C8TSON's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=C8TSON C8TSON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Coming up with a Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730203 For the past several weeks, I have been so busy with so much. Work this time of year is always very crazy for me as it is the end of our fiscal year. That means lots of extra hours (sometimes even at night) and not a lot of time to dedicate to me. Add on that I had company for about two solid weeks, and it has been a pretty crazy month. <BR> <BR> I'm very ready to get back to my daily routine again. During this time, I haven't been eating the healthiest, nor have I had the time to exer... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 23:41:47 EST Putting the Scale Away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704272 Good morning! It's a lovely Tuesday morning after a nice long weekend of MUCH NEEDED rain. It rained off and on all weekend long and it was amazing! <em>27</em> We have been in a serious drought for a long time now, and with the threat of wildfires and blazing temperatures in the summers, it's always welcome to rain as much as it wants! <BR> <BR> The past week has been amazing for me in every way--physically, mentally, spiritually...just great! I can't believe how much better I have... Tue, 27 May 2014 10:31:36 EST Starting Over Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700150 So, yesterday I worked on this blog for a while, and then I put it aside for a while. I thought on it, and contemplated it overnight, and this morning, I had a renewed sense of what I wanted to REALLY say. I think what I really need to say is much simpler than what I wrote down yesterday, and honestly, while I think yesterday was good writing, it was probably more for me than for the rest of the world to see. <BR> <BR> I have had a rough few weeks, as many of you know from looking at my ... Wed, 21 May 2014 16:24:03 EST Still been rough... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693360 I would love to say that since my last blog, things have totally improved, but they haven't. Life has just been crazy lately. <BR> <BR> For one, it is nearly impossible to go exercise outside. It's not even pleasant to get out and go to the gym because the weather has been so crappy. The wind blew up to gusts of 44 mph--which is tame compared to many of the other days we have had. <em>234</em> The only real break we get SOMETIMES is in the evening, and since we are still in the most... Mon, 12 May 2014 11:43:23 EST Rough Couple of Weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683173 Good morning! This is a venting blog, so reader beware. <BR> <BR> Since the BLC, I have just fallen off the good path. I have gained weight back, have gotten off of my healthy eating to a bad point, and I have just been downright depressed lately. The weather hasn't helped at all. The wind has been blowing sometimes 50-60 mph every day for almost a week. And, I was sick for a while last week. <BR> <BR> I don't know what has caused this slip. I feel like things have just caved in a... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 12:55:19 EST BLC 24 Results--So Much More Than the Scale (with pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672010 This BLC challenge was far more successful than I ever imagined. Really, I never imagined meeting my weight loss goal, much less exceeding it by 7 pounds! I had a total weight loss of 19 pounds in the challenge. Wow! It really inspired me though, and after seeing my after pictures, I KNEW that what we have been doing is working. One, the weight loss is obvious--particularly in my belly. Two----inches and lots of them! <em>7</em> Three, chiropractic work has improved my posture expon... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 12:15:13 EST An Important Health Message from Clark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663040 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1057957170.jpg"> <BR> Making sure you look cute all the time is hard work. Constantly, you have to watch what you eat, exercise, fix your hair (if you have some), and dress real nice. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l391353810.jpg"> <BR> It's rough bein healthy sometimes! Sometimes I wanna be like, " you want me to eat WHAT?!" <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1914749962.jpg"> <BR... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 22:55:27 EST Some Reflecting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661311 Lately I have struggled with feelings of inadequacy due to plateaus in weight loss, sluggish and tired feeling, lack of time, and the inability to eat the foods I always devoured without a second thought in the past. However, after spending some time talking with Justin, I realized that looking at what I haven't accomplished yet is a waste of energy, and may even be a contributing factor to my plateau. I need to embrace what I have accomplished since I started all of this journey two years ... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 23:43:18 EST Clark is 6 Months Old Already! (with pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655682 I can't believe my baby is growing up so quickly! Some of you have been wanting to see updated pictures of him, so here he is! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l902427322.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1850590221.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1397441570.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l92292064.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What an amazing adventure this has been! Each day brings ... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 20:38:51 EST My Worst Nightmare Seems to Be Coming True....Again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651487 Ever go through a maze? Just when you think, "Aha! Just turn that corner, and I will find my way out!" only to find another dead end? Or, what about playing with a Rubik's cube? You think you have it all figured out, and then, much to your dismay, you find yourself scratching your head when you get all the reds matched up, but blue and green have somehow come together and messed it all up. This has been my life on a diet for the last two years. Just when I think I have the perfect answe... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 10:59:34 EST Wasted Time on Feeling Sorry for Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645273 Good morning. I am writing this because once again, I have fallen into that trap of feeling sorry for myself and allowing that to derail me. Well, I FELL into that trap and the past couple of days have been exponentially better. <BR> <BR> Last week, I ate really really well. I focused on eating right, and I did a great job. However, there was one day when there just weren't enough hours in the day (which is typical), that I gave in to a fast food dinner. Justin and I had pushed oursel... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 10:55:29 EST Lately...(with pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639669 I want to write a quick update about what has been going on lately. First of all, I apologize for not keeping up with blogs. I'm not sure what is going on, but with my blog subscriptions, I sometimes don't get emails letting me know when my friends have written blogs. I don't understand, and then by the time I realize it, I have missed a million blogs. Anyone know why? <BR> <BR> Anyway, I am on this new diet, under the supervision of a doctor. It has been quite an adjustment for many ... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 15:55:50 EST Dear Sugar, this is Good-bye http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620591 My dear, sweet Sugar <em>76</em> <em>468</em> <em>473</em> <em>475</em> <em>44</em> <em>495</em> <em>493</em> <em>494</em> <em>255</em> <em>222</em> , <BR> <BR> I am writing this letter to you to let you know our relationship has changed. I don't want to shut you out of my life forever, but I also know that you can no longer be as important in my life as you once were. <BR> <BR> Many times throughout the course of my life, you have been there, Sugar. Calmin... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 16:09:57 EST Quick Question for my Sparkfriends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613332 I need some help with something. I took my measurements this morning, exactly one month after my first set of measurements in January. Here's what it looks like: <BR> <BR> January <em>425</em> <BR> waist <BR> 46 <BR> hips <BR> 52 <BR> thigh <BR> 28.5 <BR> upper arm <BR> 15 <BR> neck <BR> 16.5 <BR> calf <BR> 17 <BR> <BR> February <em>129</em> <BR> waist <BR> 42.5 <em>55</em> <BR> hips <BR> 50.5 <em>55</em> <BR> thigh <BR> 28.5 <em>55</em> <BR> upper arm <BR> 16 <em>49</em> ... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 19:22:13 EST So, I'm Stressing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610701 I'm completely thrown off my game today. I blew it for dinner last night and tonight. I mean, royally blew it. And I didn't even try to exercise today. <BR> <BR> I am an emotional eater. You might be wondering why I would have done this to myself. Why, after a 3 pound loss this week? Why after meeting 1,000 fitness minutes for the month? Why after all the NSV's? <BR> <BR> One reason. My parents are coming to town for a visit this weekend. They will be here in a mere 14 hours. My... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 23:43:12 EST Something Crazy Just Happened!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608639 Ok, I have to share something with you about tonight. I think things are really happening in my body as a result of all my healthy changes. <BR> <BR> So, as I blogged earlier in the week, I was worried about the temptation to eat out. So, I made a plan, and I stuck to it. I knew that the temptation would become overwhelming to me, and that if I didn't make a plan I would give in and binge on whatever I could find at the nearest fast food restaurant. The night before Justin left, I took... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 21:39:43 EST Weekend Challenge #2 BLC 24-Part 4 Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607642 RESOLVE <BR> Record every BLT (bite, lick, taste) <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Energize with 20 minutes intentional fitness-- <em>248</em> Chapfit on the treadmill, on the track, and some circuit training <BR> <BR> Sip your water-- <em>248</em> 8 glasses <BR> <BR> Open your mind to trying new things-- <em>248</em> Had a black bean and spinach pita. It was very tasty! <BR> <BR> Learn--Read a spark article-- <em>248</em> Yesterday <BR> <BR> Virtual Vacation-- I actually did not d... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 22:07:39 EST Weekend Challenge #2 BLC 24-Part 3 Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606672 RESOLVE <BR> Record every BLT (bite, lick, taste) <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Energize with 20 minutes intentional fitness-- <em>248</em> Yoga! <em>135</em> <BR> <BR> Sip your water-- <em>248</em> 8 glasses <BR> <BR> Open your mind to trying new things-- Actually didn't try anything new today. I couldn't really think of anything! Plus, the day was so rushed trying to get everything done before my sweetie departs tomorrow. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Learn--Read a spark article-- <... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 23:08:40 EST Weekend Challenge #2 BLC 24-Part 2 Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605734 A short update for Saturday <BR> RESOLVE <BR> Record every BLT (bite, lick, taste) <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Energize with 20 minutes intentional fitness-- <em>248</em> Hydro Flow--water yoga/pilates. Didn't get up in time to hit Aqua Zumba, so hit this one instead. So glad I did--totally needed the stretching. <BR> <BR> Sip your water-- <em>248</em> 8 glasses <BR> <BR> Open your mind to trying new things-- <em>248</em> Went to a new place for purified water, and had them clean/st... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 22:59:28 EST Weekend Challenge #2 BLC 24-Part 1 Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604843 RESOLVE <BR> Record every BLT (bite, lick, taste) <em>248</em> This is hard for me because I don't always like to admit when I sneak a little of this or a little of that. No matter how painful it is to face it--I'm going to record it all! <BR> <BR> Energize with 20 minutes intentional fitness-- <em>248</em> Went for my MWF workout that is tied to Chapfit. Today I actually JOGGED on the treadmill <em>321</em> and then did the circuit machines. After did a nice 1/2 mile cool down. ... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 23:15:52 EST Weekend Challenge: BLC 24 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599493 My Goal: To get re-established on a diet which is tracked, measured, and planned each week; to get re-established on working out a minimum of 3 times each week. <BR> My SMart Goal: To lose at least 12 pounds by the end of the BLC. <BR> My SMArt Goal: To lose 1-2 pounds per week. <BR> My SMART Goal: To achieve all of these goals by the end of 12 weeks. <BR> <BR> Why do I have these goals? <BR> 1) I desire to be healthy for my husband and my son. I no longer have unhealthy notions about look... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 22:28:18 EST BLC/Chapfit Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595246 Well, it all started today. I see now how very crazy my life is going to become over the next 12 weeks! I have decided the best way for accountability is to track honestly, blog honestly, and do all of these things diligently. So, below is the bitter truth. <em>46</em> <BR> Weight: 236 <BR> waist <BR> 46 <BR> hips <BR> 52 <BR> thigh <BR> 28.5 <BR> upper arm <BR> 15 <BR> neck <BR> 16.5 <BR> chest <BR> 48.5 <BR> So, here goes the other... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.co... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 21:52:32 EST Renewed Spirit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587043 Good morning all! I am feeling wonderful again! I think I had to go through some tough times to reevaluate what it is I'm doing. It just so happened, many things really fell into place for me lately. <BR> <BR> After my major pity party, those of you who were brave enough to come and read about it, I took a few days to just think about stuff. I went through a lot in those days, and I cried and I prayed, and just thought....and thought.....and thought. Well, after doing some thinking ab... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 15:02:02 EST Failing--Warning, this is a total pity party, so don't feel obligated to read. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576634 Good morning fellow sparkers. I come to you in a state of sadness and let down. I have really let myself go with the holidays. Last night was the first home-cooked meal I have had in two weeks. <BR> <BR> Basically, after Thanksgiving, I just basically said, "forget it. It's not even worth trying to lose weight right now." Part of this has been stress induced. Between work, getting ready for Christmas, keeping house for surprise visitors, trying to make everything super special for my... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 12:04:46 EST A Little Christmas Cheer for You! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5567191 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l25859555.jpg"> <BR> Is it really almost Christmas?! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l381830226.jpg"> <BR> Pssst Santa! I been real nice since I was born! Can I please have my own sparkpeople account? My mommy sure loves it and has wonderful friends! <BR> <BR> Merry Christmas everyone! Love you all! <em>252</em> <em>442</em> <em>443</em> <em>444</em> <em>445</em> <em>446</em> <em>460</em> <em>... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 10:49:01 EST FEAR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554989 So, I'm afraid. I'm going to just come right out and admit it. I have lost 14 pounds since I had Clark, which I'm thrilled about, but I'm afraid of getting back to the place I was before I got pregnant. I had spent 8 months trying to lose weight and was teetering in a 7 pound range during that entire span. It was like my body just refused to lose weight no matter what I did. <BR> <BR> I am unsure of the cause of this. I have wondered if I have just done too much damage in the past to ... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 11:14:43 EST Major NSV!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546986 So, I have been losing about a pound a week for a couple of weeks! YAY! <em>9</em> I'm still on the no soda route, although I did buckle two times. Once was when we wound up having to eat out due to a lot of craziness I won't bore you with here. I didn't like their tea options, and I had already paid for a drink. A few days later, I had an emotional day, and chose to eat a meal that I shouldn't have all the way around, and you guessed it, I had a coke. But, I brushed it off and I'm fo... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 13:39:26 EST Updates, Pictures, Etc. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539517 So, I am officially 12 days soda free! <em>244</em> It hasn't been half as bad as I imagined it would be. I have had a few mild cravings but nothing too serious. The unfortunate part of all of this is that the scale stopped moving again. This, of course, has been the story of my life for the past two years. I lost 8 pounds almost immediately after Clark was born and I was so sure this time was it. I have been at the same weight since 10/21. I do attribute some of this to going out o... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 20:18:50 EST Spark Activity Tracker??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527365 Has anyone purchased the spark activity tracker? If so, do you like it? Was it a useful purchase? It sounds like an excellent gadget, but I don't want to invest in one until I know enough about it. I'm checking reviews, but wondering if any of my friends have it. Any advice/help would be much appreciated! <em>252</em> <em>253</em> Wed, 30 Oct 2013 11:20:38 EST No Soda November for Me Coming Soon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5526667 So, I have been back to tracking for nearly two weeks now, and it has been much easier than I imagined! I'm thrilled! I'm still having a hard time fitting in exercise just due to taking care of Clark and working again. But, I have set up some goals on the new goal board (which I LOVE by the way), so I'm hoping this will help me to focus a little better. <BR> <BR> As for November, I have a plan. I have set up a very important goal for myself. One of my greatest weaknesses is soda. Any... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 16:22:07 EST Getting Back on the Right Track Part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519280 So, when I weighed myself and saw a 7 pound loss for the week, I nearly fainted. I haven't seen the scale move like that since I was 18 years old. I do believe most of that weight was pregnancy water weight though. Right after I had Clark, I continued to retain water and remain at a high level of blood pressure. I couldn't figure it all out, but I soon realized that I had developed a slight UTI--something that was not uncommon throughout my entire pregnancy. I think I had 4 total over th... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 10:36:39 EST Getting Back on the Right Track Part 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516248 I have not been active on Spark in months. I never bargained to be so uncomfortable in my final trimester, and naturally, I have taken some time to heal after having my son. However, I never lost my desire to be healthy. In fact, I probably pushed myself too hard a few times during my pregnancy, but I wouldn't change a thing. I seriously wouldn't change one thing. <BR> <BR> When I started sparkpeople, I weighed in at 220. I didn't realize what a huge instant plateau I was going to be ... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 16:17:34 EST Giving Credit Where Credit is Due http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501318 Yesterday I blogged about my wonderful son and the experience I had having him. Today I want to focus on the one person who has made this whole experience not only possible, but 100% better. My dear husband Justin. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1768014865.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Since the moment I found out I was pregnant, this man has been my rock. He took immediate control of the situation and really jumpstarted a somewhat stagnant remodel; he finished our bed... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 11:20:10 EST Introducing...My Beautiful Son http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500489 Hello Sparkies! It has been six days since I gave birth to my precious and perfect son, Clark. He was born last Tuesday afternoon and weighed in at a healthy 10 pounds and measured 21.5 inches long. He is the most beautiful gift God has ever given to me. <BR> <BR> I started having false labor on Saturday night, while at the drive-in movies with my hubby. It was our last attempt at a night out together, and although it was a lot of fun, I was in a lot of pain! I definitely won't forge... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 15:37:50 EST 29 Today and Holding... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483872 So, today is my 29th birthday. My husband has been waiting anxiously for this day to arrive, as I really picked on him when he turned 29. I told him, "Hey, enjoy, for this is the last time you will turn 20-something!" Needless to say, he received great joy in saying this same thing to me this morning. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I joke about my age all the time. For the longest, I have told people I am 21 each year. Now they laugh at me, so that lets me know that I should accept 29 for a... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 17:15:52 EST Hurting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474745 So, as you all know, I do not like to come to spark just to vent out my troubles; but lately, I have had more troubles than necessary and I have no one on earth to talk to about it, other than my husband and my spark friends. So, I'm going to write it all down, painful as it may be. <BR> <BR> I REALLY don't like writing about personal issues here either, but I feel like my emotions are trying to spill out. So, I haven't really admitted it here because I don't want anyone to feel anger or... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 14:43:53 EST Feeling Tremendous Guilt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466683 Spark friends, I am feeling really bad about myself lately. Over the last month or so, I have really struggled. For feeling so great the first two trimesters, I never expected to feel so lousy in the third. Constant heartburn, legs that closely resemble tree trunks, and sleepless nights. I know it all comes with the territory, but it has completely turned my whole world upside down. <BR> <BR> When I entered this pregnancy, I was very fit. Was I as slender as I desired? Nope, I was st... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 10:46:35 EST As Requested a Pregnancy Progress Pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456972 So, here goes nothing. I have had several requests for me to post progress photos of what I look like at this stage (about 8.5 months now). This picture was taken last week. I insisted to my husband that I wouldn't set foot in front of a camera unless I had on some nice clothes and makeup! LOL! I'm totally embarrassed by all the weight I have gained with this pregnancy. <em>39</em> But, I guess afterwards, I will have a pretty big goal to reach. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 09:33:08 EST Pregnant Women Cry Often...Let's Not Make it Worse, Okay? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438898 I have never cried more in my life than I have over the last several months. In fact, I'm not much of a crier at all. I hardly cry even when I'm emotionally torn up over stuff. Evidently, I had a lifetime of tears to make up for since being pregnant, because it seems that is all I ever do. And sometimes, it's completely humiliating because it's in a public place. I guess I should be glad I didn't take the psychotic angry pregnant lady route, but still, this constant crying is unruly. <... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 18:01:05 EST Since I'm Awake....I Will Share My Excitement! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430164 Well, good morning everyone. I am wide awake at 2:55 am, only to be wakened by the worst case of heartburn in my entire life. I have had heartburn before, but this pregnancy heartburn has GOT to be the worst thing I have encountered. The worst part is going to bed feeling just fine, then waking at some horrid hour in a highly abrupt way, choking because the stuff has burned my throat. Tonight was the kicker though, and so here I sit, waiting for some relief from the antacid I took. Perha... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 04:42:09 EST The Home Stretch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425298 I'm officially 30 weeks prego. My body is stressing me out more and more each day. The first two trimesters were a complete breeze compared to what I'm enduring now, but I still feel like I'm one of the lucky ones. And, I'm enjoying my baby's kicks, jabs and punches to the fullest extent. But, I have to say, it's not easy lugging my big old self around! I feel like I weigh a million pounds. Last night, after hours of ironing, my legs felt like they each weighed 200 pounds. It was all I... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 11:54:50 EST Wide Awake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398837 I have been awake for a while now. I awoke abruptly, got up to use the little girl's room and get a refreshing drink (or gulp) of water. One of the first things I noticed is how I feel that somehow in my sleep, I sustained a massive neck injury. It was only when I laid back down that I realized it: I bought another piece of crap pillow. <BR> <BR> I became hotly angry lying there on my flat as a pancake pillow. The advertisement on the outside claimed great and magical things about this p... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 05:58:51 EST HELP!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396491 I would like some advice. I am going through, cleaning out every part of my house for a garage sale. I have been hanging onto some jeans that are still in perfectly good condition in hopes of fitting into them again. Before I became pregnant, they were a looooooooong distance from fitting me again. I have had these things for YEARS. I am seriously considering getting rid of them, but the ultra cheap side of me says maybe I should hang on to them because clothes are expensive and I MIGHT ... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 16:06:40 EST June 12th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387080 Today has been pretty uneventful so far, and I am glad for that. Generally, something major happens on June 12th for some reason and has done so for most of my life. Although I can't recall every single June 12th, I can say, I only recall two of them that were uneventful. <BR> <BR> Last year my adorable niece was born on June 12th. This was a great blessing in my life, as she was the first of the nieces and nephews I was able to welcome into the family since my DH and I were married. P... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 14:49:28 EST Why I No Longer Believe in the Medical Field http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381471 Good morning! After much thought about this subject yesterday, I decided that today is the day I would proceed in sharing my experiences with all of you. I'm sure you have noticed my mistrust in the medical field by this point, and I will say, I believe that I am strongly validated. I will give credit where credit is due and say the medical field has done wonders for many people. I'm just not one of them. <BR> <BR> I view medicine the way I view art. Art is very subjective. It's base... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 12:40:49 EST Revision to a Revised Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380459 Ok. I originally wrote a blog to help me clarify my thoughts from yesterday. Upon reading it again, I decided it needed to go away completely and be revised again. I have this awful habit of badmouthing the medical field, and I feel that I should not do that without further explaining myself, which I will do at some other time. Today is not the day for that. However, I will explain a little bit about my original stance. <BR> <BR> I live in a place where finding holistic or natural car... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 14:47:49 EST Future Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379074 <em>213</em> Hi! I wanted to start off by saying thank you for all of your support during my rough times last week. I will say, things are still not completely resolved, but I am feeling better. I'm going to press on and continue to pray for guidance. Life is just going to be chaotic for a while and I have to accept that. I also went and had a visit with my counselor and that helped me immensely! Of course, that was more on the personal level of stuff that I didn't post here. <em>41... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 11:39:08 EST Warning: Selfish Ranting!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370390 I am not much of a complainer in my blogs. I really try to stay positive for my own benefit as well as for others, but I have to say, I have been feeling a little down lately. I know it may sound completely selfish of me to say this with all the abundant blessings in my life. I even often feel guilty for having these thoughts, but it has been overwhelming these last couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> I will start with my main reoccurring issue. I have more to do than I have energy to spare. Le... Tue, 28 May 2013 12:31:15 EST Happy 1 Year Sparkversary to Me! (with pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358741 Today marks my one year Sparkversary! This is an excellent feeling, and I am so glad I have made it this far. Sparkpeople has truly changed my perspective on health. I no longer see life as one everlasting, droning diet. <em>24</em> I do not view exercise as a painful chore to bring sorrow and woe upon my life. <em>33</em> I view life very differently than I ever did in the past, and I have to say, I believe much of this is attributable to sparkpeople and my many amazing sparkfriend... Thu, 16 May 2013 15:45:08 EST My Growing Belly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349735 So, I have had many requests from many people (including spark friends) who have wanted to see pictures of my growing belly. I am very camera shy, particularly when I don't feel like I'm looking my best, but I decided to go ahead and take some progress pics. Thankfully, these pictures will not expose my monster gross ankles! Anyway, here it is, and just so you know, I'm officially 5 months along today (20 weeks) so at the official half-way point! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sp... Wed, 8 May 2013 11:17:35 EST