BRIGHTSIDEOFME's SparkPeople Blog BRIGHTSIDEOFME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Sore is the new sexy Thursday Bootcamp class: I almost puked <BR> Friday Bootcamp class: I broke down crying at the end <BR> <BR> The boyfriend believes I watched to many weight loss shows but I did feel very very emotional. I was sore and weak and felt like I just could not do it and our group trainer kept telling me not to give up, why was I giving up, and no pain no gain. I got mad at myself and frustrated and at the end of the class, trying to do 100 mountain climbers just seemed impossible. Not sure if I fi... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 16:36:53 EST The ease of weight gain Today's weight: 138.8 <BR> <BR> On january 4th, I said let's just start over and I never did... <BR> Oops... <BR> In 9 months, I have gained 7 pounds. <BR> Not the end of the world but I do wish I could say I had lost 7 pounds. <BR> 7 pounds is an extra 24,500 calories. <BR> That's a lot but I am honestly not surprised. <BR> I am also somewhat happy because in the past, I was a binger. And 7 pound gain could probably happen in 10 days. An extra 2,000 calories a day wasn't uncommon. Look at t... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 12:59:12 EST Let's just start over. I am so out of it. <BR> No exercising. Very inconsistent tracking. <BR> Need to get back to the way I was. <BR> <BR> Today, I weighed in at 132.8 although I am probably dehydrated (slept in) and weighed 134 yesterday. <BR> Only a 6 pound gain from my lowest but wow, what a difference 6 pounds make. <BR> <BR> I will stop focussing on how I screwed everything up and forgive myself and start fresh. <BR> No energy at the moment to figure out a plan. Going to go buy myself a coffee and get out f... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 12:43:46 EST Today's inspiration <img src=""> Fri, 14 Dec 2012 12:00:54 EST Feeling good today =] <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In a few days, I am going to spend one whole week with family. Family (mostly father) that never thought I could or would. And I know he will probably say that I could lose some more or not say a thing. I hope he notices. I hope I did enough. And if not, I don't care. I like how I feel and I am going to keep going and never stop. I may have started this for other people, for some sort of recognition but I do this f... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 21:22:42 EST Slowly quitting diet mountain dew I am addicted to diet mountain dew and after this weekend, I am quitting cold turkey. I am going to try just drinking water today but since I am going out tomorrow night, I rather drink the diet soda with alcohol then consuming too many calories. Although maybe I can find some diet cranberry juice? Any other suggestions for no calorie mixers? Fri, 7 Dec 2012 12:32:16 EST I am so impatient Back down to 128. Sadly, a few months ago, I did see 124. However, I am so proud of myself for recommitting after my break from spark and tracking and the gym. <BR> <BR> I have quit my job. I am refocussing on school. I am going to the gym almost daily. I have been tracking religiously as well :) <BR> <BR> On the 17th, I am going to florida for a week to visit my family and I was really hoping to be closer to 120 but all I can do is my best and 120 is probably unreasonable. That would be 8 ... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 20:41:29 EST My unrealistic expectations... First of all, let me say that I missed Spark so much. <BR> I feel a little lost at the moment. <BR> <BR> I just spent 4 wonderful days in Chicago. We went out to eat but I was so careful with portions and choices and as far as my overestimates go, I was within my calories and points. I also walked A LOT. I went shopping (although all I did was just try on clothes I couldn't afford and get really excited about the smaller sizes :)). I even went to the gym and the pool. I worked out a total of... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 12:52:20 EST Weigh in #13 Down 3.6 pounds this week! <BR> I now weigh 132.2 !! <BR> That is insane. <BR> That's a 1.2 pound average for the last 2 weeks =] I am so happy I haven't hit that dreadful plateau. <BR> I want to see those 120s soon! <BR> 120s, wow. I do doubt sometimes that I will ever get there. I don't ever remember seeing the 120s on a scale! I do remember weighing around 140 when I was only 13 though. I am skinnier than I was as a pre teen. That is so strange to me. <BR> <BR> Food wise, this week was... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 21:54:13 EST Weigh in #12: my only gain Ugh. <BR> I gained 0.2 pounds this week bringing me to 135.8 <BR> I am less upset than I expected. It is only 0.2 pounds :) <BR> But.... I did have a goal of losing every week .... <BR> <BR> Anyway, this week was off. I ate on plan (sorta). Did not exercise (except for 40 minutes of low energy gym time). Felt like hiding from life and spark. <BR> I ate within my points everyday except for saturday and sunday. Bar and buffet. I ate all my weeklies. Technically, weight watchers says you shou... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 20:24:53 EST Weigh in #11 Time just flies by. <BR> It terrifies me. <BR> I am so proud for staying on plan for this long. For not slipping. I am not on a diet so I don't even feel like I am putting THAT much effort in. I eat whatever I want but in small portions. I don't feel deprived at all (except when PMS ing :)). I love love love WW. I need to focus on fitness though, start a real bootcamp style workout. I need to get stronger and tone this smaller body :) <BR> <BR> I weighed in at 135.4 on tuesday. Only 3 pounds... Thu, 31 May 2012 10:39:57 EST Weigh in #10 Down 0.6 pounds <BR> <BR> YAy for not gaining! At least it's in the right direction. <BR> <BR> Recovering from T.O.M. Wow, what a rough few days for me when it comes to cravings/crankiness. I can't believe how much my hormones really affected my mood. I feel like a drama queen (and probably am a little) but it was really tough. My weigh in is probably not very accurate (hopefully) since I am probably still holding on to water, <BR> Ate a little more today than my usual but I have been feeli... Tue, 22 May 2012 19:10:12 EST Weigh in #9! Weigh in #9! <BR> I cannot believe this is week 9 of weight watchers. It's been 8 weeks since I committed to do this. And I have done amazingly well. <BR> This week: -2 pounds! <BR> <BR> I cannot believe it sometimes. <BR> I am more than half way to my "goal" weight. <BR> I have lost a total of 21 pounds. <BR> Is my scale lying? Is the WW scale rigged? Am I just losing all muscle?? <BR> Really, I cannot believe it. When I write down my weight, or think about it, I always think !4*... BUT NO,... Thu, 17 May 2012 22:26:01 EST Busy Birthday and Mother's day weekend Birthday weekends in the past have been an excuse to overindulge.... <BR> <BR> I did overindulge this weekend. More than I planned on. <BR> I really didn't want to so that I would be able to reach my weekly weight loss goals but.... <BR> This is a lifestyle change right? <BR> And who shouldn't eat something they love on their birthday. <BR> I probably should have stuck to one cheat meal but instead... <BR> There was biggby frappucino type drink (but I got a light)... There was sushi (tempur... Sun, 13 May 2012 21:59:17 EST WW HOW TO MASTER MOTIVATION WORKSHEET So at my last meeting on tuesday, we received a little worksheet to fill out on how to master motivation... <BR> Since the last meeting, I have gained 1 pound. Why? I don't know. Well, I do. Starting to get frustrated. Doing everything right and seeing the scale slowly creep up or stay the same day by day.. Ok, it's only been 3 days... I know... But I remember this from last time... And 2days of creeping up/maintaining when being perfect turns into 4/6/8 days and I start getting frustrated, e... Thu, 10 May 2012 22:33:45 EST Weigh in and c25k Weigh in today =] <BR> down 2 pounds <BR> Down 19 pounds overall <BR> <BR> Gym today <BR> c25k <BR> week 4 day 1... <BR> I did one run without stopping for the whole 5 minutes but couldn't do the last 5 minute run... <BR> But I do realize how far I've come in only 3 weeks! Just need to keep pusshing myself and I will one day be able to run 5 minutes straight as a warmup haha. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone's day went well! <BR> Mine was fantastic. <BR> Oh, and I also had ice cream (coldstone) and ... Tue, 8 May 2012 23:32:19 EST Lesson of the daY: Never go to Planet Fitness on a Monday after 3pm I was going to do w3d3 today of c25k. I had to motivate myself, slowly put on workout clothes and get my bag ready. I waited for the bf to get home from work so we could go together (I have been sneaking off by myself without him lately and he felt left out :))... <BR> <BR> Anyway, I went ... <BR> BUT I was not able to get a treadmill.... <BR> UGH. <BR> Every elliptical, treadmill and leg swingy thing was taken. A million people waiting in line and people signing up... <BR> <BR> So I thoug... Mon, 7 May 2012 19:37:57 EST Rollerblading I went rollerblading today! <BR> It was very fun. Chatted the whole time with my best girl friend. I broke a sweat which means it can count as my workout right? <BR> <BR> Gym tomorrow for w3d3 of c25k. <BR> <BR> Weight watchers tuesday. Hoping to lose 2 pounds. I'm down 1.2 according to my scale but it is not very accurate/ does not predict what ww's scale will say. Would love to lose 3 and be 20 pounds down although that seems improbable. <BR> <BR> I will have to find a way to go rollerb... Sun, 6 May 2012 19:15:27 EST Rewards I love presents. Who doesn't? But I have never rewarded myself for weight loss/a healthy lifestyle change believing that the final result is the greatest reward of all. But maybe small presents to myself will keep me going :) <BR> <BR> Scale rewards: <BR> -140- Get my hair done for my birthday (05/14) <BR> -138- New workout shirt <BR> -136- Buy a new belly button ring <BR> -134- Get my first pedicure) <BR> (I am in the 130s yay.More than 1/2 way to my goal) <BR> - 132- Go to the c... Thu, 3 May 2012 21:20:13 EST You can never regret going to the gym It took a lot of motivation to go to the gym but having it as a goal on spark, on my schedule and knowing that if I didn't go it would break my streak really helped. <BR> <BR> Today was w3d2 and it was hard yet easy. When it was done I thought it wasn't too bad. During, however, the 2nd 3 minute run was very difficult to finish. I even started running a few seconds after it said "run" and slowed way down a few seconds before it said "walk" so in reality, it was probably 2 minutes and 45 seco... Wed, 2 May 2012 22:38:46 EST Weigh in and a whole pint of ice-cream Warning. I am probably just going to ramble... But I feel like unloading... So here I go. <BR> <BR> Today, work sucked more than usual. We were incredibly busy (I work in a pharmacy). The good news is my feet hurt so hopefully that means I burned more calories than usual. <BR> <BR> I missed my weight watchers meeting because of work but still went and weighed in this morning. <BR> <BR> And........... Down 2 pounds :) <BR> <BR> For a grand total of 17 <BR> Which also means I got to my 10... Tue, 1 May 2012 23:14:36 EST Read This :)<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=4859211 Tue, 1 May 2012 11:01:23 EST My weight watcher progress so far March 18th: 160 <BR> March 25th: 156 ( -4 ) <BR> Apr 1: 151.8 (-4.2 ) <BR> Apr 8: 149.4 ( -2.4 ) <BR> Apr 15: 146.6 ( -2.8 ) <BR> Apr 22: 145 ( -1.6) <BR> <BR> Total so far: - 15 =) Fri, 27 Apr 2012 16:22:30 EST My first Blog entry This is my first blog entry and I have no idea what I am doing/ why I am doing it. <BR> How do you rotate your pics?? <BR> It took me 5 minutes to figure out how to actually blog ... and I don't know what I plan on saying.... <BR> <BR> I will start by saying that I have always been chubby/overweight/almost obese and on all kinds of diets. South Beach, Atkins, Dukan diet, stimulants, protein shakes, grapefruit and the list goes on. <BR> <BR> For years, I pretended my weight didn't bother me.... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 16:09:46 EST