CAREYBEARY77's SparkPeople Blog CAREYBEARY77's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Resisted Temptation! There was a donut in the staff room. I didn't eat it!!! Fri, 6 Sep 2013 11:21:36 EST SparkCoach App!!! Just gotta say.....sooo happy that I can now use spark coach on my phone!!! <BR> <BR> Now if I could just update my status and view my spark page.....:-) Thu, 11 Jul 2013 07:19:14 EST Wish me luck. According to my goal, I have 3 weeks to lose 5 lbs. It's not a daunting goal, by any means, but considering I've been averaging 1.5 lbs/wk, it means I need to step it up a bit. Aack! <BR> <BR> I've settled into an easy weightloss lifestyle. It's one I know I can maintain, but I'd take YEARS to reach my end goal. (My yet-to-be-published-or-even-said-out-loud-<BR>end-goal-that-is-just-the-beginnings-o<BR>f-a-little-drem-in-the-back-of-my-mind Goal) So I'm going to embark on a few mini-challeng... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 10:19:35 EST A small milestone that has me HUGELY satisfied!! I'm not quite at my goal of 250lbs yet...but that's ok, because I've given myself until June 30. I weighed in at the lightest I've been since having my daughter 4 1/2 years ago. If you've had a baby, you know exactly how exciting this is. <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> Interestingly enough, this last noted loss comes on the heels of a not-so good week. As in, I didn't feel all that great about life in general, I'm in the middle of my period, and sooooo hungry all the time!! I guess m... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 11:54:54 EST A Slow Leak in My Tire of Focus My brother-in-law's wedding was this weekend. I've known him for a long time....we were even roommates for a while before I married his brother! I am truly happy for him. Although, at my stage in life - married 14 years, kids beyond baby/toddler - I understand somewhat of what he is getting himself into. It's scary...... <BR> <BR> Anyway. My kids were both in the wedding party, as was my husband. This made for a very busy week. I'd like to say I planned all my meals ahead and managed to stay... Mon, 27 May 2013 20:54:15 EST MAJOR Accomplishment...The Mall! I went clothes/jewlery/shoe shopping yesterday. I know, I know...clothes are a reward for when I reach my next goal; 250lbs. (See previous blog post) But I have a wedding on Saturday, and my clothes have just crossed the line from fitting well to fitting too big. And at weddings there are pictures! So I bought a top, and shoes and some gorgeous jewlery. Shopping for myself was considerably more fun than the last time....EVERYTHING fit better. What a nice surprise. <BR> <BR> But that's not th... Wed, 22 May 2013 14:51:38 EST I have lost 20lbs! I haven't updated in a while....that's what happens when things are going really well, or really bad. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> My losing 20 lbs just happens to coincide with the weather turning nicer, the last of my concert performances completed, and we got 4 horses!! They aren't actually ours, we're boarding them for our neighbor. But it has fueled a new passion for me. Suddenly instead of watching each painstaking minute of my 30 minute run on the treadmill, 2 hours fly by while I brush,... Mon, 13 May 2013 15:44:31 EST A bit more about these goals.... My first goal was to stick with weight loss for longer than 5 weeks. I'm now at 7 weeks. Wahoo!! <BR> <BR> What I noticed this weekend is that the last two times I attempted weight loss (since having my daughter in November 2008), I stuck with it for about 5-6 weeks. And each time, including this one, I lost 16.5lbs. Predictable, eh? This also gives me some of that confidence in my body that I've been looking for. It will lose the weight, if I follow the rules. <BR> <BR> The other side of ... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 13:02:29 EST April 17 UPDATE I now know why I have only stuck with this for 5 weeks at a time before.....1) After around 5 weeks I realize that all the other things I've been neglecting in order to focus on weight loss, actually do need some work too! 2) I get bored. <BR> <BR> I'm making it through the "live gets in the way" part quite well right now. I think that's because in those first 4-5 weeks I established a pretty consistent pattern. It is good to be able to fall back on those habits even when things get hectic. ... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 09:39:44 EST Not a New Story....Emotional Eating (Today, ironically, the scale is back down to the weight it should be. I have upped my caloric intake in the last two days by about 200cal. So far, my theory is proven. It could also be that I had a really good sleep and then read a book this morning. I didn't get out of bed until 12:30. No THERE's a guilty indulgence. Haha!) <BR> <BR> Today's SparkCoach session was about emotional eating. Wow. Does that ever hit home! Apparently 82% of us say that it's the reason we're overweight. That's a ... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 14:55:05 EST Aha! I figured it out!!! Well...not the part about setting goals. <BR> <BR> But I know why I've been steadily gaining weight over the last week! <BR> <BR> It was irritating me A LOT that the scale was actually going UP in increments and not down. Just to clarify, I can handle the fluctuations that appear "normally" throughout weight loss. But this was different. I'm also one of those who weighs every day and records every day. It's a simple act that is part of a list of simple acts that keep me focused. Anyway. Th... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 16:59:56 EST What I've learned..... Well. It has been an introspective 4 weeks. I have spent a lot of time inside my own head, and it's time to get out. I have an understanding of where my head is at, I have a clear view of where I want it to least for the next 6 months or so. Strangely (or not so strangely if you've read my last few blogs....), I don't have a definitive weight goal or fitness goal. But I have measurable "head" goals. The weight and fitness will follow. I'm ready to start feeling positive and hopeful in... Sat, 30 Mar 2013 11:29:12 EST Losing weight is one thing, finding contentment is another thing altogether. <img src=""> <BR> In this picture I was so uncomfortable. I wanted to be confident wearing that shirt, but I just felt so fat. Now I look at it.....I looked pretty good! 1995. <BR> <BR> (I've posted a bunch more photos in my gallery. The captions tell how i felt, how much I weighed and when the picture was taken.) <BR> <BR> After yesterday's blog entry, I went in search of photos. I wanted to see the progression of my weight loss and ... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 18:26:54 EST Goals. Schmoals. About goals. I have been trying all week to figure out what my goals are. I've even taken a stab at creating a bucket list. The result? I've determined that I am not, in fact, a "goal-oriented" person. (Although my resume will ALWAYS state that I am!!) At least, not in the traditional sense of the definition. I have diligently tried all the visualization tasks that SparkCoach would have me do. But every time I try to visualize myself at my goal weight, I don't actually like what that feels li... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 16:58:07 EST Us "Caring" Types There's a certain personality type that find themselves seeking careers as teachers, nurses, social workers, caregivers.... People are our greatest joy! People are also our downfall. It's a very fine line. <BR> <BR> I genuinely enjoy people. I find each story fascinating and I am skilled at getting people to share their stories with me. People generally find it easy to trust me. And they listen to what I say!! It's a rush. My mom tells me that as a kid I was really easy-going (lucky for her... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 10:32:04 EST Down 6lbs!!! less than 2 weeks. <BR> <BR> Although this loss is something to be very excited still seems like the amount of effort it took is disproportionate to the rate of success. It was a LOT of work. Mostly mental energy. I really hope that this mental energy is an investment into seeing myself through long-term weight loss. <BR> <BR> Honestly?! I don't believe in my body's ability to do this. I believe in myself to do a lot of things.....I'm a successful musician, I successfully ... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 13:34:41 EST