CATHUT's SparkPeople Blog CATHUT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community LATE NIGHT THOUGHT! Have you ever thought that GUILT is just a tool the Universe uses to show us right from wrong. <BR> <BR> That's it just a tool. <BR> <BR> That there's no reason to beat yourself up or turn to self abuse such as overeating, drugs, smoking, drinking to excess to try and drown the guilt.... <BR> <BR> You don't have to FEEL guilty for feeling guilt. <BR> <BR> You just THANK the Universe for showing you right from wrong and <BR> <BR> then let the LOVE of the UNIVERSE sooth your soul. <BR> <... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 01:56:28 EST THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE HOME! I am home from vacation and I feel like an old lady. I'm not used to so much city walking and long distance driving. It was so good to get home and cuddle with my kitties!!! Annisette my chocolate siamese spurned me at first and then came and kneaded my neck with her claws and slobbered all over my face. I LOVE cats! <BR> <BR> Vacation was GREAT! My sister Anne and I went to the zoo and saw the tiny baby elephant Lily. Went to Powell's City of Books which takes up a whole city block. Rode th... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 01:18:58 EST KITTENS! Today is my sister's 44 birthday. Her birthday wish was to rescue some kittens. <BR> We went to the "trailer park of squalor" out in the woods. We rescued 4 beautiful babies from the first trailer and 2 from another one. We were about to take the two tiny girls which were unattended as no person should live the way they were living. <BR> Well we did what we could by taking the 6 kittens. <BR> We have Two Aunties Kitty Commune and only take more kittens as we can afford to. We fix them and gi... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 18:26:08 EST I'm here... Today I have just felt horribly hormonal. I am so thankful for my wonderful Friend Denise who reminded me about those darn hormones. <BR> Perimenopause is suppose to be easier than menopause--- I'm scared <BR> I've just felt like I want to bawl mt eyes out all day for absolutely NO reason. <BR> <BR> I'm fine it's just the night sweats and changing clothes and bedding everynight gets old. <BR> <BR> If anyone out there has lived through this LET ME KNOW IT'S POSSIBLE! <BR> <BR> I know I'm on... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 00:51:53 EST Vacation Planning! I have spent a very enjoyable day in my sister's cool house(ceiling fans!) <BR> <BR> Planning my VACATION! <BR> <BR> Need I say more? <BR> <BR> Portland Zoo, Authentic Chinese reflexology foot massage ($20) <BR> My sister really wants to go to the factory tour for Bob's Red Mill. <BR> Powell's City of Books--largest used and new bookstore in the world. <BR> The famous Rose Gardens are amazing! <BR> <BR> Having grown up in Portland it will be fun just to go back to places we remember and ... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 22:26:48 EST Tracking! Never would I have thought that honestly tracking my calories would have such an impact on my life. <BR> I had a checkup with my doctor and for the first time in 5 years I was down 10 pounds. I decided not to weigh myself at home because I want to focus on eating healthy and doing right by my body. But it appears as if my body likes healthy eating. <BR> <BR> Oh I still eat out when I go to town. Today was a bacon bleu cheese burger with fries but most days I eat lost of fruits and veggies an... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 20:03:46 EST REFUGE! Today I just want to thank the Universe and Source and my Higher Being for my place of refuge from the cares and pains of the world. <BR> <BR> My Mighty Oak where I can Be enveloped in LOVE and Be encompassed in PEACE and REST. <BR> <BR> I thank Source for the LOVE I receive every moment. <BR> <BR> I thank Source that there is more than this Temporal Realm. That I have access to the Spiritual Realm every moment. <BR> <BR> I receive every thing I need and more! Wed, 26 Jun 2013 17:35:22 EST Baby Steps.... This is the second day in a row I've eaten out at a restaurant in town. This is just part of how my life goes and I am happy to announce that I've done good!!! <BR> <BR> I eat what I want and keep calories in mind and decided in each moment what my food choice will be and my calories are remaining stable <BR> <BR> Yesterday I ate more yummy food in town and just had a salad and popcorn for dinner and was extremely happy. <BR> <BR> This may not make sense to everyone but eating out used to ... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 18:37:05 EST Singing At The Top of My Voice! Well, I spent the day today running errands in town. What was unusual was I was driving around with the windows down singing at the top of my voice! Luckily I can carry a tune. If any of you out there remember The Carpenders you will recognize this. It's what I've been feeling about Source, my Higher Self and My Spark Ladies. Stephanie you may recognize some of your book in the lyrics. I sure do. I LOVE you all... Arlene <BR> <BR> Such a feelin's comin' over me <BR> <BR> There is wonder in ... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 20:28:23 EST Pampered! Today my very capable 6 year old niece gave me a foot soak, through foot scrub and massage with lotion. <BR> It felt amazing. <BR> Being my size and 5'11" tall it's hard to reach my feet. They get neglected often and wearing Birkenstocks doesn't help with the calluses. <BR> <BR> I am so grateful for my little niece Gracie. And now I get to take her out for her favorite Chinese! <BR> <BR> I am grateful that I am pampering myself with exercise today. That may sound weird but that's the way i... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 18:47:09 EST Goals & Evolution I learned a lot today writing to my friend and accountability partner Denise. <BR> Goals work for us and they need to evolve as we, living, evolving, growing beings that we are change. <BR> I want my current goal to be losing weight but I have finally realized that I need to move that to Long term goals because right now, unless I move to a remote jungle, I need to learn how to eat out healthily. <BR> I tried a strict eating plan that didn't really include eating out and lost 13 pounds but w... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 15:22:12 EST This Moment! Tonight I just have to say that I am so thankful that I live in this moment right now. <BR> And that this moment right now is warm and happy. <BR> <BR> I had a great day at the Bandon Docks with my sister. <BR> I got to write a letter to an old college friend who found me through my sister's facebook page. <BR> I got to have some wonderful food on my day out. <BR> I am following the eating plan I made for myself. <BR> My chocolate Siamese Annisette is kissing me and kissing me. <BR> <BR> I... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 22:38:50 EST Inspiration I have to say that creating the sim pictures of myself really inspired me to eat well today. I would really like to meet that after girl someday. <BR> <BR> My day is just filled with such peace. Song birds are singing and the roosters aren't crowing! There's a gentle breeze and the sun is warm and I'm spending a day napping and reading. <BR> <BR> I have to say that one of the most beautiful foods in the world is freshly pureed watermelon juice! <BR> It has been heavenly to have it today. <B... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 18:54:37 EST This is the Coolest! <img src="">me now <img src="">me after <BR> <BR> Here's the site to make a sim of yourself <BR> you may need to copy and paste it. <BR> Thu, 20 Jun 2013 00:09:22 EST So Much To Say! First I want to say I am thrilled beyond words with my new kindred spirit and accountability partner CELTIC1966. She is amazing. And her exercise is an inspiration to me. I am so thankful for the internet so I can talk to someone half way around the world from me as if they're right here. <BR> <BR> Next I have to say I Loved my new therapist and he's not really old and he has a great perspective on things. I may have projected into the future last night and worried but at least I was aware o... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 23:37:45 EST Therapy! Okay so I was only going to blog once a day but I need to work out my feelings. <BR> I start therapy tomorrow. With a MAN! Who's in his 70's <BR> I live in a small town and he was the only available therapist that took my insurance. <BR> I haven't been in therapy since 2002 when I had the most awesome woman I have ever met next to (you know who you are Florida Sunshine). <BR> I'm nervous I'm gonna put my childhood pain out there and and he'll just say something like Hum! <BR> I have issues wi... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 00:54:05 EST Baby Step #2 Writing a blog feels right so I think I am going to make a habit of it. <BR> <BR> Baby Steps Second Step... <BR> #1 Mon, Wed, Friday ---- I will do 10 push-ups per hour/ 10 hours of the day = 100 push-ups <BR> <BR> #2 Tues, Thurs, Sat---- I will do 10 squats per hour for/ 10 hours of the day = 100 squats <BR> <BR> (YES, I can do them in a bathroom stall. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks!) <BR> <BR> #3 Sunday is rest day <BR> <BR> My current Baby Step goal is to build muscle. <BR> <B... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 16:07:50 EST This is where I'm at I have never written a blog in my life but I need someplace to make a statement. <BR> I have decided to take Baby Steps with my eating plan. I am usually so black and white but I am going to try some grey. <BR> #1 I am going to follow my low calorie organic healthy meal plan at home.Seltzer Only. <BR> #2 When I drive the half hour to town I will have what I want. This includes Diet Coke. <BR> #3 If I feel desperate to binge and examine my feelings and decide I am going to binge anyway I must ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 22:12:45 EST