CAKEMAKERMOM's SparkPeople Blog CAKEMAKERMOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Road trip! I'll have to do the 60 days later blog after I get home because I'll be gone for the weekend. <BR> <BR> I'm visiting a friend for a few days and that requires thinking about food for on the go. Fortunately, when I get there, I won't have to worry about food too much since she's also trying to lose weight. <BR> <BR> We're also likely to get a lot more movement that I usually do. I was threatened with being dragged to the pool. lol <BR> <BR> I prepared ahead of time. I've got a bag of nuts w... Thu, 19 Oct 2017 13:21:40 EST Nearing the 10 pound mark and some rewards Despite eating out on Thursday and having ice cream for dinner, I lost another most of a pound this week. <BR> <BR> I'm 54 days in (so a 60 day blog will be here soon!) and am actually starting to feel a little skinnier. At my starting weight, it takes a lot to actually feel skinnier. My fat clothes aren't as tight on me as they were. <BR> <BR> At the moment, I have stretched out XL clothes from before, a few XXL pieces and a lot of L hanging there starting at me, wondering why I don't fit... Sun, 15 Oct 2017 11:13:31 EST 5,000 steps That's the point where I realized today that I had walked enough. <BR> <BR> I wasn't aching like I was a few weeks ago up until that point. I hit 5,000 and my body said, yep, you're going to start hurting. <BR> <BR> I also noticed my hips weren't hurting as bad today even as much as it did on Tuesday. Today was the second time this week I did a most of the day shopping trip. We tend to walk a lot when we go out. <BR> <BR> We did get a lot more sitting in-between stops today, having taken t... Thu, 12 Oct 2017 21:05:43 EST Slowly building my strength back up My knees and hips hurt! I can't lift like I used to! <BR> <BR> This is what happens when you stop using your body. I have been a very sitting person for the last couple of years. My mother and I stopped doing our weekly shopping trips for about that length of time too. <BR> <BR> I did try to have a job a couple of years ago and that ripped my c-section scar pretty badly, and I was surprised that could happen 9 years later... <BR> <BR> So I'm totally out of shape. I have little desire to ge... Wed, 11 Oct 2017 10:15:33 EST My kids are trying to sabotage me They're old enough to understand that I'm trying to lose weight and I told them it's because I'm uncomfortable at this weight. They're 11 and almost 13 at this point. <BR> <BR> They are naturally super skinny and have been at the same percentile their whole life. I used to be that skinny as a kid. <BR> <BR> It's difficult to say no when they start handing me food. I am able to say "no thank you", but I have also noticed my daughter has been bringing me more food lately. I bought her cookies... Tue, 10 Oct 2017 10:44:06 EST Next step, pulling out the scale again. I have had my food scale on my counter for the week, but only just started using it again the last couple of days. I think my eyeball is off again, so I'm trying to make sure I'm more accurate for a while. <BR> <BR> I'm figuring that I'm either over estimating or under estimating how much stuff actually weighs for my meals. If I'm under estimating what actually is being put on my plate, I'm pretty sure that is part of the reason why the scale isn't moving. <BR> <BR> It's a slow process for... Sat, 7 Oct 2017 14:56:53 EST Stupid Scale I'm sure I'm relying too much on my progress by looking at the scale. I also know last week was extra salty. <BR> <BR> I haven't logged in my gain. I'm back up about a pound. It's quite possible I'm up 2 pounds in water retention. <BR> <BR> I've been logging everything in my tracker still, so I know I'm not going over my calorie count, nor am I going way too low either. I've even been more active the last couple of weeks now that I'm doing my weekly going out shopping/browsing with my mom... Fri, 6 Oct 2017 19:44:24 EST Thoughts and Prayers If you turned on the tv today, you know what the latest thing in a long stream of angry people doing bad stuff to others before they decide they're done in this life. I won't even try to understand what goes through anyone's head to get to that point of anger and depression. <BR> <BR> The thing I keep hearing on the ongoing news is how everyone's Thoughts and Prayers are going out to the people affected. <BR> <BR> Thoughts and prayers are well and good, but only if you act on them and do so... Mon, 2 Oct 2017 12:58:57 EST The end of the month. It's always hardest at the end of the month for us. We don't get our food support until the 6th so I'm sitting here with no money for fresh food, my refrigerator is looking bare, and we found our kids throwing food out like we have plenty. <BR> <BR> I had to tell them some hard truths today. We do get upset when we find food wasted in the house because there is so little. I'm obsessed over making sure food is in the house. <BR> <BR> The kids are always fed first. Both of us adults got blow... Sun, 1 Oct 2017 15:56:35 EST I totally missed breakfast today! This is what I get for staying up so late last night. I slept right through my normal breakfast time. Then I sat down at the computer and ended up distracted, so I didn't end up eating until well into lunch time. <BR> <BR> Now I'm not sure if I'll hit my calorie range for the day, or if I'll get any exercise done, which has mostly been attempting to do normal housework. I haven't even been doing that lately, which is why I'm so out of shape. <BR> <BR> I'm going to attempt to remember proper... Fri, 29 Sep 2017 15:45:32 EST I was curious how top heavy I actually am Disclaimer, this is a breasty topic! <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> I know I've mentioned that I'm especially busty. Last time I lost the weight, I actually went UP a cup size! <BR> <BR> I sit at cantaloupe sized bustiness, and was curious how much that costs me, so I went and did something odd, and pulled out my food scale to see how much I'm carrying. Between the two, I'm carrying an extra 10 pounds in breasts if the scale weighed them accurately. <BR> <BR> No wonder my back hurts so often. I'... Thu, 28 Sep 2017 13:17:26 EST I am very out of shape! I went out shopping with my mom yesterday. I hurt so bad that I had to lean on the cart to make it through the second store (and both stores are superstores, so very large stores). <BR> <BR> This makes me realize how non-active I've been for the last year. <BR> <BR> It doesn't help I tried to have a job about a couple of years ago and managed to injure my c-section scar, so I'm not as strong as I used to be, but that's not where I'm hurting. I know I can't lift what I used to, but I thought... Wed, 27 Sep 2017 10:11:19 EST Breakfast I haven't been doing a normal breakfast for myself. Last time I would eat the same thing every single day, and it was pretty filling. Fruit, yogurt, oats, and nuts, they were a complete breakfast, and filling. <BR> <BR> Now, I find that too expensive to do every day, so I'm often having eggs of some fashion or another. <BR> <BR> Fried, scrambled, omelette, hard boiled, there are many ways to do eggs so you don't get bored with them. They're a cheap form of protein, and if you ever need to ... Tue, 26 Sep 2017 10:02:42 EST Too busy to eat Have you ever had days like that? You're so into a project that you realize two hours after your normal meal time that you forgot your meal. <BR> <BR> I've been doing that lately. I'm trying to finish a big project that is making me learn Blender 3d really fast. That means hours at the computer. <BR> <BR> I haven't hit 1,000 steps for the last few days, each day. By the time I know I'm hungry, it's that point of I need to eat NOW or I'll bite your head off. <BR> <BR> This can go either way... Mon, 25 Sep 2017 10:46:33 EST Are you in this for the long run? Spark is a great way to learn to control your portion sizes and figure out what foods are good for you and what foods aren't. It may take weeks or even months to figure out all of which foods can fit better than the others and what foods you find tastier than others. <BR> <BR> If you're doing some extreme diet plan, you're setting yourself up for failure. Being extra restrictive may work for a couple of weeks, but it's not a lifetime plan. <BR> <BR> The point to this site is to learn what f... Sat, 23 Sep 2017 10:23:40 EST 30 days later Spark told me I've logged in for 30 days straight now. <BR> <BR> I'm hovering around 5 pounds lost. <BR> <BR> I'm not as tired. <BR> <BR> My knees and hips still hurt, but not as bad, and not all the time. <BR> <BR> I've actually had the energy to do some house cleaning. <BR> <BR> I'm not as depressed. <BR> <BR> My neck isn't trying to suffocate me at night like it did 5 pounds ago. (Is that a nsv?) <BR> <BR> I'm actually starting to wrap my mind around the program Blender 3D, I'm up t... Fri, 22 Sep 2017 10:28:20 EST First 5 gone! My scale finally went under 240 this week! <BR> <BR> It's taking less time this time around to get acclimated to eating healthier and making sure there are vegetables and fruits in every day. <BR> <BR> So far, I've only changed my food, not my exercise. I did pull out my fitbit, and I find I walk around 2000 steps a day on average, so I'm not as sedentary as I thought. <BR> <BR> I do spend a lot of time in front of the computer each day because I'm trying to learn 3d modeling for a game... Thu, 21 Sep 2017 13:31:32 EST Treat, not Cheat I know I've blogged about this last time around, but I think it's important to understand. <BR> <BR> I've seen many diet plans laid out that give you a "cheat" day. <BR> <BR> In my mind, to cheat on something means you're setting yourself up for failure in the long run. Cheating brings to mind a day that you're not tracking. To cheat allows you to go all out and eat all that stuff you've been denying yourself the rest of the week. Cheating frequently ends up with too many slices of pizza, w... Wed, 20 Sep 2017 14:51:55 EST It's easier when you see smaller goals pass To go with yesterday's blog... <BR> <BR> It may look like a long time down the road to hit that final goal, but if you see that you are passing milestones, it may make it easier on you. <BR> <BR> I have a set of mini-goals set up on my spark page to go with my long term goal. If you don't set smaller goals, you may not see the progress you're making. <BR> <BR> I hit the majority of my mini-goals last time, which helped me see that I was progressing. This time around I set a new bunch with ... Tue, 19 Sep 2017 10:37:08 EST 85 pounds is a daunting task This time around I have 85 pounds to lose, or at least I did when I started 3 weeks ago. <BR> <BR> Dread and crabbiness are some of the things that are felt when you need to lose weight. Depression keeps on lingering. <BR> <BR> When you look at that number, it seems impossible. It seems like it will take for-ev-er to lose it. Some weeks it seems like a half a pound lost is just not enough. That extra salty day will make the scale gain two pounds the next day and you might just say "Oh heck... Mon, 18 Sep 2017 17:01:09 EST 3.6 pounds down, only 81.4 to go! With a picture. Last time I managed to lose the weight, I took photos of my loss. This time I'm going to do that too, but in closeups. I realized I never got to see how different my face looked well during the last big loss, so I'm taking close ups. <BR> <BR> Don't mind that I'm not smiling, I hate taking selfies and I'm not used to clicking the button while trying to smile. It's my concentrating face. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <B... Wed, 13 Sep 2017 15:05:46 EST Slowly, very slowly... Last time I tried to lose weight, I did it well and it went fast. I was losing almost 2 pounds a week! <BR> <BR> This time, I'm starting out fatter, and older. <BR> <BR> It's 5 years later. I lost the weight in about a year the first time. It stayed off for a couple of years. It took me two more years to get back up to the new starting weight. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is my "official" weigh in day, and today I stepped on the scale again. It was only down 0.2 of a pound! <BR> <BR> I do admit to ... Tue, 12 Sep 2017 12:16:06 EST Your weight doesn't define your happiness I admit that I may get frustrated that the weight isn't dropping fast enough sometimes. I know I've seen others post things about getting upset at the scale. <BR> <BR> The thing is that when I'm not happy, I just can't focus on being a good weight. <BR> <BR> I lost 50 pounds before and kept it off for two years. <BR> <BR> I was happy enough with my life then. Things were going okay enough (even the time I nearly lost my son to the flu). I was able to keep making good choices because they ... Fri, 8 Sep 2017 09:03:25 EST The scale is weird Or maybe it's just my body that's weird. <BR> <BR> It's weigh in day today. I got on the scale right away and it said I was up from what it's been saying most of the week, so I would have only lost half a pound according to the first step on the scale (I never take the very first step on the scale, I always do it 3 times to make sure it's reading correctly, so I really mean the first set of stepping on the scale). <BR> <BR> I took a shower and that half hour of body settling before eating ... Wed, 6 Sep 2017 11:02:12 EST I shared a cup of cake My husband went out to pick up some groceries yesterday and he came home with cake among the fruits and vegetables. <BR> <BR> This is a good way to cake though. They are microwaveable cakes that you put in a coffee mug. They are still 300 calories, but if you have a hankering for a little cake, it's a lot better than making a whole cake, where you'll have it staring at you for the rest of the week. <BR> <BR> We split one last night, so only half a cup of cake. <BR> <BR> I know this isn't h... Mon, 4 Sep 2017 12:58:26 EST Quality over Quantity In the realm of food choices, there are a lot of convenient quick grab things. There are also a lot of bland, tasteless things. <BR> <BR> I find that many of the things I make from scratch tend to taste a lot better, and I don't feel the need to keep eating when things taste good. I'm satisfied much sooner when there is actual flavor in my food. <BR> <BR> Processed foods have a lot of fillers, which also means they have a lot of lack of taste. They have to add more salt and sugar to simulat... Fri, 1 Sep 2017 21:34:47 EST It only works if you're honest with yourself. This site is just a tracker. It's one tool among many. It does not lie to you, it does not care if you did well or failed miserably. It just tells you what you did, if you're honest with it. <BR> <BR> Say you had "just a spoonful" of something, or "just a bite". If you don't track that and you had several "just a" somethings during the day, it could add up to a lot of calories. You'd be scratching your head by the end of the week as to why you didn't get your goal. <BR> <BR> This will only ... Thu, 31 Aug 2017 11:41:22 EST Sweet tooth challenge, day 6 and oficial weigh in day. Despite all the salt I ate yesterday, I am still down nearly 2 pounds from initial weigh in! Logging works for me. It keeps me right in that spot for my body to be at the right weight. <BR> <BR> Today we went for a walk. It was a slow one, but we got going before we sat down to do work for the day, so we logged a mile in before we could think about it. <BR> <BR> I'm not craving the sugar like I was last week. It's mostly out of my system. <BR> <BR> The sugar tracking on here tracks all sug... Wed, 30 Aug 2017 22:03:58 EST Sweet tooth challenge day 5 and eating out Tomorrow is my official weigh in day, and it's looking grim, mostly because my sodium intake was so high today it will probably take a couple of days to flush it out of my system. <BR> <BR> I had an appointment this morning, which meant a long drive, and lunch out on a date with my husband. The problem with eating out is the sodium content more than any of the other issues. We had Panera and that is one of the higher sodium intake places, not that most eating out restaurants are low sodium. ... Tue, 29 Aug 2017 19:09:12 EST Sweet tooth challenge day 4, and flavor musings The challenge says to have someone help you. I outright told my husband to stop bringing home fast food and candy. We even play argued over that when he called me from the grocery store yesterday. He is my biggest supporter and won't bring home anything I ask him not to. <BR> <BR> I'm waiting for my stomach to shrink down to the smaller portions part of this way of eating. I've been hungry and it's hard to shake that feeling, but I know once it's used to the smaller portions, even if I end u... Mon, 28 Aug 2017 18:47:02 EST Sweet Tooth Challenge, Day 3, again... Well, stress is fun... <BR> <BR> It either makes me not hungry at all or want to eat everything. Some days it makes me not hungry until I'm starving. Yesterday was one of them. I would have loved to eat more. I probably should have made some popcorn. <BR> <BR> I had breakfast so late, I didn't have lunch, which in turn, by the time dinner came around, I was really hungry. <BR> <BR> Fortunately I didn't eat everything in sight and made a sensible choice of carrots and dip near the end of th... Sun, 27 Aug 2017 14:12:47 EST I'm taking the Tame your Sweet Tooth Challenge It's not the first time I have either. It was really helpful the first time I did this. <BR> <BR> I have a sugar addiction. If it's in the house, I'll eat the whole thing. I crave sweets, all the time, and especially after I eat something sweet. <BR> <BR> On the other hand, I can't have added sugar like pop or candy right away in the morning. It gives me a headache. <BR> <BR> I stopped eating sugary treats 4 days ago. Before that I was eating spoonfuls of Nutella from the jar and recently ... Sat, 26 Aug 2017 14:23:33 EST So I pulled out the Fitbit again It's interesting that when I pulled out my old Fitbit, the next couple of days I actually was forced to go out and take a lot of steps. <BR> <BR> Normally I'll sit at the computer all day and not get much done in the way of exercise. <BR> <BR> Wednesday I went out and visited the Walker Art Garden, so that helped get over 4,000 steps. Thursday I had some stuff to do with the kids to get them ready for school. Now they're prepared, and I got over 5,500 steps. <BR> <BR> Today I'll be lucky t... Fri, 25 Aug 2017 11:36:01 EST Well, I didn't break the scale. I did my initial weigh in today, after a night of tossing and turning, so I have a starting number. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. <BR> <BR> 245 pounds <BR> <BR> That's still more than the last time I had to go to the doctor, but not as bad as my mind made my body out to be. My scale only weighs up to 250 pounds before it errors. <BR> <BR> This is the heaviest I've ever been. It's uncomfortable. I have a hard time breathing with the neck fat squishing up every night. My joints... Thu, 24 Aug 2017 12:07:50 EST What does it take? I fell off a couple of years ago, after having lost a lot of weight and keeping it off for two years. I've been in a depressed mood for a while now and I just haven't been able to kick it lately. <BR> <BR> The problem is that I've gotten back up to a weight that is actually bothering me. I have been having a hard time sleeping because my neck fat pushes up in odd places, my hips hurt from both the weight and likely some arthritis starting (it runs in the family, so it's a possibility). I hav... Wed, 23 Aug 2017 12:49:28 EST New Mobile App I've been tired this week, so I may be a bit crabby, but I also have been upset about this particular topic for years now. I saw the update to the new app on my Facebook page today. The photo they decided to use is one that seems to be used more and more by many people. In fact, it's the second group in my Facebook feed to use balloons being released as part of their background. <BR> <BR> I know this isn't a weight loss blog today, but Sparkpeople brought it up by putting this in the backgro... Thu, 20 Jul 2017 12:08:24 EST So it's been a week. I just noticed I've been at this for a week again. <BR> <BR> I only tracked for the first few days, then realized it's a lot for me to do. I have grocery money again, so I'm working on adding fruits and veggies to all my meals again. It can be hard when there's more month than money many times, but I seem to have enough to feed my family if I do it right. <BR> <BR> I have yet to have a full week of no added sugar. I've had cookies and pop tarts. So eh. <BR> <BR> Despite not reaching the fo... Sun, 7 May 2017 11:36:24 EST 1,517 Calories I'd love to say that was my calories for the day, but it was the calories for one meal. <BR> <BR> I had to take my husband to get his checkup for the surgery and we decided to go to Smashburger. Fortunately, I don't like their fries much because they're so thin and get cold quick, but the shakes and the local burger favorite I do like. It's only the second time I've been there, and I plan on going there again, but maybe I'll skip the shake next time. <BR> <BR> Imagine how bad it would have ... Wed, 3 May 2017 18:01:38 EST So much napping This year I've gotten used to having a different natural sleep schedule. I've been lucky that my husband has been getting the kids off to school all year long. <BR> <BR> This week he's not allowed to drive because of the surgery he had, so I am having to get the kids places and get him to his appointments. <BR> <BR> Today I napped, and napped hard. Hubby had to wake me in time to go get the kids. I'm still tired. I'm not sure when I'll be used to this 7 am waking time. It was bad enough get... Tue, 2 May 2017 21:08:38 EST Well, that was difficult I'd love to say I'm doing well and that I've lost lots of weight. That wouldn't be the truth though. <BR> <BR> I had a rough winter. I swear we caught every single germ out there this year and I was sick for months. <BR> <BR> When I'm not feeling well, I make poor decisions. There were a lot more cookies this winter. I had cake. I had chips. I had anything that was quick and easy. <BR> <BR> On top of it, it doesn't help that my husband has decided to be self employed and that isn't bringin... Mon, 1 May 2017 23:19:09 EST So... Much... Sick I swear that I have caught EVERYTHING this winter. I have been sick, off and on, since the first cold snap this year. This week I have caught something that is not allowing me to actually eat. Stomach bugs are unpleasant. It hit everyone in the household and I had to run my daughter up to the ER at one point because she was not stopping. <BR> <BR> Since I caught it last, I am also struggling with trying to get back on track with my household duties. I haven't been able to cook. I haven't bee... Thu, 16 Feb 2017 11:11:00 EST Five weeks in, the second time around Here are some excuses as to why I'm still only down 5 pounds. I was still sick the beginning of the week, and attempting to survive, much less taking care of the rest of the family and trying to eat right. I admit that I did not choose the best things this week, but I am able to stand up and cook dinner again. <BR> <BR> It's also the end of the month, and, despite my food budget being better than usual, I'm in the place where we have to eat what's left in the house, which is never anything g... Sat, 4 Feb 2017 12:23:11 EST Four weeks in, second time around This winter it seems we've been sick most of it. This week I'm dealing with having slept for a day and a half, then I just couldn't sleep, so at some point I'm going to need help switching back to my regular sleep schedule. 4 am is no fun to be up. <BR> <BR> Another downfall of being sick is that you don't want to eat, but the things you do eat tend to be whatever you can grab, which also means easy, quick things. There has been a lot of cookies and sweets this week. My husband isn't the be... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 13:59:10 EST Three weeks in, the second time around First, my weight. It hasn't gone down, but it didn't go up either. <BR> <BR> This week I'm dealing with sick kid(s). The first kid got strep and coughed all night the other night, so we're all dealing with lack of sleep. Now kid #2 is starting to feel bad, on the weekend, where we can't go to the clinic. I may be doing an ER visit today because of the fact that strep came into the house and I want to get her on the right meds so she can be back at school on Monday. <BR> <BR> On top of every... Sat, 21 Jan 2017 13:06:09 EST Two weeks in, the second time around So far I am still losing. This week was much slower. I lost about a pound and a half. I didn't expect the three pounds I lost the first week. First week loss tends to be at a higher rate than any other week. <BR> <BR> I found that tracking actually was hindering me. I hadn't been able to get into my calorie range at all. Every single day was below my goal range. I know that long term, undereating can be as unhealthy for me as overeating. <BR> <BR> So I stopped tracking. I know that many of ... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 14:07:37 EST One week in, the second time around. So far I have managed to lose 3 pounds my first week. Not surprising. I've done this before and know what to do. I never thought I'd fall back so far, but depression can do that to you. <BR> <BR> Depression has various forms, but one of the commonalities is the thought of "why bother" and not having enough energy to do anything. Apparently I thought that for a long time, because this weight doesn't just come on overnight. It took well over a year to came back. Even when my "fat pants" got ti... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 13:31:19 EST Lose 10 pounds a week with this easy method! That is what I saw on a magazine while I was out yesterday. It's the click bait of magazines to get you to buy it. It rarely has any good advice and doesn't tell you that it's pretty rare that most people can lose 10 pounds in a week. <BR> <BR> Even if I were to go into intense workout mode while pretty much starving myself, it would still be hard (but not impossible) to lose that 10 pounds at the weight I started (240). Having not done any real exercise and barely being able to swallow anyt... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 10:43:12 EST Today my throat hurts It seems that I've pretty much had a cold since the holiday season. Two days ago my nose started running again and today my throat hurts like crazy. Fortunately I was able to go grocery shopping (once we managed to get the car started). To be able to actually eat anything, I need soft foods. The apples I had for breakfast (which really happened closer to second breakfast, and at least 3 hours after waking) were hard to swallow. <BR> <BR> So mushy foods it is! The problem with mushy foods is ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 14:14:30 EST The mindset matters I can tell that I'm ready to lose the weight I gained back. It's not some half-assed try like last year. It's not the "I know I should, but I like cookies too much" try. It's the "I have a goal and I'm going to get to it" do. <BR> <BR> I am in the same mindset I was the first time I lost the weight successfully. I am determined. I am in charge. I am challenged. I am willing. I am ready! <BR> <BR> This time of year you get a lot of people starting the half-mindset challenge. It's one of thos... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 10:52:09 EST Reset mini goals and a pound lost already If you ever click the "read more" on someone's page, you'll see spots where they can put their goals. I find that seeing mini-goals helps a lot. <BR> <BR> I hit many of my mini goals the first time around and it helped to see those. <BR> <BR> My spark Page will tell you these, and when they happen(ed). <BR> <BR> *My Goals: <BR> Starting over! Check second set of goals after first completed goals. <BR> <BR> Long term goal: Don't let stress eat me up because that makes me eat everything in ... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 12:32:41 EST