CANES4EVER63's SparkPeople Blog CANES4EVER63's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The truth about disordered eating Firstly, I know many don't agree with my eating habits, but you know what, I could care less, it's called disordered eating and I let it define me. So be it. It's something I've struggled with for 4 years. I've had periods of eating healthy, I've had periods of being extremely over-restrictive, and I've had periods of binging. I'm still struggling to find a proper balance. Yes, I've gone to therapy for it. Yes, I know the implications of it. I don't need people telling me to eat more, drink l... Sat, 13 Feb 2016 05:12:39 EST Feeling guilty And I shouldn't. <BR> <BR> I actually ate breakfast, and then I had a fairly "large" snack (ok, in reality, I know it was minor), and I just ate dinner. I was craving something sweet. My life coach (for lack of a better word) has many of the food allergies that I have and she is determined to create a recipe that I can tolerate. She made these carob/peanut butter/raisin/some sugar/coconut oil/rice flour/hazelnut bars/brownies, what have you. I was really scared to try it because I didn't kno... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 15:07:46 EST Running I'VE HIT MY 11 MIN MILE!!! (aka, 8.8 kmh) <BR> <BR> First mini goal reached! Next step? Build endurance! Today's 42 min run was great, I've been doing 36 min at 8.7 kmh for a week and I've done half on an incline (5 min off, 5 min on and repeat), so today's goal was 8.8 kmh and just go for endurance (then I'll add the inclines). The first 20 minutes were great, but then I started to get tired. Hit 30 minutes and thought - I'll just do 6 more, but my goal was 40, so I kept going to 40, at whi... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 11:48:17 EST The GP and weight update! So much for checking my weight once a month... but: <BR> <BR> So I had to go this morning to get a refill on the birth control. I ended up seeing a nurse instead of my normal GP, but that was fine. She weighed me, I didn't look, but she said it out loud. Great. Then she starts talking BMI, so of course I know the numbers. <BR> <BR> 3 months ago, my BMI was 34.9, which I calculated a weight of 191 lbs. <BR> Today, my BMI was 30.6, a weight of 166.4 lbs (75.5 kg is what she said) - she even ... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 04:44:25 EST NSV :) I bought a pair of ankle length pants back in July. They were tight, but I could squeeze into them. I had hopes of being able to wear them shortly. Well when I was packing to move to the UK in September, I tried them on again and they didn't fit, far from it. When I went home over the holidays, I decided to pack them and bring them back with me. I tried them on a few weeks ago and they fit, but were tight. I tried them on today and the waist was actually perfect! Now the legs on the other han... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 10:57:29 EST Weigh in Dec 4 on a body composition analysis scale was 186 or something like that. That was clothes on in the middle of the day. <BR> <BR> Dec 16 on a flatmate's scale was around 182. Clothes on, middle of the day. <BR> <BR> Feb 1, on yet a different scale (that was on a plane and who knows how damaged it is), no clothes on, in the morning: the 1st time was 170.8 and an error message, the 2nd time, and all consecutive times, was 173.6. The scale might also be dying as a few times I stood on it and ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 04:41:07 EST The DATE Ok, it wasn't that bad and the kid's acne went down since I last saw him. Yes. Kid. When we were talking, he wanted me to guess his age, and then mentioned that he had told me last Tuesday how old he was! I obviously didn't remember that... felt awful for that. So I guessed 26. He told me he thought I was 19. We were obviously way off. He's 20, I'm 26... so yeah. But age has NOTHING to do with it. He's just not my type and I didn't want to lead him on. He wanted dinner afterwards, I said it w... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 16:06:58 EST Guilt I definitely overate yesterday and I feel so guilty about it. I had a good breakfast/lunch and a fantastic dinner, like amazing. But about 1-2 hours afterwards, I was still hungry. So I had a rice cake with peanut butter. Another 30 min later, I made another one. Then I went to bed. So, not too bad, I suppose. But at some point, I woke in the middle of the night and made another one. I haven't done something like that in a long time. It's not sleep eating, but it's like all decision making pr... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 04:25:03 EST New trend? So I was just getting into researching for articles for my dissertation, and then, bang, a classmate texts me asking if we want to go to a pub, he said it wouldn't be more than hour. I agreed and 1 hour became 4 and 4 glasses of wine, eek! I ended up getting fries because I needed some food to counteract the alcohol. I don't feel insanely guilty about them, but then when I got home, I had salmon and broccolini. I just wanted REAL food. <BR> <BR> But this is 2 days in a row. Yesterday was win... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 17:07:08 EST Quicky Right before I head of to bed. <BR> <BR> I had 1/2 my normal breakfast today (1 banana/1 egg pancake - the bananas are so small). Had 2 rice cakes with peanut butter, then went to wine society. Had a good amount of wine and got home around 11:15pm. I'm normally in bed by this point, but had no dinner! I wasn't hungry, but then all the sudden I was! I had a can of tuna, some mayo, cucumber, brussels sprouts, salt, pepper, crushed red pepper, and lemon juice and made a tuna salad. Gourmet drun... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 18:52:35 EST Food for thought - article share <link><BR>?ocid=socialflow_facebook&ns_mchannel=<BR>social&ns_campaign=bbcnews&ns_source=facebook </link> <BR> <BR> WOW! That's so fascinating. As I'm currently studying epidemiology, I kind of want to look for the original article. There are SO many factors that could contribute to why everyone responds to those foods differently and they certainly can't be controlling for all of them. However, knowing that everyone is different is so crucial! What the... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 04:56:47 EST Saturday Woke up this morning and did the park run, a 5k. I know I can run a 5k on the treadmill without any significant problems, but somehow there is a mindset that doing it outside is so much harder. So I kept telling myself that I KNOW I can do it, and I did it! In about 36 minutes as well, so I'm glad that I was keeping my 11:45-12 min mile pace without a treadmill. After that, went and did a spin class, man, that was tough! SO many sprints in it! I went up a gear for my sprints and that made it ... Sat, 23 Jan 2016 08:38:45 EST Running I'm really excited about the progress I've been making on my running! I'll be ecstatic when I can comfortably get to an 11 min mile, but I'm slowly getting back there. Today I did 8.2 kmh (11:46 min mile) for 15 min, followed by 15 min at a 1% incline. WOW, what a difference that small incline makes! Definitely had to push myself towards the end. I'm debating the park run on Saturday (depends on the weather...), so it looks like Sunday might be my next run - a speed interval run. Last Sunday,... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 05:29:51 EST It's all a part of life Or that's what I'm trying to tell myself. I lived yesterday for the first time in 2 weeks, celebrating the end of the 1st semester of my masters program - even though I already had a class start when this next term isn't suppose to start until next week! I woke up early for my exam and had breakfast - my banana "pancake". Sat my exam and I think did pretty well. My class then went to the union where they all had hot chocolate and cake. Around 12:30, we walked to lunch. Major dilemma for me. I... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 04:59:22 EST Just because Maybe I'm procrastinating, I should either study more or go to bed, but I'm so ready for my exam tomorrow. I've been studying this information inside and out since last Monday. I'm going to nail it (and I'll be really disappointed if I don't!). However, I think my plan is to go to bed after finish writing and wake up around 7 to review. That'll be the earliest I've woken up in a while, but I've got to get use to it. I did get up at 8:30 this morning (go me!), but I also went to bed about an h... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 16:35:41 EST Stomach issues and turmeric I have a sensitive stomach, I know this, but it seems that ever sense I came back to the UK, my stomach has been beyond sensitive. I haven't been hungry and I haven't been eating enough and I don't know if that is part of it. <BR> <BR> So back in October-November, I started drinking coffee again. Nescafe, to be exact. I know from past experience that my dad cannot drink it as it causes stomach issues. After a solid 3 weeks of drinking it, it also started to affect me, but not enough for me t... Sat, 16 Jan 2016 07:14:34 EST Is it time change or something else? I really thought I would be adjusted by now, normally it doesn't bother me one bit! I left Wednesday night (and slept the majority of the 6.5 hour flight - it's normally 7.5!) and landed in London at 6am, slept in the terminal for an hour or so, and then my plane to Leeds was at 1pm. Slept the entire 1 hour flight. Got home, went grocery shopping, ate dinner, went to bed around 6:15 - woke up at 11 the next day. 17 hours of the sleep! I worked out, had a snack and a small dinner - 14 hours of... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 08:00:40 EST Ready for action Not really, but I'm hoping to be. After a full day of traveling, I'm back in the UK and excited to be back in my routine. I slept 17 hours last night (so much for adjusting to time change..) and just finished breakfast - well lunch. I have a gym class in about an hour. Then it'll be time to study. I have an exam on the 19th, so I need to start revising for it. But get this. Term starts Jan 25, but I have a class that starts Jan 14! Not cool. And for that class, I have to read 2 chapters befo... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 07:46:37 EST Back in the US of A :) Even if it is only for 15 days, I'm so excited to be back. I didn't realize that I had missed the sun and the grass for so long! And it's not even 7:15am and the sun is rising. WOW! I'm use to the sun not rising until 8:15! And the sun stayed out so much longer! We walked the dog around 3:30 and the sun was still out! Incredible. And the grass and the trees. So pretty. Leeds, England has it's own kind of pretty, but it doesn't have this. But I love Leeds as well, but for now, I'm going to enj... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 07:31:54 EST The dreaded PB fudge Dear PB fudge, I ate too much of you. <BR> <BR> The end. <BR> <BR> I made some for our Christmas party (super simple! About 1-1 and 1/4 cup PB, 1/2 cup coconut oil, and 1/2 cup golden syrup. It was suppose to be maple syrup but it's SO expensive here in the UK! Just melt it all on the stove and freeze!) and it was really delicious. What didn't get eaten melted and I put it in the freezer when I got home and I just polished off the rest of it. I suppose it all evens out though, I normally ha... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 15:32:26 EST Thinking out loud The past two weeks have been really good. I haven't had gummies or binged in 15 days. I've had a few days that I've deemed as over eating, but I haven't been stuffed. I've also been running 4-5 times a week and doing spin classes on the remaining days, so my workouts have been really good. I've done body pump (strength training) 3 days a week and have increased my squat track weight. I think I'm ready to increase the chest track as well. So all sounds really positive, right? <BR> <BR> Wrong.... Sat, 12 Dec 2015 05:51:50 EST Body composition analysis results So I did it. I know my weight for the first time in about 2 years, and you know what? I'm ok with that. It's a good starting point since I'm hopefully almost off of the weight gaining medication I'm on. But here are the results: <BR> <BR> Water weight: 35.1 L (normal 27-33) <BR> Protein: 9.6 kg (normal 7.2-8.8) ie, I have a lot of muscle :) <BR> Minerals: 3.28 kg (normal 2.49-3.05) ie, I have a lot of muscle :) <BR> Body fat mass: 36.7 (normal 10.6-17) <BR> Skeletal muscle mass: 26.8 kg (whi... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 14:42:51 EST I'm a mess My eating this week? Far from perfect. Way too much wine, way too much gummies. Mix that with overeating and you've got a hot mess. So no more, of both. I didn't have wine or gummies yesterday, but I most likely did overeat, I've just been wanting to snack all day, it's so hard for me to not think about food. <BR> <BR> I'm also extremely stressed, like beyond stressed. Having panic attacks stressed. I'm blaming simply being stressed, but also coming off of the medication I'm on. There wasn'... Sun, 29 Nov 2015 04:11:08 EST Homesick and missing Thanksgiving :( So I've been in the UK for about 2.5 months, no biggie, I've been able to skype with everyone I care about and have made friends. Will they be lifelong friends, probably not, but they're still great. <BR> <BR> But tomorrow is Thanksgiving and all of my fb friends back in the States are talking about breaks and relaxing and spending time with family, heck, it's all over SP as well. It's making me sad. This is the first Thanksgiving I'll miss. Ever. Even when I was living 3 hours away and work... Wed, 25 Nov 2015 14:36:16 EST Resetting The past two days haven't been pleasant, but the entire week was, so does it even out? Maybe. Thursday was just over eating all day and then having some gummies. Friday was not eating enough, but then eating gummies and brownies. But man, those brownies. I knew I shouldn't, but the chocolate went right through me (and still is hours 12 hours later!) - TMI? :0 Sometimes the foods I'm allergic to do that, at least my face isn't swollen, but I'm afraid to leave my room since I need to be close t... Sat, 21 Nov 2015 04:04:56 EST Hanging in there Cue my random thoughts: <BR> <BR> I'm taking a stress free day today. This week has been really long and having classes right in the middle on Tuesday and Wednesday is draining. I don't get to go to the gym on those days and I think that makes it worse. But I've been productive this week and it's time to start the next batch of assignments. I'll tackle that this afternoon. Maybe it'll wait until tomorrow, but as I said, I just need to relax a bit! <BR> <BR> Food has been ok. Lunch is barel... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 06:43:37 EST What I've learned this week/SP motivator!?!?! To help with my gummy addiction and kick my sugar craving in the butt, I've done some soul searching - aka, have turned to honey. It's been amazing. I don't have the urges like I did the week before and having a sweet breakfast (my banana pancake - 2 eggs, 1 banana, cinnamon) drizzled with honey has set me up to have more energy for the morning than my regular breakfast of 2 eggs, a tomato, and possibly bacon as well. I get the sweet fix and it's enough to last. Also, relatively healthy. <BR>... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 03:19:05 EST So incredibly stressed right now. Classes are definitely stressing me out right now. I feel like I don't understand anything and I don't like that. It's the theory I don't get and I feel like it's not something I need to know for real world applications (and talking to my friend who did a somewhat similar program). I am really questioning this program and I don't like that. It makes me wonder if I should have done a more broad program, which people who do don't really get jobs afterwards because it's so broad. So I'm glad I'm... Thu, 12 Nov 2015 05:00:34 EST It's Monday I like Mondays. It's a fresh start to the week, a day to start over, etc. I need to get out of that mind set though because EVERY day should be a day to start fresh. After all, you can only do this journey one day at a time. <BR> <BR> I had a banana pancake for breakfast. It was amazing. But then I just felt like moving, so I went on a 30 minute run. Later on today, I have a spin class and body pump, a ST class. My run was great. I'm slowly getting back into it and I would love to do the ha... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 05:47:57 EST Revitalizing my diet So I need a way to get naturally sweet foods into my diet, I have to, but I can't overdo it at the same time. I've got to stop binging on gummies. So this is it. I'm open for suggestions, but this is what I've come up with: <BR> <BR> banana pancakes with a drizzle of honey <BR> sweet potato pancakes <BR> prosciutto wrapped dates <BR> dark chocolate <BR> baked apples <BR> sweet potato fries (dipping sauce ideas? - maybe just a drizzle of honey will work!) <BR> fruit preserves (although mayb... Sat, 7 Nov 2015 06:52:32 EST The last hurrah So the last day has been a whirlwind and I'm not happy with some of the choices or the news I've gotten. <BR> <BR> I went to the GP yesterday to talk about getting off my mood stabilizing meds for my possible bipolar diagnosis. They've contributed to the weight gain, but are definitely preventing any current weight loss. But I also want to get off of them for other various reasons, but that's not the point of this blog. It's going to take 2-3 months for me to taper off and have them leave my... Fri, 6 Nov 2015 12:18:54 EST Tuesday food log plus thoughts Ok, no longer comparing to what was planned because that just seems pointless to begin with. I think to help me food shop, I might plan 7 meals, 7 lunches, 7 breakfasts, 7 snacks (if needed) and just eat them whenever I feel like during the week. This will just minimize food shopping trips, because let's face it, having to walk 0.75 miles to the store and back WITH your one reusable grocery bag is a pain in the butt. <BR> <BR> So today sucked, I blame it on not eating enough yesterday and ba... Tue, 3 Nov 2015 15:46:22 EST Monday food log I have to say, I don't know how I feel about doing this on a daily basis, but I do want to see if it helps. <BR> <BR> So planned: <BR> B: 2 eggs, 1 bacon , tomato <BR> L: 2 rice cakes, PB, banana (before workout!) <BR> S: prosciutto wrapped asparagus <BR> D: sweet potato "lasagna" <BR> <BR> Actual: <BR> B: 2 eggs, 1 bacon, tomato <BR> L: 2 rice cakes, PB, banana (was after workout though, so not until 3:45) <BR> D: tomato soup with spinach and sausage <BR> <BR> I essentially switched ... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 14:35:23 EST Sunday food journal Planned: <BR> B: 2 eggs, 1 bacon, tomato <BR> L: 2 rice cakes, PB, banana (after workout) <BR> S: baked eggplant "fries" <BR> D: tomato soup with sausage <BR> <BR> Actual: <BR> B: 2 eggs, 1 bacon, tomato <BR> L: baked eggplant "fries" <BR> D: eggplant "lasagna" <BR> S: 2 rice cakes, PB, banana <BR> D: some dark chocolate <BR> <BR> So not too bad. The snack and dessert weren't needed, but I feel better having eaten them. I should have just brushed my teeth and ignored the urge to eat mo... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 14:43:58 EST Time for reflection So I failed, again. I ended up going to the store yesterday to buy chicken wings. They were a success, I think I'll cook the rest today. I even made a delicious tahini lemon sauce to dip them in. But as you can guess, brownies and gummies ended up in my basket, again. I didn't binge, they lasted all afternoon and evening again. Along with the chicken wings, they were my lunch, snack, and dinner. But I failed, miserably. I thought I was starting on the right page, but I obviously wasn't. Maybe... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 06:28:00 EST Control I didn't binge yesterday. Definitely not a binge, it wasn't, I promise. I overate though, big time. I had gummies and brownies, but not all at one sitting, so that was good. I made it last for hours upon hours, all afternoon and evening. I was getting anxious when I was walking to the store -to buy or not to buy, I had decided not to and felt so much bette. But somehow, and I don't really know how, they ended up in my basket. I had no myself "no", but it just didn't work. So I snacked on them... Sat, 31 Oct 2015 06:48:43 EST It's Monday! And that means 2 hours at the gym (so excited to finally be able to workout again!) and the start of a new week. I'm really looking forward to it. Five days without wine, five days without sugar. I can do this. Well, my class is going to a pub tomorrow, so I'll have a glass then, but I'll limit myself to just one. My body doesn't want anymore sugar right now, I completely over did it this past weekend. <BR> <BR> However, I'm back to the whole "should I weigh myself" debate. I know I can't d... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 05:17:14 EST Feeling a bit down So I broke down and had a glass of wine with dinner last night. No big deal, it's about cutting down, not eliminating. So ok. But then I had 2 bags, *cough*, 3 bags of gummies afterwards. Then I felt sick. I don't know what made me do it. I just REALLY wanted it. I suppose I was feeling my lack of a social life and decided to eat. Kind of a big break through. But now that I have, I want to continue and eat some brownies and restart tomorrow. I just really want to eat. But am I eating my emoti... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 05:15:56 EST New goals So I've been doing a lot of thinking and I have a few goals I'm going to work on. They're going to be challenging, but I'm an all or nothing person, so I'm going all in. <BR> <BR> Goal 1: no sugar. Well no added sugar. Natural is ok, so fruits are in (not that I eat many anyways). This is pretty much so I eliminate gummeis and brownies. I don't need them, they make me sick, etc. No more. <BR> <BR> Goal 2: no wine. Every time I've lost weight in the past was because I wasn't drinking wine, o... Thu, 22 Oct 2015 05:54:51 EST I'm on a blogging role! So I need some advice - <BR> <BR> I've been having the urge to weigh myself. I feel like I just need to know, you know? Or I need someone to track it for me, but isn't happening right now. I wish my coach would have, but she didn't seem to think it was a good idea? I don't know, I didn't see a scale anywhere to begin with. But we were at a gym, so really, there had to be one somewhere... I'm seeing her again in a couple weeks so maybe I'll bring it up. <BR> <BR> But this is my idea - get s... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 05:41:29 EST Sugar cravings: what google has told me So I know I've been craving sugar a lot recently and it's getting to the point where it is messing with my normal state of mind and my anxiety levels. Naturally, I do some research, and this is what google has told me: <BR> <BR> Hypothyroid <BR> I know my thyroid is out of whack, last time I checked it, my TSH was nearly double what it normally runs, but it's still not significant enough to cause major symptoms. But a under active thyroid can lead to sugar cravings. Perhaps I should get it r... Sun, 18 Oct 2015 14:52:44 EST To go to the store or not to go? This is mainly for my own purposes. Writing helps me figure things out, so here we go. <BR> <BR> If I go to the store, I'm going to buy gummies and/or brownies, maybe some crisps (oh, look at me finally starting to naturally use the British lingo). BUT, I don't WANT to buy them. I feel like if I buy them and eat them, that I'll be punishing myself. But for what reason? Because I ate gummies the other day and sabotaged myself so I figure I might as well keep going? I've been wanting those bro... Sun, 18 Oct 2015 05:55:35 EST Recap of the lifestyle/nutrition meeting It was interesting. The person I met with is part nutritionist, part exercise, part time management, part therapist, part a little bit of everything - she just isn't certified in any of it, which I'm ok with as it's all about experience anyways. <BR> <BR> So I told her my history. All of it. The over restricting in the past, the major binging that followed causing some of the 100 lbs that I lost to come back, the minor binging that's happening now about once every week or so. The medications... Sat, 17 Oct 2015 04:29:44 EST Delicious dinner! So I've been in a curry rut recently. Easy to make, delicious, one pot meal, etc. But I love to cook and I was honestly getting tired of curry. As I'm settling into my new flat, I've taken more space in the fridge and have therefore bought more food (other than the simple ingredients to make curry, that is! - gotta love the the precut stir fry mixes at the store!). <BR> <BR> So what did I make for dinner? Delicious homemade meatballs, homemade tomato sauce, and zucchini pasta. Amazing. And ... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 14:05:15 EST I just want to eat! Like a lot! I've done a relaxation/calming video, it didn't help all that much. I've already had a snack, followed by dinner, and now I'm still wanting to eat, although I shouldn't need to! All I can think about is grocery shopping tomorrow and deciding if I'll get those dang brownies. I don't need them, but I do want them. Even if I can spread them out and have one a day so I don't binge on them, it'll be better than nothing. I have no idea how many cal each one is, I blame the UK nutrition ... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 15:07:02 EST Starting to feel refocused? Or at least I hope I am. That's what my "new game plan" blog was suppose to be, but that didn't really work. The past 4 days or so have been perfectly fine, granted I had this weird stomach bug over the weekend so I couldn't eat anything, couldn't move out of bed, really. I ended up fainting as well, who knows why, but it's been about 2.5 years since I have. <BR> <BR> But I'm starting to feel recommitted. I just have to remember this feeling when the cravings hit and think "oh yeah, this is... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 05:33:05 EST Feeling overwhelmed Not just about food, but about everything. Food is definitely contributing to my mood right now, but so is the stress of school and all of this independent learning. I'm having to figure out how classes work here (so different than the States!), how grades are done (a 50 is passing!?) and that sort of thing. On top of it, I need to learn all of the information on my own since I only have class two days a week. I'm concerned about one class, well really two, but we haven't had the second one y... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 12:52:55 EST New game plan So recovering from the binge and this is what I'm thinking. <BR> <BR> 1. Eat more carbs. I think if I were to do so then the strong cravings wouldn't be there. I will allow myself to have potatoes with my breakfast. And getting them in the morning means I can burn them throughout the day. <BR> <BR> 2. I need some sort of dessert, but I need some ideas since I have so many food allergies (gluten, dairy, soy, corn, oats, chocolate, nutmeg, mustard, shrimp, crab, walnuts, almonds, cashews, pis... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 04:02:00 EST Binging This binge is over, thank goodness. It has not been nice to me. Rephrase, I shouldn't have done it to myself? Now I feel like crap. The positive? I didn't eat food I'm allergic to like I normally would? I ate potato chips and these chocolate brownies I found that I can actually eat. Rephrase, that I can eat in small amounts since I can only handle small amounts of chocolate at a time. But, I ate more than a small amount. Oh yeah, I also had some gummies. The bottom line? I wanted carbs and I ... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 06:38:32 EST Running, I hate thee So I use to be an avid runner. This was at the peak of my weight loss about 2.5 years ago. I started from not being able to run a mile to running a half marathon. I know how it happens, I know the struggles, I know the frustrations and the pain. <BR> <BR> But I don't know this. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to get back into running. I ran for the first time in who knows how long a week ago and managed to a 5k, my goal. It was rough at the end. The following day was the park run (a free, timed 5k run... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 05:12:34 EST