CARPEDIEM369's SparkPeople Blog CARPEDIEM369's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community OA (Overeaters Anonymous) Misses the Mark I often wondered why OA wouldn't work for me & then I took a clear look @ the 12 Step format: Moral Inventory; Wrongs; Defects of Charactr; Making Amends; & Humbling One's self. WOWZA - this stuff is totally off base! A. It has nothing to do w/ me or my behavior & B. everything to do w/ what could possibibly be wrong w/ you as a person. Having a chemical imbalance in the brain doesn't remotely mean that your character is lacking in some way. Good Grief! <BR> <BR> Am wondering if any of you ... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 18:05:41 EST Compulsive vs Binge Eating Group/Support/Buddy? Today I'm looking for support concerning eating compulsively - this is different than binge eating. It's more like constant grazing. <BR> <BR> Can't seem to find a group. How about a Buddy? <BR> <BR> Suggestions? Wed, 12 Jun 2013 13:42:20 EST Weight Gain & Suicide Until yesterday, it hadn't really dawned on me before that I eat as a way to keep from thinking about killing myself. WOW! Interesting to see that I've been using food as a tool to stay safe - very skewed & counter-productive. <BR> <BR> By February I had gotten down to 243 lbs (from 315 in 2011). But when I weighed in @ the doctor's office yesterday, I was @ 267 on her scale (260 on mine). +24 lbs in just 4 months is what made me realize that I was depressed - the weight gain vs actually bei... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 13:47:11 EST Row, row, row your boat... O.k., I did NOT manage to walk in the 5K "Heart Walk" yesterday, which was really disappointing as it was a goal that I set for myself back in April. However, being in training for that has motivated me to lose 46 lbs. I'm also disappointed that I'm still having to use a walker, which I thought certainly, I would have been able to ditch by now. And, I'm not exactly thrilled that I'm still 14 lbs away from my original goal of losing 60 lbs by October 12th & there's no way that is gonna happen.... Sun, 25 Sep 2011 14:02:35 EST Losing Weight "On Purpose"... In 2002, I lived in Mexico for 6 months. On one ranch, there was no running water. On another ranch, there was no electricity. I weighed 306 lbs when I arrived & 6 months later, I was accidently nearly 50 lbs lighter. Silly me, without any mirrors, I didn't even realize that I was losing weight - I just thought that the elastic in my lingerie was wearing out! <BR> <BR> My diet consisted mainly of potato chips, candy bars, and tortilla chips w/ salsa & guacamole. However, I was walking every... Thu, 28 Jul 2011 21:22:22 EST Post Thyroid Cancer Surgery Weightloss SUCCESS! Hallelujah, now 4 years after surgery for thyroid cancer, the combo of having my medication dose in the correct amount and my finally doing my part with nutrition & fitness (thank you SPARK PEOPLE crew!), I am back in my pre-cancer weight range and continuing to lose pounds and inches. <BR> <BR> Apparently, my thyroid issues had gone undiagnosed for decades, but I also wasn't fully doing my part in trying to live a healthy lifestyle either. I'd definitely thrown in the towel long ago. <BR> ... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 10:48:01 EST Want to get moving? ~Walk for Charity! <em>311</em> <BR> <BR> O.k., so I'm not a fan of walking. In fact, I don't like to go outside. However, I'm a BIG fan of helping out local charities. So, here's what got me motivated to move: <BR> <BR> In April, I signed up to walk in the 5K "Heart Walk" for the American Heart Association <link><BR>walk.jsp </link> Since then, I've considered myself to be "in training." <BR> <BR> Never mind that I weighed 310 lbs and was using a walker when I re... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 20:06:03 EST Ohhh, Freedom... <em>283</em> What I am especially grateful for on this 4th of July is freedom from feeling held captive by my appetite. So far, the insanity of binging has subsided to something a bit more controlled. If I know that I'm hungry & am going to eat over my calorie range for the day, thankfully, I've been able to make wise choices as to what I'm going to put into my mouth. It sure is one step @ a time... <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> Mon, 4 Jul 2011 20:51:28 EST Body's Balancing Act When I first started this most recent weight loss journey 3 months ago, I couldn't imagine eating under 1,800 calories a day. But, strangely, as I've been losing weight and increasing my exercise, I'm finding it a struggle to eat 1,500 calories a day. I'm not sure that going much below that is a good idea anyway. Maybe I could start adding more protein and an occasional glass of juice, which would boost my caloric intake. <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> Fri, 24 Jun 2011 00:20:08 EST Increasing Intensity This week, I'm increasing the intensity of my workouts. I've graduated from 1 - 2 lb weights and will be adding 2 different "Chair Dancing" workouts in the afternoons. Mornings are now 2 mile walks (seated versions of an indoor cardio workout) w/ 20 minutes of weights every other day. <BR> <BR> I'm upping my game as today is the Kick-Off for the American Heart Association's 5K Walk in September & I'm in "training" for that! <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> Mon, 20 Jun 2011 11:26:54 EST Magic Formula (Fiber=FULL) When I was talking w/ my fiance tonight about the fact that when I entered my most recent weight loss (a total of 15.6 lbs- WooHoo!), the nutrition tracker reset my daily caloric intake range to 1250-1600. Before that, I was eating around 1650 & concerned about feeling full. <BR> <BR> However, today I ate 1,571 calories and have felt completely satisfied. My fiance asked me if I had increased my fiber intake. Interesting! In fact, that is exactly what happened (albiet accidently). <BR> <BR>... Sun, 15 May 2011 01:29:32 EST Royal Wedding & Patting Myself on the Back! Knowing that I was going to head to bed @ 8:30 p.m. last night in order to wake up @ 1:50 a.m. to watch the Royal wedding until 6 a.m., I logged in evening snack calories for a cucumber sandwich & a cup of tea last night. I also took my thyroid medication when I got up & waited an hour before eating my "wedding snack" @ 3 a.m. Am really proud of myself for planning ahead & sticking to it! <BR> <BR> Additionally, I committed myself to doing 3 seated versions of Leslie Sansone's "2 Mile Walk" ... Fri, 29 Apr 2011 16:23:37 EST Venturing out of the cave (mi cueva) - Oh NO! Am on my way to California Pizza Kitchen to join a group of my former classmates from a year-long leadership course that I took in 2009. We're having a reunion luncheon. What is terrifying me most?- the FOOD! <BR> <BR> Here's what I've done: I checked the CFP's Nutrition guide and figured out that I am going to order a cup of their Tuscan White Bean Minestrone - PERIOD! That's 157 calories. <BR> <BR> My plan is to eat a snack of asparagus and turkey before I leave and take one of my peanu... Wed, 27 Apr 2011 13:46:19 EST Alternate Universe! Something completely WEIRD happened this morning! For breakfast, I was making steel-cut oatmeal w/ cinnamon, a whole chopped apple, & a tablespoon of dried berries, which was all going to be topped w/ 2 tbsp of vanilla yogurt & 1 tbsp of sliced almonds. However, as I started to put the cooked "1 serving" (as stated on the box) of oatmeal into my bowl, I realized that it was actually going to be too much for me to eat. <BR> <BR> I had eaten the same entire recipe a few weeks ago & was definit... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 11:15:37 EST Calm...I can do this! After checking on "Calorie," <link><BR>t-tool-kit/weight-maintenance-calculat<BR>or-women </link> I discovered that to maintain a weight of 150 lbs @ 5'5", I can eat 1,640 calories a day, even with a sedentary lifestyle (at the moment I'm exercising). <BR> <BR> Because I currently weigh 299 lbs & am eating between 1,640 - 1,740 calories, I am now calming down, feeling like I can totally do this! What a HUGE relief. <BR> <BR> I was envision... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 22:30:48 EST Headway It feels like progress is being made - Hallelujah! Am now into a routine and feeling more comfortable with both figuring out what to eat and, surprisingly, sticking to my daily workouts. <BR> <BR> Have decided to treat myself next month (for my birthday) with a Chair Dancing DVD! <BR> <BR> Onward... <BR> <em>311</em> Thu, 21 Apr 2011 15:03:54 EST Hollow Victories, hmmm... O.k., so I'm down 10 lbs from when I started SP on March 22nd, nearly a month ago. And, that was my goal for the first month - 10 lbs. Why am I not excited? <BR> <BR> Because I've gained and lost 100s of pounds over my life time, so this is nothing new. What I know to be true, is that it can all be undone in an inkling. <BR> <BR> What is different this time, is how much better I feel simply adding the right amount of water, a daily vitamin, more "freggies" (as my Buddy, Nora, calls them) an... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 12:43:51 EST Support... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm so extremely blessed to have the love & support of my fiance (BabyBear369) along this journey of creating a "healthier lifestyle." Despite his preference for my body staying exactly the way it is, he is willing to support my desire to improve my health. He's quite a guy! <BR> <BR> Lucky me!!! <em>342</em> Sat, 16 Apr 2011 13:38:39 EST How the heck did THIS happen?! Somewhere along this 3 week journey with SP, while I've been exercising nearly every day, I've discovered that I feel better and have decided to increase the amount of exercise that I am doing - WHAT?! <BR> <BR> Wait a minute, who am I? I'm a confirmed hater of exercise. Hmmm...slowly, that seems to be changing. <BR> <BR> I started out with the "Stronger Seniors" dvd's (we have a team on here for that), using Anne Burnell's 2 disc set - Stretch on M/W/F & Strength on T/H/Sat, then walking ... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 18:04:33 EST X-Country Trip... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> One of my goals is to fly across the U.S. to visit my son & his wife in October. Today's cardio/strength "Chair Workout" made me feel like I am one step closer, by making myself a little bit stronger. "Inch by inch, step by step..." <BR> <BR> <em>432</em> Thu, 14 Apr 2011 17:54:18 EST Salt... As I never use any added salt, I'm kind of wondering if the recent increase in salt (thanks to a box of seasoned crackers & lemon/pepper, which also has sea salt in it, that have made their way into the house) are creating water retention & perhaps are thus the cause of my current weight plateau, hmmm... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 14:50:48 EST Cholesterol Check I got some good news from the doctor today: <BR> Cholesterol = 173 (this has always been good) 200 is normal <BR> Tryclicerides = 118 (under 150 is good) <BR> HDL = 40 (too low, should be 60+) <BR> LDL = 109 (100-120 is o.k.) <BR> <BR> Does anyone have suggestions on increasing the "good" HDL levels? (I can't have soy, cuz of my thyroid meds) <BR> <BR> On Wednesday I go to get my Thyroid medication level checked. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I need to make a trip to Trader Joe's for more fruits, ve... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 22:52:23 EST ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I was up REALLY early this morning to catch a bus on my way to the lab for fasting bloodwork. Now I'm exhausted. Guess I'll try to catch a little nap & then exercise when I wake up. <BR> <BR> Gotta say, I did a FABULOUS job of taking a healthy breakfast with me, so as not to fall into the pit of eating breakfast in town. Am not quite ready to face "on-the-go" food sans the net of knowing what I'm planning to have ahead of time. <BR> <BR> Onward... <em>311</em> Mon, 11 Apr 2011 15:07:26 EST Ta DA! The scale has finally moved!!! Couldn't be more delighted to report that I am FINALLY down another pound - YIPPEE! <em>236</em> <BR> <BR> Last week was quite the adventure in experimenting with my calorie intake. Now I'm down to 1600 - 1640 & will plan to stick w/ that for a week to see what happens. <BR> <BR> Onward... <em>247</em> Sun, 10 Apr 2011 12:02:32 EST New Goal Instead of looking so far down the road to my ultimate goal, I've decided to make a midway goal of the first 50 lbs by October 1st. My idea being to be able to more comfortably sit in an airline seat (& not have to pay for an extra seat due to my weight), so that I can fly across the U.S. to visit my son & his wife. <BR> <BR> This means a shift in my daily calorie intake down to under 1640. As I'm still hungry @ 1700-1775, I think I need to increase the amount of veggies I'm consuming. Will ... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 12:49:36 EST Scans, etc... Oh JOY! Am off to have scans (throat & mammogram) & bloodwork (cholesterol/thyroid medication levels/cancer marker). <BR> <BR> Planning to stay on track w/ my calorie intake today. Was over by 140-215 of my range yesterday - UGH! <BR> <BR> ONWARD... <BR> <em>311</em> Fri, 8 Apr 2011 12:08:37 EST Farmer's Market Am supposed to be heading down to the Farmer's Market this evening to set up a table for my nonprofit for National Volunteer Week. Its been raining all day, although now the sun is out. Just waiting to see if the organizers x-cel due to rain in the forcast for this evening. <BR> <BR> Was thinking of checking out the prices for organically grown local produce. <BR> <BR> <em>289</em> Thu, 7 Apr 2011 17:37:56 EST One small step... Ta DA! I completed the American Heart Associations 1/2 mile Start Walk @ noon today - YIPPEE!!! And, then I also walked home - probably another 3/4 mile. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> Plus, I did 33 minutes of my stretching dvd (chair workout) & ate a healthy snack of turkey breast w/ swiss cheese & mustard before I left; took plenty of water & a healthy snack with me (of baby carrots w/ Trader Joe's Thai Peanut dressing & a Mozzarella cheese stick), because I knew I'd be walking when I'm usually... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 18:01:40 EST Status Quo Even though my weight is static despite my best efforts right now, uncharacteristically, instead of throwing in the towel & binging, I'm reminding myself of how much better I feel, when I'm eating in a healthy way & exercising. <BR> <BR> So, after my40 minute stretch workout, I'm heading to the American Heart Associations 1/2 mile Heart Walk @ noon today. This is a very big step for me, as I will have my walker (on wheels) & I've never done anything like this before. <BR> <BR> ONWARD! <em>... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 11:46:35 EST Ta DA! Just finished my Cardio/Strength workout for today. Now I'm heading to Trader Joe's to buy groceries for the next 10 days. I LOVE the SP grocery lists - how convenient!Tomorrow I'm participating in the Heart Walk 1/2 mile event. Onward... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 15:01:00 EST Say it isn't so! I'm up 1 lb since yesterday - oh NO! I know that my thyroid medication dose goes down over the weekend & that could be the culprit, as I have been devoted to my meal plan & exercise routine. The key for today is not to throw in the towel & use this as an excuse to binge. <BR> <BR> I'm reminding myself that I feel better by sticking with the program & that is reason enough with or without the weight loss. Plus, I still have the whole week left before my next "scheduled" weekly weigh in. <BR> ... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 13:31:16 EST Let the Training BEGIN! Here's the plan to get ready for the 5K (3 miles) Heart Walk on September 24th: <BR> On Sundays I will walk (right now that means a seated version of a Walking DVD): <BR> April ~ 1 mile every Sunday <BR> May ~ 1.5 mile (walking outside w/ walker) " " <BR> June ~ 2 miles " " <BR> July ~ 2.5 miles " " <BR> August & September 3 miles every Sunday <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 3 Apr 2011 14:53:57 EST Back Pat Am patting myself on the back for doing my strength exercises today. I did not want to do them - I was busy with other things. But then, strangely, I decided to make myself a priority & after the 40 minutes of working out, I knew that I felt better. Both physically & psychologically for not letting myself down. <BR> <BR> <em>236</em> Sun, 3 Apr 2011 00:43:04 EST Chair Workout Video Calorie Count Am having difficulty w/ tracking the calories I'm burning w/ my Chair Workouts. HELP! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Sat, 2 Apr 2011 01:04:12 EST 1/2 Mile Walk Turns Into 5K - EGAD!!! <em>198</em> <BR> When I thought I was signing up for a relatively easy peasy 1/2 mile walk w/ the American Heart Association for next Wednesday, it turns out that I also registered (ACCIDENTLY) for a 5K walk in September. WHAT?! <BR> <BR> Have decided that the Universe was apparently trying to give me a nudge (aka "Push me off a cliff!") in the goal setting dept., so have let the registration stand. Now I'm in training to ditch my walker between now & then in preparation for the 5K walk. ... Thu, 31 Mar 2011 17:45:12 EST HOLY Smokes! Well, NOW I've done it! This morning I signed up to participate in a 1/2 mile walk next week for the American Heart Association! So, now I'm in training!!! <BR> <BR> As I'm still using a walker, training consists of me doing my "Chair Workouts": Stretching/Yoga on M,W,F & Cardio/Strength on T,H,Sa. Clearly, its NO marathon, but hey, for me, its a GIANT step forward! <BR> <BR> Here's a link to the walk: <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> Thu, 31 Mar 2011 16:16:57 EST Dumbells I ordered lovely pink dumbells from The package arrived today w/ ONE dumbell in it, WHAT?! I never heard of such a thing - don't these usually come in sets of two? Oh BROTHER! Holy frustration, BatGirl!!! <BR> <em>198</em> Wed, 30 Mar 2011 14:55:13 EST "SlimDownSLO" Support Group <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started creating a support group for folks in San Luis Obispo, California (along the Central Coast), who want to improve their healthy lifestyle by losing weight. <BR> I developed a blog: <link> </link> and a SPARK Team for SlimDownSLO. <BR> <BR> My idea is to "build it & they will come." In the meantime, I'm spreading the word... <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> Tue, 29 Mar 2011 22:55:19 EST Forming Local Support Group Am going to see my doctor today & will ask about forming a support group for folks with 50-100+ lbs to lose. Have added 1lb weights to my seated chair workout & have lost 4.6 lbs since starting the program about a week ago. <BR> <em>345</em> Mon, 28 Mar 2011 12:15:04 EST The Spark I walked up to the library in the rain yesterday to pick up a copy of "The Spark," which I had ordered via interlibrary loan. I was thrilled to see that it was published by Hay House, so I knew that it would be on my wave length. Am really enjoying reading it & am sure it will help me to better understand the website! Sun, 27 Mar 2011 10:44:58 EST Grocery Shopping~ Week #1 After tracking my food intake & exercising for a couple of days, I've had the success of losing a couple of pounds. Finally, I located the SP meal plans & printed out the menus plus a shopping list. In a few hours, I'm heading to Trader Joe's to shop. Strangely, the list is pretty much what I eat anyway, so I'm guessing that portion control & exercise will be the key ( can I be surprised by that?!). Onward... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 14:00:04 EST Newbie - Week #1 Am just getting oriented to the site. So far, I love all of the tracking tools & that is helping me to see where my problem areas are. One thing that I've needed for ages is a way to motivate myself to drink the amount of water I need (I only have one kidney) & take a vitamin every day. This system allows for a way to do that- YIPPEE! <em>306</em> Thu, 24 Mar 2011 14:09:44 EST