CAGIRAFFE's SparkPeople Blog CAGIRAFFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 5 more pounds...5 more pounds... I'm trying to post more regularly in order to enhance my SP experience :) but also because my only real-life buddy in this journey is my son, and sometimes I'm not sure that's by choice. I run alone, and I don't have anyone to whom I hold myself accountable for making healthy choices. As a general rule, this doesn't bother me, but there are times when I feel I should change my headline from "I'm a Loser!" to "I'm a LONER". I do have lots of friends, but none who make any effort to watch what ... Thu, 9 Dec 2010 05:01:09 EST FOUR Years of the Spark! Wow...I can't believe it! Where did the time go? It's been four years since I started tracking my food and exercise on SparkPeople. Sure, I've fallen off the wagon a couple times, had a few missteps, taken a look at myself and said "oops" - but the ease and flexibility of SP enables me to pick up where I left off, start over (every day, if necessary), and see how the choices I make affect my body over time. <BR> <BR> I've found I need to track my food every day, even once I decide to maintai... Sun, 5 Dec 2010 11:56:59 EST Time for a blog entry! So, it's almost summer and I have a closet full of clothes that don't fit. I bought them all at my goal weight, which I reached two summers ago thanks to Sparkpeople. Last summer, I could kind of squeeze into some of them (and ripped the crotch out of one pair of capris trying)...but this year, there's no chance unless I drop some weight. <BR> <BR> Since reaching my goal weight in August 2007, the numbers have steadily crept up. No real reason other than I was no longer in control of my eat... Fri, 1 May 2009 13:41:51 EST So, how much did I gain? November was a bad, bad month...lots of eating, little exercise, and overall a pretty piss-poor attitude towards all things healthy. What a funk I was in! <BR> <BR> December brought about my one-year SP anniversary, and renewed interest in maintaining the changes I've made. I'm happy to say that as of today, I've lost all the weight I had gained back. How much was that exactly, you ask? I can now be honest, and say that I had gained back almost 10 pounds! <BR> <BR> That tells me two things.... Fri, 21 Dec 2007 15:38:53 EST One Year of the Spark! Yesterday was my one-year anniversary with SP!! What possessed me to start my healthier lifestyle during the holiday season? I don't know...but I'm glad I did! <BR> <BR> Over the past year, I've gone from 236 pounds to 159. My waist has gone from 37 inches to 27, my hips from 45 to 37, and my bust from a 38DDD to a 34C. I've gone from a tight size 18 to a comfortable size 6, sometimes a size 4. <BR> <BR> Even better - I've gone from barely being able to walk a flight of stairs and having t... Thu, 6 Dec 2007 16:51:29 EST Time to get back on track! Okay, so my sucky eating habits have persisted. I'm now a night grazer. I NEVER was before, even though I know it's a problem for others. All of a sudden, I can't seem to get enough to eat at night, even though I'm probably not hungry. <BR> <BR> I've gained a couple pounds - not the end of the world, but enough that I need to get back on track before more damage is done! So I'm renewing my efforts to track all my food, make healthy choices, and exhibit some portion control. I can do this! I ... Tue, 27 Nov 2007 14:35:51 EST Santa Clarita Half-Marathon! My running and healthy eating habits have been entirely non-existent the past couple weeks. I can't explain the eating...but I've been having trouble with my legs and foot. I keep waking up with cramps in my legs...not good when you're trying to run in the mornings, and the residual soreness would last all day. I'm also having trouble with a couple toes on my right foot, some localized burning/numbness. Yuck. It was almost enough to make me skip the half today, the event I've trained for over... Sun, 4 Nov 2007 16:27:24 EST Will somebody explain to me... Why is it the California has a waiting period for divorces? I don't get the premise for this waiting period. My hearing is tomorrow, and the divorce will likely be granted at that time. But it won't be final until 6 months after the date I filed, or February 10th of next year. I don't like being in limbo like that, and I think it's pointless! Maybe it's just because it spans the holiday season, but I really feel like it's keeping me from moving on with my life. <BR> <BR> If anything, there s... Mon, 15 Oct 2007 14:56:00 EST Awesome article re:self-image I've always had trouble with self-image, and it has prevented me from taking a lot of chances or experiencing a lot of what life had to offer. I'm not a huge Oprah fan, I've never watched her show, but I found this article on CNN and it really hit home, especially with the universal question. From <BR> ****************************************<BR>******************************* <BR> You step into the party feeling reasonably confident. True, your favorite little black dress feels so... Mon, 8 Oct 2007 13:44:23 EST Size 4...WooHoo!!!! I went shopping today for some skirts to wear with my boots for winter. The size 4s fit well....woohoo!!!! That's a huge improvement, since today the scale said I was up 8 pounds (water weight). Definitely makes me feel better about sticking with the program! Wed, 3 Oct 2007 00:13:10 EST I feel awful!!! Okay, so TTOM was due....a long time ago? I'm at least a week late. In the meantime, I'm bloated and crampy and moody...just a real joy to be around! Nothing seems to be making it any better...not exercise, not eating healthy, not eating poorly, not drinking 337 cups of water. NOTHING. And there's no way I'm pregnant, so it's just my body playing tricks on me. Ugh. Mon, 1 Oct 2007 00:49:05 EST WOW - I did it! So last week was the first time I ran over 10 miles...I'm happy to report that today I ran a whopping 13.33 miles!!!! That's more than my half marathon! I still can't believe I did it...especially on only 1.5 hours of sleep. I'm really proud of myself, and I'm now confident that I'll survive my half! I still have a month to go before the race. When I got back from my run, I was at my goal weight! That changed as soon as I drank a bunch of water though, so I'm not going to change my tracker...... Fri, 28 Sep 2007 16:37:39 EST Tomorrow is a big day! Okay, so the training for the half marathon continues...and tomorrow is the big day, then day I will finally run 10 miles! I've never ran that far before, I'm totally excited and psyched for this opportunity. I already have the route planned, and my outfit laid out. This is better than the first day of school! The best part is I'll get to watch the sunrise while I run, since to run for that distance I'll have to get up when it's still dark. I've been telling everyone about my plans, most of m... Wed, 19 Sep 2007 16:21:23 EST Really feeling good! I've really been feeling great about myself lately! Sunday my son and I ran - I completed the 10k in 58:09, and awesome time for me, and my son ran 1 mile in 8:39, his first race ever! We had a great time, and I can't wait until our next racing weekend. <BR> <BR> Weight is staying down, I'm making better food choices overall than I was a couple weeks ago. I've really been looking good lately, even my hairdresser (whose size I've always admired, and she's tall like me!) said that I didn't nee... Wed, 12 Sep 2007 16:21:36 EST The low is too low? Well, the weekend was mostly fabulous. Saturday was a comedy of errors, including my race being canceled :(. Sunday and Monday were great days...really didn't like having to go back to work on Tuesday! I'm looking at racing a 10k this weekend to make up for the canceled race. <BR> <BR> I'm back to the age old question of when I should stop losing weight. As of right now, I'm 6'1", a mostly comfortable size 6, weighing in at 159 as of this morning. 77 pounds are gone. There are many indicato... Wed, 5 Sep 2007 16:00:39 EST Woohoo! Things are looking's amazing what you can get out of life when you put a little effort into it! <BR> <BR> Work's going great. It usually is, because I like my job and most of the people I work with. My supervisor is AWESOME. But I got not one, but two raises this month! To make things better, one was retroactive to July, so I got a bonus check too! I got some old cases off my desk this month too, which makes me feel good. With everything happening in my personal life the last few mon... Thu, 30 Aug 2007 07:40:40 EST Back to the grind... I'm back at work, now that the big move is over. My son started school this week too...he's a fourth grader. He loves school, even though he's changed schools almost every year. He makes friends really easily, and next week he'll be tested for the school's gifted program. I hope he makes it, my biased opinion is that he's certainly qualified. <BR> <BR> I'm struggling with loneliness :( and I'm thinking about returning to the dating scene. Actually, "returning" might be too strong a verb...I ... Wed, 22 Aug 2007 15:40:47 EST The biggest changes are the hardest to make... Well, it's been....eleven days since my last entry? I don't know that there's enough space available for me to write about all the changes in my life over the past week. <BR> <BR> Last Saturday I left my husband. Literally took off and didn't look back. It's been in the works for awhile, although I didn't tell my husband of my plans to leave. My husband has many great quailities, including supporting my weight loss efforts. Unfortunately, these are overshadowed by his addiction to alcohol. I... Sun, 19 Aug 2007 17:08:25 EST Update! Wow, it's been a long time since I wrote let's play catch up: <BR> <BR> I ran my first 5k on Saturday, July 28. It was extremely hot and humid, but I managed to finish in 30:07. Not my best time by far, but given the weather I'll take it. Monday I ran 5k in 28:34, which is really more my speed. Today I ran 6.5 miles, a new record distance for, while I'm feeling good about that, I've decided to train for a half-marathon in November. It's not that far off of the running I... Wed, 8 Aug 2007 17:32:40 EST How do you explain whales? A friend sent me an email today that asked - "If swimming is so good for your figure, how do you explain whales?" I thought it was really funny. <BR> <BR> This Saturday night is my big debut - my first 5k! I only started running in April, and I'm not worried about placing...but I would be totally stoked to cross the finish line in 30 minutes or less! Today I ran a 5k in there's hope. If nothing else, I'll have a race time to improve on next go around! Really, I'm incredibly nervou... Wed, 25 Jul 2007 19:40:51 EST The "A" word and other issues... My husband and I are having some issues, mostly trust-related. These problems haven't been helped with my weight loss and the fact that I now look great, I'm thin and healthy for the first time ever in our marriage. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure what my husband's problem is...but he's convinced I'm killing myself through starvation. I have relatively current pictures on my sparkpage...I'm not even close to emaciated. I current weigh 167, looking to get to 165 or so. My calorie range is 1760-2010,... Wed, 18 Jul 2007 15:30:31 EST Best.Cake.Ever. (Healthy too!) Okay, I've never been much of a cook, and learning how to cook stuff that's healthy AND tastes good has been a challenge for me. Tonight went really first time ever cooking salmon, and it turned out yummy! I took the fillet and brushed it with a tiny bit of oil, then put it on some aluminum foil. I added some garlic, lemon juice, and pepper, wrapped it up and put it on the grill for 15 minutes. Great taste, and even I couldn't screw it up. <BR> <BR> But what blew me away tonight w... Mon, 9 Jul 2007 23:23:52 EST Life sucks. My life seems to be one big downward spiral these days... <BR> <BR> Most of the problems I posted about before are still with us. Still don't have our mortgage situation resolved, and it's been nearly another month now. Mom's still in the hospital, and she's not doing well. Tomorrow will be her third surgery..and the doctor isn't optimistic about her prognosis, everything seems to be going wrong. The latest developments include an antibiotic-resistant infection, which means that my son can't... Wed, 27 Jun 2007 19:26:01 EST To indugle...or not to indulge? I feel like I've become the food nazi, especially when eating out. Tonight is my brother's rehearsal dinner, at a high-end italian place with no nutritional info available (but think full-fat cream, mozzarella, olive oil, etc). Not very diet-friendly. They do have a couple relatively healthy options (think baked chicken and salad with fat-free dressing)...but to be honest, I've had their healthy options in the past, and they're not particularly appetizing. If they weren't so darn healthy, I w... Fri, 22 Jun 2007 13:23:45 EST My kitty is back! I woke up this morning to some meowing outside....our kitty is back! She was gone for three weeks, and I had almost started to figure she was either dead or taken in by someone else. I'm so happy to have her back!!!!!!!! She's really clingy now too, must've been rough for her. Sun, 17 Jun 2007 15:17:47 EST The stress is eating me alive... Seriously, I'm not sure how much longer I can take it. <BR> <BR> My family went on vacation for two weeks, and we got home last Tuesday. My brother-in-law was house sitting for us, which involved making sure our dog and cat were fed. That's it. You'd think a grown man could handle something so simple. <BR> <BR> Apparently not. We got home, and couldn't find the cat. BIL was nowhere to be found. When he turned up, hours later, I asked about the cat...he told me "I haven't seen the cat since ... Fri, 15 Jun 2007 22:14:54 EST I reached my goal! Well....kind of... So today I stepped on the scale, and it read 174! That's a whole pound less than my goal of 175...and although it was great to see that number, I expect it to be a temporary loss. Why? Because I have the stomach flu, and I haven't been able to keep anything down for the past 24 hours. I couldn't have picked a worse time to get stepdaughter graduates from high school tonight, I have a CPR/first aid class tomorrow, and Saturday I leave on vacation for two weeks. I feel a little better... Wed, 30 May 2007 11:36:00 EST I'm such a chicken... Well, my Avia cross-trainers have served me well as I started the C25K program, but I really need some actual running shoes. <BR> <BR> I went to a local store this past weekend. There's no place around that actually fits you for running shoes, so I did a lot of reading online and tried to find a store that had a wide assortment of brands and styles. I went to the store, ready to try on shoes...but when I got there, I was overwhelmed. There were about 10 people trying on running shoes and ask... Thu, 24 May 2007 16:49:16 EST Back on track! I posted about my plateau last week...and now it's broken! I was out of town for most of last week, and couldn't weigh every day like I usually do. I weighed in Friday morning, and I was down another 2 pounds, under 180! Only 4 more pounds to my goal... <BR> <BR> I bought new clothes last week. A lot of them. Really nice clothes, too...I went to a store, Tall Girl, while I was out of town. I had never before been to a store where everything was long enough in the legs and arms. The best part... Mon, 21 May 2007 13:31:05 EST It's plateau time! I started the Couch to 5k running program about 3 weeks ago, and I've been plateaued ever since - I go between 181 and 183 every day, it seems. None of my measurements are getting smaller either. <BR> <BR> I'm doing great on the C25k program, and I love running! I completed W4D1 today, and it felt good. I just wish I was still losing...this plateau is frustrating. I'm SO close to goal...maybe I shouldn't have messed with what was working, I dunno. I've tried increasing my calories, I've trie... Tue, 15 May 2007 13:09:05 EST Second week of C25K in progress! Today I completed the first day of the second week of didn't feel too bad. I'm glad to have found this program, and I think running is something I can stick with. <BR> <BR> I have been sooo bloated all normally 30-inch waist is pushing 33 inches, ugh. Glad I didn't get rid of ALL my fat pants...they're certainly coming in handy this week! My weight is down, however...I'm just bloated. <BR> <BR> Had a new personal best on the elliptical last night. In 60 minutes, I burne... Thu, 3 May 2007 12:49:21 EST What a weekend! Well, it was a busy weekend! I went running Saturday, and it was 97 degrees - way too hot! I finished my run though, and felt pretty good afterwards. I then went shopping, where I actually found a bikini that was flattering. Didn't buy it, only because I don't have much use for a bikini, but it was fun to try it on...however, then I tried on 30+ pairs of shorts, and couldn't find a single pair that was flattering :( Go figure. I also took some photos of the skinnier me this weekend, but I hav... Mon, 30 Apr 2007 12:47:36 EST C25K - first day complete! I completed the first day of the Couch to 5k program yesterday! To be honest, it was easy, and I didn't hardly break a sweat. I'm taking it really slow though...I'm going to complete day 2 tomorrow. Fri, 27 Apr 2007 16:31:54 EST 51 pounds down... 10 to go! Even after a horrible weekend nutrition-wise (think an entire small pizza and milkshake for dinner), I'm back on track and my weight shows it! <BR> <BR> I've been meaning to post some after pics...but haven't had a chance to take any. I tried taking a couple in the bathroom mirror once...and let me tell you, that is the most UNFLATTERING mirror around. I look horrible in it, and it's the only mirror in the house at the moment due to remodeling. I'll have to get my hubby to take som... Wed, 25 Apr 2007 12:05:31 EST Weekends....ugh. Overall, I didn't do too badly this weekend...but certainly not as well as I could've. After avoiding fried chicken on Friday night, I started Saturday off with an omlette and biscuits and gravy. And an english muffin...I even forgot to order the omlette with egg whites only. I got to follow this meal up with a tri-tip sandwich, since we were at my son's Pinewood Derby race and that was all they were serving. At least I avoided the chips. <BR> <BR> After the race (my son won - congrats D-ma... Mon, 16 Apr 2007 17:55:47 EST I never thought... these pants would see the light of day on my body! I'm sitting here at work in my size 8 jeans! And a medium top, no muffin top that I have to hide with a sweater! I also weighed in at 189 today, only 14 pounds to goal. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, the body dysmorphia remains. I've had these size 8 pants hanging up forever in my bedroom. I actually measured - the waist is right around 30", and the inseam is 36" really, they almost look comical on a hanger. But I put them on, they... Fri, 13 Apr 2007 14:37:28 EST Back on Track! Just have a post a quick note (before my lunch at Olive Garden) that I exercised yesterday! I was kinda stiff and sore, and I never got the second wind I normally do, but I finished it anyways! And, guess who arrived after my workout? - Aunt Flo! I guess things are getting back on track...which would be a good thing. Tue, 10 Apr 2007 13:29:14 EST Can't get my groove back... Well, since I wrote last Thursday, not much has changed. TTOM is still MIA, although 3 pregnancy tests have been negative. I had a great workout Friday...but Saturday and Sunday were horrible. I was starving all weekend, ate a bunch of crap, and couldn't get it together to exercise. I've changed my goals around a little, so now I'm only scheduled to burn 2000 calories per week instead of 2750...doesn't change my calorie range too much, but maybe I'll stop feeling so guilty until I get back in... Mon, 9 Apr 2007 12:58:26 EST Still losing weight...but I feel terrible! First of all, I wanted to say that I had a great dinner at PF Chang's - and stayed within my calorie range! I didn't end up eating dessert, but I had a glass of red wine before dinner, and I ate 2/3 of the noodles instead of 1/2. <BR> <BR> I'm down another 2 pounds today - to 191, 2 more pounds and I'll have a healthy BMI! But I feel AWFUL. I'm super tired for some reason (I took a nap at work yesterday, I couldn't keep my eyes open), NO energy in my workouts, and I've been sleeping at lea... Thu, 5 Apr 2007 12:44:50 EST Happy Birthday to me! Well, so now I'm 2 years short of being 30! Where has the time gone? It seems like just yesterday that I was still in high school...and my 10-year reunion is coming up this summer! <BR> <BR> For some reason, my birthday has caused me to take a look at my life and my goals, as well as the accomplishments I've made so far. Yesterday I bought pants in a MEDIUM - and they fit!! I haven't been a medium in years! It's so exciting to be making positive changes - and I know the last 18 pounds of my ... Tue, 3 Apr 2007 13:56:57 EST New personal best! I am proud of myself...finally covered 7 miles in 60 minutes on my elliptical! I had gotten close before...even 6.97 miles. But never saw that 7...until last night! Yay! Mon, 26 Mar 2007 15:07:22 EST