CATSPANK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CATSPANK CATSPANK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My ring now fits! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641545 It has been years since I was able to put on my garnet ring....Now I can put it on my ring finger and it fits nicely. No fat squishing around the sides of the ring, it just sits there nicely without being tight. <BR> <BR> I am so pleased about this. I tried it on a whim thinking it still wouldn't fit. Imagine my surprise when it slipped on my finger without my having to jam it on. I guess you could call this a non scale victory. This is better than a reward because I really like this ri... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 17:13:10 EST Exercised anyway http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638584 I didn't want to do it. Sitting on the computer seemed more fun. It would be hard and I didn't want that. <BR> <BR> So I got up and put in the dvd and started moving anyway. I put in my half hour of exercise and now I feel proud of myself. Instead of feeling guilty for not doing it, I feel accomplished. <BR> <BR> I must remember this for the time the "I don't wanna's" comes around. I can feel good for the rest of the day because I did it. Mon, 3 Mar 2014 12:47:15 EST Hubs ordered me the rest of my running gear today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637918 He is so supportive. For my anniversary present he ordered me a watch with a chronograph/stopwatch to time my runs, tights, training log, sweat wicking t-shirt and a pedometer that counts steps, calories burned, distance and fat grams burned. Combined with my new running shoes I'm ready for action. <BR> <BR> Now if this stupid snow would just melt so I can get started. I'm too scared to run in the snow after I fell and broke my arm on the ice a couple years ago. I respect the ice now so ... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 18:15:15 EST Made it to the two mile marker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637555 On my Leslie Sansone dvd that is. It is a four mile walk dvd and today for the first time I made it to the mile two finish marker. I didn't do it perfectly, I made mistakes BUT I kept moving along with Leslie and I made it to the two mile marker! <BR> <BR> That feels pretty effing terrific considering I started out with a seniors dvd. LOL! I feel pretty proud of myself right now. Two weeks ago I couldn't even finish one mile so I have made a stamina gain. Yay! <BR> <BR> Not only that,... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 10:48:12 EST Down 2 pound this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632324 Weighing in at 187.4. This is the lowest I've weighed in 9 years. I feel fantastic. Why did I wait so long to do this? What was I thinking? Well I surely won't be waiting any more. I need to reward myself for this accomplishment. Mon, 24 Feb 2014 09:39:18 EST Hopped on the scale this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285352 And it said 194.8 exactly one pound down from the last time I was on it. It feels pretty good to be just a few pounds away from the 180's. <BR> <BR> This raw vegan low fat diet is working. It tastes good too. <BR> <BR> I still don't know what I will reward myself with when I hit the 180's. Maybe a new pair of earrings or something that won't end up too big on me in a few months time. <BR> <BR> I'm learning to look at food as fuel for my body, not just for pleasure. I actually concern... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 14:04:33 EST Down exactly 1 lb. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281052 Got on the scale this morning and was 195.8, exactly one pound down. Woo Hoo! I was hoping for two but hey, I'll take the one and LIKE IT! <BR> <BR> Now I need to come up with a reward for hitting the 180's. They're only five pounds away so I could conceivably be there by the beginning of next month. What would be a good reward? <BR> Sun, 10 Mar 2013 11:10:43 EST Self Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279272 You would think I would have a little. But no. 3 oz. almonds for 500+ calories. With dinner tonight it will put me in at 1,600 calories for the day. Well above my 1,250 goal. Why do I do this to myself? I got hungry. Too hungry. The almonds were there, hubby was happily munching away making them crunch so deliciously and I just had to have some. Then some more. Then more. <BR> <BR> I'm still going to eat my salad for dinner though. I will just have to do better next time around.... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 18:47:30 EST Almond Breeze http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274241 It's delicious! Now I am fully vegan. The cream in my coffee was the last holdout. Now I am using almond breeze and it is yummy! I'm using the vanilla flavored one. <BR> <BR> I never really cared much for cows milk and only used a splash of cream in my coffee. I don't really drink milk by the glass. I didn't like the flavored non-dairy creamers because of what they are made of so the Almond Breeze is the perfect solution. <BR> <BR> Its funny too. My husband just bought a case of be... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 11:44:24 EST Happy surprise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267174 Got on my scale this morning and was down to 196.8 from 198.2. Makes me happy because I didn't think I'd lose any more weight this month. <BR> <BR> I'm very happy. That makes 6 pounds this month. If I keep doing this every month by December I will be within 5 pounds of my goal. Skinny jeans here I come! Thu, 28 Feb 2013 11:45:31 EST Bananas for breakfast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265917 Bananas are great! Full of carbs and sweet. I also had a glass of grapefruit juice putting my calories around 340. I feel full of energy like I could go run for a mile. Sadly there is ice where I am at so I am stuck indoors. <BR> <BR> I am buying the book 80-10-10 diet by Douglas N. Graham. I think it will be a good fit for my raw vegan choice in lifestyle. I looked in the library and they didn't have it so I am forced to buy it. Oh well, it will be a good reference book for my libr... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 11:42:00 EST Just when I think the scale won't move http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262033 198.4 Another pound gone. I've weighed this for a few days so I believe it now. I've lost four pounds this month. Not too bad. Could have been better. Still a few more day to go till the end. Its possible I could lose one more pound. Possible, but I'm not betting on it. I'll take my four pound loss and like it. <BR> <BR> 4 pounds a month would be 48 pounds by the end of the year. A little over half of what I want to lose. I'm going to have to pick up the pace if I want to make goa... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 11:35:13 EST Adding in exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259051 I'm adding in exercise to my dietary changes. I ordered Leslie Sansone walk and jog and another dvd from my library. They should be here tomorrow or the next day. When I get paid I am buying one off amazon. I need to MOVE MORE. I have a pretty sedentary life right now and that has got to change. <BR> <BR> I wonder how many calories I will burn doing these dvds. I wish that information was on the cover. You would think it would be a selling point and that someone would put it there. A... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 17:22:45 EST Lost my taste for meat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256427 The past few weeks I've been eating loads of fruits and veggies with the occasional meat and you know what, I've decided to give it up altogether. Yep, all of it. The deciding factor was today at sams club. They were giving away samples of roast beef so I picked up a toothpick with a bite on it thinking yum. Not. I put it in my mouth and chewed once or twice and needed somewhere to spit it out. Seriously, it was that bad. I couldn't just spit it on the floor so I was forced to chew and... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 16:22:40 EST Got on my new scale this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254732 It said 199.6. Two pounds more than my other scale. I'm going to go with what this one says and retire my old scale. I was a little sad to see the two extra pounds but with a little effort they will be gone again. <BR> <BR> Besides, I'm feeling better and sleeping better than before so that counts for something. Just gotta keep on keeping on. Persistence always wins. Mon, 18 Feb 2013 11:00:28 EST I don't trust my scale today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253498 It says I lost two pounds. Really? Can I believe it? What if its just water weight? What if tomorrow its back up again? Can I trust it? Should I put this on my tracker? Sun, 17 Feb 2013 10:56:06 EST My new scale came! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252762 It is an Ozeri Touch II. Measures weight, body fat, hydration, muscle mass, bone mass and probably even counts the hair on my head. My old scale was a spring type with the dial that spins around with all the little lines marking off the pounds. Really hard to read. <BR> <BR> My new scale is digital with a nice big readout thats easy on the eyes. Trouble is now I have to program it. That will take a little doing but it will be worth it. Its motivation to keep on losing those pounds. I'... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:32:20 EST Non Scale Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249447 My favorite ring used to be so tight that I'd have to twist and twist with water to get it off. Today, I can slide it off my finger with hardly any drag. At least my fingers are getting skinny. LOL. Wed, 13 Feb 2013 18:06:25 EST Can I really eat this much? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248112 Since I have been eating mostly fruits and vegetables I'm finding I really have to pack in the food to get up to a decent calorie range. I feel full all the time now. Not like before where I was hungry all day long. I'm scared I won't lose the weight even though my calories are low. I think I must feel hunger to lose weight or something like that. Am I the only one who feels this way? Can I really feel full and lose weight? Tue, 12 Feb 2013 18:39:23 EST Back in ONEderland! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246397 Yep, 199 this morning. This time around it is different. This time I am keeping it off. Already planning my new wardrobe. Using creative visualization of my slim self to keep me motivated. I even bought a brand new digital scale. Measures weight, hydration, body fat, bone mass, muscle mass. Yes, it was expensive (another reason to keep up the weight loss) but so worth it. I'm on my way! Mon, 11 Feb 2013 12:26:20 EST I need patience! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5244921 I'm not very patient. Its only been a week and I don't understand how I can still be fat. LOL. I need to realize I didn't get this way in a week and it will take more than a week to get it off. I keep plugging along, watching my calories, eating the right foods. Ugh! I need to be patient. The days will pass at the same speed whether I eat right or not. I might as well eat right while they pass. One day I will wake up and it will be a year later. If I eat right now, I won't be fat th... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 10:15:52 EST A vegetably kind of day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240571 All raw food today. Clementines and blackberries for breakfast and a massive green salad for lunch. I'll probably finish off the blackberries and have a couple of clementines for dinner. Took my multivitamin and drank my water. All in all a good day. Needs more protein but I will pick up some nuts at the store for that. Maybe Tomorrow will be a chicken day. Chicken breast something, bbq? Chinese? Maybe I'll even get on the scale tomorrow and see if I've broken into the hundreds. Its... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 17:55:07 EST Time doesn't fly after all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239143 Why am I still fat after losing 10 pounds? Why is this taking so freaking long? Because I have 75 more pounds to lose thats why. It seemed awfully easy to pack on this weight but taking it off seems to take forever. The days drag by and every time I get on the scale it reads the same as the last time. <BR> <BR> AAAAHH! How do I get the patience for this? I know that by coming in under my calorie goals the weight logically has to come off, but I want it off NOW! Not 12 months from n... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 18:45:27 EST Learning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237131 Well, I fell off the wagon and gained ten pounds. Now I am back and have already lost those ten and am looking ahead at the next ten I have to lose. I have learned from my mistake and that is the important thing. This time I look at my calories differently. Instead of thinking I only have a thousand puny calories and that I will starve, I guard them and dole them out a little at a time on things I really like. They are like precious money to be spent and I want quality. <BR> <BR> I do... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 12:33:00 EST Truth #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773709 Nothing changes if nothing changes. I have finally learned that. After thinking I should just love myself fat I've realized that I will NEVER love myself fat. I love myself but I was saddened to see what a cow I'd become. I use the past tense because this time my cow suit is only temporary. Every day I lose a little more. Food just doesn't call to me like it used to. I can watch someone else eat and I don't have to join them. Its like God has given me this new thing called self contro... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 12:26:22 EST Fear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4110619 Now that I have lost 14 lbs, I am scared it will just suddenly be back on me when I step on the scale next time. I really do not want this weight back now that its gone. On the up side, my size 16 pants are now loose around the waist. I can't wait for the day they drop right off my body. Tue, 22 Mar 2011 17:11:47 EST Its just one little pound... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4091605 But I now have a one as the first number on my scale instead of a two. It feels pretty good to be in onederland. My next goal is to get the second number to an eight. As long as I'm losing thats what matters to me. I'm proud of that one pound. Mon, 14 Mar 2011 19:34:39 EST My ribs are healed!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3969601 Enough that I could work out today anyway. I still have a HUGE purple/black bruise but I was able to work out. I feel like a million bucks. Fri, 28 Jan 2011 16:09:21 EST Busted rib http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3956409 So I just had to slip on the ice on the stairs and bust my rib. Now I can't exercise for at least a week judging from the pain in my side. I'm not bothering with the hospital since they can't put a cast on it anyway. <BR> <BR> So here I sit in front of the computer munching aspirin all day long trying not to breathe too deeply. I will have to be extra vigilant about my calorie counts since I won't be able to do any exercises. Well, I could but I'm not a masochist so I won't. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 14:07:55 EST Portion control my new mantra. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3944809 I am learning about portion control. For example this morning I had one fried egg, two strips of bacon and one piece of dry whole grain toast. Before spark people that would have been two fried eggs, 4-6 strips of bacon and two pieces of toast smothered in butter. <BR> <BR> I feel satisfied with this amount of food. However the size 18 me still wants more food. Not because I feel hunger, but because it tastes good. I guess I am a taste addict. <BR> <BR> I am proud of myself for thi... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 16:37:42 EST Something wrong with my scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3941120 There has to be something wrong with my scale. I got on it this morning and it showed a 5 lb loss. How can this be? Its been way too easy. There must surely be something wrong. Maybe I need a new scale. I make sure it is set for zero before I get on it so thats not it. Can weight loss really be this simple? <BR> <BR> I stick to my calorie range and I force myself to exercise. I hate exercise. But I make myself do it. Its not even that much exercise. 30 minutes of cardio three ti... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 14:31:53 EST Making myself exercise. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3931015 I did it again today. I made myself put in thirty minutes of cardio. I sat in front of my computer with the message "you have cardio scheduled today" in front of me. I whined, I complained. I wanted to sit in front of the computer screen where it was comfy. But I got up and did my half hour. Now I feel better. The dreaded exercise time is finished. Will there ever be a time when I won't have to make myself do this? I mean really, you would think I was going to get a tooth pulled the ... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 18:09:20 EST Lost 5 lbs this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3924934 I don't know how I did that. I got on my scale three seperate times, made sure it was on zero to start and it told me I lost 5 lbs. Amazing! I'm sure its water weight mostly but hey, its off my body and I don't want it to ever come back. I looked at myself and can't really see where it came off of me. I can hardly wait for the day when I have to buy new clothes that fit. I think to reward myself I'll put some money in a jar and start saving for those new clothes. Fri, 14 Jan 2011 13:33:50 EST