CAMOGIE3's SparkPeople Blog CAMOGIE3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A picture's worth a thousand words There are times when words just don't cut it. There are images that just seem like known words can even describe. Then there are those images that can protect your backside. Proof. Date-stamped proof. <BR> <BR> There are images that have such rich colors and contrasts that your memory takes you right back to that special place and includes not only the sights, but the sounds and smells as well. Or the wind. <BR> <BR> Trying to visualize where I want to be in 6 months, a year or 5 years ... Wed, 21 Mar 2018 23:28:06 EST checking in... Work stress flare up and went for the Halo Top. Dinner consisted of Skinny Cow version which was not nearly as good as the real thing. After eating the image of Mr Yuck came to mind. <BR> <BR> I actually did make time to stop on the way home and go for a walk. It's a start. It sure felt good though! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, catching up at work (a never ending battle), monthly meetings Wed, Thurs, Fri. With more daylight, my hurling/gaelic football team has added an evening practice! The next ga... Tue, 20 Mar 2018 23:54:51 EST Internal realignment Since I'm not a registered dietician and don't know what all to believe any more (I don't care if they are written by a MD), I've got the number a local out-patient dietician. <BR> <BR> A couple observations--cheese does not do nice things to my plumbing; eating sweets no longer provides a pleasant feeling, instead I start to feel sick. I've also noticed that when I have other things to focus on, I don't notice any feelings of hunger or low BS. <BR> <BR> Just a short drop in.... Mon, 19 Mar 2018 13:13:06 EST I need a healthier relationship with food Food—my go to with stress lately has been Halo Top ice cream and pizza. Those two things are the only things that come even close to appealing to me. To keep from getting too out of hand, I’ve my favorite chunky monkey frozen smoothie at home and added greens and nuts. I’ve gotten smaller thin crust pizzas with less cheese and more veggie toppings. It’s a start. <BR> <BR> For the past several years, I’ve been trying to eat healthier. The stress in my life has also made a steady climb in g... Sun, 18 Mar 2018 12:29:53 EST Note to self... Make sure to copy text before moving off page or I’ll lose everything I just typed. My approach to grocery shopping will have to wait for another time as sleep beckons. <BR> <BR> Work was frustrating—laziness in documentation (both in omission of details and complete lack of documentation in some cases). Lab samples left in the fridge, on the counter, and in the centrifuge that should have been shipped out Friday afternoon....again. Instead of venting or attacking, I simply took a pic and ... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 01:25:47 EST Twilight...for every ending there’s a new beginning. I just read what I wrote about this time last year. I’m glad 2017 has come to an end. I didn’t make much progress, well, maybe. <BR> <BR> Last January my hubby went in the hospital and was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis. Three weeks later he as in the hospital downtown having emergency surgery for a perforated colon. 2/3 of his colon was removed and he ended up with a colostomy. After 4 more hospitalizations and 3 more surgeries, he’s well, he’s had the ostomy reversed and is trying t... Fri, 5 Jan 2018 21:54:17 EST Barrier/hurdle #1--where to start There are several things I'd like to get started on, but I just don't know where to start. Nothing's urgent, but stuff that I've been wanting and needing to get done for a while. I can see how I get overwhelmed to the point of doing nothing. Declutttering, putting things away, cleaning, organizing, cleaning out the kitchen to see what I've got and don't have (freezer's full but I'm not sure what's in there). Garden to plan, reading to do, etc. <BR> <BR> Two thoughts have just come to mind. ... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 13:23:39 EST Hanging out in left field... For 2016, I'd decided to do a year of "how I see god" and had each month a different theme and would post a different picture representing the theme to Facebook. Along similar lines, for 2017, I'm thinking of the theme "tell me a story" and posting a picture at some frequency at least weekly. I'm curious what stories different people come up with based on what's in the picture. Inspiration coming from "message from the rocks" which was intermittent and out there...the past year has definit... Fri, 30 Dec 2016 23:17:35 EST Looking forward by looking back... That was the topic for the weight watchers meeting I went to tonight. I got to thinking about the progress over the past 15 months and my net loss was only 5 pounds. Not bad all things considering. I did identify a lot of barriers, triggers, challenges, etc. that have been affecting my progress. <BR> <BR> I remember a book a therapist recommended long ago -- Meditations for Women who do too much. My reply now is stop. Quit doing things you don't need to be doing. I got to the point where... Thu, 29 Dec 2016 22:36:03 EST Here we go....again The only constant is change. Switched jobs to follow my boss and ended up working 6 months of 60 hr weeks with no time to do much of anything. I lasted as long as I could and decided to try to go back to my old job--which I was gratefully able to do! The speeding boat stopped and I think the wake has finally passed. I managed to gain about 10 pounds back (stress days = pizza days). And now, again, I'm ready to get it off. <BR> <BR> I know what I need to do: <BR> <BR> --skip the sweet... Mon, 26 Dec 2016 21:45:03 EST lawns are good for exercise Spent three hours today cutting the grass at my old house. Didn't get as much done as I would've liked 'cos it was at least a foot high. My new agent has folks actually looking at it! <BR> <BR> My old Serenity Farm. My "before" pic was in the early version of the garden. I enjoyed expanding it and reaping the benefits! Strawberries, LOTs of blueberries and pecans; kale, mustard greens, sweet potatoes, tomatoes, figs, pomegranates... Then life intervened and I wasn't able to keep it up th... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 19:41:39 EST Checking in---end of week 1 Lovin' my Vitamix! I can finally have a cool treat to eat that's not loaded with sugar or artificial sweeteners!!!!!! The green juices are yummy and filling. <BR> <BR> Haven't been doing as well with exercise this week. I've been feeling a bit off. I did make it to the Y once and have been increasing my steps during the day. <BR> <BR> My mood's been a bit off as well. Probably tied to feeling a bit off. Listening to the news and the presidential candidates is definitely depressing. A... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 22:03:38 EST Checking in... I think things are finally starting to settle down a bit. I've got a good job with shorter hours and a really short commute; I also enjoy it. The chaos is dissipating, which is good. Still working on routine and meal planning--a never ending challenge for me it seems. My pedometer went through the laundry (oops)... debating between replacing it with a similar one, a fit bit, or a iwatch sport.... What I should do is just focus on getting my feet moving and not on how many steps I can get... Sat, 22 Aug 2015 22:38:56 EST H.A.L.T. I am so ready for a change! Change takes place every day, but if I want specific things in my life to change, I need to do the leg-work. The only things I have any control over are my thoughts, words, action, reactions, filters, etc. So, it's time to stop in my tracks and get my bearings...a.k.a, halt. <BR> <BR> H. Hungry. For what do I hunger? What do I crave? Besides being hungry for healthy, nutritious food (at least that's what I keep telling myself), what kind of nourishment does my s... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 15:14:04 EST Time to crawl out of the blender! Man! 2014 was one busy year!!!! Started new job with a 4 month overlap with the prior (yes, working 2 full-time jobs in two different towns 50 miles apart); got married; ping-longed back and forth between those two towns spending the night at my house or my hubby's house depending on where I was working the next day; put my house up for sale; bought a house together (town #3); and managed to put back on 18 pounds in the process. <BR> <BR> This year is starting out with a job cu... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 11:58:00 EST Blood sugar detox....hummmm Well, I'm kinda sorta doing the 10 day blood sugar detox...grains aren't all the way out the door yet. I really like the protein smoothie for breakfast--berries, seeds, avocado, lemon, nut butter, almond milk. Been doing spinach-based salads at lunch; almonds for snacks. (This evening's snack is hummus and pretzels though). A friend and I are sharing the book, so I'm trying to get the crap out of the kitchen and make a more conscious effort to eliminate sugar from my diet. I'm also pickin... Mon, 19 May 2014 18:17:52 EST And the chaos continues... I am truly amazed that I've stayed within a 5 pound range over the last few months! <BR> <BR> My schedule at work has been all over the place: days and getting to leave at a normal time, days that end up lasting 15+ hours, 12 hr night shifts. New computer system went live this past Sunday and there's been a mess of prep for it as well as being there for support this first week while the nursing staff nuts up trying to adjust to it (it was an 18 month deployment done in 5--don't ask me why... Fri, 9 May 2014 14:03:18 EST Checking in... While cleaning up the loft, I found one of my old Weight Watcher weekly journals that was actually unused! I tried to scan it, but there seems to be a disconnect somewhere. I ended up printing out a tracker I'd generated that also has a daily task list on it (including exercise, meditation and sleep) so I printed several of those out to use throughout the week. Easier to track if I can keep it with me on my clipboard. I'd initially generated it to print out and use on one page of my 2-page... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 21:44:56 EST Just checking in... This sugar addiction has to go! Two days no processed/added sugars or artificial sweeteners. It's too easy to grab candy or donuts or whatever other sweet munchies are sitting around at work…especially when I'm stressed. <BR> <BR> What used to work before… <BR> 1--food prep for the day and having healthy snacks with me ready to go for when I got the munchies <BR> 2--keeping a container of chopped veggies and a container of mixed greens in the fridge with some blackbeans or rice on hand for a... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 07:13:35 EST Stress...eating is not the answer! I stress, I eat. I really want somethng to gnaw on. I want something sweet (ice cream and chocolate have done me in this month). I've managed to avoid fast food, although I've had to make a very conscious effort a couple times. It's all emotional eating. No doubt about it. <BR> <BR> Fiscal funks. Yep, been having a lot of those lately. I've found ways I can cut back on expenses and stuff I can sell if it comes to it. I was looking forward to a good pecan crop this year, but with all the... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 20:46:17 EST Checking in... One thing I've been really noticing this past week, okay--actually paying attention to it, is the amount of chaos in my life. <BR> 1--The work schedule's erratic; the only thing consistent is the start time, everything else varies. I have been having a very hard time getting myself into any kind of routine. <BR> 2--I've got way too many irons in the fire. There just aren't enough hours in the day and I'm not very efficient with the ones that are. <BR> 3--My ability to prioritize sucks...... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 23:18:02 EST Two week check in Okay, it's been two weeks since I went back to tracking and trying to make some changes. <BR> <BR> Meat--I have cut back on my meat. I still have a lot of venison in the fridge, so I've been using it for some meals, but most of my meals are vegetarian. <BR> <BR> Sugar/artificial sweeteners -- none for two weeks! No nasty headaches either...yay!!! <BR> <BR> Sleep--for the most part, I've been getting 7-9 hours of sleep at night and except for a couple times when I 've been called in during... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 08:43:30 EST 10/25/12: still struggling I have gained 15 pounds since May 1 of this year. I started dating someone, we'd go out to eat a lot, I didn't spend much time working in the garden/yard or getting out exercising. He's in front of his computer and I'm on either my iPhone or iPad. I've neglected my garden so I've lost a lot of produce that I could have put away for the winter. It was my choice to spend time with him instead of in the garden, since he wouldn't come over to the house. <BR> <BR> It's time to make changes! <BR... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 17:59:14 EST Time flies... and when I get side-tracked I manage to accidentally delete an entire blog when I come back to it....three days later. <BR> <BR> So, let's see... <BR> <BR> I'm grateful I've been maintaining roughly the same weight since least within a 5 pound range. Amazing? Yep...considering my exercise has slacked off and I've been eating out more. I noticed it recently starting to creep a bit more up than just fluctuate, so I decided to sign up for SP's summer virtual 5K and a training pl... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 22:42:53 EST No wonder I'm tired! and a Motivational pic for April March has been a very busy month. At work, we've all been working extra to cover for one of our coworkers who was out with a fractured wrist. I've also had a LOT of work-related extra curricular activities going on and trying to get my garden expanded and planted at the same time. I checked my BP today--92/61. At least I'm not having to worry about high blood pressure. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I've been reading the book "Eat to Live" by Joel Furman. Very interesting! I'm still strugglin... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 21:41:12 EST Restless, irritable, discontent...and tired Ah yes, the foreshocks to a major graze-attack, usually involving anything sweet or which is easily eaten during one-arm curls (bowl to mouth). Yesterday I was fixated prior to leaving work on a six-pack of skinny cow ice cream sandwiches. Ate them all before I got home (a similar event had happened in July which spurred the start of the 62 day stretch with no sugar or artificial sweeteners). Today it was the birthday cake for our unit director. Oh well. Back on the wagon again. Staff meetin... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 21:37:57 EST Just a little burnout I'm tired. <BR> <BR> I have realized (duh) that my plate's too full and is also disproportionally work related. Time to fix that! I'm looking at my extra-curricular activities and giving up what I can. I'm tired of spending my days off at work (even if I am getting paid). <BR> <BR> It's been so nice out that all I want to do is get home and work in the yard/garden. The digging, mowing and tilling has been great stress therapy. I've been planning what I want to plant for months; it's time t... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 21:56:19 EST Motivational Pic for February <img src=""> <BR> <BR> They don't worry about the past or fear the future, they live in the moment. I also doubt they worry about what other "people" think of them. <BR> <BR> So, for February, to get back on track I will work toward living in the present, this moment, now. Wed, 1 Feb 2012 22:05:03 EST Open mouth, insert foot, chew vigorously... I found this photo floating around on facebook the other day: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is such a good practice for me to remember. It's so much easier to filter the thoughts before they're released than once they're out there and the damage has been done. It's when I'm being self-centered instead of other-centered that I end up putting my foot in my mouth or saying something that could cause more harm than good. I saw a Co... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 21:17:44 EST Time to regroup and other wanderings Alrighty then! <BR> <BR> Sinuses have been released from the deep more sitting 20,000 leagues beneath the sea and exploring "sea monsters." The volcanic and seismic activity in my gut has quieted down; after a good meeting with a dietician, I'm ready to rebuild. Time to restart 2012. <BR> <BR> The goals for this year are posted on my bathroom wall for me to study as I brush my teeth. The daily weight and bs chart for January are hanging by its side along with a 13.1 training p... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 22:49:16 EST New Years' Resolutions Revisited-- 2002 Just for giggles, I found my list of New Year's Resolutions from 2002-2005. How little progress I've made on one hand, and how much I've made on the other! <BR> <BR> For 2002, my goal was to: <BR> * lose 40 pounds (from a starting point of 182.5) <BR> * exercise 3x/week <BR> * establish a daily practice (spirituality), including trying to follow the 8-fold path each day <BR> * establish a food plan <BR> * reduce stress at work <BR> * clean/straighten the house <BR> * learn how to say "no" <... Thu, 29 Dec 2011 22:16:24 EST Random thoughts.... Yesterday while running errands, I felt as if my heart were steeped in compassion. I had this weird sense about me and that's the best descriptor I could come up with. I was thinking of a patient who was going in yesterday morning for bypass and valve replacement surgery; a friend who's father had fallen, broken his femur and was in the ICU--she was driving up to be with him and was going to have to deal with her rather dysfunctional family; a patient who'd been "circling the drain" so to s... Sat, 3 Dec 2011 21:36:39 EST Time for a little re-grouping I have noticed that when these funks of mine occur, the seem to be getting just a little bit longer each time. I'm not sure what's up with that; I did make an appointment with my doc to look into some of the various reasons. <BR> <BR> So, what's been getting out of hand? Sugar intake has been increasing, albeit briefly. It's interesting that one is too many and a gazillion is not enough. It takes crazy restraint to stay out of candy the past day or so. I've started back drinking sodas. ... Thu, 17 Nov 2011 23:16:20 EST Beach-fix last weekend--the pics. Tybee Island, GA <BR> <BR> Sunset: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sunrise: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> During morning walks... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http... Sat, 12 Nov 2011 22:16:35 EST Beach-fix last weekend My depression's been flaring up and I've been a bit anxious lately...nothing specific that I can pinpoint. I do feel better after getting a beach-fix! I love the ocean. What took me out to Seattle was grad school in Oceanography. I miss it; I'm contemplating a career change, even though it means another 5 years of school. I just need to be able to keep up with house payments and other bills....pondering and more pondering. Anyway, it'd been over a year since I'd been to the ocean and it fe... Fri, 11 Nov 2011 22:51:16 EST Funky Monkey My day started off feeling in a funky monkey mood, lots of anxiety for some reason. Had a good walk this morning, went up to see a favorite waterfall, now listening to the rain. I'm finally starting to calm down a bit. I'm having fits of serenity and clarity. Life is good. My monkey mind is quieting down for the day, I'm actually able to focus. My mood's lifting. One step at a time. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>252</em> <em>244</em> Tue, 18 Oct 2011 18:18:18 EST Commitment to change Still plodding along on my journey and enjoying the trip. <BR> <BR> One thing I've been thinking about the past few days is change and commitment. I've identified changes that I need to make, but am I willing to do the work? I get frustrated when I step on the scale and haven't lost anything, but do I think about the results I'm wanting to get when I skip exercise a day or two or go over my calorie goals for the day? I get frustrated feeling like I'm living paycheck to paycheck, but am I st... Sat, 15 Oct 2011 22:32:21 EST Barriers... I've noticed I have all sorts of good intentions and ideas of things to do, but for some reason, I can't turn them into actions. I know everyone encounters hurdles along the way, but I sometimes think brick walls pop up that need to be taken down brick by brick. <BR> <BR> My biggest barrier is myself. I don't feel like doing ___ right now. I'll get everything together and do that later. I'm too tired. I'm in a funk. I can't concentrate. On and on it goes. Always finding some reason to ... Wed, 12 Oct 2011 20:01:24 EST Acceptance There are two components to acceptance that I've been pondering a lot the past few days. The first comes from Alcoholics Anonymous and the second from a book on Cherokee medicine that I've started reading. Well, after reading over both of them now, they seem very similar. <BR> <BR> Until I accept I have a problem, I am living in the problem and there is no hope for a solution. Once I have accepted the problem, I have to realize that the only things I have control over are my thoughts, wor... Tue, 4 Oct 2011 22:52:36 EST Day 7: Another short one...long day of work 1 of 3. I am grateful to have work and a job I enjoy with people I enjoy to work with! <BR> <BR> Today's motivational pic and another thing to ponder: <BR> <BR> To thine own self be true! Let your true colors show. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>102</em> Wed, 28 Sep 2011 22:46:49 EST Day 6: points to ponder Just some stuff I'm pondering... <BR> -- my inner critics: what are they saying? What purpose are they serving? What's an appropriate rebuttal? <BR> -- what motivates me? What is my passion? What long term goals do I have and am I working towards them or just biding time? <BR> -- what is holding me back? <BR> <BR> It's a place to start .... <BR> Tue, 27 Sep 2011 22:38:46 EST Day 5... I so enjoy having Mondays off! (but then again, it's only after having been first call all weekend) <BR> <BR> After staying up all night, I decided after about half a cup of coffee that I'd just go back to sleep until 9 or 930. Good idea. 3 hours just doesn't cut it! 6 I can live with. <BR> <BR> Working more on fleshing out my mandala, I think I've got enough to at least get started on the two inner circles... One of my "homework" assignments was to list ways that I define me and how I d... Mon, 26 Sep 2011 21:11:32 EST Day 4... I'm a rambling wreck from Georgia Tech.... Still enjoying that GT is 4-0 and Georgia is 2-2. Honestly, I really don't give a patooty about football. I'm just grateful for having the opportunity to go to Georgia Tech and graduate from there. My adoptive dad and uncle went there and my biological dad graduated from there. It was a stepping stone to a childhood dream come true. <BR> <BR> I was talking with a good friend of mine about support systems as she's working to broaden and strength... Sun, 25 Sep 2011 23:26:51 EST 9/22/11: Day 1 Yay!!!! I made it a day without temptation from sugar and artificial sweeteners. I'm also realizing that I need to work on reducing my carb intake in general. Love me some bread! <BR> <BR> Took the latest batch of eggplant and tomatoes from the garden and made a kinda meatless lasagna...layers of baked eggplant, chopped onions, chopped eggplant, chopped bell pepper, chopped tomatoes, diced fresh basil, diced garlic, shredded "pizza cheese" and shredded parmesan cheese. I figure I'll bake ... Thu, 22 Sep 2011 22:06:04 EST Day Zero...again Okay, just because someone else says the lemon cake with raspberry in the middle is REALLY good, doesn't mean I have to try it. I don't care how much I love lemon flavored stuff. Of course, that led to the strawberry cream cheese wrapped in flour tortillas. Even though they were small, I still ate too many. And then topped it off with a diet coke. I felt like poo-poo the rest of the day! I'm still within range (except for fat), so if I eat anything tonight it'll have to be fresh veggies ... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 21:13:27 EST 9/20/11: Day 0, again Okay. No more sugar, no more sweets. I did fine for 63 days then kinda got on that slippery slope. No cravings, no problems. I let the stuff trickle back in the past couple weeks and it's got me feeling squirrelly again. I start feeling sugar lows and that's usually not good 'cos then I want to go on a feeding frenzy or just eat more than I really need to. I also seemed to do better when I was blogging on a regular basis, trying to stay accountable as well as exercising more in the morni... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 21:35:35 EST Time to regroup I've been struggling a bit as of late. I haven't been exercising regularly. A milkshake here, a soda there, burger and fries a couple times. No fast food, but still just as greasy. It could be the start of a slippery slope. Sinus infection. All likely the result of burning the candle at both ends and in the middle. Have I lost my focus? Am I just slipping back to old habits? I'm not going to reach my goal if I don't get back on track. <BR> <BR> So, for the rest of September and to get Octo... Mon, 19 Sep 2011 06:42:07 EST Experiment eating out...follow-up Well, after having gone just over 2 months without sugar and then having the yummy real strawberry milkshake on Friday, I've had a headache ever since. <BR> <BR> A short one... I'm tired. Actually got a full 11 hours in at work today. Sleepy time! <em>102</em> Mon, 12 Sep 2011 21:52:42 EST Analogies and symbolism <BR> <BR> I met up with a friend of mine for coffee this afternoon. Her therapist is having her work on her "roots" -- they use a tree analogy a lot; friends are branches that get severed, tap roots, etc. It got me thinking about what all makes us who we are (trunk), what we turn to when things get tough (support network, etc. I guess you could say roots and tap roots), and all the various components to our lives (branches). It also made me think of a circle divided up into segments arou... Sun, 11 Sep 2011 23:09:00 EST Experiment eating out. I tried an experiment tonight... Went downtown to a local burger joint (not fast food or chain). I managed to only slightly exceed my calories for the day with a cheese burger, fries, strawberry shake. I was aware of how I was feeling when I ordered, Instead of just scarfing like I usually do, I savored each bite. It tasted really good. I paid attention to how I felt afterwards as well. Tonight was a "treat"--a conscious decision. I will also be watching for any "reaction" it might trigger-... Fri, 9 Sep 2011 21:57:03 EST