CAKEMAKERMOM's SparkPeople Blog CAKEMAKERMOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Checking in. I'm not blogging as much as I used to and you can't expect daily blogging from me anymore, but this last week I was forced to stop because of lack of internet. It's tough when the phone company wants all of its money and I just don't have it. Now it's running again and here I am. <BR> <BR> I was able to go grocery shopping this week, managing to save a lot of money in coupons, but have spent the entire budget for the month. I hope I did well enough to have a months worth of food this time (I... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 16:01:10 EST Nice scale. When I checked back in earlier this week I said I had gained 5 pounds back. That was true a couple of weeks ago when I stepped on the scale last. I just hopped on the scale, in the middle of the day at that, and it said I'm only up 3 pounds instead. <BR> <BR> Despite not tracking my food or taking the pictures lately, I'm obviously back on the right track. Being back in the swing of school and having the house back to myself I'm not as obsessed with food. I'm more obsessed with getting the h... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 15:21:09 EST Feeling judged. I thought it was going to be a good thing, having so many parents at the bus stop. Instead, I'm still the only parent yelling at the kids (mostly mine and parentless kids) so they stopped running back and forth on the road (they get picked up in a parks parking lot, so the road isn't as busy as a street, but still has a lot of cars traveling it during that time), despite 5 of us parents being there. <BR> <BR> While trying to corral those kids (most of them I knew from the previous years, so ... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 10:27:12 EST Getting back into the swing of things. It's day 3 back on Spark after my break and day 2 of back to school. Slowly I'm getting back into the healthy habits I had. I had over 10,000 steps yesterday and I'm already over 6,000 steps today. <em>363</em> <BR> <BR> I have still been working with my therapist and we've agreed that I'm getting much farther than I was a few months with getting back to the real me. Despite all the stresses that keep on coming my way, I'm still managing to make sure I'm not getting overwhelmed by all of... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 16:12:04 EST First day of school! It's that time again! I'm feeling on top of it! I got the kids off to school, having made them eggs and orange juice before we walked up to the school. Tomorrow they'll ride the bus, but I needed pictures at the school of their first day outfits. <BR> <BR> It looks like there might be one other bus mom at the stop tomorrow, but I never believe the influx of parents at the stop on the first day. I have yet to hold onto someone else to back me up at the stop with all the kids that aren't paren... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 11:16:23 EST The mind works in mysterious ways. I feel like I've been extra crazy lately. Everything was just too overwhelming for me, so I took a break from Spark. When I said I was taking a break, I wasn't sure if I was pregnant or not (I'm not). I hate that I'm still fertile since I'm content with the ages of my children and the spot we're in now. Just the thought of still being able to get pregnant is still an issue. *Stress* <BR> <BR> I'm stress eating, so I've gained 5 pounds back in the last month. That's not hard to do. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 11:57:37 EST Taking a break. I have been blogging diligently for the last 2.5 years. <BR> <BR> Right now there are some things going on that isn't as dramatic as my son being in the hospital, but I really just need a break for a couple of weeks from Spark. I'll be back in a couple of weeks after I've had time to reset myself. <BR> <BR> I know that I have many people that read this daily and enjoy what I have to say. I promise I'll be back soon. I love this site! I just need to work on what needs to be a priority right... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 19:39:58 EST Thursday, Positive Focus, Day 99 The kids managed to get their rooms done by the end of the day. I had them going through their clothes to find out what could come out of the closet and what needed to be replaced by the time school started. Fortunately only some jeans and shoes are in need this year. They've got a lot of shirts and my daughter has enough skirts. I'm glad I don't need to get a whole new wardrobe for them. <BR> <BR> The only thing I really needed to do was a load of laundry so my daughter had her easiest to g... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 19:01:49 EST Wednesday, Positive Focus, Day 98 I'm finding that I'm having a lot more lazy days than usual. The most I'm doing is supervising the kids going through their clothes so that we can decide what they really need for back to school in a few weeks. I had grocery money today, so I did get out at the end of the day and do some grocery shopping, but I'll wait until the weekend for the rest of my major shopping. It takes small steps to get to the final product, and this is making sure my home is school day organized again. We'll be p... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 14:36:30 EST Tuesday, Positive Focus, Day 97 Today was national "Night to Unite" (also called "National Night Out", but some places don't use that name because I heard they need to pay for that use). During the day we worked on laundry and by the end of the day we realized that we were going to be able to eat dinner for free. Since I live near a park, that's where our night out was. I did manage to chat with a couple of neighbors, but I pretty much still don't know most of them. The kids had fun playing in the bouncy house, the hamster ... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 14:28:25 EST Monday, Positive Focus, Day 96 My headache was more or less gone. At the very least it wasn't as horrible as the first day, I really didn't notice it anymore. I was in the mood to finish off the sculpting part of my statue and get it dried out. I didn't have enough of certain colors, so I ended up walking into town since the kids were off with the grandparents for the day. <BR> <BR> For some reason I was really hungry all day long. Breakfast didn't fill me like it usually does. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 15:44:47 EST Sunday, Positive Focus, Day 95 Although I had a bad migraine, it wasn't so bad that I couldn't sit and do work. I managed to finish off the molding of the main character, he just needs his rock to sit on before I dry him. I hope to have it at least that far done by the end of Monday. <BR> <BR> Fortunately my husband took care of some of the things that needed to be done while I was out. I ended up taking a nap, but it didn't help get rid of the pain. <BR> <BR> I did manage to eat well all day. I started out with my norma... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 14:05:33 EST Saturday, Positive Focus, Day 94 I was invited to a party today! I decided to go this time. My husband managed to be well enough to go with me and he watched our son while we were there so I could gab with a couple of friends I haven't seen in 20 years. I tried to aim there during the time the pig was supposed to come off the colas, but it didn't make it off until 2 hours after we were told it would be ready, so I ended up snacking while we were there instead of eating a proper meal. In the end I had a good time, even if I w... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 12:29:33 EST Friday, Positive Focus, Day 93 I actually had the energy and motivation to keep on cleaning the house. I managed some floors and the living room is walkable again. It's surprising what one can do when they have their eyes off a screen. I did end up on the computer for longer than I'd like, but did stop at a point and didn't go back. <BR> <BR> By the end of the day I also finished off a new head and started on the clothes for the sculpture that is about half-way finished. Hopefully I can get that done by the end of the wee... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 19:37:45 EST Thursday, Positive Focus, Day 92 The house is slowly getting back in shape. I managed to clean the bathrooms and got the dishes done. The front closet is no longer overflowing and is organized again. I even swept the closet and took out some stuff I haven't worn in years. One can only wear so many jackets in a year, now I just have a few, one for each season. <BR> <BR> Someone was moving out and I happened to need to leave the house today, so having gone to the garbage, I discovered a jalapeno plant sitting there, not in th... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 15:05:15 EST Wednesday, Positive Focus, Day 91 I've decided to make strides into working back to a normal me. I'm not going to log my food anymore since I do so well with the picture taking that I don't need to check the calories so closely. That will free up time from the computer so that I can get things done around the house again. I've been falling behind on the housework, so ignoring the computer more or less will allow me to be free from that burden. I'm guilty of being hooked to the screen too long and my home shows it. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 13:10:35 EST Tuesday, Positive Focus, Day 90 Scale day again! It's being a pain since it was a pound lighter the day before, but my scale does that to me frequently. It was a half pound lighter than the week before, so that's a good thing. For being so sedentary this week, I'm glad it's going that direction. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I've been sleeping in a bit, so breakfast has been later than usual. It's still a priority in my day. Calories: 415 <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 16:19:23 EST Monday, Positive Focus, Day 89 I managed fewer online hours, but that didn't get me off my butt. I wasn't feeling all that great so I stayed sitting for much of the day. I took the day to work on my sculpting hobby some more for the day. I got a new head started and hope to have the whole thing done by next week. It's calming creating with clay. I just need to put down the new game that has me enthralled, it's a monkey popping balloons game, I'm sure I'll be tired of it withing a week. <BR> <BR> I had my normal breakfast.... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 18:33:45 EST Sunday, Positive Focus, Day 88 It was another quiet day around the house. The boys ran out for a while and my daughter went to grandma's house. <BR> <BR> I got some more work done on one of my sculptures, my new hobby. My husband laughed at me when I started working on it's butt. Hopefully it will work out and I can dry it properly. I seem to be good at the sculpting part, but our oven ruins a lot of things. I have a feeling that if I can get it done right, I'll be able to do enough of it and open an Etsy store to start ... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 14:43:51 EST Saturday, Positive Focus, Day 87 Upon waking, I knew I needed to get my bugs into my garden. It's much healthier to let free some predator bugs to get rid of the ones that want to eat your plants. I've never understood why I'd need to put poison on my plants to kill off the bugs so I could eat them, wouldn't I be eating poison too? If only large farms would do this too. Ladybugs make me happy. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had breakfast right after I let my ladybugs ou... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 16:16:02 EST Friday, Positive Focus, Day 86 I woke up in a good mood, having slept in a bit. I was planning on getting a bunch of stuff done. Then I walked out of the bedroom and saw my husband home. There went all my plans and the good mood. <BR> <BR> We did manage to get the kids out to a park in the afternoon to let them run off some energy. I tried to find some GeoCaches, but failed in the attempt. I wasn't about to walk in waist high weeds, I'll go back when the grass dies in the fall. I can't find them all, but I try to enjoy th... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 19:21:36 EST Thursday, Positive Focus, Day 85 It ended up being a quiet day where I didn't do much. The computer sucked me into a lot of games for the day. I had therapy appointments for all of us at the end of the day, so I was able to get some stuff out that needed to be out. I'm hoping that we'll have some tools for me the next time I see her so I don't have any more panic attacks, I've never had them before this year and now I've had 2. It's a scary thing and I couldn't imagine what all the incoming troops have to go through since I ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 12:47:37 EST Wednesday, Positive Focus, Day 84 Although I started my day out with high anxiety, as the day went on, I managed to relax enough to do some stuff with my daughter. Fortunately it was just her some and not both kids or I probably wouldn't have been able to relax as well. We even managed to get the laundry done, only 4 loads this week! The end of the day helped calm me too as my husband put on some of our Dr. Who we've been watching, he keeps borrowing some of the ones from the library we can't see on Netflix. Now we're really ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 12:42:04 EST Tuesday, Positive Focus, Day 83 Weigh in day again. I'm not sure what happened that I not only didn't lose any weight between scale days, but gained a little. I'm sure that it will go away, it's not uncommon for my body to hold on for a week, then drop a couple of pounds the next week, no matter how I'm eating and exercising. This week the scale went up. It actually as telling me .2 of a pound less until I stepped on the scale for the 4th time to take the picture. Naturally it didn't want to look good. I'm sure that I'll ha... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 15:27:43 EST Monday, Positive Focus, Day 82 Monday was a pretty calm day. The kids were cooperative and played quietly all day long. They did things I asked them to do when I asked them to do it. I was the first apartment in the annual fire code check, so that was over quickly. The air conditioners were working well enough that I did not feel the heat and humidity that finally showed up for the season. I was able to just chill all day long. <BR> <BR> I had breakfast early enough in the day. The cranberry nut blend seems to be lower i... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 14:15:00 EST Sunday, Positive Focus, Day 81 One of my friends had a party today! It was a welcome home party for her husband since he's been home for about a month now and is strong enough to handle that many people at once. I'm sure he was still a little confused with that many people and not knowing which people he knew before his stroke, but he seems fairly healthy for what he went through at this point. I got to see some of my friends I don't see often and the kids had fun playing with others and making s'mores. <BR> <BR> I just ... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 13:08:04 EST Saturday, Positive Focus, Day 80 I've discovered a new craft I want to get into, so we went out and picked up some starter supplies. I'm going to start doing clay molds. Hopefully one of these day's I'll also manage to start putting my products out there, so I better get on top of something. I know many people do clay jewelry around here, but I am going to do little figurines because I like fantasy creatures. My husband went out with us and we ended up in a couple of places I wasn't planning on going, but that's okay, when h... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 15:33:32 EST Friday, Positive Focus, Day 79 It was my children's well check day. The doctor's diagnosis, they're giggly. Somehow they both shrunk, so I think their measuring tool was off. Otherwise my kids are both healthy for the moment, hopefully we won't have to see their doctor again until next year. <BR> <BR> That meant I needed to get up to have the car again, but that was fine, I just ended up taking a lot of naps. I am not a morning person, nor will I ever be. <BR> <BR> After my first nap of the day, I had breakfast. Just the... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 18:18:41 EST Thursday, Positive Focus, Day 78 Here I am on day 921 of my Spark journey. I'm still upset that I missed a log in day, so I'm only at day 319 of my current streak. I only missed that because we were going between hospitals trying to figure out what was wrong with my son, so this current streak keeps reminding me of that. It's the only day I've missed logging into this site. <BR> <BR> I did manage to get some stuff done around the house I've been meaning to do. Now we can get under the kids' bathroom sink without it being a ... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:14:38 EST Wednesday, Positive Focus, Day 77 It was a pretty quiet day. I had a couple of things to do, but nothing too major. I'm just glad my kids are old enough to leave home for a while. The Boys and Girls club is not teaching them proper behavior, so I don't feel comfortable letting them go up there anymore. Had I not left the house I don't think I would have gotten off my butt at all. I can't wait for school to start so I can get back my walking routine. <BR> <BR> I managed breakfast after I dropped my husband off, so it was late... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 12:24:17 EST Tuesday, Positive Focus, Day 76 It has been a week since I started tracking again. I know that when I track I can keep myself in control enough to lose the weight. I don't need to track to maintain, I've proven that the last couple of years, but to actually lose the weight at a proper pace, I have to track so that I know the scale will go in the right direction. <BR> <BR> The day after I started tracking again, I lost that pound of bloat I had put on the week before. Everything after that was real weight loss again. The s... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 13:12:19 EST Monday, Positive Focus, Day 75 The day started out pretty well. I woke up in a good mood and managed to get a bunch of housework done. All the laundry was done and I even managed to wash my sheets, which aren't washed anywhere near as often as I would if I had my own washer and dryer in the unit. I'm doing well with my Hogwarts homework, getting O's (for outstanding if you've never read the series), and enjoying relearning homework I know already from when I went to school as a kid. I even got the floors cleaned. <BR> <BR... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 13:42:24 EST Sunday, Positive Focus, Day 74 Sometimes you are not in charge of a meal and this was one of those days for me. When we get together with my Mom, meals tend to be different. Fortunately she does always serve a salad, so that counteracts anything else that might be served. Since it was my son's birthday weekend, it was his choice for lunch today. That also meant more cake and ice cream. I'm not sure if my tastes have changed or I'm just not getting my icing recipe right anymore, but it's getting too sweet. I may have to cut... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 14:11:57 EST Saturday, Positive Focus, Day 73 It was a busy day. Since a birthday takes a whole weekend, I had to work on more birthday items, cake was on the list. First we needed to get our eyes examined, the kids both had significant changes in their eyesight. That meant I got to have dilating eye drops, those always make my eyes itchy and out of focus for a few hours. It was nice that the eye place automatically gave us appointments and that it worked for us. We happen to use one of ht Target locations since it takes our insurance an... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 18:38:19 EST Friday, Positive Focus, Day 72 It was my son's birthday. My youngest is now 8! Where does the time fly? It was also the last day for the kids to do the water fun they've been able to do all week long. Fortunately it only rained in the morning, so by the time they were ready to do their thing, it was nice enough for them to go. <BR> <BR> He got to open his presents in the morning, so the kids were busy for much of the morning assembling the new Lego sets he got. Naturally birthdays mean cake and ice cream, so I made some b... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 18:59:26 EST Thursday, Positive Focus, Day 71 It's day 2 of tracking everything. I'm finding that I'm attempting veggies even more now that I'm looking at the calories. I almost feel like I'm starting at square 1 again and it will take a couple of weeks to be comfortable with what I'm eating again. It seems that I need just a little more in the day, at dinner I was just over 1,000 calories, making me need a snack after dinner to make sure I get the minimum for the day. I have changed up the amount of pounds I'm trying to lose at a time, ... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 11:16:17 EST Wednesday, Positive Focus, Day 70 I've gotten tired of this kinda but not really losing the weight. I have been able to lose some of it by taking the pictures for portion control, but it's not going as well as I'd like so I've started logging everything again. Granted, I have lost 14 pounds just from taking the pictures, but I find myself slacking a bit again, so I'm going to do what I did to begin with and track everything until I hit that final goal weight. <BR> <BR> Instead of logging everything before I eat it, it will b... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 12:13:56 EST Tuesday, Positive Focus, Day 69 After complaining about lack of motivation the day before, I got off my butt when I sent the kids out to play in the water and reorganized my closet. I can get into it better and now have a new project for the next day, to tear down the drawer set that's just a piece of junk anyhow. I didn't need it holding anything and it has been falling apart for years, so it didn't need to take up room anymore. All that closet cleaning brought my step count up for the day and I got over my minimum 5000 fo... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 12:45:51 EST Monday, Positive Focus, Day 68 This week I've got the kids doing some water activities, so I get part of the day to myself. Unfortunately I'm not taking the time to walk the park, but I am taking the time to get my mental focus. I found a new place to play online, so that tends to take up some of my time for a little while until it gets old. I'm enjoying the Hogwartsishere website and just in my first day of starting to talk to people there I've already found a few friends (it's mostly fantasy there, even as people discuss... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 12:32:45 EST Sunday, Positive Focus, Day 67 I had money to go grocery shopping, so that's what I did. I ended up bringing the kids with, so naturally more things ended up in the cart. I normally try to shop alone, but my husband was trying to get the fishing rods ready and he was getting frustrated since his father, although brought him fishing as a kid, did not teach him how to prepare the rods. I left him to his grumbling. <BR> <BR> With all the money I ended up spending, I better be prepared for most of the month. I'm attempting to... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 14:48:43 EST Saturday, Positive Focus, Day 66 Some days are lazier than others and this was one of those days. Most of the house was clean, I wasn't able to do any shopping until the next day, and I slept in fairly late after the late night we had the night before. <BR> <BR> Since I didn't get my letter to Hogwarts as a kid (mostly because it didn't exist then) I found that I could enroll online now. Since not much goes on during my days besides normal Mom stuff, I decided to enroll. <link> </link> You can go t... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 20:18:43 EST Friday, Positive Focus, Day 65 It was Independence Day here in the States. So naturally that means people staying up late to watch colorful explosives. For many people that means "going up north", at least here in Minnesota. That also means many people are drinking, and we ended up meeting one at the fireworks, glad she was at home being drunk, it's funny to watch drunk people. <BR> <BR> For me, that meant doing a little shopping since it felt like a Saturday (my husband had the day off). I brought the kids with to go and... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 14:36:37 EST Thursday, Positive Focus, Day 64 The day started out quietly. I didn't have much to do, so I pretty much vegged out all day. My daughter came home from Grandma's mid-afternoon and my husband got his paycheck a day early since it was his "Friday" for the holiday weekend. We ended up going out and everything I was looking for was there and cheap. I got a bunch of new shirts at a second-hand store that look nice on me, all large and all fit. I even found my daughter one of those small pillow pets for a dollar. The shoes my kids... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 20:12:35 EST Wednesday, Positive Focus, Day 63 Perhaps it's because I'm still on the edge, but I kept finding negatives throughout the day. As I think back, I'll find something positive, but some days it's harder than others. <BR> <BR> I woke up to my alarm, knowing I was going to go up to the church to pick up a food donation, since my fresh stock is still a little scarce until my husband gets paid this week. It was a nice, but chilly, walk to the church (it's practically in my backyard) with my son. We had a nice walk and he got to hav... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 15:04:21 EST Tuesday, Positive Focus, Day 62 Tuesdays mean scale day. Lately I haven't had much of an appetite, so the scale will be going the right way for a while. I'm not sure how long this lack of appetite will go, hopefully I'll start enjoying food enough to make proper grocery lists and have meals prepared again soon. Perhaps it's time to be looking through my cookbooks again? <BR> <BR> If anything, the bright spot in lack of appetite is jeans that are looser and shirts that flow nicely. I only own one pair of jeans and they were... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 12:41:34 EST Monday, Positive Focus, Day 61 I've been Sparkin' for 904 days now. I've been taking these food pictures for nearly 6 months. I've been taking pictures of myself since nearly the beginning. There has been a lot of change in me, both body and mind. <BR> <BR> I started out 230 pounds and lost in taking care of my family. That's probably why so much weight was put on to begin with. <BR> <BR> I began to pay attention to myself and start becoming the woman I was before I met my husband and created children. They are still a p... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 13:52:35 EST Sunday, Positive Focus, Day 60 Although I was feeling low in the morning, I managed to sleep in a bit, my husband was home, and I was able to do what I wanted for the day. I even managed to go out doing a little shopping. I've been getting into this new way of drawing, so I needed a few tools to go with it. I managed to buy some new rulers and french curves. I didn't have them and they will help me with some of the basic lines I need to start these pictures. I was looking for stencils, but had a hard time finding what I wa... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 14:15:23 EST Saturday, Positive Focus, Day 59 It's okay to be happy. I give you permission to be happy. The world isn't going to end because you're happy. No one will be mad that you're happy. <BR> <BR> It was one of those days where I just couldn't muster the strength to do anything. I was lucky to be able to get out of bed. My husband had an all day thing to go to, leaving me home to take care of them. <BR> <BR> I know this must be starting to get to them too. I was starting to get happy shortly after my son was becoming well again, ... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 16:21:54 EST Friday, Positive Focus, Day 58 When I woke up, the weather was being just right to have my mood be peaceful. I stepped out on my balcony to see all the wildlife running around. There were birds and squirrels and an old man with his dog running about. <BR> <BR> I finally got a picture of one of the actual Chickadees. This is why I thought the other yellow bird I posted earlier this spring was a Chickadee, it was the same shape, just missing the stripes. <BR> <img src=" Sat, 28 Jun 2014 13:34:00 EST Thursday, Positive Focus, Day 57 It was a pretty calm day with little to do. The biggest thing we had to do was get to our appointment in the afternoon. Since that was downtown and I only needed to drop the kids off, I decided to walk to the other side of downtown while they were busy. I'm not sure if I wasn't paying enough attention or the driver was not focusing on the right spot, but I ended up having to run to get out of the way of a young man in a truck to not get run over. I honestly don't think he saw me until he was ... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 14:12:18 EST