C-MERRIE11's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=C%2DMERRIE11 C-MERRIE11's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Want it DONE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501658 Hiya!! <BR> <BR> Me again for a quick long overdue checkin! <BR> <BR> Still busy busy with baby and everything else :) <BR> <BR> I have slowly been getting the pounds off! At one point in the past few weeks I was a tantalizing 2lbs away from the top end of my prepregnancy range!!! How is that??? <BR> <BR> Buuuut then over two weeks it crept back up. Bummer. <BR> <BR> So got assess: <BR> Is it water weight? <BR> Have I not been burning as much as I thought? <BR> Have I been eating mo... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 17:50:20 EST A quick check-in! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370507 Hello Sparklers! <BR> <BR> It's been a long time since I've checked-in and I wanted to say a quick hi! I also want to say SORRY to the lovely ladies At the Barre! Sorry to have been so absent from the team! <BR> <BR> SO where did I go? I have been on my toes running after my baby boy, working on my personal training certs and pursuing ordination (yes, you read that right!). I have had so little time to check-in on Spark- thank goodness for the Spark app for Iphone, right? <BR> <BR> W... Tue, 28 May 2013 14:13:08 EST Frustration Buster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262541 Ok- first the whining. <BR> <BR> Ive felt sooo hungry lately. Nursing is tough stuff that way. But even still, Ive been eating within the calorie range that should supposedly create a deficit with the exercise Ive been doing. Yet in the past two weeks not a single ounce has budged. :/ <BR> <BR> What gives? <BR> <BR> This wouldnt be so bad, except that I've heard from some that if you don't loose the pregnancy weight within 6 months yadayada you are statistically more likely never to ... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 20:27:56 EST Belonging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254959 "...I prefer to think that the planet needs athletes, philosophers, sex symbols, painters, scientists; it needs the warmhearted, the hardhearted, the coldhearted, and the weakhearted. it needs those who can devote their lives to studying how many droplets of water are secreted by the salivary glands of dogs under which circumstances, and it needs those who can capture the passing impression of cherry blossoms in a fourteen-syllable poem or devote twenty-five pages to the dissection of a smal... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 14:08:34 EST Weightloss Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237223 I know Im not alone: weight loss can be stressful. <BR> <BR> First, you want it all right now. I know I do! All that 'visualizing my success' can backfire when I focus too much on how my present falls short from that goal... and doubt creeps in... can I actually reach that goal? am I doing the right things to get there? can I trust my program? <BR> <BR> Second, you can become too focused on that goal and forget to live right now, breeding too much disatisfaction with yourself in the... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 13:32:37 EST Baby #2!!... Just Kidding! But still- http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235820 Ok- so not MY baby. <BR> <BR> But here's the deal= I worked HARD to be able to be home with my son.... and I want to be able to make that work into his second year PLUS be able to get myself started with some on the side fitness training fabulousness. But how?? <BR> <BR> Well..... my friend, who is preggos with a baby girl said she is looking for childcare after her maternity leave.... she was poking around it seems.... and then it dawned on me! I LOVE caring for my baby, and other babi... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 14:31:13 EST Fit Mamas that MADE IT HAPPEN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230801 In a bout of discouragement, a fellow Sparkler pointed out to me that there are many mamas who achieved something even MORE awesome post pregnancy than the health and fitness they had going BEFORE pushin out a baby... <BR> <BR> And Im not talking about poundage here- through for some of them that certainly was a factor. Im talking about strength, skill, attitude, endeavor. <BR> <BR> Caveat: if I NEVER could be even remotely as fit as I was post baby it would STILL all have been worth it!... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 20:52:17 EST Sweaty Beauty Bag http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228841 SO admit it- you like sweating. Dripping, icky, sticky sweat means that you really hit that workout hard.... <BR> <BR> Its often said, if you look cute after a workout, your were NOT working out hard enough. Thats probably true- but if you've ever been in any kindof physical performance you know that your audience doesnt care one bit that you are sweating it out like a mad person. They want you to look coiffed. <BR> <BR> As a fitness instructor, I learned that too much coiffed-ness is ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 13:27:36 EST Whats Got Me Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227772 Ok, so as much as I might try to deny it, I feel a little bit down. <BR> <BR> You may look at my ticker and think its because I aint loosing weight... Well I think I am loosing weight, havent been able to weigh myself since I started out and I am loosing inches. <BR> <BR> So WHY the discouragement?? Its that my body is SO DIFFERENT than it was before my pregnancy. <BR> <BR> Before my pregnancy my limbs could stretch any which way, my hips were small and fluid, and my core and back were ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 20:53:32 EST The Whys of My Weightloss re-hash http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221608 I already have a recent blog on the 'why's of my weight loss, but the Sparkcoach program challenged me today to revisit the 'Whys'- the suggestion is that you dont ever 'just' want to loose 20lbs or what have you, but that you expect some sort of pay-off in your life from doing so. <BR> <BR> So what pay off di I expect? What is the REAL motivation that bubbles up out my bones? <BR> <BR> In my previous blog I listed: <BR> 1. A desire for more children- where loosing the weight from one preg... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 12:23:38 EST Excuses. Busted. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210338 I love to workout, always. <BR> <BR> Wrong!! ITs true that I generally really love working out and that I tend to prioritize it. But I also get 'comfy' with the amount and intensity I do... <BR> <BR> I also love to eat healthy all the time. <BR> <BR> Wrong!! Its true that I generally eat pretty healthy, and so I also let that stop myself from pushing to another level of nutritional, conscious eating. <BR> <BR> So here are some my top exercise and nutrition excuses: <BR> <BR> 1. I alrea... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 16:40:17 EST Fear and Gratitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209145 Yesterday I had to take my precious little one to the ER. And he is little. Just over 13 pounds. Thats less than I have to loose to be at my prebaby weight (making this blog relevant for Spark). So, yesterday I took him to the ER and I felt fear. And pain. Several times over. Since he, after all, felt fear and pain. <BR> <BR> I also felt pain this morning as I did Sylwia Wysenberg's Tonique dvd. Squat after squat after squat after squat after- you get the idea. In this case, I chos... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 22:10:44 EST Goals for 1/14/2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205699 here are Monday's goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Do cardio dance for at least 45 minutes <BR> 2. Finish the review of chapter 2 of ACE Exercise Science and make headway into chapter 3 <BR> 3. Organize the to-dos that are floating in my brain :) <BR> 4. Of course eat within calorie range by planning ahead, going for produce or protein first, and drinking lots and lots of water <BR> 5. Up my motivation factor by surfing for outfits that I tended, even when smaller, to think 'can never wear that' and pro... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 21:10:53 EST Goals for 1/9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198543 Wow, so Tonique was CRAZY hard yesterday- I am SO sore... <BR> <BR> 1. Today I will do 30 minutes of P57, the total body express <BR> <BR> 2. Eat clean 80/20- I upped my calorie intake slightly since I have been burning more calories than anticipated and I dont want my milk supply to suffer. I cant loose weight too quickly or it could affect the supply- Id rather keep the weight on longer and keep my baby nursing for longer :) Still, it feels like A LOT of food- like Im eating all day long... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 10:22:27 EST Real Fast- Todays Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196717 Seriously, this blog will be SHORT. :) <BR> <BR> 1. Do Tonique for cardio- thats 60 minutes!! Well see how long baby lasts- if hell cry before the hour is up... gotta fit it in sooome how :) <BR> <BR> 2. Today is about eating clean. Yesterday was not so clean in the diet department- within calorie range, but not clean. 80/20 folks! :) <BR> <BR> 3. Read more on Muscles in my textbook. Got through the neuro section, so now Im brushing up on how muscles work. Fun! <BR> <BR> 4. Oh! and a... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 10:25:22 EST She Didnt Get There Sitting Around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195353 So today Spark encouraged me to revisit the concept of a 'collage' for inspiration. Its supposed to include motivating pictures, words that help me focus on my goals. My goal to loose weight, become stronger, fitter, faster... My goal to be a role model... My goals to be a kinder, more loving person (on my death bed Id probably regret being cruel or selfish more than having a few extra pounds- but really, the two shouldnt have anything to do with each other, haha, hopefully there is time fo... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 16:06:29 EST Todays Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191393 Ok, real quick here they are: <BR> <BR> Do 30 minutes of Pilates- the P57 Arm and AB Booster. Not a ton of time, but will still be hard since Im on my own the whole day with baby :) <BR> <BR> Eating healthy- tonite I get a bit of a treat with a giant bowl of popcorn, I factored in the calories already. So thats exciting. Getting any food in my mouth today however will be hard since, again, Im on my own, and its hard to put baby down long enough to get my meals together. Thankfully that ... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 10:57:05 EST Quick Blog on Today's Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189807 Today I had planned on doing 45 minutes of kickboxing in the morning, but my husband has to go take care of an emergency, so I will wait to do my workout till later. It may be that I do the shorter pilates workout today and kickboxing tomorrow instead. <BR> <BR> To ensure that I get SOME activity in, Ill have another dance party if baby is willing. <BR> <BR> I would amaze myself if I got through 12 pages in my Essentials of Exercise Science book- shouldnt be too hard since Ive had to read ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 10:26:29 EST Having the Why-how http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188382 Setting goals is a hard job. Why else the endless talk in articles, speeches, etc. on how to set goals that will get you where you want to go? In other words it requires some know-how. Its a skill in and of itself separate from what you actually want to achieve... <BR> <BR> I was encouraged recently by a fellow Sparker about how specific my goals are- encouraging! After all, that's one of the keys of goals setting, is having them be 'specific.' So feeling like I was on the right track- ... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 14:41:14 EST Wasting No Time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180209 Ok- so I have about 20lbs to go till Im back to my prebaby weight. and I definitely dont want that to take longer than it has to because Im too scared to make fitness a priority. <BR> <BR> My husband would laugh if her heard me say that I need to make fitness more of a priority- because I LOVE fitness and am working hard to get to it... BUT the reality is that there a significant ways that I still dilly dally and dottle when I could be kicking some caloric butt. <BR> <BR> My biggest chall... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 20:37:21 EST SSPPPPPPPPPPPPPRiiiinG!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4161035 I am LOVING this warm weather, you? <BR> <BR> Spring means a lot of things this year. Both my husband I receive our graduate degrees, we find new jobs, and I'm aiming to be both ACE and Zumba certified by mid-June. <BR> <BR> If I think back to where I was a year ago I just have to feel really warm and fuzzy inside. A year ago this time exactly I would have been feeling guilty for binges, feeling out of control and never feel like I could exercise enough. I would be all pent up with dif... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 15:35:04 EST Stress busting challenge, a delayed week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4144625 My progress with the stress busting challenge had to go a bit slower the past week as I've been out with strep throat. I thought it was just a sore throat since I had been having a sore throat one and off for the two week before hand. But then I stayed up really late at a friends house, where the whole family had just recovered from strep themselves, and I'm guessing I picked it up. My husband's system seemed to fight it off valiantly, but I woke up three days later after that late night w... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 15:46:31 EST Anti-stress blog #3- ahaaah. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4121623 Tomorrow the article is due in for my class- and guess what? I am only MILDLY stressed! Why? Well, first I was reasonable. I figured out that I can skim parts of the 400 page dissertation I was assigned to review in the article last week. I realized that the article is only two pages. And then I realized that it doesn't have to be perfect. <BR> <BR> Next- I decided that I am working plenty hard. There is a lot on my plate- and I simply can't give it all my full attention. So just beca... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 14:10:22 EST Anti-stress blog #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4114239 aaaaargh. soo much to do. cant breathe. yikes. <BR> <BR> K- so today I did work for both my jobs, plus some reading. Plus our kitchen was a disaster so I swept it. And then I did some cooking and baking. <BR> <BR> I dont see how I can do all I need to do. I really dont. I really need to find some more stress-busting techniques. <BR> <BR> How on earth do you juggle doing so many things at once? Where none of them can be dropped? <BR> <BR> I feel really confused. Either last we... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 00:40:21 EST Anti-stress blog #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4111527 I have really enjoyed the official challenges put out by spark- I've already completed two. I have found them to be simple, but compelling and to the point. The sleep challenge really changed my life in some ways- I can no longer have the sleep habits I did before. My body actually became accustomed to 8 hours, and I can't fight that any more. The healthy cooking challenge definitely nurtured some mindfulness and intentionality about cooking well, even when things are stressful or when th... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 00:01:14 EST so busy- but i got it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4100760 I'm blogging right now part for procrastination and part as a way to gather my thoughts. Both my husband and I are very busy these days. <BR> <BR> He is busy with an internship, being a full-time grad student and working a part-time job- he's running out of the house like a bat outta hell all the time. <BR> <BR> As for me, I am finishing up grad school, which includes prepping for the competency exams, I am working two part-time jobs, am helping out at my church (writing articles and the... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 11:22:47 EST Pleasure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4069248 I am writing this blog with a couple glasses of wine in me, which is enough to make me tipsy and a kinda bold (we were celebrating my parent anniversary, 39 years!). <BR> <BR> As ED (eating disorder) has decreased, pleasure has increased. <BR> <BR> My approach to food and life and body has changed. I cook french food and drink wine. I dance instead of grinding it out on the elliptical every day (dont get me wrong, ill still hop on the elliptical to cash in a big calorie burn and give my... Sat, 5 Mar 2011 21:46:50 EST March and the start of ballet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4057199 Wow! So last night I took my first official ballet class in a little while... let me say this: ouch! Even though I do plies galore going through my day and tendu after tendu as I do stupid things like brush my teeth, class kicked my butt. I am in every sense still a beginner in ballet as a dance form, but I really thought I had kept up better than what I found out last night! Haha, which will make this class SOOO worth it. <BR> <BR> The instructor is an amazing ballerina, having danced... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 11:17:27 EST What she ate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4049921 As a young girl, middle school to be exact, I was often home alone and hungry. Both my parents had to work through the evening often (my dad a college professor and my mum a midwife). To solve the dilemma of my empty tummy I began cooking. <BR> <BR> I remember the first day the idea hit that I could prepare dinner, eat it, and have it available to my parents when they would eventually return home. My first attempt at solo cooking was a dish that happened to capture all the nostalgia of ... Sat, 26 Feb 2011 17:46:30 EST Argh! Cramps!... and why I can be such a bully http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4042144 Argh! Cramps! <BR> <BR> So I slid in my TA cardio dvd today for the first time in over a week (somehow she wasnt in the rotation over the past few days). Within the first combo I was getting cramps- and I never get cramps! <BR> <BR> Oh no! I thought. I must be falling out of shape I thought. I haven't weighed myself in a while due to being too lenient with my food intake, less regular exercise and well I guess weighing yourself can be emotionally troubling anyway. Well these cramps b... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 17:22:10 EST February 2/13-2/19 plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4020138 Blogging is back :D <BR> <BR> Ok, so first fitness since I find that most fun <BR> <BR> 2/13: rest <BR> 2/14: Turbo Jam (40 minutes); TJ Sculpt <BR> 2/15: Insanity Fit Test; Zumba <BR> 2/16: Insanity Plyomettric Cardio Circuit; TA Sequence I <BR> 2/17: Insanity Cardio Power & Resistance; Zumba <BR> 2/18: Insanity Cardio Recovery & Max Recover; NYC Ballet <BR> 2/19: Insanity Pure Cardio &Abs; Jog 30 minutes <BR> <BR> Eating: <BR> I'm following my nutrionists portion guides and working on fo... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 15:36:53 EST My January plan, week 2! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3910789 Hi! <BR> <BR> I want to report that I followed my plan from last week wonderfully! Yay! <BR> <BR> Which means: <BR> <BR> 1. I followed my exercise routine <BR> 1,B. By doing the Spark Bootcamp Challenge videos, as of Tuesday when I joined the team, and <BR> 1,A. By following the workout schedule I set for myself (I did make a few minor adjustments and lightened the load on Friday and Saturday since I felt I was burning too many calories- yup, I said it) <BR> <BR> 2. I slept about 8 hour... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 15:43:46 EST January Plan, starting Tuesday 4th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3886579 My plan for January: <BR> <BR> 1. Follow 28 Day Bootcamp Challenge: <BR> -Do Bootcamp 10 minute video 1x/day starting 1/4/2011 <BR> -Do cardio workout 5xs/wk <BR> <BR> 1,A. My workout schedule for 1/2-18 will look like this: <BR> Mon.- TA Matworkout (55min) <BR> Tues.- TA Matworkout (55min); Zumba Cardio Party (42 min); 10 Minute bootcamp video <BR> Wed.- TA Matworkout (55min); TA Cardio Dance (40 min); 10 minute bootcamp video <BR> Thurs.- TA Matworkout (55min); Zumba Sculpt (50min); 10 mi... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 22:52:35 EST I did well today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3859839 Today: <BR> <BR> 1. I exercised! and enjoyed it :) (ie, I danced instead of the elliptical machine) <BR> 2. I ate within my calorie range (barely tho, hehe) <BR> 3. I thought 'two steps ahead'- ie, rather than thinking what would temporarily help me, I made decisions based on dreams and goals I have (does this decision get me closer to them?) <BR> 4. I went easy on myself- kind words, understanding, rather than judgment and meanness (like not thinking 'it's too late') <BR> <BR> Yay!! <BR> ... Thu, 23 Dec 2010 20:57:44 EST Getting back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3859098 Yesterday in blogging I reflected on a lack of motivation I was experiencing. I felt at a loss for why I was feeling that way. Well, through the evening I wrote in my journal a bit and was able to figure out a bit better what was slowing me down. I had already hit on it in a previous blog, but I feel clearer now about the matter. I wrote about how I was feeling pretty discouraged about my prospects with actually seeing results and I was feeling less motivated about trying. I am feeling o... Thu, 23 Dec 2010 10:49:07 EST Reflecting on the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3858521 In terms of sticking with my meal plan, it was another off day. Ever since last Friday I've been off the wagon and just not able to get myself back on board. It's like I have no will to try to follow my meal plan at all, and even exercise. I wouldn't say I am depressed, I'm actually feeling pretty good, but I just can't seem to get myself to care. What's that about? All I seem I want to do is eat and watch tv. I'm not sure where to go from here. It's scary since this way of doing thing... Wed, 22 Dec 2010 23:32:21 EST Reflecting on 12/20 and prepping for 12/21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3854908 Today I did well! <BR> <BR> 1. I was very kind to myself (not a lot of down talk) <BR> 2. I did both my cardio and muscular structure work <BR> 3. I finished my Christmas shopping <BR> 4. I got my hair cut! (looks supa cute) <BR> 5. I am decompressing in the evening over tea and brain de-fogging through blogging <BR> <BR> Tomorrow my main goals will be to: <BR> 1. Make it to my cardio and muscular structure workouts <BR> 2. Incorporate quickfire challenge <BR> 3. Go to the library and check... Mon, 20 Dec 2010 22:33:45 EST I am resolving to -, too! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3853678 Princess Twisty left an awesome blog about setting resolutions for the new year. She framed the notion so well in taking big dreams and goals out of the boring ambiguity they usually hold and setting them in the firm, exciting, terms of resolving. So I'm taking a leaf out of her thorough book... Thanks Twisty! <BR> <BR> So I am going to try and replicate her quest to determine what it is she wants to commit to changing in order to get what she wants out of life. <BR> <BR> What do I want o... Mon, 20 Dec 2010 10:32:18 EST Toppling off the wagon, shaking it off, and jogging to catch up with the wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3853220 After my grandmother's death a week ago friday, and last weeks finals, I felt like I toppled off the healthy habit wagon. Major lost sleep, failing to pay attention to my hunger signals (and blatantly ignoring them when I recognized them) and missing the gym loads, have all taken a toll of my motivation. You know how good streaks can propel you forward? Well the same can be said for unhealthy streaks- they can propel you backwards! <BR> <BR> I keep trying to resent goals and such to get... Mon, 20 Dec 2010 01:26:20 EST Goals for Christmas week and the next few days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3848089 So I did the proverbial 'falling off the wagon' the past few days. Once everyone went their separate ways after the first few days of loss and mourning after my grandmother's death I turned back to my studies and my, well, life and I ate and ate and ate. Oooooops. I did record it all on my tracker, so I am glad for that moment of honesty. The damage is done, it's not undoable. <BR> <BR> I think what I learned is that when something truly tragic hits you kindof have to soften your goals ... Thu, 16 Dec 2010 19:43:57 EST Shiny, pretty life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3845383 This year has been a tough one. <BR> <BR> My husband's dad has cancer. His grandfather has cancer too now, and his grandfather only has a few months to live. My dad had major surgery this summer, he spent 14 days in the hospital, and the night after the surgery we almost lost him in the ICU. I went back for ED treatment and was diagnosed with ptsd. And just Friday my grandmother passed away. That same day my aunt had a heart attack, she's ok, had stints put in. We are waiting to hold t... Wed, 15 Dec 2010 11:40:38 EST Sleep Challenge Week II goals/strategies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3841488 What I learned from my journal: <BR> My main sleep inhibitor is stress (things I have to do, my worries). I am going to focus on ways of emptying my mind at night so that I wind down for sleep. <BR> <BR> This week my sleep goals are to: <BR> <BR> One time: <BR> 1) Purchase sleep relaxer cd recommended by T <BR> 2) Purchase chamomile tea <BR> <BR> Each Day: <BR> 1) Sleep 8 hours a night <BR> 2) "Deal with my worries" exercise/list before bed each night (blog, list, journal) <BR> 3) Then dr... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 13:02:29 EST Saturday December 11th, end of week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3837834 Hi, <BR> <BR> it's been a rough week, and I had to change-up my exercise plan a tad bit due to loosing my grammy. I thought I'd leave an update tho. <BR> <BR> Here are measurements of prior weeks: <BR> <BR> Sunday 11/28 <BR> wt. 119.4 lbs <BR> wst. 24" <BR> hips 35.5" <BR> r. thigh 21" <BR> r. bicep 9" <BR> <BR> Saturday 12/4 <BR> wt. 119.4lbs <BR> wst. 23.5" <BR> hips: 35.5" <BR> r. thigh: 20" <BR> r. bicep: 9" <BR> <BR> And today, Saturday 12/11: <BR> wt. 118.4lbs <BR> ws... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 11:27:11 EST Grandma- gone this morning, let's not forget her http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3836697 My grandmother, Lily, died this morning. <BR> <BR> I thought I'd write a few clumsy thoughts about her as part of saying good bye. <BR> <BR> Lilyan was as lively as they come. She was 91, and she still managed to poke, prod, pinch, and punch everyone in the nursing home. She was feisty. Above her bed was a cartoon portrait of her with full blonde hair, a mink stole, and a martini, and the caption read 'I like boys!' <BR> <BR> She was born in Chicago, about 90 years ago, to a part ... Fri, 10 Dec 2010 16:31:25 EST future goal/workout plan ideas, before I forget http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3834090 So I set up this three week of exercise thing, but I have other thoughts of what I'll do in the future and I don't want to forget them, so I'll write it out here :) They are all only variations on a theme, but they do mix things up a bit :) <BR> <BR> Set-up I: <BR> Sun: rest <BR> Mon: TA Cardio Dance and Yoga at the College, 5:15pm <BR> Tues: TA Matwork and Zumba <BR> Wed: TA Cardio Dance and Yoga at the College, 5:15pm <BR> Thurs: TA Matwork and Go-Go Class <BR> Fri: Bike 50 minutes and Pi... Thu, 9 Dec 2010 11:26:06 EST survival and food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3832176 ptsd- "I drag myself out of nightmares each morning and find there is no relief in waking." (Katniss, in Mockingjay, by Suzanne Collins <BR> <BR> Last night there was a lot of orange, I think, and swirling. And running. But I woke up fine. I've grown accustomed to being lifted from my safety each night, knowing that each morning I'll find myself in the same bed where I had drifted off the night before. As long as I can come home every morning, I don't mind falling asleep and giving mysel... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 13:14:42 EST Inspirational... book on tape? :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3829538 In the motivational strategies it was recommended that I watch an inspirational movie. Well, recently I downloaded a book on tape, a triology, and listened to all three books. The book was The Hunger Games. Through the story I was challenged about my own lifestyle, the 'Panem et circenses' of my American life. I was reminded of how privileged I am. <BR> What surprised me most however was how much I related to the character of Katniss. Like her, I experience horrible nightmares, too (pt... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 10:02:47 EST My three week exercise challenge :), week one done- and a reflection on fastbreaks in other areas of http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3824192 Ok, so I did one week of my high intensity program of exercise! I made every workout and I feel really good :) <BR> <BR> It's hard to fit in exercise sometimes, and especially this amount, but I did it, by getting up on time, getting enough sleep, and just reminding myself that I somehow always find time to just sit around, which means that if I add up those pockets, I have more time for exercise. <BR> <BR> As a reminder, here is what I did: <BR> <BR> Sunday: rest <BR> Monday: tracy and... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 19:52:32 EST One week in, two to go: declaring my intentions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3822050 Ok, so at the beginning of this week I shook up my workout routine, upped it a notch, and I thought I'd blog about it. <BR> <BR> I'm not aiming at a specific weight over three weeks (I'm going real slow to break the binge habit). This is just a step along the way of rockin' out my bod. <BR> <BR> So here's the plan: <BR> <BR> Sun: rest <BR> Mon: Tracy Anderson Cardio Dance (it's a 45 minute dvd) <BR> Tracy Anderson Sequence I workout (about 50 minutes) <BR> Tues: Tubro Jam Sculp... Fri, 3 Dec 2010 15:11:23 EST Goals for While I'm Gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3247531 Here are my goals for while I am on my trip: <BR> *Run 30 minutes 10/12 days or do SparkVideo if it is raining for 30 minutes inside <BR> *Do situps 3 of the days <BR> *Record what I eat using my Spark phone app. <BR> *Follow a 1600-1900 cal plan <BR> *Eat fruit and veggies each day <BR> *Minimize comparing myself to other people (for my sake and my husbands!) <BR> *Avoid calling myself x, y or z unhelpful thing while getting dressed <BR> <BR> These are my goals! <BR> Wed, 19 May 2010 17:18:42 EST