CAKEMAKERMOM's SparkPeople Blog CAKEMAKERMOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New Mobile App I've been tired this week, so I may be a bit crabby, but I also have been upset about this particular topic for years now. I saw the update to the new app on my Facebook page today. The photo they decided to use is one that seems to be used more and more by many people. In fact, it's the second group in my Facebook feed to use balloons being released as part of their background. <BR> <BR> I know this isn't a weight loss blog today, but Sparkpeople brought it up by putting this in the backgro... Thu, 20 Jul 2017 12:08:24 EST So it's been a week. I just noticed I've been at this for a week again. <BR> <BR> I only tracked for the first few days, then realized it's a lot for me to do. I have grocery money again, so I'm working on adding fruits and veggies to all my meals again. It can be hard when there's more month than money many times, but I seem to have enough to feed my family if I do it right. <BR> <BR> I have yet to have a full week of no added sugar. I've had cookies and pop tarts. So eh. <BR> <BR> Despite not reaching the fo... Sun, 7 May 2017 11:36:24 EST 1,517 Calories I'd love to say that was my calories for the day, but it was the calories for one meal. <BR> <BR> I had to take my husband to get his checkup for the surgery and we decided to go to Smashburger. Fortunately, I don't like their fries much because they're so thin and get cold quick, but the shakes and the local burger favorite I do like. It's only the second time I've been there, and I plan on going there again, but maybe I'll skip the shake next time. <BR> <BR> Imagine how bad it would have ... Wed, 3 May 2017 18:01:38 EST So much napping This year I've gotten used to having a different natural sleep schedule. I've been lucky that my husband has been getting the kids off to school all year long. <BR> <BR> This week he's not allowed to drive because of the surgery he had, so I am having to get the kids places and get him to his appointments. <BR> <BR> Today I napped, and napped hard. Hubby had to wake me in time to go get the kids. I'm still tired. I'm not sure when I'll be used to this 7 am waking time. It was bad enough get... Tue, 2 May 2017 21:08:38 EST Well, that was difficult I'd love to say I'm doing well and that I've lost lots of weight. That wouldn't be the truth though. <BR> <BR> I had a rough winter. I swear we caught every single germ out there this year and I was sick for months. <BR> <BR> When I'm not feeling well, I make poor decisions. There were a lot more cookies this winter. I had cake. I had chips. I had anything that was quick and easy. <BR> <BR> On top of it, it doesn't help that my husband has decided to be self employed and that isn't bringin... Mon, 1 May 2017 23:19:09 EST So... Much... Sick I swear that I have caught EVERYTHING this winter. I have been sick, off and on, since the first cold snap this year. This week I have caught something that is not allowing me to actually eat. Stomach bugs are unpleasant. It hit everyone in the household and I had to run my daughter up to the ER at one point because she was not stopping. <BR> <BR> Since I caught it last, I am also struggling with trying to get back on track with my household duties. I haven't been able to cook. I haven't bee... Thu, 16 Feb 2017 11:11:00 EST Five weeks in, the second time around Here are some excuses as to why I'm still only down 5 pounds. I was still sick the beginning of the week, and attempting to survive, much less taking care of the rest of the family and trying to eat right. I admit that I did not choose the best things this week, but I am able to stand up and cook dinner again. <BR> <BR> It's also the end of the month, and, despite my food budget being better than usual, I'm in the place where we have to eat what's left in the house, which is never anything g... Sat, 4 Feb 2017 12:23:11 EST Four weeks in, second time around This winter it seems we've been sick most of it. This week I'm dealing with having slept for a day and a half, then I just couldn't sleep, so at some point I'm going to need help switching back to my regular sleep schedule. 4 am is no fun to be up. <BR> <BR> Another downfall of being sick is that you don't want to eat, but the things you do eat tend to be whatever you can grab, which also means easy, quick things. There has been a lot of cookies and sweets this week. My husband isn't the be... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 13:59:10 EST Three weeks in, the second time around First, my weight. It hasn't gone down, but it didn't go up either. <BR> <BR> This week I'm dealing with sick kid(s). The first kid got strep and coughed all night the other night, so we're all dealing with lack of sleep. Now kid #2 is starting to feel bad, on the weekend, where we can't go to the clinic. I may be doing an ER visit today because of the fact that strep came into the house and I want to get her on the right meds so she can be back at school on Monday. <BR> <BR> On top of every... Sat, 21 Jan 2017 13:06:09 EST Two weeks in, the second time around So far I am still losing. This week was much slower. I lost about a pound and a half. I didn't expect the three pounds I lost the first week. First week loss tends to be at a higher rate than any other week. <BR> <BR> I found that tracking actually was hindering me. I hadn't been able to get into my calorie range at all. Every single day was below my goal range. I know that long term, undereating can be as unhealthy for me as overeating. <BR> <BR> So I stopped tracking. I know that many of ... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 14:07:37 EST One week in, the second time around. So far I have managed to lose 3 pounds my first week. Not surprising. I've done this before and know what to do. I never thought I'd fall back so far, but depression can do that to you. <BR> <BR> Depression has various forms, but one of the commonalities is the thought of "why bother" and not having enough energy to do anything. Apparently I thought that for a long time, because this weight doesn't just come on overnight. It took well over a year to came back. Even when my "fat pants" got ti... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 13:31:19 EST Lose 10 pounds a week with this easy method! That is what I saw on a magazine while I was out yesterday. It's the click bait of magazines to get you to buy it. It rarely has any good advice and doesn't tell you that it's pretty rare that most people can lose 10 pounds in a week. <BR> <BR> Even if I were to go into intense workout mode while pretty much starving myself, it would still be hard (but not impossible) to lose that 10 pounds at the weight I started (240). Having not done any real exercise and barely being able to swallow anyt... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 10:43:12 EST Today my throat hurts It seems that I've pretty much had a cold since the holiday season. Two days ago my nose started running again and today my throat hurts like crazy. Fortunately I was able to go grocery shopping (once we managed to get the car started). To be able to actually eat anything, I need soft foods. The apples I had for breakfast (which really happened closer to second breakfast, and at least 3 hours after waking) were hard to swallow. <BR> <BR> So mushy foods it is! The problem with mushy foods is ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 14:14:30 EST The mindset matters I can tell that I'm ready to lose the weight I gained back. It's not some half-assed try like last year. It's not the "I know I should, but I like cookies too much" try. It's the "I have a goal and I'm going to get to it" do. <BR> <BR> I am in the same mindset I was the first time I lost the weight successfully. I am determined. I am in charge. I am challenged. I am willing. I am ready! <BR> <BR> This time of year you get a lot of people starting the half-mindset challenge. It's one of thos... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 10:52:09 EST Reset mini goals and a pound lost already If you ever click the "read more" on someone's page, you'll see spots where they can put their goals. I find that seeing mini-goals helps a lot. <BR> <BR> I hit many of my mini goals the first time around and it helped to see those. <BR> <BR> My spark Page will tell you these, and when they happen(ed). <BR> <BR> *My Goals: <BR> Starting over! Check second set of goals after first completed goals. <BR> <BR> Long term goal: Don't let stress eat me up because that makes me eat everything in ... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 12:32:41 EST First, tracking. Second, sleep schedule. My husband is taking the kids to school in the mornings now, so I get to sleep in. My body is naturally resetting itself to my normal sleep schedule of stay up late and sleep in late. On top of that, the holidays allowed me to sleep in really late and stay up even later. So now I am working on getting back to an earlier waking schedule, based on when my husband gets back home. (Did I mention he's self employed now and his "office" is our bedroom?) <BR> <BR> This means I don't get around to b... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 22:52:40 EST I know what I did and I know how to do it again So I thought I was going to be one of those people who didn't gain it all back. I was for a full two years, but then I had something happen that spiraled me into a depression, which means bad choices and lots of cake. <BR> <BR> It is honestly harder when you have to go to the food shelf as often as they allow. It's amazing how many breads and sweets are given to all the food handout places. You have to live off of pasta and rice, with few other items given. IF you are lucky enough to get fru... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 16:04:11 EST Pokemon No I gave up. It was fun for a while, but it just didn't stop thinking and I had a hard time logging back in. That has made me lose interest. <BR> <BR> One of my biggest pet peeves with games is when they just don't work. It could have wonderful graphics and an interesting story line, but if I press jump and it doesn't, I get frustrated and put it back down grumbling about the money wasted. <BR> <BR> So it sits there, holding the Pokemon I did get. My husband has uninstalled the one on his pho... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 08:48:31 EST Still at level 10 Between the servers and the heat, I haven't bothered to really play my Pokemon Go this week. No one wants to go outside in nearly 100F heat. <BR> <BR> I have checked, and the servers don't seem as bad this week so far. I may end up attempting it again this week, but it my be between appointments and other things that need to be done. I still need to finish my notes for the building classes this weekend on Second Life. (If you don't know, I teach once every 6 weeks there, meaning I also have ... Mon, 25 Jul 2016 10:47:21 EST Stuck at level 10 The Pokemon Go went so big so fast that the servers are having a hard time keeping up with it. Naturally the weekends are when everyone can play, so I wasn't really able to get on much at all. I did managed to catch a dozen while waiting for the husband to get the kids some lunch, but we still need to walk to get him more Pokeballs, since he managed to run out. <BR> <BR> It's taking me hours just to log in, then it goes into "thinking" mode anyhow. I will have to wait until the popularity di... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 12:04:51 EST Egg hatched My first Pokemon Go egg was hatched, it was a 5K egg, which turned into a Machop. Took me a couple of days to accomplish that, but I did it. <BR> <BR> Now I have another 5K egg half-way hatched and a 2K egg nearing completion. Amazingly Wal-Mart is a Pokemon hot spot.It seems everyone else figured that out too and were there late last night. <BR> <BR> Giggles for the day, we noticed that someone had turned on the Lure to a couple of Pokestops in our area park, but despite no visual hours of... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 10:24:37 EST Today's egg hatching goal. Well, this game has managed to get me off my butt. I have a couple of 5 K eggs waiting to be hatched. I have already walked 3.3 km to hatch my first egg. I'm kinda jealous of my husband's 10 K eggs, they'll have something nicer in them. <BR> <BR> Today I will have that first egg hatched! I will finish enough walking to get it done. It's nice to have goals outside of the standard "I'll just walk for my health". <BR> <BR> I do think this Pokemon Go will help out a lot of people, not just beca... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 09:51:32 EST Level Up! No, I'm not talking about SparkPoints. I can say I'm addicted to this new Pokemon Go game, and I only started yesterday. <BR> <BR> I think it's an excellent idea! It makes you get up and go! (Please make sure you are still aware of your surroundings, don't step into traffic and respect people's private property.) <BR> <BR> We met a bunch of helpful people in one of the smaller parks yesterday. It gives people the added bonus of being social, when some of us might have a hard time talking t... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 08:37:20 EST I like video games. There's this new trend called Pokemon Go. I don't use a lot of digital minutes on my phone, so it wouldn't be that big of a deal if I go out to catch one or two a week. <BR> <BR> Usually I'm playing something that keeps me inside and stationary. I figured that this might help me get up and going more. I know I'm not the average user of a game like this, but I hold fast that I have been gaming since the first home based video games were popular. I'm a woman gamer and have been since the early... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 13:18:11 EST Why I kept all my pictures Right now I look like the start pictures I have up in my gallery. I still have my "skinny" pictures sitting there looking at me too. <BR> <BR> I could have just erased everything in my photos and started over, but having all those progress pictures can help me this time around too. It shows me that *I* can do it, because I did do it once before. <BR> <BR> I could have looked at them and gotten upset that I am not that skinny me right now, or I can look at them and keep up the hard work to ... Sat, 9 Jul 2016 10:04:36 EST And the points don't matter In the beginning, I was all about getting those points. Haw can I get that bonus spin every day? How many places can I get points? How often can I get points for interacting? How many people can I get to join this site for points? <BR> <BR> Now, eh... <BR> <BR> I can only read the same old articles so many times and I don't really want to read the latest "hype" article. I'm not in this to get other people do do anything. I can only get myself to stay the line. <BR> <BR> Sure, someone might... Fri, 8 Jul 2016 10:26:03 EST Ice cream I think it was my fault. I asked the husband to bring home ice cream for the kids. He got two flavors. I have been checking every day to see if my calories allowed me to have some. I have been having some all this week. <BR> <BR> The calorie counter has been telling me that I'm *just* going over my calorie counts much of this week. I haven't been accurately measuring everything like I did the first time around, although my eyeballing is a bit better than someone who has been overeating up un... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 14:03:44 EST I made my protein goal For the first time since I started this time around, I was able to manage my protein goal. I also ended up staying within my calorie goals and most surprisingly, my salt intake wasn't that bad. <BR> <BR> That pound that had been holding on tight finally melted away this morning. I ended up losing a whole pound overnight after three days of scale non-movement. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure if the two correlate, or my body just decided enough was enough. <BR> <BR> I also found a challenge I don't t... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 11:18:14 EST Protein After reading all the comments on my last blog, it comes to my attention how important that protein is. I already started yesterday by having two eggs instead of one egg for breakfast. I will be adding yogurt to my mornings as soon as I can get up to the store again. <BR> <BR> I do have a hard time getting to my protein levels, and that may be part of why the scale is saying "No, I won't lose any weight this week!" I am not vegan, but I'm not a fan of eating meat at every meal. I'll have to ... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 11:23:02 EST HUNGRY! Despite not really being active yesterday (which is one of my issues currently) I found that I was HUNGRY for much of the day. <BR> <BR> Fortunately, there isn't much junk in the house to eat, so I couldn't just find a pig out food, but on the other hand, there's not much to eat at all in the house. We have the basic staples, but fresh stuff is lacking this week. I could easily be full off of rice and oatmeal all day, but that would put me well over the range I need to work toward. <BR> <BR... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 10:57:49 EST I could do one of two things. I've been weighing myself daily since I started. I knew yesterday that having dinner leftovers for lunch was not the best strategy for my day, but my kitchen is making things interesting this week. <BR> <BR> Despite leftovers, I still managed to stay within my calorie boundaries. <BR> <BR> This morning my scale decided to stay still. It did not budge. I stepped on it three times to make sure. Yep, yesterday's weight. <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> So today, either all the salt finally stopped ... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 11:49:46 EST Why? There are often times you'll ask yourself why. <BR> <BR> Why did I gain this weight? Why should I lose it? Why am I so hungry? Why should I keep on going if no one wants me to? Why do they keep sabotaging me? Why are they making fun of me (both to begin with then later when I'm successful)? Why even try? <BR> <BR> If you go long enough those whys become different. <BR> <BR> Why didn't I do this earlier? Why is this so easy now? Why can't anyone see my progress? Why don't the doctors give m... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 10:43:24 EST Some last statuses I find there is a commonality in the last status that pops up when you hover over your friends. <BR> <BR> Most of the ones I haven't seen for months or even years seem to say "starting over" or "tired" or "hoping". They seem negative and unsure. You wouldn't be able to see that status on their actual page, but it does show up in hover mode in your friends list. <BR> <BR> Frequently, these are the ones that stayed for only a week or two. They were gung-ho before they realized this is hard w... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 10:50:50 EST Yawns and writes today's blog There's not much to eat in the house at the moment, and the trip to the food shelf last night didn't help much. Those shelves were bare! I only was able to pick up half of what we were allowed, but I would have circled around once more to fill it up closer to our limit, had it not been for at least one, if not two of the workers there having bathed in perfume! <BR> <BR> The hospitals and other workplaces usually have no-scent zones, simply because a good percentage of the population are alle... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 11:29:23 EST Changes When I logged back on yesterday, it was a shock to see all the changes to my page. It's hard to deal with visual changes like that, especially when they're a sudden change. <BR> <BR> I did calm my eyes and find where everything was put, updated a few things, and took the time to look. <BR> <BR> What I did notice was my friends list. <BR> <BR> I gained many friends on that list during my journey. I started January 10th 2012. Currently I have 489 people on that list. About 10% of them turned... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 11:31:51 EST New Reset after a hard fall It all starts in the mind. We can decide to keep on eating the whole bag of [insert your downfall item here] at one sitting or decide we want to be able to tie our shoes easily again. <BR> <BR> I had a tough year. I did something that was eating away at me, but I have come to terms with it and I want to get me back again. Now that the big issue isn't eating away at me as badly as it was a year ago, I have the ability to get back on track and work on loving my whole self again. <BR> <BR> The... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 11:46:59 EST I'm not sure I have had no desire to do anything lately. I'm wondering if my vitamin D is that low again this year. <BR> <BR> I haven't been able to get back on track after that job that lasted 2 weeks and injured me enough to not be able to do simple things, like laundry. I've been letting my husband do the shopping, which ends up with him spending more money than we would if I had gone myself. We've been having to go to the food shelf more often because rent always goes up more than his raises. Cost o... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 21:55:42 EST To make proper decisions I have been stepping on the scale, and since I started last week I lost 2 pounds (more or less). This morning I stepped back on and gained back up to what I started at. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure if something happened yesterday more than a couple of bad decisions with grocery shopping. I had to keep my daughter home because we're on 3 full weeks of a nasty cough she's had to the point I brought her into the doctor. Since it was Monday, I am normally running tired already, but to have to get up a... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 11:14:36 EST My Food Pusher I went out to eat like I said yesterday. Mom decided to change restaurants at the last minute, but I still managed to have the correct meal to not put me super over for the day, despite Perkins meals running around 1000 calories, even if you choose the fancy salad. So I had breakfast, eggs, bacon, fruit, and an English muffin. <BR> <BR> That would have been fine had my mother not noticed the eclaires. They are the best eclaires around and I can't say no to them, especially if my mother order... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 09:32:50 EST Deciding to track for the first week To reset my body, I need to reset my mindset also. <BR> <BR> I had gotten into the "Go ahead, have another cookie" "The French fries won't kill you" "Go ahead and have some pop with your meal" mindset. <BR> <BR> Now that wouldn't be a big deal if it were every once in a while, but when it started to happen weekly, then every other day, it became an issue. <BR> <BR> I'm not saying never have a treat. Go ahead, allow yourself that chocolate bar or single serving bag of chips, but slow down a... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 09:34:45 EST So I fell. Hard and far. There have been highs and lows this last year. <BR> <BR> I discovered a different social network called Second Life, where you can be anything or anyone. It has helped bring out a lot of me that I had lost in the process of being a wife and mother. I found a good group of friends that understand some of the lows I have had in the last few years and are supportive of those emotions. <BR> <BR> After my son got sick (look back in my blogs for that a couple of years ago) I got seriously depres... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 10:39:24 EST Busy, busy, busy It's amazing how quickly life can get busy. Working takes a lot out of a person. <BR> <BR> I've been actively trying to get my name out there as an artist. My creative streak came back in the last year and people seem to like my artwork, so I figured it is worth it to try to make a living off of it. <BR> <BR> The stress I talked about in the previous blog caused me to go out and get a real job on top of it. It's one of those too many hours away from fun stuff type of job, but it pays the bi... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 03:08:21 EST Stress eating. Goes one way or the other. This winter was tough. My hormones were off and I was not eating well. This is example of stress eating type #1. <BR> <BR> Everything was going into my mouth. The biggest threat was chocolate. Seeing so many holidays show up in the winter months, chocolate is everywhere. I also went back to saying yes to fries when I ate out and heck yeah, the whole sandwich instead of the wrap. <BR> <BR> No wonder I ended up gaining 20 pounds back this winter. I got all the way back up to 205. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 3 May 2015 12:43:01 EST It's been a while, checking in. Somehow life has gotten busy and I haven't made a blog post in months. <BR> <BR> Last you read, I had gone to the doctor, who then proceeded to blame my hormone issues on the 10 pounds I had gained and not the other way around. I've been thinking on that and, yes part of the problem has been all the holiday candy that seems to permeate for months, but I looked back and instead of gaining a 5 pound holiday gain, which is easily gotten rid of, I gained 10 pounds in that same period. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 12:35:24 EST Some examples of my art. I know this has nothing to do with weight loss, but this is the easiest way for me to share a few pieces with you since I don't have a Facebook page or website with my art displayed. <BR> <BR> For your enjoyment: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 16:42:10 EST It's that time of the year again. Everyone's back to their normal schedules again. The tv is telling us we're all fat and need to lose weight. It's annoying more than anything, my daughter sees this and I don't like it. We try not to watch too much tv with commercials, PBS is our go to channel. There are a few thing we do watch and they seem to have tons of jump on the bandwagon lose weight commercials. <BR> <BR> Anyone who has been successful with keeping the weight off knows that all these places are a scam. If they worked... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 14:03:37 EST "I'm not that fat" and other excuses I went to the doctor again today because I've been bleeding for a month (give or take) now. I wanted something done about it, so we got me on some birth control pills to "reset" my system. <BR> <BR> While the conversation went on, I started to panic a little. Once again he was blaming my fat for the issues. I don't think it has *that* much to do with any of my health problems, it's more likely age related, but he kept on telling me that the weight probably had something to do with it too. <B... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 14:07:42 EST And they changed my start page again I'm not sure what's up with the Spark webpage editors, but once again they changed it. I know I'm not the only person that has a hard time with change. <BR> <BR> I'll admit that I like the light background vs the dark lettering, it's easier to read. The thing is that once a year this website changes it's front page for us and it throws everyone off for a while. I'm searching for the things I've been clicking for the last year again. I know I'll find them, but I will be off kilter more than I... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 10:14:52 EST And I went to the doctor I do feel more informed about my body this week. I may not have solved the problem yet, but we're keeping an eye on things to see if they improve on their own. Basically he said as long as we're not worried about being anemic, it's fine that I'm still bleeding 2 1/2 weeks later. <BR> <BR> He did order up some testing and I got an ultrasound, but that proved again that I'm normal. So now we wait. <BR> <BR> The big things that did happen was that I stepped on the scale and it isn't liking me ... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 11:39:56 EST This must be the year for the body to break down. I'll admit that I haven't been doing nearly as much activity as I did the previous year. My Mom has been getting on me about it since we're Fitbit pals. <BR> <BR> That is only part of the issue. Oh, this might be another tmi blog, so you may want to stop here if you don't want to hear about girly problems. <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm 38. Still fairly young on the going into menopause age. Sure, it's possible I'm in the very beginning stages, but that peri-menopause thing could have easily started i... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 10:32:42 EST