CARPEDIEM_2009's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CARPEDIEM%5F2009 CARPEDIEM_2009's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The Question isn't CAN YOU? Its WILL YOU? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214384 In search for some motivation this afternoon, so I logged on to SparkPeople to see what was going on with my Spark Friends. While browsing Friends' feeds, blogs and pictures I found myself at a very familiar page...Carpediem_2009. Yes this is MY page which is filled with many motivational quotes, inspiring blogs from time that has passed, and pictures of a strong woman that was determine and motivated to make a change in her life. Where did she go, what happen to her along the way...let her t... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 14:07:00 EST Kissing '2012' Good-Bye and Hello '2013' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186858 Hello Spark's Family... <BR> <BR> It has been a while since I have blogged...many changes, obstetrical and excuses have kept me from interacting with the site on a much needed basis. I'm proud to say that I have entered in to '2013' with a positive outlook on life, and a burst of motivation that was needed. Although I am stress and drama free, in so many words "No Worries", I fell off the wagon and ready to jump back on and start moving forward. <BR> <BR> As I reflect back over this journey... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:42:58 EST I would like to Thank Me...Myself…I and Kelly Rowland…. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4390989 <BR> <BR> So what I discovered this week was new songs for my workout playlist. For those of you who like R&B/Hip Hop Kelly Rowland’s “Here I Am” is a must listen too…there are multiple tracks that are good for working out…in my case it was the whole CD….. <BR> <BR> This has been a productive week for eating healthy and exercising. I have manage to try different workout to keep me moving and motivated and along the way I have found out that I like it the switching up not just doing my regu... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 23:34:59 EST Walking with “Shame”...in seek of “Motivation”… in the shadow of “Success”! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4105094 <BR> “Shame”, yes I know her I was walking with her for a couple of months now and didn’t realize who she was until it was too late. “Shame” my friend I thought because she was there through the big break-up, the stressful nights at work, the depressing lonely nights along in my one bedroom apartment to give me that friendly advice; it’s ok to eat that cake, indulge that ice cream, and that cheese burger is not going to hurt this time, you deserve it. “Shame” what can I say you was there for... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 15:12:52 EST Thanks SparkPeople Family…now it is time to get back on schedule!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3268112 I would like to start off by thanking each and every one of you that stopped by with your kind comments and goodies wishing me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! <BR> <em>304</em> <em>252</em> <BR> Who would have thought turning 28 would feel so good! My health is under control (no meds), I’m at my smallest weight in over 10 years, and most of all I am enjoying life. So what did I do…I ate …and I ate..and ate even more…what can I say I over enjoyed myself and it only cost me 3 lbs. I thought I would ha... Tue, 25 May 2010 21:39:32 EST Reality... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2991886 Reality is gazing me in the eyes. So as many of my Sparks friends can tell I have not been as active as I usually am not only on the site but also physically I must add. And I will not use this blog to complain because I have no one to blame but myself and the lack thereof. So what can I say well the scale tells it all; over the last 3 months or so I have been dieting but dieting will not do it along because my scale is up 10 pounds a whole 10 pounds that took a lot of hard work and dedicati... Fri, 12 Mar 2010 14:29:15 EST Master Cleanse Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2708259 This day my energy level was at its lowest, and the symptoms are not getting any better. The hunger has become unbearable and my blood sugar level is low. I managed to make it through the day and finished the lemonade by 1 PM which is not good because I was hungry for the rest of the day at work trying to fill myself on water alone. So I started to ease myself off the cleanse last night maybe 3 hrs before bed by drinking some orange juice to bring my blood sugar level back up to normal. <BR> ... Thu, 7 Jan 2010 08:34:50 EST Master Cleanse Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2700083 Woke up this morning same energy level as usually which is low because I am not a morning person. But the one thing I notice that was different was I woke up with no pains...my lower back is usually killing me in the mornings with pain, but no pain this morning. I did the tea last night and the salt water flush this morning and have consume 8 servings of lemonade today. The only negative today is the continuous cravings, feel like I am starving, and little dizziness. I will still get in my 30... Tue, 5 Jan 2010 19:39:04 EST Master Cleanse Day 1 (01/04/10) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2695083 Not as bad as I expected… <BR> <BR> Woke up this morning and prepared myself for day one. The lemonade is an acquired taste, and had me questioning if I would make it the full 10 Days. The day started off as normal no bad symptoms for the morning half of the day with 1/3 of the lemonade gone. Around lunch time the cravings and hunger began to appear. I have managed to make it through the work day with no really negative side effects and over half of the lemonade drunk. Finished the evening ... Mon, 4 Jan 2010 22:15:19 EST Taking Inventory of My Life for 2010… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2676458 <em>214</em> "Every once in awhile YOU have to Take Inventory of Your Life and let People, Things, & Situations GO!!!" <BR> This year I will not be making any resolutions, because in my opinion I tend to fall short every year of completing them. Resolutions to me are about changing things that are wrong in my life instead of staying on track of goals made whether short or long and evaluating life’s situations. <BR> <em>214</em> “Success demands that you must go where you’ve never gone befo... Fri, 1 Jan 2010 15:30:10 EST Making the last 10 days count... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2649870 There are 10 days left in 2009 and still time to accomplish some last minute goals. As I reflect back on last week I had weighed in 2 pounds lighter which was good but what can I say I got off track from trying to be involved in so much other things that I gained the 2 back plus 1 so up 3 pounds as of this morning. I will not criticise myself for this but work hard to correct it, I have come to realize and accept that I am still a work in progress. For the remaining 10 days of the year I wil... Tue, 22 Dec 2009 10:00:56 EST Week 2 of December RECAP… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2633045 <em>211</em> <BR> The week was better than the ones before it…well actually a couple of months before it. I can actually say that I am getting back on track…but not completely there yet. I am still eating healthy which is not a problem but the water and exercise is where I am still lacking although I am doing more than I have been over the last couple of months. So, week 2 of December is dedicated to trying to get back on track more than last week. Last week was the start of and week 2 is i... Mon, 14 Dec 2009 13:00:57 EST ...the http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2607114 “In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.” <BR> <BR> December is finally here the last month of the year but one of many with great expectations. Over the past months that I have been on SparkPeople I have met and encounter friends that have provided me with the support and motivation that I needed to keep moving forward when I fel... Thu, 3 Dec 2009 11:22:28 EST "Tough Love"...Originally posted by spark’s member: LADYBUG7157 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2558093 Do you feel like quitting? Okay, then quit. Just quit. Just close your browser window and stop reading now. If you’re wanting to quit, then stop your bellyaching and just do it already. <BR> <BR> I’ll wait… <BR> <BR> Okay, now, if you’re still here reading this, then listen up— <BR> <BR> STOP WHINING. Stop crying. Stop saying it’s too hard. Stop making excuses. Stop complaining. Stop looking at other people’s success and feeling bad about your own plateau/gain/feelings of failure/mistak... Fri, 13 Nov 2009 09:35:45 EST Remembering why and how I started.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2531652 So I have been procrastinating about writing this blog because I don’t know where to begin! For the last couple meaning 2 months I have not been meeting my goals. So this had me wondering am I setting goal that are not realistic for me or am I just lacking. I have come to the conclusion that I am lacking. Don’t get me wrong after reviewing the last set of goals and the ones before I realize that these are goals that I should be able to accomplish because I have done it before so there is real... Tue, 3 Nov 2009 16:17:04 EST October Goals… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2444423 This month I will show more commitment and dedication to get myself back on the right path. Last month was not as successful as I would have like for it to have been but I still managed a loss of 1 pound which doesn’t seem like much but it wasn’t a gain so I am taking it for what its worth and moving forward. <BR> <BR> “There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you’re interested in doing something you do it only when it's convenient. When you're committed to something, you ... Thu, 1 Oct 2009 13:58:02 EST Same Year…New Week…Different Day…Positive Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2420536 So over the previous 2 to 3 weeks my exercising and eating habits changed due to lack of motivation and focusing on other avenues in my life. Well I am back at it…I have finally got my head in the mental state I need to keep moving forward with my goals. The eating is on point, water intake is getting there, the exercising is getting back on track (still need some improvement), the scale is moving, and I feel good about myself internally and externally. <BR> <BR> I realize that I can’t expe... Tue, 22 Sep 2009 15:53:46 EST Sunday 9/20/09 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2414394 So I was not as successful with completing all of my goals for Saturday. I completed them all except my water intake. Today I have a busy day planned ahead of me so I am going to carry over the water intake for today. So today's goals will be motivated to exercise, continue to eat healthy, drink my water intake, prepare for a successful day tomorrow, and to do some chores around the house. I manage to get over 8 hours of sleep so I am rejuvenated and ready to get moving. <BR> <BR> So today’... Sun, 20 Sep 2009 13:47:00 EST Saturday 9/19/09 (Goals).... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2411776 <em>414</em> <BR> <BR> I have been a little off track well not even a little, a lot and it is time for me to do what I need to do for me to be back where I need to. Today I will take the time to get in a morning workout; focus on eating healthy, consuming at least 100 oz of water, and most of all get some rest. I have been extremely tired this week and can’t really put my finger on the cause of this but I will try and rest this weekend to see if the amount of sleep is my problem. <BR> <B... Sat, 19 Sep 2009 09:07:40 EST I’m FALLING and I have to get UP… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2385764 <em>33</em> <BR> So for the last 2 months I have been BUSY BUSY BUSY…well at least if feels as if I have. I have been exploring different avenues to advance my career, add to my finances, networking and so forth. If I am not doing one thing there is always something else to do. With this being said I am falling short of what needs to be done personally for my health. Where did the exercising go…out the window…but I need to fetch it back. I am falling into the same dreadful track that I onc... Wed, 9 Sep 2009 12:46:07 EST Tackle it Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2345395 Tackle it Tuesday is what a spark’s friend (MZAQUARIAN) called it last week…its kind of a catchy phrase I must add. <BR> <BR> So that is exactly what I have attempted to do today! So last night I went to bed early, which doesn’t happen that often, but at the cost of not exercising, which is not good but I was well rested this morning which never happens. Woke up an extra hour early because I knew I had to start work early because I had a doctor’s appointment and didn’t want to get behind, 1... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 14:24:15 EST What a Weekend??? OMG http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2320462 The weekend was better than I thought it would be! I was not expecting much results or at least not good ones but I was suprised. I have been busy all week flowing over into the weekend to the point were I was not exercising like usual or counting calories but that didn't ruin my spirit or weekend. So with my weigh-in day being Sunday I jumped on the scale think the worst since it was that womenly time of the month and I was not eating and exercising like usual to get on the scale and weigh-... Sun, 16 Aug 2009 17:22:56 EST Wii EA Active.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2295544 So I read the reviews and I ask my spark friend (MONIQUE138) what did she think of it since she was already using it. So after my reviews, peeping in on a Wii EA Active team on sparkspeople, and the encouragement from MONIQUE138 I decided to try it out. For the first couple of days I just was exploring the activities that the game provides and getting familiar with how things work. So last night I felt like it was time to try the 30 day challenge that is provided with the game to find out it ... Fri, 7 Aug 2009 10:47:57 EST Resources....Resources....Resources.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2289355 Resources....Resources....Resources....and that I do have. I feel as if I am slipping, I have the lack of energy, time, and drive to keep me going at the pace I need be. I have every resource a person could probably need to be successful or at least on the right track to making there goals become reality when dealing with weight loss. I have the gym at my apartment complex, the gym at work (in the building I must add), a walking trail around a shaded lake at work (.5 miles around once), video... Wed, 5 Aug 2009 09:51:13 EST WOW...1hr 4.45 mile 741 calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2229648 WOW is all I can say!!! Over the last 2 week I have been exercising at a moderate rate but not the same as usual because of a knee injury. So I went to the gym tonight and push myself to do one hour on the ecliptic machine with the stats of 4.45 miles and 741 calories. This is the longest I have been on the ecliptic machine in one exercise routine. Best believe I am tired (ecliptic and weights) but I am so proud of myself, and just felt the need to blog. <BR> <BR> Well Nite Spark's Family...... Tue, 14 Jul 2009 22:33:49 EST Trying to make it RIGHT... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2150344 I blogged on June 10th about how I didn't monitor my eating, water intake, or exercise like I should and gain 3lbs putting me at 265 again. Well I am proud to say this morning weigh-in I was down to 261. I am very surprised and happy because I was just trying to get those 3 pounds back off and manage to get off 4 pounds. I am praying for a good week this week, starting today with healthy eating, exercise, and enough water. <BR> Sun, 14 Jun 2009 18:47:53 EST Stupidity… (Not Again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2139036 I said I was not going to do it, and I’m not going to do it, but past habits seem to be arising causing a slight relapse. I am proud of myself I had lost a total of 22 pounds since starting Sparkpeople and a total of 43 pounds from my highest weight 305 lbs. My last weight lost journey took a turn at 269 lbs and I started gaining it back because of a lack of determination and motivation. With Sparkpeople I past that 269 lbs mark and made it to 262 lbs, and when I stepped on the scale this mo... Wed, 10 Jun 2009 09:12:22 EST June’s FIRST weigh-in ….. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2130783 Today is my first weigh in for the month of June was @ 262, three pounds down from May’s last weigh-in @ 265. I have started the month off with good weight loss but I am sad to say that my exercising has not been going as good as I would like along with my water intake. I am unsure how I manage to get to 262 with such a lack of effort besides watching what I eat, which has kind of become natural to me. So now that I think I have the eating part under control, I need to get the rest of my need... Sun, 7 Jun 2009 15:20:18 EST New Month…New Challenges!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2113058 The month of May has come to an end with me at 265 pounds. My final challenge in May was to clean my closet out from all of the clothes that where to big so that I would have no reason to gain any weight back. I am proud to say all of those 24’s and most of the 22’s with maybe 2 or 3 exceptions are out, leaving me with 2 or 3 22’s, mostly 20’s, some 18’s and one size 16 motivation piece (which has been in there for over a year). This was a great accomplishment for me and a demonstration of my... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 15:15:39 EST Sluggish part 2.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2106047 That sluggish day ended up with a healthy dinner and a GREAT workout at the gym. I must say I didn't think I was going to make it and if I did it was not going to be a good/long workout but I was wrong. I was the best workout of the week...what can I say that sluggish day turned around in the end. Leaving me feeling good inside but tired on the out...I probably could have kept going and I thought about it and wanted to (which doesn't happen that often) but the time had past and it had gotten ... Sat, 30 May 2009 00:30:19 EST Sluggish... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2105076 Woke up this morning tired...the first time this week, this should have been a sign. But I didn't let this slow start alter my day yet. I still have managed to eat healthy at work and walk 2.5 miles in the hot sun...and I don't do the sun that often especial not at work. The day is still going by slow for a short week but i'm still awake barely. I feel very hot, sticky, and sluggish from the weather, but I know I need to change this mindset because I need to make it to the gym tonight because... Fri, 29 May 2009 16:03:09 EST Another Good Day :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2097427 So far today has been a good day such as yesterday. I woke up even earlier than yesterday and boy am I on time and fully alert for now, hope it continues throughout the day. I have had a healthy breakfast and a morning walk. Surprisingly after yesterdays accomplishments I felt like getting on the scale this morning (although it is not my weigh-in day) to see that the scale has decreased 2 pounds since Sunday (my weigh-in day) putting me at 265. The accomplishments from yesterday and the feel... Wed, 27 May 2009 10:08:53 EST Today was a GOOD Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2096380 This morning I woke up on time for work after a vacation and long weekend. Not only was I on time, I had a healthy breakfast, lunch, dinner and to top it off with exercise. I can see my behavior changing for the best...I am becoming more dedicated. I guess I want change more now than every. I can see myself continuing till I reach my goal weight, in which i'm unsure what that is at the moment. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Tue, 26 May 2009 22:49:12 EST Back at IT... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2092510 I'm back in from Las Vegas and after a couple of desserts and alcoholic drinks that I know I didn't need its time to get back on track with the weight loss program. I am glad to say that I am down one pound surprisingly with the desserts and drinks I had in Vegas but I guess between all of the walking and stressing about my lost/stolen luggage which I still do not have I manage to be one pound lighter. I can't and will not let the luggage situation get me down although it was all new (clothes... Mon, 25 May 2009 21:20:44 EST Venting....viva Las Vegas :-( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2079604 <BR> So the trip I have been waiting on is finally here but not what I expected. I thought I would he worried about having to much fun and over eating. But instead I might not be eating enough and to top it off the airline lost my luggage. I can't believe this no clothes shoe purse socks I mean nothing. On top of that the airline will not do anything about it until five days have went by. This trip is costing more money than I expecting. Well wish me luck and pray I don't hurt anyone. <BR> Wed, 20 May 2009 19:11:34 EST Move over 269lbs and let 268 lbs take its place for now… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2061177 The dreaded 269 lbs is finally gone. I finally lost that one pound that dropped me from the dreaded 269 lbs, which mean that I have no excuse to repeat the past by reaching 269 lbs and start gaining the weight back. Today was not my weigh in day but I just had to know so I pulled out that scale think of the worst 269 lbs or higher but I lost 1 pound which put me at 268 lbs. <BR> <em>7</em> <BR> Can you say “excited”, I know too many people one pound is not much at all but this pound was eve... Thu, 14 May 2009 09:04:47 EST Viva Las Vegas… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2058162 I have a trip coming up next week to Las Vegas. I am really looking forward to this trip because I need times to relax and do me, while not trying to think about other things that are going on in my life like work and the economy. So, I have been planning for this trip since beginning March and I told myself that I wanted to lose 20 lbs before I go…but I have not reached that 20 lb mark yet but I have reached the 16 lb mark which is still an accomplishment and I still have 7 days to try to lo... Wed, 13 May 2009 09:20:47 EST Not repeating the PAST.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2049895 Today is my weigh-in day and I am at 269lbs that is a lost of 6lbs this week. Don't get me wrong I am very happy and excited but worried at the same time. Almost 3 years ago I was to my height weight 305 and knew that I had to do something about it so I tried multiple methods and ridiculous cost but I manage to lose 36lbs which put me at 269lbs in 3 months I was excited. After reaching this goal it seem as if I could not make the scale go below 269lbs and from there it starting going back up ... Sun, 10 May 2009 13:29:43 EST Taking a break.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2048088 So I had to take a break from exercising on Friday and Saturday, because of my aching knee from a few days ago I pushed myself for as many days I could until the pain because unbearable. Although I took a break from exercising I managed to continue on with my diet and my water intake. My knee feels a little better now but i'm still going to sit out today from exercising and jump back into it tomorrow for a fresh week start. I hope that the days I missed from exercising don't affect my weight-... Sat, 9 May 2009 16:59:36 EST Still Pushing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2043970 Today started off slow and end slow. My leg is still aching and my energy level was low. I still managed to eat healthy although I had to go to a restaurant and get a salad. Didn't think I was going to make my water count today but I manage to fulfill the eight 8oz between dinner and the gym. After all of this I am still aching and tired. Most of all I am proud that I was able to PUSH myself to exercise today because I didn't think I could do it. I had to break the mins up 5 here 5 there 10 o... Thu, 7 May 2009 23:38:47 EST Still Standing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2040605 Today was a rough day for me...I guess I can't have two good days in a row...but I am to determine to have more good days. I woke up this morning a little later than I expected so no exercise for me before work. I left for work and for got my walking shoes at home not good either, considering I woke up to an aching left leg. I don't know where the pain came from...not sure if I over worked myself on other days of exercising or if it just the fact my body is trying to shut down from me carryin... Wed, 6 May 2009 22:42:20 EST Just Had To Push... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2038116 So yesterday started off as what seem to be a good day. I woke up 30mins early so I decided to get some exercise in before work and I felt great and energized. This felt good to me because I am not a morning person so I am always groggy, but not this morning. So I get to work and the day is still going good no major issues going on at work, and I managed to walk 1 ½ mile walk on two 15min breaks, I’m doing good. But why did it have to start raining, thundering, and lightening. There’s somethi... Wed, 6 May 2009 09:04:17 EST Today was a GOOD Day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2033687 Today was a good day...haven't said that is a while and I feel good. I started a new diet which I manage to maintain throughout the day without cheating. ( I never would have thought I could eat that much vegetables and fruit without any type of sauce) I continued on with day 2 of the sweat suite to swimsuit challenge with a total of 60 plus mins of exercise not including the 8 min video for the boot camp and strength training. The motivation that I had today was like none other...I'm hoping... Mon, 4 May 2009 22:33:29 EST BLC pledge.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2016789 I Pledge that during the BLC6 I will... <BR> <BR> ...be good to my body and fill it with healthy foods and enough water to drown a fish. <BR> <BR> ...treat myself and my teammates with kindness and RESPECT. <BR> <BR> ...weigh in every week, no matter if I lost, gained, or stayed the same. <BR> <BR> ...follow ALL of the rules of the contest, and ask Ashley (Abuchweitz) if I have any questions. <BR> <BR> ...ask for help and support when I need it, and give others help and support when... Wed, 29 Apr 2009 12:21:52 EST Revamping.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2016531 So I am so proud of myself...it may not seem like a lot to most but I have mentally prepared myself for the start of a new weight loss journey. I am just hoping that the mental state can stay with me until the journey is complete...with out me loosing motivation and drive. I have currently been logging onto SparkPeople on a regular basis, which has help motivate my mind state...Thanks to my SparkPeople friends, associates, buddies, team, and etc. I have navigating this site and using it to h... Wed, 29 Apr 2009 11:18:00 EST Living in the present for ME…MYSELF…and I: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1996267 I have explored this weight loss journey for years and yet to be successful. Like most things in life I tend to look back into the past and realize what I was or in the future for what I can become, but not in the present for whom I am. I’m at the stage in my life where I have came to realize that I am going to look back into my past for the last time to only realize that I was not successful than and if I continue to live the same I will not be successful now. The past is no longer with me, ... Wed, 22 Apr 2009 11:58:04 EST