BSYMOM4's SparkPeople Blog BSYMOM4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Making a tiny bit of progess :-) I'm down a couple of pounds this week but I'm trying really hard not to measure my progress on the scale so this week I found something different to check my progress: <BR> <BR> Fridays are always pizza night at our house. Usually, it's frozen but now and then we order out. I always have 3 pieces. I guess because that's what feels satisfying. When I was putting the pizza into my tracker yesterday afternoon, I realized that those 3 pieces of pizza were just under 1000 calories! Yikes!!... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 10:33:43 EST Just when will I put myself first? On my way to work this morning, I made the decision to get back on here after a lengthy absence. Nothing good happened in that absence. <BR> <BR> My weight has been a huge struggle all my life from the beginning with multiple food allergies, shots and steroids to my middle years and slimfast and deprivation to now with 30+ extra pounds and perimenopause. My determination and energy is completely spent. Nothing I've been doing seems to be working in my favor. <BR> <BR> This is going t... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 12:24:56 EST So far so good This week, I'm just working on staying within calorie range and eating better. Can't do this with an all or nothing attitude again. It just leads to failure. <BR> <BR> Yesterday went well and I actually feel better already today. I don't know if it's because of better eating or that I'm finally doing something for me or the combination of both. All I know is I finally feel like I can climb out of this huge hole I've dug for myself over the past several months. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> Fri, 6 Sep 2013 13:27:57 EST And yet again... I'm back ... again. I guess it's good that I keep coming back, I just wish I wouldn't fall off the wagon to begin with. Sighhhh... <BR> <BR> Depression is a horrible thing to overcome. I think the only way I'm getting through this is one small change at a time. Enough of destroying myself with food. Building myself up with the right food and exercise is what needs to be done. <BR> <BR> Let's see if I can do it ... this time... <BR> <em>39</em> Thu, 5 Sep 2013 08:05:42 EST Well... ... It's been a rough few months. Started out strong then hit a snag with a huge emotional drama that I had a really tough time getting through. Got through it ... not over it exactly. I just know that I HAVE to take care of myself and stop putting myself last .. no matter what else is going on around me or to me. <BR> <BR> Trying one day at a time to get back to myself ... whoever she is now ... <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> Fri, 22 Mar 2013 15:36:10 EST Yep, I'm a food addict... Which is a really hard thing to be when you must eat to stay alive. Food is my only vice. I don't smoke or drink except for a rare wine cooler. Rarely swear and never in front of my children. So what's left? Food. It's always been my comfort. I have a real problem with not having any around so my kitchen is always fully stocked. I hate running out of things! Why am I like this? No idea. Maybe I lived through starvation in a previous life? Growing up, we were never hungry. Could b... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 10:32:56 EST So far... ... I'm staying on track. The gym and Spark have been my close companions since January 2nd. :-) This week is proving a little tough because we are all back to regular schedules with the kids just going back to school on Monday and I've started back to work. I'm a tax preparer/office manager. So I've had to plan ahead and pack the kids' stuff as well as my own lunches and snacks. I'm finding it easier if instead of worrying about things as I'm going to sleep, to shift my mind to what my... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 11:10:37 EST Day 1 ... Of a new 10 week challenge... <BR> <BR> You can see how long I've been struggling from how long it's been since I blogged. I kept feeling like I was doing everything right and just not losing like I should. I mean, really, at my weight at 5'3-1/2", my body shouldn't think it's at goal. I've got a long way to go. <BR> <BR> So I've been MIA for a little while. Since the end of the fall challenge anyway and just relaxed a bit. Didn't go overboard and just pig out. Didn't drop my exerci... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 09:56:27 EST Week 2 Report Down a little this week. Only .8 from last week and .4 overall but down a little. Looks like I'm still fighting this plateau so I'm planning on kicking up my strength training this week to see if that will help blast through this wall. <BR> <BR> Other than that it's been a pretty good week. I've made sure to put more activity into my days so by bedtime, I'm ready to sleep. :-) Hubby is still bringing home junk. Last week it was pumpkin doughnuts. This week it was 2 bags of chips and... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 12:34:21 EST Week 1 Report So I'm up .4lbs. I started to get upset with myself but then I stopped. My body always responds this way when I increase my exercise length or levels .. ALWAYS. Last week, I didn't do any exercise (I know .. really bad) but this week I had 310 minutes of cardio and 40 strength. Over 5 hours of cardio is way better than nothing. So I stopped kicking myself and thought about where I could improve instead. I need to track this week ... everything. In combination with the additional exerci... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 12:08:00 EST Challenge week 1 Ok, where to start ... <BR> <BR> I'm still not completely motivated so that's what I'm working on this challenge. I'm not sure where it went but it needs to come back. I'm tired of feeling lost ... <BR> <BR> 5 things that are/have been holding me back ... <BR> <BR> 1) my family ... just got tired of fighting against the junk they keep bringing in the house. Along with the looks that I get when I don't eat what they've brought in. <BR> <BR> 2) no goal ... set it for my birthday but th... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 11:03:18 EST Day 1 (Month 1) Restarting I've done better in the last couple weeks than I've done in the prior few but still not really motivated and not completely back on the wagon. Can't quite pinpoint why. My plan for today is to work on why and then how to get it back together. <BR> <BR> The first step was to reset my program along with all the articles and resetting my goals. My plan today, is to figure out where my motivation went and to bring it back. The lack of motivation is driving me crazy. The gym is definitely on... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 10:50:02 EST Restarting .. I hope ... Well, the last part of the summer was pretty much a bust. The wagon left and I just couldn't get back on it. It took awhile to finally figure out what was going on. My goal was to be as fit as I could be for my niece's wedding along with losing 25lbs. I nearly made it. The day we left for vacation, I was to 23.8 lbs gone. We came back and I only went up 1lb. Not bad for vacationing and a long car trip. After that, I just felt lost and didn't know why. While waking up one morning, I r... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 13:50:12 EST Day 13 (Month 7) & week 4 report Well, the heat has broken, thank goodness! We have reasonable weather around here again and I can breathe! <BR> <BR> This has just been an off week. My youngest daughter went to church camp for the first time ever. I'm sure she's having a blast but I'm fairly anxious not hearing from her all week. My parents drove out of state to my sister's house for my niece's wedding. That made me nervous since Dad is still recovering from his brain surgery this fall. He still gets pretty shaky an... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 12:24:16 EST Day 6 (Month 7) & 3rd week report My report this week ... <BR> HOT HOT HOT HOT !!! <BR> It's insanely hot with temps 98 + and the heat indexes well over 100. UGH. I am not heat tolerant and haven't been since my 2nd daughter was born almost 20 years ago. It's tough getting in the workouts when it's too hot and humid to breathe!!! <BR> <em>67</em> <em>67</em> <em>67</em> <em>67</em> <em>67</em> <BR> I've gotten a few workouts in and I'm down .8 lbs of the 1.2 I gained last week. Gotta keep chugging. There's onl... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 22:08:53 EST Day 29 (Month 6) & 2nd week report <em>234</em> <BR> Ugh. That's the comment for today. Sigh. I'm up 1.2 lbs this morning. Only the 2nd time in 6 months that I had a gain. The last time I had a gain I upped my workouts quite a bit. This week, I also upped my workouts quite a bit. I added 40 mins of strength at higher levels and upped my cardio levels a few notches. The good news is that I can now do 2 elliptical miles in 27:23 cutting my best time by nearly a minute. That's progress! It doesn't make sense to me th... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 10:38:09 EST Day 22 (Month 6) & Week 1 Report <em>9</em> <BR> That's my symbol for today! :-D <BR> <BR> In my first week's challenge, I'm down 2 pounds which brings my total to 22.4 gone in 24 weeks. :-D My favorite shorts are no longer sitting on my waist nor do I have to suck in to button them. They are now loose out of the dryer and are resting on my hips! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> These small life changes are really making a difference and I'm finding I prefer eating healthy over not. I'd much rather have the fresh veggies a... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 11:39:05 EST Day 15 (Month 6) It's the first day of a new 10 week challenge! I'm pretty excited and off to a pretty good start. I'm down 3.6 lbs from the end of the spring challenge so it's kind of cool to start off the new challenge at a lower weight. First time I've done that! Usually, I bounce up a little between challenges. :-) My goal is to lose 10 lbs in the next 10 weeks .. doable? Totally should be! <BR> <BR> I'm not losing big amounts every week but I've lost weight every week except for one week since Ja... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 11:57:17 EST Day 12 (Month 6) I finally hit 20lbs gone ... 20.2 as a matter of fact! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> It's still a struggle to keep going .. some days more than others .. but I am. Just like the little turtle on my ticker.. a little at a time. <BR> <em>134</em> <BR> I start a new summer challenge on Friday. This one may be pretty tough. Our schedules are pretty lax in the summer and it's harder to find time to get to the gym with the kids out of school. My youngest just turned 10 so isn't old enough to be le... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 12:14:09 EST Day 5 (Month 6) When I got on the scale Friday, I was down another 2 lbs so the downward trend is continuing. Strange how some weeks I can easily lose 2 lbs in a week and others I lose .2 while doing the same things. It's not so easy as burning off more calories than you eat. If it was, I'd be very skinny right now! LOL <BR> <BR> It's really more of a balancing issue. Balance the right amount of proteins with the right amount of carbs with the right amount of fruits/veggies and the weight will come off... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 11:58:17 EST Day 25 (Month 5) The word for today ... tired. Just plain tired. Burned out. Exhausted. Those are also very descriptive words for today. This week has been just plain busy as the last week of school usually is. We've had a fun day, early dismissal, recital pictures, a field trip, graduation, 2 class trips, report card day, and my daughter's birthday. Then, birthday party tomorrow and a family birthday/graduation party Sunday. Also, workout time, work, shopping, housecleaning and carpet cleaning. Enough... Fri, 25 May 2012 22:30:53 EST Day 22 (Month 5) Only 3 days left til the end of the 10 week challenge. Have I attained my goal? No. Will I? Not likely. But, I have made progress. As of Friday, I've removed 7.2 lbs from my body. Seriously hoping for 10 by this Friday. We will see. I've learned a lot along the way. I've stumbled along the way. I've also gotten back up and kept going this time. <BR> <BR> I've been on this track now since January 2. I've had a couple of slips but no real falls. This is the longest I've ever stu... Tue, 22 May 2012 12:54:15 EST Day 18 (Month 5) Well, not the world's best weigh in but didn't gain. Down only .2 but at least it's in the right direction. It is TOM week plus I bumped up my cardio quite a bit for a challenge so it was probably the combination of the two. The last time I bumped up my cardio, I gained .5 lbs that week but lost 2.8 the next so we'll see what this does to the last week of the challenge. Sure hope it's good. I got in 490 minutes of cardio this week .. that's a record!! <BR> <BR> What I've learned during ... Fri, 18 May 2012 19:24:45 EST Day 11 (Month 5) This was an all around bad week. My oldest daughter and I had a big argument then I had a couple small tussles with the DH. Just tons of stress on top of being very busy with end of the school year stuff. My daughter and I are still at odds, unfortunately. She's 23, has graduated from culinary school but is still working in a pizza restaurant where she deals with a lot of flour. With her gluten allergies, this isn't the place for her but on top of that, she's very immature for her age. T... Fri, 11 May 2012 15:52:47 EST Day 4 (Month 5) I know it's been a bit since I blogged .. just had to relax and unstress a little this week. I kept going .. I don't have a choice .. just didn't stress over it this week and guess what??? It worked!!! I finally broke through the 230 mark!!! The scale was down 2.8 pounds today! WOOHOOO!!! AND, I did my measurements and I've removed almost 8" from my body this month!!! I"M SO EXCITED! I just knew my clothes were fitting differently!!! Most of the inches lost came from my waist and my ... Fri, 4 May 2012 08:35:52 EST Day 28 (Month 4) Thanks everyone for your support! :-) <BR> <BR> I kind of took the day off yesterday and just relaxed .. at least as much as I can with a houseful of people! While I was still angry, I took the dog for a brisk 45 minute walk. Then later in the day, my daughter had a concert in the park where I ended up walking another 30 minutes. So got in some basic exercise. Ate a cheeseburger for lunch but just a few fries, not the whole serving. No soda .. haven't had any for quite awhile now, just... Sat, 28 Apr 2012 10:18:33 EST Day 27 (Month 4) I am just angry this morning!!! <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> My body does not seem to want to move out of the 230's! Back up to 231.0 this morning. And for the life of me, I cannot see why!! I got over 8 hours of exercise this week .. combining cardio and weights. Plus, I've been very active around the house all week, barely sitting down. Chose good foods and eating in my range. Walking my daughter to the bus instead of driving. I should have been down!!! <BR> <em>101</em> <BR> I feel like... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 08:35:57 EST Day 25 (Month 4) My daughter's car is finally up and running after a week so I didn't have to chauffer her around today which made it much easier to get some of my spring cleaning done! I now have clean windows on my porch and no cobwebs in the screens. :-) Not even sure how much exercise I've gotten today besides my gym time. I've pretty much been on the move since I got up this morning. Went to the gym and put in 35 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes of weights. Did laundry, cleaned the kitchen,... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 18:37:44 EST Day 23 (Month 4) What a busy weekend!!! I had a craft show on Saturday morning then ran out of state to a dance competition for all 3 of my girls then back Sunday to the end of year office dinner. I'm worn out! Unfortunately with all the complications, I didn't get any formal exercise Saturday or Sunday. Eating was off but not horrid. Did do a lot of walking upstairs and down and through theater hallways and the auditorium along with packing, hauling, unpacking and more hauling for the craft show. So pr... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 19:16:36 EST Day 20 (Month 4) I have been busier the past few days than I've been in a long time! I almost forgot how much work it is to run after 4 kids and all the errands!! It was easier to go to work every day! LOL <BR> I'm really enjoying it though. I'm on my own schedule so can pretty well do what I want when I want until they are out of school. Trying to get in a regular workout schedule now. That part was easier during season since I just kept driving after work since I was in the car any way. Now I have to... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 11:10:41 EST Day 17 (Month 4) <em>102</em> <BR> Last day of tax season 2011 ... I'm exhausted ..... but made it through ... <BR> <em>58</em> Tue, 17 Apr 2012 17:22:15 EST Day 16 (Month 4) In the homestretch! In less than 36 hours, tax season will be over and I'll be free! I feel like I put my life on pause for 3-1/2 months while I just go to work.... At least this season, I didn't let myself fall off the wagon. I've stayed strong and stuck to my guns and to my workouts even when I was tired. There was only a handful of days that I didn't workout and only a few days that I had a bad time with eating. Even those weren't really bad! So, really really good! <BR> <em>88</e... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 11:04:59 EST Day 13 (Month 4) Well, I didn't have the weigh in numbers I wanted which was very disappointing. I saw 230.0 on Tuesday but today I'm at 230.8. :-( But I'm down another .8 lbs and this was a very stressful week with a lot of emotional drama so not too surprised. Plus I didn't get to the gym last night because I was just completely drained. <BR> <BR> Ok, taking a big breath here .... <BR> <BR> Starting a new week and the last few days of tax season .. finally. I do work 2 mornings a week after this thro... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 13:22:42 EST Day 12 (Month 4) Been a long day so far. Started off badly with a conflict at work which is made even worse when you work with family. Things are calmer now but still not great. Hoping the situation will greatly improve and we can move past the issue. Just worn out from the whole thing. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> I'm just so ready for this season to be over. It's been a tough one. My mom owns the business and my sister and I work here. Mom hasn't been here a lot because my dad had brain surgery this fall ... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:59:01 EST Day 11 (Month 4) What a beautiful day it is!! It's only about 40 with a high of 60 but sunny. I just love the chill in the air! <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> I snuck on the scale this morning even though my weigh in day isn't til Friday ... it looks like I might just make my goal of -1.7 by then .. I can almost see it today! YEEHAWWW!! <BR> <em>192</em> <BR> I also pulled a different shirt out of the closet from what I've been wearing and IT HAS ROOM!!! The sleeves are looser. The shoulders are looser. Th... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 10:33:47 EST Day 10 (Month 4) One of my team challenges this week is to get out and involve family or friends. Well ... I have a unique way of doing this. :-) My sister had texted me the other day while I was at the gym and asked what I was doing so I told her I was at the gym. She says "I really need to go do that but I don't push myself well". Last night when I left work, I texted her and told her that I was going to the gym and she should meet me there. The unique thing is that she lives 2 states away. :-) She ... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 11:47:40 EST Day 9 (Month 4) I'm hungry today. Probably because I overate yesterday. Ate good food for the most part, just too much while chatting with family. I did indulge in a little Easter chocolate ... can't pass up the small Reese's eggs and mini cups. :-) Just 2 of each though. <BR> <em>449</em> <BR> Today, I'm eating clean .. no chocolate. Plenty of water. Had a good omelette and strawberries for breakfast and a big salad for lunch. Snacks and dinner are all planned so I shouldn't be so hungry again tom... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 14:52:25 EST Day 7 (Month 4) Saturday .. it's been a lonnnggg week ... <BR> <em>102</em> <BR> I've got one more full week to work and then 2 more days so almost done. It's been an exhausting season! With all the exercise and eating right though, I'm getting through it better than my co-workers who are drained. <BR> <BR> This week, I'm trying very hard to stay on course and stick to my plans. I only need to lose 1.7lbs to be in the 220's so that's my goal for Friday's weigh in... A minimum of 1.7lbs gone. I've step... Sat, 7 Apr 2012 11:33:12 EST Day 6 (Month 4) Today was weigh in today and I was truly hoping for a loss. I got one! Only .8 but in the right direction. Not sure why it's so low but down none the less. Just trying to keep in mind that I'm doing great things for my body. I can feel the toning in my thighs. See that my heart rate is getting better while working out and know that my energy is quite a bit better. Also, the small losses are adding up .. slowly, but adding up. I'm down 13.2 lbs since January 2nd when I got serious agai... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 10:14:31 EST Day 5 (Month 4) Got up this morning and my knee is feeling better. Didn't push it last night. I focused on the weight training circuit with mainly upper body and light weights on the lower body then 25 minutes on the treadmill at a reduced speed and incline. Much easier on the knees that way. Think I'll probably have to do the same for a few days to give it some rest. May switch to a bike too without a lot of resistance just so I can keep going but not over strain it again. I will not let this set me b... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 12:27:20 EST Day 4 (Month 4) I did not let myself fall off the wagon yesterday. I did have 2 twizzlers and left it at that. Lunch was a nice big salad from Pizza Hut plus the short walk seemed to help. So all in all, pretty good. :-) At the gym last night, I did 25 mins on the elliptical then another 35 on the treadmill. With about 6-7 minutes left on the treadmill, I felt my knee go again. Ugh. So I took down the speed and brought down the level. Today it's swollen and sore .. again. Put the brace back on and ... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 10:42:30 EST Day 3 (Month 4) <em>28</em> <BR> Just want to eat today!!! AARRRGGGHHHHH!!! Trying very hard not to give in and fall off the wagon! I think I'll get out after this appointment and walk around the block, maybe grab a salad at pizza hut. Doesn't help that the owner brought in twizzlers, tootsie rolls and cookies because she has the munchies. Sigghhh ... <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Tue, 3 Apr 2012 11:59:24 EST Day 2 (Month 4) March just flew by, didn't it?? Wow! Two more weeks plus a couple of days of tax season then done! Can't wait! I have soooo much waiting for me to get done at home! <BR> <BR> This month, I'm starting back on the biggest loser exercise plan. I enjoyed it in January and felt stronger. Was too busy in February and just plain tired in March. So this is the month to get back into it. I tend to avoid core exercises because I just plain don't like them. I like what they do to my body but ha... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 11:00:34 EST Day 31 (Month 3) Went to the gym before work this morning and decided not to get on the treadmill. I'm always on it so wanted to change it up a little to see if I could jump my weight loss numbers. So instead, I did 25 minutes on the elliptical then 5 minutes on the arc trainer and 5 more minutes walking the track cooling down. Then did weights. Yes, I was back on the arc again. I don't tend to let things get the better of me. LOL .. This time, I put it on manual on level 3 for only the 5 minutes. I'm ... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 15:06:56 EST Day 30 (Month 3) 2nd week weigh in for the challenge went pretty well .. down another 1.4 lbs. At least I'm getting consistent! LOL Was hoping for more but down is down. :-) <BR> <BR> The arc trainer kicked my butt! That was a lot harder than the elliptical! Some of it was that I didn't know how to run it and just put it on the weight loss program level 1. That was too hard for the 1st time on the machine. After about 3 minutes, my thighs were burning! I had put it on for 15 minutes but only went 8.... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 11:09:43 EST Day 29 (Month 3) Got back on the elliptical last night. That thing worries me a bit because it tends to raise my heart rate so quickly. But last night, I did 20 minutes and my heart rate was not abnormally high. :-) I've noticed recently that while I'm on the treadmill that my heart rate is lower at the same amount of work. So that's pretty cool! You don't really think about the internal changes while you're worrying about the outside. <BR> <em>344</em> <BR> So, 20 minutes on the elliptical + coold... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 15:38:53 EST Day 28 (Month 3) I am bursting with energy today but have no idea where it's coming from! LOL Guess it's a good thing except I'm stuck in the office. AND it's sunny and 73 today .... <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> My co-worker and I are working on this new plan together. It's called The Formula. It's basically about eating 40% of your diet from real food carbs, 30% from protein and 30% from fat. It's not too hard except avoiding bread and pasta products is a little tough. But I'm finding that I eat that way ... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 14:44:04 EST Day 27 (Month 3) Oops .. missed posting for a few days ... <BR> <BR> Saturday's craft sale went pretty well. Didn't make a ton of money but some and got some suggestions on new scents to make. Which reminds me, I need to order some lilac ... <BR> <BR> Sunday was a little rough. Hubby and I went out for our celebration day. Started out the day ok with a walk with the dog and a good breakfast and lunch. We went to see The Hunger Games .. great movie by the way .. and had popcorn & twizzlers at the the... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 15:51:16 EST Day 24 (Month 3) Wow! Lots of soreness today ... just basically stiff muscles! Calves, thighs, shoulders ... all tender. No time for the gym today. I had to set up my things for a craft show this morning during what would have been my gym time then had to go straight to work. Probably a good thing. Feels like my muscles need a day off! Did get some cardio in just packing up the show and the hauling it in and setting it up. Enough that I broke a sweat a couple of times. Candles are heavy! It's suppo... Sat, 24 Mar 2012 12:23:10 EST Day 23 (Month 3) My weigh in was good this morning and I'm down another 1.4 lbs! WOOHOO! I'm getting pretty consistent .. 1.6, 1.6 & 1.4 in the last 3 weeks so it looks like I've found my rhythm. <BR> <em>9</em> <em>335</em> <BR> I pulled out a pair of capris that I couldn't wear last summer and they fit beautifully! Not tight, not loose .. just right! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <em>88</em> Fri, 23 Mar 2012 10:41:37 EST