CANDIK48's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CANDIK48 CANDIK48's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Ups and downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503686 These last few weeks have been a mixture of really great highs and a really angering and disgusting low of a discovery. On the getting healthy aspect, I've been super successful since adding the IF in. I'm now just ounces away from getting to the 150's. That is a huge huge achievement and exciting thing for me! On the other issue, I'm really and truly totally pissed off with the obaminable care act. Now, **warning!** I've never ever EVER been a fan of the current pretender and his entour... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 17:11:14 EST Another successful fasting day done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488472 and down again on the scale! I really can't say just how much I'm loving the new tweaks I've made to my plan. It's absolutely wonderful to see consistent progress every week again. I sure hope it keeps going this way! Tue, 17 Sep 2013 16:16:46 EST Halfway there! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485358 As of this morning, I'm officially more than half way to my goal!!! I have to admit, it's a little exciting to see on the scale! I even put on a smaller size pair of pants when I got dressed this morning and they were a little loose!! Can't wait to reach the next level down! Thank goodness I didn't get rid of my skinnier me jeans! Sat, 14 Sep 2013 12:21:47 EST It's been awhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481538 since I logged in and made any entries. It's not because I fell off the wagon, I didn't! I've been staying strong, not giving up or quitting. It's just that my Beloved had some unexpected but welcomed time off and we took advantage of the time to just invest in spending the time focused on us and the house. It was soooo nice to be able to not turn the alarm clocks on and to just enjoy our morning coffee together instead of that hectic usual morning routine! <BR> <BR> I've continued wit... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 10:54:22 EST Gotta love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469905 end of summer sandal sales! Thu, 29 Aug 2013 12:28:10 EST Happy with the tweaks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469434 Since I'd been on a plateau, I thought I would try doing some diet tweaking to see if I could kick my weight loss back into gear. I came across an article about intermittent fasting and it caught my interest so I thought I would give it a try. On Monday, following my Sunday funday, I decided to do a full fast. It wasn't hard to do at all. As a result, not only did I drop all the carb bloat weight I put on from Sunday's feasting, I dropped an additional small amount as well. I thought for... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 23:58:47 EST First Intermittent Fasting Day experience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467872 I've been on a plateau for most of the last 9 weeks. I'd lose a little, hit a wall, lose a little more, hit another wall and so on and so on. I'd tweak my eating plan and that would work for just a tiny bit but then it would be back to the same old same old plateau. It was getting pretty darn frustrating! I know in many ways, I was still headed in the right direction. And I know the scale is not the only indicator of downsizing. But when I averaged out the scale reflected weight loss, I... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 12:23:25 EST Plateauing on plateaus... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464099 Just when I think I've gotten one beat, another one comes to hang around. I can't decide if I'm frustrated or exasperated or just plain befuddled! But really? Another plateau?!?! Somethings gotta give, but it's not going to be me! I'm not quitting and I'm not giving up! I just have to find a way to teach whatever in me wants to stay fat that there is a better me that deserves to break free! <BR> <BR> Oh well, at least the plateaus are on the downsize side. <em>24</em> Fri, 23 Aug 2013 13:36:32 EST Once a month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461065 my cravings are outrageously strong. Ladies, you know what I'm talking about right? I literally ache for chocolate and sweet simple carbs. This month is no exception. But... thank goodness for culinary innovations that make staying on track so much easier! I really just want to write a love letter to whoever came up with the dark cocoa dusted almonds. With only 1 gram of sugar partnered with 3 grams of fiber and 6 grams of protein, it fits quite nicely into my eating plan so long as I d... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 13:31:32 EST What I appreciate the most.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458930 about my eating plan for getting healthy is the day after Funday. That's the day when I go back to eating on plan and eating clean again. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my Funday and eating the carbs I can't have, but I enjoy the way I feel eating clean more. Life is strange sometimes! Sun, 18 Aug 2013 14:17:51 EST The Plateau is broken! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458179 Need I say more? <em>334</em> Sat, 17 Aug 2013 15:33:36 EST Diet reflections... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5457289 I'm one of those guilty people who've dived int dieting with the intentions of doing it for a short term goal or looking for instant results. When I look back at all the reasons and motivations I've had to start a diet or to lose weight, they were mostly for reasons of how people would see me. Not necessarily for my health, but for my ego. Only once have I lost weight for health reasons. And even then, I just lost enough weight to change my health status from danger zone to the outer li... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 14:03:38 EST Perceptions of Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455175 Success isn't only measured by my scale. Sometimes it's measured by weight loss , sometimes by inches lost. Sometimes it's measured by just doing what I'm supposed to do for the day, for the week and for the month. Most of all, It's measured by my consistent commitment to not quit and to not give up. When I look at myself in the mirror, I may still see more of me than I'd like to, but that's okay. I know I'm successful. Wed, 14 Aug 2013 14:31:50 EST So I step on the scale.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454039 and my Beloved asks, "What does it say?", "It says I'm still fat" I reply. "No you're not!" he says, adding with a smile, "You're just pleasantly plump!" I give him my best skeptic eyes and ever the realist, I respond "Plump? No!, I'm fat". He just gives me a big hug and tells me "I love you, you're sexy and beautiful!" I just hug him back and whisper in his ear, "Thank you for being my crazy, wonderful blind Beloved." <BR> <BR> Gotta love that man! Tue, 13 Aug 2013 13:38:15 EST The Day After... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5453207 In spite of indulging in all kinds of carbs for my reset, I didn't have too much of a carb hangover. Thank goodness! Cause if carbs were alcohol, I'd be hanging my head for sure! One thing about reset day is all the bloat and water weight I hold onto the first or second day after. In spite of knowing it will happen, it still is an unpleasant thing to see reflected on the scale. But instead of saying, wth, it's not worth it, I just take it as a motivational factor to redouble my efforts f... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 19:05:29 EST No accountability days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5451884 Today is a carb reset day for me. After spending the last 6 days of eating strictly on plan foods, I get a day where it's anything goes. No accounting for calories, carbs, fats, or anything that resembles an eating discipline. Some days I get all excited to go "hog wild" (as it were!), and other days, I just look forward to a few things like fruit and dairy. Today I baked this incredible smelling and looking cream cheese and fruit stuffed baked french toast casserole. I made it up last n... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 15:38:35 EST Plateau... schplateau! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448688 Still on the darn plateau although the scale did move a little. Not going to get my hopes up, I've seen the bait and switch of lower numbers before! If it goes back up, well, it was nice while it lasted and I'm sure eventually I'll get there and then some for real! Thu, 8 Aug 2013 10:58:03 EST No wallowing allowed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447764 Besides not allowing myself to quit or give up, I also tell myself I am not allowed to wallow. Life doesn't improve when I wallow in a pity party, life doesn't get better when I place the blame instead of taking responsibility. And life sure as heck doesn't move in the direction I want it to if all I can do is sit around and find reasons why it can't. In the past, if I felt like I was losing my direction, motivation or inspiration I would find a way to find failure. Not anymore! I'm resp... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 14:32:54 EST Can't make up my mind! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443153 I have an eating plan that requires 6 days of clean slow carb eating and 1 reset day of free for all. Usually during the week I make a list of foods that I want to indulge in for Sunday Funday and this week, I just can't make up my mind. It's one of those weeks when everything and nothing sounds good. Heck, I even looked at recipes and grocery store ads to see if anything stood out. But no, nothing. I think my "be a glutton" is busted ... <em>39</em> Sat, 3 Aug 2013 10:52:04 EST Did you know... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442569 If you're a card carrying member of a certain bank, you can get one free museum admission on the first full weekend of every month? I didn't know this! A friend of mine told me just the other day. We could have been taking strolls through art and stuff every month! Goodness gracious! Fri, 2 Aug 2013 18:22:18 EST It's on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441246 My seemingly constant companion, good ole "la plateau" appears to be hanging around for the long haul. It just won't get the hint to go away! But I'm not deterred and I'm sure as heck not defeated! I look at the scale and think "It's on!". I see it as a personal challenge. I'm just gonna keep doing what I'm doing and maybe tweak a little here and there without going off track. If I ignore it maybe it will get the hint and leave and maybe not. Either way, I'm not quitting, I'm not givin... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 15:26:12 EST What can I say.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440309 I didn't make the goal I had in mind this month. I even had all month to get there, but I didn't. It's not for lack of trying. It's not because I faltered. I stayed on track, did what I was supposed to do. Okay, most of what I was supposed to do. I didn't always get the sleep I needed. But otherwise, I was really really good! Honest! I behaved myself at least when it came to staying on plan. I can't vouch for nor will I confess to anything else! <em>211</em> It is a bit disappo... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 21:43:29 EST Gotta love Mondays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437434 After Sunday Funday, I usually crave back on track Mondays. All those carbs make me feel all bleh and weighted down. And yes, it shows on the scale the next day with all that carb water bloat. Today, I had a nice breakfast and am planning on walking down to the local used book store to browse for awhile. It's a dangerous walk since I pass one of my favorite fried chicken places (Popeye's!) but it's all good. I'm too stubborn to make the stop. Then it's chores, cooking and more chores. T... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 13:36:42 EST Sunday Funday.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436272 The dratted scale is not cooperating and getting with the program again! <em>234</em> The plateau I broke is unbroken once more. (I guess I'm all kinds of stubborn these days!) But that's okay. There are still lots of other indicators I'm making progress. My BMI is down over 6% points, my thighs aren't rubbing together except for a tiny bit, my jeans are looser coming out of the dryer and the measuring tape shows about 7 inches lost. Four out of five is doable. I wanted pancakes or ... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 13:57:24 EST Where is my pillow?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435245 Alas! I'm having one of those didn't get enough sleep days. If I weren't at work, I'd go back to bed or at least take a nap on the couch. But, I'm at work and don't you know, my luck, I find out I might have to stay for a double shift. That means I'm going to have to find something to eat since I only brought breakfast, lunch and 2 snacks worth of food. <BR> <BR> Oh well, life goes on right? At least tomorrow (although another unexpected work day for me!) is Sunday Funday and don't yo... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 12:50:13 EST BMI http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5434811 is just a number but it's great to see when the scale proclaims it down over 6%. Now if only the rest of the scale would get in line! <em>24</em> Fri, 26 Jul 2013 23:58:25 EST My just washed jeans... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433275 are looser! Nuff said.. <BR> <BR> Don't quit! Thu, 25 Jul 2013 15:10:58 EST When I hit goal... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431961 I have this image in my mind of some of the first things I want to do when I get to goal. I want to be somewhere, anywhere, it doesn't really matter and show off all that hard work and dedication. I want to go to the beach and be able to show off in a swimsuit, maybe even skinny dip without a shirt! <em>211</em> I want to go to one of my Beloved's gigs and strut my stuff in a sexy outfit, I want to wear everything in my closet and go shopping for single digit sizes. I want to look in t... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 14:09:39 EST It's a good day.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430706 when things are happening! When I see progress, (even as simple as looking back on a consecutive track record of on plan adherence!) when I see things coming into place for the future and when I just get "that" feeling that positives are on the agenda. <BR> <BR> But most of all, it's a good day when there is no quitting involved!!! Tue, 23 Jul 2013 14:12:53 EST Successful Sunday Funday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429577 And here's wishing we all have another successful NO QUITTING week! <BR> <BR> Stay strong! Mon, 22 Jul 2013 15:50:09 EST Sunday Funday Eve! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427415 This time I'm really looking forward to it. TOM means huge carb and sweet cravings that I've been staving off. It's been a challenge, but I persevered cause I'm not a quitter! Just a loser! <em>334</em> Sat, 20 Jul 2013 14:05:40 EST 40 is the new 50! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426879 But only when it comes to weight! Yeppers! It's official, in spite of TOM and the water conservation efforts put on by every single cell in my body, the scale was down again. That puts me at a mere 40 over the higher end of my goal range. If I break it down to percentages, that's a whopping 20% toward my goal! (I'm only saying it like this cause it sounds like a bigger accomplishment to me! <em>334</em> ). I'm still hoping to get in the mid 160's by the end of the month and I'm gonn... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 22:50:52 EST Wow... Yesterday was a month already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425626 Yesterday marked a month of being back on track. I made tremendous strides at dropping the weight I thought I lost but found again. Funny how that didn't stray too far right? I stayed on track with the food and activity. But sleeping right, not so much. That's been an issue for the last few years. Anyway, I thought, no I hoped, I would have lost a little more than I have but I plateaued for almost 2 weeks and TOM is due to arrive any minute. Maybe I'll see a bigger difference when my b... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 18:13:06 EST Getting anxious but in a good way! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425386 Ever know that change is coming and you just can't wait for it all to happen? That's where I have been in the last few months. It's a good change so I'm really looking forward to it but I want it done already so I can get started on all kinds of things I want to do. In anticipation, I've been doing as many little prep things I can so it'll be less to do later. I guess you could say I'm frustrated at the wait but excited at the same time. <BR> <BR> Either way, I ain't quitting! Thu, 18 Jul 2013 13:13:46 EST finally! giving my scale the evil eye worked! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424363 Even though I know TOM is due any minute now and I tend to hold water like a retention pond and I bloat like the hindenburg, I was still giving my scale the evil eye. Today, it was down a little so I feel better about our relationship. I don't really put much stock in what the number reads, but I have to admit, I do like to see a downward trend every now and then. Who doesn't right? Still, I refuse to give up. Never give up. I am after all, my own and best last line of defense! <BR> ... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 15:42:06 EST It's almost a month in ... again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418953 I know right? If I hadn't given up, I'd be in maintenance by now! <em>198</em> But that didn't happen. So here I am, almost a month in. I've seen some changes, felt some changes and wished for more changes. It's all good though. With work and effort some wishes come true. Sunday will be the fourth Funday for me. I can't wait. Not because I get to eat whatever, when ever or anything like that, but because I can sleep! Glorious, wonderful and oh so missing sleep! Yesterday, toda... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 13:43:14 EST The big bat issue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417859 So,,,, apparently we have a very active roost in the house. Well actually in the dormer eave on the roof but that still counts. The bats we have are actually called Little Brown Bats. Definitely an appropriate name since they are very little! These are actually very harmless and no risk to us other than the surprise visit in the house and the guano (excrement). In spite of common misunderstandings, these aren't as disease ridden as most people think. Less than 1% of rabies cases are act... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 12:52:35 EST Ok, so I go to do some laundry in the basement.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417328 I made sure the settings were what I wanted and then I turned on the water. I looked into the washer tub and lo and behold... another bat. Of course I turned the water off immediately but I'm sure it scared the heck out of that poor little thing! That makes three in three days!!! Good thing they don't scare me! I'm gonna have to check to see if they can be relocated. (In some states you can't disturb their roost!) If they can,then this fall, when they migrate, we'll look for where they ... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 23:47:44 EST Who needs Bats in the Belfry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416189 when we have them in the house! Two little tiny ones in as many days... They are so cute! We do a very careful capture and release because they are so very delicate. Love having nature's best mosquito assassins around! Wed, 10 Jul 2013 00:46:35 EST Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night by Dylan Thomas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414587 Do not go gentle into that good night, <BR> Old age should burn and rave at close of day; <BR> Rage, rage against the dying of the light. <BR> <BR> Though wise men at their end know dark is right, <BR> Because their words had forked no lightning they <BR> Do not go gentle into that good night. <BR> <BR> Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright <BR> Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, <BR> Rage, rage against the dying of the light. <BR> <BR> Wild men who caught and sang... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 16:37:21 EST I can't change the world http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413417 but I can change my world. I won't give up being passionate about the things I believe in. But I can channel some of that frustrated energy into making positive changes about the things I can control. At the end of the day, that's really the only thing we can do. So I'll hold on and keep pushing toward the goals I've set for myself and I won't give up on the hope I hold for the rest of everything else. Sun, 7 Jul 2013 16:41:07 EST Soon we won't remember... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411659 What made America a country and an ideal worth fighting for. Our children no longer say the Pledge of Allegiance in school in fact, most don't even learn American History any more. Ask people about celebrities and reality shows and they know more about that then about current events nationally and globally. Some don't even know which song is the National Anthem or even what the words are. Yesterday at a 4th of July cookout/birthday party, we celebrated the Birthday and mourned the Nation... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 15:58:32 EST Patriotic 4th of July http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409158 I consider myself a very patriotic person. I come from a family that came here on the Mayflower. My family has served in every war since the Revolution and some have given their lives. I served myself in the USAF. I love what this country was founded on and was proud to represent my country in the best way I could. But, I look around and see what has happened and what is happening in this once proud and strong nation and I feel a tremendous loss. Our Constitution and Bill of Rights and a... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 00:00:06 EST Staying strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407397 and still committed to getting healthier and slimmer. I've made progress and am still headed in the right direction. I've been logging my food (except for my required scheduled cheat days) and exercise to keep me on track. I've noted some areas that need fine tuning like getting more sleep but I'm satisfied so far. I'm almost back to where I was before I gave up on me last time and I'm looking forward to getting there so I can start back on the progress I would have made had I kept at it.... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 12:20:41 EST Sunday is Fun day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406721 I'm on a lifestyle plan that requires that I take a day off every week from dieting and eat anything I want. This is supposed to confuse my body from entering any specific mode other than fat burning. I have to admit, it's what keeps me sane and makes this plan doable for the long term. This week it's pizza, a piece of toast, some fruit, another piece of cake and the popcorn. I don't count calories, carbs or anything else. I eat what I want. I don't gorge or stuff my face til I can't m... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 21:15:14 EST Everyday I wake up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5405551 above ground is a day to seize and make my own! Sat, 29 Jun 2013 14:24:57 EST Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404629 I know I'm making it. Little things here and there tell me it's so. I'm hoarding all the positives I see no matter how miniscule it may be. I know it all adds up and the more I achieve, the closer I'm getting to success. <BR> <BR> Today I read a tagline someone else is using that just resonated so profoundly with me. It was about being tired of starting over again and again and deciding to give up quitting. Yeah, I need to keep those words alive in my day to day. <BR> <BR> It's al... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 12:51:23 EST Changes are motivating... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402528 There are changes in the wind that are going to impact my life in a positive way. At least that's the attitude I'm holding on to. These changes are also an added motivator for holding strong on my goal of being more streamlined and healthy. It'll be nice to start a new phase in my life with a new me! <BR> <BR> Last week was week one of being back on the wagon. It started strong, ended strong and the push continues.... <BR> <BR> As an added visual, I've put up one of those dry erase ... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 14:15:21 EST Yesterday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393318 I drank so much water I think I got a good workout just going upstairs to the bathroom! Tue, 18 Jun 2013 11:07:38 EST Feeling like a Duncan YoYo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392546 In spite of heartfelt intentions, I fell off the wagon again. To the tune of about 15 pounds even! Lordy! How does that happen?! Well, I'll tell ya, it was one bogus excuse after another. I got sick, work hours/schedule became erratic, holiday baking, didn't get what I needed at the store, quit smoking, etc., etc., etc., ad nauseam.... That's me, queen of excuses. <BR> <BR> Well, I did quit smoking but I didn't gain any weight just from that. I have a back injury so cold and wet day... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 21:36:45 EST