BROADBRUSH's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BROADBRUSH BROADBRUSH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ please tell me your story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756891 i am so frustrated and resentful and here is why. i have asked this question many many times and need answers from any of you who will tell me. WHY does the sane person have to GO TO SELF HELP OR PSYCHIATRY to learn to COPE with the perpetrator?? what is up with that. why is the 'good person' otherwise called the ENABLER - asked to leave, find a new place to stay, up root their lives, perhaps children, pets etc.???? i totally resent being called an enabler - i have borne the brunt of... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 12:54:10 EST what's your approach? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696926 as you may remember - my boy has been losing weight. his approach is NOT to stand on the scale, but dig out articles of clothing that he has not been able to wear for a very very long time. i have to say it is exciting for me to see him happy and come out of his room and say 'hey look this fits again!' BUT i am very curious as to the #'s lbs down. <BR> you see that is MY approach - and also the tape measure. there lies a dilemma for a lot of us cause we all know the scale can be scathing... Sat, 17 May 2014 09:54:34 EST FEEDING YOUR INNER SPIRIT - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694256 it is so surprising to me - what can nurture your heart and soul. <BR> Sunday was mother's day and the morning started with a beautiful card along with four favorite books to read. THE WALKING DEAD is one of my passions and i have withdrawal when it goes off for the summer months. so this will keep me entertained and intrigued for the summer time. BONUS - lot of stuff included that is NOT in the TV episodes. <BR> a cousin of mine was having an art exhibit for charity - so my boy said le... Tue, 13 May 2014 14:59:48 EST NOT a lot of food BUT a ton of carbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689039 just another reason not believe the total calories in/out - and the equation that 3500 calories equal ONE POUND. <BR> i have been craving carbs so intensely (some times i think my brain remembers every single day i deprived myself) and when i am under so much stress like now , i decided to figure out the calorie count - and eat what i desire. as long as i don't go over that calorie count i should have LOST SOMETHING, OR AT THE LEAST STAYED THE SAME. <BR> ha ha ha - you know it don't you ?!... Tue, 6 May 2014 14:40:03 EST so the sun is shining --- B U T!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665680 Hi all - it has been awhile - i see the temps trying very hard to rise - but today as lovely as the sunshine is - it is too cold - can't get out and clean up in the yard - as everything still under snow or encased in ice. <BR> <BR> update on Esther - she has spent two months in the rehab facility - now she can do some weight bearing exercise so she begged to come home. yesterday she came home and she will have home care/therapy etc. it has been a very frightening experience for her... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 12:24:41 EST deepak chopra/oprah/mendela & others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631733 today - my sanity once again stays in tact after a horrendous month, dead end conversations with health care providers, and sinking into desperate waters. thanks to accidentally happening upon oprah's guest - deepak chopra. i have his books. but at the exact moment i 'turned the other cheek' once again - vowing to stop - there he was speaking of mendela. quoting mendela - <BR> it made me feel better - gave me a little more hope in a hopeless situation. <BR> listening to the closing sta... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 15:33:16 EST FEBRUARY - shortest but longest month!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616645 this has been a brutal winter so far - and it aint over yet! <BR> my neighbor Esther is still in hospital - three months on the 17th - then she will go to a physio rehab. <BR> it has been so tough for her - and the depression crept up on her just after the holidays. it is such a cruel winter too - so if you are shut in you can't even enjoy looking out the window. you can't see much except white - ice - etc. <BR> i wish she could have her cat for an hour or so - but the little critter can't... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 08:13:30 EST PRAYER THROUGH MY DOGS' EYES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601540 this has been a particularly trying month - more stress filled even than my usual stressful days. as i sit with my rosary, or close my eyes and whisper out loud, or hum a hymn - i notice my pugs out of the corner of my eye. they are sitting so still and watching me - just looking - cocking their heads back and forth when i speak loudly enough for them to hear the words of a hail mary or our Father - <BR> i was sobbing and praying - they both jumped up on my lap and started to lick my tears... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 18:25:28 EST may i say http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592688 continuing in the vein of 'ads, pop ups and intrusion of privacy' i would like to ask that if your bank accosted you - up in your face - every time you went to deposit or withdraw or otherwise deal with them - would you accept this simply because the bank is there? right now i know they ask if you are interested in possibly buying certain products - you say no thank you- end of story. <BR> but this is unrelenting and more more more stuff is strewn all over the site. lots of it is counter ... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 18:25:11 EST just the facts please!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591336 hi all - i am still here - hope you are doing ok . we are half way thru the first month of 2014. <BR> i have noticed the huge increase in the pop ups and the teasers on this site - indeed everywhere it is most annoying <BR> but even more annoying than the intrusion it the fact that there is NO CONTENT THAT IS SUBSTANCE IN THESE SILLY COME ONS. i e ='FIVE FOODS WOMEN SHOULD NEVER EAT' so my cursor accidentally ran across it and opened it. it is a bunch of hog wash and no where is there... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 15:19:18 EST HAPPY NEW YEAR -UPDATES & OTHER THOUGHTS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584944 first- i hope you all are warm and safe. i hope all of your family and friends are well and doing ok. <BR> we have had a rather sad time - when people pass away at this time of year it is particularly painful. we lost two friends - both in their late fifties/early sixties who passed on Christmas Eve and New Yrs Eve respectively. Cancer was the cause. one will not see a new grandchild come into this world. <BR> my friend Esther has had a lot of ups and downs - she is still in the hospit... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 21:46:53 EST TIMES HAVE CHANGED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5563543 hi all - i hope you are all taking time to 'smell the coffee' at this very busy time. every year we reflect, regroup and make plans . we make plans for ourselves and families, people we care about. <BR> i don't know about you but , when i was growing up and right into this present day, one of the prayers has always been ' for world peace'. the song 'feed the world' from over thirty years ago still plays on the radio; as do many with that very noble theme. <BR> it would be possible if ... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 11:36:07 EST FRAGMENTATION OF THE MIND!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553464 a comparison of what that means - you look into a mirror and clearly see YOU staring back, but in a split second - something or some one shatters the mirror and the shards destroy your image and all you see is unrecognizable fragments of what was once YOU. <BR> <BR> we hear of this in multiple personality disorder - but i think it is very applicable to WEIGHT CHALLENGED persons - whether obese or anorexic. <BR> this fragmentation pushes off course - you lose reason when it comes to FOOD ... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 13:17:39 EST update on my neighbor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548887 it is only one week - but the doc says good progress is being made. she is in good spirits and wants to do all she can to get out of hospital. <BR> of course she will have to go to a physio rehab facility - and it will be quite a while - but her spirits are good. <BR> we laughed about the lousy hospital food - but she is looking forward to be some what lighter - we ladies always worried about our weight !!!! <BR> i took a pic of her little tree - she is happy about that - brought her mai... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 08:25:17 EST HOLIDAY MISCONCEPTIONS, PERSPECTIONS? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546278 it is that time of the year again. on so many levels it is a fun time full of childrens' dreams and anticipations. <BR> i do love that people seem to smile more and sometimes are more thoughtful towards others. <BR> for many though it is a very sad and scary four to six weeks of their lives. it is an unfortunate fact that depression, suicide, alcoholism, drug dependency - even heart attack - escalate . so many have unrealistic expectations - and find themselves in financial distress beca... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 16:29:32 EST what a shame http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543391 hi all and good Sunday - <BR> i wrote a while ago about my lovely neighbor. her name is Esther - she and i started walking together. well yesterday she tripped on her an electric cord in the house and broke her leg in THREE places. the femor being one - i am so sorry for her. she is an older person - and as we all know it is harder to heal - but also the danger of infection and pneumonia are huge looming threats. <BR> there will be physio afterwards of course - i want her to get wel... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 11:04:43 EST THE SPECIAL CIRCLE OF 'HUGS' thank you all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535869 i went thru my 'goodies' and counted up all the hugs - what a blessing - there are enough to circle me - i feel so loved in this soft welcoming place. <BR> then i looked at all the wonderful plants and sunbeams that are collected in my goodies as well as rainbows - especially from someone with the same call name. <BR> to all of you who have been so caring as to take this time- to talk to me and send me these wonderful momentos - i have to give you so much gratitude. <BR> it is not a small... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 14:16:35 EST BULLYING - THERE ARE MANY ADULTS GUILTY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535064 there is a lot of attention paid to kids/adolescent bullying - and rightfully so. <BR> but my experience for my entire life has been adults bullying me. decades ago, when an adult admonished a child it was called 'telling you for your own good' and you had no choice in the matter cause you were a kid and you knew nothing - you had no feelings - you just better MIND WHAT WAS TOLD TO YOU. <BR> there was the constant - 'you are too fat, stop eating ' 'you are lazy' all through my teens a... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 16:32:35 EST serious discussion - EMOTIONAL OVER-EATERS CAN'T BE 'FILLED' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529895 as an emotional eater in general whether you are over weight or not - that barrier to sensible thinking and logic is completely ineffective when going thru a 'binge panic mode'. <BR> it bothers me that products like PGX (which is not bad and of itself), Sensa and other fiber that 'blows up in the digestive tract to make you feel full' is marketed as a very simple alternative to help lose weight. <BR> HELLO - when an emotional eater is in the throws of an attack - the food they eat is FILL... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 09:17:23 EST should HALLOWEEN morph into something entirely different? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528165 it seems there are a lot of dire warnings for something that is supposed to be a FUN time! <BR> --- ie -- never enter into some ones' home. <BR> -- make sure costumes are safe - not too long - or mask obscuring sight. <BR> --- never eat anything you get until your parents check it out. Even then bad things have happened - inserted chemicals into caramilk bars, tacks or pins put into other chocolate articles. <BR> ---- don't hand out peanuts or chocolate because of alle... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 09:35:09 EST A HELLUV A WAY TO SHUT ME UP!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522359 GOOD day all - well, i have been called a chatty Kathy - but TMJ - really - is no way to shut me up. <BR> i would not wish the pain on my worst enemy - well maybe Al Queida!! - but Lord Almighty - excruciating for 24 hrs a day - every day for the past week. <BR> hot compresses and Rx for six times strength of ibuprofen - and it is still quite a roar. <BR> no yawning - yikes - <BR> no chewing - no cold air - no touching any part of the outer or inner cheeks - and God please SAVE all my... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 14:10:19 EST i think this happens to most of us http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517679 i comment about this because i read so many of our by lines on spark and they are so similar- different words maybe - but it all means the same. i am referring to most of the 'ladies' description of who they were and who they have become. <BR> BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY I TAKE NO COMFORT IN THE OLD ADAGE 'MISERY LOVES COMPANY'. i am looking for some solution, some meeting of the minds, some strategies to help all of us. <BR> when i was so sick with thyroid, RA and Fibromyalgia flare ups that d... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 11:11:02 EST girls - please value yourselves and recognize how precious you are http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502630 i will preference by saying this may also apply to the boys - but what i am putting out there now really applies to my observances of how females keep making the same mistakes. they diminish and undervalue themselves in deference to many many other people, circumstances and life experiences. <BR> DENIGRATING a female's worth is not new - but it has become an 'art form' for a lot of people - when you see a girl/woman succeeding - and your insecurity comes to the fore - you feel threatened ... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 15:35:40 EST thanks for the caring remarks- http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5498576 hi on this lovely fall saturday <BR> this support network is a God send to me. <BR> i have to tell you - my heart and my soul are breaking because i know my son does not love himself enough to DO SOMETHING to improve his health. i was discussing a better diet with him - i try to do my very best at home - especially since i am also trying to get my weight down. <BR> he just blurted out - 'so i will have my gall bladder out and i will be ok'. to say how shocked i was - well i nearly fell... Sat, 28 Sep 2013 13:40:54 EST biliary disease, gallbladder deaths and other painful lessons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493780 hi my friends- i am happy last week is in the past. rushed my son into hospital - the first time was a marathon eleven hours in emerge. they sent him home with a diagnosis of gall stones and some stress on liver. <BR> the next day we rushed him back - he had high fever and was very yellow- he had a bilary duct blocked and bile was going thru his system. the pain was excruciating. <BR> because he is so heavy - they did not want to do surgery - but they did a scope down from his throat... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 11:56:36 EST life is all about.....a pugs perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482678 honestly - wouldn't it be great to have a pugs attitude. <BR> first : the rule is to enjoy and live in the moment. what ever is happening now - is of world importance to a pug. <BR> second : contrary to popular believe FOOD is NOT the be all and end all - it is love and cuddles with whom ever of my humans happen to be free. when a pug does not get the 'me time' - they loose the little curl in their tails and the ears hit their shoulders. <BR> third: now that's the FOOD - yes yes yes !!... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 11:59:27 EST movie - Water for Elephants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476028 i never read the book and up until Sunday i had not seen the movie. i went through an entire box of kleenex - i really was shocked at how deep down i felt the sorrow for so many of the characters - but none more than ROSIE the polish speaking elephant so badly abused by the off his rocker owner of the run down circus. <BR> it stuck with me that sorrow - all day and into the next. <BR> then after a particularly horrible day with my care giving responsibilities - i realized - Rosie is my ... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 19:14:44 EST FAT - here's the skinny - but we don't listen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474351 i see the 'low fat choco muffin' recipe featured - <BR> while i don't advocate over doing fats in our diet - i thought all the information/trials and failures with 'low fat everything' starting in the late sixties, into the 70's and well into the 80's was now quite thoroughly debunked. <BR> it is very well known that when the fat (TASTE) is removed = it has to be replaced with sugars, fillers and other harmful substances which are worse for us- all of us, not just those trying to reduce our... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 09:15:31 EST ZUCCHINI MANIA AND WALKING AND TALKING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470213 OMG <BR> FRIED OR IN FRITTATA <BR> SPLICED OR DICED <BR> SAUTEED OR STUFFED <BR> SLIVERED IN SALAD <BR> <BR> <BR> what an abundance of yellow and green - cornucopia of zucchini.!!! <BR> <BR> all this and lots to share with neighbors <BR> the cucumbers were not as abundant - nor the eggplant . <BR> no spinach or broccoli - i think the bunnies had a lot to do with that right from the get go! <BR> <BR> so we have walked - and had some others join our little group - we won't win any ... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 19:36:20 EST MOTIVATION & RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464722 it is a lovely fall like Sat. morning and i was out in my yard about 6;15 a.m. with the pugs. they love a good run about first thing. i sipped my coffee and my elderly neighbor opened her screen door. i wasn't sure if it was too early to greet her - (some people need more time) but i said 'good morning' anyway. <BR> she waived me over and i got up and went. she said 'i have admired your lovely veggie garden. i miss all that since i cannot move like i used too'. i told her how much i c... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 09:12:02 EST DISSING FITNESS MINUTES - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462120 i guess everyone has an idea of 'how they view fitness time'. i remember when i went to yoga and pilates classes before they were popular, then training and working out at the gym where the comments were 'oh they are ok for keeping limber but they are NOT EXERCISE'! <BR> i did step classes for 18 years - never missed a thursday night and was told to put that in the same category as dancing - NICE BUT NOT REAL EXERCISE. <BR> then i hear - any movement is good - just move your body. <BR>... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 14:34:47 EST DISSING FITNESS MINUTES - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462119 i guess everyone has an idea of 'how they view fitness time'. i remember when i went to yoga and pilates classes before they were popular, then training and working out at the gym where the comments were 'oh they are ok for keeping limber but they are NOT EXERCISE'! <BR> i did step classes for 18 years - never missed a thursday night and was told to put that in the same category as dancing - NICE BUT NOT REAL EXERCISE. <BR> then i hear - any movement is good - just move your body. <BR>... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 14:34:47 EST where's the KARMA (bad for deserved ones) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5450990 i say this tongue in cheek - but there is a grain of truth in my annoyance - some times that grain can produce a pearl like with an oyster - right? <BR> here it is - certain friends, enemies and relatives i have had to deal with over the years - seem to get away the most nasty eating and drinking habits but they dane to 'lecture me on my plate' . i have written some what about this before - but it is so arrogant - beyond arrogance - it deserves a PIE IN THE FACE. oooooh would i love to ... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 16:26:03 EST EXTREME WEIGHT LOSS -CLONE OF B/L http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447553 Just when i thought i could tolerate biggest loser - they come along with a pseudo clone 'EXTREME WEIGHT LOSS' with one participant over one year. <BR> as with b/l we hear a little of the life preceding this person being chosen for the show. <BR> i notice there is not much comment anymore on losing A LOT OF WEIGHT in a very SHORT PERIOD OF TIME - <BR> don't you remember when most doc's told us just 1-2 pounds a week is considered sane, safe and doable???? don't you still hear that fro... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 11:21:17 EST a new list now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443430 1. on the list - my daughter does have to have the flush drain - they call this 'negative therapy' - she will have it for about 10 days. this was a disappointing turn - the poor kid can't catch a break! <BR> <BR> 2. on the list - find FOUR GRAND for a partial new roof - good luck to me with that. <BR> <BR> 3. on the list - i came home to find my hose busted and water gushing out every where - note to self - TURN THE STUPID THING OFF AT THE WALL IDIOT! <BR> so i will get a new hose -... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 16:43:43 EST the GPS of deconstructing weight losers mindset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433555 the GPS voice sounds exactly like 'TWISTED SISTER' . she starts off as if she is caring and encouraging and pushing you into the right direction. WATCH OUT - she will steer you wrong long before you know it. you will NOT be able to correct your moves and BANG - you have come undone!!!! <BR> it's like this - you have had a very hard, discouraging week, and today was particularly lousy . that voice says - you sacrificed a lovely lunch out to catch up on work. you need a break. why don't... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 21:01:51 EST can't celebrate just yet - but optimistic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433480 a child is always a child - even when they are all grown up. so my daughter is coming along. unfortunately most of the 'this doesn't happen very often' has happened to her. <BR> starting with a much too early release from hospital - she developed a horrendous infection within two days of being home. back to hospital only to find the incision had to be opened again. when it was - FOUR quarts of infectious liquid gushed out. <BR> she was started on 10 days , 24 hours IV pumped antibi... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 19:38:47 EST THANK YOU http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422257 your support means so much - especially going through a trying time with my daughter 's serious surgery. i will fill you all in at a later time - right now she still has quite a road ahead of her. <BR> but i just had to express that all your good thoughts, well wishes and most of all, prayers mean more than i can say here. <BR> to Autumnhope - Churchlady - Kathryn - and every single one of you - THANKS a MILLION - i feel your love and it is very comforting. <BR> God bless - BB Mon, 15 Jul 2013 20:08:28 EST an open letter to all you 'skinnies' out there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395128 dear skinny person; <BR> so you think it is easy to be fat - that it is the result of a bad attitude and a lazy disposition. well, ask yourself some questions - would you rather go up and down stairs with or without an extra 50 pound sack to carry? do you think you would relish aches, pains and more in every joint in your body - particularly hips, knees and ankles? are you happy to give up the ease of walking in stylish shoes - not using a walker or cane occasionally when needed? would y... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 11:30:37 EST there is just no winning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389801 well i have come back with results of my latest blood tests - let me say I HAVE NEVER HAD ANY CHOLESTEROL problem - never. <BR> apparently though now it is 'creeping up'. why - well i guess because the medical weight clinic i have gone through - which states LOW CARBS - very very low - has now put me into that position. <BR> i love salad and fruits - berries in particular - tomatoes - apples - but on an extemely low carb regimen - those are not allowed - or very little is. <BR> low fa... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 09:25:08 EST ridiculous surveys - even more ludicrous results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388212 anyone in their right mind knows if you are distracted from your main focus you will not perform well at either . <BR> having said that - all these HORRIBLY expensive STUDIES that tell us what we already know are pathetic. <BR> everyone knows that driving a vehicle commands FULL attention. no daydreaming, no conversations - especially serious ones - neither with a passenger, or your hand held 'DEVICE' ( its a phone stupid) or HANDS FREE - (again - it is a phone) . <BR> no blue tooth - no ... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 16:18:21 EST WONDERING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381571 a square has four sides, <BR> a triangle three - <BR> but how many sides <BR> are there to me? <BR> <BR> i stare at a face <BR> staring back in the mirror <BR> this person's a stranger <BR> living a night mare; <BR> <BR> how does this happen <BR> something so precious <BR> to lose your own identity <BR> and never feel free <BR> <BR> how long will this last <BR> the future just like the past <BR> when does the peace and God's kingdom arrive <BR> take me by the hand please - show me the way ... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 14:26:40 EST no one wants the fat kid!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376748 it has been said that the one last prejudice seemingly acceptable in our society is against FAT people - indeed there is even an onslaught of products and prejudicial remarks against FAT PETS. oh yes - there is always - 'IT IS A HEALTH THING' and of course that is a component of why the persons or pets' owners take action to try and improve things. BUT REALLY NO - some corporations who make millions are 'grateful' for us overweights, people who like to ridicule and insult are very thankf... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 12:32:11 EST the smarter we get, ------ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369152 the more we lose the war. <BR> in reading today's insider feature about knee and joint pain - it strikes me for all of our knowledge on kinesiology, physiology, drugs, diet, and exercise in general - there are more of us suffering from maladies that have no cure. we are at the mercy of the foods that are 'developed' for us to eat - (not Mother Nature's wisdom but MONSANTO as an example), GMO's - FRANKENFOODS - we are not even aware because the game keeps changing. <BR> i grow what i ca... Mon, 27 May 2013 10:08:53 EST failing tests http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350306 this month so far has been perplexing - i don't want to repeat the usual frustrating, maddening, insane - etc. <BR> again the MATH does not work with the calories in/out theory. over the last two weeks i have been under more back breaking stress imaginable. as a result - i have been thru another bladder infection, fibro flare up and digestive troubles. i also lost my appetite and because of meds i have a lousy taste in my mouth. <BR> but i make sure to hydrate as best i can. <BR> i have ... Wed, 8 May 2013 21:07:39 EST controlled chaos - an oxymoron? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339897 no not really - look at my day - <BR> <BR> wake up <em>24</em> - what do i have to do today <BR> <BR> check my list - <em>246</em> - this is the same as last week with one thing done <BR> <BR> feed the pugs - <em>338</em> - and from then on - all bets are off! <BR> <BR> <em>223</em> -try to check in for sure. <BR> <BR> <em>253</em> Mon, 29 Apr 2013 19:28:09 EST disturbing one's personal space --- http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334347 i never realized how many people in my life are 'pot stirrers' - like to dish the dirt etc. <BR> i always try to take comments in a good light - but as i have gotten older i see many times i was actually being 'centered out', insulted, belittled etc. wow, how stupid i am. <BR> in a way it is a blessing - or i may have never spoken to them again - but now i will have to stand up for myself when this occurs. <BR> here are some examples - at many family events - both casual and formal - i hav... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 16:07:18 EST WEIGHT WATCHERS CREATES CONFUSION http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327862 i know there are going to be hundreds who have been on WW and love it. even been successful - perhaps a lifetime member - and that is fantastic. <BR> i even have family members who have lost weight with this program. HOWEVER- <BR> i have a close relative i am trying to help lose over 200 pounds. He has been on WW and assigned a number of POINTS - according to his present weight. <BR> the trouble i have with this 'point' system is that many fruits and veggies are ZERO POINTS. foods su... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 17:36:33 EST not allowed to be authentic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322811 <em>475</em> what i would like to eat <BR> <em>474</em> what i choose to eat instead <BR> <BR> <em>29</em> the face underneath <BR> <em>100</em> the face i show to the world <BR> <BR> <em>344</em> i used to be this - <BR> don't have a picture for what i am now. <BR> <BR> it is hard to just be when we live in this world. <BR> <BR> always try to be who you really are - continue this from childhood - we are all REAL when we are kids! but soon we are manipulated into being ... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 12:55:31 EST MAMMA MIA HOW THINGS CHANGE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272957 and boy - not all laughs either!! <BR> i was thinking today as i went to pick up some Rx's at the pharmacy - years ago it was easy to spend $50.00 in there - lipstick , perfume and skin creams. the latest bonus buy with free gift - some yummy chocolate maybe. - <BR> <BR> of course i still buy vitamins and shampoo - but now all the BEAUTIFYING products have morphed into digestive aids, gastrointestinal remedies YUCK YUCK YUCK!!! <BR> my bag today was a commercial for 'the tummy rumbl... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 15:33:59 EST