CALENSARIEL's SparkPeople Blog CALENSARIEL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Pennies from Heaven (Of course you DO realize that posting this kind of stuff on here is my way to ignore my food issues?) <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> The last assignment for the Blogging 101 class was to create a new posting feature for our blogs. So this is my shot at it. We’ll see if I can stay committed. <BR> <BR> I’m calling it Faithful Fridays, a bit of a play on words. Faithful because it’s a blogging habit I want to get into (and it won’t always be about spiritual things), but also because, despite the faith... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 18:39:31 EST A Certain Small Miracle <img src=""> <BR> (Not the real Paul but looks a lot like him.) <BR> <BR> <BR> The first time anyone noticed him was four years ago at the annual Thanksgiving dinner at church the Saturday before Thanksgiving. “Come and join us for Thanksgiving dinner.” That’s what the sign out front had said all week. And there he was. Lean and lanky wearing shorts, tennis shoes, and a light-weight windbreaker. Surprising since it was raining and cold... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 00:52:20 EST A very belated Christmas letter... I've been taking a blogging class over on and am just now getting our Christmas letter send out. If you usually get one from in the mail, you probably won't. I'm trying to go paperless this year. It's been a real "bear" to get this done! Grin Hope it's not too small to read. Hm... You have a magnifying glass? Oh well, I tried. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 24 Jan 2015 22:35:35 EST Leavings <img src=""> <BR> Goodbyes are always hardest… <BR> <BR> <BR> Response to The Daily Prompt <BR> <BR> A Moment in Time: What was the last picture you took? Tell us the story behind it. (No story behind the photo? Make one up, or choose the last picture you took that had one.) <BR> <BR> ***** <BR> <BR> The job of raising a family is FULL of contradictions. I’ve always heard it said the two most important things we can give our kids are... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 13:50:41 EST One Million Lovely Letters I've pasted this all over because I so believe in what this gal is doing. Please do listen. We've all been where she's been. It really touched me. <BR> <BR> Here's the link to her blog One Million Lovely Letters: <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> <link>Stepping Back from the Kerb Jodi Ann Bickley </link> Tue, 13 Jan 2015 11:58:14 EST Earworms This is NOT what I intended to blog about when I got on the laptop this afternoon. It was going to be “Mirrors! Why did it have to be mirrors?” But then an hour of unscheduled time magically appeared in my morning after visiting a friend at the hospital while his lordship went to Sunday School. I ended up plopping my fanny down at the local Starbucks with my journal (yes, I do carry a notebook in my purse) and my favorite raspberry mocha frappucino — low fat, no whip. It was delicious. The ho... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 20:02:47 EST Just plain tired tonight... BUT! I had a good day. I was under on calories and carbs for breakfast and lunch again, but likely a bit over at supper since we had BREAKFAST, including potatoes and pancakes. Nothing too bad, however. <BR> <BR> I’m dragging arse something awful tonight. I ran out of vitamin D about six weeks ago and kept forgetting to buy more. Feeling pretty run down and depleted. Finally got some today, but am pretty sure that come my next doc’s appointment in February when she checks it, I’ll have to do... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 01:24:28 EST Spelunking for the Music of My Life <img src=""> <BR> <BR> “The great wisdom for writers, perhaps for everybody, is to come to understand to be at one with their own tempo.” -Alan Hollinghurst <BR> <BR> This quote from Ryan Lanz’s Ten Quote Tuesday on resonates for me at such a deep level. For years now I’ve been asking myself who I was before the world told me who I ought to be. I’ve been searching frantically for that spontaneous child inside who doesn’t ... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 14:49:41 EST So this must have been my real START day… It actually went very well. Breakfast and lunch were spot on. Still a little under on the carbs and calories, but my sugar was in the right range. That felt good. Was trying to decide what to make for dinner when Bran called from work with a “clothes” emergency. He busted the butt out of his britches! So off we went to buy him a new pair of pants, then we stopped for Chinese. And I must brag a bit. I was very, very good. I told them to hold the rice, did NOT get deep fried anything (had Beef ... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 01:15:52 EST The Problem of Eating Everything in Sight... <img src=""> <BR> ‘Nuf said? <BR> <BR> Well that couldn’t have gone any worse if I’d done it intentionally! Fellowship hall: 3 pumpkin chocolate chip cookies. Sunday School: 2 chocolate mint cookies. Brunch out: including a scone that was the size of my plate. Dinner: 4 chicken fingers and a dish of coleslaw at Xaxby’s. Totally freaked up day. I didn’t MEAN to eat those cookies in Fellowship hall. Didn’t MEAN to eat the ones in Sunday S... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 01:13:32 EST The Problem of Not Eating Enough... So today actually went pretty well. Wasn't filling up on junk food (which, of course, is now all gone) and I felt far more energetic. Have done five loads of laundry. Been up and down those stairs 15 times today at least. So I got some exercise in. <BR> <BR> We also opted out of the bacon and eggs breakfast I usually make on Saturday and had oatmeal. And guess what! His lordship fixed breakfast! I put cranberries in mine. The thing it made me realize is that I'm not eating enough for breakfa... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 21:00:21 EST Well, the zone wasn’t QUITE as sucky today… I managed to get through all day with only one snack (tangerine) until we sat down to watch TV after supper. I should have known I couldn’t have sweets in the house while riding the couch in front of the TV. I gave some things away today, but there was still bits of candy we got in a gift set and some ice cream left over from the holidays. I chose to eat some of the ice cream. I did it deliberately. I WAS hungry. But then I was focused on the other goodies. So I did the best thing I could thi... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 01:55:58 EST Starting the New Year in the suck zone! The last six weeks have been soul-draining for me. Suffice it to say I could have missed Thanksgiving through New Year’s Day and been WAY better off. Now here I am at January 2nd and I KNOW I can’t keep to this path I’m on. So many things in my life (our life) need to change if we are going to have a snowball’s chance in hell of surviving the next two years until HL retires and then retirement itself. I get exhausted just thinking about it. <BR> <BR> We made some good progress this year. We ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 22:34:39 EST What an uneventful year! I'm scrambling to come up with something to even put in our Christmas Chronicle this year. I've waited to do it because Stef and the baby were coming for Christmas. It was a difficult visit. But at least we got to know Caleb better. He turned one in November. We missed Ethan and Liam, though. That made us sad. Kind of set the tone for the whole Christmas season. <BR> <BR> She let us know on Thanksgiving she was coming, and I went into full meltdown mode. I've gained 20 lbs. in two months! M... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 12:55:19 EST Stuck! Haven't posted anything for awhile, so decided to post a little writing prompt I've been working on the last hour. <BR> ___________________ <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Writing prompt from A Writer’s Path, Include all of these elements in one scene: elevator, fear, umbrella, surprise, animal, and companionship. <BR> <BR> *** <BR> <BR> “Ugh!” I shouted loudly enough for the neighbors across the hall to hear. If I had to stay shut up in this bloody apartment for another day I ... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 20:41:15 EST Stop Hunger Now! This is our adult mission week at our church. There are so many opportunities for people to get involved in the community. Some of the things were: <BR> <BR> --Working with Habitat for Humanity <BR> --Helping at elementary schools in the neighborhood <BR> --Volunteering at the local food bank (which we do year round) <BR> --Neighborhood projects (we took flyers around to the neighbors asking if there were any maintenance type jobs we could do for them) <BR> --We collected gently used office ... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 17:11:23 EST I LOVE flashmobs! If everyone would just all get together and do this what an amazing world it would be! This one is SO MUCH FUN! It's HISTORIC FLASHMOB IN ANTWERP TRAIN STATION - DO RE MI if the link doesn't work. Watch it. It will make you smile! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ZOG202k </link> <BR> <BR> I wonder how many calories they burned doing this! LOL Ya'll wanna get together and have a Sparkmob? Sat, 23 Aug 2014 17:56:46 EST Woo hoo! So! Have had some peculiar little things going on - UTI, lots of pvc's, gums sore... (You get the picture.) Went to the dentist yesterday to see what was up with that. He thinks the UTI was the culprit, and once I finished off the antibiotic the inflammation just sort of went away. <BR> <BR> Then today I finally got to see the new diabetes specialist that took our Joanie's place. LOVED her! She had me come in Tuesday -- pre-appointment -- for blood work so she'd know what was what. I can te... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 16:56:31 EST Robin's voice... This is the gentleman who continued to do Robin Williams' Genie voice in Disney cartoons. It's a poem he wrote in tribute to Williams. People have been asking him if he would still continue to do Robin's voice as part of his repertoire. I loved the poem, even if it wasn't done in Robin's voice. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>actor-performs-tribute-to-robin-willia<BR>ms-in-late-actors-voice-video/ </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> If that link won't work you can probably f... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 17:24:54 EST Feeling blah today... Another one of those mornings when the Mac truck went through here and ran over me. So it was back to bed. I think my body may be having trouble fighting this stupid UTI. Even my gums are sore. Don't know if it has anything to do with that, but I have an appointment with the dentist next Wednesday to have him take a look. <BR> <BR> I need to get a package in the mail that's supposed to be there Monday. How do I rouse myself to do that when I'm feeling so flattened... <BR> <BR> Got a card i... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 14:35:22 EST Third day, no water -- well sort of... Our lovely city has e-coli in the drinking water because some jack*ss whose water got shut off, hooked into secondary water to run it into his house... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> So for the third day I am boiling water to do dishes and using bottled water for drinking, cooking, brushing teeth, etc. This is one of the reasons I don't like going to our cabin anymore. We have no running water up there. <BR> <BR> So now when they get it all sorted out we have to empty our hot water heater, let... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 15:17:31 EST The whole picture... Ms. Bean left a comment on my page about the new background. I hesitated to put it up because it was hard to see the whole picture. So here's the whole picture... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have NO idea who did it. It's the cover art for a book called The Iron Palace: The Shadowed Path Book 3 by Morgan Howell. I was drawn to it because it reminded me so much of a poem I wrote years ago. When I started hanging out on the Tolkien ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 14:33:41 EST Her Captain's Wistful Letter Was just mentioning to Miss R. Bean about a jigsaw puzzle I did, glued together and hung over my couch. Wanted to show her what it was. So here you go, Miss B.! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Also, since we had talked about it, here's a picture of me and Miss Gracie whom I said your personality reminds me so much of, and a picture of the table from our little tea party we "had" with our friends over Skype. <BR> <BR> <img src=... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 12:13:33 EST Dragonfly... Those of you who know me know I have a real thing for dragonflies. Long story for another time. BUT, God sent me a "kiss" this afternoon and scared the crap out of me! I had the biggest dragonfly I've ever seen in my bedroom window! It was a beautiful blue. Like water. Trapped it in my 4-cup measuring cup (and it's wings stretched clear across!) and finally set it free outside. Had just written one of THOSE journal entries. Wondered what on earth God was thinkin'! Had that sucker landed on me... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 18:45:14 EST Under the weather... His lordship and I are very thankful (NOT!) that our son loved us enough to share whatever bug he's had with us. Was down in bed till 12:30 today. Headache, achy Mac Truck hit-and-run feeling, little Rocky Mountain Quick Step... Felt some better this afternoon, but it's got me in its clutches again tonight, as well as the hubby... <BR> <BR> But just wanted to post that Captain Amy and I ran away to Wendover, Nevada last Thursday. Played a few slots, had dinner, spent some time in the pool an... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 00:44:20 EST Things that bring you fulfillment and joy... We're supposed to take an example of such a thing in our life to church tomorrow. No clue what the pastor is going to do with this stuff. But for me, I chose a journal I did when I was working through Julia Cameron's book "The Artist's Way." I started it on 8/12/06 and finished it up on 11/16/06. <BR> <BR> It's FULL of all kinds of creative insights into my head and heart. It's the best journal I've ever done. And anyone who even just LOOKS through it would put it down with a clear understa... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 16:07:35 EST It was a hard day's night... And the floor was even harder! So! Went to Salt Lake for an over-nighter Friday night with four of my homies. Got down there late and I was really pooped out. (I get very uncoordinated when I'm tired.) Didn't get to dinner (at the Spaghetti Factory) till about 8:00. I was so wiped out. Was sitting on the end of a bench at the table and got up to go to the toity and slid right off that sucker slicker than snot on a door knob! Hit the concrete floor hard on both cheeks! That was a lot of weight for such a sudden stop! Hit m... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 01:37:08 EST No one’s coming! I owe Walt Disney an apology — apparently… Though I haven’t been posting on my WS&DW blog much about Sarah Ban Breathnach’s book “Peace & Plenty”, I’m still working through it in my hand-written journal. I’m a bit disappointed. There’s not nearly so many ideas and inspirations as there were in her other books. But now and then I hit an essay that really resonates with me. Today’s was one of them. <BR> <BR> It was a strange one for a book about recovering from money woes. It was about divination, consulting fortune tellers, even using... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 14:22:50 EST Wanted: Heroes On Pinterest this morning, someone posted a quote about heroes by author Jodi Picoult. I thought it was pertinent given that yesterday was the 70th anniversary of the WWII landing at Normandy, the battle that turned the tide of the war. Had that allied maneuver been a failure, our world might be a very different place today. And the men who fought in that action — all of them from America, Britain, Canada, France — they were true heroes because they knew going in the odds of survival were sta... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 18:03:08 EST Too much muchness? Posting the piece I did yesterday turned out to be kind of interesting. I’ve had feedback from several folks about it, some whom I don’t know, and I’ve come to a few conclusions about why writing — though I come back to it again and again — doesn’t seem to be the “IT” for me that I’m looking for. <BR> <BR> It was suggested that I need to just relax (thanks Kim and _A_Rare_Bean) and enjoy the process of writing itself. I know I haven’t been able to do that. I guess I’ve always felt that there... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 16:19:41 EST Soul Searching... Last night on TV I watched a young woman auditioning for the new season of So You Think You Can Dance. While her real-life backstory was all too familiar to our culture, it was still unique enough – no, important enough – for the producers to devote a few minutes of the episode to her struggle with an eating disorder. She’d been dancing since she was 3-years-old. But at 16, she was caught in the trap so many girls/young women stumble into in our media-driven world. She became so self-critical... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 14:00:50 EST The Annual Memorial Day Graveyard Tour (during which we find the TRUE answer to the question, “Why did the chicken cross the road…”) <BR> <BR> Every year on Memorial Day my husband and I make the familiar trip to our families’ respective resting places to deliver a new pot of mums who have given their all for this noble calling. A three-hour trip, I load up the flowers, a good assortment of cds, and a couple bottles of water in case we get stranded by the side of the road and are in danger of dying from thirst. (Or in case the ra... Mon, 26 May 2014 20:24:45 EST Been an odd sort of day... At the end of a really bizarre eating week. Get a load of this! <BR> <BR> Saturday night - Village Inn for dinner <BR> Sunday noon - Village Inn for lunch while shopping for birthday presents <BR> Monday night - Linda bought me pie for my birthday after the book club (which is finally over, thank God!) <BR> Tuesday night - Amy bought me dinner for my birthday <BR> Wednesday night - birthday dinner at El Burrito, cake & ice cream <BR> Thursday lunch - Cindy bought me Del Taco <BR> Friday nigh... Sun, 25 May 2014 00:46:59 EST "Still Life" The other day I ran across a half-completed something that I’d started on June 14, 2008. The day I found it, I also found a beautiful picture with the heading “Still Life” in Southern Lady magazine. Since I don’t believe in coincidences, I decided it was time to finish the writing, pausing long enough to peruse a few “still life masterpieces” on Google. Found one in particular by Van Gogh that I fell in love with. Couldn’t find a title, but am including it here just because it feels so full o... Sat, 17 May 2014 13:34:29 EST Just a fun day today...although... I did restart my eating plan SERIOUSLY this week. Dropped from 211 to 207.6. Pretty sure most of that was water from eating out ALL DAY Mother's Day. <BR> <BR> Other than that, I am finishing up the one scene in my story that I didn't get done by the end of November. It's an early scene where an old gypsy woman reads tarot cards for the main character. I have a friend who actually READS tarot cards for a living who has been helping me sort out which cards to have Claire draw. It's a challeng... Fri, 16 May 2014 13:32:09 EST Finding my way through the fog of a financial family myth… This blog post seems kind of lame to me. I’ve tried to sort through two comments I wrote in my journal at the end of the essay in SBB’s book about financial family myths. I simply can’t do that without a lot of feelings from my childhood spilling over into the mix, into the money/food issues. It’s kind of intriguing how it all gets tangled up together. <BR> <BR> They were: I have to buy the cheapest of whatever the thing is I’m getting; and, I should never spend all my birthday money or gift... Thu, 15 May 2014 16:12:40 EST Are we just guests inside our own skins? I just finished listening to Toonacat's (#43) podcast and was particularly struck by her comments at the end about how she and her hubby are learning to be more honest with each other; how that, in turn, derails those feelings of defeat and surrender (my word, that’s what I feel like when the same thing happens to me); and how they can then move forward and enjoy life instead of taking two steps back again and falling into the fridge. <BR> <BR> As the podcast was closing out I was struck, al... Wed, 14 May 2014 18:19:08 EST Paste up a better life? This is a blog post I did this morning for *Wellsprings & Dragonfly Wings. Although it's talking about financial struggles, I really feel like there is a way Sarah Ban Breathnach's journal therapy could work really well for weight loss. I'm thinking of trying to sort it out and see what would work for me. So I thought I'd paste it here in case anyone might be interested. <BR> <BR> <BR> Paste up a better life? <BR> <BR> “It’s been a rare year, O paper soul… Maybe I should fold you away to p... Fri, 9 May 2014 13:31:02 EST Wild Ponies Listening to Toonacat's podcasts this week have really left me feeling emotionally vulnerable and off balance. Tried to write a blog yesterday about owning my own truth and couldn't articulate what it was I really wanted to say. But it reminded me of something I wrote in September 2011. It's a big truth for me. And how do I handle it? I FEED those critters. <BR> <BR> This morning I feel like I'm just standing still in the middle of the room wondering what's going to happen next... <BR> <BR... Thu, 1 May 2014 13:26:24 EST A dragon named Chaos... I’ve been struggling with what I’m supposed to get out of Sarah B.’s book “Peace and Plenty.” I thought I was going to be dealing with my “attitude of gratitude” which can be very sucky sometimes. But this morning — now that I’ve finally got my Morning Room sorted out from three months of neglect while I was working — while immersed in that familiar setting working in my journal, I realized that is NOT the reason I was meant to read this book. It was really a much more personal issue of loss ... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 13:15:50 EST Can I CHOOSE to say NO? Listening to Toona’s podcast ( <link><BR>y37/#comment-305 </link> ) today really shook something lose for me. As I’ve listened to people talk about and I’ve read about CONTROL ISSUES and OVEREATING, I wasn’t relating. I didn’t feel like I was in the place where FOOD had control of me. I know if I’m bored I’m likely to want to stick something in my mouth, but that doesn’t seem like the same trigger to me. But then something Laurie said in the podcast smacke... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 16:54:21 EST Living in the state of Perpetual Hunger... I've been trying to focus on what is the "background noise" for my life, if you will. What are things that are always there that tend to make me feel like I'm on the verge of being upset and need something in my mouth to calm me down. I realized about 4:30 this morning what the biggest culprit is. <BR> <BR> His lordship has sleep apnea, and like a lot of other people who struggle with the confines of wearing that head gear, he won't. He usually sleeps pretty well on his right side. His sinu... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 10:31:43 EST Short hooray for today... Been done with work for two days and already I've dropped 5.4 lbs. Toona said it was the salt from eating out. Appears she was right. Very soon now I should be back under 200. Thank God. <BR> <BR> Of course it's Good Friday tonight and a bunch of us are going out to eat after the service. I just have to tell myself to be patient with me! It's ok... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 16:12:10 EST Finally done working... And at this point I serious doubt I'll go back there next year though they're already asking for a commitment. I'm going to post my entry from Wellsprings & Dragonfly Wings here instead of typing it all out again... <BR> <BR> I am DONE!!! There were times when I thought of telling Jane I was quitting. I would have been 12 lbs. lighter had I done that the first month. I find it so interesting that such a piece-of-cake job could put me under the table (also AT the table) so fast. The job part ... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 17:50:12 EST Three more work days to go... And I have totally blown the h*ll out of any control I had over my eating. Have been stress/comfort eating, and as I've mentioned elsewhere on here, I really don't think I would have survived the last three months if I hadn't. <BR> <BR> That sounds kind of drama-queenish when I say it, but it's the honest truth. I've never been a good multi-tasker, and I found out very quickly I can no longer work and do ten, five, okay, two things at once. And I panicked because I couldn't tend to the house... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 00:58:10 EST Almost there! Ten more days on this cotton pickin' job and I'm DONE! Then I will be back! Tue, 1 Apr 2014 18:55:42 EST Saturday Morning Kitchen Khronicle entry 2-8-14 Just to give you a peek at my week (even though you don't know ANY of these people I mention), this is what my entry for this morning said: <BR> <BR> <BR> Saturday, February 8, 2014, 9:46 a.m. <BR> <BR> I was wrong last week. THIS is going to be the shortest SMKK ever! I have less than a handful of topics... <BR> <BR> Mostly work... It is just wearing myself out being "on point" or "at attention" all the time. It's not a normal kind of job that way. When I get home at night I am just plai... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 12:47:01 EST Shout out to Toonacat! Had the great pleasure of skyping with Toonacat last night. What an amazingly talented and motivated gal she is. She is well underway with her Daily Adventures Tales podcasts, but now she has begun a second podcast on compulsive overeating. <BR> <BR> Here's a link if anyone would like to listen. I haven't yet, but am off to do so. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Tired this afternoon. Spent hours on the phone calling clients to thank them for coming into ... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 18:01:25 EST I keep thinking I'll get used to this job... ...and won't be so tired when I get home. But I got off at 3:00 today and laid down for a nap when I got home. Couldn't even hold my eyes open. Didn't even hear his lordship come in. Woke up at 6:17. How I wish I could teach that man to put dinner on if I'm out like a light! <BR> <BR> It's just that the job is stressful because you have to be totally on point all the time. I'm always on the phone with one or two people, setting appointments, dealing with walk-ins and people who just come in ... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 00:50:59 EST Getting caught up at home, finally... Got right up and got busy today. I'm fine as long as I don't just sit down first. So I've got the laundry done, the linens and towels are nearly done, changed the tablecloth, etc., out in the kitchen. (It's no longer Christmas in here, thank God), sorted out the catalog/magazine basket, filed all the bills in the binder, printed off my last two Saturday Morning Kitchen Khronicle entries, and also a template for a daily planner that looked like it might work for me without making me feel guilt... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 19:15:33 EST