BUTRFNGRZ's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BUTRFNGRZ BUTRFNGRZ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ You are the strongest person I know http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374526 "You are the strongest person I know." <BR> <BR> These words were written to me in my Mother's Day card this year by my 16 year old daughter. Honestly, I haven't stopped thinking about it since! <BR> <BR> I do not feel strong. I feel weak much of the time. <BR> <BR> I know I have a problem saying yes when I want to say no. I avoid things because I don't want to hurt other's feelings. I forgive when perhaps I shouldn't. I let people take advantage of me. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I feel sad... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 11:36:42 EST Me intimidated by a chunk of steel?? Sadly, yes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4710263 I remember back in the late 80s looking at pictures of female bodybuilders with my sister and both of us saying how beautiful we thought they were and how much we would love to look like them! <BR> <BR> Fast forward 20 years and I have several books related to weight training, some specifically for women and some general in nature, I have a gym membership, I buy Oxygen magazine and marvel over the beautiful bodies, BUT I can't find the will to start. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I know I'm a... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 12:47:07 EST You are what you eat - and your body don't lie! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4695074 I was reading the February edition of Oxygen magazine this morning and two things really stuck out to me... <BR> <BR> 1) You are what you eat! <BR> <BR> This is so true in so many ways! I used to LOVE McD's fries - I mean really love them! The hotter the better, and a little bit of salt - finger-clicking good! Oh wait, that's a different place lol, but I did lick my fingers... <em>2</em> Yeah, you can "save up" some calories in your day to "enjoy" these little morsels, but really wha... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 11:49:50 EST How I gained 20 lbs in a year - and what I'm doing about it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4641362 Umm, yeah, you read that correctly. I gained 20 freaking pounds this year! BIG fail!! <BR> <BR> How did I gain this weight, you might ask? Obviously it's not so you can do the same, but hopefully you can learn a thing or two from my mistakes!! <BR> <BR> 1. I stopped tracking my food <BR> - For me, tracking what I eat is crucial to weight loss. I *think* I know what I'm eating, but in reality it always seems to be enough food for me plus my best friend! <BR> <BR> 2. I moved <BR> -... Wed, 28 Dec 2011 09:42:27 EST Where there's a will there's a way! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4619242 There are several things my mom used to say all the time that have stuck with me through the years... Cheaters never prosper! Patience is a virtue! And where there's a will, there's a way! <BR> <BR> This last one is particularly significant as we contemplate the monumental task of fitting exercise and meal planning/tracking/preparation in to our already busy schedules. <BR> <BR> If we REALLY want to make changes and lose the weight and get healthy, we HAVE to find a way to do it! And it... Fri, 9 Dec 2011 14:31:00 EST My joy of cooking!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4618164 I was at the grocery store yesterday afternoon buying food for dinner and stopped to browse the magazines. I am a sucker for cookbooks (I probably have 30+) and cooking magazines, so typically just stick with Oxygen and Health magazines and leave it at that. But I saw this magazine and couldn't resist (and Lexi talked me in to it, lol!)!! There are so many yummy looking recipes in here! They even give you tips for lightening the recipes! Tonight we are having the Baked Stuffed French Toa... Thu, 8 Dec 2011 19:00:31 EST Does this photo make me look fat?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4616695 Yowza!! I may be able to tell myself little white lies and think I'm hiding behind baggy clothes, but the camera certainly does NOT lie! Such an eye-opener to see pictures of yourself - every brownie, ice cream cone, Twizzler, cookie, tortilla chip, etc. are all THERE! <BR> <BR> I'm not going to lie - I gained weight this year. I knew I couldn't fit in to all my clothes, but I told myself it wasn't "that bad" and kept making excuses and finding justifications. Well, the camera doesn't ca... Wed, 7 Dec 2011 16:49:54 EST Getting by with a little help from my SPARK friends!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4614050 I went to Vegas this past weekend with my SparkFriend Nikki to run the Santa 5k - it was a blast by the way!!! Thousands of motivated, excited people dressed up as Santa in the freezing cold (yes, it was CHILLY in Vegas!!)! But little did I know that I'd also meet several very motivating and motivated Spark ladies who have me recharged and ready to go! <BR> <BR> This year has been tough for me - moving to AZ from PA, John losing his job and then finding a new one as a business owner (talk ... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 22:17:47 EST Confession of a lettuce snob... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4472527 I have a love/hate relationship with lettuce and, more specifically, salad. There was a time I would only eat salad at a salad bar or restaurant. For some reason I absolutely hated making my own salad at home. <BR> <BR> Now I realize that I enjoy making and eating salad - as long as it's made with the right kind of lettuce!! I love green leaf, romaine, red leaf, etc. I despise iceberg - sorry! <BR> <BR> After determining that I am truly a lettuce snob, I eat a lot more salad! And I enj... Wed, 7 Sep 2011 21:58:05 EST Desiderata - Max Ehrmann 1927 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4464990 I had never read this poem before today and love it so much I just had to share with all my fav SparkFriends!! This is beautiful! <BR> <BR> ~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.<BR>~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~. <BR> <BR> Go placidly amid the noise and haste, <BR> and remember what peace there may be in silence. <BR> <BR> As far as possible without surrender <BR> be on good terms with all persons. <BR> Speak your truth quietly and clearly; <BR> and listen to others, <BR> even the dull an... Sat, 3 Sep 2011 22:24:56 EST CLA Supplements - your thoughts? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4412464 I just added CLA supplements to my regimen and was curious if anyone else takes them and what your experience was. I did some research and understand CLA can be found naturally in some foods, but being a vegetarian and not not eating red meat or a lot of dairy, I'm not getting it that way! I also like the fact that there's no caffeine - I can't stand that jittery feeling from supplements! Any opinions? Please share! Sun, 7 Aug 2011 14:36:19 EST My Birthday List http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4407369 My family makes a point of buying each other birthday gifts each year since we all live in different parts of the country and it helps us celebrate without having to actually be there. As usual, I procrastinated until the very last minute to send out my birthday wish list... <em>2</em> What amused me, though, were the items I came up with: <BR> <BR> - Vibram Five Finger shoes <BR> - gift card to Big 5 Sporting Goods <BR> - heart rate monitor with chest strap <BR> <BR> And the only non-... Thu, 4 Aug 2011 17:25:53 EST Inspiration #7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4322669 "I failed my way to success." ~ Thomas Edison <BR> <BR> This quote reminds me that setbacks are not the end of our journeys. We can still be successful in meeting our goals by moving past our failures and learning from them! <BR> <BR> Sat, 25 Jun 2011 21:51:28 EST Inspiration #5 and #6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4319948 "Do a little more each day than you think you possibly can." ~ Lowell Thomas <BR> <BR> Push yourself and you just might be surprised by what you can accomplish! It's hard to improve yourself if you don't push past your current abilities. <BR> <BR> "Winning isn't everything, but wanting to win is." ~ Vince Lombardi <BR> <BR> This one has been particularly relevant to me recently. I just started playing softball on a rec league with one of my favorite Sparkers!! Neither of us have ever pl... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 11:39:44 EST Inspiration #4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4316291 "I can do anything for 30 seconds!" <BR> <BR> I don't know who exactly to attribute this to - I've heard it on many a tough workout video!! And, more importantly, I tell myself this when I don't think I can go any further. Breaking things down in to small, 30 second chunks makes it much easier to get through - both physically and mentally! Wed, 22 Jun 2011 19:34:03 EST Inspiration #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4313828 “Release the need to blame anyone, including yourself. We’re all doing the best we can with the understanding, knowledge and awareness we have.” <BR> <BR> Louise L. Hay <BR> <BR> Today's inspirational quote reminds me that if I fail or don't meet the goals I have set for myself, instead of blaming myself and getting bogged down in negativity, I should instead acknowledge my failures, gain the knowledge I need to succeed, and carry on with my journey! Tue, 21 Jun 2011 17:46:06 EST Inspiration #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4310127 Today's inspirational quote comes from a fantastic athlete! I read this and am motivated to start TODAY! So often we tell ourselves we will start working out tomorrow, start eating right after our birthday, make a plan next weekend, etc. Instead of putting off what we can do NOW, make every moment count, make every day GREAT!! <BR> <BR> "I take nothing for granted. I now have only good days, or great days." ~ Lance Armstrong Mon, 20 Jun 2011 09:47:04 EST Inspiration #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4309389 Wasn't sure when I first read this if it was inspiring or a little depressing, but I decided to go with the former and take this as a reminder to take things one day at a time!! At the very least take the first sentence to heart, particularly on days that may be more trying than others. <BR> <BR> "It's not hard to live through a day, if you can live through a moment. What creates dispair is the imagination, which pretends there is a future, and insists on predicting millions of moments, tho... Sun, 19 Jun 2011 22:37:11 EST Tired of this CRAP!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4228755 C = Complacency <BR> R = Regression <BR> A = Attitude <BR> P = Procrastination <BR> <BR> Yeah, I'm sick of it! And I'm getting out my shovel to get this CRAP out of my path! I'm not a quitter and I'm not a loser! I was a Marine, darn it, and I need to get that fighting spirit back! <BR> <BR> Complacency <BR> It's so easy to become comfortable in daily routines, even when they're not doing us any good anymore. It takes effort to shake things up. It takes time to track everything you eat... Thu, 12 May 2011 19:27:34 EST Got my book!! Sculpting Her Body Perfect http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4177690 So, on the recommendation of a fellow Sparker, I purchased "Sculpting Her Body Perfect" to get myself where I want to be to start a strength program. I'm feeling pretty good today and think my muscle strain is healed enough to get back to the gym - lightly and slowly, though, lol! No more gang-busters for me! <em>344</em> Tue, 19 Apr 2011 20:05:54 EST SparkPeople = Spark Friends!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4134581 Just having moved to Arizona from Pennsylvania, I was prepared to be "friend-less" for a while. I joined the West Valley Sparklers team before I even left Pennsylvania and posted a few times to introduce myself. I never expected this group of ladies to so readily take me in as a "friend"! The first time I met any of them in person was for a hike - and I was late!! Everyone was super nice - I didn't feel out of place at all (which is common for me when first meeting people)! Since then I'... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 13:45:26 EST Who turned out the lights?? It's dark in here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3961860 Usually today I would post my blog reflecting on the last week of BLC 15. However, I had a miserable week and quite frankly there is not much worth reflecting on! I had a little over 100 fitness minutes for the week - and that was one day of working out. I didn't track my food and I ended up gaining a bit. I'm still over my BLC 14 ending weight and that is really starting to p!ss me off. <BR> <BR> I need to find my spark again!! I still love coming here and interacting with everyone. I... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 07:48:42 EST Kitchen Redo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3922860 So, the dreaded kitchen remodel is DONE - <em>244</em> !! For anyone who doesn't yet know (I've been moaning about it enough!), my house is over 100 years old and we've slowly been updating the various rooms on a budget and doing most of the work ourselves or with the help of the best neighbors in the world! <BR> <BR> The other thing about the kitchen... It has 4 walls. On 1 wall is a swinging door to the dining room, gas stove connection, and a cold air return grate in the floor. On th... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 21:12:21 EST Interesting (and health-related!) things I have learned from work craziness... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3745598 Last week and the first half of this week were truly work craziness! We worked super long days last week to prep for a workshop with some of our Canadian counterparts (from Montreal, Quebec, and Toronto) Monday through Wednesday this week. Besides being SUPER people, I also learned a few interesting tidbits from them while they were here... <BR> <BR> 1. Most food servings in Canada are not as large as the servings here in the U.S. <BR> <BR> 2. Canadians do not put french fries (sweet pota... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 07:17:52 EST Doctor Appt Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3697888 Last month I went and got my bloodwork taken for an annual physical. I was most curious about my cholesterol and sugar levels, the latter particularly because of an incident I had that I thought was a little scary (ate lots of sugar and shortly after fell in to a very deep sleep). Got my results and I'm quite pleased! <BR> <BR> I've had high cholesterol for a while - right after high school it was about 220 and a few years back it was about 280 - eek! Well, this time it was around 230, ... Wed, 6 Oct 2010 21:56:39 EST Un-vacation and a reunion! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3505337 Well, vacation officially doesn't start until tomorrow, but I feel like I've been on vacation for the past 4 days! <em>39</em> And not in a good way! I haven't worked out since Saturday and haven't been tracking my food either. I don't even want to step on the scale and haven't. <BR> <BR> Strangely enough, I've been making more of an effort to be social - and it's time consuming, lol!! Sunday I went shopping with my younger daughter and one of my girl friends. I picked her up at 10am... Thu, 5 Aug 2010 08:50:49 EST Size 6 Jeans (WOOHOO!), Uncoordination, and a Wedding Dress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3466907 Holy cannoli!! I can't think of the last time I fit in a size 6 jeans! Thank goodness for daughters who have more faith in their moms than the moms do themselves!! Emma encouraged me to try on the 6's and they FIT! She even asked me to make sure I could sit down in them, lol, and I could! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> They were slightly tighter (in the tummy) than I like to wear my jeans and I had a little "muffin top", so I decided to buy them and use them as my motivation jeans for the fall... Sun, 25 Jul 2010 09:18:22 EST Who's that girl??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3276676 Wednesday evening was a long night... Had to take my younger daughter to the Urgent Care to have her foot looked at. She hurt it playing outside last Saturday and it was still swollen and she was unable to walk on it properly. After several days of sending her to school in an ace bandage and her hobbling around on her heel, I thought it was way past time to get it looked at. So, the Urgent Care took x-rays and said that although there was no obvious sign of a fracture that there was an ab... Fri, 28 May 2010 10:16:22 EST MS Walk in Pittsburgh - Photo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3161127 Had a really good time with some fellow Sparkers at the MS Walk in Pittsburgh on 4/18/2010!! Unfortunately my dad took the picture before everyone arrived so I only got a few people. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l179757558.jpg"> Mon, 26 Apr 2010 06:41:24 EST Clothes shopping - HATE it!! But sometimes like it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3151669 So yesterday I had to go in to the office and my work pants (black slacks) were obviously too big for me. I don't have a huge work wardrobe because I don't go in to the office that often and we can wear jeans if we want, so this is my only pair of dress pants. After spending the morning pulling up my pants I decided to run to Target to buy some new pants. <BR> <BR> So... I get to Target and the first thing I see are bathing suits. I'm excited about the weight I've lost so far so figure w... Fri, 23 Apr 2010 08:23:10 EST 20 lbs GONE!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3121486 Woohoo! This morning I weighed in at 155.3 - twenty pounds less than where I started at the beginning of January! My BMI is finally under 26 and my body fat is under 30%! I know I have a long way to go still, but I am soooo excited!! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>104</em> <em>104</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> And to top it off, I went jogging yesterday with my wonderful hubby and the shins are feeling good! I only had a little teeny bit of pain but no shin splints!! Yay!! <BR> <B... Thu, 15 Apr 2010 06:28:09 EST My dirty little secret http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3072890 Okay, it's not really dirty, but... <BR> <BR> I eat healthy, I workout, I volunteer, I drink tons of water, I try to be kind to the environment and other people, I always wear my seatbelt, but I have a vice... <BR> <BR> I go tanning!! <BR> <BR> Yes, I admit it, I love the smell of the tanning lotion and the heat of the bulbs! I love the fact that I have 4-8 minutes of complete "me" time, listening to the gush of the fans and the newest hot tune on the teeny-bop station. <BR> <BR> And thi... Fri, 2 Apr 2010 12:00:56 EST Toot toot! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3052246 I'm quite socially awkward and usually try to avoid social situations where I have to make small talk like the plague!! I have major "foot-in-mouth"-itis and am frequently saying really dumb things or just feel like I have NO IDEA what to say to others. Anyway, that's all kind of beside the point... <BR> <BR> I went to my friend's surprise b-day party last night and saw several people I haven't seen since fall/winter - before I started sparking. Everyone kept telling me how great I looked... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 12:10:25 EST Out of the 160s!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3032664 I am so excited!! I started this journey at the beginning of this year at 176 and, as of this morning, am out of the 160s!! Yay! <BR> <BR> The first 10 pounds came pretty easily after cutting meat out of my diet and watching what I was eating. I have had to work hard for the next 6.5 pounds. I'm now 159.6 pounds - yeah, I know it's barely less than 160, but it's still less!! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Tue, 23 Mar 2010 08:02:41 EST Dear Body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3024834 I saw this in one of the magazines I get, so thought I'd steal the idea! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Dear Body, <BR> <BR> I am sorry for the years of mindless eating, no exercise, smoking, and drinking. I promise to treat you with love and respect for the rest of my life and, in return, I'm hoping you can take me along my life journey with strength and confidence. You amaze me every day with your resilience and power! I am so thankful for your ability to carry me through my days and I prom... Sun, 21 Mar 2010 09:50:34 EST My favorite time of day - fleeting as it may be... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2909451 From the moment I get out of bed, open the bedroom door, and walk down the stairs, the creaks and cracks of my old home are comforting and welcoming. They seem to say "good morning" as I pad across the kitchen floor, still in my jammies, the coolness of the morning air helping to clear my mind. <BR> <BR> First stop is unsurprisingly the coffee machine, followed by a trip to the computer where I sit and relax with my coffee while checking emails, planning my day here, and fighting crime lord... Sun, 21 Feb 2010 15:25:39 EST