CACTUSCATNZ's SparkPeople Blog CACTUSCATNZ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New photo at last! Yay, I finally took a new photo of myself! <BR> <BR> <em>133</em> <BR> I've been playing badminton (lots) and volleyball (very little) at every opportunity, and swimming when it's too hot, and last weekend did a local riverside walk (I grew a lot of the plants on that walk! How awesome is that?!). <BR> <BR> <em>205</em> <BR> Yesterday I realized that I am very good at being bad at sports. It sounds like a bad thing, but it's not - usually when I'm bad at something, I give up, because be... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 15:28:43 EST My fave quotes right now "Diet is 9/10 compliance." <BR> <BR> & <BR> <BR> "The best diet is the one you can stick with." <BR> <BR> Both quotes are from Leigh Peele (leighpeele dot com). Though I've heard other people say them as well. <BR> <BR> I am loving the way that Leigh delves deeply into the emotional and mental side of weight loss. Perfect for people who, like me, have been around the diet block a few times and never been able to make it stick despite ever-increasing technical knowledge. <BR> <BR> Leigh P... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 23:32:46 EST Not-A-New-Year's-Post I've been dutifully updating my weight and measurements every month, but I forgot I had a blog, until I stopped by my sparkpage to look at my ticker! You see, I finally made some big changes to my life which have, seemingly organically, caused me to lose 3.4kg in the last month. <BR> <BR> I moved out of the city, back up to my hometown, Otaki. In fact, if you followed my street to the end, it turns into the street I grew up in! Very weird. <BR> <BR> The reasons this has caused weight loss: ... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 14:56:23 EST Balance is STILL hard. Oops, it's been 3 months since my last confession... uh, I mean, my last blog post. Counselling's been pretty hard core in the last few months, and everything else has fallen by the wayside. <BR> <BR> I've been eating healthier food, but too much fat and not enough of anything else, most days. I recalculated my energy needs and confirmed that I'm falling short by between 300 and 600 calories most days. However, I'm getting about 20 grams more fat than I need! There are obviously some fundame... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 17:08:52 EST Balance is hard. Today the only goal I missed was protein - 15g short of my minimum goal. However I was only 2g below the maximum for fat. Obviously there are fundamental problems with the way I eat. <BR> <BR> I need to plan my meals in advance to ensure that I hit my goal ranges, but right now I'm way too tired. I'm holding a small private exhibition in about 6 weeks, and that's going to be sapping even more of my energy in the next while. I need to set aside some time & energy to plan ahead, since once it'... Fri, 1 Oct 2010 04:30:07 EST All-Or-Nothing Girl I am amazed at how much I have to eat to get enough calories every day. It kind of takes a lot more planning than I'd like (which is probably why my usual pattern is to alternate between eating too little and eating too much!). <BR> <BR> Started playing World of Warcraft again today... my main character is a mess (a result of my account being hacked earlier this year), so I'm avoiding her right now, and levelling up a warlock on QUIETOPHOBIC's realm. <BR> <BR> Today is day 15 of not smoking... Thu, 30 Sep 2010 08:55:54 EST Plan-fail mitigation win! So, it just happened that the store near my friend's house had some microwave dinners. I'm not entirely convinced it was any healthier than fish and chips, but it must have had more vitamins... <BR> <BR> Still under my minimum for calories, which is a bit of a bummer - I don't want to mess up my metabolism any worse than it already is. I don't really have any snack-type food around, though. I could boil an egg, but it's getting kind of late (10:35pm...). <BR> <BR> Argh, but I've been within... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 05:39:27 EST Planning fail! I did plan my meals for today in advance, but... I just realized today that sushi rice has about 3x the calories of brown rice, so I decided to make my sushi for lunch with brown rice. Which would have been fine, but it made them TOO HEALTHY. o_O <BR> <BR> I made two rolls, planning to have one for lunch and one for dinner. I was super hungry a couple of hours after the first one, so I ate the second. Entering my nutrition for today, I found I still have 350-700 calories to eat. Fail! Fail! ... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 01:20:03 EST Long time no see, sparkpeople... Uh, what happened? Well, I kind of stopped caring. About me. I started smoking again, stopped going for my 1 hour walks every morning, stopped keeping track of what I ate, started eating more takeaways. Gained back about half of the weight I lost in 2009. <BR> <BR> It could be worse, I could have gained it all back. Or more! <BR> <BR> So I'm trying to look on the bright side, and treat this year as a learning experience. <BR> <BR> What else has happened this year? <BR> <BR> I'm still sing... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 05:41:18 EST Still here but very busy Life's been a bit mad! Just finished my diploma (surprisingly - they changed the system, I thought I'd finish it December 2010), about to start my honours diploma. <BR> <BR> Now flatting with CANDIFLETCH... Yesterday we did Day 1 of Couch To 5k which was fun and challenging... I'm walking 1 hour every day at 6am, loving it. <BR> <BR> Listening to The Fitcast recently (podcasts are the best invention EVER for motivation and education!), and about to step up my strength training, once my 3-mo... Sun, 20 Dec 2009 03:51:20 EST Rushing around Ok, I'm happy to have shed the post-surgery weight, but now I need to lose MORE. Silly body. <BR> <BR> At the moment I'm rushing around like a mad thing trying to do everything in the world. I'm supposed to be finishing Stage 1 of my course at the beginning of December, and I still need to do a "Creativity Project". Which I haven't started. Eek. <BR> <BR> Also looking for part time job. Applied yesterday for the perfect job - admin/database type stuff for Horticulture NZ - since I pretty mu... Fri, 16 Oct 2009 17:10:33 EST Ugh. Being newly teetotal is hard (not drinking is the easy part). I'm looking forward to reaching the point where I stop finding out about horrible things I did while I was drunk. There should be a statute of limitations on this - a point where your friends either tell you they're mad at you for something or get over it without sharing. It took me a few weeks to get past feeling like a horrible person last time, and it'll probably take a while this time. I'd rather think that's it, it's all purge... Sat, 10 Oct 2009 09:10:10 EST nutshell-ness Still feeling pressed for time - all the time. Getting more focused on my health again now, though. Lost the couple of kilos I put on after my apendectomy. Got through the allergies that resulted from lingering anaesthetic in my system. Moving forward. <BR> <BR> Was craving chocolate for a couple of weeks (hence adding a couple kilos, I guess!), forgot that for me it usually means that I need to take a magnesium supplement. I don't love chocolate. It's nice and all, but normally I'm happy sa... Fri, 9 Oct 2009 02:34:12 EST GOSH. No matter how strongly I feel about something, it seems that once other life-things get busy, my previous top priorities get pushed aside. No wonder I'm always getting sick! <BR> <BR> Over the last month or so I've managed to keep myself reasonably active, but haven't done any strength training - on the other hand I've been lifting heavy things, which almost counts. <BR> <BR> My eating hasn't been so good, ever since the appendicitis. I've been visiting my parents every week, and I've gotte... Thu, 1 Oct 2009 00:04:46 EST Still here, just very quiet! I'm still visiting spark every day, still reading the blog posts, still keeping up (mostly) with the message boards - I just haven't had the time or energy to do much commenting. <BR> <BR> I'm not losing weight at the moment, but I'm doing pretty well with improving my fitness. <BR> <BR> Found out today that I'm allergic to nylon, and possibly lanolin. It's not too bad, I just have to get rid of one jacket (90% nylon, feels soft to other people, feels like it is full of sharp bits of fishin... Sun, 13 Sep 2009 22:51:01 EST Teachers are everywhere Check out this video, so inspirational! :-) <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Sat, 22 Aug 2009 20:48:28 EST All-nighter Well, yesterday was up and down. Down was: I had too much sugar and too much fat. The sugar has resulted in an all-nighter. It's 5:30am, and I haven't felt sleepy in the least. Oops. <BR> <BR> Up, on the other hand, I played Shadowrun for the first time, which was fun and a learning curve (fun in itself). Then I had friends over for dinner, and played Trivial Pursuit. <BR> <BR> It would be nice if I had done those things without eating lots of sweets and crisps, but I didn't. I will next t... Sat, 22 Aug 2009 14:13:10 EST Sorted! Things are settling down (including this darn cough, yay!). I'll be helping out more at my family's nursery until my health is good enough to get a real job (i.e. one in Wellington, which pays ok and will be better for my self-esteem than working for my family), and they'll be helping me out with my rent until then. <BR> <BR> This means I get to stay in my perfect flat! Did I mention why my flat is perfect? My lounge and bedroom get lots of sun, and have huge windows that opens right up. The... Mon, 17 Aug 2009 22:54:52 EST Feeling great, even though I'm feeling sick My health is still driving me nuts, but I'm feeling positive about the long term. Right now I feel like my depression and anxiety disorder are more under control then they've ever been, it's just my physical health that's holding me back. The constant bugs and allergies. <BR> <BR> I actually wonder if I'm feeling TOO good mentally, though. When I've felt really good in the past, it's always ended up with a crash. That makes it hard to tell if I've actually improved or whether something is ca... Sun, 16 Aug 2009 19:08:07 EST Not such a good day... ...not that today could have been better than yesterday without winning the lottery. ;-) <BR> <BR> My cough has gotten much worse again, and fatigue is back with a vengeance. I slept most of the day, which at least was a bit of a rest from the coughing. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling very uncomfortable at home when my flatmate is here, which isn't fun. He thought I was shortchanging him on our bills - I printed off the info that shows I wasn't, so that's fine, but because I'm the kind of person who ... Sat, 15 Aug 2009 07:58:57 EST What a beautiful day! Today was wonderful. The weather was lovely, I had the energy to walk at least 100 minutes, I had delicious sushi for lunch with my awesome acupuncturist, I ordered my shoes (they didn't have my size in the colour I wanted, I should have them on Monday), I got my hair cut very stylishly and had it dyed to my natural colour (light brown). And I spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out with one of my best friends, of whom I haven't seen enough recently, and watched an episode of House M.D. <... Fri, 14 Aug 2009 04:07:34 EST It's all happening here... My flatmate told me he's moving out in three weeks, I'm a bit upset but coping. More on that in my post on the August Cafe thread in the NEW team... <BR> <BR> * * * * * <BR> <BR> I'm starting to make a few lifestyle changes to try and improve my systemic health. <BR> <BR> - I'm going to stop using chemical hair dye, go back to pure powdered henna (the kind that has no metal in it). I will sorely miss having bright- and unnaturally-coloured hair. But I am sick and tired of catching everythi... Thu, 13 Aug 2009 03:01:33 EST Histamine is not FTW (This is just copied straight from my post on the NEW team, because I just can't bring myself to write it again in a different way. Ugh.) <BR> <BR> I am SO frustrated. I don't think there's been a week since May when something hasn't gone wrong with me physically! My immune system is terrible, and I react very badly to all insect bites. I've had to go to hospital quite a few times for adrenaline. I got bitten by something on Monday night, and started puffing up yesterday. Got to the doctor r... Tue, 11 Aug 2009 15:13:01 EST Getting there! I slept almost all day yesterday, and today I'm feeling a lot brighter! It feels odd - I talk a lot, usually, and of course yesterday I was very quiet and sleepy, so today talking normally feels strange. <BR> <BR> I haven't been tracking anything, but I've been doing ok. For someone with the flu. I've been eating well (have spent the last few days staying with my parents!), and doing as much exercise as I've been able to. Not a lot, but I'm pleased that it's stayed a priority with me even wh... Fri, 7 Aug 2009 22:30:02 EST Flu I was starting to feel much better - yesterday I worked all day without tiring, which I haven't been able to do in ages. This morning, though, it was incredibly hard to wake up, and I had a slight fever. I'm feeling dizzy! I managed to do a few hours work, but then spent the rest of the day in bed. Boo! <BR> <BR> I'm still feeling good about teetotalling. :-) For the moment I'm avoiding situations (i.e. live music gigs, parties) where I might be tempted or resent other people drinking, but I... Wed, 5 Aug 2009 04:12:57 EST Back on spark and the wagon! What a week! Still not sure if I had the flu or not - I don't think I had a fever, but I don't have a thermometer to check. I've been feeling so weak, and had a hard time eating or keeping any food down, and had a horrible cough. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately I decided that wine was the best cough medication, which certainly can't have helped anything. Alcohol has always been a bit of a problem for me, but it really got out of hand last night at my best friend's housewarming (I even have memory ga... Sun, 2 Aug 2009 03:49:32 EST I'm sick Haven't been around much this week as I'm sick. Might be flu, started feeling feverish last night. Sleeping a lot. Ugh. Feels a bit unfair, as I've been working so hard on my immune system... Sigh. <BR> <BR> H Tue, 28 Jul 2009 15:36:44 EST House dust mites I got my allergen testing results back from the GP yesterday - I'm allergic to house dust mites (also plantain, but not to such a degree that I need to worry about it). I was told to replace my pillows at least once a year, get rid of any velvet curtains (which is what I have in my bedroom), wash my bedding more often, and wash and air my fluffy polyester blankets as often as convenient. As luck would have it, Briscoes have pillows, pillow protectors and curtains on special! So my new pillows... Sat, 25 Jul 2009 01:14:02 EST Update On Tuesday, I didn't get to walk into town after all - a change of plans meant I had to get there quick-smart. Had dinner with one of my best friends, then I walked for an hour while she had a haircut. Then we went to see Harry Potter & the HBP, which was fluffy fun but I wouldn't recommend seeing it without reading the book first. <BR> <BR> I got an insect bite on Tuesday, also. Not a very bad one, but I'm very sensitive to bites (among other things), and yesterday I slept most of the day ... Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:38:05 EST Pedometer failure I walked for 2 hours yesterday, at a cracking pace. And stretched lots afterwards. Yay me! I've been feeling fantastic ever since. <BR> <BR> However, my pedometer completely failed to count my steps. Normally, a 40 minute walk for me is anywhere between 600 and 900 steps, depending on hills (and my hometown is 90% hills). It counted 700 steps for the whole day. I don't think it's the batteries, as the display is fine... I do wonder if it's because usually I wear it on the waistband of my je... Mon, 20 Jul 2009 19:04:36 EST Wishing Waiting at the bus stop today, I was listening to music on my headphones and playing the darbouka I borrowed from a friend. The woman sitting next to me smiled at me, and I sheepishly said "uh, heading for a drum workshop". She replied "it's lovely! I wish I could do that!" I just smiled, but what she had said bothered me for the rest of the trip. <BR> <BR> If she really wanted to drum, wouldn't she do it? She has hands. You can improvise a drum - plastic rubbish bins are my favourite. I don... Sun, 19 Jul 2009 04:15:59 EST Oh! BPM! I forgot to mention the thing I was most excited about yesterday! <BR> <BR> I record my resting heart rate daily. Or most days, anyway. My resting heart rate has gone from 78bpm to 71bpm in the last month. Yay! :-D <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> Fri, 17 Jul 2009 17:18:32 EST Friday night I didn't do too badly, considering I had people over for drinks and singstar. I drank less than I'd planned to drink (more on that below), partly because it hit me harder than I'm used to and partly because my ex drank an unattractive amount. He was so negative! I don't know if he was always like that (and I didn't notice?), or if it's a new thing. <BR> <BR> Not feeling fantastic this morning, a combination of slight hangover and residual negativity from dealing with my ex. Therefore I'm kee... Fri, 17 Jul 2009 17:13:59 EST Boy am I tired The kind of blog title you would expect at the end of the day, but it's 9:30am! I overdid it a bit yesterday, and expended too much mental energy as well. And stayed up too late. And forgot to stretch. <BR> <BR> I'm going for a walk to Otari-Wilton's Bush today with a friend, and I will make sure I warm up properly first and stretch afterwards! I'll try and remember to take some photos, too. It's quite pretty there. ( <link><BR>ens/otariwiltonsbush/otari... Wed, 15 Jul 2009 17:40:25 EST Whoo! I think just realizing the external reasons for my lack of energy helped my motivation! I've just done the Day 1 New You Bootcamp video - 10 minutes of cardio, which is a little more intense than my walks are (so I burned 76% of the calories I would have, in quarter of the time!). SO MUCH FUN! <BR> <BR> <em>216</em> <em>30</em> <em>216</em> <em>30</em> <em>216</em> <em>30</em> <em>216</em> <em>30</em> Tue, 14 Jul 2009 04:39:57 EST Vitamin B and bad weather I just could not get moving today! <BR> <BR> Ok, that isn't entirely true - I did a lot of tidying and reorganizing in my bedroom, and took out the rubbish. I had my first go at strength training - the first time I've picked up dumbells in years! But I didn't do my 40 minute walk. <BR> <BR> At first I thought it was hangover from feeling unwell yesterday. Then I thought I was just having motivational difficulties. I KNOW the bad weather didn't help! <BR> <BR> I just realized a fourth contr... Tue, 14 Jul 2009 03:32:05 EST Wow! "In a study of 32 men and women who suffered from chronic depression, Nalin Singh, M.D. and Tufts University associates divided the individuals into two groups. They directed half to perform strength training while the other half received health information. After three months, 14 of the 16 members who lifted weights felt better and no longer met the criteria for depression." <BR> <BR> ( <link><BR>_articles.asp?id=636 </link> ) Sun, 12 Jul 2009 21:59:37 EST Kilos I finally got around to switching my weigh-ins, goal and start weight to kilograms. For a while there my ticker was showing my start weight as 252kg, my goal weight as 153kg, and my current weight as 113.4kg. Oddness. Got it sorted, and now it's all looking nice and kilogram-ish. :-) <BR> <BR> Weighed in and measured this morning. Forgot to do it before breakfast, so I might do the weigh-in part again tomorrow morning. If I remember. But anyway, I lost 0.72kg, so I'm happy. :-) I've never lo... Sun, 12 Jul 2009 18:44:47 EST I'm baaaaaack! I had a great week! Mostly thanks to going for walks in the bush - especially the Lake Rotopounamu* walk. I forgot to take any photos, but I'll see if I can find some from last time I did it. It's sooooo pretty!! I did it in 75 minutes, which I was pretty proud of since they say on the sign that it's a 90 minute walk. Woohoo! I've decided that walking in pretty forests is much easier and more fun than walking along streets, so I'm going to spend some time seeking out similar places in Welling... Sat, 11 Jul 2009 04:23:55 EST Busy like a bee Things have been busy, but I think everything is wrapped up now... back to my normal routine of school-work and looking for a part-time job that I won't hate! <BR> <BR> Ok, back to the routine NEXT week - this week I'm going on holiday, to stay at my family's holiday home, go fishing, go for walks and chill out for 6 days. I'll try to get some good photos while I'm away so I can share a bit of the beauty of Lake Taupo with everyone. <BR> <BR> Still haven't got new batteries for my scale - h... Fri, 3 Jul 2009 16:48:54 EST Rest = good In serious need of a rest day - glad I planned for one this week! <BR> <BR> Food going very well today. Slightly short on carbs, but I've got the calories available to have some more fruit. Yum. I have lots and lots of fruit, because I order my groceries online and the person who chose them was veeery generous. Win! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow there will be chocolate, because I'm going to be hanging out with a friend who always feeds me chocolate. I wouldn't dream of turning it down, because it's de... Tue, 30 Jun 2009 23:16:39 EST Oops! Accidentally lost the blog post I just wrote, and I really can't be bothered writing it all over again! To summarize: <BR> <BR> - scale needs new batteries, will buy today and weigh in tomorrow. <BR> - freezing yesterday, watched tv with a friend all afternoon in pyjamas. <BR> - helped another friend pack up her kitchen, she is moving on Thursday, her new flat is amazing. <BR> - enjoying my pedometer, it's cool. mostly nowhere near 10000 steps/day yet. <BR> - applying for a job at the zoo. ... Mon, 29 Jun 2009 18:54:36 EST All worn out! I started out Saturday feeling energetic, but used it all up in a (non-physical, annoyingly) rush. I felt like lead the rest of the day, but ended up being awake until 5am. It was a pretty strange-feeling day, all in all! So I'm trying to figure out what went wrong, so that I can prevent another day like that. <BR> <BR> - Did more exercise than I really felt able for on Friday <BR> - Had a too-heavy breakfast on Saturday <BR> - Deviated from my meal plan for the day (not far, but I didn't re... Sat, 27 Jun 2009 20:35:00 EST Everyone should read this! Everyone should read this post by KALATHIA - <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2183710 </link> <BR> <BR> Inspiring, and very wise words as well! <BR> <BR> <em>243</em> <BR> <BR> (My third post today - you can tell it's the weekend...!) Fri, 26 Jun 2009 20:59:37 EST General life things I missed my blog update yesterday! I thought I would have time in the afternoon, but ended up watching Due South with my friend E. Brilliant show! Very, very silly. <BR> <BR> Sushi for lunch yesterday, was wonderful. I could live on sushi alone and be very happy. <BR> <BR> Walked for 85 (!!!) minutes in total. And since it was my first day with my pedometer, I kept finding excuses to get in a few more steps here and there. Still only did 10050, though, so I'll have to work on that. 10k step... Fri, 26 Jun 2009 19:21:27 EST Fun! The 'question of the day' today on the Positive Sparkers team is "What fun do you have planned for this weekend?" - it knocked me for six, because I've been neglecting my FUN! So I decided I need to make a list of things that I find fun, and make sure I HAVE SOME! ;-) <BR> <BR> Alone-type fun: <BR> - Reading <BR> - Listening to music (and doing nothing else) <BR> - Singing <BR> - Walking somewhere I've never walked before (with my camera!) <BR> - Dying my hair <BR> - Watching anime, or a new... Fri, 26 Jun 2009 19:12:59 EST Just a quickie before I go to bed Very tired! Didn't have a chance to go for my official walk today, but was very active all the same. Walking from bridal shop to bridal shop. Only one of the shops had a dress on the rack that I could try on, and that one looked TERRIBLE. Left me feeling even more motivated to lose the extra fat around my stomach and hips (the same fat that makes me a diabetes risk). <BR> <BR> When I finally got home tonight, my pedometer was waiting for me. I would have liked to go straight out and put it t... Thu, 25 Jun 2009 06:25:00 EST Exercising while unwell In the past, I would have taken the slightest excuse not to exercise. Therefore I had no idea how sick I would need to be before I actually SHOULDN'T exercise! I had a look around, and found this: <BR> <BR> "Mild to moderate physical activity is usually OK if you have a cold but no fever. Exercise may even help you feel better by temporarily relieving nasal congestion. <BR> <BR> As a rule of thumb for exercise and illness: <BR> <BR> * Proceed with your workout if your signs and symptoms ar... Wed, 24 Jun 2009 01:49:46 EST Photos from my walk, as promised! It was such a beautiful day, I walked for about 50 minutes. :-) <BR> <BR> The view from the top: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> There were actually awesome views in every direction, but because of the angle of the sun I could only get good photos down to Island Bay. <BR> <BR> The Powhenua: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The Powhenua again: <BR> <img src=" Tue, 23 Jun 2009 00:32:04 EST Reasons why I want to have a list of tangible reasons that I don't like being unfit and overweight. It seems rather negative, but I hope I'll find it motivational when I come back and read it later! I'll try and phrase things as positively as I can... <BR> <BR> I want to... <BR> <BR> able to just crouch down and tie my shoelaces without my stomach and boobs getting in the way. <BR> ...say goodbye to checking that my t-shirt isn't tucked in between my stomach and my spare tire. <BR> money ... Mon, 22 Jun 2009 22:41:39 EST