CATBELLY's SparkPeople Blog CATBELLY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Staying focused Day 4 of staying on track and it feels so good. Getting more creative on how to spend my calories and it's all healthy. And it's not like this is new information. LOL Fresh veggies from my garden and fruit at its peak all add up to a good pack for the punch! In addition I'm eating more filling foods and trying to chew more and more mindfully. One of my favorites since we have tomato overload are tomato/mozzarella/basil mozarella stacks with balsamic vinegar. The cheese is sliced thi... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 09:58:38 EST Switching focus - 4/18/11 Well, blood results show the high end of normal for blood sugar. I often hear stories of people who change their diets and this improves. Not new information at all - I've been ignoring it. And the possibility of adding medication to my BP and cholesterol meds doesn't make me happy. I've just been feeling yucky. Not so much because of blood sugar but because of just feeling bleh - not so great energy and moody. And I got a huge boo boo on my leg that is slowly healing. Nothing to do... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 11:23:04 EST Springing forward.... Can recommend a fun book to read - The Cinderella Pact by Sarah Strohmeyer. It's about a group of friends who are shunning in a restaurant and who embark on a weight loss journey, focusing on one's trials and tribulations with the stories of the other 2 weaved in. It was hard not to laugh on the train while reading it. It's a nice size book but a quick read (because you don't want to put it down) and for me it put a few things in perspective. Tue, 23 Mar 2010 13:23:16 EST 4.3.09 - Keepin' on It's funny how I pay attention to stuff, or not. Like trying to be so mindful of what I eat, and when. I've been out of focus for awhile and that isn't just with my food plan but with everything. Feeling scattered might be a good word, too. I just can't seem to get myself together, but then again, I am. I'm not sure what magic thing I'm looking for should it come together, and will I even recognize it? I know one thing that I definitely need to do...stay off the computer in the evening. ... Fri, 3 Apr 2009 10:53:13 EST Back From China 081016 I've returned from 2 weeks in China, volunteering at the panda research base in Bifengxiao (which is spelled wrong, I'm sure). So what did I learn? China is as magnifent as I thought it would be. And old. The Great Wall is a sight to behold. There are alot of people. Traffic is horrendous and it's a miracle I didn't get hit with a bike or motorbike. Chengdu was my favorite city, followed by Xi'an and Ya'an. Beijing was ok, not real green and very busy. <BR> <BR> I could say so ... Thu, 16 Oct 2008 15:31:38 EST 9.4.08 I've been so off kilter in blogging, although I have been tracking, albeit not as religiously as I should. I've just been so out of kilter since my mom died and dealing with those emotions, plus the issue of her being buried in the wrong plot. All has been settled. Now I'm dealing with my upcoming vacation to China which is a pleasant thing, and it's taken much necessary preparation with shots, VISAS, packing requirements, doctor's notes for our panda volunteer sessions, etc. Add the ... Thu, 4 Sep 2008 12:29:57 EST 7.23.08 I just view the video of the man and his CP son. Then I opened my horoscope. Coincidence? I think not. So doay my mission is to find that little something that alters my thinking and impacts my life. Cool, eh? <BR> <BR> Wednesday, Jul 23rd, 2008 -- Take a chance and do something different today about your health. The Moon in your 6th House of Details now suggests that paying extra attention to little things can be very productive. Changing an aspect of your diet, trying a different fo... Wed, 23 Jul 2008 06:31:17 EST 6.20.08 - Exercise & Grief I haven't written in some time, having gone through my mom's sudden illness and death. As if that wasn't enough, I've had to deal with the cemetary for the past 6 weeks because they buried my mom in the wrong plot - not even close to the plots she had purchased. It's the weirdest thing being at a funeral mumbling why are we in this location when we should be way over there! <BR> <BR> I spoke to attorneys who told me that I didn't have a case - basically, it was a mistake and that the cem... Fri, 20 Jun 2008 07:17:40 EST 4.8.08 - Support is overwhelming! Thank you all for your incredible support and prayers. <BR> <BR> We got confirmation today that it is Stage IV adenoca of the pancreas. My mom remains medically compromised with gangrene issues, clots, diabetes - to name a few. She will be transferred to rehab soon to try to get better mobility. Frankly I think she'll give up and I pray that no infection creeps in. She is being very brave and the doctor told us to basically give her whatever she wants. <BR> <BR> So thanks again! I... Tue, 8 Apr 2008 15:33:03 EST 4.4.08 - My mom is dying My mom was rushed to the hospital on Saturday after my dad returned home from Mass and found her slumped over the coffee table. She says she stumbled on her way to the couch after she had gone to the kitchen to get a glass of water, then fell asleep after she couldn't get up. Yea, right. <BR> <BR> When they ran some tests, her potassium was low (we later found out she wasn't taking her meds) among other things. As of today, the list grows. While the potassium is under control, they hav... Fri, 4 Apr 2008 12:54:06 EST 3.27.08 - I knew it was a test! Last week's weigh in demonstrated a 5 lb weight gain. How could that be?? Thinking back, there were some jellybeans involved, and a coconut egg or two - all of which were logged with a few days of higher than usual calories. But 5 lbs worth? Could a few jellybeans do that? Are they THAT evil?? Last night's weigh in resulted in a 4 lb loss. And that involved a few jellybeans, too! <BR> <BR> The important thing is that I didn't let that scale get to me. I never felt like I fell down ... Thu, 27 Mar 2008 07:09:48 EST 3.24.08 - Back in da saddle! Stepped on the unofficial office scale and the weight gain is gone. That was some kind of weird fluke - maybe to remind me that I need to walk the talk, eh? <BR> <BR> I exercised this AM - first time in 2 weeks, since I cut my finger/stitches, and it felt great. My glutes/periformis are sore and I feel taller! ! And it's not that I was sloughing off but I was off kilter with something. <BR> <BR> Now I'm back! Mon, 24 Mar 2008 15:15:47 EST 3.20.08 - A big gain Time to refocus - it happens. But I can't believe such a huge gain - 5 lbs. I wonder if I haven't been lowballing my entries? <BR> <BR> Ok, time to refocus. And lay off the black jellybeans. <BR> <BR> Here is my horoscope for today. While I'm not a believer, it's a habit (LOL) and sometimes the message is dead on. So my goal is to eat healthier, more fruits and veggies, and limit going out. <BR> <BR> Thursday, Mar 20th, 2008 -- A burst of energy motivates you to take direct actio... Thu, 20 Mar 2008 06:35:54 EST 3.14.08 continued I was thinking this is great! I love to journal, although since this is public I don't think I would put my deepest darkest secrets here. It does give me an outlet tho and I like that. <BR> <BR> For the anger things I used to write them down and tear them up. I believe in OA/AA this is called writings and burnings. Get it out and let it go. Now I do it on a computer screen, then delete it letter by letter. By doing so I feel the release of the emotion that is attached to the anger. ... Fri, 14 Mar 2008 10:00:25 EST 3.14.08 Farmers Markets...from Daily OM Spring must almost be here! ! ! ! From the Daily Om today. If anyone is interested, check out the website! They have daily inspirations and some days they really hit home or provide a message I really need to hear. <BR> <BR> Today's message aligns with eating healthy by supporting local farmers and getting the freshest of the fresh! If you have organic farms close by it's an added plus. Definitely one of the benefits of living in southern NJ! <BR> <BR> Have... Fri, 14 Mar 2008 09:57:10 EST 3.12.08 - A bad day at work What a bad day at work - nothing seemed to go right. I'm not sure it all worked out in the end but everyone is alive so that is good. And I didn't eat which is eve better. <BR> <BR> So my focus is now to slow down, try not to get caught up in the frenzy of activity - be unresponsive to it and stop and think. If I'm not moving fast enough for those who insist to move at warp speed - too bad. I'll still be going fast enough. Wed, 12 Mar 2008 20:55:12 EST 3.10.08 - Walking Om.... from This says it beautifully..... <BR> <BR> <BR> March 7, 2008 <BR> Walking With Awareness <BR> Mindful Walking <BR> Many of us take the benefits of walking for granted. Each day we limit the steps we take by driving or sitting for long periods of time. But walking even a few blocks a day has unlimited benefits, not only for our health but for our spirit. As we walk, we connect with the earth. <BR> <BR> Even when walking on concrete the earth is still beneath us, support... Mon, 10 Mar 2008 20:15:36 EST 3.2.08 - Weigh less, eat less Back from DC and I must say, I find that losing weight means you eat less. I drank alot of Starbucks non-fat decaf lattes, and water. Only had 2 drinks the whole time I was there (one each evening). Here is what I had - not sure that it came out ok on the daily food diary, but I sure did try. LOL <BR> <BR> Thursday at Cheesecake Factory - "Low cal" pear and endive salad - 590 calories per the menu and I didn't finish it. It was to die for. 3 bites of cheesecake, a pomegranite mojito. ... Sun, 2 Mar 2008 17:49:07 EST 2.27.08 - Weigh in.... i lost 1/4 pound. I expected to see a bigger loss since I'm feeling so high. In reviewing my calories I think one problem is that I'm not eating enough and I may be in a "holding on" period. I'm not obsessing over it - just an observation. <BR> <BR> I had a terrific week, and spent Sunday at the National Zoo meeting people I've made friends with on-line. There were about 35 panda lovers from all over the world (the Brits were en masse!). I met 2 other China travelers and that was very e... Wed, 27 Feb 2008 20:45:33 EST SNACKS Satisfy your sweet tooth - From Women's Day <BR> 1. 1&#8260;2 medium apple, baked, topped with 1 Tbsp lowfat yogurt sprinkled with cinnamon (45 calories) <BR> <BR> 2. 1&#8260;2 small banana, frozen (45 calories) <BR> <BR> 3. 4 oz unsweetened applesauce sprinkled with cinnamon (49 calories) <BR> <BR> 4. 1 miniature box of raisins (45 calories) <BR> <BR> 5. 2 sugar-free ice pops (30 calories) <BR> <BR> 6. 1 sugar-free fudge ice pop (35 calories) <BR> <BR> 7. 12 cherries (48 calories) <BR>... Sat, 23 Feb 2008 17:56:28 EST 2.23.08 - another ah ha moment We are going out to breakfast. I actually came online to check what the lesser of the evils would be. Fried vs scrambled...canadian bacon vs scrapple. Talk about a behavior change! BBL <BR> <BR> Update: They didn't have canadian bacon :(. So I got pork roll instead and I don't think it was a great choice. Sat, 23 Feb 2008 07:56:39 EST 2.22.08 - It's actually getting easier! Our TOPS meeting got cancelled Wednesday so I don't have an official weight. I'm feeling great and lighter. YIPEE!! <BR> <BR> This weekend I am going to DC (the National Zoo - my home away from home - LOL) to meet some folks I'll be traveling to China with and that is very exciting since I met them on the net! I have met 2 already. The best part is that I'll be 30 lbs lighter when we take off on 9/17! <BR> <BR> The trip to China is a dream come true...from 3rd grade back in the m... Fri, 22 Feb 2008 15:14:39 EST 2.19.08 - Tomorrow is my first full week weigh in! I'm so excited - HUH? Yep, it's my first weigh in after a week. All I can say is that I'm totally loving this site. Hell, I even click thru some ads! Stay tuned... Tue, 19 Feb 2008 21:06:39 EST 2.15.08 - Be sure to read motivational stories!! I guarantee SOMETHING will click which just goes to show ya .. we are not alone. Everyone shares a common piece of the proverbial lose weight pie. Reading these stories inspires me. <BR> <BR> <BR> I posted this on a blog..... <BR> <BR> For some reason something clicked and I'm not only being accountable without much effort, but this site is keeping me honest. I feel like if I let myself down I'll let the whole site down - LOL! That doesn't mean that there won't be stumbles along the tr... Fri, 15 Feb 2008 14:50:49 EST 2.14.08 Happy Valentine's Day Not a bad day...not a great day but it could have been alot worse. Had a wonderful dinner at home - baked crab cakes, crab stuffed mushrooms and crab/asparagus soap. And a bite or 2 of chocolate. Like I said not great....but definitely not horrible. If it wasn't for the accountability of this site I'd be feeling bloated and crappy now. Instead I'm feeling good about celebrating without using the excuse to eat junk. Thu, 14 Feb 2008 20:14:13 EST 2.13.08 - Tops Weigh-In ! Down 2.25 lbs! ! ! ! I'm really enjoying being this accountable. I'm actually having fun! And to show for it I lost 2.25 pounds. How cool is that! I started off with a semi-bad week but as soon as I started I was off and running and being honest and truthful. I told a few people there about this site but I'm not sure that they are all that computer savvy. Wed, 13 Feb 2008 20:42:21 EST 2.11.08 - this ain't no dress rehearsal! I'm so glad I found this - and I can't believe I'm thanking People magazine for the recent article. <BR> <BR> I need to focus, and stay focused, and stop making excuses and pretending everything is ok. Health issues are beginning and I don't like it one bit. I don't like taking meds and want to get off them ASAP. Taking real small steps isn't an option so...I'm jumping back in, and doing what needs to get done. <BR> <BR> I think what will really help is being the TOPS membership perso... Mon, 11 Feb 2008 15:16:32 EST