to just let everything I'... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 21:29:40 EST Doing my best Had a great 1st week back on track. Not perfect, but still great. Made it through the weekend which is usually the hardest for me. <BR> Started this week on a good note. Not ready to step on the scale but my clothes are fitting comfortably. That's a good sign! <BR> Began my weight loss in the kitchen... not going crazy with exercise ...YET... but I will get there. I want to find something that works comfortably into my schedule, and something I will do on a regular basis. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 22:30:41 EST Day 2 of being back on track Day 1 went well. Great food choices. Kept within my ranges and felt satisfied. I love eating healthy. <BR> <BR> Today I'm going to do the same but today I'm going to add some exercise. Hoping to get to zumba tonight and if not I'll do some dancing at home. <BR> <BR> Taking it one step at a time making small changes. I know that's what works! <BR> <BR> Have a healthy day! Wed, 14 Aug 2013 07:05:47 EST Time to move on and get moving again towards good health. <BR> <BR> Things have settled a bit so I'm going to take the opportunity to get my goals set and my eating back to super healthy. I miss exercising on a regular basis and I especially miss strength training. I haven't gained any weight but my weight shifted and I've lost a lot of the tone I had. Clothes are not fitting as they should. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I begin tracking everything again and weighing and measuring. I'm not relying on eyeballing... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 21:16:25 EST Just want to share what has been going on My last blog I was getting back into swing...feeling good, eating right, exercising and getting out. Seemed to find my determination. <BR> <BR> Last Sunday my dad was rushed to the hospital. He had fallen. He had been sick for quite a while but he was hanging on. I couldn't get to the compassion care on Sunday as it was late. My daughter and I went after work on Monday and then again on Tuesday. We stayed late both nights. On Wednesday morning I got a call from my sister that he was n... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 20:34:37 EST The pic that should have posted on my last blog <img src=""> Thu, 18 Jul 2013 22:52:04 EST Still Sparkin...just not active on the website By that I mean I don't track anything on here..but I'm mindful of what I eat and my exercise. I've maintained my weight..which I'm happy about...that's really the final goal, maintain without continually tracking... but, I want my weight to be lower and my body to be more toned and in shape. I also want to give back...encourage others the way you have encouraged me. I really have no plausible excuse...except that I'm being a bit selfish....taking care of me... something I have only learned... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 22:44:55 EST Busy... I like to be busy! So much going on since my last blog. I took my 12 day vacation to Florida. It was quite relaxing. I did work out in the gym a few days but it was just SO hot...even with the air conditioning so I resorted to swimming in the pool every day instead. I also swam in the Gulf on the days I went to the beach and back to the pool. I found I wasn't eating as much, maybe the heat... not sure where my weight is at or my measurements. I have to take a look at that this weekend. All I know is my c... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 22:20:47 EST The scale didn't move? I was very surprised this morning when I weighed myself. I did lose one inch around my hips but.... no weight? After how active I was all week and weekend? And I tracked my food and stayed within all my ranges. I know this can happen, and the next week I could have a big loss so I'm going to continue what I'm doing and really take a look at how much sodium I may be taking in. I am drinking a lot of water will all the activity I'm doing so I could be retaining water. <BR> <BR> I haven'... Mon, 27 May 2013 16:33:59 EST Taking a night off Want to relax before the weekend. I almost went to a zumba class tonight but I'm sore from the last 3 nights, I didn't feel so motivated to go, and I have a lot I want to do this weekend...which includes zumba Saturday morning, line dancing Saturday night and Sunday too, and mowing the lawn over the weekend as well....Wow! I have a lot I want to <BR> I think a night off is probably a good idea. I do feel great getting out and exercising.... and I'm eating healthy.. tra... Thu, 23 May 2013 20:00:15 EST Now that I've found my motivation... there's no stopping me! I must say, it took me long enough to get it back. <BR> <BR> I'm really enjoying being more active again. I'm also mindful of what I eat all the while thinking....If I have THAT then I'll have to exercise THIS much to make up for it worth it for a few seconds of taste?? NO NO NO!!! It's not. When I think of how much I have to sweat just to make up for the calories I consumed when I can be exercising to take away the fat from the foods and drinks I've a... Tue, 21 May 2013 18:57:12 EST Thoughts on today's weigh in.... I've been working hard all week - sticking to program so when I stepped on the scale and saw I lost one pound this week I was a little disappointed....only ONE pound! <BR> Then I remembered this.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and it put it in better perspective for me so I went on to take my measurements - down a few inches almost all over my body - yay! <BR> <BR> I know from prior experience that sometimes the scale doesn't... Sun, 19 May 2013 12:16:10 EST Feel like I'm on a roll....... I've been doing great all week, tracking my food, exercising and taking time to relax as well. <BR> <BR> I got up early today - on a Saturday??? - and went to a zumba class. I did the same last Saturday and I remember how great I felt after - energized with the whole day ahead of me to get things accomplished. Quite a switch from sitting in front the computer drinking coffee till old habit which I'm working to break. <BR> On Wednesday when I got home from work I felt pretty ti... Sat, 18 May 2013 14:37:46 EST Found my motivation It tried to hide from me but I found it!! Now to continue moving forward towards my goal. Today I'm down 5 lbs. and a few inches - a good jump start. I'm eating better, exercising and taking time to enjoy my life. I've reset my priorities so I am able to do this for ME! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 12 May 2013 11:45:51 EST I'm doing it! I made up my mind last Sunday and I've been tracking and exercising since Monday (stepped up my game plan). I stepped on the scale today ( I couldn't wait a full week) and discovered I lost 4 lbs. Such a nice surprise! I had a feeling I had lost some weight....but 4 lbs!!! It's motivating me even more! On Sunday I'll take my measurements and weigh myself again. Maybe I'll have yet another surprise for Mother's Day. This gal is determined!!!! <BR> <BR> I'm not going to yo yo anymo... Fri, 10 May 2013 19:51:05 EST Stepping up my game plan A week ago I took my measurements. During the week I did a little to reach my goals- apparently very little as the scale didn't move nor did the tape measure. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I made some visuals to remind me of where I want to be. I'm starting with an 8 week program. I made a calendar with plenty of room to fill in all of my activities which I will record with different colored markers. I want to see every day full of colors - painting my rainbow! <BR> <BR> I tracked the food I plan... Mon, 6 May 2013 12:04:05 EST Trying to psych myself up! First, I deleted my prior blog. It was upsetting me. But thank you to those who commented. It helps. <BR> <BR> Got a lot of yard work done today. My exercise. I'm more sore from this than from the zumba class I Lot's of bending, stretching, walking, hauling... really using my muscles. But it feels sooo good and I can see the progress immediately of my efforts. <BR> <BR> To help me on my weight loss venture I saw a suggested tool that I'm incorporating. I made a chain of... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 20:57:52 EST Enjoying my Saturday Was just outside for a few hours trying to get a jump on the yard work. Enjoying a cup of tea and then off to do some housework. Weekends are too short! <BR> I'm trying to keep actively busy and burn some calories even though its quite tempting to just sit around and relax. I'll do that later! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was not my best food day but most the week I did great! Small steps...but in the right direction. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having a pleasant day! <BR> <BR> <img src="htt... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 14:58:55 EST Not looking back I've been beating myself up for gaining back some weight. I have so many beautiful clothes that either don't fit me or are quite tight so I can't wear them. I feel tired and sluggish too often. I know other than the extra weight I'm quite healthy - had a check up recently and some blood work done. But I am smoking again.... a bad habit I will stop yet again! Right now it seems to be helping keep my stress levels low (my daughter told me I'm so much calmer when I and she wa... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 19:37:08 EST Finding the time to get back in shape! Week is off to a good start. Zumba tonight, line dancing tomorrow night and then, if I have the energy, Zumba on Wednesday. Eating healthy and it feels great to exercise and get out of the house. Lovin the warmer weather! But now time to rest as I know that is also so very important. <BR> Stress levels are down even with all that is going on. Looking forward to my dance weekend.. less than 10 days! Keeping busy, and motivated. Zumba did kick my butt a bit tonight. Hope I can move tomo... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 00:05:50 EST Slowly getting back on track. Not a bad week. Wanted to exercise more. Need to push myself even if I feel tired. I know exercise energizes me. Realize I really MUST track my food. I think I'm doing good but the scale says different. I know tracking is an eye opener. No's time. <BR> Planning to visit Florida in June. Must get the body in shape so I fit into my summer clothes. I will not buy bigger sizes! <BR> Off to run errands then some yard work perhaps. Going to keep this body moving today and ... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 10:59:48 EST I've been outta control and it STOPS NOW! I'm not going to dwell on the past. I have a million and two excuses I can give for slipping.....but the truth... and truth is the most important... I lost focus.. and I'm suffering the consequences for it. <BR> The weight gain bothers me a lot. It bites! but I don't feel healthy. That bothers me even more. <BR> Time to refocus and get the job done! There are always going to be problems in life, things we must face, deal with....and I'm going to do it in a healt... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 20:52:26 EST Life is.... many things. Wonderful ... yet at times, confusing , joyful, sad, empowering, over whelming, simple, difficult, clear, confusing, joyful, heart wrenching, challenging, fulfilling, hysterical, cosmic joke, fun, liberating, intoxicating, many more to add...but.. <BR> People are... loving , supportive, kind, unselfish, determined, helpful, uplifting, funny, intoxicating in a good way, forthright, honest, and yes...some are bitchy and deceitful...but that is not the norm!!! far from it! <BR> <... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 19:41:35 EST