CALLIKIA's SparkPeople Blog CALLIKIA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ch-Ch-Changes - 57 Weeks Post-VSG Ooooh, girl! (or boy!) My life has been CRAZY lately. *sigh* Some good, some bad. All of it, I do believe, for the better. If I can just keep my head above water, that is... <BR> <BR> First, and most importantly, the stats: <BR> <BR> Highest Weight: 466.6 <BR> Weight Pre-Pre-Surgery Diet: 437.8 <BR> Weight Day of Surgery: 419.8 <BR> Current Weight: 273.0 <BR> Weight Lost Since Surgery: 146.8 <BR> Weight Lost Since Pre-Pre-Surgery Diet: 164.8 <BR> Total Weight Lost: 193.6 <BR> <BR> ON... Tue, 6 Dec 2016 10:53:00 EST One Year Post-VSG Update! Here it is! The big one! The one year post-VSG blog that I've been looking forward to writing and, yet, haven't prepared any notes for... *lol* I'm a "fly by the seat of my pants" kind of blogger. So, my goal is to give you the stats and then tell you ten things...I'm not sure if that's ten things I've learned, ten things that have changed, ten things I miss,.... let's see what happens, shall we? <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 2 Nov 2016 09:15:45 EST Year Two Goals Tomorrow is One Year. <BR> One Year Post-VSG. <BR> One Year of Life Changing. <BR> One Year of ups and downs and climbs and pitfalls. <BR> Tomorrow I will reflect, but today I am looking forward....because I'm not done yet! <BR> <BR> Here's the Me today... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>192</em> <BR> So right now my goal is to lose another 80 pounds. I need to lose about 8-10 pounds a month to keep up the p... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 09:16:17 EST I DID IT!! - How I Reached My Biggest Goal Yet! <img src=""> <BR> What is that? That's the face of a girl who reached the goal that's been haunting her all of her adult life. <BR> <BR> I still remember the day I first saw 300 on a scale. I was finishing out my senior year of high school and in my second trimester with my first son. I went in for a regular check-up with my OBGYN and all I could think when I saw that big fat 3 was, "Well, here we are..." I ha... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 15:53:05 EST 8 Months Post-VSG: Next Steps <img src=""> <BR> Oh, what a summer it has been! Ups and downs but mostly smiles and sunshine...but then some rain and floods... This has been a difficult month...and a glorious one... <BR> <BR> Stats first. <BR> <BR> HW: 466.6 <BR> Weight Pre-Op: 437.8 (start of pre-op diet) <BR> Last Month: 317.2 <BR> This Week: 312 <BR> <BR> Weight Lost This Month: -5.2 pounds :/ <BR> Weight Lost Since Pre-Op: -125.8 <BR> To... Mon, 4 Jul 2016 23:04:12 EST 7 Months Post-VSG <img src=""> <BR> Hey everyone! That's right - seven months in! Still seeing progress! Happier than ever! (And if you haven't tried Snapchat should! They are amazing! Add me @ehphotog) <BR> <BR> Okay, stats first! <BR> <BR> HW: 466.6 <BR> Weight Pre-Op: 437.8 (start of pre-op diet) <BR> Last Month: 330.2 <BR> This Week: 317.2 <BR> <BR> Weight Lost This Month: -13 pounds! <BR> Weight Lost Since ... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 12:49:04 EST I Wish I Had Time I hear that saying all the time. I heard it just today at lunch. Gee, I wish I had time... <BR> <BR> workout. <BR> eat right. <BR> take care of myself. <BR> <BR> I have something to tell you from all of us making time - SHUT IT. <BR> <BR> Seriously, STOP saying "I just wish I had time..." and using that as an excuse to not do what you want to do in life. First of all, it's an insult to each and every one of us that make time to do those things. When you look at me and... Thu, 12 May 2016 15:58:08 EST Week 25 Post VSG Update Howdy! I know it's been a little while. Please forgive me - life has been active and busy and crazy! They've got me traveling all over the state this month and I haven't had much time to do much of anything...but I'm still on track and doing well with my health and fitness, so that's good! In fact, I'm getting better every day and finally feel like I'm back in control of my life! <BR> <BR> Now, for the stats... <BR> <BR> HW: 466.6 <BR> Starting Weight: 460.6 (1/26/15) <BR> Weight Pr... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 13:29:20 EST Week 20 Post-VSG <img src=""> <BR> Good morning, ladies and gents! It's week 20 post-op from my vertical sleeve gastrectomy and there have been a ton of changes happening around here! <BR> <BR> First, let's get to the stats (which is why most people read these anyhow)! <BR> <BR> HW: 466.6 <BR> Starting Weight: 460.6 (1/26/15) <BR> Weight Pre-Op: 437.8 (start of pre-op diet) <BR> Last Week: 349.6 <BR> This Week: 345.2 <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 23 Mar 2016 10:55:40 EST Week 10 Post-Op VSG <img src=""> Happy Birthday to me! Honestly, 35 was a BIG one for me. Feels a little weird. I'll get over it, I guess. <BR> <BR> So, here's the rundown of last week's madness: <BR> <BR> For my birthday, we went out for Mexican. This was my meal once I was basically done. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My Mom gave me $ for makeup, as ... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 09:33:27 EST Week 9 Post-Op VSG <img src=""> <BR> Today I created a vision board. Something I've been meaning to do. Something that helped me more than you can imagine the last time I was in this place. Except...I've never been in this place before. Before I get to the inside goopy stuff I'm dealing with, here's your stat update. <BR> <BR> HW: 466.6 <BR> Starting Weight: 460.6 (1/26/15) <BR> Weight Pre-Op: 437.8 (start of pre-op diet) <BR... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 13:53:53 EST Week 8 - Nearly 2 Months Post-Op Update <img src=""> Okay, who survived the holidays? That's right...THIS GIRL! <BR> <BR> Phew! That was rough! (Not really...) To be completely honest, Christmas was SO much easier than Thanksgiving. I'm a bit further out from surgery and able to eat a little more. I can have a bite of this or that and be satisfied. Did I make some not so great decisions? Sure...but, again, within limits. <BR> <BR> So in the past... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 09:40:55 EST Week 5 Okay, so at official weigh-in day on Monday, my weight had gone back down to what it was the week before. So, the week before last was a gain, but this week was a wash. No gain. No loss. <BR> <BR> Did I call my doctor? Nope. My doctor would tell me to stop worrying so much and just do what was right. I was also afraid, like every other doctor on the planet, he wouldn’t believe that I was sticking to his plan and still gaining weight. It’s stupid, but 30+ years of training… medical pro... Fri, 11 Dec 2015 09:27:39 EST Stalls and Gains Up about another pound. Hating myself. I have no words. Thu, 3 Dec 2015 10:53:36 EST Week Four Post-Op So, Mondays are my weigh-in days. Today marks officially 4 weeks post-op for me. It's been a rough 4 weeks, I can tell you that. <BR> <BR> Here are the stats: <BR> HW: 466.6 <BR> Weight Jan 2015: 460.6 <BR> Weight for Pre-Op Diet: 437.8 <BR> Weight on day of Surgery: 419.8 <BR> Weight Last Week: 391.8 <BR> Weight This Week: 393.2 <BR> <BR> Yeah. That sucks. That's a gain of 1.4 pounds for the week. And I haven't gotten off plan, so I can't tell you why that happened other than my body ... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 10:26:38 EST Three Weeks with Mixed Feelings I am trying so very hard to be positive here. Let's get to the good part and then we'll go from there. <BR> <BR> Highest Weight: 466.6 <BR> Starting Weight: 460.6 <BR> Weight at Pre-Op Diet: 437.8 <BR> Surgery Day Weight: 419.8 <BR> Current Weight (Sunday's Weigh In): 391.8 <BR> <BR> So, how do I do my stats? What numbers do I count? This is how I've been handling it. <BR> <BR> Weight lost since pre-op diet: 46 pounds <BR> Weight lost in 2015: 68.8 pounds <BR> Total weight lost: 74.8 po... Tue, 24 Nov 2015 12:55:00 EST Well, That Didn't Work! So, Monday I thought I was doing well. I toughed it out at work. Fell asleep at my desk a time or two, but woke my butt up and tried to occupy myself with things. It didn't help that I started off the day with bad news that money I've been trying to get for 2 years just ran out for this fiscal year. No word yet on when the next fiscal year begins but we're all afraid it's July 1. It's bad news for at least 3 clients that were counting on this help and the end to countless hours of work I... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 09:18:00 EST On the Other Side So, I know I've been gone for a while. No worries! Not dead yet! (...think I'll go for a walk <em>20</em> ) <BR> <BR> Things have been moving a little fast and furious, so let me see if I can give you all the rundown. <BR> <BR> January 26, 2015 - Weighed in at the doctor's at 460.6. Only 6 pounds off my heighest ever recorded weight - which was recorded back in 2004 when I was on my way to try to get gastric bypass surgery. This doctor's check-in was to start a insurance required pr... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 09:32:18 EST Finally! Made it through this weekend! UGH! <BR> <BR> So, one thing my kids and husband will tell you is that I don't like to sit still. That's why I have a full-time job PLUS operate my own business. Half the time I feel like I'm just running in circles and not getting anything done. Even more frustrating when I'm battling these pains from my broken body. <BR> <BR> I had a full week of work last week. I have a booked week this week (except Friday). And this weekend...I had photography assignm... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 09:31:32 EST Another Week Gone I swear time is moving so slowly right now as I await some word from the surgeon's office...and I haven't even had my consultation yet! <BR> <BR> So, yes, we switched insurance carriers to hopefully speed things up. If I've done my homework right (pretty sure I have), I should be pushed on through with Aetna. I have a couple final little things to clean up to get my insurance dropped (had to have proof from Aetna that we had coverage before my work will drop mine - I got cards yesterday!)... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 14:02:22 EST Or...Not. *sigh* Guys. I don't know how much more I can take. I'm being 100% honest here. I am not trying to overreact, but the level of my frustration can no longer be measured. <BR> <BR> My husband called the insurance company Monday to get our group and member ID number so I could give it to my chiropractor for insurance processing, only to be told that his request for coverage hadn't been "inputted" yet. His work has it on file. Coverage was backdated to 7/16/15, but someone in their office ... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 08:55:02 EST Anxiously Awaiting Thursday. <BR> <BR> Thursday is a day that could alter everything. <BR> <BR> And I'm freaking the heck out over it! <BR> <BR> Once we switched our insurance, I called up the surgeon's office and asked if I could go ahead and get my consultation with the surgeon. That consultation is scheduled for 8am this Thursday. <BR> <BR> I have to say that I'm nervous. Not about the surgery, really. But a bunch of other things. <BR> <BR> * I'm nervous it won't work out again. What if I got all my... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 11:31:17 EST Hows About an Update? Hey, everyone! *waves* <BR> <BR> Okay, so I've been a BAD girl and I haven't been logging into Spark and logging my calories here and blogging and all that. On the upside? I've been logging everything at My Fitness Pal and logging it all in my EC Life Planner. <BR> <BR> So, how are things going? Well, I hate to jinx it and say well, but...Well, actually. Here are the updates: <BR> <BR> Diet - Okay, so at my last monthly weigh in with my doctor my weight hadn't budged. What she didn't... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 09:28:47 EST NSV - Gym When You Don't Want To! Yesterday was one of those overly tired sore days. One of those days when you think, "Why am I awake?" <BR> <BR> My plan and my planner said I was supposed to go to the gym and I told myself about 12 times, "I REALLY don't want to." I was hurting and sore and my body was telling me to rest. <BR> <BR> I didn't listen. <BR> <BR> I went to the gym. Thanks to Shane for pushing me to do that. (He just sent me a message halfway through the day saying, "I'm excited about the gym later!" so ... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 09:10:02 EST Gym - CHECK! Hello lovelies! I know it's been a little while. I've been doing my best, working hard, and reevaluating every bit of my life in the past few months. It's exhausting! <BR> <BR> <em>216</em> <BR> I joined a gym! Shane and I went out to look at a few places in the city here where we work and see if there was anything we liked. Because he is starting a new job soon and his vow to work out with me will be impossible to fulfill most days, we settled on Planet Fitness. It's $20 a month f... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 10:54:35 EST Under the Weather Ugh! So sick of being sick! I've had the same sinus infection for 2 weeks now and I'm SO over it! The first week it made me lose 8 pounds, the second week I gained back 7 of those. *sigh* #annoyed <BR> <BR> Official weigh-in is next Monday and I'd like to lose 3 pounds by then, but with being sick and the stress, I may not make it. Still, I'm going to give myself the best chance I have. <BR> <BR> I've planned out most of my meals between now and Saturday. Still stuck on Saturday lunc... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 09:59:49 EST Ready for the Gym? This weekend was a crazy mess. One more week and then things should calm down just a bit. Actually...a LOT. I'm looking forward to it and to getting super serious about my weight loss and my own journey of self-discovery. <BR> <BR> Update from last post. I did tell the ex that I would not file for divorce yet. I told him I am also not getting back together with him right now. I did tell him that I would try to spend some time with him now and again and give him the opportunity to liste... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 11:43:56 EST It's All a Hot Mess As my kids tell me...if you're going to be a least you're hot! *lol* <BR> <BR> All weekend I had a sore throat. I pushed through it and accomplished a LOT. Had a good walk into work on Monday. Noticed my legs are carrying me better again. Was feeling good. <BR> <BR> Slept pretty much ALL of Tuesday and Thursday thanks to a brilliantly timed sinus infection. *sigh* <BR> <BR> Tuesday I get some annoying texts from the ex...which I ignored and promptly fell back asleep...and t... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 09:29:11 EST A Good Weekend My legs and abs are sore...that's always a good thing after a productive weekend. <BR> <BR> This was the first weekend I've had off from my photography business in a long time. (And I have graduation and a family shoot this weekend so...) I decided to go ahead and do what I needed to do to get my bedroom in order. I have been wanting to paint and redecorate the room so that I have my own private little sanctuary that doesn't remind me of the ex and gives me a little bit of peace. I als... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 09:27:24 EST One Good Day Deserves Another Yesterday was alright. I did alright. I forced myself through. I'm getting better. <BR> <BR> I sat down and wrote out plans. Money is going to be even tighter this week and next, but I'm honestly trying to just give myself permission and forgiveness for not being able to do everything all at once. Going down to one income. Taking on most of the bills. And then most of my bills went up this month for some strange reason. $10-20 is not that much, but when it happens the same month on li... Fri, 29 May 2015 09:31:58 EST Time to Get Serious Yesterday was my very first counseling session I can remember since the split where I didn't bawl my eyes out. I nearly teared up twice, but not a single tear fell. I went in thinking I needed help in trying to figure out how to move on, but in talking it out with my therapist I realized I'm already doing that...and I'm pretty good at it. I recongize that I'm a resilient person. I've always had to be. My childhood was nothing I would wish on anyone and my entire life has been a series of... Thu, 28 May 2015 09:16:12 EST Month 5 Goals Okay, so crazy things are still happening. I told my son the other day that if it weren't for my bad luck, I don't think I'd have any luck at all. He said, "Well, then wouldn't it be better to have no luck?!" *lol* <BR> <BR> Thursday was weigh in. I did not lose that extra 2 pounds, but I did keep off the 6 I had lost that month. Doctor was pleased. She did adjust some of my medications after I had a pretty serious breakdown last week. I'm still struggling. A lot. I don't know that ... Wed, 27 May 2015 09:19:00 EST Today... ...I have decided to do what's best for me. <BR> ...I will let go of the things that have been holding me back. <BR> ...I will forgive myself. <BR> ...I will allow myself to be perfectly imperfect. <BR> ...I will recognize the things about myself that are amazing. <BR> ...I will understand that my flaws do not define me. <BR> ...I will step forward, courageously, as a strong, independent, single woman. <BR> ...I will make the healthiest choices I can. <BR> ...I will make note of the things I ... Fri, 22 May 2015 10:35:31 EST Work-Work-Work Lots of working going on right now in my life. I finished up my last Senior Session, but I have a family session and a senior mini coming up this weekend, plus my gallery viewing and sales session. I really hope they buy some products! Mostly because I want to see these pictures printed because I'm so proud of them...but also because we need the money right now. I need to get some advertising out there so that people know about my services and I can't do that if I don't have money to adve... Tue, 19 May 2015 10:17:50 EST A Difficult Weekend Well, at least I learned one lesson this week - I am not ready to come off my meds yet. I forgot to take my medicine on Saturday and by Sunday my body was threatening one of the worse panic attacks on record. Too much anxiety and stress right now. Still barely holding it together. I once heard that it takes half the life of the relationship to get over the relationship...if that's true I can just kiss my life goodbye! 10 years of this crap?! I don't think I can manage that. <BR> <BR> Y... Mon, 18 May 2015 11:47:03 EST Goals and Rewards Okay, I'm using this crazy momentum I have right now to set up some goals and rewards for myself. I vow to not count my blessings only as numbers on a scale. I vow to celebrate non-scale victories just as much or more than those I see at the doctor's office each month. I vow to live for myself and do things that better myself - and to give up things that aren't working just because someone I once knew thought they knew what was best for me. No one knows me better than myself. It's time I... Fri, 15 May 2015 14:31:14 EST Hurting Yesterday was hell. Plain and simple. Big fight with the ex. He has since informed me that he is basically over me and that no one will ever love me. (He's a real gem, isn't he ladies?!) <BR> <BR> Thank goodness I had a counseling session and talk with my Mom to talk me out of believing him. Because, honestly, even if I am all alone for the rest of my life, that would be so much better than the torture of being with someone AGAIN who is incapable of loving me in the way I deserve. <BR> ... Fri, 15 May 2015 09:31:35 EST Another Off Day I will really be happy when I have less of these. I do notice they directly relate to interactions with the ex, so...I'm doing my best to limit those interactions right now. He's not making it easy. <BR> <BR> Tonight is my night without the kids...which sucks. Thankfully I have a lot of editing photos to finish up, so hopefully I'll finish the night with a super healthy dinner and lots of editing to finish up that work before my Senior Viewing Session on Saturday. <BR> <BR> ...and he jus... Wed, 13 May 2015 14:31:59 EST Progress. Finally! I did make it a point to leave early today so I could stop by my doctor's office and weigh in. It's been a couple weeks since I've checked in. My last doctor's appointment was actually April 22nd. At that appointment I was back up to 458.2 and trying to move on. I set a goal to be back down 8 pounds by my next weigh in on the 21st of this month. Another week and a couple days away. I have struggled a lot since then, but I've been making as many slow, deliberate steps as I possibly can a... Tue, 12 May 2015 09:26:54 EST Mother's Day Weekend Well, it went better than I expected. Did I eat some not great things? Sure. Did I overindulge? Maybe a little. But did I make some smart decisions as well? Yep. <BR> <BR> The truth is, I was really nervous about telling my mother what was happening in my life. She was more supportive than I thought she would be, but there's always a fear that it won't be the case. <BR> <BR> So, I did have some down moments. But I had some highs too. <BR> <BR> I didn't order a donut with the kids w... Mon, 11 May 2015 12:56:24 EST Failing... Gah! I'm so SICK of falling apart at night! <BR> <BR> It started yesterday at lunch. Lovely coworker thought it was nice to bring us some Wendy's Frosty treats. SUPER nice! Super not what I needed. Not to mention, it was a large, and though I tried to stop halfway, I ended up sitting there and chatting and finishing the thing. *facepalm* So I basically ruined any chance at a normal dinner. As much as I wanted to go straight home and go to sleep and hit my calorie goals and be fine...... Thu, 7 May 2015 09:30:51 EST M4:W2:D4 - Ready to Plan Three days in a row of blogging and logging my food! NSV FTW! <BR> <BR> So the past two days have been crap as far as calories are concerned. Spark puts my calorie goals at 2130-2480. My doctor put my calorie goals at 1800. I've been above both. I do fine during the day, but the evenings kill me. Monday it was my coworkers wanting to go out - which meant fried food and alcohol. (No, I don't have the power to resist right now.) Yesterday was a genuine "I hate my life right now" binge. ... Wed, 6 May 2015 09:03:12 EST M4:W2:D3 So, day 2 of blogging! It's a start, right? <BR> <BR> Yesterday was rough. I had one of my "hungry" days and fought really hard to fight against it. And then my coworkers invited me out to dinner and it all went to hell. Two ciders and 4 chicken fingers later (and some fries). *sigh* It could have been worse, I guess. What I didn't do is go home and snack some more. I thought about it, but I didn't. I went up to my room and chilled out on the bed away from the kitchen. I also walke... Tue, 5 May 2015 11:16:31 EST Life Changes Ugh. So, I'm going to warn you that you won't find warm fuzzies here. In fact, I'm writing this blog more for me than anything else. I'm not going into a ton of detail (or I might), but I need to keep track of the journey in organize my head. The best way for me to organize myself? Writing it out. <BR> <BR> So, as you'll notice, April I was blatently absent. I honestly was absent from life much of the time. I was in the "just barely getting by" stage and struggling a lot. Shane moved... Mon, 4 May 2015 11:49:37 EST M2:W2 Update Well, here we are. One week done with month two. Just two more weeks until weigh-in. Thankfully, I've talked my doctor into letting me weigh in weekly by myself at the office so I can keep track of how I'm doing. Today was weigh-in day. <BR> <BR> As a refresher -- <BR> <BR> Feb-Mar 2015 Goals <BR> Current Weight: 458.0 <BR> Goal Weight: 450.0 <BR> Weight Loss Goal: -8 pounds <BR> <BR> Today's Weigh-In: 453.6 <BR> Loss Thus Far: 4.4 pounds! <BR> <BR> More than halfway there! <BR> <... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 10:45:11 EST On to Month Two Jan-Feb 2015 Goals <BR> Current Weight: 460.6 <BR> Goal Weight: 450.6 <BR> Weight Loss Goal: -10 pounds <BR> <BR> Actual Weight: 458.0 <BR> Weight Lost: 2.6 pounds <BR> <BR> Yeah, this wasn't all I was hoping for and I know a lot of it was caused by a mindset that just isn't quite there yet. I'm still in fake it til you make it mode, so it's hard to say no to things like I used to. That being said, a loss is a loss. I will do better next month. <BR> <BR> Food Goals: <BR> - Make goo... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 10:22:17 EST My Stressed Out Crazy Life Let's just say I have no idea what's going on with me weight wise. My scale right now won't currently weigh me (damn weight limits!). That means I have to go blindly and hope I'm doing the right thing. What's more...I spent most of the first week of this month out of my element...but I THINK I did alright. <BR> <BR> Many of you probably don't know this, but I run a photography business part-time. It's a new venture for me and my lack of clients the past year I've been in business has bee... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 14:44:30 EST Fail to Plan - Plan to Fail And here we are at Day 2...again. <BR> <BR> Life is honestly full of disappointments. One of my oldest and best Sparkfriends yesterday reminded me to keep my eyes open. As she said, I shouldn't set myself up to fail. She's right, of course. All of the pitfalls must be avoided wherever possible. The only problem can't plan for an accident. <BR> <BR> If any person who was ever in a car accident could have had the option to prevent that option with the prior knowledge that it wou... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 11:39:44 EST Forward Progress First things first, I did finally get a call from the Weight Loss Center. NOTE: The nurse I was waiting on works for the OTHER doctor in the practice, so at least there's that... <BR> <BR> I finally had my first appointment yesterday with my new PCP. Must say that I am extremely pleased. I was beyond nervous for this appointment. I have fretted for two months now over it, and then nearly cancelled twice just out of the stress. My husband finally said he would join me because he could e... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 14:17:23 EST Scared Okay, so since my husband doesn't understand, I needed somewhere to put this. I'm scared. Terrified, actually. I've taken the steps required of me to start the process for surgery. I even talked one-on-one with what seemed like the nicest secretary of one of the doctors and she offered to help me try to fast-track everything. I got back with her the information she requested....I had to leave it all via message because she NEVER answers the phone at work. And she left me a message askin... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 12:04:13 EST