CATHYLIELAUSIS's SparkPeople Blog CATHYLIELAUSIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I Survived I made it through summer school with an A and a B- . The B- seriously annoyed me since the teacher's comment made me think he had me confused with another student AND since I got an A- and a B on my two projects. Rant over. Thanks to the Shooting Stars team here on Spark I also kept on track with journaling my food and kept on losing weight slowly. I broke 100 pounds this week and I am jazzed! Sun, 10 Aug 2014 13:12:19 EST Work New classes start on Monday and I'll be taking two summer intensives: Matte Painting and Cross-Cultural Understanding. I'll do an art journal for the latter. On top of this I've committed 4 hours/day to do online feature film work. I will be overwhelmed by work, so planning my food and exercise will be very important. It would be too easy to forget to work out and to snack mindlessly while working at the computer. I think I'll set a timer so that I remember to get up and walk around. Fri, 13 Jun 2014 10:08:53 EST Writing Goals Positively Ok, I realize that I won't keep up with blogging every day. I am studying for my MFA in animation and visual effects and classes can be demanding, especially near the end of the courses. Classes end next week, and I've already submitted my final pieces. All of a sudden I feel at loose ends. I've achieved a major goal, and now I want a reward. I want to continue thinking positively so my reward will be to spend some of my newly free time reading. <BR> <BR> My mini-goal is to focus entir... Sun, 12 May 2013 16:05:43 EST Positively Positive Today I am happy to be me and I see myself achieving my goal for this week of eating protein with every carb serving. No negative thoughts; I'm being positively positive. While I know that I may not achieve my goal, I will forgive myself if I don't. <BR> <BR> I went to see my doctor on Thursday and he explained to me that our self talk makes a physical difference in our brains. He told me that there are triangular cells on the outer lining of the brain that are changed depending on our out... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 11:29:19 EST Holiday Stress I love the holidays, but I hate the holidays. Christmas is my favorite time of year with sparkling lights, snow, happy exclamations as special foods and sweets are presented and consumed with delight, and presents that represent our love for one another. But Christmas makes me so tired, and I don't want to decorate or take down the decorations. I'm happy to eat the food and sweets, and sit in front of my computer and gain weight. <BR> <BR> I'm going back to Fitness Ridge in January and ... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 10:30:39 EST Moody I have fibromyalgia. I try to stay positive, at least in my blogging. It has been really hard for the last two days. On Thursday I was angry and irritated with my husband. I wrote my blog about play that day as a mental break from my mood. Today I feel bad, both physically and emotionally. It is cloudy and windy outside with breaks of sun, an interesting mix, but that doesn't seem to be changing my mood. <BR> <BR> I feel like whining today. I hurt in spite of my medication and my moti... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 14:06:41 EST Thank Goodness its Friday - Let's Play! Another Friday is a good thing. It means that, for most of us, the work week is ending and we have free time to play for two days. Unfortunately play is usually shop, garden, clean house and do other chores we didn't get to all week. But every one of us needs real play, the kind that we did when we were kids. <BR> <BR> I remember playing when I was young. We'd go outside and roam the neighborhood, sometime with our friends and sometimes alone. Our house backed up to the San Gabriel Moun... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 16:18:20 EST Whitewater Rafting for my Birthday On Saturday my husband and I went whitewater rafting, a birthday present from my husband. I'd never been on anything smaller than an 18 person motorized raft and this time our raft held 7 people and we had to paddle. I had chosen the turbine release high-water trip down Maine's upper Kennebec River with North Country Rivers. The river ran at 8800 cfm, almost the highest and fastest. There were a couple of class 4 rapids and a lot of class 3. <BR> <BR> I was so excited about this that ... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 14:47:53 EST Missing Fitness Ridge already, but love SparkPeople I can't believe that I am trying to talk my husband into going with me to Fitness Ridge as soon as I can afford another vacation. The scenery is stunning. On my first morning hike, there was a rainbow at the top of the trail! Later that week there was a full double rainbow, horizon to horizon, with interference (extra colors) bands. You don't get a more amazing rainbow than that! <BR> <BR> I've kept up the hikes, though not as frequently. Two hours is a long hike, but I mostly have the ... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 09:18:35 EST I'm back from Fitness Ridge... On Monday morning I returned from my two week stay at the Biggest Loser Resort Fitness Ridge in Ivins, Utah. It was an amazing experience. I LOVED the hikes in the mornings through the stunning beauty of the St. George area. <BR> <BR> Everyone raved about the food but me. I found it too sharp (vinegary) and sour. I like sweet and creamy. I did acquire a new food love: steel-cut oatmeal. It is chewy heavenly oatmeal. They served it with creamy almond milk. I was shocked to discover... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 20:47:21 EST Things that I'm addicted to First I want to say that I don't do illegal drugs and I don't drink alcohol. Not my thing. However, that isn't the end of addictive behaviors. For me, addiction is something that I can't set aside and keep coming back to even if it affects my life in a negative way. Those things include foods such as cookies, candy, and ice cream (not necessarily in that order). If I have those things around then I can't control myself and I will eat them until I get sick. <BR> <BR> I am also addicted t... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 09:50:25 EST Happiness is ... Someone asked me what I think happiness is. I thought carefully, then brainstormed, thinking about the fine line between happy and unhappy. It is not euphoria or the thrill of a roller-coaster ride. It is the feeling of a job well done. It is doing what is needed to finish a challenging job, but having the ability to do that job. It is the comfort of knowing that someone cares deeply for you. It is the comfort of a pain-free body. It is having the energy to pursue your goals, whether t... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 14:09:05 EST Too Hot to Move It has been hot and humid and every joint I have is screaming with pain. I think that I should walk or something but it hurts to move. I hate having fibromyalgia. At least I finished my animation of curtains ripping so I feel like I have accomplished something today. <BR> <BR> The clouds darken and thunder rolls <BR> My cat slinks along the floor <BR> He is running to hide <BR> The heavy drops of pain begin to fall <BR> and soon I am drowning <BR> I just want to sleep but the pain fill... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 16:10:53 EST At Loose Ends I had planned on doing on-line classes this morning and then I was reminded that the system is off-line for another two hours, so I'm at loose ends. We all say that we don't have enough time for this or that, but it usually is just an excuse. If I have enough time to stop at Taco Bell then I have enough time to make a healthy meal, even if I just have to bring the ingredients with me, and I'll save some money in food and gas. I can use the extra few minutes for a walk. I used to take a br... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 09:23:26 EST Wonderful Weather Great weather makes for feeling good, at least for me. It is warm and dry, and looking out my window at stunning scenery brings me peace. Sometimes I wish that feeling great was something I could mentally control, but weather is so important. Bad weather, especially humid and hot weather, makes my body hurt everywhere and then I feel bad and everything is hard for me to do. I hunch up in my air conditioned room and brood. When I brood I want the endorphin rush that crunchy sweets bring t... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 09:12:44 EST Hot and Humid I'm told that the weather here in Maine is some of the best in the country right now, and it looks beautiful outside. However I'm sitting in front of the air conditioner glowing. I hear that we girls don't sweat, we glow - well I'm a 100-watt bulb right now. I have been reading motivational stories this morning but I don't feel motivated; I just feel a headache heading my way. <BR> <BR> I will look at my list of motivational quotes and share one that I can repeat to myself. "I accept all... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 09:41:10 EST Two Crazy Days I spent the last two days working on homework. I'm taking online classes towards an MFA in Video Effects and I had a deadline for midterm writing assignments yesterday. Everything took longer than I expected, but I finished my work. Unfortunately that effort basically meant I spent the entire days on my butt in front of the computer. <BR> <BR> I did meet my small goal of not eating mindlessly in the evenings. One way I met this was by having dinner a little bit later so I was full throug... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 08:32:35 EST Just Starting I'm starting all over today. I set three small goals, one of which might be very hard for me. The hard one will be not eating mindlessly in the evenings. I sit in front of the computer all day, into the evening working on my graduate degree in computer compositing, and I want to crunch while I do that. I've been eating Chex Mix or graham crackers, and I have gained nearly 40 pounds over the last 3 years. I can feel this goal will be a challenge, maybe too hard. <BR> <BR> My second goal ... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 09:24:47 EST