CAROLJ74's SparkPeople Blog CAROLJ74's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I am sorry Clovers I am going to start this blog apologizing to my beautiful Clovers! This week has truly been hell week for me. It is actually going on week 2! Last week, I was having so much back pain I couldn't stand up, sit down, was just torture. This week hasn't been much kinder. I am currently on day 4 of laryngitis. I am sure my husband and kids are happy. But I work in Human Resources...I talk all day! And it is leaving me exhausted. Like I feel like I am running all day long. My... Thu, 20 Apr 2017 23:13:36 EST Day 2... I am on the tail end of Day 2 of feeling like crud! Every 21 days like clockwork....I am reduced to feeling like a sack of potatoes. You know that bag of potatoes that if you try to stand it up, it falls down. Repeatedly. My lower back is in so much pain, it is unbearable. It hurts to stand, it hurts to sit, it even hurts to be in bed. I have been medicating myself to make it through the workday. This afternoon, I hit a wall. I got on the floor at work and did some yoga stretches to... Tue, 11 Apr 2017 21:49:41 EST Non Scale Victories It is often times easy to get discouraged when you feel like you are eating right, and adding some sort of physical activity that is out of your normal realm...You feel like you are at the top of your game. We step on the scale every morning waiting and hoping to see some significant change on the scale. And when the number on the scale isn't what we were hoping to see...we find it easy to want to fall back into our nasty, bad habits. <BR> <BR> We need to stop letting the scale have co... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 22:11:29 EST Make YOU a priority At the beginning of the year, I made the choice to make some changes in my life. Both professionally and personally. I naturally tend to be quiet, until you get to know me. Once you get to know me, good luck shutting me up, LOL! Not sure how, when or why…but somewhere along the way, I lost my confidence. Well come to think of it, I think I know where I lost it…when I started gaining weight. I have been so self-conscious about MY weight that I allowed it to change my true self. I im... Tue, 28 Mar 2017 12:53:16 EST Weekend Update So I joined a gym. It was time. My best friend has been asking me to join the gym with her and I honestly couldn't afford to go to the gym that she joined. I knew that I wanted to join. And she is the perfect accountability partner. She goes EVERYDAY! Even if she just goes to do 45 minutes on treadmill, she goes! I need that. Well, Friday afternoon we received an email at Gold's gym offered employees of my company a GREAT discount on the gym membership and drafted it from my paycheck.... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 19:37:59 EST 2017 Hello! My name is Carol. I am 42 years old and I am from Texas. I have a wonderful husband and 3 children, a 19 year old daughter and 2 sons...16 and 13. i work full time and I love my job. I am also overweight. I lack energy and motivation. <BR> <BR> I am tired of my weight controlling my life. I am tired of wallowing in my self pity. I am tired of alienating myself from my husband because I don't want him to see what I look like underneath all of the layers. I am tired of hiding ... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 22:16:33 EST No longer comfortable in my skin & active challenges I am officially single digit pounds from hitting 200 pounds. And I was forced to buy a bigger pant size because I was so sick and tired of not breathing in my pants. <BR> <BR> I look at myself in the mirror. I don't like what I see. If I was comfortable and loved what I see I would own. Embrace it. <BR> <BR> My husband loves me whatever skin I am wearing. It hurts me to be intimate with him. i refuse to let my weight come between me and my husband. <BR> <BR> I am already signed... Tue, 27 Dec 2016 22:06:45 EST Day 2: Goals and Accountability I am a creature of habit. Always have been...always will be. And structure. I have 3 kids, without structure my world would be extra chaotic. My husband and I have opted to cut out bread, tortillas, sweets and pasta, oh and sugared beverages! Forever? No, not forever! Just until we get things under control and then we can introduce things slowly and in moderation. It works for us. <BR> <BR> I am also an old school girl. A paper and pen gal. I use the app to track my food but there ... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 15:24:15 EST Day 1 I have reached a place that I never thought I would. I have hit 190 pounds. I am so angry at myself. I had reached my goal weight. I had done what I set out to do. But here I am again! I worked so hard to lose the weight to only gain it all back! <BR> <BR> I was younger the first go 'round. I am now 42 years old. How am I going to lose the weight?! I have been really good about not focusing on a number on the scale. And won't be...but I saw the number on the scale this morning and... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 14:37:36 EST Spark Motivator I earned my Spark Motivator badge 4 years ago...roughly. I seriously considered deleting my page and starting a new one. It has been a year since i have been active and I am now 2 pounds away from reaching 180 pounds. A weight that I said I was never going to reach again. And now I sit 2 pounds...2 small pounds away. <BR> <BR> I have tried to do it on my own and I can't. I took a hard long look at my past and analyzed what worked for me. I lost 42 pounds the first time with Sparkpeo... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 22:29:39 EST need good juju Last night I decided that today was going to be a new day and boy is it ever! I was laid off from my job at the end of March this has been tough! I was at my last job for 8 years and I loved it there! The only thing I dreaded was the 45 minute drive to get there and with rush hour traffic the hour plus it took me to get home every night! This morning I got a call for a job interview...YAY!!!!! And bonus points because it is 5, yes 5 minutes from my house!!!! Prayers and good ... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 09:20:42 EST New beginnings I joined Sparkpeople in 2008. We are nearing the end of 2012. Honestly, I haven't logged on to SP in a while. I can't and won't use the excuse that "life got in the way." I have 3 kids and a is always going to get in the way. I need to make me as important as I do everything else. <BR> <BR> Looking over my Sparkpage I was happy and sad.... <BR> <BR> I was happy that I have friends that care, friends who never gave up on me. I was happy to see that the last weight I ... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 22:00:45 EST March Madness Well March Madness is officially upon us…there are so many changes that have happened in our household! Can you believe it is March already!? <BR> <BR> I guess I should start by talking about the love of my life…the man I call my husband. 15 months ago, he decided he was done smoking. After 20 years of smoking, he put his mind to it and quit. I am SO PROUD of him! Well, when he stopped smoking the pounds started creeping up on for him. I was fine with it…he stopped smoking! THEN, af... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 13:29:38 EST Dressing room Dancing Hello Loves!! I know...I haven't been on SP much! BUT I have been getting my workout on! Football season has come to an end for 2 of 3 kids so I have a little more free time to dedicate to myself. <BR> I decided to start back slowly. Workout when I have time. No pressure. If I don't get a workout in, I don't beat myself up. I have been eating well, I know that is helping!! I didn't cut anything out. Moderation in everything. And so far, it seems to be working! I don't feel li... Tue, 22 Nov 2011 11:39:49 EST Starting Over I am starting over. Again. I will continue to come back and keep trying and not giving up! Sometimes starting over can be a bit intimidating. Depending on how long you have been gone. If you are like me, you are super active(even a team leader) and then walk away. You meet your goal weight or are super close. You get comfortable. You start slipping away. You come back every now and then but things aren't the same so you get lost. New members are always joining. It is the new member... Mon, 17 Oct 2011 16:55:18 EST Reflections...w/ pics When I was a kid, my brother would scarf down his food so that he could go outside and finish playing. He would play until he couldn’t see anymore. Stinky and sweaty and my mother probably wouldn’t have had it any other way but back then there was no other way. Now kids don’t come outside to play. They are stuck in front of televisions, computers, and video games. I know it might be a strange thing to read but I am so proud of my boys for being old school boys. They ride bikes, play ba... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 15:15:16 EST 5 Months Until Christmas...My Goals Wow January 5! That is the last time that I blogged! CRRRRAAZZZZYYYY! <BR> <BR> So much has gone on but I will spare you all of the details! I am a day late but I wanted to post my goals for my Christmas in July challenge! There are 5 months until Christmas ( that is pretty insane too) so here we go... <BR> <BR> Start fresh! Stop looking to the past at all of the mistakes that I have made. I can't change anything. I can only move forward. I am looking for a few active teams that off... Tue, 26 Jul 2011 16:07:27 EST BEFORE Pics & Measurements This was a really tough decision for me to make. Sometimes, I get so focused on what I don’t like to see in the mirror. And it doesn’t matter how much I workout, I continue to tell myself there is no change. It is nice to know that others see something that I don’t. But…in order for you to see the progress you need to see the beginning. So here goes nothing. <BR> <BR> <em>7</em> 1/4/11 Measurements <em>7</em> <BR> Bust: 40 <BR> R Thigh: 24.5 <BR> L Thigh 23.5 <BR> Hips: 44.5 <BR... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 16:05:37 EST New Year! New ME! New Goals! I decided that this year I am not going to make a resolution! It seems that every year, it is the same thing. My resolution is to start working out again. Watch what I what I eat. LOSE WEIGHT! And for the first 2 weeks. I am gung ho! Everything is going great. The excitement wears off. Reality sets in. And then slowly but surely it all goes away and I am left with nothing! NOTHING but false promises to myself at the beginning of every month for the next year that is indeed the mo... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 14:56:22 EST Baby, I'm a firework! Katy Perry-Firework, I love this song! I have heard this song on the radio quite a few times. I don't think I really paid attention fully until tonight. I was on the treadmill and it came on my Ipod. I actually started listening to the words. I played the song over and over again until it hit me like a ton of bricks! Every emotion that I have been feeling lately was bottled up in this song! I have been feeling down, I have gained some weight. I have a spark in me and I am going to i... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 23:14:14 EST Why I want to lose weight Everybody has different reasons for wanting to lose weight. It seems the biggest motivation is getting married or knowing someone who is getting married and being a part of the wedding party...those darn dresses get us everytime! Some people want to lose the baby weight and others want to lose weight for an upcoming vacation. But what happens when you youngest baby is 7, you have no planned vacations or wedding on the horizons? When there is no set deadline, we feel like we can keep putti... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 15:01:13 EST December goals Wow! Can you believe that it is December 1st already??? This year is flying by! Thanks for all the supportive comments on my last blog! I am excited for my love to quit that nasty habit! <BR> <BR> So my goals for this month…I decided I needed to keep them simple. It is December after all. It is super hard to stay focused. There is so much going on. I don’t want to overwhelm myself with unattainable goals. <BR> <BR> 1. Drink 8-10 glasses of water a day. There are days I am so bus... Wed, 1 Dec 2010 14:44:55 EST Winter 5% Challenge & BIG Changes! Big changes…they are a coming! NO REALLY! It is going to change the way everything happens in our house! I am taking it as a sign because the last time things were like this in our house, I was able to work out regularly and started losing weight. <BR> <BR> C has been working from Midnight to 8am for about 1 ½ years now. But factor in commuting time and he is gone from 10pm to 9:15am. He has stuck with this so long mainly because the days off didn’t suck so bad. But we only get to sle... Tue, 30 Nov 2010 15:44:59 EST My moment of insanity I was at the grocery store this weekend and C stopped to get look at some allergy meds when I turned my head I was smack dab in front of the diet pills! UGH! I picked up a box read the back, and put it down. Picked up another one and did the same thing! I did have second thoughts about buying some but I know better! I thought maybe, just maybe it would help me jump start my motivation! Help me find an ounce of energy. Nothing that I have been doing up this point has worked. I KNOW I ... Mon, 29 Nov 2010 17:45:03 EST I give thanks to... There is much to be thankful for...God is an awesome God! You can't put a price on family and friends. I can't imagine my life without them. <BR> <BR> I am thankful that I found a church that I LOVE and I was able to reconnect with God. I am sorry that it took Craig having a serious car accident this year for him that find the same connection. <BR> <BR> I am thankful for my three beautiful babies and my wonderful husband. <BR> <BR> I am thankful for supportive and wonderful parents... Wed, 24 Nov 2010 14:28:41 EST Wishes Hi all! I hope you are having a great Tuesday! The weather is GORGEOUS here in South Central Texas! If you ever this part of Texas…now is the time to do it! Highs in the mid 70’s and lows in the 50’s. LOVE IT! <BR> <BR> Well, I have a bit of a wish list today! I know last blog I said I wanted nothing I still don't! These are little things! <BR> <BR> I wish that stores would quit rushing the holidays through! I get it, you need to display the next holiday! But COME ON…you have been s... Tue, 9 Nov 2010 13:53:03 EST Monday Gratitude The clocks in my office are going to drive me INSANE. The wall clock says 5:20. I can't reach it or I would have changed it myself! The cleaning people have hidden all climbing contraptions! Not sure if it is for our safety or theirs! My computer says that it is 4:43 and my work phone says that it is 4:12. The actual time of me writing this is 4:20. I think I should go with the wall clock and call it a day!! Daylight Savings Time really messes with me! <BR> <BR> The weekend was GR... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 17:43:58 EST November 3 It is late. So this is going to be quick! HA! I never do anything quick! And Hairspray just started, I LOVE this movie! Also, I showed my mom the blog from yesterday and you all made her day! Thanks Sparkies! Y'all are the best! <BR> <BR> Today was a great day! I met all of my daily goals. That always feels great! I put it out there yesterday that I was looking for a new team or 2 to join. And I reconnected with my Firecrackers! YAY!! LOVE THEM! They are awesome! I think along ... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 23:22:45 EST November 2 I am writing early today! I don’t want to be up late tonight. I hope everyone got the chance to exercise their civil liberty and went out and/or is going out to VOTE today! I saw this and thought it was cute! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I know I have a busy evening with voting and kids’ homework but I plan on getting my treadmill workout on while I am watching my favorite show… <BR> <img src=" Tue, 2 Nov 2010 16:51:56 EST Welcome November October was a ho hum month! I started with a bang and then I just fizzled out. I want to lose 8 pounds by the end of the month. 10 would be FABULOUS! I have my company Christmas party on December 11, and I want to look and feel better than I do now. <BR> <BR> I started yesterday with a bang. I took the kiddos trick or treating and we walked an amazing 4 miles. YAY! I thought they would NEVER get tired!!! We have some great houses in our neighborhood and they tend to go all out so th... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 23:20:59 EST This momma and her boys I know that I have said that I would learn to put myself first. Sometimes for me, that is just not possible. The past few weeks in my house have been pretty difficult. <BR> <BR> “E” struggled in school last year. ALL year he failed math and reading. From beginning to end. Homework and tests, it was all a struggle. The school had him tested for everything and nothing. He was always the youngest in his class being a May baby. 2 Pediatricians later he was diagnosed with ADD. Which I ... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 13:02:56 EST Please take a moment to read... Friends, <BR> <BR> I'm asking that you all take a moment to read this, whether you have small children, grandchildren, nieces and nephews, or friends and family with kids... <BR> <BR> Yesterday, an old friend of mine from school suffered a devastating loss. Her three-year-old grandson, Austyn, was killed in a terrible accident. It is one of those stories you hear on the of the warnings you are given as a new parent. You baby-proof your home: electrical outlets capped, mini-blind ... Mon, 11 Oct 2010 22:01:30 EST Food Blog Day 2 In my fantasy world, every meal would be the perfect amount of calories. It would always have variety. In my fantasy world, I wouldn't be a picky eater. But I am! So in the real world we eat what we have in the house and it is not always perfect. <BR> <BR> For breakfast, I thought I would start with my staple... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Only this time it was just red and delicious. It wasn't quite hitting the spot so I added 2 ... Thu, 7 Oct 2010 23:12:07 EST Food Blog Day 1 This is "supposed" to be a week long challenge for me! It may turn out to be longer. When you have to take a picture of what you are going to eat and show it to all of your makes you think twice about eating it! We will see. I need to do this quick tonight. It is 10pm and I want to get some reading done before I close my eyes. <BR> <BR> I ate out today WAYYY more than I wanted to. But it is what it is. I like to count Wednesday as my "cheat day" because I have already ... Wed, 6 Oct 2010 23:30:56 EST Learning to Eat the Frog first I know that one of my biggest complaints is always lack of time. My good friends know there is something that I love to do and will do it WHENEVER I get the opportunity. READ! I usually have a book in the car and one in my purse. There is always one by my bedside! I have always loved reading. I read 1-2 books a week more if I can! This beauty is currently in my purse right now! <img src=""> <BR> Hey, I didn’t say it was all quali... Tue, 5 Oct 2010 14:18:36 EST I got the magic & Sparktoberfest Super quick is 10:30 and I need to get to bed! First, the hair! Did I get it cut??? No! NOT YET! Somehow it just hasn't worked out with my stylist. When I am available she isn't and vice versa. She could do it last week but I had a hot date with these hot mamas <BR> <img src="">We all graduated together back in 1992 and were all good friends. One of them is my BFF and I have kept in contact with a couple of others, I ... Sun, 3 Oct 2010 23:47:17 EST To cut or not to cut! I meant to blog last night I just didn’t have time. Workout or blog...hmm I chose the workout! YAY ME! Yesterday was a good day. <BR> Breakfast: Luna Bar, a plum and some OJ <BR> Lunch: A turkey Sandwich with some grape tomatoes and carrots <BR> Dinner: Hubs was in charge of dinner and I was pleasantly surprised. He made spaghetti for him and kids using Ronzoni Smart Taste Pasta and for me, replaced the red sauce with Shrimp and a drizzle of EVOO. It was so yummy and light! It was p... Tue, 14 Sep 2010 12:56:50 EST Fun & Fabulous weekend I love weekends where I am productive yet I still manage to find time to relax! They are the perfect combination! I think it helped that everyone did their part last week and I didn’t have to spend hours cleaning house and doing laundry this weekend. I had 3 loads of laundry to do and that was for for 5 people. Not bad. I bought a boatload of fruits and veggies for the week. I am so lucky that my kids like to pack fruit in their lunches. <BR> <BR> Overall, we had a great weekend. We... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 16:21:36 EST BLC 14-Starting Over It appears I have taken an unwanted hiatus. Lack of motivation, desire, it what you want. I am not even going to lie, I didn't try! I didn't eat horrible. But I didn't care either. I didn't work out. I put on my workout clothes. Does that count for something? I also steered clear of SP. For this I feel awful. I failed teammates. I failed myself. That is not me. I have always been one to commit to challenges and lately, I couldn't seem to do it. I think my biggest ... Thu, 9 Sep 2010 17:39:13 EST YOU are beautiful just the way you are! As a mother of a 13 year old girl it is frightening how young girls start worrying about their body image! Everywhere they look there is pressure to be skinny, too look this way or that way! Magazines, billboards, television; everywhere you look there are rail thin girls! And our daughters, sisters, and nieces are dying to be that thin! Young girls are mean. I guess I don’t remember going through it as a kid. Not sure if their wasn’t as much pressure or the fact that I was 90 pounds all... Thu, 5 Aug 2010 15:29:40 EST Peas and Thank you Wow! This month is flying by! YAY! I want to thank everyone for their continued prayers while the kids are gone. I am doing good. Staying busier than normal. Working out. Getting projects done around the house. The kids haven’t adjusted but I did get to see them last week when FF had to go in for oral surgery. It felt so good to hold them and kiss them! But on a happy note...their father agreed to let them come home for the weekend. So today after work I am going to be picking th... Fri, 16 Jul 2010 13:57:38 EST Calling on my friends My ex husband was absent from my children's lives for many years. And then 2 years ago when he got with his current girlfriend, he decided he wanted to be more active in the kids lives. By that I mean... he picks them up every Wednesday for dinner and takes them every other weekend. And he takes them the entire month of July. He doesn't care if they have activities with their friends or for school. He is going to take them for his weekend and that is it. Our arguements now are about his... Mon, 28 Jun 2010 13:42:02 EST Must Leave Funkytown! I need to snap out of this funk! Geez! Where to begin... <BR> <BR> The beginning is always a good place I know! My morning workouts are going. I am only working out in the morning 3x a week. I thought that was a fair compromise. I am not so disgruntled when I have to get up early now. And now for some odd reason workout partners are coming out of the woodwork. Why now? Why is it when I have a plan does everyone all of a sudden want to workout partner? I may need to tweak a little ... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 17:35:59 EST Day 1-AM workout! I decided that I want to do my run in the morning during the summer. In the afternoon, I want to go swimming and after I have been swimming for an hour the last thing I want to do is run! <BR> This morning was Day 1 here is what happened... <BR> Alarm goes off at 5:15. I allocated 15 minutes for snooze time that was mistake #1. I used ALL 15 minutes plus some! But I made a commitment and I was going to stick with it! I put on my workout clothes and turned on the treadmill! During my 5 ... Thu, 17 Jun 2010 17:56:10 EST To run or not to run... My body just doesn't get the concept of sleeping in late! I guess it "THINKS" that because we wake up at 6am during the week that 7 is sleeping in on the weekends...but it isn't! On Friday night, I told C before he left for work, "I am going to sleep late tomorrow. But I do need to be up by 8:30 so call me and wake me up." Yeah, 7:15...I am up! Sunday morning I feel that my eyes are ready to open and I am afraid, so I do that squinty eye thing to try to keep them from opening AT 7:04!!! ... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 14:27:12 EST There has to be change in order to grow Have I mentioned I really hate when my blogs change course! I guess getting off the pill is NOT going to be possible without me flipping out and getting a migraine! I am an emotional basketcase for some reason today! My bosses have no idea how to deal with me so they avoid me at all cost...which is nice. But then I get sad and lonely because no one comes to visit me in my office. Geez, I could be a character on of those Real Housewives Shows. I heard Tom Petty- Free Falling and I broke o... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 17:23:13 EST Dearest Body (a letter to my body) Dearest Body, <BR> <BR> I wish I could tell you that I hate you! I wish I could tell you that I could move on without you and that without you in my life I would be ok! But the truth of the matter is...I don't hate you. In 36 years, I have put you through a great deal! You have been through every high point and low one in my life. <BR> <BR> Throughout elementary school we were teased and called names..Olive Oyl, Skinny Minnie, Bones. I blamed you for not being athletic. Sure, I was a d... Fri, 4 Jun 2010 21:19:21 EST Pleasant Surprise Super quick blog! I need to give MAJOR kudos to my Tator Tot(13) and French Fries(10, 7)! We meaning ME isn't quite ready to believe that she is ready to stay home alone much less watch the boys! I am 36 and tend to think they are more than a hand full! C is home, he is sleeping but he is home so if they need him I know they can wake him up. So, that makes me feel a little more comfortable! <BR> <BR> Yesterday being day 1...I called all day doing random check ins...everything was good m... Wed, 2 Jun 2010 17:37:24 EST Fishy weekend and goals I took a break from my laptop this weekend. No real reason. The kids got out of school early on Friday and Tator Tot a pool party so that left me with the french fries. I cleaned downstairs for about an hour and then decided that since it was like 1 million degrees outside we should just go swimming. I had a blast with them. I rarely get a chance to do something with them alone. It is also nice to be able to swim WITH them not just watching them tread water holding on to a noodle. So... Tue, 1 Jun 2010 16:34:57 EST Whataburger If you live in know Whataburger(often pronounced Waterbuger.) Not sure what it is about the place but is delish! I don't like ketchup. But even their ketchup is good! No, I mean G-O-O-D!!! It is that place that as a teen, you went to hang at after football games. As you got to drinking age, it was the place you went to when the bars closed...the burgers were even better then! The seniors gather there in the morning to drink a cup of coffee and read the morning pap... Wed, 26 May 2010 14:13:47 EST