CALLIKIA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=CALLIKIA CALLIKIA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Week 2 Check-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714926 Okay. so let's just start by saying tomorrow is weigh-in and I am not looking forward to it. Week 2 was certainly harder, just as anticipated! <BR> <BR> Goals for this week: <BR> <em>274</em> Drink 8 glasses of water a day. <BR> <BR> I actually don't think I was able to do this yesterday. No clue what my problem was yesterday. <BR> <BR> <em>267</em> Log all food and try to stay within calorie goals. <BR> <BR> Yea, I had 2 days of not logging. I will try to go back and recapture s... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 11:17:59 EST Week 1 Recap - Week 2 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710389 Week 1 Recap time! <BR> <BR> SP Redux SW: 435.0 (5/28/14) <BR> Goal for this week: 433.0 <BR> Actual for this Week: 430.2 <BR> Weight Lost this Week: 4.8 pounds! <BR> Total Weight lost: 4.8 pounds! <BR> <BR> Goals for this week: <BR> <em>274</em> Drink 8 glasses of water a day. <BR> <BR> Pretty sure I nailed this one. #winning <BR> <BR> <em>267</em> Log all food and try to stay within calorie goals. <BR> <BR> I did this at least 5 of the 7 days. I really started logging this week... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 09:40:26 EST Week 1 Check-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708979 So, the way I had this setup puts weigh-in on a Wednesday. I actually quite like that. There's so much pressure put on a Monday. I used to love the quote that said, "What kills a diet? Mondays." So, Wednesday it is. That means I haven't weighed in yet and don't know if any of what I'm doing is doing any good...but I'm doing it. <BR> <BR> Quote for today: <BR> “Go back?" he thought. "No good at all! Go sideways? Impossible! Go forward? Only thing to do! On we go!" So up he got, and trot... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 13:44:21 EST Week 1: Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706085 SP Redux SW: 435.0 (as of yesterday morning) <BR> Goal for this week: 433.0 <BR> Actual for this Week: --- <BR> Weight Lost this Week: -- <BR> Total Weight lost: -- <BR> <BR> Goals for this week: <BR> <em>274</em> Drink 8 glasses of water a day. <BR> <em>267</em> Log all food and try to stay within calorie goals. <BR> <em>311</em> Begin walking every day. <BR> <em>212</em> Start every morning with at least 1 positive affirmation. <BR> <em>7</em> Take starting measurements. <BR... Thu, 29 May 2014 13:39:44 EST Every Journey... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693390 ..starts with a single step, right? Mine has included several stumbles, trip ups, brusies, cuts and scrapes. Nothing is easy. I recognize that. For me, weight loss is one of the hardest things I will ever do in my life. It has consumed so much of who I am and how I feel about myself that to take for granted the path I've been on since age 5 is to deny who I truly am. <BR> <BR> Last time I thought I had it. I really did. I thought I knew what I was doing. I really thought I had a handl... Mon, 12 May 2014 12:13:21 EST March Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649837 So, I know I'm halfway through the month already, but let's pretend I had the insight and attitude to be able to start this on the first of the month, okay?! We have to start where we start, right? <BR> <BR> Two days ago I added a new fitness challenge to the fridge. (Every few weeks for the past several months, I add a fitness challenge for the family to compete in. It started as a way to keep my youngest going when wrestling was getting a bit hard, but it helps to keep all of us focused... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 10:52:58 EST Trying Times...We Keep Trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625612 Things have been difficult around here lately. I won't go into details but life has been toying with me lately. My marriage has been a little on the rocks and I've been doing my best to keep my head about me and keep moving forward. It's fine. We are working on things and have even planned a day trip together in order to reconnect and/or make some serious decisions about what we both want moving forward. That being said, eating right and exercising right now is both the most important thing... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 14:35:23 EST When It Hits the Fan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558242 Everybody talks about that turning point, right? The moment they KNEW things were going to change, they were going to make an effort. When I first started Spark I didn't have a huge "AH-HA!" moment like most people talk about. I didn't really know what to think about that, but it worked for me...until it didn't. But last night, I had a moment - less of an "AH-HA!" and more of a "OMFG! NOOOOOO!" moment and I knew I was moving toward the right headspace to get myself back in the game. Last... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 09:24:06 EST My Brain is Full http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555869 You guys know that this is a very real thing, right?! I doubt that this is my problem, but it can happen to people. Stress really can be a harmful to your health! <BR> <BR> Today is December 3rd and I still feel like I'm on day one. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went home from a slow, boring day at work (a little burned out here too) and went straight to the computer to start editing Sunday's family session. Of course, with being worn out and burned out on everything I feel like half the picture... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 10:59:29 EST THANK Goodness That's Over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555141 Things have been absolutely INSANE for me lately. You see, on top of wanting/needing to lose weight and this salary job that sometimes requires me to work over, travel, spend long nights making sure everything is in place for a client...on top of all that I went and started myself a portrait photography business. <BR> <BR> Smart, right? ;) <BR> <BR> Honestly, it's one of those steps to pursuing my dreams and not letting my weight be a reason I don't do something. But, it means I have been... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 14:35:35 EST Reasons to Start Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540047 * "Finish what you started!" <BR> <BR> * You are not a wimp...or a quitter. <BR> <BR> * Because jeans feel better when they hug you, not squeeze the every loving life out of you. <BR> <BR> * Because hitting a heavy bag is fun. <BR> <BR> * To boost your maneuverability during photo shoots and get the best shots ever. <BR> <BR> * To be known as a superhero mom again. <BR> <BR> * Because grocery stores invented Thanksgiving and Christmas to guilt you into indulging so that by New Year's Da... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 10:46:15 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539915 So, let's just pretend I wasn't here before. Let's not talk about the "f" word I'm feeling so much like and let's move on to goals and all that fancy nonsense. (The truth is, I can't afford to wait around until I have a positive attitude about this whole thing again. I have to go back to my "I don't care if you hate it, you're going to do it anyhow" mentality.) <BR> <BR> Yesterday I weighed in at work at 395. Throughout our biggest loser contest I have managed to maintain or gain every s... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 08:39:10 EST Updates...Again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495960 I haven't disappeared from the world or from my goals. I actually finished my Whole30. It was difficult, but it really taught me to value the taste of GOOD food (good tasting AND good for me). Of course around the 27th of the month I got sick and it hasn't gone away yet. Last Tuesday they were telling me it was probably Mono. It hasn't been confirmed, but I was so tired, wasn't eating, and it felt like there was a vice around my ribcage constricting my breathing. It's getting better, bu... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 13:59:54 EST Whole30 Template http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437348 Date: <BR> <BR> <em>7</em> Measurements (only to be recorded 8/1 and 9/1, unless known change on some) <BR> Weight (only to be recorded 8/1 and then 9/1): <BR> BMI (only to be recorded 8/1 and then 9/1): <BR> Body Fat % (only to be recorded 8/1 and then 9/1): <BR> Measurements (only to be recorded 8/1 and then 9/1): <BR> -- Neck <BR> -- Bust <BR> -- Waist <BR> -- Hips <BR> -- Thighs (R/L) <BR> -- Upper Arm (R/L) <BR> -- Wrist (R/L) <BR> -- Calves (R/L) <BR> -- Ankle (R/L) <BR> Shirt Size ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 12:22:33 EST Ready to Make a Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433999 Well, it would finally seem that I'm coming around, as it were. I'm sure the 405 I saw on the scale last night was a bit of motivation for me. Granted it was late and I was swollen as all get out from the stress and insanity that has been this week, but still...it means it's time for me to get moving again. Now it's all about setting up a plan I can work with and stick to and that motivates me. <BR> <BR> I have a lot of opportunities and options...and a lot of pros and cons for each thing... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 08:41:12 EST Liar, Liar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426473 As I've been working on getting through my book, I've been doing nothing in regards to eating/exercising. But at least I've done that intentionally. I've wanted to completely separate everything out. I wanted to really break myself down mentally without covering it all up with the food and exercise. <BR> <BR> Look, I'm damn good at lying to myself. I've done it for years. I did it the last time I went through this journey. What I haven't done is called myself on my BS while still telli... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 13:08:12 EST How Slow is Too Slow? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418658 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l510242764.jpg"> <BR> So I'm currently reading Food: The Good Girl's Drug <BR> <link>www.amazon.com/gp/product/0425239039<BR>/ref=oh_details_o01_s00_i00?ie=UTF8&psc=1 </link> <BR> <BR> What have I learned so far? Well, I've reinforced that I do, in fact, have an eating disorder. This darn book is written like the author knows me all too well. Of course, just as the book predicted last night, I'm waiting for the part that "heals" me so ... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 08:52:44 EST Like a Slug http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415277 Isn't it funny how one morning we wake up all ready to take over the world and the next morning it's full on zombie mode?! I honestly would have loved to have taken a sick day today as my entire body feels a bit out of sorts this morning. Between this monster headache and the back and neck pain...it's going to be a rough day. But as much as I'd love to stay home in bed and rest up, my calendar today holds 2 meetings a home assessment with my coworker. I need to be here. <BR> <BR> I've be... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 09:00:44 EST Getting Settled http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414310 So the past 6 months of my life have been absolutely INSANE...in a good way. I have a new job that I love which is rewarding and makes me feel like I'm doing important things and contributing to society and helping people who really need my help. I have 3 amazing coworkers, and an extended "team" of people that are simply a joy to work with (well, most of them *lol*) - you know when you're boss asks you in the first month to help him pull a prank on your coworkers, you're off to a good star... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 12:03:10 EST Still Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291329 ...story of my life these days. <BR> <BR> A few days on, even more off. I think I'm back up to 360 again. I'm honestly gaining weight faster than I knew was possible...and I wish I knew why because I am trying my damndest to watch what I eat as much as possible. <BR> <BR> Fact is, I'm stressed. More than usual stressed. Everything is falling on my shoulders and it all got a little too heavy for a while. Still trying to get above it, but it's been hard. <BR> <BR> Setting small goals ri... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 15:33:28 EST Give Me a Shovel and I'll Bury that Excuse... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263359 On Saturday I bit the bullet and signed up at our local gym. After weighing all the pros and cons, I decided that while there will still be several obstacles, paying for membership at the gym closest to my house is probably my best bet. I also signed up my 13-year-old sign to go with me. Now that he's about to enter 8th grade, I don't see why he can't be more active in the gym - he's been going with me off and on for years, really. He said that he really wants to work on building some mus... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 12:20:17 EST WAIT...No!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257282 I haven't done anything. <BR> I'm a big, fat liar. <BR> <BR> Seriously, none of my clothes fit anymore. <BR> <BR> I've never been one of those "I can't get motivated" people, but for some reason I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. <BR> I honestly, 100% feel trapped in this body and in my own life. <BR> I'm bitter and angry and I cry pretty much every day. <BR> <BR> What happens to the girl who gets everything she ever wanted from life? She ends of miserable because she made so many... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 09:52:28 EST Putting a Plan in Place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251382 I have decided I cannot wait until March 1st, so I'm going to start now. Well, Monday. But only because I'm going out of town this weekend and it would be beyond stupid to pile on something else with what I already have planned (and the driving...the driving is going to kill me. I used to LOVE driving...I've driven so many places in my life...but now it's just pain the whole way. I can manage with the cruise control pretty well, but it still hurts to be in that position for very long). <B... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 09:43:14 EST Ready for a Restart? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247403 My foot isn't healed. <BR> I don't think it ever will be. <BR> <BR> My weight likes to fluctuate the same 30 pounds. <BR> It's better than gaining 100. <BR> <BR> So what do I do now? <BR> <BR> Best thing I can think to do is start over. Again. <BR> <BR> I wish I could stop feeling like a failure, but it's better than giving up completely. <BR> <BR> Will be weighing in on Monday (going away this weekend). <BR> Will begin measuring everything once again. <BR> <BR> The first 2 weeks are j... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 08:08:43 EST So Here's the Thing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218422 ...I have wanted to exercise...but I'm scared. <BR> <BR> A lot has been happening in my world lately. First of all, I'm on day 22 of Whole30. Eight more days and I'm a free woman!! *lol* J/K. The discipline has been great and I'm loving whole foods a lot more. Plus, my energy and such is through the roof. Not today, though. Only working on about 5 hours a sleep today...and Mama needs more than 5 hours of sleep a night! <BR> <BR> I've been working really hard on my YT channels. I ha... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 10:37:41 EST 2 Weeks Into Whole30: Time for Exercise? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206335 I haven't been shy about the fact that I've devoted the first 1/2 of Whole30 to attempting to heal my heel (okay, my PF...same diff). After several days of lowered, but still there irritation and pain I've come to realize that it's as good as it's going to get for now without help from me. So I'm going to help it out. <BR> <BR> Step 1: Stretching <BR> The doctor (physical therapist) has assigned me 4 different things to do two to three times a day. <BR> <BR> 1) The golf ball roll. <BR> I ... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 09:26:15 EST A Re-Intro Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202129 Well, it seems lil 'ole me has been nommed as Sparkpeople's Motivator of the Day today. Uhm... *cough* ...okay. Thanks?! <BR> <BR> For those new to this page, I wanted to give you a quick run-down on why I find this completely humerous, and yet somewhat special. For the real intro on me, I'm sure most of the stuff on my main page's info box is still pretty relevant. <BR> <BR> I started Sparkpeople in April 2010 and had a fair bit of a good run there for a while. I dropped 80 pounds pret... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 12:25:15 EST A Whole30 Birthday (with Pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198435 Day 7 <BR> <BR> First of all, Day 7 was fine. I ate a bunch of leftovers (and eggs, of course, for breakfast), so there are no pictures (I don't take pictures of leftovers *lol*). I cannot tell you how worried I was about the next day and I started early on the stressing over whether or not I'd manage and how sad I thought it would be to be so restricted on that day. <BR> <BR> Day 8 - My Birthday <BR> <BR> But do you know what happened? I didn't cheat. I did get frustrated, but I did n... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 09:32:40 EST Whole30 - Days 4-6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194628 Check the vlogs: <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/user/newruvlogs </link> <BR> <BR> Day 4 wasn't too awful bad. I was hungry something awful because the lunch I thought I had in the fridge was more snack size, so Hubs and I stopped at the market on the way home where I picked up some nuts, grapes, and a pound of ground buffalo. (Was trying to get some WV-raised ground lamb but they were out. *pouts*) <BR> <BR> I made yet another soup. This one had ground beef, ground pork, roasted garlic ch... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 09:45:15 EST Day 3 of Whole30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189707 The Vlog: <BR> <link>youtu.be/dq6A55ghs6w </link> <BR> <BR> The Blog: <BR> <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/#!/2013<BR>/01/chugging-along-day-3-of-whole30.html </link> <BR> <BR> The Photo Recap: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l410424785.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The Highlights: <BR> I managed to put on makeup and do my hair...kinda. <BR> I had a lot of troubles focusing on...squirrel! <BR> I had stomach cramps all damn day. Thank goodness they're gone now! <BR> I ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 09:33:52 EST Whole30 - Interesting Start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187881 For those following my other blog, you'll get a better update there. <BR> <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com </link> <BR> <BR> And, if you want, you can subscribe to my YouTube channel and check out my vlogs that I'm doing each day of Whole30 (Day 2 is done...it's just taking forever to upload...by the time you see this it might be there as well). <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/user/newruvlogs </link> <BR> <BR> No exercise yet this year. <BR> Did get a really awesome case of food poison... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 10:14:39 EST Year in Review and 2013 Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178771 <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/ </link> <BR> <BR> Read about how I feel broken, and how I plan on fixing it there. <BR> <BR> I haven't quite figured out how I'm going to use Sparkpeople for the new year. <BR> I don't feel like I quite belong here, and yet, I know and love so many of you and crave the love and support you give me. <BR> And I miss talking to all of you. <BR> <BR> I have been hiding. From you, from me, from a site focused on losing weight when I can't even manage to w... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 12:15:52 EST You Should Read This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5159316 <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/2012/12<BR>/changes-for-fitfat-girl.html </link> <BR> <BR> I can't write it again, but I can tell you that this came from a place of (finally!) forgiveness and appreciation for myself and actual self-respect. I think I'm finally acknowledging the past seven years and giving myself the credit I deserve. And I think this was one of the biggest steps in moving on from the hate and self-loathing of the past year from the various injuries and illnesses and ... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 13:02:47 EST Update and More Before and After Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5152092 Quick update...or lack of one, actually. <BR> <BR> Yes, I am alive. <BR> My weight is holding pretty steady but I am getting more lumpy because working out has become impossible. My little foot issue turned into a huge foot issue and now I'm worried it might mean surgery. Months ago I was begging to be able to run again, but now is be happy just to walk without constant pain. I'm wearing the inserts the doc ordered for me and rehabbing as best I can with stretches every day (trying to remem... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 22:21:29 EST You Deserve At Least That Much http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5120089 Some of you have caught on that even though I've gone silent, I've been a tiny bit more talkative over at my home blog: <BR> <BR> <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com </link> <BR> <BR> That being said, thank you for the well wishes and concern from some of you. I honestly wish I had more to give you today than I do, but you at least deserve an explanation. So here's the short of it...for the long of it, head over to my blog. <BR> <BR> I didn't get the job. <BR> A guy at my work, the on... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 10:03:52 EST October 16th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094964 I cannot seem to stop falling apart each day. The stress and anxiety has become too much for me and I can't even see straight anymore. All I can seem to focus on is next Monday, so I'm not getting much else done. <BR> <BR> And I've decided that is okay. <BR> <BR> October 15th could be a huge day for me. It could mean a change to my life, or it could drop me down the hole of dispair and depression - depending on the outcome. Have I ever told you all how much I hate depending upon other p... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 08:41:12 EST Starting Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089738 Look, things need to change. And they need to change right now. Thankfully, with all the crap I've been through this year, I haven't yet managed to gain a crapton of weight. That's a plus. In fact, I weighed in this morning at 309.6...which is about what I started this year out as, so we've had a year of yo-yo, but at least I'm keeping things in check for the most part. The only thing is, I'm tired and I want to get off this ride. <BR> <BR> So I'm starting over. <BR> Back to the beginni... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 08:50:50 EST October Goals (AKA Well, That Didn't Work...) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081893 <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> Weight September 1st: 296.4 <BR> Weight October 1st: 308.0 <BR> <BR> Awesome. *sigh* FML <BR> <BR> So much for breaking a plateau. <BR> <BR> And so much for Whole30 because it friggin' fell apart on me this Friday. <BR> <BR> Look, my life is a mess right now. A full on, full out mess. Every piece is hanging on by a thread and I spend most of my time crying or wishing I could bury myself in the ground. No lie. That means this whole dieting and exercise thin... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 09:57:29 EST 10% of the Whole30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075503 You can read my more regular blogs over on my personal blog page. <BR> <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/ </link> <BR> <BR> Honestly, sometimes I have a problem being on Spark or any diet and fitness website. I just can't think about weight goals and fitness minutes right now because the thought of my failures in that department make me want to crawl in a hole and hide forever. <BR> <BR> I cannot workout right now. I'm working to get my foot fixed, but my podiatrist said I need to ta... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 09:31:40 EST All I Got http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064809 Got really nothing for you. No motivation. No push it spirit. Tired. Sick. Exhausted. Needing to heal. Wanting to take a month or two off to just rest. Wishing the PF would go away. <BR> <BR> Here you go...a picture of me now...before I get all fat again because I can't work out anymore. <BR> (I'm totally kidding. I want to take some time off NOT to gain weight, but to rest and heal while maintaining what I have currently so when I come back I don't have to go back to move forward.)... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 11:41:24 EST Seriously? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058764 My nose a few weeks ago... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l773231232.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And today... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l490660063.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is not a matter of makeup vs. no makeup. My nose is swollen and bruised and super, super sore. It's making my entire head/sinuses hurt and all I want to do is sleep and sleep and sleep some more. <BR> <BR> Seriously?! <BR> *sigh* Fri, 14 Sep 2012 09:08:37 EST My Name is Esther, and I Think I Have a Problem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056010 <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/ </link> <BR> <BR> Step one is admitting it, right?! *runs and hides* Wed, 12 Sep 2012 12:27:20 EST WHIP IT: Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055650 TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 11th <BR> <em>292</em> Eat Mostly Paleo <BR> <em>292</em> About 2,000 Calories Daily <BR> <em>292</em> 5 Servings of Freggies a Day <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Breakfast at Home, around 500 Calories <BR> <BR> 2 eggs, coffee with creamer = 250 calories <BR> (I was supposed to have sausage too, but Ethan cooked for me this AM and the sausage wasn't done by the time I had to rush out the door.) <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Healthy Lunch, around 500 Calories <BR> <BR> Plan... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 08:47:58 EST WHIP IT: Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5053989 MONDAY, SEPTEMBER 10th <BR> <em>292</em> Eat Mostly Paleo - NOT EVEN CLOSE <BR> <em>292</em> About 2,000 Calories Daily - HA! <BR> <em>292</em> 5 Servings of Freggies a Day - NOT QUITE...OR AT ALL <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Breakfast at Home, around 500 Calories <BR> <em>248</em> Healthy Lunch, around 500 Calories <BR> * 2-3 Healthy Snacks, for a total of 500 Calories <BR> * Dinner at Home, around 500 Calories <BR> <BR> <em>292</em> At least 60 Minutes Working Out Daily - TRIED.... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 08:38:26 EST WHIP IT CHALLENGE: Week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052210 "Perfect" To-Do Lists <BR> <BR> MONDAY, SEPTEMBER 10th <BR> <em>292</em> Eat Mostly Paleo <BR> <em>292</em> About 2,000 Calories Daily <BR> <em>292</em> 5 Servings of Freggies a Day <BR> <BR> * Breakfast at Home, around 500 Calories <BR> * Healthy Lunch, around 500 Calories <BR> * 2-3 Healthy Snacks, for a total of 500 Calories <BR> * Dinner at Home, around 500 Calories <BR> <BR> <em>292</em> At least 60 Minutes Working Out Daily <BR> <em>292</em> About 500 Calories Burned Per Da... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 09:32:14 EST WHIP IT CHALLENGE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052144 Crack that whip <BR> Give the past a slip <BR> ... <BR> <BR> When a problem comes along <BR> You must whip it <BR> Before the cream sets out too long <BR> You must whip it <BR> When something's goin' wrong <BR> You must whip it <BR> <BR> Now whip it <BR> Into shape <BR> Shape it up <BR> Get straight <BR> Go forward <BR> Move ahead <BR> Try to detect it <BR> It's not too late <BR> To whip it <BR> Whip it good <BR> <BR> Read more: DEVO - WHIP IT LYRICS http://www.metrolyrics.com/whip-it-lyri... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 08:52:46 EST Look...Forget I Said Anything... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5045207 I have this little Capricornian trait about me wherein I'm terrified of succeeding because life is all about the will to power through and drive forward and move ahead and do better. I get that. And I try to watch myself when I'm going to that place. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I went to that place. I literally freaked out. I mean, I'm extremely happy I get to lose my "300-Pound Woman" title. I've wanted it gone for so long! (You can read about my thoughts on this in yesterday's "Losing My Ti... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 08:59:25 EST August Recap / September Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043618 AUGUST GOALS <BR> === === === <BR> AUGUST REALITY <BR> <BR> === === === === === === <BR> <em>192</em> <BR> Weight <BR> <BR> I thought about not setting a weight goal because I don't plan on weighing in until September 1st (if I can help it), but I will say that I'd like to lose another 5-6 pounds like this month. That'd make me feel great and would set me up to be DONE with this plateau and under the 300 mark. Still, I'm not weighing in so I won't be able to stress over the num... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 08:56:56 EST Well That Explains a Lot, Actually http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038461 I have been in bed or on the couch for two full days. I honestly didn't quite know what was up with me Monday but my swim workout tanked majorly. I couldn't breathe, which began to cause one of those special oxygen-deprived headaches. I knew I was feeling a little sniffly but I had no clue I would wake up the next morning and fall flat on my arse in terms of energy and everything else. I was sick. Plain and simple. Still am, actually. <BR> <BR> This cold or whatever it is caused my ene... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 08:25:05 EST I Keep Hoping It Will Get Easier http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5034306 ...but it never does. <BR> <BR> Serious rant incoming: <BR> (Go here...this one is probably shorter and deals with the same thing: <link>fitfatgirlblogs.blogspot.com/ </link> ) <BR> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I overslept. Slept a full 9 hours and woke up still tired - and late. Had to drive Logan to school and then rushed to work. Thankfully, no football practice last night meant I could make up my swim after work. I went into the gym thinking I'd do a 10 x 10 - 10 rounds of 10 laps in the... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 08:41:35 EST