CARRILEANN's SparkPeople Blog CARRILEANN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Humanity of it all As I sit here and ponder why I fail at this tremendously helpful site, or even to eat well and lose weight...I realize, its soooo obvious. We are all persuaded to do bad. Just some of us are better at fighting it. Me, Im like an out of control roller coaster that wont stop in the station, lol. I have been doing fairly well this week, and now hopefully, prayerfully I can get devoted to this. I have a healthy, slimmer me just DYING to get out!!!! Thu, 9 May 2013 08:22:24 EST mountain moving faith I just dont have it................... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 10:11:26 EST Soo Tired I worked out today, and I have been so tired ever since..I really cant figure out why I am feeling sooo drained :\ Tue, 9 Apr 2013 19:08:31 EST I Refuse I refuse to let this yr slip away with excuses as to why I wont stay on track!!!! I refuse to live with the envy of wanting to be skinny without taking the proper steps.. I'm just cheating myself of happiness I could be experiencing!!!!! So, here I am...again!! I hope you all dont give up on me!! Keep praying please..there's sooooooo much I want for myself. <BR> <BR> My goal gym 4 times this week: shoes Mon, 8 Apr 2013 10:08:56 EST I Missed You So, I was gone for soooo long!!! But, Im back!!! <BR> <BR> Goals for week: <BR> 1) atleast 20 min exercise everyday <BR> 2) post ALL food intake <BR> 3) get under 190 <BR> <BR> reward <BR> new outfit, including shoes and nailpollish Mon, 1 Apr 2013 13:35:22 EST weekly goal Its Monday, and I need to get on my goal setting and reward planning again! So, this week, Im shooting for 2 pounds. I really want to get to the gym 3-4 times. If I can do both, I will buy myself a new easter outfit. On a side note, I bought some earrings, seeing if my ear hole were still open, even though I hadnt worn earrings in yrs..and they went right in. My 8 yr old told me I look like a new girl. <BR> <BR> I also want to start getting into my bible more steadily. I do so so, but I... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 09:57:33 EST friday.. If ever I want to be lazy and eat poorly its today..but its much as my brain wants to, my body wont let me. i want to just binge today, but i have no i just get to be in a funk with no way to make myself feel better lol!!!! Fri, 15 Mar 2013 09:34:26 EST My undiet blog Just needing to vent a little, and ask for some prayer. there are so many things I'd like to say, but its just not worth typing it all out, looking like I want to complain. I know that godliness with contentment is great gain, I know that all things work together for good, I know that my God shall supply all MY needs according to his riches in glory. I just wish I was a little more patient is waiting to see how he's going to work things out. I wish sometimes, that I had his play book..I lo... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 11:34:24 EST my 5k journey UGH!! There hasnt been one! Going tonight with my cousin..Im going to see just how much I can run. I have til July, sooooo I better get busy <BR> Thu, 7 Mar 2013 14:48:52 EST I cant believe what I just did irritated and in a bad mood I walked into circle K wanting something to drown myself with...guess what I walked around the store for 5 minutes...nothing sounded good, or caught my eye..not chips, or chocolate cookies or donuts!!! I walked out with a dt mt dew and a skinny cow pack of chocolate caramels. Any other day I would have found SOMETHING to stuff my face with, but not today! I won! YAY ME Wed, 6 Mar 2013 14:10:32 EST Why! Why!?!?! why is my life so! Why do I not pamper myself more..why do I do so much for so many and not put myself first ever... I dont think Ill never know the answer..I love when I accomplish things, and lose weight. but for the past three weeks I've failed every goal and havent lost a pound. I havent been to the gym cuz everyone keeps getting sick or Ive got to do things for other ppl. stop this ride..I think Im ready to get I wish I had a slow train :O) Tue, 5 Mar 2013 18:16:43 EST Stomach bug So, I think I have a mild stomach bug that is keeping me from getting too active. trying to clean through training day 2 will have to be skipped...BOOOOO!!! But, wish me luck..Im turning on the power. My goal for my birthday (wednesday) is to get down 3-4 pounds. I will probably give myself til friday though, and then see. My reward is a new outfit and dinner with my love at a mildly expensive place!! Wish me luck.... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 09:46:51 EST 5k day 1 got through 10 minutes off walking/running alternating..ugh...was i done Wed, 27 Feb 2013 16:18:22 EST the effect of not eating well I feel sluggish and bloated :( what a yucky long, busy, unhealthy eating weekend. I cant describe how gross I feel today. To top it off my husband talked me out of the gym yesterday cuz he didnt want to do errands alone. i have an uber amount of laundry that needs done too!!!!!! Wed, 27 Feb 2013 07:40:02 EST preparing for a 5K So, my cousin asked me to do a 5k in July. In my mind I know that this is something I want to train for. I want to be a runner..I want to be athletic, I want to be a person who sets goals and accomplishes them! What is my problem??? Watching the Biggest Loser and seeing how most of these ppl are so over weight because of some deep rooted problems, I wonder if I have something keeping me back from what I am supposed to be. So, today I start my journey to reality. I know I need to go to t... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 08:31:33 EST "ONE"derland So, as hesitant as I was to step on the scale last night I did it! Completely ready to be disappointed...but I WASNT!!!!!! It said 198---and that was at 7 at night...SOOOOOOOOOOOOO you can imagine I had total opposite feelings..YAY!!!!! Wed, 20 Feb 2013 07:37:19 EST Failed! So, I failed my goal last week an had to do my own hair :(!! But Im setting my new one today. Only water AND no fast food! My reward is getting my ears pierced!! Im super nervous to do it..but I really really want to! So, lets see how this goes. Please pray for me for strength..I so want to lose about 50 lbs this yr... my motivation is there, and my desire, its just my organization or management..the exercise time has been gone for about 3 weeks. So, Im up and at it today!! Im not sure if ... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 11:42:12 EST dont want to move today!! Im TIRED!!!! I messed up my goal last night :( too much to do.. Thu, 14 Feb 2013 10:38:21 EST New goal/reward System So, I know I have a goal by my wedding anniversary, and even though I got delayed a little being so sick, I still plan on trying my hardest to get close <em>30</em> . So, I have to come up with goals and rewards for smaller achievements, I think. So, my first one! This week, my goal is to be in bed by 10 every night. I know that sleep is a major part of being healthy, and we usually are up well past midnight!!!! My reward for doing this will be getting my hair and nails done for our cou... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 09:11:47 EST No More Sickness For Me So, today, I finally feel normal! All Ive been able to do lately is sleep!! But this time feels real, I think im 100% healthy and ready to roll!!!! Tue, 5 Feb 2013 10:06:32 EST Road to Wellness So, I KNOW that I have to be getting better, today Im hungry beyond belief!!! Im really trying to not eat my we'll see what the rest of the days holds.... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:17:07 EST I Miss This Even though I am still feeling rough, I miss being so dedicated to this!! I miss the feeling of knowing Im right on track!!So, Im back!! Im at about a 4-5 in pain, so lets see how today goes Mon, 28 Jan 2013 10:42:37 EST checking in So, Im being defeated by this dumb sinus infection..I hope sleeping burns calories..hahaa, and when I am awake if and when I do eat, its still the worst foods you can imagine. its like my body is calling it out. should be feeling less like a bomb tomorrow..back to full swing in a couple days Sun, 27 Jan 2013 14:17:37 EST commitment trying to be commited to this diet, being the wife and mother Im supposed to be, and meanwhile getting some me time is very tiring. I dont think I have set down since 3:00. its 8 now. On top of it, Im fighting a sinus infection..I still have a mess in the kitchen, i havent gotten school clothes ready, and I can barely stand..I've eaten my dinner in parts, and realize that all my kids need a bath!! Where is my! as rewarding as being a pastors wife is, there stands the h... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 20:13:12 EST YAYYYY!! I ate wendys, not really paying attention to my stuff, and I stilled maintained my goals!!!!!! Sat, 19 Jan 2013 23:02:25 EST ug My oldest had her tonsils and adenoids removed today...which I wasnt set up for the day food wise, cuz we just got the phone call yesterday cuz there was an opening. so desire to eat well for dinner is gone because IM STARVED!!! On a good note, going to the gym <BR> Thu, 17 Jan 2013 16:53:05 EST bang head here At my kids' school there is a poster on the wall with a circle drawn in the center. The verbiage surrounding it is "In case of stress, bang head here" Could not be more enticing at this moment! Tue, 15 Jan 2013 18:49:51 EST lots of extra calories So, it looks like I have tons of calories left over...I think Im going to get a FF iced cappuccino! Pays to burn some calories. It felt great being back at the gym today..cant wait to go back tomorrow Mon, 14 Jan 2013 18:51:03 EST the weekend So last night I went 7 over my fat, and Im kind mad. I caved pizza!! I hate pizza--what happened, in my mind it was sooooo good! but now I ruined my cheating Sunday!! Oh well, its just one day... All fair in love and diet Sat, 12 Jan 2013 11:01:11 EST :) This may sound crazy,but only after 4 days, and I really can tell a difference in my stomach. Its smaller. I feel great, and so far feeling in control. now tofacemy fear and climb on my scale..just cant do it Thu, 10 Jan 2013 12:04:24 EST Day 2 YAY, I made it one day, praise the Lord!!!!!! And today, my food cravings isnt to move on to getting active..just struggling with this sinus pressure. but atleast I know Im heading in the right direction. Thank you Lord for giving me the strength to do this Tue, 8 Jan 2013 13:04:05 EST why start in the shallow end when you can dive in head first So..Im convinced that baby steps are the way to go, but I feel like I need to make many changes right away. Diving in and going cold turkey seems best for me. I've been struggling for a while starting and stopping, and Im just tired of it. Clothes dont fit, and I hate to look in the mirror, and I am tired of feeling gross and ugly. So, here goes noting!! Mon, 7 Jan 2013 11:03:07 EST YAY!!! I finally got 3 miles! 3.16 to be exact. 312 calories burnt!! check! :) I'm so excited and it gives me such a determination to eat well!! I was actually yelling at a racoon today! He was trying to get into someones house through a whole in their siding. I was yelling and he was looking at me laughing inside..I'm pretty sure!! Thu, 16 Jun 2011 07:51:15 EST day 3 On my day three of walking, I really wanted to get to three miles, but I didnt. I did however manage to put in over 8 miles in three days. Not sure if that bad or good, but I'm pretty proud of myself. Wed, 15 Jun 2011 07:53:41 EST day 2! I am feeling so good about this walking, I can hardly believe how much better I do when I astart my day off right. I eat better, I have more energy and I just know I'm doing what's best for me. it's quiet, peaceful and pretty too. I can't imagine going to the y unless it's raining or something. This is so much more amazing. God is so good to make this world sooo beautiful!!! Tue, 14 Jun 2011 08:07:53 EST exactly what I've been waiting for! Yay me!!! I got up with my husband today when he left for work. was gonna go to the Y, but opted to walk's a nice cool morning. I walked 2.45 miles in about 55 minutes and burned 246 calories!! I've been dying to be able to do this hour walk daily for a while. Mon, 13 Jun 2011 07:48:13 EST going to be hot it's going to be a hot day today. I'm already ready to get in the shower and then go back to bed, really. I'm not sure how my exercising will go today cuz my 1 y.o. MUSTVE threw his binky in the trash sometime yesterday without my knowledge. I had no way to go buy him one last, we dont even have to say how awful of a night it was. I was up til midnight, then up at 3 and then at 6. He's wide awake. little booger. but, no matter how tired I am, I am going to try to eat well an... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 08:27:00 EST Day 2. Today I feel like a blimp. And I ate cereal (lucky Charms) instead of something good for me. I usually drink a protein mix in 1% milk. So, now I'm afraid for the rest of my day. I did walk another 31 minutes. so, that's a little something. Today is our 8 yr anniversary or else I'd spend the evening at Zumba. But, this week, I'm exercising at home, next week I'll be at the Y by 6:30 and be there til 8. probably everymorning. Summer is great. and now having a 16 yr old in my home will ... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 11:53:26 EST snacking So, my first issue is snacking...bad snacking that is. I'm sure eating things here and there arent necessarily bad for you..just the things you are eating here and there. so I bought flavor ice popcicles. I figure its cold crunchy and sweet. I imagine sweating is enough to burn what little calories are This is my snacking! Mon, 6 Jun 2011 10:37:25 EST goodmorning So, here I am. dedicating myself to you. all the boring ups and downs of my lifestyle change. But I'm hoping this will break up the monotony and help to actually meet goals and be excited about them. Wed, 25 May 2011 08:17:07 EST