C11ELF16's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=C11ELF16 C11ELF16's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Crazy busy - Need to get back on track ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217184 Oh how I missed my sparkfriends. Ah - I have been so busy with the new job the past year that I havn't been on track as much as I had hoped. I did join a gym and did great the first 8 months but then it got cold outside. I hate going ANYWHERE extra after work when it is cold out. I am "trying" to get back on track and force myself to go to the gym even though I hate the cold. <BR> <BR> Truth is - I am up a few pounds <em>39</em> - and time to SHED them ! I want to get back to where I was ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 14:36:07 EST New Job - New Workout plan - New me ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4816556 I started my new job on 2-27-12. I knew it would be an adjustment. I have to drive 30 min to the new job as opposed to old job where I was 5 min from work. I told myself I would never drive further....but this job was TOO good to pass up. After 5 weeks at the new job - I am glad that I took it! I am way more challenged. I have way more opportunities. I moved up in my career and making more $. Hours are flexible. I work in a sales office with only 1 other person and away from the production ... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 10:56:23 EST Crazy Busy - Starting NEW job in 2 weeks ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4737138 I gave my 2 weeks notice this morning to my current employer. I wasn't LOOKING for a new job. The NEW job was looking for me ! My old boss that I used to work with came looking for me when he started a new job 3 months ago. He recommended me. I wasn't even going to consider it....but the NEW company said to tell them what I would need in order to take the job. I set my sights HIGH and expected them to counter offer. I almost fell off my chair when they met my requests regarding salary and be... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 16:23:23 EST Welcome to 2012 ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4659707 Thanksgiving and Christmas 2011 came and went by so fast. The holidays just seemed to FLY by. Well - actually the entire year of 2011 went by VERY fast ! So - here we are in 2012..... <BR> <BR> The past week or so I have been fighting with sinuses and trying not to get sick. Everyone around me is sick (Especially at work). So I have been trying to get EXTRA rest, drink lots of fluids, eat healthy and take sinus medication to help. There have been a few days when I was tired and more weak du... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 13:47:08 EST Today - Tomorrow - Forever ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4614586 I am SOO excited that I have been able to stick to my GOOD eating habits and dropping weight over the past few days. I ate a healthy dinner last night with Chicken, Broccoli, Mushrooms and brown rice. I was hungry later in the evening but painted my fingernails to keep from munching. Later I had a couple chocolate rice cakes to help my belly to stop grumbling. It helped for a while but then I was up in the middle of the night hungry. <BR> <BR> I was thinking that maybe I need to add a bit... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 09:30:27 EST Today I am focused on me ! Really back on track now ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4613060 I haven't been on spark in the past few months as I had been over the past few years. I thought I could "police" myself and stay on track. Truth is that I started slipping and one little cookie turned into another and then a donut, bagel, french fries, croissant, bacon cheeseburger or slice of pie. Next thing you know I was eating out at restaurants more often and making bad choices there too. I mean what is ONE little treat. Well "one" little treat seemed to keep adding up. You know you tell... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 10:12:49 EST Sometimes tomorrow NEVER comes.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4552635 Did you eat that cookie today ? Did you Tell yourself that TOMORROW you will make up for it? Tomorrow...you will eat better. Tomorrow you will resume your workout. Tomorrow you will GET BACK ON TRACK. Well guess what ? That strategy doesn't work! Really - trust me....it just DOES NOT WORK !!!! LOL <BR> <BR> TODAY is the day I need to get back on track. Maintaining my weight for 2 years has been a BIG deal to me. The last couple months I have been slipping slightly. A couple pounds up then ..... Tue, 25 Oct 2011 13:48:05 EST Fall is coming..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4486267 Fall is approaching and I LOVE this time of year ! I am COOKING mode. I am finding lots of new and exciting healthy recipes. I am also trying to integrate some WORKOUTS into my busy schedule again. Last night I did some hand weights while watching TV. Tonight I am going to try to squeeze in some treadmill and bowflex time after shopping and dinner. <BR> <BR> I am only a FEW pounds up from where I was a couple years ago after losing MOST of the weight that I wanted to lose. I am DETERMINED to... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 10:46:04 EST Summer 2011- this year is flying by! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4362333 Well hello my fellow Sparkers ! It has been a while since I blogged. This year is going by so fast. The Spring flew by and now the summer is going by quickly as well. Hubby and I just got back from a week in Las Vegas. It was fabulous to finally spend some time with him since he has been working 6 days a week since the begining of the year. <BR> <BR> The summer has been filled with lots of fun stuff.....outdoor theatre, Six Flags Season Tickets, Fishing, Hiking, our dachshunds Max and baby ... Thu, 14 Jul 2011 12:02:47 EST Time to get SERIOUS (again)- Really !!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4189038 I haven't been as focused on myself and my goals lately. SO much going on. But after a fabulous weekend with hubby and getting LOTS accomplished at home....I am feeling renewed and ready to get SERIOUS again ! Feel free to visit my blog..... <BR> <BR> <link>lukewarmtosizzlinghot.blogspot.com/2<BR>011/04/time-to-get-back-on-track.html </link> <BR> <BR> I started this blog last year....but got off track when I found out my dad had cancer. Losing dad last year was hard and its been hard to ... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 10:44:39 EST What a difference 10 years makes (Life Ins Medical Exam info) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4146357 10 years ago I took out my first life Ins policy and had to have a medical exam for underwriting. My policy expired this year and so I had to have a NEW policy written - thus another Medical exam and underwriting again. I wondered how my health would compare to 10 years ago. I was SHOCKED ! <BR> <BR> My results from the urine and blood work won't be in for a week or more. Get a look at this though.... <BR> <BR> Ten years ago when I took the Life Insurance health exam my numbers looked li... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 10:02:16 EST Life in Wisconsin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4140957 The weather in WI has been cold one day and warm the next. Hence.....hubby and I have been sick off and on for the past few months. We both been taking Vit C and eating good and trying to rest. This week I am doing pretty good. Unfortunately hubby is SICK again. He has been working lots of overtime as well as working 6 days a week for months. This time the COLD really has a hold of him and he is home in bed today. Hoping he can KICK it this time around ! <BR> <BR> Baby Dasha got fixed this p... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 10:34:15 EST Please VOTE for baby Dasha on Facebook ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4110597 Please click LIKE on Dasha's photo on the Dave's Ace Hardware page so that she can WIN the contest !!!!! <BR> <BR> <link>www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1015<BR>0111177789405&set=o.262645246848&ref=nf </link> <BR> <BR> If you at first dont see the like button you just have to like Daves ace hardware page first then you can vote for Dasha by clicking the LIKE button! Thank you everyone and please ask your friends to vote for Dasha also! This is a VERY tight contest....and she is neck and... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 16:57:51 EST Baby Dasha (photo) and update on me ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4041813 Baby Dasha is growing up so quickly. She is now a little bone muncher. As you can see in this photo she has taken the BIG boy bone that we bought for Max (our older dachshund). She looks proud of herself doesn't she ? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l133099404.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Dasha has also figured out how to escape from her puppy play pen ! I put her in the pen last night and when to the other end of the house. Next thing I knew she was at my feet. Little escap... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 14:54:37 EST Long time no blog-Baby Dasha is a blessing but she wears me out! (photos) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3966548 Well I survived the rest of 2010. Hubby got through all his medical tests and seems to be doing better. Mom had surgery done on her shoulder 12-10-10 to repair the torn rotator cuff that resulted from her discloated shoulder when she fell down the stairs in Oct. She is doing therapy 2x a week for 2 hr each time. As of last week she no longer has to wear a sling. The arm and shoulder is getting better. She still has NO use of her hand at ALL. Workman's comp is denying to cover treatments that ... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 15:59:46 EST Life is full of ups & downs. I REFUSE to be defeated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3759533 SO much going on with my mom falling a few weeks ago, last week being the 8 mo anniversary of losing my Frita Girl (10-27) and Dads 65th Birthday last week on 10-27 (even though he has passed.) I refuse to be defeated and am trying to stay on track best on can. <BR> <BR> GOOD news is that a long hair red baby girl dachshund was born on 10-27-10 ! Seems that she is meant to be with us. Hubby and I have decided to name her Dasha and add her to our family. We will be going to get her on Decemb... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 13:32:07 EST 2010 = rough year and no end in sight !!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3744142 Well as most of my Sparkfriends know 2010 hasn't been the best year. I lost my 14 yr old Dachshund in Feb and then lost my dad in July to Cancer. I had a blocked salivary gland in the Spring and hubby had kidney stones in the Fall. Both hubby and I had to have major medical tests which add up to more expense and stress. All in all I was trying to stay upbeat through it all. <BR> <BR> Last Thursday, however, I got a call just before 7 am that my mom had fallen down a flight of stairs where s... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 13:53:28 EST Yep - Fall is here! Hubby doing better. Got to get serious about SPARKIN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3674703 i had to put the summer clothes away (boo hoo) So now I am looking through my closet and trying to figure out what I have that I can wear for the fall and winter. I found a FEW outfits that I forgot that I had. I also realized I need to shop for more stuff in my size. I ordered a Sweater in XL from the Juniors Dept and had to return it and get smaller size. Whoo hoo ! I am slowly going to get rid of the LARGER clothes and replace them with clothes that fit the NEW me. But - Fall is here...the... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 16:52:29 EST September - Life is slowly changing ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3634190 Well here it is September already! Whew !!! I can't believe that the year has gone by so fast. Labor Day weekend was busy with family cookout, roasting marshmallows and the Demolition Derby at the County Fair. <BR> <BR> Last week I picked up a couple of size 6 pair of shorts (on sale) and my new size 6 swimsuit arrived ! It seems that most of the clothes in my closet are way to big and baggy. I need to get more serious about shopping so that I don't continue to look bigger than I am. I wa... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 14:47:03 EST Getting away.....lots of walking...cute shorts...& NO way I fit into that size swimsuit !(Or do I ?) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3589619 Hubby and I finally stole a day/night away together. As most of my spark friends know....It has been a rough year. In addtion, lately - Hubby has been working a lot of hours. There seemed to be stress from every direction. We just needed to get away. We left on Saturday morning. My mom came to our house and stayed over night to watch our dog for us. I was shocked that my CUTE short jean shorts fit and it felt so GOOD to wear them knowing that I worked hard to get into them. We went to Six Fl... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 15:22:21 EST From chicken thigh....... to hurting thighs. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3546131 Taking 1 day at a time and back to exercising & eating right. Missing my Frita girl and my dad each and every day. I remind myself every day how lucky I was to have them in my life. I remind myself every day that I am lucky to have my hubby & wonderful family and friends. Some days are better than others. I keep telling myself that I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED!!!! I will not let the sadness in life overcome me. I MUST fight for what I want. I must FIGHT to be the best I can be...... for me. <BR> ... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 10:56:15 EST When does it get easier ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3455059 I have heard many times lately that the loss of a parent or child are the 2 MOST difficult times in the world to deal with. Well - I lost the equivalent to a child when I lost baby girl dachshund Frita in Feb and then lost dad July 8th. Seems like TOO much to deal with in such a short time. I wish I had my baby girl Frita to help me through the loss of my dad. I wish I had them both to hug and make life ok again. Thank GOD I have hubby to help me through all this. <BR> <BR> I think it is tr... Wed, 21 Jul 2010 13:49:42 EST Losing my dad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3420176 My dad took his last breathe on Thursday 7-8-10 at 4:10 pm. My brother and I were by his side. It has been a very difficult week. I know he is at peace and am relieved he is no longer in pain. There are just no words to express how deep the heart aches when you lose a father. I will write more when I feel stronger and the tears slow down. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l610909859.jpg"> <BR> <link>www.gazettextra.com/obits/2010/jul/1<BR>0/james-petitt/ </link> Sun, 11 Jul 2010 12:35:27 EST Las Vegas Vacation starts tonight.....and update on dad too ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3370254 Hubby and I are all packed and ready to go celebrate our 1st wedding Anniversary in Las Vegas. We fly out this evening. We have tickets to Zumanity show tomorrow night. Sunday is our anniversary. Hubby and I are finally starting to let ourselves get excited about the trip. We are looking forward to some relaxing in the sun, some tasty dinners out and a few cocktails too. <BR> <BR> Dad is doing ok. He got out of the hospital on Monday evening. Tuesday was a bit rough for him as the IV anti-n... Fri, 25 Jun 2010 12:22:38 EST Update on my dads terminal cancer. 5 days til vacation - to go or not to go is the question... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3355554 It has been a week and 3 days since my dad called and told me he had terminal cancer which started in his stomach and has completely taken over his body (Stomach, Liver, Lungs, lymph nodes, etc). He went back in the hospital last Thursday after a visit to his Dr. He had a lot of fluid built up in his abdomen and his pain level was high. I visited him on Saturday in the Palliative ward of the Hospital. They had drained 3 liters of fluid off his abdomen on Friday and did dialysis on Saturday ... Mon, 21 Jun 2010 11:27:06 EST From on top of the world to lower than low. Life can crush you instantly ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3332264 I was on top of the world last week. My Dr told me I only had 5 pds left to lose. I was feeling good about where I was at and where I was going. Hubby and I were counting down the 2 weeks before our vacation to celebrate our 1 year wedding anniversary. Life felt like it was coming together. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately - Life doesn't allow much time for being on top of the world. My dad called Friday night and told me that he won't be going back on the kidney transplant list this year. He onl... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 09:32:00 EST The Dr said to lose ONLY 5 more pounds ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3321105 I went to the Dr today and am happy to say that I am 1 pound less than I was at last years Dr appt. I was THRILLED to have kept the weight off....but even better than that I lost 1 pound since last year. Small triumph I know but I am thrilled anyways. <BR> <BR> I was talking to my Dr about wanting to lose another 10-15 pounds and she said that I should lose 5 pounds more at most and then maintain. She would rather I NOT lose more than 5 pounds. WHOO HOO !!! Are you kidding me.....this is GR... Thu, 10 Jun 2010 13:32:19 EST Vacation Countdown..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3316911 I can't wait to leave on vacation with hubby to celebrate our 1 year Wedding Anniversary. I have truly NEVER been happier! We leave for vacation in 2 weeks and 2 days. This year has been full of ups and downs with losing my 14 year old dachshund in Feb, Hubby fracturing his foot in March and then me ending up in the ER with a blocked salivary gland/duct in May. I am so looking forward to spending 10 days with hubby just hanging out and enjoying the sights. NO interruptions.....just pure re... Wed, 9 Jun 2010 10:28:15 EST Muscle weighs more than fat ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3273437 My weight is the same and I have been working out a lot more and staying within my eating guidelines. I haven't seen much loss on the scale lately. But - Then I read something the other day that reminded me that the scale ONLY shows a number. All the workouts I am doing are GREAT and beneficial even if the scale does NOT go down. I am toning up! Muscle weighs more than fat. So I am trying to focus less on the number showing on the scale and more on how I feel about my body and clothes, etc.... Thu, 27 May 2010 11:11:54 EST What the heck ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3241885 I am steady with my weight. No gains. No Loss. I am averaging about the same lately. I am really bummed though that I haven't been able to workout as much as I wanted. I REALLY wanted to walk more and do some more video workouts. I was SOO ready to kick it in gear and lose MORE weight !!!! I am only 5 pounds from having a good BMI score. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately....I just can't get the energy. I was sick with the blocked salivary duct/gland and haven't been able to get much strength up since... Tue, 18 May 2010 09:15:59 EST From Salad Bar to ER....where I have been since last Thursday ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3213390 I was doing great with eating healthy and working out. I went to the local salad bar Thursday 5-6-10 with my friend from work. While we were eating...I felt a cramp in my jaw on the left side. It just seemed to get worse as I ate. It didn't feel right and I pulled out my compact with mirror out of my purse to looked and realize that the left jaw bone area under my ear was swelling. My girlfriend was SHOCKED as she said it was NOT swollen like that a minute ago. It SWELLED so fast! She sugges... Mon, 10 May 2010 09:24:09 EST INSPIRED !!!!! Time to step it up !! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3195686 OK - I am 7 weeks and 3 days away from our 1 year Wedding Anniversary trip. I have been ON track with walking and meals. The last week or so ...I have been HOLDING my weight and not losing any additional pounds. (I have kept off the weight I lost for over a year now). I am down to the last 10-15 pounds that I REALLY want to lose. So - today I decided...it is TIME to step it up ! ! I have been walking 30-40 minutes 4-5 days a week. Today I added an extra 30 minute workout video to my routine... Tue, 4 May 2010 23:03:58 EST Good Choices !!!! I CAN DO IT !!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3153172 I am SOO PROUD of myself. Am feeling a bit goofy for being so excited over something so small. OH well - I am proud that I am making GOOD food choices. Last night I wanted something sweet...and took out an apple...cut it into thin slices....sprinkled it with cinnamon and microwaved it. It was a warm tasty nutritious treat. This was such a GOOD choice after taking the dog for a 40 minute power walk and eating a turkey burger for dinner. Very exciting stuff. LOL <BR> <BR> Today, however, was t... Fri, 23 Apr 2010 14:57:08 EST Day 3 - Motivated more than ever ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3144450 Today is day 3 of getting back on track. I am seriously motivated to MEET my goals. I am making GOOD food choices to eat really healthy. I walked my little dachshund Max for 30 minutes after work the past two nights. I even did a little hand weights after dinner last night while watching Biggest Loser. I am FOCUSED on my wardrobe and wanting to look amazing in June when hubby and I go on our 1 Year Anniversary trip. I have lost a couple pounds this week already......and today I am wearing m... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 10:51:56 EST Today is DAY 1.....Am going to be the BEST I can be ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3135776 A few weeks ago I vowed to get in gear. Unfortunately that same night (April 5th) my husband fractured his foot at work. This turned our lives upside down a bit. He works over an hour away from home and was unable to drive at all. Therefore, he had to stay at his dads which is close to his job so he could get to work each day. That meant several LONG nights at the beginning of the week and end of the week as I had to drive him up there to drop him off and pick him up. In addition, I had seve... Mon, 19 Apr 2010 10:05:02 EST Time to GET IN GEAR ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3082366 Ok - I did not make fabulous choices this past weekend when it comes to meals. I did NOT eat a TON of food...just bad choices when I ate. I did, however, walk A LOT when out with Hubby on Saturday at the mall & out and about shopping. In addition, I took the little boy dog for a 25 minute walk on Sunday morning. So my weight remains fairly good. I am usually up a few pounds after the weekend and then down after a few days. This week I didn't gain as many pounds as usual. I am pretty much whe... Mon, 5 Apr 2010 12:28:06 EST Time to GET IN GEAR ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3082364 Ok - I did not make fabulous choices this past weekend when it comes to meals. I did NOT eat a TON of food...just bad choices when I ate. I did, however, walk A LOT when out with Hubby on Saturday at the mall & out and about shopping. In addition, I took the little boy dog for a 25 minute walk on Sunday morning. So my weight remains fairly good. I am usually up a few pounds after the weekend and then down after a few days. This week I didn't gain as many pounds as usual. I am pretty much whe... Mon, 5 Apr 2010 12:28:00 EST Getting back in the swing of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3064860 Well - last weekend was 1 month since my sweet Frita went to heaven. I still miss her dearly and struggle with her absence each day. I am, however, trying to get back into the swing of things. I am trying to eat better and yesterday I took my little Max (9 yr old mini dachshund) for a long walk. The little guy was exhausted and slept on his bed the rest of the night after the workout. LOL It felt good to get some fresh air and to walk again. <BR> <BR> I am trying to get back to the focus on... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 11:27:15 EST Just TIRED.... No ambition - No Motivation - No will power ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3033382 Yep - That is me lately! I am completely exhausted. All I want to do is sleep. I fall asleep on the couch at night which is totally NOT like me. Then later in the evening it is a struggle to scrape my butt off the couch and GO to bed. I don't feel depressed. I just feel TIRED ! I havn't been getting anything done in the evenings. A few weeks ago I was painting and cleaning carpets and moving furniture. Now I barely get the dishes done in the evening. <BR> <BR> I tried to rest over the week... Tue, 23 Mar 2010 10:40:39 EST Holding on.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3010916 Still deeply missing my Frita girl. Oh how I miss holding her close and petting her soft fur. Every day I am reminded how big a part of my life she was. I look at her photo constantly. She is on my phone, my computer, etc We got her ashes back a week after she passed away. I did better with this then I expected. Hubby has been amazing through all of this. My little 9 year old dachshund Max is taking it fairly well too. <BR> <BR> I lost 6 pounds during the first WEEK after Frita passed. I h... Wed, 17 Mar 2010 11:56:43 EST My Frita is gone. How do I live with out her ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2952358 Today is day 4. I lost my 14 year old Dachshund Frita this past Saturday 2-27-10. I am in a daze. Barely able to function. I hardly eat. I have lost 5 pounds. I am disappointing everyone. I am trying to be strong but my body will NOT cooperate. My mind hears her cry. My heart is empty. My body is sore. I am so tired. When I wake I find more tears that I didn't know I had. I cry and tell my husband I just want to pet her soft fur - touch her - hold her close to me. The tears fall again. He tri... Wed, 3 Mar 2010 09:55:57 EST Lost my Spark..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2888300 I am holding my own BARELY with my weight lately. I, however, seem to have lost my Spark ! I appreciate all my spark friends who have sent me messages of encouragement. I just haven't been able to get back into the WHOLE exercise thing lately. I eat OK.....but NOT as good as I should. <BR> <BR> I am sincerely HOPING to find that SPARK again soon ! Until then I am REALLY trying not to lose ground by gaining weight back. <BR> <BR> Tue, 16 Feb 2010 11:09:19 EST What am I doing to myself ? Argh ! The BUCK stops here ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2824688 OK - the past few weeks I have NOT been good. I have been eating fairly good during the week days but not as good week nights and BAD on weekends. I have slowly added back on a few pounds. This weekend I was BAD again. I started out good...but then just got caught up in the fun and indulgence. Then last night I felt SOOO guilty. I asked myself WHAT was I doing to myself ? I had lost MOST of the weight I wanted last year and planned on losing another 10 pounds or so this year. Unfortunately no... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 10:25:34 EST New Jeans - New Me ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2780846 Ah yes - That wonderful feeling of NEW smaller size clothes. I have been hesitant on making a TON or purchases as I hope to continue to lose more weight. I really want to lose another 10-15 pounds eventually. However, I decided in this COLD and gloomy January that I needed a pick me up to remind me how far I have come. I LOST a good amount of weight before my wedding last year and kept it off...and now have even lost most of the few holiday pounds I put on. I am within a couple pounds of my w... Fri, 22 Jan 2010 09:17:36 EST Immediate POST Holiday Goals ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2709253 I held my weight for a full 6 months after losing what I wanted prior to the wedding in 2009. I only gained a FEW pounds over Christmas and New Years. I knew I would gain a few and gave myself a bit of a break to satisfy my cravings. <BR> <BR> So - now I am completely back on TRACK and eating super super good and dropping the few pounds that I added on over the holidays. I have already dropped some of the holiday weight and soon I will be back to my wedding weight. <BR> <BR> Once I get to ... Thu, 7 Jan 2010 11:48:58 EST Holding my own & even the dog lost weight ! Whoo hoo ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2639984 Well I survived the Thanksgiving RUSH of food and still holding my own into Dec. I am up a pound or two then back down a pound or two every few days....so basically holding my own on a regular basis since the wedding this past June. Some weeks my weight is not fluctuating at all ! I have given myself permission to have a few treats here and there. I also make sure that I eat healthy at every opportunity I can. When there are NOT so many choices and temptations I remind myself that I am eating... Thu, 17 Dec 2009 10:10:41 EST Last few pounds of goal - Going to get there ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2536407 When I joined Spark in Feb 2009 I set several goals. I reached where I wanted to be for our wedding this past June 2009. Then I kept going and kept the weight off. I lost a little more and set another goal. I seem to get CLOSE...within 2 pounds of the goal and then I gain a couple pounds back. I cycle up and down 2-4 pounds and just haven't been able to reach this goal. SO this week I am REALLY trying to kick it into gear. I got back on the Treadmill Mon, Tues and Wed and ate very healthy. I ... Thu, 5 Nov 2009 09:48:33 EST Fat clothes ? Keep or toss ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2462672 I started putting the summer clothes away and getting out the fall and winter clothes. There is ONLY one problem. Very few of my fall/winter warm clothes fit the way they should. MOST of them are WAY too big. I look like I am swimming in someone Else's clothes. I found a FEW sweaters from my skinnier college days and those fit nicely. BUT - for the most part my fall and winter wardrobe is NOT going to work. I don't feel good in them and they do NOT look right on me. I can't believe THESE big ... Thu, 8 Oct 2009 10:29:43 EST Success of losing weight and other people's opinion....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2457583 I never realized how hard it is to FEEL good about eating healthy and maintaining my weight. I truly feel like I am doing great. I can't remember feeling this good or looking this good. For the most part I am HAPPY with where I am at. I am finding a balance between being healthy and NOT giving up all that I love. I walk taller and feel more confident ! <BR> <BR> Seems to me that some of the people around me find my success intimidating and/or annoying. I guess it bothers people that I have... Tue, 6 Oct 2009 15:19:52 EST Back on track - feel the muscles burn.....it is a good hurt ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2407925 The past few weeks I have been struggling to get back on track. I wasn't exercising and would drop in some occasional poor meal choices along the way too. I was getting worried that I would NO longer be able to maintain my weight. Even worse - I KNEW I wouldn't lose anymore if I kept on being bad. So - This past Monday's PIG out session really forced me to think about what I wanted for myself. <BR> <BR> If you read my last blog you know that I put my workout clothes together after getting ... Thu, 17 Sep 2009 16:22:28 EST